#Notes of an Execution
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I love talking with neurotypical people about my executive dysfunction because I'm like "yeah there's this invisible wall in my head that I'm incapable of getting past no matter what I do and it stops me from doing things" and they're like what the actual fuck
Meanwhile other neurodivergents are like

100K notes
·
View notes
Text

Ăber Serienkiller schreiben, ohne ĂŒber Serienkiller zu schreiben
Notes on an Execution von Danya Kukafka, erstmals 2022 bei William Morrow erschienen. Auf Deutsch unter dem Titel Notizen zu einer Hinrichtung bei Blumenbar erhÀltlich.
Auf den ersten Blick erzĂ€hlt Notes on an Execution die Geschichte eines Mörders namens Ansel, der im Todestrakt sitzt und kurz vor seiner Hinrichtung steht, doch schon im zweiten Kapitel wechselt die Perspektive zu einer SiebzehnjĂ€hrigen, die in einer Scheune ein Kind gebĂ€rt und es Ansel nennt. Durch sie und zwei weitere Frauenperspektive erhalten wir BruchstĂŒcke aus Ansels Vergangenheit, lernen aber vor allem mehr ĂŒber drei Frauen, deren Leben Ansel auf verschiedene Arten beeinflusst hat. Es geht um seine Mutter Lavender, die die Traumata ihrer Jugend ihr Leben lang mit sich rumtrĂ€gt, um die Komissarin Saffy, die Ansel auf der Spur ist, sich aber auch mit Diskriminierung am Arbeitsplatz auseinandersetzen muss, und um Hazel, die Schwester seiner Freundin Jenny, die ihre Schwester ĂŒber alles liebt, aber eine gewisse Eifersucht nie ganz abschĂŒtteln kann.
Drei Frauen trotzen ihren DĂ€monen
Danya Kukafkas Roman hat mich spĂ€testens im zweiten Kapitel komplett in seinen Bann gezogen. In Lesepausen sind meine Gedanken immer wieder zum Roman und seinem hypnotisierenden Schreibstil zurĂŒckgekehrt. Obwohl ja vom ersten Kapitel an klar ist, dass Ansel festgenommen und verurteilt wurde, bleibt es spannend, denn wir wissen noch nicht, wie und wann er gefasst wurde, wir wissen nicht, ob Jenny noch am Leben ist, wissen nicht wer diese Blue ist, die er immer wieder erwĂ€hnt und befĂŒrchten sogar ein wenig, dass er seiner Strafe in letzter Sekunde doch noch entkommen könnte. Erst nach und nach erfahren wir durch die wechselnden Perspektiven und die sich annĂ€hernden Zeitebenen mehr, manchmal nur durch unauffĂ€llig eingeschobene SĂ€tze, die mir GĂ€nsehaut bereitet haben, weil sie das groĂe Ganze plötzlich schockierend komplettieren.
Doch wie gesagt, in diesem Roman geht es nicht in erster Linie um Ansel, sondern um drei Frauen, deren Leben er gestreift hat. In Lavenders Kapiteln erfahren wir einerseits mehr ĂŒber Ansels frĂŒhe Kindheitsjahre, andererseits ist es die Geschichte einer jungen Frau, die versucht, hĂ€uslicher Gewalt zu entfliehen und nach dem Verlust ihrer Kinder irgendwie ihren Frieden zu finden. In Saffys Perspektive lesen wir zwar auch mehr ĂŒber Ansels Taten und die Polizeiarbeit, die zu seiner Festnahme gefĂŒhrt hat, wir lernen aber in erster Linie etwas ĂŒber das System der Pflegeunterbringung fĂŒr Kinder, ĂŒber Drogenmissbrauch und darĂŒber, wie schwer es fĂŒr eine Frau of mixed race ist, sich gegen weiĂe Kollegen im PolizeibĂŒro durchzusetzen. Hazel, die Schwester von Ansels temporĂ€rer fester Freundin Jenny, erlaubt uns schlieĂlich Einblick in die komplizierte Dynamik zwischen Zwillingsschwestern, in die bedingungslose Liebe und NĂ€he genauso wie in die seltsame Eifersucht und den Drang, sich gegenseitig etwas zu beweisen. Da wirkt es beinahe nebensĂ€chlich, als Jenny eines Tages ihren Collegefreund Ansel mit nach Hause bringt und der Familie vorstellt.
Faszination Serienmörder
Wie bereits angedeutet, tut Notes on an Execution sich damit hervor, dass es sich der Faszination Serienmörder bedient, ohne dem TĂ€ter selbst ĂŒbermĂ€Ăig viel Platz einzurĂ€umen. So morbide sie auch sein mag, die Vorliebe fĂŒr solche Menschen ist unbestreitbar. Geschichten ĂŒber sie sind abstoĂend und spannend zugleich, aber gerade wenn es sich um reale Personen handelt hochproblematisch. Viel sicherer scheint da die Auseinandersetzung mit einem fiktiven KonÂterÂfei. Wenn ich mich fĂŒr Ansel Packer interessiere, schadet das schlieĂlich niemandem. Trotzdem bleibt die Frage, ob so eine fiktive Romantisierung nicht auch auf die RealitĂ€t abfĂ€rbt und die Anziehungskraft realer TĂ€ter weiter anfacht.Â
Kukafka hat diese Problematik in ihrem Roman zweifach clever gelöst. Zum einen kommt Ansel durch den Einsatz der Du-Perspektive in seinen Kapiteln, von der wörtlichen Rede abgesehen, nie selbst zu Wort. So hat er keine Chance, sein âManifestâ zu verbreiten. Zum anderen bekommen in der Geschichte, wie oben beschrieben, die Opfer und Hinterbliebenen den Vortritt. SchlieĂlich sind es ihre Namen, die uns im GedĂ€chtnis bleiben sollten und deshalb gebĂŒhren auch ihnen die abschlieĂenden Zeilen des Romans. Dennoch, und darĂŒber lĂ€sst sich ausschweifend diskutieren, wird Ansel vor allem in Bezug auf seine gesetzlich genehmigte Tötung nicht vollkommen entmenschlicht, so dass auch eine gewisse Kritik an der Todesstrafe selbst im Text mitschwingt, die zum GrĂŒbeln einlĂ€dt.
Fazit
Ein fesselnder Roman, der mich mit seinen unbequemen Fragen, scharfsinnigen Beobachtungen und klugen Worten sowohl wÀhrend des Lesens als auch einige Zeit danach nicht mehr losgelassen hat.
Reading Buddy Wer sich fĂŒr die Schnittstelle True Crime und Gesellschaft interessiert, sollte auch einen Blick auf Rebecca Makkais Roman I Have Some Questions For You werfen. Dort geht es um einen Mordfall, der Jahre spĂ€ter wieder aufgegriffen wird und durch welchen zahlreiche Fragen zu Sexismus, Rassismus und Voyeurismus seziert werden.
1 note
·
View note
Text
Silco SO should've haunted the narrative in s2 I can't stress this enough. Like, we knew Vander, Mylo and Claggor only for 3 episodes, but their presence was felt aaaall throughout s1. And now you're telling me that a PRIMARY ANTAGONIST of s1, a leader of Zaun, Jinx's dad and The person who started the negotiations with Piltover for Zaun's independence only got a couple of mentions?? Which aren't even relevant to the plot or character motivations??? Are you LEGIT FOR REAL kidding me???? I still can't believe this happened chat.
He's literally a part of the main cast. He literally was present in every single episode of s1. And again, given just How Much was tied directly to him his death should've had just. Massive consequences. For almost every single character. And yet.
My honest reaction to this information:
#i'm obv not talking about fights for power in the undercity because they couldn't have possibly skipped through this part. i'm talking about#Literally Everything Else. he should've been there. he should've haunted the narrative like he's still alive.#first and foremost i'm ofc talking about fishbones because. yeah. i'm actually preparing a post about it so *wink*#sigh i'm so angryyyyyyy. not only because i'm a silco fan but because i like good writing and haunting the narrative is one of my favorite#tropes. and it was SO well executed in s1 and i just. what stopped you from doing it again????#and you had a great reference too???? i just don't get i genuinely don't#arcane critical#arcane season 2#silco arcane#silco#arcane#side note: ugh it's so satisfying so use these gifs i can't
1K notes
·
View notes
Text
I haven't talked enough about Two Husbands, One Wife. Because really, what do you say about perfection? It feels like any words I offer cannot do it justice.
I pretty much hold my breath every episode and pray to the show gods that they don't ruin the absolutely beautiful thing they've created.
And so far...as of episode 7...they haven't.
Because every episode has built on the idea that it really takes all THREE of them to make this relationship work. The framing reinforces this with frequent triangle shots (and even triangle dialogue). There must be a connection between all points, and no point is more important than the other. Every person is essential.
Because while Takuzo may be the "responsible" one, he's rigid in his ways.
And while Mia is the realist who easily speaks her mind and expresses what she wants, it can make her very focused on herself.
They already tried it with just the two of them. It didn't work.
And Mia and Shinpei have already tried it with just the two of them too. It doesn't work.
Because they struggle with managing responsibility on their own.
They are willing to do the work, but they need someone to guide them with structure and remind them the laundry exists. I feel that.
And although Shinpei is a free spirit who really brings "joy" to everything he does...
With just Mia, he still feels a bit insecure and not quite good enough.
And with a younger boyfriend that has so many fans, Mia can sometimes feels insecure too.
As the men have developed and taken their relationship further.
Takuzo is able to affirm Shinpei and give him the words he needs to hear.
And Shinpei's earnest and sweet nature is able to break through Takuzo's walls to help him see that his rigidity can have consequences.
His infectious energy pushes Takuzo to go places he wouldn't otherwise and encourages him to try new things.
But both men recognize that they NEED Mia.
She holds them together.
Because she's the one who can express words and speak her mind easily.
Who will make the first move when things get difficult.
And push them to make the necessary decisions.
Because they're a throuple. And no (good) relationship exists without all three of them.
Bonus: There's food symbolism (even more than I mention here). Be still my beating heart.
Mia is gyoza.
Takuzo is curry.
And it's best when the chef (Shinpei) serves both.
#i cannot find the words to express#just how much i adore this show#there is symbolism#there are layers#there are developed characters#there is conflict that is resolved in less than 20 minutes#there is perfect set-up for the next conflict#no notes#just excellent execution thus far#sannin fufu#sannin fuufu#2 husbands 1 wife#two husbands one wife#poly#japanese ql#2h1w
447 notes
·
View notes
Text
I should be doing homework but instead...
(idek if this is popular anymore, I just need motivation tbh)
1 note and I'll go take a shower
25 notes and I'll get off Tumblr and finish my homework.
50 notes and I'll put away my laundry
100 notes and I'll fix my sleep schedule
150 notes and I'll start eating breakfast before school for the rest of the school year
200 notes and I'll tell my parents what I want for my birthday
250 notes and I'll start handing out my resume/applying to jobs [did not get hired anywhere, and I'm gone most of the summer anyways]
300 notes and I'll start running 1 mile every week
350 notes and I'll finish/publish a wip [trans Stephen fic, the public has determined]
400 notes and I'll finish the next chapter of BtSA [posted here]
450 notes and I'll spend 10 minutes a day working on my novel (;-;)
500 notes and I answer my emails
550 notes and I get a pixie cut (I've been wanting a shorter cut for months) [LOOK HERE]
600 notes and I'll fix my Doctor Strange cosplay (and post pictures)
(1000 notes and I'll come out as genderfluid to my therapist, despite how terrifying it is)
(1500 notes and I'll come out to my favorite teacher OR my ally YW leader)
(if, for some reason, and probably with divine intervention, we hit 20,000 notes..... I may consider coming out to my parents and/or my ward friends.)
#notes game#I just need motivation#coming out#genderfluid#homework#eating breakfast#I need to do things#but the executive dysfunction is strong#ADHD#cosplay#doctor stephen strange#Stephen Strange cosplay
2K notes
·
View notes
Note
Vhnemdkjf purble irep! Can we see more fairy irep and anti-fairy peri?
Yup!! During their schooling, where the most amount of swaps happened, the two would end up swapping in more than just color palettes!
Sometimes Peri would get caught scheming and plotting Irep's demise (Revenge for Ruining his Science Project). Or Irep will get caught doing something very nice and wholesome for another Fairy (Helping a new student find their way around school).
Just as Anti Cosmo and Cosmo has a bit of each other's personalities mixed up, Peri and Irep has a bit of an overlap in behaviors, haha. They both love to monologue, for example. The more swaps a pair does, the more mixed they get!
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop peri#peri#fop irep#irep#asks#itty bitties fop au#haha peri scheming is such a funny concept#since irep is terrible at succeeding you'd think this means peri is GREAT at executing plans right?#WRONG#they're both HORRIBLE at it#but while Irep usually fails due to his own oversights and intervention. Peri fails because.. he underestimates Irep's stupidity.#but also they're a bit different in their ways of plotting#irep monologues like a villain giving a triumphant speech#peri monologues like he's trying to sell you something#which. is fine and all! but trying to sell someone their own DOOM is... hrm. it irritates irep a lot.#also. i should. probably make note of this. though we'll get around to it eventually#there ARE consequences to swapping too much or too long.
454 notes
·
View notes
Text
*Vampirizes your Vashwood*
keep reading for more :)
If there needs to be much closer close-up please let me know!
#mandatory vampire au from your one and only#I've always found vampires cool bc of how awesome the whole concept is. from aesthetics to the execution#I ofc made my own interpretation of vampiric traits and what they entail. I rlly rlly love working with vamp lore I swear#For a moment I thought abt making Wolfwood a shapeshifter but it made more sense to me for him to be a half blood#There is SO MUCH MORE behind this that I would love to rant about but idk idk#I don't have a story for this per se. it's more of just a concept really. I didn't think abt nothing more than VAMPIRE#during the whole process LMAOOO but well. I do have more notes for it#Also I really just like blood so like OADKJKDL evident. evident. Howeverâ#I also really like the inherent eroticism that comes with the concept of vampires since forever. One look at Carmilla and you'll know#So ofc I had to put my favorite sillies in this. it was about time.#trigun#vash the stampede#trigun stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#vashwood#trigun fanart#vash#wolfwood#nicholas trigun#lenssi draws#these sketches have been freed from the abandoned wips real after months OISDUFJ#also this could potentially be one of the prettiest WWs I've done to date ngl
550 notes
·
View notes
Text
idk I just kinda thought this was needed
3/2/25: Edited
25 notes - Iâll finish the ref sheet for my webtoon character Done ^-^
50 notes - Iâll finish chapter 3 & 4 of my GO fanfic Working on it ^
100 notes - Iâll try by best to finish my cosplay music video Oh shit thisâll be fun :3 ^
200 notes - Iâll work on my original murder mystery novel
400 notes - Iâll finish my several WIP animatics
500 notes - Iâll finish the first 2-3 chapters of my sanders sides au fanfic
600 notes - (New) Iâll answer any non doxing asks in a timely manner
700 notes - Iâll tell my therapist about my past suicidal thoughts
850 notes - Iâll do a self care day
1k notes (New) - Talk to my mom about cursing
2k notes (New) - Iâll try to get a date ;-;
Spam is allowed
#idk how to tag this#to do list#have fun ig#note goals#note game#i need motivation#executive dysfunction is kicking my ass right now#adhd
382 notes
·
View notes
Text
Cassandra and But Daddy I Love Him being two sides of the same coin
#taylor swift#cassandra#but daddy i love him#the tortured poets department#ttpd#gifs#taylorswiftedit#tswiftedit#tsedit#ttpdedit#ts lyric weaving#useramys12#addys-beth#userjake#tuserella#userdanahscott#tsuserannie#userfarahz#userlindsay#talked about this with jo many times and had the gifset written down in my notes for months it just took so long cause i couldn't decide on#execution but i went with this AND I SWEAR TO GOD if i get another person saying 'um actually that's not the song she's singing in that#footage' i'm gonna strangle someone EXCUSE YOU I JUST WANTED IT TO ACTUALLY LOOK GOOD MAKE YOUR OWN GIFSETS#anyway they are thematically intertwined and it's really important to me i could talk forever about this#vipers are vipers whether they're in empath's clothing or not#getting prayers when you don't need them is just as bad as not receiving any prayers when you do need it#whether they're pretending to care about you or making you their enemy people's goal is ultimately to cage you#to keep you from stepping out of line#but daddy i love him is like fuck you you didn't give a shit about me before and i actually preferred that to you pretending to care i'm#gonna burn my OWN life down and get the fuck out of here and never think about any of you ever again (things you'll hear from a rep girlie)#this also works as cassandra being the muse in but daddy i love him
206 notes
·
View notes
Text

Their album drops next week yâall better be ready to hear the bangers of these four mentally ill and traumatised teenagers (Click for better quality because tumblr hates me)
Individual shots (click for details? Idk):




#scheduled post#ninjago#lego ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#ninjago dr#ninjago fanart#cablart#euphrasia ninjago#ninjago euphrasia#euphrasia dragons rising#wyldfyre ninjago#ninjago wyldfyre#dragons rising wyldfyre#sora ninjago#ninjago sora#dragons rising sora#arin ninjago#ninjago arin#dragons rising arin#arin crossroads#lookat me joining truly dead trends from actual years ago#without knowing anything about shading#i did not do the album cover justice methinks#but i do still really like this drawing#also no i know nothing ant gorillaz their positions donât mean anything#on another note. giving sora moles and arin freckles was one of my greatest executive decisions#you can barely see them on arin but trust me they are there#ninjago redraw#gorillaz demon days
780 notes
·
View notes
Text
I was reading a post about CoTG and I realized: Rick has seemingly started to write every character pairing with the exact same dynamic, and he's not good at writing that dynamic and it doesn't make sense for 90% of the characters he writes it for.
It's that very specific dynamic of one half of the pair who is almost aggressive to the other party - "teasing" them constantly/insulting them, affectionately punching/judo flipping/maiming/etc, seemingly almost always exasperated with the other - and said other party usually just accepts this treatment or blanketly views it fondly, and may generally be framed as more incompetent than their partner and a little bit of a doormat (particularly relating to being insulted/teased/etc by their partner).
We start seeing this dynamic in HoO with Percy and Annabeth, as a sort of semi-inconsistent twist on their rivals-to-friends-to-lovers dynamic from the first series. Then the dynamic pattern develops further with Leo and Calypso. Then Magnus and Alex. Then Nico and Will, particularly in TSATS. And now in CoTG, it's Percy and Annabeth again but even more in this direction.
I know people have talked about Nico and Will's relationship over the series rapidly being shoehorned into Percabeth Twoïżœïżœïżœ, and it's extremely apparent in TSATS that Rick's doing it on purpose (including directly quoting Percabeth scenes but minorly tweaking them to be Solangelo). But recognizing it as an overarching trend in Rick's later books honestly reminds me a lot of how Rick started trying to apply the "Percy Formula" so-to-speak to nearly every protagonist in HoO (and then try to replicate similar character archetypes with Magnus and Apollo's narrations - moreso Magnus in being jaded and sarcastic, very much trying to be first series Percy. He only sounds unique because Rick failed at making him Percy 2. Apollo is more akin to later-series Percy characterization of being goofy and incompetent. Apollo [and Zeus] even got retconned to give Apollo a more similar backstory to Percy's). Rick seems to have decided that he thinks the audience wants this specific dynamic but 10 times over, except he's not good at writing it the first time because it's a bastardization of the time he did a different thing okay.
And Rick also seems aware of that too! Because he retconned Calypso and Leo at the end of TOA, probably because he realized how absolutely awful it was reading when they were written with that dynamic of Calypso just functionally hating Leo and constantly being aggressive towards him! The only time Rick's actually made the dynamic even semi-successful was with Magnus and Alex, because it actually fits within their characters, their dynamics with each other, and their environment. Alex beheading Magnus on the regular works out fine because there are no repercussions to that in Valhalla, Magnus will be fine, so it does genuinely come off as humorous. And Alex has been effectively established to be abrasive at times but have her genuine feelings shine through regularly, and that meshes well with Magnus' jaded-and-aloof-but-quietly-very-empathetic character. And Magnus has been established to, yes, not be great at combat, particularly compared to Alex. They are the only time that flavor of dynamic in that form was effective and cohesive.
Percabeth is no longer rivals-to-friends-to-lovers badasses on equal levels with shaky pasts who finally found some form of permanence with one another. Now it's super smart doting and affectionately aggressive girlfriend and her silly goofy 50%-of-the-time incompetent boyfriend who she judo flips/pushes off cliffs/etc - but affectionately~! Solangelo is trying to riff off of the early series "Poseidon & Athena are enemies" dynamic that Percabeth had but with Apollo & Hades being "opposites" but learning to accept each other, except it ends up with Will just coming off as a huge asshole and Nico being retconned to a complete doormat about it - when prior to that those characterizations would be completely contrary to their established characters (even just from TOA!). Calypso in HoO gets retconned from her PJO characterization to being snooty and aggressive, and Leo's false persona gets merged into his just normal personality except he just also becomes a doormat but more goofy than Nico with occasional haha-dark/depression-humor! Which Nico also got. Which was also a bastardized Percy trait that got redistributed.
It's exhausting. Rick write more than one relationship dynamic you can do it I promise
#pjo#riordanverse#percy jackson#tsats#annabeth chase#nico di angelo#will solace#mcga#magnus chase#alex fierro#leo valdez#calypso pjo#analysis#< bwah i feel bad putting that many tags but it is relevant#rr crit#< i guess?#tsats crit#< that one can be here though. the other crit tag is usually for Bad Stuff ergo why i feel weird putting it. this one's just random stuff#i feel like i should tag ships too cause it is an analysis of those ship dynamics in canon but i dont want it to come off as shipbashing :(#eh fuck it i'll ship tag. disclaimer- this is not shipbashing i am just doing analysis of how rick is bad at writing this specific dynamic#i am tagging these ships for relevancy and analysis purposes only. i do not intend to be mean about them re: fanon#fierrochase#percabeth#solangelo#caleo#i do think this is good to note though with writing these dynamics - like rick's intentions vs execution vs consistent characterization#i think you could also argue Carter and Zia exhibit some traits of this dynamic? like an early form of it in Rick's writing perhaps#i havent reread it in awhile though so i will save my thoughts on it for later#long post //#forgive if this post is semi-incomprehensible it was a quick late night rambly thing
750 notes
·
View notes
Text
note that this poll is meant to represent romantic (though not necessarily sexual) ships, not your favorite QPR. If you like, say, Aisha/Alec or Lisa/Taylor as strictly platonic partners, but only in this scenario, then please don't pick it as your favorite ship!
Other less popular taylor ships (like Taylor/Alec) are not included in this poll, I will be posting a second poll with Taylor-specific ships later
make sure to tell me what you think and why you think it!
#poll#worm poll#wormblr#wormposting#worm parahumans#projected winner: Wolfspider#note: aisha has never been a part of any polysiders ship i've ever seen (which is probably a good thing)#not to be overly dramatic (i'm going to be overly dramatic) but doing this poll feels a bit like walking solemnly to my own execution#smugbug is my favorite but it's gonna lose to wolfspider. probably pretty badly.#but The People Have To Know. this is my sacrifice. remember me (my favorite ship is about to lose a poll)#and it's not even an unpopular one! i can only imagine how rebel sqrrl feels--she likes needlepoints. Needlepoints! literally the only one#i tried so hard to gerrymander the poll like âno QPR unless it's smugbug you can vote for smugbug qprâ because i wanted it to win so badly#but that's not fair. The People Have To Know. remember me (my favorite ship is about to lose a poll)#and probably not even that badly. it'll take second place! by a significant margin probably! this is nothing#note that i am only tagging EXPLICITLY canonical relationships (that is relationships DIRECTLY STATED TO HAVE HAPPENED) as canon#so even though aisha/missy is heavily implied to be canonical it is not canon by these standards
213 notes
·
View notes
Text






sebastian vettel: yeah, i'm sure you would have waved me past as well.
#'i didn't dare overtake you' im sick to my stomach. seb was on his tail the whole race urging him to drive faster#so nobody will be able to take nico's victory from him. nobody will be able to say that nico didn't deserve it#what if i said that friendships formed under the same coloured flag and to the sound of the same anthem are the sweetest#despite being younger than him i think at one point seb really did see a lot of himself in nico#the way he defended his championship until the end... sebastian vettel you will always be famous#i've had this one on my mind for a while the execution isnt that great and it's rushed but it needed to be out there idc if it gets 2 notes#sebastian vettel#nico rosberg#sico#f1#formula 1#formula one#formula racing#f1 web weaving#web weaving#web weave#true blue#boygenius
381 notes
·
View notes
Text



Parted from me and never parted. Never and always touching and touched.
#rant incoming#this is the longest i have spent on a piece in . i have genuinely no idea#this started out w me just doing a rough painting of the taâal and then i was like . well damn now i wanna draw jim#and then when i was almost finished jim i was like . ever since i first saw this movie almost 12 years ago i have wanted to do a rendition-#- of this scene . but have never had the artistic skill to execute it how i wanted#so was like fuck it. guess we doing spock now#and then i agonised over logging and details and skin tones and fkn Fingerprints for days if not weeks#anyway all that to say#i put a lot of time and effort into this bc this movie is so dear to me#as are those two#and i am really proud of myself for finally doing this. iâve wanted to for over a decade now . rlly nice personal win 4 me :))#anyway on another note heaven iowa by fob is jimâs song and you can argue with the wall!#ok yapping done time for a stupid amount of tags apologies in advance#star trek aos#aos spirk#aos kirk#aos spock#spirk#star trek#jim kirk#spock#how many tags does jim even have oh god#captain kirk#james t kirk#stid#star trek into darkness#star trek fanart#is there an official trekkie art tag or no i stay relatively out of the community bc i have imposter syndrome#god this is too much text itâs too late for this shit if iâm forgetting something im sorry ok gn hope this doesnât completely flop lol#edit: JUST FOUND OUT VULCANS CANONICALLY HAVE TWO EYELIDS BRO I JUST ADDED THEM BC I THOUGHT IT MADE SENSE FOR THE DESERT KITTY PLSSSSSS
115 notes
·
View notes
Text
Actually going insane over the implications of Jason asking Dick to be the Robin to his Batman in Battle for the Cowl.
Like I initially took it at the purely surface-level of Jason wanting a partner in the general sense. Which made sense, it's a huge responsibility and a lonely one so an assistant/sidekick/partner seems a no-brainer if you can get one.
But then I really thought about it, because Jason is not asking Dick to be his partner in the general sense; he's not even asking Dick to be his Nightwing. He's asking Dick to be his Robin.
And they both know exactly what Jason means: "Be the light to my darkness. Be the smile to my scowl. Be the hope to my fear. "
He's saying "Be 'Robin'; be the embodiment of Love and Justice and Goodness. Be the exceptional person that you have always been. Be the slightly-less exceptional person that I was when I wore your colors. Be the person that I was in the process of becoming and might have been (or might still be), if only Joker hadn't clipped my wings."
He's saying "I am prepared to become vengeance, become the Night. And I will go further than Bruce ever dared to, because it is what is needed. I will be the necessary evil. But you don't have to be. If Batman is Gotham's curse, Robin has always been its blessing. I will be the brutal punishment to our world, and I am asking you to be its incandescent gift."
He's saying, "Be for me, what we were for Him. Be my anchor, my comfort, my hope. Remind me what it's all for, why it's all worth it. And remind yourself as well."
He's saying "Be 'Robin' again--for both of our sakes."
#dick grayson#jason todd#battle for the cowl#jaydick#dickjay#kinda but also not kinda#batman#dcu#otp: be my robin#'we can rule together as just it always should've been with you as my guiding light and conscience'#is that not in essence; a sort of marriage proposal ?#well no but it's not NOT one either if you catch my drift#i should note that i haven't actually read bftc yet and i know it's considered controversial/bad#and considered ooc for pretty much everyone#so i am not even sure if I will like it#but i am still planning on reading it for the jaydick crumbs#and b/c i am using it and knightfall as the primary inspo for my krisnix au#apparently jason does ask tim to be his robin first and that's interesting as well#but honestly a little less powerful/interesting to me at least since jaytim just doesn't interest me as much as jaydick#and honestly i've looked at the panels and it seems a little more genuine when jason asks dick idk#more like 'last chance; i'll let you live if you join me' for tim vs. 'join me because this feels right' for dick#and honestly even with clumsy execution; just the narrative and emotional richness of this scene is still making me absolutely feral#this arc could be complete trash in any and every other way but if it gives me THEMES; i will forgive anything#it's the former english major occupational hazard#*apollo justice voice *: I'M FINE#(narrator voice: she was not in fact fine)
953 notes
·
View notes
Text
spring i
(the poem is oculus by sally wen mao)
#part 2 tomorrow or in 30 minutes. you know how i get.#Ardbert#fanart#speedpaint#i draw sometimes#Final Fantasy XIV#i love when people like. use post it notes to cover up mistakes in sketchbooks and draw over them?#so that's the vibe i was going for#also just playing around with stuff#there's a kind of maximalism that really appeals to me but it's hard for me to execute myself#anyway. if i think about ardbert + hope for more than 3 minutes i will start crying
106 notes
·
View notes