The world is burning, and Jimin's struggling to find meaning in anything, until he meets Namjoon.
Pairing: Jimin x Namjoon
Genre: mem x mem, post nuclear war apocalyptic AU
Rating: 18+
Word count: 7.4k
Warnings: Sex, swearing, mentions of blood, injury, mentions of military, PTSD
Jimin tucks and rolls, the moulded alloy of his droid armour scraping against the tarmac.
The flash of heat and light blinds and deafens him, for a few long moments he’s completely vulnerable to attack.
He blinks, and the world comes back in a rush.
With it, the face of his partner, creased with concern as he leans over him. He taps his visor, and as Jimin says his name, his voice filters through to Jimin’s earpiece.
‘You’re not going to die on me, are you?’ Namjoon asks, his light tone at odds with the way his eyes are fixed on Jimin’s face.
‘Not today, Joon,’ Jimin replies. He accepts Namjoon’s hand, lets Namjoon put his muscles to work hauling him up to his feet.
‘Where’s the kraken?’ Jimin asks.
‘Took care of it,’ Namjoon says, nonchalant.
Jimin rolls his eyes. ‘I set you up for the kill.’
‘You’re good like that,’ Namjoon agrees. He’s quiet a moment, setting his co-ordinates, getting his bearings. Finally, he turns to Jimin.
‘Let’s get back.’
***
Whenever Jimin ventures out of skylock, he finds that more of the world is burning. The nuclear war was two scant years ago but it feels like a lifetime.
The first nuclear explosion took out half of Asia, the second, North America. After that, the world was dying too fast for anyone to keep track.
He’d been on secondment in Algeria, thirty miles west of the first skylock base. He’d been lucky.
He’d made it into skylock hours before the final explosion set the whole world on fire.
The first person he met in skylock was Kim Namjoon, brisk, efficient and decent, even in the face of total devastation. He’d been so overwhelmed by the engineer’s kindness it had taken him a while to notice how attractive he was.
He’s facing away from Jimin now, stripping off his droid suit in the annexe. He’s lean, his shoulders and back corded with muscle.
He turns unexpectedly, brushing his hair out of his eyes. He catches Jimin staring at him.
Jimin does a terrible job of hiding his reaction, startling and dropping his visor on the concrete.
He ducks his head.
He’d been fine facing off against the kraken, one of numerous predators that had mutated out of the nuclear war.
It’s beyond him why he can’t handle himself with one man.
He’s just a man, even if he’s got the body of a Greek god and dimples that make Jimin’s stomach flip.
Jimin realises Namjoon’s talking.
‘Your lip’s bleeding,’ he says.
Jimin presses a finger to his lip. ‘I must have bit it,’ he mutters.
He steps out the rest of his droid suit and lines it up with the others. His hair, usually a shade long and now longer than he’s ever kept it, is matted to his forehead, covering his eyes.
Namjoon says, casual, as they both step into skylock, ‘want to eat together after we report in?’
‘Sure,’ Jimin says.
He keeps forgetting how popular Namjoon is. They’re both by the food arena, about to enter, when they get stopped.
‘Hey Joon, we wanted to catch up about the greenhouse,’ says Miyoung, one of the botanists.
‘Sure,’ Namjoon says, glancing at Jimin. ‘What about ——‘
‘Why don’t you eat with us?’ asks Jae, gesturing.
Jimin smiles at Namjoon. ‘I’ll catch you later, ok?’
He ends up eating alone, taking his tray outside the foodhall to the benches that overlook the large lake in the centre of skylock.
When he’s putting his tray back Namjoon catches up to him.
‘Hey, you should have stayed,’ Namjoon says.
Jimin looks up at Namjoon. ‘Sounds like they wanted your help.’
Namjoon had been an engineer before the world disintegrated, and whilst this skylock was stabilising after the first nuclear bomb, he’d been pivotal in resource planning and a maintenance regime for their skylock’s many moving parts, none of which could be allowed to fail.
The atmosphere outside skylock is pure radiation, rearranging cell lines for fast spreading cancers and worse things Jimin’s never had the stomach to consider.
To top it all off, Namjoon had also been an avid gardener as one of his many hobbies. His encyclopaedic knowledge of botany has come in useful more than once.
In a world that’s been destroyed, Namjoon is valuable in many ways.
Jimin? Not so much.
He’d joined the military out of high school, had kept going whilst he was trying to figure out his life until one day ten years later he’d realised that it was his life.
For Jimin, there’s not much that’s familiar in skylock, the world going to shit has a way of flattening the hierarchy.
Jimin makes himself useful by volunteering for missions venturing out of skylock to gather information, collect items that haven’t been obliterated to allow them to be reverse engineered.
There’s a limit to how many he’s allowed to do though, the medics are strict about it. It’s mainly Min Yoongi, and although Jimin will go toe to toe with anything with a pulse or a current, there’s something that makes him hesitate about challenging Min Yoongi.
The man isn’t physically intimidating but he looks like he wouldn’t hesitate to fight dirty.
Jimin realises Namjoon’s still looking at him.
‘Sorry,’ he says, sheepish, ‘I got distracted.’
Namjoon’s dimple flashes as he smiles, the warmth in his eyes making Jimin’s own skin prickle with heat.
‘I asked if you wanted to visit the underwater channel with me. I need to run some tests on the stucture, and I could use the company.’
‘Yeah,’ Jimin says.
‘Great. Are you free now?’
***
Jimin’s only visited the underwater channel once, he gets claustrophobic after one of the tasks he had to do in the military was crawl along a few hundred feet of underground tunnel and the sides caved in when he was mere yards from sunlight.
He’d survived, physically, but he has recurring nightmares of being trapped, choking on loose rocks and dirt, unable to call for help.
Jimin’s never had the interest to unpick his past traumas, he’s alive and the dreams are few and far between and there’s always been inanimate objects for him to take his grievances out on when he’s needed to.
He’s following Namjoon further into the channel, which thankfully is high enough that even the taller man doesn’t have to stoop. He’s staring at the breadth of Namjoon’s shoulders when Namjoon turns.
Jimin looks away too quickly, too obviously, and facepalms internally.
‘Do you see?’ Namjoon asks, voice low, leaning closer.
Jimin swallows, hopes it’s not obvious that his mouth has gone dry at the handsome engineer’s proximity.
He’s been told a few times how good-looking he is, himself, but he’s never just relied on his looks.
There’s something about Namjoon’s serious demeanour that stops Jimin from sharing the flirty remarks he usually gets by on.
‘Wh-what?’ asks Jimin.
Namjoon points, so close his chest brushes Jimin’s shoulder, and Jimin pleads to whatever god is in charge of this mess for composure because popping a boner right now, in the dark, with Kim Namjoon’s solid chest against him, would just be too much for him to handle.
Jimin would rather toss himself out of skylock and take his chances with the krakens.
‘That,’ Namjoon says.
This time, Jimin looks.
A gold luminous fish slips between the mud and aquatic plants. It gleams even in the low light, and it’s been so long since Jimin saw anything beautiful there’s an odd tightness in his chest.
‘It’s pretty,’ he says, hushed in his awe.
Namjoon looks like he’s about to say something but he just smiles.
‘I’m going to set up my equipment, it’ll probably take twenty minutes. If you get claustrophobic—‘
‘I’ll watch the fish,’ Jimin says. He crouches down next to the closest porthole, face next to the glass.
The bottom of the lake is dark for the most part, but there are lights under the tunnel that illuminate it just enough to see.
Namjoon watches Jimin press his face to the porthole for a moment, then he starts unpacking his things.
Jimin awakens without the sense of rising panic that he usually feels, the uptick of his heart rate that’s so unbearable he usually leaps out of bed.
Instead he’s gradually aware of the low drone of machinery, the unyielding solidity of the ground beneath him, the gooseflesh on his skin from the coolness in the air.
Jimin opens his eyes.
Almost immediately Namjoon’s voice sounds in the dark, the warmth and timbre of it reassuring Jimin further.
‘We’re still in the tunnel. I’m almost done.’
Jimin rubs sleep from his eyes. His voice comes out husky like it does when he’s slept a while.
‘Was I out long?’ he asks.
‘Not long, half an hour,’ Namjoon says.
As Jimin’s eyes adjust to the gloom he sees the outline of Namjoon moving, packing his equipment.
‘Do you —‘ Jimin’s voice cracks. ‘Do you want help?’
‘I’m done,’ Namjoon says. ‘Don’t worry.’
It’s only when they’re back above ground that Namjoon asks, ‘Do you have nightmares?’
Jimin’s instantly self-conscious. ‘Why?’
‘You talk in your sleep,’ Namjoon replies.
‘What did I say?’
‘It sounded like military shorthand,’ Namjoon says, shrugging. He looks at Jimin. ‘I’d have woken you but you settled down.
‘I’m sorry,’ Jimin says. He hesitates. ‘I was only in active combat once, I’m really not that —-‘
‘Once is enough,’ Namjoon says. He puts his hand on Jimin’s shoulder. ‘You don’t have to talk about it. I didn’t mean it critically, I was curious.’
For some reason, Jimin can’t stand the thought that Namjoon might think he’s traumatised or damaged in any way. He’s thinking of something to say that doesn’t sound defensive when Namjoon takes his hand away.
‘Side note, you look cute when you’re sleeping,’ Namjoon says.
Jimin’s instantly ascatter. He stares at Namjoon, but Namjoon’s already walking away.
***
‘Yes, yes, Jungkook!’
Jimin waits outside Jungkook’s pod, trying not to look like he’s some sort of voyeur as Jungkook apparently fucks the living daylights out of some chick.
Ah shit, it’s Miyoung the botanist.
She emerges disheveled from Jungkook’s pod, bows demurely in Jimin’s general direction and hurries away.
Her shift is still tucked into her panties but Jimin doesn’t want to be the one to mention it and judging by the glow on her face, she probably wouldn’t care anyway.
A moment later Jungkook emerges, shirtless, his hair a mess.
‘You couldn’t save the fucking until after?’ Jimin asks, raising an eyebrow.
Jungkook snorts. ‘What after? You mean when we all die on our radiation ravaged remnant of a planet?’
The kid’s got a point.
Jungkook’s not done.
‘Maybe if you got laid once in a while you’d be less tightly wound,’ Jungkook advises.
He takes the walkie-talkie Jimin’s holding out to him, tattooed arm a stark contrast to the plain beige of his jumpsuit.
Jimin rolls his eyes. Jungkook’s a cocky little shit, and why wouldn’t he be?
There weren’t many people who looked like him in the world before it all went to shit, much less in a skylock with barely six thousand people.
Add to that a devil may care attitude and an uncanny ability to look hot in skylock-issued beige, and Jungkook’s got it made.
Jimin would be tempted himself, if the kid wasn’t so aggressively hetero.
Once a week he and Jungkook patrol the perimeter of their section of skylock, looking for breaches, gathering information about new creatures and wildlife outside the dome to share with the scientists.
It’s a two day job usually, although lately they’ve been having to cover more and more ground as patrol teams are gradually dwindling.
People are dying in their skylock, sometimes at their own hands.
Hope springs eternal but not in the presence of total destruction. People have given up on looking for a savior.
Which is why Jimin’s tone softens as he asks, ‘Want an energy bar?’
For all his faults, Jungkook’s so fiercely, vitally alive that Jimin finds it hard to be apathetic around him.
Jungkook accepts.
After a moment he says, ‘I’ve had a couple people ask me about you, you know.’
Jimin concentrates on a mound of rubble just outside of the perimeter of the dome. Is it bigger than it was?
He says, unencouraging, ‘Yeah?’
Jungkook’s got the log out, starting to fill it in. ‘Yeah. I said you have a type.’
‘And what would that be?’
‘Dimples,’ Jungkook says, so innocently Jimin has to laugh.
‘Shut up, you asshole.’
Jungkook laughs.
‘If we weren’t stuck in this skylock there’s no way I’d ever hang out with a little shit like you,’ Jimin says, but there’s affection in his tone.
‘Please,’ scoffs Jungkook. ‘You’re littler than me.’
Jimin laughs and takes the log out of Jungkook’s hands.
‘Give that to me, Kailash said he could barely read your writing last time.’
Jungkook shrugs. ‘Who gives a shit what I write? We’re all dying, just slow.’
Jimin pointedly crosses off the panda that Jungkook’s drawn in lieu of an observation.
‘There are other skylocks. We just need to get to them,’ Jimin says, quietly.
‘More people, just what this dying planet needs,’ Jungkook retorts.
Jimin says, ‘The nuclear explosions didn’t touch the poles.’
Jungkook tilts his head back, towards the radioactive orange glow from the atmosphere.
For a second Jimin has a glimpse of Jungkook how he would have looked before the world fell apart, sun on his face, grass around him, and it’s so unbearably tragic he has to look away.
For all that there are barely two years between them, Jungkook’s so young sometimes Jimin feels like there are lifetimes between them.
Jungkook blinks, and the cynicism etched in his young skin falls away.
‘I like penguins,’ Jungkook declares, eyes bright.
The absurdity of it makes Jimin laugh again, what else is there?
***
Jimin’s running along the lake, trying to burn off the fatigue he feels from another sleepless night.
There’s a noise behind him, and he whirls because he’s always hated being followed.
It reminds him of being hunted.
‘Sorry,’ says Namjoon.
He’s stayed a reasonable distance away, as though he’d known Jimin’s a hair trigger away from—
From what?
Jimin doesn’t know. It’s been a while since his last mission, and he can feel tension building inside him again.
Fuck Min Yoongi, Jimin has to get on another mission outside skylock, and soon.
The turmoil inside him needs an out, and what better way than to take it out on a creature that would otherwise kill him?
Kill or be killed are better options than dying inside, although Jimin’s tempted by Jungkook’s approach of fucking everything that moves.
Jimin realises Namjoon’s still looking to him for a response.
‘It’s ok,’ Jimin says. He swipes a hand over his face. ‘How are you?’
‘Been better,’ Namjoon says, quietly.
He gestures, and they start running together.
Jimin finds he has to put effort in to match Namjoon’s longer strides, and although the taller man looks elegant when he’s standing still, when he’s loping along at pace he has a discoordination to his movements that’s sort of….
Goofy.
Jimin smothers his smile as Namjoon nearly trips over a tree root.
‘You ok?’ he asks, touching Namjoon’s arm.
Namjoon gives him an embarrassed smile. ‘I can be a little clumsy.’
Jimin smiles back. ‘Thank god, I was worried you were perfect.’
Namjoon gives an incredulous snort. ‘Perfect?’
Jimin thinks of Jungkook and is emboldened to double down.
‘Yeah,’ he says. ‘You’re pretty impressive.’
Namjoon’s smile is shy, dimples stamped into his cheeks. ‘I think you’re kind of cool too, you know.’
Now it’s Jimin’s turn to be embarrassed, but Namjoon’s brown eyes are warm and he seems perfectly sincere, so he responds in kind.
‘Thank you.’
They’ve gone almost full circle now.
Namjoon looks like he’s about to speak when the siren blares.
It’s an assembly.
***
Jimin shifts restlessly from his vantage point near the raised dais. Namjoon, next to him, says uneasily, ‘I think I know what this is about.’
Jimin thinks back to the underwater channel.
Their skylock is run like a civilisation of sorts, there’s a collective of committees who are responsible for running various essential areas, the leaders of which form the Council.
Water and food supplies.
Air purification.
Defense.
Health.
Joseph Poon, leader of the Council, a Chinese military strategist who proved his brilliance time and again in the early days of skylock, starts the assembly.
He lays out the problem with his usual crisp brevity.
‘Our skylock was never meant to sustain this large a population for this long. Although the intelligence and tech gained from missions has helped, we of the Council are of the belief that the time has come for difficult decisions to be made.’
Beside Jimin, Namjoon murmurs, ‘The tunnels.’
Jimin has an uneasy vision of the tunnel that collapsed on him. He wills the unwanted image out of his head.
‘We’re going to need to seek alternative means of shelter and survival. The world atmosphere remains hostile to human life, but—-‘
Joseph looks grave.
‘But, from what we know, the nuclear bombs weren’t detonated at the Poles. We of the Council feel that the only chance of survival of the many is to create a path to the Arctic circle.’
There’s murmurings, raised voices. Jimin looks to Namjoon for verification, and immediately knows that this information isn’t new to him.
Namjoon puts his hand on Jimin’s arm. Jimin hadn’t realised it, but he’s been clenching his fists so tightly he’s drawn blood. Crescents of crimson bloom on his palms when he releases.
‘We can die hiding or we can die trying to forge a future for humankind.’
Jimin knows which option he’d pick.
‘We’re going to select a team to venture out to get the tech we need to join our underwater channel to the tunnels of the Nordic skylock.’
Joseph looks grim. ‘Hopefully the Nordic skylock has realised the same as us and have already started extending their underground bases Northward.’
There’s a flurry of discussion, shouted questions, but Jimin’s stopped listening.
All he sees is a course of action and orders he can get behind. There’s a reason he thrived in the military, after all.
***
Jimin’s suited up in droid armour, checking for breaches in the protective cladding of his suit.
Beside him, Namjoon’s doing the same.
It’s two days since the assembly. Jimin had walked straight up to the Council after and volunteered himself for the first mission.
And all missions thereafter but he hadn’t declared that openly because Min Yoongi had also been present.
Min Yoongi had pointedly switched out Jimin’s radiation counter for a second one, trading a full line of bars for a clean slate. Two counters were all one was allowed before enforced sabbatical.
Jimin doesn’t intend to go on sabbatical. He’d rather….
Rather what?
Jimin’s worried that death won’t provide the relief he seeks. Worse, he’s worried that for all his bravado he doesn’t really want to die.
Namjoon motions for Jimin to turn so he can check his armour. He hands Jimin his helmet with its visor, his respirator.
Jimin snaps his helmet into place, depresses the tiny button beside his jaw.
Namjoon’s voice fills his in-ears.
‘Remember, we get into the digger and we head straight back. No fighting, even if we run into kraken.’
They’re heading to a farm three miles west of skylock, to see if they can acquire equipment that might aid in constructing the tunnels.
Jimin watches as Namjoon checks his video camera and deioniser, and when the engineer gives him a thumbs up, he hoists the backpack of their supplies onto his shoulders and checks the clip on his yag laser.
Namjoon punches in the eight-figure code to exit skylock and they’re off.
As always, it’s eerie venturing out beyond the confines of skylock.
The air is still, stagnant, and there’s a thin heat in the atmosphere that feels like standing outside an oven set to high.
There’s distant screeching, occasional growling, none of the birdsong Jimin’s used to.
The worst was when he and Namjoon ventured towards the sea on a previous mission. The scores of dead fish and the odd dolphin washed up on the red shores, silent, unblinking, haunt him to this day.
Jimin’s always loved the beach and now he can’t imagine the ocean how it was before without feeling uneasy.
He and Namjoon keep close together, each on high alert.
Namjoon’s voice crackles through. ‘I never get used to it.’
‘It’s worse every time,’ Jimin agrees.
‘I used to like hiking,’ Namjoon says. There’s sadness in his voice that Jimin’s not used to hearing.
‘What do you think of the Council’s plan?’ Jimin asks.
They’ve settled into a steady rhythm now, easing past the tension that sees them off whenever they start a mission.
Namjoon says, ‘It’s a long shot.’
Jimin agrees. ‘I guess it’s better than staying put and waiting to die.’
Namjoon turns to him. ‘You’re a realist.’
Jimim shrugs. ‘Aren’t you?’
‘I have hope,’ Namjoon says, so simply Jimin can hear the honesty in his words.
Jimin can’t see Namjoon’s face at all through the visor and respirator but he gets the sense that he’s smiling.
‘It’s easier to talk to you like this,’ Namjoon says. ‘When I’m not distracted by your pretty face.’
Jimin’s trying to think of a good comeback when Namjoon says, ‘Sorry, that was inappropriate.’
‘Are you flirting with me?’ Jimin asks, finding his voice.
‘Trying to,’ Namjoon replies.
‘You couldn’t have done it in skylock? When we’re not masked up and in danger of being attacked by mutant creatures?’
Namjoon laughs. ‘Are you complaining?’
‘Yes,’ Jimin says, but he’s smiling under his visor.
Namjoon says, ‘I did ask you to go to the underwater channel with me.’
‘Was that….. your idea of a date,’ Jimin wonders.
Namjoon laughs. ‘There are limited options,’ he points out.
‘At least you tried a date and didn’t just skip to the fucking like Jungkook,’ Jimin says.
Namjoon says, droll, ‘I’m a gentleman.’
Jimin laughs. ‘We can try again when we get back,’ he suggests.
‘I’d like that,’ Namjoon replies.
‘Me too.’
Jimin realises he means it.
***
Jimin’s got a prickly feeling in the back of his neck but he can’t work out why.
He and Namjoon arrived at the farm uneventfully and were able to get the information they needed from an excavator that had been stored in a barn, untouched by the extreme atmospheric changes.
There had been a kraken lurking around the peripheries which hadn’t detected them, and they’d been able to leave without being attacked.
Now they’re less than half a mile away from skylock, making good time, and he’s got the oddest sensation that they’re being watched.
It wouldn’t be the first time.
Jimin’s yag laser is drawn, finger on the trigger guard, and beside him, Namjoon’s been uncharacteristically subdued.
Then Namjoon says, ‘You feel it too, don’t you. Something’s watching us.’
‘It’s close,’ Jimin says, clipped.
The hair’s rising on the back of his neck now, the tension ratcheted up so high he could scream.
He whirls, and Namjoon moves to protect his back.
There’s nothing, but his sense of unease deepens.
‘Can you run the rest of the way,’ Jimin asks, quietly.
‘Yeah. Say when,’ Namjoon says, tersely.
‘Now.’
Jimin starts running.
They’re within sight of the annexe when Namjoon says, wonderingly, ‘Holy fuck.’
There’s someone else in droid armour between them and the annexe, but it’s wrong.
It’s all wrong, because only two people venture out of skylock at any one time.
It’s all wrong, because the droid armour doesn’t belong to their skylock.
Jimin’s already raising his yag laser when the other person raises their own weapon.
Jimin recognises it immediately. There hadn’t been many people on Earth before the nuclear war who’d faced down an AK-57g and survived to tell the tale.
Jimin could list out the specs but the crux of the matter is that no one faced down an AK-57g and survived because it didn’t just annihilate —- it vapourised.
Jimin had been one of the lucky ones, and he doubts he’d be so lucky as to survive it twice.
He fires off a shot, aiming at the centre of the breastplate, and immediately puts himself between Namjoon and the enemy.
‘Get into the annexe,’ he shouts.
Namjoon’s shouting something back, but Jimin’s focus is narrowed down to the man who’s trying to kill them both.
He fires off another shot, this time aiming for another kill shot.
There’s the hiss and screech of rubber and metal.
In his periphery he can see Namjoon at the entrance to the annexe, and just beyond it, Jungkook, armed to the teeth and hastily donning his droid armour, ready to step in.
The kid’s brave as fuck but he’s too late.
Jimin’s got no cover, just a burning desire to get his ass out of the trajectory of the AK-57g before it gets handed to him.
He’s three feet from the entrance to the annexe when he hears the low drumming of the AK-57g.
Jimin wonders, idly, how much force droid armour can withstand.
He wonders if he’ll ever find out.
At least Namjoon got back into skylock.
Is this the end?
Jimin waits for his life to flash in front of his eyes.
There’s a wave of heat, then a force so great that mercifully, it knocks him out.
***
The roof of the infirmary is open to the sky through two sheets of titanium enforced clear plexi-shield.
Thank god for small favours. If Jimin had to look at an actual ceiling he’d have wriggled out of the steel cage restraining him long ago.
Jimin’s quite sure he can move all of his body, he’s been trying out different muscle groups over the last two weeks whilst he’s been healing.
The blast from the AK-57g would have liquefied him to a pulp if Jungkook hadn’t dropped the rest of his droid armour and yanked Jimin out of the worst of it.
As a result the kid’s in the next bay with minor burns and a sprained wrist, and Jimin?
Jimin’s alive to tell the tale.
His shoulder will probably never be the same and Min Yoongi’s worried about a spinal injury so Jimin’s immobilised for the time being, but he’s alive.
Jimin closes his eyes as the door to the bay slides open.
He hears a distinctive shuffle, then Min Yoongi’s dry voice.
‘I know you’re awake.’
Jimin opens his eyes.
‘How long till I can move, Dr Min?’
‘Trust me, as soon as it’s safe I’m kicking you out of my infirmary,’ comes the reply.
Min Yoongi sounds like he’s shaking his head. ‘Between you not listening to anything I say and the menace in the bay next to you, all my nurses have whiplash.’
Jimin stifles a grin.
He’s heard most of Jungkook’s pickup lines in the two weeks he’s been next to him.
The kid’s even sleazier than Jimin had thought, with a side of being so fucking sweet and endearing he’s surprised anyone can resist.
He also snores like a bear, it’s just as well Jimin doesn’t sleep much.
Yoongi’s face comes into view above him.
‘Soft tissue and ligament injuries take weeks to heal but I think if you carry on the way you have been, you should be good to start moving properly in the next week or so.’
Yoongi says, ‘No missions until you’re fully recovered.’
Jimin says, ‘With me and JK out, they’re going to need new patrol.’
Yoongi says, straightfaced, ‘Funnily enough, there are more than enough volunteers in this skylock to keep this place safe. Everyone kind of has a vested interest.’
Jimin can’t argue with him.
Yoongi dips out of view. ‘While you’re here, there’s someone I’d like you to speak to. He’s an ex-army doc who got extra qualifications in psychology and behavioural therapy.’
Jimin scowls. ‘I don’t —-‘
‘Don’t you?’ Yoongi interrupts. Jimin still can’t see him, but there’s kindness in his voice that makes Jimin shut his mouth.
Yoongi comes back into view. ‘I can see your PTSD a mile away, Jimin-ah.’
‘While you’re waiting to die have you ever thought that maybe life could be a bit more bearable?’
Jimin stares at him, mouth shut, afraid of what might come out if he opens it.
‘Or you could be like our friend there and fuck everything that moves,’ Yoongi says, loud enough for Jungkook to hear.
Jimin can hear the pout in Jungkook’s voice.
‘I can’t help that everyone wants me, hyung.’
‘It’s Dr Min to you,’ Yoongi retorts. ‘And you won’t be this handsome forever, Jungkook, better think of a backup plan.’
‘How about dying from our imploding planet,’ Jungkook mutters sulkily.
Yoongi’s silent a moment. Then he sighs. ‘What am I going to do with you both?’
‘I did well,’ Jungkook declares. ‘I saved Jimin.’
‘Thanks Jungkook,’ Jimin says.
Yoongi’s exasperated. ‘Who’s going to save me from the both of you?’
***
It’s sometime in the early morning, Jimin thinks, he can tell from the way Jungkook’s snoring has changed to quiet breathing that he’s in deep sleep.
Jimin hears the swish of the infirmary door, assumes it’s one of the nurses but whoever it is has a heavier tread than either of the two nurses on tonight.
He wishes he could turn his head.
‘Jimin?’
It’s Namjoon.
Namjoon’s been coming by at odd times since Jimin got injured. He hasn’t asked for the details but from piecing together what he’s heard he knows that work on the tunnels has started in earnest.
The stranger in droid armour who attacked them was from an underground military bunker who was trying to access their skylock. They weren’t able to find out more — Jimin’s last shot had been fatal and destroyed any chance of finding out more.
The AK-57g had blown a fissure into the skylock panel where Jimin had been before Jungkook yanked him out of harm’s way.
‘Still here,’ Jimin says.
He wishes he could see Namjoon’s face, there’s barely any light. He knows the moon’s still up there in the sky but truly, he hasn’t seen its familiar shape since the world fell apart. There’s only the ghostliest of glows that separates the total darkness of night from the inflamed red of day.
‘Can I get you anything?’ Namjoon asks.
‘I’m fine,’ Jimin answers.
He’s worried he sounds curt, but a moment later Namjoon’s face hovers above him.
‘They’re close to reaching the furthest Nordic tunnel,’ Namjoon says.
Jimin thinks about that.
He realises Namjoon’s still looking at him.
‘What time is it?’
Namjoon hesitates. ‘It’s 4am.’
‘Can’t sleep?’ Jimin asks.
‘I know you have trouble sleeping sometimes,’ Namjoon says. He moves out of Jimin’s field of vision, the shape of him wavering around Jimin’s peripherals.
He shrugs. ‘I figured I’d keep you company.’
It’s true. The early mornings are the darkest part of the night for Jimin.
‘Do you want me to read to you?’ Namjoon asks.
Jimin tries to nod but doesn’t quite manage it. Somehow Namjoon gets the gist.
‘I’m reading this book I think you’ll really like,’ Namjoon says.
He pulls a chair close to Jimin’s bed.
‘Tell me what it’s about,’ Jimin says.
‘It’s set in the future,’ Namjoon starts. He breaks off abruptly. ‘Well, it was written in the past and it’s how the author imagined the future to be.’
Jimin can think of a thousand responses to that, each more bitter than the last, but he likes Namjoon’s voice and he’s stuck in this bed and part of him wants Namjoon and his story to take him someplace else.
He shuts his eyes and listens.
***
Jimin’s upright for the first time in weeks. He ignores the warning sound from Min Yoongi, swings his legs out of bed and promptly collapses on the floor in a heap.
Yoongi can’t resist an ‘i told you so’ but he also helps Jimin up so there’s that.
Jimin stretches his calves experimentally, sighing at the newfound tightness. This is worse than the time he was shot on duty near the borders but at least he’s still here to tell the tale.
Yoongi says, dryly, ‘Thank god, come take him off my hands.’
Jimin looks up to see Namjoon approaching.
‘I can make it back to my living space,’ he says, lying through his teeth because he doesn’t want Yoongi to know he was right about suggesting a transport pod.
‘Yeah,’ says Namjoon, agreeably. ‘But if you take a transport pod it means I can’t play the big buff hero.’
He flexes jokingly but Jimin’s mouth goes a little dry as he gazes at Namjoon’s broad shoulders.
For the first time in a long time, Jimin can feel flirtation lacing his voice as he says, ‘Yeah ok, you can carry me back home.’
Namjoon’s dimples flash. ‘Why don’t we start with leaning on me.’
He offers his arm, and Jimin slips his hand into the crook of it.
Jimin’s no slouch in the muscles department, he’s got a core honed through years of training, but his physique is lithe, slim.
Namjoon’s not just tall, he’s also got the broad shoulders and chest Jimin’s always had a weakness for.
His bicep tenses under Jimin’s hand.
‘Can you walk?’ Namjoon asks, low, so that Yoongi can’t hear.
Jimin nods. He’s going to walk at least until he’s out of Yoongi’s line of sight, he’s not going to let the smug asshole medic win this one.
Behind them, Yoongi sighs, exaggerated.
‘It’s not too late, I can call a transport pod now, Jimin-ah.’
Jimin can feel Namjoon’s arm tighten again.
‘We’ll be fine, Yoongi,’ Namjoon says, so firmly Jimim could kiss him.
He smiles up gratefully at Namjoon and for just a second Namjoon blinks.
‘Shit, if I’d known playing the big strong hunk would have made you smile like that I’d have done it from the start,’ Namjoon teases, gently.
Jimin’s laughter is genuine, and despite the ache from his long unused calves, he hasn’t felt this good in a while.
***
Jimin’s running again. He’s been seeing the ex-army psychiatrist Yoongi recommended, having therapy sessions once a week.
He’s not sure if they’re helping him, except he’s dreading waking up less. It’d taken him a while to realise he was sleeping more and waking up feeling less panicky.
He’s been seeing Namjoon almost every day, helping with excavation work on the tunnels, and he thinks that’s going well too.
Both the tunnels and this thing with Namjoon.
Whatever it is.
Namjoon’s waving at him now, all near six feet of him, all bulky arms and dimples and Jimin’s damn near blinded by the sight of him.
The man is beautiful, and Jimin’s not been able to flirt since he stared down an AK-57g. The first time.
Jimin waves back, then pretends he has to check on some of the excavation equipment so he has an excuse to turn his back and compose himself.
Moments later he hears footsteps, Namjoon’s familiar loping gait.
‘Checking equipment, huh?’ Namjoon’s voice is dry, but it sounds like he’s smiling.
‘Yeah,’ Jimin says.
He risks a glance at Namjoon.
‘Looks like the heating coil’s down,’ Namjoon observes.
‘They don’t work with a heating coil —‘ Jimin starts, before realising Namjoon’s just fucking with him.
He is an engineer after all.
Jimin looks up at Namjoon, pretending to be annoyed. ‘I know I’m just a soldier but I know how to work machinery.’
Namjoon eyes Jimin’s crossed arms, and a dimple appears in his cheek.
‘You’re cute when you’re mad.’
‘I kill enemies,’ Jimin says, unable to keep the pout out of his voice. He can hear himself sounding like Jungkook but he can’t help it.
‘I know,’ Namjoon says. ‘You’ve saved my ass a few times.’
‘It’s a good ass,’ Jimin concedes.
There’s a spark in Namjoon’s gaze, a fizzle that makes Jimin feel warm all over.
He’s about to say something, but Jimin never hears it because there’s shouting near the entrance of the tunnels, the low, menacing rumble of a landslide.
To Jimin’s horror, the mouth of the tunnel starts to crumble, partially obscuring the entrance.
‘There are people in there,’ Namjoon breathes.
It’s the last thing Jimin hears before he’s running to help.
He knows what it’s like to be buried alive.
***
Jimin’s not there, not all of him anyway.
He watches, detached, as he helps with the rescue effort.
He thinks, dispassionately, that no matter how much planning takes place, rescue efforts don’t go to plan because humans are wildcards in an emergency.
Fight. Flight. Freeze.
The people around him are doing variations of all three.
Jungkook, covered in sweat and dirt, driving an excavator, single-minded in his focus.
Yoongi, staying where he is like he’s rooted, directing the people around him, triaging and treating.
Namjoon on comms coordinating teams of rescuers.
Himself, choking on rubble, half buried because if he wasn’t he’d be running. Jimin can’t run so he leaves part of him here and no one’s checking if all of him’s there and that’s ok.
Jimin’s shoring up the sides, packing rubble with his bare hands. His shoulder stopped screaming a while ago, now it’s seized up. He has to turn his whole body to move rocks but he keeps going anyway.
Gradually he becomes aware of hands on his, his name being called. Jimin tries to shut it out but eventually he can’t.
Namjoon’s voice, coming like it’s from far away. Hands on his arms, on his busted shoulder, making him step away.
Jimin comes back into the shell of himself, a mess of tears and blood and pain, and immediately wants to leave but there are arms around him, holding him like a child. Namjoon’s voice keeps him grounded, low and urgent. Jimin can’t understand the words but he listens anyway, until he’s anchored and he can no longer get away.
***
There’s the light of the moon in the pod, dead quiet all around.
Apart from breathing, separate from his own.
A shape next to his.
Jimin looks.
He’d know the slope of that deltoid anywhere, the curve of that torso.
There’s an arm around his own waist that Jimin explores, tentative, with his fingers. Skin smooth as marble, muscle roped underneath.
Namjoon, stretched out in the moonlight like a man who’s never worried that death is coming for him in the form of an enemy soldier, an AK-57g, a landslide.
Jimin envies him.
He touches along Namjoon’s shoulder, down to his chest, his waist.
Taking his fill.
A tension’s building into muscles that were lax with sleep. Jimin can’t see Namjoon’s face but he’s stirring under his touch.
Namjoon says, in a tone that makes Jimin shiver, ‘Don’t stop.’
Jimin tilts his face towards Namjoon’s, and he obliges with a kiss.
Feather light, the faintest pressure on his mouth.
For a big man, Namjoon’s so gentle.
It’s Jimin who seeks another, wanting another taste. He sighs when Namjoon obliges again.
Namjoon huffs out a breath. ‘I’ve wanted to kiss you for so long,’ he tells Jimin.
Jimin kisses him again so he doesn’t have to speak. His skin warms under Namjoon’s fingers wherever he touches.
Under the thin blanket his body responds, curving into the heat of Namjoon’s body until they’re close, skin to skin.
Namjoon doesn’t take, so much as let Jimin give, and Jimin revels in it. He relishes the way Namjoon’s breathing stutters as he places his palm on his chest, the way Namjoon groans thickly into the skin of his neck as he rocks his hips against his.
There’s fabric between them still, but Jimin can feel how beautifully hard Namjoon is, pressed between them.
Namjoon utters a curse, emphatic, and the gravel in his voice makes Jimin’s eyes close. He can feel Namjoon touching him, exploring the ridges of his abs, sliding round to his back, pulling his hips closer, curving round his ass, hands so big his fingertips dip between his cheeks.
Then, whispered against his ear, ‘Can I?’
Jimin has no idea what he’s agreeing to, only that he wants whatever Namjoon wants.
‘Yeah.’
There’s the click of a lid, and Namjoon’s hand delves under the waistband of Jimin’s bottoms.
His grip is firm, like Jimin likes, slippery with lube that’s warm. Jimin wonders how he managed that, idly, but then his thoughts fade as Namjoon strokes him.
He’s hard, so hard.
It’s been so long since someone else has touched him like this.
‘Stay with me,’ Namjoon says, voice thick now. ‘Fuck, stay.’
Jimin reaches up to curl his hand around Namjoon’s neck, tug him closer.
‘Fuck me,’ he breathes in Namjoon’s ear, and Namjoon shudders, big man that he is, his skin prickling under Jimin’s touch.
Then he’s turning Jimin over, onto his front. The cool sheet against Jimin’s cock makes him moan a little in protest.
He can feel Namjoon behind him, pressing kisses down his spine, down to his cleft, parting him. Namjoon’s tongue flicks against his rim, and Jimin muffles his cry against the pillow.
There’s more lube, sliding down his hot skin, then Namjoon’s pressing two fingers against him, slow.
Jimin groans at the feel of him, and Namjoon stops.
‘Is this ok?’ he asks, calm like his cock isn’t throbbing against Jimin’s ass, hard and smearing precum.
‘Yeah, fuck, don’t stop,’ Jimin pleads. ‘Don’t stop.’
Jimin moans as Namjoon’s fingers rub inside him.
‘Sound so pretty,’ Namjoon grunts. He presses, gentle, and Jimin’s cock jerks, spilling more precum onto the sheets.
‘You like that?’
Namjoon lifts Jimin’s hips, runs the head of his cock between Jimin’s cleft, tantalisingly close to his rim.
More lube dribbles down on him, then Namjoon’s lining himself up, pushing in.
‘So fucking tight,’ Namjoon utters.
He curls a hand around Namjoon’s forearm, braced against the bed.
‘You feel so good, baby,’ Namjoon croons, reassuring him even as Jimin can feel the tension in Namjoon’s body as he holds himself back.
‘Fuck,’ Jimin moans. ‘Don’t stop.’
Namjoon curses, slips in another inch, and the stretch of him is so good Jimin can barely breathe.
Namjoon moves a little, a short thrust that makes Jimin’s hand tighten on Namjoon’s forearm.
‘Doing so well,’ Namjoon praises.
He thrusts again, slipping deeper, sending another jolt of pleasure up Jimin’s spine.
He can feel his release beckoning with every thrust, the heat of Namjoon’s cock inside him, the friction from the sheets against his own cock, and Jimin’s not sure how much longer he’ll have any form of control.
Namjoon presses a kiss to the back of his neck, cock slipping deeper as he reaches around to take Jimin’s cock in his hand.
Jimin wants to warn him but he can barely breathe to speak.
Namjoon groans, deep, as Jimin pulses in his hand, spilling white streaks of cum between his fingers, the pleasure making him loose, floaty.
Jimin thinks he cries out as Namjoon pulls out, fisting himself.
‘Fuck,’ Namjoon gasps, ‘fuck’, as he comes and Jimin can feel his hot release dripping over his ass, the backs of his thighs.
Namjoon’s turning him over then, wanting to see his face, and Jimin pulls him close to tell him it’s all right.
Everything’s all right.
***
Jimin’s running again, a loop around the lake, only this time it feels different.
Jimin stops so that Namjoon can catch up. The atmosphere in skylock has changed again, whatever Earth’s trying to do to heal itself is changing the climate outside skylock.
It’s cooling down, and Jimin doesn’t know if that’s a good or a bad sign.
Namjoon approaches, sticky with sweat, his skin golden and gleaming in the light of the rising sun.
Jimin tilts his head and Namjoon leans down for a kiss.
He knits his fingers in Namjoon’s.
Later today, the first team of explorers, including Namjoon, Jungkook, Yoongi and Jimin himself, are setting off into the tunnels where they’ll breach the last few hundred yards to the tunnels of the Nordic skylock. Then, after that, the Arctic.
The possibilities are limited, and terrifying.
Namjoon squeezes Jimin’s hand, pulling him back into the present. His profile is beautiful, and Jimin reminds himself to really look just in case this is the last time he sees Namjoon like this.
For the first time in a long time, Jimin wants to remember.
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