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fuumiku · 12 days

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Tallman modern AU with these dunmeshi awful little men always grip me in a chokehold… Just a man with no friends except his dog. A guy and his best friend, "It’s you and me against the world buddy", taking his dog everywhere because the human has separation anxiety.

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #mickbell tomas #Mickbell #Kuro #Tallman au #Tallman mickbell #Dunmeshi fanart #tallman mick reminds me sm of my hs crush help #Last two are style experimentation #Me and my buddy developing the Mickbell-centric AU keep piling up issues on him like he’s a game of Jenga #I wanted to give him another funny short on that second pic but thought of nothing :/#Have you ever noticed how teeny his eyebrows are. Go look at official art again they’re so cute #I’m so stupid i had 2 vers of the halfling mick one one where he has a longer neck and that was the worse ver but i uploaded the wrong one #It’s bc i made his shirt blue i forgot to redo the neck again… Had to have someone tell me he had too much chin to realize

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aitsuheart · 3 months

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people who believe "Soriku fans hate Kairi" is just so stupid

I personally like Kairi but she's not utilized much in canon material which is why I really enjoy some fanon or headcanon versions of her

And anyone who doesn't like her though I don't welcome

Hating characters who get in a way of ships is stupid

Also the belief that "soriku take her out" of the source material is also such a dumb take.

If you think that you have sadly misunderstood what some people were saying.

It's usually not relevant to her and I never understood the belief that Sora thinking about Riku or vice versa somehow relates to Kairi

#aitsu heart #Kingdom Hearts #late night thoughts #aitsu heart thoughts #I like Kairi and some sk or neutral fans make dumb interpretations about soriku #Also the idea that Kairi knows about Riku's crush on Sora and helping them get together is so cute to me #Or Riku not knowing Kairi knows about it and it is revealed she knows and Riku just apologizing thinking they like the same person #past sk relationship is interesting if develops into soriku as in they used to be dating but are just friends now #read tags #soriku #if you hate kairi for stupid reasons you can leave #you're not welcome here #not a fan of op Kairi though because it seems inaccurate but her able to handle herself if someone hurt her is fine #i think she should be strong as axel but not stronger than the ones who have keyblades or fightingfor awhile

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fleshdyke · 1 month

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#csa warning for tags #ughhh ik i was just talking abt this but man. Man. constantly bullied as a child + raped as a child is a brutal combo huh #completely irreversibly fucked up sense of intimacy. i dont want to have sex with anyone i dont care what ppl think of me looks wise but i #also care more than anything and want people to want me so bad #like when ur only experience with anyone at all finding you desirable is being raped at 6ish. fucks u up man #was constantly told by everyone i knew that i was undesirable from day fucking one. i was always the one ppl would dare their friends to #'ask out' bc everyone thought i was that bad. i never had those rumours of 'some boy likes you' without people laughing in the background #all of my friends. even the ones that were also weird kids and bullied etc etc always have stories of other kids having crushes on them or #whatever. and i just never had that. it feels like i missed out on something important #i want to be pursued by a guy i hate i want them to not leave me alone. i want to feel like im in danger. and i know how fucking disgusting #that is but i cant help it. like i feel like thats the only way im going to feel normal and wanted like theres not something inherently #wrong with me. and i know how dangerous that is but its not like it matters anyways bc still no one likes me at all.#and i know how stupid of a thing it is to obsess over like what am i 9 years old? but i just cant get it out of my head #like idk i feel like the only way im going to actually feel desirable at all is if someone tries to rape me again. or if i feel like i have #to worry about someone raping me again. i know i wouldnt feel that way if someone was like. nice about it.#bc if someone genuinely liked me and was a decent human being about it i wouldnt be able to see it as anything other than faking it for pit #i wouldnt be able to believe it. even if i wasnt waiting for them to drop the joke and start laughing at me i would always think it was jus #an act bc they feel bad for me. the only way i could ever think it's genuine and that i'm desirable at all is if someone sexually #harassed me. like idk how to explain it but thats the only way i could feel desirable at all #bc it's the only way i've ever been desirable. when i was a kid.#and it terrifies me so bad bc i know how fucking disgusting that is and how self destructive it is #but i still feel like i dont even have to really worry about being assaulted. bc i still believe im completely undesirable at my core.#i dont believe i could be desired so i dont believe i have to worry about being raped. bc no one would want to anyways #rambles #vent

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pomfiores · 7 months

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the nice thing about living at work being offline for chunks at a time is the people u used to really dislike seeing on the dash (by no one's fault, promise), it doesn't really bother you anymore when you see them pop up as recs or smth. like. neat. lol. it's nice! it's comforting. i feel like I've def moved on from things, its liberating.

#◟ ⋆ㅤㅤif my hair's a mess﹐my mind's a mess.ㅤ( ooc )#to delete *#still on brainrot about this crush or whatever it is #decided to be upfront with her lol donnnnt have the highest hopes but #as someone who likes transparency and directness -- i feel its right.#and if not! im 100% ok with it too like its not my first time #i am v clumsy w this tho bc i don't usually tell people lol if im even Remotely interested. so.#she's branching out for'shore.#also confided in my brow girl who's also a lesbian and she was like 'girl ask her. that'd make it clear like whenever ur in the area'#she's absolutely right. so. there's that. thank god i have one lesbian person irl who i can talk to about this shit #she wanted to have me do gay clubs that she knows of. women only. sounds fun! but. nah. work keeps me :')#she's a teacher :') a professor technically. i feel so stupid LFKASJFA #i dont think im dumb! by any stretch! but. the fact she teaches (art) and is tech a teacher im like god akjfsha #how do i talk wtf akjfsa i can sound Smart totally oh def (help)

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theygender · 1 year

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My gf and I have talked about hypothetically opening up our relationship at some point in the future which would make me very happy as a polyamorous person, but I just realized that if that actually happens and I have to go back out on the dating scene I'm gonna have some trouble bc now that I'm more outwardly butch people are gonna expect me to make the first move and I have never made a first move in my entire life

In all of my relationships but two the first move was made by the other person, and I wasn't even the person who made the first move in the other two. In the first one the girl chickened out on her plans to ask me out and then our mutual friend who didn't realize that that had happened outed her by asking me what I said afterwards, and in the second one me and the other person both went to the same friend on the same day to talk about our crushes on each other and then she made us talk about our feelings

I met my current girlfriend on a dating app, and the first time she tried to ask me on a date she wanted to take me to the theater so she asked me if I had seen the new beauty & the beast movie and then instead of realizing that she was asking me on a date I said that I'd already seen it and gave her a negative review of the movie. And then when she asked me on a date again a few weeks later I had to ask to make sure it was a date when I got there 😭

...And that reminds me of another event in high school where a girl I liked took me to the mall and we walked around holding hands the entire time and then afterwards I had to get one of our mutual friends to ask her if it was supposed to be a date bc I was too nervous and also stupid 😭 Another girl that year asked me to skip class with her and told me that if I flashed my pretty smile at the teacher I could probably get away with it and I had to show the text to my friend to ask if she was flirting. I'm gonna die out there on my own 😭

#rambling #the friend i showed the message to was the same one i made ask the other girl if it was a date #and he didnt even answer he just raised his eyebrow and stared at me like 'really?'#god im just. remembering how stupid i was in high school now #there were two other crushes that i had who may have potentially liked me back and i may have even been told that by multiple people #but i was so deep in my self hatred and also stupid that i didnt think it was possible for them or anyone else to like me 😭#they both were friends of mine and they eventually stopped talking to me completely and i couldnt figure out why #and now i hope its not bc they they thought i was leading them on. bc i wasnt. i was just a massive idiot #you have to explicitly tell me that youre interested in me or want to go on a date or whatever or im not gonna get it #and tbh. that didnt even always work #my first major crush in high school was on a girl who told me directly multiple times that she was into me #but i was even DEEPER in my self hatred at that time #(and also only just figuring out how social interaction worked bc she was helping my autistic ass learn)#so i just. assumed it was a joke. bc no one could have possibly been interested in me and definitely not such an amazing person #i guess at least i have a scrap of self confidence now and im brave enough to ask for clarification now #and if i specifically ask someone on a date at least i would know for sure its a date?#and it could either be lame or cute but i could ask for permission to kiss them. it worked for my gf #i cant interpret signals for shit 😭#i dont even have a valid reason to be thinking about this right now lol its not like i have permission to date anyone else romantically yet #but ive been watching clone high with my gf and abe keeps misinterpreting joan directly saying that she wants him in increasingly dumb ways #and i just keep cringing bc i realized that that was me ahdjsksl....#only difference is in my case it was never bc i was ignoring them for someone else. it was ALWAYS bc i was an idiot #literally i would be there pining for them and every attempt they made would go right over my head #you have to be morosexual and very persistent to date me 😭 or tell a mutual friend whos very persistent ig lol #i know we are All useless lesbians but i think i deserve a medal or smth #ill hang it on my corkboard next to the souvenir that one of my crushes who i didnt think liked me back got for me in high school #which was a plastic license plate that said 'babygirl' on it bc that was her nickname for me 😅#god i really hope people didnt think i was leading them on. imagine someone thinking im a player flirting with a bunch of different girls #without ever making things official. when really if i found out for certain any of them were interested in me i would have died of shock 😭#and if we WERE in fact flirting i wouldnt have realized it. i was just SO scared and SO stupid 😭😭😭

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peniscat · 1 year

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#10pm on a saturday is a wonderful time to start thinking about how i am 23 and i've never been in a relationship #yeah i know that it doesn't define me etc but sometimes i'm just a bit bitter about it. as long as i remember ppl around me have had ppl #crushing on them and then they have relationships and it all just seems so easy. i have no clue how it all even works #siri how to get a gf pls help bc i do not know. and at this point it feels like everyone else knows how to navigate that #idk it just feels like i am broken somehow. like i've missed on something fundamental and now it's too late to do anything about it #and like. i get it. out of all the ppl in the world why would someone pick me. and i know my worth isn't tied to that #but it would still be nice to be loved. or wanted by someone. it wouldn't fix me but i'm pretty sure it would help some #it's just sad i think. maybe pathetic. and stupid too. and i hate how it makes me feel worthless even when i know it's irrational #it just sucks. and i don't even know what to do about it so i guess i'll just keep going.#pain misery suffering etc #personal

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imthatqueerkid · 1 year

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#crush blogging day 38 #wow... i am so screwed #i didn't get to see him at school today because dentist appointment #side note my mouth is so sore because i needed extra of the numbing stuff #i was sad i didn't get to see him but then he said he could stop by my house on his way home #i wasn't sure if my mom would like that but she literally didn't care (affectionate)#my sister had to show him the music video she made (that i helped film)#and then we 'officially' adopted our son (read: stuffed animal dog)#and after that we cuddled and talked about a bunch of stuff #including paper hearts girl and why he feels so scared to reject her #it was really nice and i feel so comfortable and relaxed with him like i can just take a moment. and forget about all the stupid shit #and just be with someone who makes me happy #im not sure if im ever going to get over these intense 'reminders' that im attracted to him #woah there folks lets chill out #i feel like we made a lot of progress today #he was on my bed we were cuddling on my bed this isn’t the kind of thing that happens to me i barely believe it #he likes me back? what #he likes being around me he keeps the gifts i gave him ??? what. what #i love when he gets flustered it makes me heart so full cause hes trying his best #its a full length day tomorrow so im going to go to bed. definitely not stay up thinking about him! definitely not that #fire boy #from the couch #Spotify

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thatonedelusiongirl · 10 months

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i just found out that people who worship there teachers ( have attachment issues to them an are i love with them ) are actually hated 😭 it’s ok i’m good i mean it’s not like i started a tumblr page just to vent about my freshman year crush on my art teacher that hasn’t gone away ( an we are best friends now ) but like anyways yehhh

#tc vent #teacher crush community #teacher x student #teacher attachment #lesbian teacher crush #what if my tc found my blog #what if she knows i like her #i’m so not okay #who am i #i’m just a stupid kid she’ll never love the way i love her #ughhhhhhhhhh #why is loving someone who can’t love you the way you love them so draining ??#i wanna jump off of a fucken brigde #someone save me #i need serious mental help #im delusional

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mejomonster · 8 months

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Being on dating apps makes me wanna tear off my skin

#rant #im like 3 days from calling a therapy line and begging for relationship therapy #but idk if they can even help me or just tell me its no use its luck after all the other stuff ur already doiny #i havent had a fucking crush on a single available person in like 5 years #like at this point id like to get those stupid dumb butterflies again where u see someone all rosey as cute and want to talk to them #i absolutelg feel no desire to pursue a single fuxking person im so bored it feels like a chore #im not gonna find love or even those hormonal honeymoon feelings of a dumb crush whilr i feel im exhausted -.-#im about to be a year older and i havent kissed anyone in 5 years #i wanna have sex 5 times a #day or more for a fucking year i wanna kiss till im tired someone i Genuinely like #need a crush :c #and id really like a xrush on someone Available who might actually like me back

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jadeneppy · 1 year

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Im feeling so gay and lonley in this McDonald's tonight

#YEARING AND SAD CUX WAAWAAAA #HAVING 3 INTRESTES AT ONCE HELP #FIRST TO YOUR ETERNITY BINGE AND NOW SEEING HANDSOME JON N MARTIN AND ON TOP OF THST HANNIBAL POST #AAAAAAAAAAAA OH TO BE LOVEF OG TO HAVE SOMEONE CHERISH YOU IN LIFE AS WELL AS IN YOUR PASSING TO BE FUSHI TO BE NEW TO LIFE BUT STILL MOURN #TO MOURN THE LIFE OF PEOPLE WHO HELP YOU LEARN TO BE HUMAN #FOR JON AND MARTIN WHO ONLY THEIR TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCES HELPED THEM GROW CLOSER WHICH IS SO SAD BUT THEYRE TRYING TO BE BETTER #NOT ONLY FOR THEMSELVES BUT FOR EACHOTHER. JON FINALLY REALIZING HE NEEDS SOMEONE ELSE AND MARTIN TRYING TO SAVE THE PERSON WHO HE LOVES #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #MARTIN GIVING UP HIMSELF AND JON NOT LETTING THAT HAPPEN MARTIN GOING INTO THE LONLEY AND JON RUNNING FOR HIM LOOKING AND MY FAVORITE QUOTE #MARTIN . MARTIN WHAT DO YOU SEE... I SEE YOU JON. JON I SEE YOU #AAAAAAAAAAAAAA #AAAAAAAAA #AAAAAAA #I WANNA BE LOVEF LIKE THAT WAAAAAAH #and then HANNIBAL and WILL #STUPID IDOTS WHO ARE SO OBSESSED WITH EACH OTHER ONLY TO COMMIT CRIMES AND OUGH #IM NOT EVEN DONE WATCHING THE SHOW BUT THEYRE SO FUCKIN STUPID AND IN LOBE #its 4 am anf im very much yearin cux my crush gave me a hug unprompted and im am REALLLING IN IT WAAAAAA #cuz ill never be with him but i like the thought of it he makes me feel nice and hes just so hhhhh #AND ILL NEVER TELL HIM EATHER BUT HHHHH I WANNA BE IN A LOVING RELATIONSHIP SO BAD #neppy nyas

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dan-crimes · 1 year

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I was gonna say it's fucked up that ads are made into jokes and memes and is part of some humour but then I remembered that's exactly as it was when there were the same ads playing on TV constantly between shows so rlly nothing has changed besides ads being much more intrusive and annoying

#repeating stupid ads is part of my humour and I do it more than anyone I know LMAO #I will purposefully fully watch thru the worst ads imaginable just to see it ads do not work on me but I'll just watch em sometimes #just for fun just cuz I think it's a bit funny having something advertised to me when I know I will do nothing with that information #altho ads have been useful to me helping me decide foods that I want when I can't decide or reminding me abt games that exist #or new movies that are coming out #basically if they are gonna have ads they should at least be good and much less intrusive they happen way too often #all over the fuckin place they need to chill #also I'm not gonna buy anything advertisers trust me ur wasting ur ad on me use it on someone else #they need to put poor as shit in their database to filter out the poor cuz these ads do not work on me love <3 #I say as I just mentioned ads that do work on me but it's literally only those specific ones #food and games <- games within my interest that have good animated ads that peak the animation nerd in me #and then ads that are specifically animated movie related tho I have social media to tell me abt the good stuff tbf XPP #but even those ads if I saw those all the time instead of the differing ads I tend to get it would literally kill and crush my soul #bcuz it is just how fuckin OFTEN these ads get played and they are EVERYWHERE #too many ads... plz...

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babydarkstar · 2 years

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oh god im slowly letting this crush consume me and i hate it so much i need to stop

#forcing myself to think about real life consequences #also being with someone who wanted me while they were with someone else is like. idk #i dont want that energy going into it #but i irresistibly gravitate to this man for some odd-fuck reason #like i want to be next to him all the time his energy is calm hes so fucking broad #and he’s so kind to the kids and he’s amazing w special needs. help im trying so hard not to fall hard #he has a gf. he has a gf he has a gf he has a gf #whenever i think about this stupid man i want to scream into my pillow #im like that gif of amy adams screaming and biting her pillow or whatever #yeah. me #help. why is crushing on men so agonizing for me.#i get a crush on a girl and yeah it’s still forbidden in my mind but also it’s warm and exciting but also gentle and inviting #crushes on men? different story and every single time it’s painful

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fabulouslygaybean · 2 years

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not too happy abt how some of the crowd acted but some folks on here r acting like everyone was fucking awful and that makes me so mad

#most of the ppl i met were overwhelmingly kind!!!!#people r fucking stupid but please dont yell at everyone else for it #im sad that gerard seemed stressed and that he didn't get to ramble but there were good ppl in the crowd and its weird to assume otherwise #i started to feel rlly lightheaded at one point and someone noticed and they helped keep me upright until it passed #at one point i was kind of freaking out bc i was getting completely crushed by the crowd but someone grabbed my hand and pulled me away -#- and made sure i was okay #just. idk. there were so many nice folks even if there were plenty of shitheads #ive never been to a music fest but everyone's talking about how bad tonight was and i feel kind of guilty for actually enjoying it

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starryarles · 10 days

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starting my own business and applying for funding help and it's all so stressful and i have to pretend to know what i'm doing because i still feel 14 and i can barely speak my native language and i don't even wanna do this and

#and my parents are making me do this #and i just wwant to go teach english in south east asia #but those dreams have been getting crushed and pushed down by people my entire life and scoffed at and given funny looks at #i hadd to go to these classes for starting your own business and i barely understood anything and now i got assigned a financial advisor #and she's trying to help me but i've been prochrastinating sending info over to ehr #because i feel so stupid #and i might be getting a new laptop through this but i'm too attached to this one #and i'm going to lose all of my stuff on it too #but that's if i get accepted to the financial aidd thing #almost thinking of self sabotaging on purpose just to not go trough that #someone is going to want my laptop and i have so much stuff on this laptop #i am not giving this baby away #and i just waant to go back to being in highschool anddd not having to worry about any of this shit #it feels like a school project i'm not nearly a little bit prepared for #and i just want it to go back #and i just want mmy bf but he hasn't been my bf for 5 months now #i'm just don't want to do this

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blkjackalz · 6 months

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#day rants #ignore me im venting in tags again lol #take the bunny photo as an apology and go onwards #just rlly loving how my period is adding to my loneliness #like i just want to be held rn and my brain is in the hormonal mood to fill in blanks with my current crush and- bleh #my brain loves entering the fantasy land where i'm happily living with someone and able to express affection / emotions in a normal way #and if my crush knew that theyre my crush idk what they would do or if things would still be the same...#like at the end of the day i just dont want to lose them as a friend #regardless of my stupid emotions and stuff... and my cursed period #brain and period r not helping xoxo #tldr: hurt and desperate to be held/loved... what a burden #its hard to get someone out of your head

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