#Sorry this is lonf

[punkstylerecovery]

Something that a lot of people really don't understand about having OCD or psychosis or just intrusive thoughts is how violent and/or disgusting the inside of your mind can feel and how scary that can be. It can make you want to hide everything about yourself, afraid that somehow some detail could give away what's inside your head or even afraid you might "contaminate" other people because of what your brain does.

That fear can lead to you lying to doctors, which is understandable because doctors can be truly awful to people like us, and that can lead to us not getting mental healthcare for the shame and fear we carry around, not to mention anything else we deal with.

That fear is often reinforced when we try to tell people and they react badly. A lot of the things inside my head aren't things you're "supposed" to think, much less say out loud and people aren't kind about that. People on the internet will even accuse people talking about their intrusive thoughts of being predators or abusers or claim we "should be in jail" just for things we don't even choose to think.

This includes thoughts about attacking people, murder, rape, sex, saying offensive things, ect, ect. Its normal to me, in a way, how violent my thoughts can randomly be but that took a long time and I'm still scared of myself. I'm still scared to tell people. I used to think I was a monster when I was little, somehow evil because I couldn't control my brain.

I wish more people had even basic knowledge about things like this. I think it's something children should be taught about, so that less of us grow up scared of our brains in the way I was, so that less people treat us like shit because they don't understand what we deal with.

We need to kill this ableism/sanism with fire because I am so done with it.

[pikslasrce]

they call them cocktails bc when u drink tjem.. well. cock on my mind

[robloxmythoids]

wallter x reader x mannequin mark !!!!!!!

general headcanons ^_^

ANONY IM SO FUCKIFN SORRY I hope u see this I accidentally deleted your ask and then I deleted the post in a panic induced impulse my baaaadddd . I had so much trouble with this it got deleted for no fucking reason like 8 times I was so sad . also wallter is color coded as purple because I don't have gray anyways please enjoy imso fuckign sorryyyyy . enjoy

- as soon as you walked into the elevator it was a complete fucking jawdrop. you were probably some normal ass guy or even a new npc but it was like love at first sight for both wallter and mannequin mark

- when I mean 'love at first sight' I mean as in the cartoonish way btw. they both did the heart eyes and immediately commedically turned towards eachother and glared at eachother.

- BOTH had a crush on you as SOON as you walked into the elevator. you are made acutely aware of this because immediately mark attempts to flirt with you before failing terribly because it comes out as word vomit. "are you a building because you are building" type shit. his ass fumbles so bad its insane.

- wallter immediately goes "wow I see them blushing!" or some shit like that immediately after just to fuck with mark.

- they do not argue very much when you're around. which is cray cray. they both have this begrudging and unspoken truce to not argue.

- other npcs notice this and they're in complete shock. like your mere presence stops both wallter and mark from like just saying slurs that immediately get tagged in the moderation system.

- on the off chance they DO argue they literally beg you to chose a side and you just go "guys.... what if we combined both concrete and wood"

- they both either go silent trying to compute it in their heads or immediately get angrier BUT EITHER WAY. you manage to calm them down. a feat unheard of

- their love for you DOES go above being cartoonishly head-over-heels by the way and it does develop into an actual attraction I promise

- mark is the one to plan out his confession he has it down to the exact moment and wallter is like "you don't gotta do all that.....". you still accept their love because they're both endearingly silly

- they pick you up. like a lot. world's gentlest hot potato game except instead of having a timer wallter and mannequin mark just take turns holding you and picking you up

- do you know the aquarium floor in the actual game . they take you there for a date night . it is wallter's idea :3

- mark likes to take you to his floor of the elevator and he's like "this is actually a reference to the 2013 steam game the Stanley parable and—"

- they're both carrtoonishly in love with you it's nearly comedic but they love you :3 even if they argue a lot they try not to for your sake live laugh love

[onlineviolence]

theyrw so in love forever

[mynameisnotsoda]

GUYS

I made a playlist for Studentbur

You should listen to it

I also made one for Simpbur

It's totally not,,, 8 hours long,,

[l0rd-0f-c0ws]

Read my fic boy

This is my first tf2 fic!! Hope yall like it and chapter 2 and 3 will be out soon :)

Here!

[bunnysfarms]

The worst thing is being unable to speak up when people say 'isn't this cute' to a video of an animal being in clear distress without seeming like an asshole

[angelesse]

sou since there weren ' t that many entries with the event , i picked them myself :3 ( under the cut )

1st place goes to : @iv-ry !! i loved yr graphics sou much :3 as promised you can request 3 graphics & 3 layouts of your choice ^_^

2nd place goes to : @timmy-bee ! your editing style is very unique and your entries were super kyuute >_< you may request 2 graphics & 2 layouts of your choice (⁠＾⁠3⁠＾⁠♪

3rd place goes to : @hqliest ! wowg blanche ,, even on hiatus you participated (⁠@⁠_⁠@⁠) swssgd your lillie graphic was absolutely gorg :3 you may request 1 graphic & 1 layout of your choice (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)

lastly , 4th place goes to : @chuuuya-kun ! your graphics were super cute and definitely unique ^_^ you may request 1 graphic of your choice ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝

✩ little note — i prefer you send your requests to my dms rather than my inbox ( inbox full hrlp ) :3

[magnesiumxp]

[looking at ibis] i should draw syumitaiyo [propaganda is working]

[mishantics]

CAN I BE IN YOUR TAG LIST HEHE <33

YES U CAN MWAH MWAH ILY

[ericcartmn]

So I decide to check up and see what's up after all this time and CARTMANBRAH is gone?!?!? What the fuck!?!?

God this is so heartbreaking. It sounds so stupid, but, seeing all my old friends just disappear slowly and slowly...it's yet another reason I had to get outta here. It was just so hard seeing everyone going like that. To know that one of the earliest people I talked to on here deactivated is just...fuck man. I hope he's well....

YEAH I'm so sad!!! Their Tumblr, Instagram, and Snapchat all poofed and I'm worried. They had deactivated their Tumblr before but came back, but I didn't realize they were going to leave all over the place :( I hope they're okay.

Yeah I know what you mean. I've had many friends come and go but don't worry man, I've been here long enough, my ass ain't going anywhere 🫡

[mango-mya]

I know your url says mango but here's a 🍋 for the ask X3 -@wisp-herr

Omg thanks (takes a huge bite with the skin on ❤️)

Susie Campbell...ohhh my GODDDD I STILL have a huge thing for her...her story is so tragic and she's written so well...and she's EVIL (and a cannibal but that's okay I can fix her.)

[oflgtfol]

🎸

yayy another one :D

soldier poet king by the oh hellos

poison by the symposium

the minute by push kings

ocean breathes salty by modest mouse

scream by avenged sevenfold

yeah idk whats going on here. Lol

( send me a 🎸 and i’ll make a playlist from my songs on shuffle )

[selfcarecap]

One thing I will never understand is when people hate on someone asking what the song/show/film/actor’s name or whatever is in the comments under a video. How are you shaming someone for not knowing the name of a song like what. If it’s so obvious just tell them and move on w your day.

[restingmimikyu]

Sry for just how late this but like,, NO CAT?? THATS SAD :((( also their allergic thats sad :((( here have my cat miku to cheer u up

He fell asleep on my books yesterday

hehe dw about that but YEAHHH 😿😿😿its so sad sweetie wants a cta so so baddddddd

thank u for your baby miku plz tell him sweetie said hi :] he looks so so cute and soft !! :0

[bobatealie-archived]

describe me in your words

ok uhhhh i think ur a rlly fun nd cute person overall tbh !? i have fun listening to u abt ur writing nd other various nerdy things /lh sometimes i am concerned abt things u want to do but hey i won't stop u LMAOKSJDS i rlly enjoy being mutuals w u :o !!