#Sun Bleached Files by Ethel Cain

[vivrosita]

i’m still praying for

that house in Nebraska

[venuscaotico]

✧ ＼ i'm still praying for that house in Nebraska ꫶ࣺ᭮᭰ ִ͏ ͏* 🗡️

✿ ⠀ #⃞神様

[cutemothman]

If it's meant to be then it will be So I met him there and told him I believe

[enamouredless]

what the fuck are sun bleached flies???

[lavenderpanic]

What I wouldn't give to be in church this Sunday Listening to the choir so heartfelt, all singing "God loves you, but not enough to save you" So, baby girl, good luck taking care of yourself

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Richard Siken "Planet of Love" Crush // Sue Zhao // Patti Smith Woolgathering // Catherine Goldstein The Letting // art @/callidaeusa (insta) quote Ada Limón Roadside Attractions with the Dogs of America // Jamie Varon Does The Universe Fight For Souls To Be Together? (via @weltenwellen) // Richard Siken Love From a Distance // @teenbeachmovie3 // Cynthia Cruz "Diagnosis" The Glimmering Room // Ruta Sepetys "Emilia" Salt to the Sea // Ethel Cain Sun Bleached Files // "Who We Are" Supernatural dir. John Showalter

[cacoetheswriting]

a best friend eddie story + collection of drabbles

pairing: eddie munson x fem!reader total word count: 31k tags/content warnings: best friends to lovers, slow burn, mutual pining, suggestive & mature themes, adult language, use of pet names, emotional hurt / comfort, self-doubt / insecurities, recreational drug use, topics of death / grief — pls also read cw's for each part & if i missed anything, let me know!

summary: a story about two kids trying to navigate through love and loss, inevitable goodbyes, various reunions, friendships and hardships, joy, heartbreak, plus surviving the upside down - all to the sound of Janis Joplin's Pearl.

& psa: images used in the header don’t depict readers physical attributes! these are also described vaguely, if at all, in the story.

1980

⪼ your first conversation with eddie (october)

1984

⪼ eddie realises he might like you as more than a friend (march)

⪼ eddie comes to terms with his feelings, pushing you away in the process (may/june)

⪼ last moment with eddie before you leave for college (august)

⪼ eddie & reader catch up on the phone (september)

⪼ a kiss, a fight, & the end of a friendship? (november / december)

⪼ the letters (november / december)

1985

⪼ a rather dramatic reunion, after months of not speaking (june / july)

⪼ eddie & reader try to navigate through their feelings (october)

⪼ can celebrating nye together lead to a kiss at midnight? eddie for sure hopes that it can (december)

1986

⪼ valentine’s day

⪼ eddie and the end of the world (march)

⪼ apologies, confessions, and plans for the future (may)

⪼ the start of something new (august)

a/n: the following are some songs i think they fit perfectly with their story, so i wanted to share them with you.

janis joplin - me and bobby mcgee | conan gray - the exit | dolly parton - i will always love you | the weekend - die for you | måneskin - the loneliest | kate bush - oh to be in love | u2 - sunday bloody sunday | red hot chilli peppers - eddie | ethel cain - sun bleached files | leonard cohen - hallelujah | boston - more than a feeling | taylor swift ft. bon iver - exile | red box - why so few | milky chance - frequency of love | janis joplin - cry baby

main masterlist

[ahauntedcowboy]

a house in nebraska by ethel cain // rooms in the first house by anna marie tendler // abandoned house, c.1886 - alfred sisley // abandoned farmhouse by ted kooser // christina's world by andrew wyeth // sun bleached files by ethel cain

[godaweful]

the little god inside me and the five people i could have been instead of this // sun bleached files, ethel cain // dragon age: inquisition // speeches for doctor frankenstein, margaret atwood // tumblr // electra, sophocles // starchild, dave malloy // tumblr // the last days of judas is iscariot, stephen adly guirgis // the little god inside me

[pennyserenade]

✨get to know me tag✨

thank you for the tag @chronically-ghosted <3333

top three ships: mulder/scully (xfiles), mulder/krycek (xfiles), troy/abed (community)

fave color: '70s greens

last song: sun bleached flies (ethel cain)

last book: i was reading two books at one time so it was the ballad of songbirds and snakes by suzanne collins and the reservoir by david duchovny

last movie: the marvels

currently watching: friends (believe it or not, i've never seen it all the way through)

current obsession: reading, the x-files

currently working on: fade into you, dieter bravo x ex-wife stuff, and jotting some ideas down for future fics

country you want to visit: mexico, always

tagging: @whatsnewalycat, @sweetly-yours-and-mine, @alwaysbethewest, @sp00kymulderr, @cutemothman, @max--phillips

[staybeautifulmp3]

ethel cain if she worked in an office: sun bleached files

[alexithykia]

hi honeybun !!! i know i’m a bit late but i’m here for the ask game :>> i wanna hear abt 💎🧸 for avenlexi and aletio if that’s okay!!!! ^_^

haihai mister bladie’s wife ! u r not late u know i’ve not long woke up c:

what is your f/o’s preferred love language?

avenlexi… ♡

avennie is like the whole kit sometimes… but the ones that stand out are gifts, physical touch + words of affirmation !! he very much likes to buy me gifts and stuff if i get remotely upset (he calls it “spoiling” sigh..) but whenever he is at home, close to me - or maybe he seeks me out to be close to me, - it’s very much physical touch for us both where we don’t want to let the other go. we’re both riddled with abandonment issues so it’s like somehow we are always touching as reassurance. which then leads into words of affirmation… he’s a biiiig sucker for that one c:

aletio… ♡

veritas isn’t fond of expressing himself a lot of the time and intelligentsia guild members are often surprised to find out we’re engaged :c i figure they suspect someone like him wouldn’t get this far romantically. but his love languages are very much acts of service and quality time !! veri is stubborn and won’t actually say i love you that often but he will drape a blanket over me while i’m reading, he’ll carry me to bed when i’ve fell asleep on the couch and there’s always watermelon cut up into chunks in the fridge. when we’re both free from research is typically when quality time comes out more !!

what is a song that reminds of your f/o anytime you hear it?

avenlexi… ♡

for avenlexi: national anthem by lana del ray but in general: sun bleached files by ethel cain c:

aletio… ♡

for aletio: coraline by maneskin but in general: touch-tone telephone by lemon demon c:

[idaclarke]

the original sinner  but soon you’ll know for if i’m going down guess i’ll take you down with me [ xx ]

// the fruits paris paloma // blood on the mattress koery dane, zella day // american teenager ethel cain // more than a friend girli // fucking depressed bad daughter // crush ethel cain // would’ve could’ve should’ve taylor swift // bury a friend billie eilish // sun bleached files ethel cain // angel of small death and the codeine scene hozier // house of the rising sun lauren o’connell // seven devils florence + the machine // bottom of the river delta rae // persephone cocteau twins // ptolemaea ethel cain // nothin’ better to do leanne rimes //

[nothingleftforme]

kuai liang is so ethel cain preacher’s daughter sun bleached files coded

[asoftepiloguemylove]

i will do as devils do. fall.

Sylvia Plath The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath / S. Osborn Blasphemies at the 5th Street Station / Kate Cayley Lent / retirementfund (on etsy) BEGOTTN HORROR PATCH / Ethel Cain Sun Bleached Files / Nicola Yoon The Sun is Also a Star / unknown

i. Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[ "I need a father. I need a mother. I need some older, wiser being to cry to. I talk to God, but the sky is empty." ]

ii. S. Osborn, Blasphemies at the 5th Street Station

[ " 'if there is a light then i am going to swallow it. if there is a god then i'm going to make him cry.' / - s. osborn, from 'blasphemies at the 5th street station,' published in The Rising Phoenix Review (via lifeinpoetry)" ]

iii. Kate Cayley, Lent

[ "When I think of God, I think of hiding. The way a child hides. In hope of being found." ]

iv. retirementfund, BEGOTTN HORROR PATCH

[ Black patch with a screenshot form the horror movie Begotten. A grainy black and white image of a woman standing as she looks down at something. "GOD IS DEAD / ALL HAIL NATURE" ]

v. Ethel Cain, Sun Bleached Files

[ "What I wouldn't give to be in Church this Sunday / Listening to the choir, so heartfelt, all singing / God loves you, but not enough to save you" ]

vii. Nicola Yoon, The Sun is Also a Star

[ "I wish I still felt that way. Growing up and seeing your parents flaws is like losing your religion. I don't believe in God anymore. I don't believe in my father either." ]

vii. unknown

[ Black and white drawing of a statue of a man looking upwards into the distance. "GOD ONLY LISTENS TO ME WHEN I SPEAK THROUGH SIN / IN TRANSLATION MY PRAYERS FALL FROM GRACE BUT I AM HEARD" ]

[moomimob]

Disco Elysium - Análisis (IGN)/ That’s Enough, Let’s Get You Home. - Will Wood/ Big Bad Wolf - Shakey Graves/ Climb On the Cross - Shakey Graves/ Mary on a Cross - Ghost/ Sun Bleached Files - Ethel Cain/ Saint Bernard 2 - Lincoln/ Dolorian Church of Humanity in Disco Elysium - Disco Elysium Wiki

something something, pray to the thing you destroy, something something, pray to the thing that made you need saving in the first place