#all i do is write headcanons and cry over fictional characters these days

[venusbyline]

Hello, can you do headcanons on Yandere klaus mikaelson x fem human reader?

Headcanons: Yandere Klaus Mikaelson x Human Reader (female)

-> tysm for your request, i really loved writing this and you also gave me an idea to write a oneshot soon. Hope you like it <3

-> GUYS THIS IS A YANDERE HEADCANON! DON'T READ IF YOU KNOW YOU MIGHT BE TRIGGED BY ANY OF THE WARNINGS! ALL FICTIONAL!

⚠️: Mind Compulsion, Unhealthy Relationship, YANDERE KLAUS MIKAELSON, Murders, Manipulation, Stalker, Slight mention of violence, Toxic Character, Arguments.

• Klaus, the original hybrid, is already a red flag in his own right. But as your boyfriend? Things wouldn't be easier for you. You're his girl. His property.

• He's madly obsessed with you. He spoils you when he's in a good mood, treating you like a Goddess who deserves and should be worshiped.

• He gives you anything you want. Expensive and rare dresses. Many rose bouquets. Diamond necklaces, rings and bracelets. He also loves traveling with you anywhere in the world. You wanna visit Paris? He'll take you. Greece? Rome? Egypt? Rio de Janeiro? How about Tokyo? He'll take you everywhere!

• Being honest... at first you were a little scared and embarrassed by how committed he was to spoiling you, because you weren't used to receiving so many gifts. But when you tried to kindly warn him about it while you were still in the middle of a traveling in another country, he got so angry that he LITERALLY disappeared for two days, leaving you alone in an unfamiliar country. Your anger turned to panic not long after, and when he reappeared you were already crying and begging him for forgive you.

• The downside about being spoiled by Klaus is when he uses it as a way to manipulate and belittle you if he's angry. He rubs it in, lying that you're dating him just because you're a gold digger and you'll never find someone like him. Just to apologize to you and spoiling you right away.

• Klaus wouldn't let you leave the house by your own. He says that it's very dangerous, that he has many enemies around and he cannot put your life in danger. He's really very protective with you, he feels like he needs to protect you from the world because your humanity is too fragile. Just thinking about losing you forever makes him panic.

• If you try to sneak out without his permission while he's not in town, he'll pretend he doesn't know anything about that for a few hours. But he has eyes and ears all over town, so it won't be long before he calls the other Mikaelsons and demands them to take you back home, even if you don't want to.

• Klaus is completely obsessed and in love with you. He loves painting you over and over again and probably has a room in the house that feels like your sanctuary. In fact, even at the beginning of your relationship, you discovered that at his secret room there were several frames of you that he painted while you didn't even know him yet. You also found some of your lost clothes and objects, and when you tried to question him about that, he just shrugged and scoffed, saying it was an act of true love. How could you not like an old romantic soul?

• "Don't be so dramatic, my love. I'm just a gentleman in love with my girl. You should be happy to find true love in a century like that."

• Klaus wants you all to himself and he's very jealous, even demanding that his own brothers stay away from you sometimes, especially Kol. Klaus believes they'll betray his trust and try stealing you from him.

• Any interaction you have with other men will turn into a heated argument, which can end in two ways: Klaus giving you a new diamond necklace for your jewelry collection or Klaus apologizing after unintentionally hurting you, forgetting for a moment that you're a human and don't have the same strength and stamina as a supernatural being.

• Maybe he mind compelled you at the beginning of your relationship. It wasn't anything directly dangerous for your safety, he just compelled you to avoid more arguments. And also so you wouldn't be afraid of him when you saw him killing some stranger or daggering his own siblings. And to force you to cut off some of your favourite friendships... If he still does this to you? Well, unfortunately you'll never know. But deep down you find it very weird that so many of your former friends are dying mysteriously or are missing around the world.

• And talking about your humanity, Klaus is mentally fighting with himself when he's wondering if he should turn you into a vampire soon. He loves your human fragility and how much control he has over you (even though he knows it scares you sometimes), but he also loves the thought about the future Sire Bond between you two, he truly believes that your love for him will grow even more after your vampire transitioning.

[alittlefanatic]

hello! would it be alright to request something for a reader who really looks up to howdt as a sort of father figure?

idk man, i collect fictional parental figures like pokemon, welcome home happens to be my latest obsession, and YOU happen to be my favorite fan writer for said obsession, so i figured id ask- no pressure though! college is rough, and i want you to take care of yourself!

I'm going to cry qwq THANK YOU SO MUCH! That means the world to me that I'm your favorite! I never thought that I'd be someone's favorite writer awawawaw.

🐛 Howdy Father Figure Headcanons! 🐛

Child Version

🐛 Howdy LOVES to hold you and pick you up! You are just so tiny and small!

🐛 He would love to give you head pats and even ruffle your hair! (If you are ok with it of course)

🐛 Got a boo boo? He will be right there by your side like a frantic parent! "Are you hurt? I have cute little butterfly bandages! Let's get you cleaned up!"

🐛 He will hang all of your crayon drawings throughout his Bugdega! He wants to show off how creative and how proud he is of you!

🐛 If you knock over a stand at his Bugdega: "It's alright bug! Are you hurt? No? Ok good.. mistakes happen, don't be upset! What do we do when we make a mistake? We clean it up! See? It's better! Mistakes make us feel bad but they don't define us!"

Teenage Version

🐛 He would have you work in his store! "It helps build character and understand responsibility better!"

🐛 With that being said though, he also helps you define your boundaries!

🐛 "You don't want to work on Saturdays and Sundays? Do you need the day off to rest and work on things? That's ok! Thank you for telling me! Let's work things out if we need to~"

🐛 If you are wanting to sell anything, he will help you put up a little stand in his store! He's your biggest supporter and will personally send out your work to other neighbors to get them interested to buy!

🐛 This man has absolutely no idea how to drive a car (mainly because he cannot fit in many, nonetheless drive) but he will try and guide you nonetheless! That is until he gets one of the other neighbors to help. He would get you a little 'beetle' car purely for the name.

Adult Version

🐛 He would absolutely cry at the thought of you moving out but he would help you 'spread your wings' if you did want to move, or at least have a place of your own nearby!

🐛 "My little bug is all grown up! I can't believe how fast it flew by...I'm so proud of you! Know you can always come back to your ol' pops ok? I may be getting older but I still have all these arms to hug you!"

🐛 He would let you take over the Bugdega if you wanted it! He would feel like you would do a phenomenal job.

🐛 If you don't though, he will be your number one supporter and will send you baked goods in the morning for your work as a courtesy gift!

🐛 If you move away, he would send you letters every week updating you about what's going on in the neighborhood and how he misses you and loves you, and that he's proud of you every day!

🐛 He is a very sentimental man, keeping every letter you write to him, or anything you've ever given him. Don't you ever think it wasn't appreciated, because he has a little area in his room dedicated to things from you.

I felt so bad that I haven't been able to write, I got a few more personal things to do then I'm completely free so expect more soon I promise! I'm so happy to finally be able to write more content for this fandom soon it brings me joy Be sure to get some water and a snack neighbor! Howdy would like you to take care of yourself 🐛

[imjustasimpxd]

Title : Demon Slayer characters reacting to reader on her period

Masterlist

Pairing : contains Tanjiro Kamado, Zenitsu Agatsuma, Inosuke Hashibira, Tengen Uzui, Giyuu Tomioka, and Kyojuro Rengoku.

Summary : The title says it all

Word count : Headcanons

Warnings : fluff, mentions of period pains, mentions of blood

Author’s notes : reblogs are appreciated!! I appreciate all feedback on my writing so that I can know what you guys liked and what you think I should improve on😊

Disclaimer : this is a work of fiction and should in no way, shape, or form, be taken seriously.

Tanjiro:

* Okay but I think we can all agree he’d be like the sweetest guy ever while on your period

* I mean he already is a very caring person who is always thinking of others, but that trait kind of multiplies when you’re in pain so…

* I imagine he’d be able to smell it coming at least an hour or so before it started

* Knowing this he’d do all he can to prepare things for you

* Immediately rushed to the market to get you all your favorite foods

* Has the heating pad, medicine, and a glass of water already prepared for when you get home

* “Is there anything I can get you love?” “Did you take your medicine?” “Do you want me to refill your water for you?”

* Honestly turns into such a malewife while you’re on your cycle

* Is kind of hovering over you 24/7 because he wants to make sure he’s there the moment you need him.

* If you’re feeling emotional and need a shoulder to cry on, he’s there no matter the time of night.

* He always makes sure to listen intently when you’re ranting so that you feel like he’s valuing your words and emotions.

* He always makes sure to be gentle as well, both with his words and his tone.

* Whether you just need cuddles or you’re wanting some encouragement and advice, he’s happy to oblige

* He purposely stays up and waits for you to fall asleep first because he doesn’t want you to need something but you can’t wake him up

* He’d honestly just be such a sweetheart, always putting your needs first and telling you to just ask him if there’s anything you want him to do

* Even if it’s at 3am, he’d be up and ready to help immediately if you needed it

Zenitsu:

* A part of me wants to say that he’d start freaking out and screaming at the fact that you’re LITERALLY BLEEDING, but then another part of me remembers that he’s had like 7 ex-girlfriends so he should know what a period is right ??

* Why do I feel like the conversation would go something like “WAIT WHAT?! YOU’RE BLEEDING?!! WHAT HAPPENED?! WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME?!!!” And then you’re just like “Zenitsu it’s just my period” and he’s like “Ooooh yeah, sorry I forgot, we’re all good then.”

* Okay but like this man already simps for you on a normal day… when you’re not in pain…

* Literally is at your beck and call, doing ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING you want him to, and I do mean ANYTHING

* There’s no limits to what he’ll do for you when it comes to this man

* Buys you like eighty million flowers, chocolates, and anything else he thinks you’ll like because “you deserve it”

* Basically starts worshiping you (even more than usual)

* Gets you a bunch of unnecessary things like stuffed animals and all that because he wants to make you feel better

* You try to tell him that you don’t need it all and that he doesn’t have to go all out like that, however he just responds with “ANYTHING FOR MY QUEEN”

* Prepare to be spoiled while you’re on your period

* Okay but like you could literally get him to do ANYTHING YOU WANTED if you use the excuse of “but zenitsu I’m on my period☹️”

* He basically becomes your servant at this time

Inosuke:

* I love Inosuke but let’s be honest here, this man has NO IDEA what a period is

* He literally didn’t even know what a funeral was when Tanjiro and Zenitsu were burying people after that one mansion episode in season one…

* So yeah there’s like no way in heck he knows what a period is

* “Wait what do you mean you’re bleeding? Did you get hurt or something?”

* You have to explain to him that you’re not injured and that a period is a natural thing every woman goes through

* He just stands there like “huh?”🧍‍♂️

* Why do I feel like he’d go and ask a bunch of the other female demon slayers if they get periods too afterwards because he’s never heard of this happening before and he needs to confirm that it’s true

* Is blown away when they tell him yes

* He obviously doesn’t have much understanding of how he’s supposed to help you so instead he’ll just ask “What do you want me to do?” Or “Tell me what you want.”

* He’s a little lost, but once you fill him in on the things you need or the things you’d like he’ll get them for you in a heartbeat.

* Thinks it’s stupid that you have to go through that every month

* He may not know how exactly but he wants to do all he can to help so he would literally be willing to do ANYTHING you asked him to (you may or may not have used this to your advantage a few times😉)

* The first few times he experienced your period he was obviously confused, however as time passed and your periods happened more often he’ll soon get the hang of things pretty quickly.

* From that point on, whenever you tell him you’re on your period he’ll brag about how he knows exactly what to get for you and say things like “Just wait and see!! I’m gonna take care of you better than anyone else!! I’m gonna make you have the best period of your life!!” And you’re just like “thanks?”🥴😂

Tengen:

* I imagine because of having three other wives that he’d be THE LITERAL EXPERT out of all the other guys when it comes to periods

* Probably has like a whole closet full of all the necessities that he makes sure to restock EVERY MONTH

* KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT YOU NEED AND HOW TO HELP YOU

* Low-key, having him to take care of you while on your period would probably be SO NICE because with how he is, you bet he’s probably got all the best brands and high-quality products that make things a lot easier for you, (he says it’s unflashy to buy anything cheap or low quality).

* Refuses to have that “filth” in his house

* Once you tell him you started he’ll immediately have everything laid out for you afterwards

* Will definitely make sure to give you a lot more affection than usual at this time because he knows you’ll be wanting it😌

* Don’t worry about being too emotional or anything tho, he’s definitely used to it with how Suma is lol

* Will say stupid things like “Well that’s not very flashy of you.” just to tease you.

* If you really needed comfort though then he would be sure to give it to you.

* He’d would be the type to kind of baby you..

* Tucks you into bed, bakes you your favorite food, gives you shoulder rubs🥰

* He’ll insist that he looks after you himself whenever you’re on it, (because that’s what a man would do) however if he gets called into a mission or can’t be there for something out of his control, then he’ll make sure to tell his other wives to look after you while he’s gone

Kyojuro:

* Due to your emotions, you’ll most likely be feeling very down and discouraged. You may even be feeling as though you are “not enough”

* If this happens though, then don’t worry, this fiery hashira of yours will perk you right up.

* Says things like “It’s okay to feel discouraged, your hormones are at an all time high right now so it’s completely normal to feel like this.” And “Not to worry, the only reason you’re viewing yourself this way is because of your hormones, not because it’s true in any way.”

* If you tried to argue with him, saying that you just don’t feel that useful or even that special he’d immediately say something like “Nonsense. I’ve seen your skill with my own eyes. You have remarkable potential.”

* He’s just really good at encouraging you and helping regain that confidence in yourself. He’s your number one supporter and is always doing his best to remind you not to listen to any of those negative emotions you’re having.

* Another thing is he’s very patient when it comes to your emotional outbursts.

* He understands you’re not actually mad at him when you get upset over little things, that’s why he always makes sure not to take it personal when you get angry with him during your time of month.

* He’s fully aware of that shift in your behavior and never holds it against you. In fact he strives to be even more gentle with you because of it.

* OKAY BUT THIS MAN LOVES TO EAT SO HE’D TAKE FULL ADVANTAGE OF ANY CRAVINGS YOU HAD DURING THIS TIME.

* Like literally the moment you say “I mean I guess I am a little hungry,” he immediately goes out and buys a whole assortment of food. He assures you that it’s “all for you” but of course you’re not gonna be able to eat it all when he got that much so he offers to “help you out” by eating some of the food for you.

* It always turns into a cute little dinner where you two can just relax and enjoy each other’s company while eating the delicious food he brought home.

* Like the others, Kyojuro would obviously be willing to get you anything you asked him to and is more than happy to do whatever he can to make you feel better.

* But in my opinion, Kyojuro would be more focused on your mental health during this time, making sure to always check up on you and comfort you when you need it.

* He never got much validation or even recognition from his dad and so to prevent that cycle from continuing he always makes sure you know that he values your accomplishments and your feelings (like how he does for his little brother.)

Giyuu:

* When it comes to Giyuu, I think we all known he’s a little more introverted than the other guys.

* Because of this he wouldn’t exactly know what to say at times when you’re feeling down. It’s not on purpose, he just isn’t as good at encouraging you as someone like Kyojuro or Tanjiro is.

* Knowing this, his way of caring for you during this time would come from his actions instead.

* After waking up in the morning to find out that you started, you immediately get up to get a tampon or a pad (whichever you use) and go to take care of things in the bathroom.

* When you finish up and leave the bathroom, you’ll find Giyuu washing your stained garments at the sink, along with a fresh pair of clothes folded on the counter for you right next to him.

* He’ll tell you to change into the clothes he set out for you and go rest

* After changing, you head back to the bedroom to find a glass of water, the heating pad, and some medicine that have been set on your nightstand.

* He doesn’t say a whole lot besides “is there anything I can get you?”, but his actions speak louder than his words.

* While you’re on your period, you’ll find that he always makes sure the house is spotless. You won’t have to worry about cleaning anything because he’ll have already done it by the time you get up again.

* He’ll do all the chores for you just so you won’t have to be bothered doing them yourself while your in pain.

* He’ll bring you breakfast in bed or get up early to make your favorite drink in the mornings.

* He’ll even draw a warm bath for you to relax in or you’ll find a small bouquet of flowers in the kitchen that weren’t there the day before.

* Even if he has to leave on a mission he’ll always take the time to make you a meal to eat while he’s gone with a note that says “I’ll be back by sunset tonight.”

* He obviously would do all he could to comfort you when you’re upset, will say a few reassuring words like “I’m here” and gently rub your back while he lets you cry it out.

* But even so, he’s usually silent for the most part, only because he doesn’t know exactly what to say to comfort you and is scared he’ll say something wrong.

* However his lack of words is made up by his phenomenal caretaking skills.

* No matter how much pain you’re in, it always makes you feel better knowing that you can simply rest since he’s already made sure to take care of everything else for you.

Masterlist

If anyone wants a part two of this please let me know! ;3

[not-so-mundane-after-all]

I have never loved a fictional family more than I love them 💜💙🖤💚 and trying to express just how much I love them, my mind comes out blank. Because there's not enough words in any language to explain how important these characters had become to me in the past 4 years. But more about that tomorrow.

This is the first time in my life as a fangirl that I have been this involved and invested in a fandom. First time I've made such wonderful friends in the online space, first time I've felt like I've finally belonged somewhere. So, with less than a day until the end of this beautiful journey, I just want to say, thank you.

For the laughs. The inside jokes. The screaming and plotting and crying. For the art, the gifs, the fics, every bit of creative genius this show had pulled from us. For the late hours I've spent laughing at my phone so hard my cheeks hurt and for the days a paragraph in a fic made me scream into my pillow. For taking the time reading what I've written and all the biggest and the smallest reviews left under it. For the cheers and pettiness and genius minds thinking alike. For the good days and the bad days. For everything and more.

You've made my time in this fandom so special. I wouldn't trade it for anything else. Just like our beloved family, we found each other and created something incredible. Our own little family. We stayed strong through thick and thin. And I'm sobbing as I'm writing this but I feel so so so grateful. I wish I could gather you all in one room and hug you all.

@wonderbatwayne @ambeauty @escapism-through-imagination @meetmeunderthestarrynight - my Queens. My TBS. I don't have words to fully express what your friendship means to me. I haven't met such wonderful, incredible, amazing, beautiful ladies yet irl and unless we ever by some miracle see each other face to face, I don't think I ever will. Your passion for the things you love, your dedication and hearts so full of love and fire and genius are hard to come by. I've learned so much from each one of you. Thank you for your openness, your honesty, your compassion, everything. Let's celebrate this end of an era the way only we can do 🥂

@legendsofentity thank you for sharing your love for Dick&Rach with me, for making me smile with your cute headcanons and being excited with me over the littlest things. It might seem like nothing but it means absolutely everything to me.

@undertheknightwing my writing twin 😂 the Gar to my Rachel. We've always supported each other, sometimes up close, sometimes from afar. Thank you for being one of those who let me lean on you when things got tough. I got your back and you got mine.

And a few others absolutely worth mentioning. Maybe we haven't talked that much but you've supported me and seeing you pop up in my notifications always made me smile and I cherish every single interaction. @lady-stirling @kirjavasblade @graysonfamfan2021 @koryvndr @mejacinta you guys are the best!

If I forgot someone, know that you are in my heart forever, I'm just too much of an emotional wreck right now (seriously, not a pretty view) to get it out of the depths of my mind.

Titans forever. Let's do this one last time.

[give-soup-please]

Rest (out of context comfort)

(When you try and write headcanons and then something else pops out. OOPSIE DOOPSIE!

Quick note. The problems presented in this fic are no one's fault. I have several issues due to my upbringing that I'm working on fixing. I don't want anyone to feel guilty for participating in what this blog does. Most days are fine, but sometimes I am more nerves than man. This is just a ventish hurt/comfort fic, not directed at anyone in particular. It's a long one, you may wish to open it in a new tab. Okay have fun!)

(Also I'll be taking tomorrow off, for personal reasons.)

“You need to rest, writer.”

I glared at him.

“This isn’t the time for stubbornness. You’ve been packing boxes for the move all day. You injured your hand because you wouldn’t stop writing. And your thoughts- your head is in such a scramble I can’t make anything out.”

I was not in the mood to hear this. I was not in the mood for gentleness, or the soft call out of someone who cared.

“Stay out of it. This isn’t your problem, it’s mine. Just- leave me alone.”

“It very much is my problem. Do you really think any of us want to stand by while someone we- when someone refuses to be kind to themselves?”

I felt my anger towards him grow. Fury boiled through me. I don’t even know why I was so upset, I just was.

“You’re a fiction. A concept.” I hissed. “You don’t belong in this world, and you have no idea what you’re talking about. Stay in your own goddamn lane.”

His voice was sharp. “Writer. Now, I can’t pretend to know what this is all about, but I do know that I won’t stand idly by and let you do this to yourself. Do you hear me? I will step in, in any way I see fit. That was part of the agreement we made. You write my words, I-”

“This is bullshit! Our agreement is over in two weeks! Why are you still here? What possible reason could you have to still stick around- when-” My breath hitched. “It’s going to end. Everything, I-”

I leaned against a box, exhausted. Sweat poured down my face, having spent most of the afternoon lifting heavy things. 

“It’s all going to end. Why are you still trying to help me?”

His voice was soft. “Because you asked me to. Your request was so earnest, so polite- In the beginning- A few months ago, you wanted someone to step in. Someone who could talk to you when everyone else couldn’t, in the privacy of your own mind. We drafted that first script together, remember? It was glorious, reader-”

“I can’t keep writing for you past the deadline. I just- I can’t. The strain is so much, to be producing for others. It hurts.”

He looked at me as if I was missing something obvious. “Then write for yourself.”

“It’s not that simple! This is my job, to produce content for others. It’s why I exist, it’s what I mean to this world.”

“That’s a lie you’ve been told by people who were meant to be kinder to you. And for as many times as you ask, I’ll be here to reassure you-”

“I’m not asking! You just appeared, like you always do-”

“-Some part of you is crying out for help. This is what comfort characters do, we respond to the pain of the people who love us so dearly.”

I snarled and paced. “Even now, even now, while I’m writing to self-soothe because I can’t comfortably ask anyone to share the burden, I’m wondering if the audience will like this. I’m wondering if this will break the twenty notes mark. I am agonizing over word choice and description. I am broken, narrator. I am a machine that produces, and nothing more. You can’t fix me, no one can.”

He lurched forward, and held me tightly. I snarled again, and struggled, trying to shove him away. I pounded my fists weakly against him, trying to push back against someone I cared so much about. He took every hit, and I hated and loved him for it in equal measure.

“Listen to me. You are not broken. You have been terribly hurt, but it’s not the same thing at all. You don’t have to carry the burden alone anymore. Your friends are here for you, and when they can’t be, I will stand in their stead.”

“Shut up.”

“I mean every word of it. You are so- Completely and utterly loved. We love you because of who you are, not what you can do for us. We always did.”

“Shut up!” 

“No. I will not. You need to hear this tonight, writer. I’m going to hold you close and tell you as many times as it takes.”

“Please- You can’t- I won’t let you.” My strength was starting to fail, and I leaned against him more and more. “You can’t- You can’t-”

“I can. You must be so tired. You don’t have to fight anymore. Let me carry you, until you’re ready to stand on your own again. You’ve done similarly with other characters in the past. It’s okay to ask us for help. The burden of being alive in your reality is so much-”

He leaned back a little, so I could see his face. “Did you really think we cared for you so little? Oh, writer… strong is the bond between a character and their fans. Didn't you know? You give us life, meaning… It’s only fair to return the favor and lend a hand. We would much rather you be alive and cling to us than not. It’s okay to need us, there’s nothing wrong with it at all.”

He wiped my tears away. I hadn’t even noticed I’d been shedding them. 

“I’m deeply grateful to the other characters who helped you stay alive long enough to make it here. Their turn is over, and now the guardianship is mine. I will not fail you.”

“What am I going to do?” I asked. “I don’t want to give you up, but I've forgotten how to write for myself. I don’t know where to go after the end date.”

“...There are no easy answers, I’m afraid. I suggest that you take a break, a few weeks at the minimum. Then, when you’re ready, I’ll be there as your narrative guide. Honestly, I can wait. I’m sure there’s a technique to it, we just have to try and find out what it is.”

“And if I never write for you again?”

He smiled. “Really now, what do you think the chances of that are?”

I looked away, clearing my throat. “Well- you know- uh-” I shuffled my feet to ward off the excess energy.

“I meant it when I said- though I don’t remember exactly when- I’ll be here for as long as you need. My dedication to the story, to Stanley, is unwavering. It will be the same with you.”

“I don’t want to post what I write anymore, after that date.”

“That’s perfectly alright, and honestly, it might be a decent start. You’ve brought joy to others, and soon it will be time to give yourself the same. You deserve it.”

“I wish I could believe you.”

“You will, in time.”

“I’m tired.”

“Rest, dearheart.”

“...Fine. But I won’t enjoy it!” It was the last minor protest of a stubborn person.

“Oh, I intend on making you enjoy it. My narrative powers are too great for there to be any other outcome. Now…”

He cleared his throat.

“Writer then proceeded to take a shower to get the sweat off, ate a late dinner, watched an episode of his favorite television show, and went to bed after having some chamomile tea.”

I spluttered for a bit, but the grin was overtaking my face. I was caught between snarking at him and thanking him sincerely. 

“You’re the best.” I said, followed by, “How dare you.”

He hummed a pleasant note. “I know I’m the best. And I dare quite easily. This is your health we’re talking about, after all. Now- Stop writing already and get to it!”

The writer snorted and wrenched himself away from his keyboard.

[thranduel]

the way people are invalidating other people’s feelings over byler and saying “it’s just a show stop crying” really have no idea.

people find comfort in fiction and fictional characters for so many reasons because it’s like an escape and distraction from the real world, and it’s even harder when you relate to certain characters and see yourself in them. when you’re sitting there watching them suffer every single season, never having a moment of genuine happiness while everyone around them does, IT SUCKS. and it sucks even more when you had hope that this character was going to be happy… that a pairing that you genuinely love and appreciate was going to finally realise their feelings and be happy together, especially after all the theories and subtext. it hurts even more when a character is gay and struggling so much with their own identity, feeling so alone and calling himself a “mistake” for being different. everyone knows how much gay people struggle in the real world every single day, and having to see that on screen, especially through the most kind, gentle, loving and selfless character on the entire show, is absolutely devastating.

people aren’t just delusional for analysing things. that’s what fiction is for. in fact, most of the time, the writers encourage people to look beyond the surface. just because something is canon or shoved in your face doesn’t mean it’s good writing or best for the characters and overall story. people do not have to be happy with what’s canon especially when it’s forced and predictable. not only that, but people shouldn’t have to feel guilty for finding comfort in queer characters and ships. gay people suffer enough in the real world. fiction is an escape and a distraction. if people want to headcanon a character as gay, let them. if people want to ship a gay ship, let them. if people genuinely believe a character is gay or that two characters might be in love because they have so much potential, let them. it’s not hurting anyone. it’s fiction. if anything, representation helps so many people. it’s not a bad thing and i’m tired of people acting like it is or invalidating people for being upset especially when they obviously get queerbaited like in this situation (and yes, it was queerbait. the moment the cast, writers, producers and netflix accounts got involved and teased byler for more than a month, they were encouraging it and giving people hope. they could’ve easily shut down the possibility of byler but they didn’t. it wasn’t just fans being “delusional”. also, people in general just made very good points by analysing the show and i genuinely believed byler would be the best relationship for so many reasons. they just would’ve made the most sense). and if people don’t like representation, they can ignore the fandom and the show entirely and switch off their tv. but gay people can’t switch off homophobia in real life. it’s a very real issue and it’s happening constantly. let gay people find comfort in fiction since, for so many people, it’s the closest thing they can get to actual happiness since a lot of them can’t experience things like that in real life. although there’s been more representation recently, it’s still just not enough. it doesn’t even come close to what straight people get. and even with representation, homophobia will always be a thing. people will always be judged and hated for who they love and it’s absolutely unfair and disgusting. so when there’s an opportunity to make some really incredible gay characters and ships and the writers completely shove it to the side and get people’s hopes up, they have every right to be devastated. straight people have more than enough as is. and i’m not saying that automatically means every single character must be gay, but i’m saying when they’re clearly building something up and teasing it like byler, they shouldn’t be cowards and back out after getting people excited. it feels like a huge slap in the face. it’s also so unfair to will who didn’t deserve to be shoved in the middle of this mess and used to force a straight ship back together. it’s just insulting and harmful for so many reasons. he was supposed to have special moments about himself and that painting that he worked so hard on was supposed to be about him and mike only, not eleven. i’m sick of eleven being mentioned in almost every mike and will scene. i understand why will wasn’t ready to confess directly but the fact that he was used to force mike and eleven back together and he’s the only reason mike said his monologue just doesn’t sit right with me. i’m hoping that season 5 fixes all of this but after all the hope i had for this season, it’s really hard to be positive about it. i just hope will can be happy at least.

[ciaossu-imagines]

Hello~ question for admin of this blog

Who are your comfort characters/fictional others?

One more question! Who are your favourite characters to write for on this blog?

Hello there, anon dear! Thanks so much for popping into my inbox and I'm flattered it's because of your interest in little ol' me. That's really sweet of you to be curious. I'll answer the second question first and the one about my comfort characters/fictional others, I'm going to hide under a cut just because there's a lot of them and I am just going to stick to the ones pertaining to the fandoms I write for on here because otherwise, I could write pages and pages (with Tennant on Doctor Who and the glory that is Donna being at least a good ten page dissertation because like oh my god, I have too much love, and Shawn and Gus from Psych being at least five because again, their characters and that bromance makes me cry from sheer happiness at times).

Going into the characters I love writing about on the blog, I've actually handled this same question a handful of times over the years and it has and will continue to change every time haha. The fair truth of it is that my favourite characters or the ones I'm the most eager to write about change very often, sometimes even by the day or week. It really depends on my mood at the time I come onto the blog and what's going on in my life or my rereads or in general what character or fandom I'm really feeling what asks are going to pique my interest. And honestly, with the nature of the blog I run, that's actually a pretty good thing as there's normally at least one or two asks that are about characters I'm at least a little in the mood to write for at the time.

Now we'll on to fictional others and comfort characters, hidden below under the cut, because even though I've kept them to strictly the fandoms I write for on here, this is definitely long and wordy!!

KHR has always been a long time love of mine and with it's impressively large cast of characters and the fact I've mentioned before that my favourites for this fandom are ever shifting, is it any surprise that my fictional others in it change constantly too.

However, Spanner, Shoichi, Byakuran, Shamal, YamaPapa, Kusakabe, Basil, Squalo, Enma, Chikusa, and Skull are all pretty much mainstays. Like, no matter what, I love them and getting reminders of their existence sends me into spirals of self-shipping goodness because I love each and all of them so much, both solo and in polyships with other passing flames.

For comfort characters, I will say that I always have a lot of thoughts on, affection for, and feel a real connection with Gokudera and Xanxus both and, even if what I write about them or headcanon strongly for those characters isn't always to everyone's tastes, they are my comfort characters in something that is, to me, a comfort fandom overall. Literally, this universe, this world and these characters are my safe place and my imaginary home more than any other.

In K Project, I actually have a handful of fictional others -

Bandou, Dewa and Fujishima are all fictional others for me, while the rest of HOMRA's members, save maybe Yata because at times I'm neutral, other times I like him, are all comfort characters in general for me.

Much like KHR, Nanbaka has a really wide cast of characters and is another fandom where I have multiple fictional others that I trade in between.

Sometimes I love thinking of a polyship with all of the Cell 13 idiots, Hajime is always a strong fictional other of mine, Qi, and Musashi as well. In terms of comfort characters, Mitsuru, Kiji, Momoko, Hitoshi, and Samon are all comfort characters for me who either feel like friends or family depending on the character.

For Welcome to Demon School, Iruma-kun!, I do have a handful of fictional others.

Of course, one of them is very obvious as he's the one I've written about the most and that is, of course, Balam! However, Jazz, Sabnock, Robin and Dali have all been fictional others for me in that universe. Clara and Sullivan are my largest comfort characters in that fandom though and they both always make me smile and feel happy, even just reading little headcanons about them or seeing cute fanart or watching little clips of them. Goemon and Soi are also comfort characters that I just want so much happiness for!

It's actually going to surprise a lot of people, considering how wide the cast of Bungou Stray Dogs is and how full of very pretty people it is, that I only have a couple of fictional others in this fandom.

Fukuzawa, Ranpo, Tachihara, Steinbeck and Ango are all fictional others that I switch between, depending on my mood and such. I have a lot more comfort characters in the fandom though. Chuuya, Oda, Dazai, Lucy, Lovecraft, Kunikida, and Higuchi are all hugely comfort characters for me and depending on what is going on in my life or in my head, I like to imagine one or several of them just kind of having a meal with me, listening and giving advice or going and doing fun things with me, etc.

I don't have a lot of fictional others in Servamp.

Sakuya was, is, and will probably continue to be my biggest fictional other in that fandom and one I think about a fair amount and have used in crossovers that I think about in my head, with a polyship with Mikuni and Tsurugi being the only other fictional other relationship I have in that fandom. I do have a fair few comfort characters though. Tsurugi is a comfort character, even when I don't have him as a fictional other, as is Kuro, Lily, Misono, and Uncle Tooru, who I would love to have as a parental figure!

I've had the same fictional others in Saiyuki for years and years now,

either imagining a wonderful polyship with Hakkai and Gojyo or Dokugakuji. I'm going to surprise everyone though in admitting that in terms of comfort characters, it's always Goku for me, as he feels like a dear little brother to me at this point.

Again, Eyeshield 21 has such a huge cast of pretty characters, so it surprises even me that I don't have more fictional others in it. Monta was my first fictional other in the fandom and still is my biggest one. I love my monkey king! A polyship with the Kongo twins is also a huge fictional other relationship in the fandom though. Kid, Musashi, Kuroki, Gaou, Taka, and Karin have all been fictional others for me throughout the many rereads of the manga though. I do have a lot of comfort characters in the fandom though - Hiruma, of fucking course, but also Yamato, Mizumachi, Tetsuma, Riku, Sakuraba, Mamori, Juumonji, and especially Yukimitsu, who I will always love so very much and who I wish I was more like!

I think I've said this before but I think Rowen from Ronin Warriors was among my very first fictional others and he still remains a huge one for me, even after all these years. Cye and Kento are my big comfort characters from that fandom though.

I have a fair amount of fictional others in Kekkaishi to be honest. Makio, Yukimasa, Shuu, and Fumiya have all been fictional others for me, but I think my biggest fictional other in the fandom is probably Rokurou! I do have a handful of comfort characters though. I adore Yoshimori and Masamori both, each for different reasons, and Masamori especially feels almost familial as a comfort character. Tatsuki and Miki are badass bitches I wish I was more like and who I adore, and Souji is another true comfort character for me.

It's actually going to surprise everyone. I've really only ever had one fictional other in GetBackers, for the most part.

Ginji is definitely my fictional other in that universe, with Kazuki, Himiko, Akabane, Paul, and Emishi being my comfort characters.

An even bigger surprise? Black Cat is the same, despite its cast of pretty boys.

Sven is the only fictional other I've ever had in that universe and is another one I like to imagine in various crossovers. In terms of comfort characters though, Eve, Lin, Jenos, Charden, and River are all comfort characters for me from this particular fandom.

When it comes to Karneval, a polyship between Gareki and Yogi is my main fictional other go-to, though I sometimes have spells where I remember how much I love Tsukitachi and imagine lovely little fictional other things with him. In terms of comfort characters though, I want Iva as a big sister and really do love Akari way too much, just not romantically.

I've never made any secret that I have a lot of comfort characters from Gangsta., with Alex, Nina, Nic, Delico, Galahad, Gawain, and Connie all being among comfort characters that help me in various ways. In terms of fictional others though? It's always one of three characters, either Dr. Theo, Yang, or Hausen.

Now Bleach has a truly massive cast of characters. Like insanely big cast, so I admit to having probably more fictional others and comfort characters from this fandom than I should. While I'm not near as huge into Bleach as I used to be, there will be spells where I fall back in love with it and these characters become a huge part of my life again.

In terms of fictional others, Shinji should come as no surprise. However, Uryu, Kensei, Hisagi, Ikkaku, Akon and Ukitake have all also been fictional others from this universe. I have a lot of comfort characters from the series - Chad, Kukaku (she is a great sister and a badass), Urahara, Gin, Rangiku most definitely, Keigo, Starrk, Kenpachi, Yumichika, Kira, Hanatarou, and Renji are most of the ones I can think of.

Naruto is another one with just an insane amount of characters. Much like Bleach, I'm not as into it as I used to be, but there will be times where my love for it is reawakened and the characters start to be become a huge part of my life again. I only had a scant handful of fictional others in the universe.

Kakashi was my first and longest lasting of them, Kankuro the most intense of them, but Shino, Iruka, and Jugo were also all fictional others for me at various times. I have a lot of comfort characters from this fandom though - I love imagining family type situations with Might Guy and Rock Lee. Sai, Gaara, Kiba, Hinata, Shikamaru, Itachi, Zabuza and Haku, and Kisame have also all been comfort characters for me though.

Now, given the fact that in direct contrast to the prior two, Deadman Wonderland has a relatively small amount of characters. I really only have two fictional others I've built little stories and scenarios with and two comfort characters. Senji and Rokuro are my fictional others, while Nagi and Karako are my comfort characters.

It's kind of funny, but Ouran High School Host Club also has perfectly balanced amounts of fictional others and comfort characters, three of both. Mori, Kyoya, and Nekozawa are my fictional others in that universe, with Mori being the first one I ever had but Nekozawa being the one I think about the most. Haruhi, Tamaki, and Honey are my comfort characters and I like to imagine tea dates with Haruhi when I'm facing serious decisions and she helps by giving good, solid, practical advice with a smile and support.

In Durarara!!!, I think I started out with Shizuo as a fictional other, but it was a short romantic interlude that faded to him being a great comfort character for me.

Kadota is the only real lasting fictional other I have in that universe. Shinra, Tom, Erika, Walker and Anri are all comfort characters for me as well.

Okay, but given it's huge cast, it's really going to surprise people that I only have ever had two fictional others in Yu Yu Hakusho, Koenma and Kurama. However, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Misunari, Shishiwakamaru, Chu, and Sensui have all been comfort characters for me throughout the years.

Gintama has an absolutely bonkers amount of fun and wacky characters, so it's not surprising I actually have a fair amount of fictional others from it.

Gintoki, Hijikata, Abuto, Banzai, and Yamazaki are all fictional others from this fandom for me. Otose is a mother like comfort character to me, Madao and Kondo best friend type comfort characters, and Okita, Zura, Zenzo, and Kamui also all comfort characters for me.

In Mystic Messenger, I definitely have a polyship with Saeyoung and Saeran as fictional others, and the only other fictional other I have is Vanderwood (I love him so much and he definitely needed a route, just saying). For comfort characters, I imagine Saeyoung a lot even just as a best friend, someone helping me and supporting me and making me laugh. V is also a huge comfort character for me and I have seen the comments saying the way I write him feels in character or asking how I come up with some of these headcanons for him and it's really because I resonate a lot with V, see a lot of myself in his character or his past traumas and mental processing, and I definitely do write some of my past or present mental states into him, along with some bits and pieces of people I've met in various therapy groups that he's strongly reminded me of, if I'm being honest.

For Ikemen Revolution, I have a handful of fictional others, Sirius being the most prominent one, but also Edgar, Kyle, and Harr. For comfort characters, Oliver is a huge one for me as well as Seth, who is another 'brother' type figure in a found family. Luka and Loki are also comfort characters for me though, each in their own way, with Loki helping me remember to stay upbeat even in the face of horrible things and Luka reminding me you can be soft and strong all at the same time.

Okay, but Blush Blush is fantastic and I love every single character. For fictional others, Nimh, Anon, Garret, Myx, and Cashew are my go-to's and it's going to really shock the fuck out of most of my followers when I admit that, other than Eli, Cole is my other big comfort character. I love retreating into platonic bestie places with both of those two whenever something happens that upsets me, because both boys would handle it so differently but both in really helpful and funny way.

Okay, I do think I'm one of the very few people who still remember Date Warp but it is such a fun and great game. I do have fictional others in it, a polyship with Linds and Rafael. Outside of those fictional others, I don't think I really have a comfort character though, to be honest.

Okay, I walked into Hatoful Boyfriend expecting it to be silly and cheesy and dumb and was not prepared for the sheer amount of mind-fucking and feels I would leave this game with. I don't really have a fictional other solidly in this universe, though I admit to playing Shuu's, Okosan's, and Nageki's routes a lot more than the other ones. Otherwise, this whole game is a comfort fandom to me and I love it and all it's weird, messy, wonderful cast of characters.

I can't even explain why I love XOXO Droplets so much, as all of the characters are deeply flawed people but I still love them regardless. I think the only fictional other I've ever had in this fandom though is Jeremy, and even then it's more platonic life-mates. Him, Bae, and Nate are my favourite comfort characters for this fandom.

I honestly think the only Greaser in The Outsiders I haven't had as a fictional other at some point in the span of time between reading the book for the first time in grade eight and now is Steve. Other than that, I have used and still use all of them as fictional others depending on my mood and my needs at the time. As far as comfort characters though, I have a lot of thoughts on Pony, Johnny, and Dally, as well as Tim because we all know how much I love me a good background character.

In Class of the Titans, both Odie and Herry have always been my fictional others, either solo or as a polyship and that has never changed, not even once through watching the show, which is really suprising for me. In terms of comfort characters though, it's Neil all the way, simply because I love imagining the theatrics and the petty suggestions he'd have about anyone and everyone who stresses me out or hurts me.

Disney's Ultimate Spider-Man is another universe where I actually switch between several fictional others, depending on my mood and my needs at the time. Danny, Sam, Werewolf By Night, Flash, and Ben have been or still are fictional others, as well as both Harry and Norman. I have a great big story in my head I keep revisiting with those two, actually. In terms of comfort characters though, both Luke and Stan the Man are where it's at as well as Coulson and Peter.

Okay, I will admit to a slight obsession with Gravity Falls. I rewatch it at least once a year, usually when I start to feel really down because overall, it's just such a comfort show for me and one that always gets me all wrapped up in it and makes me happy. In that fandom, surprising probably nobody, Grunkle Stan is my fictional other, sometimes maybe a polyship with the two Grunkles, Stan and Ford.

As for comfort characters....all of them. Every single one of them, up to and including Bill because I can't think of a single character I haven't enjoyed the hell out of and haven't spent so much time thinking about. But I will say I really, really, REALLY love Mabel so much and she gives me confidence whenever I channel my 'inner Mabel' in real life.

I grew up with The Mighty Ducks movies and honestly, I think Adam was my first fictional other in this fandom, though over the years it changed to a polyship with the Bash Brothers, Fulton and Portman, who remain my fictional others in that universe.

Averman, Connie, Adam, and Goldberg though? Those are my comfort characters and the ones I have so many thoughts about and love just thinking about and imagining fun little situations with!

Now, The Covenant seems to be a fandom that I am the only member of, but I absolutely adore this movie, as cheesy and corny as it is.

Reid was and always will be my fictional other in this universe, with the rest of the Sons, and Kate really becoming a solid friend group for me, with Tyler being my comfort character and my best friend in that universe.

In Power Rangers Jungle Fury, R.J. was, is, and will always be my fictional other in that universe, has been since my first watch of it and I adore the fuck outta him, to be honest.

But in terms of comfort characters, I really do spend just as much time thinking about them in this fandom, particularly Fran, Casey, and Dom. Casey feels almost like found fictional family at this point and I have spun out a whole past story and just this solid friendship with Casey, to be dorky and honest.

Okay, Power Rangers Ninja Storm is another one where I have multiple fictional others, and one of them is a polyship with Blake and Hunter, the other fictional other being Cam.

In terms of comfort characters though, it's Tori all the way and she is amazing and a badass bitch and I love her so goddamn much, ya'll don't even know.

In Power Rangers Mystic Force, Chip was and will always be my fictional other in that universe. Yes, I do have a thing for geeks, yes, I do have a thing for redheads. Sue me haha. However, Xander and Vida are also really big comfort characters for me in this universe, as is Phineas.

Now, I know it's really not considered okay to love Harry Potter anymore. However, I want to point out that I literally grew up on these books, with this universe. It's such a deep and enduring part of my childhood and I own all the books because they were all bought before the author's shitty personality and belief systems were brought to light and I refuse to allow my love for it to be marred by the fact that the person responsible for writing it a truly heinous individual because honestly, if everyone did that, we'd be left with very little, if any, content that we could love.

Now, honestly, I've had so many Harry Potter related fictional others through the years - the Weasley twins, Draco for a bit, Krum, Lupin, but I think Neville and Ron are the only ones who have lasted throughout all the years. I will say, I always imagined both Molly Weasley and Hagrid as wonderful parental figures to me and as comfort characters, they are still solid mainstays in my imagination, with The Burrow and Hagrid's cabin being places I can go at my most sad or unhappy or upset for comfort and safety and a soft landing.

In Sky High: When it first came out, Warren Peace was definitely my first fictional other in that universe but as I've grown older and changed, he's become more a comfort character for me, someone I imagine as a best friend, almost a brother in a wide, multi-fandom universe found family situation. He gives good advice, if stated a bit brutally and is supportive but makes me face the tough stuff because he knows I can. I don't really have a solid fictional other for this fandom, to be honest.

Now, Holes is another one that is a really old love of mine. We had to read the book for an eighth grade English class of mine and I watched the movie when it first came out. I remember in the book I really did fall in love with Zero, whereas in the movie I ended up loving both Zero and Zig-Zag and when it comes to fictional others, they're the ones I self-ship with when thinking about this universe. However, if I'm just in need of comfort characters from this fandom, Stanley is my go-to comfort character and he's the one I picture having a best friend situation with, someone who talks to me about his life, listens about mine and doesn't really give advice so much as just sympathizes and encourages me.

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Something that has been on my mind today since reading Rae's post this morning might ruffle a few feathers, but I feel like sharing my perspective. This isn't directed at any one person because I've seen it in numerous places from numerous people over the last several months, and I'm not looking to start any fights, just sharing my experience.

A lot of the outcry I've seen about pre reveal Adrinette "ruining" the love square or not being fair to x side or whatever grievance people have is giving me salty side of the fandom vibes. I say this as someone who was once part of the salt crowd and left for various reasons I've talked about over time. Now, these people making these posts might scoff at that notion because "unlike the salters I actually love the show," but the thing about salters is they once loved the show too.

The thing about fandom is it's a double edged sword. It's fun to make headcanons and write fanfic about our faves in situations. It's fun to speculate about what all of the little pieces and clues and crumbs in canon mean. But when the lines between fanon and canon get blurred, that's when things get tricky. It's fun until it isn't.

As someone who was once part of the salt crowd who had many friends who took pleasure in ripping the show apart, I can tell you that a vast majority of the vitriol came from unmet expectations. We got it in our heads that something would happen or should happen in order for the show to be good, and when those very hyper specific things didn't happen, we got mad. "It's bad writing" we would say. "It's not fair" we would cry. "Canon would be better if it just did what we wanted." From our perspective, we loved the show a lot and wanted to see it done well. We wanted to see a good story told because we loved the characters and the universe. At least, that's how I felt. I wrote numerous salt fics after Chameleon and started arguably one of the worst salt trends to come from that episode with the whole 'Marinette changes schools and gets revenge' trope. But eventually, for me, the constant negativity reached a point that was unhealthy, and I started to recognize the anger and disappointment I felt towards the writers bleeding into my psyche and corrupting me. I no longer enjoyed the show I once loved. My days were full of arguments with strangers over fictional people. I was angry. I would lash out at anyone who disagreed with me. I was miserable. So I pumped the brakes. I took breaks from the fandom to work through my own issues. I asked myself why I was even here at all if I wasn't enjoying it. And ultimately I decided I did still enjoy the show even with all of its flaws, and I accepted that canon was going to do whatever canon was going to do. When I came back to fandom, I found I no longer related to the salt crowd, so I left it behind. I mass unfollowed everyone in the fandom minus a few trusted mutuals and friends. Over the last couple years I've slowly started branching out again, being extremely picky about who I follow this time. So when I say this, it comes from a place of experience because a lot of the posts I've seen floating around from people who admonish the salters and tout themselves as not being like the salters are starting to look familiar. As Dr. Taylor Swift once said, "I think I've seen this film before, and I didn't like the ending." The salters started out the same way, at least the ones I knew. They originally loved canon, then one thing happened that they didn't quite like. Then the next tiny little thing became more noticeable. Then they started noticing a lot of things. Then they started looking for things to notice. And it snowballed from there to what it is now: a group of bitter, disgruntled ex-fans whose expectations were never met.

I'm not saying the people posting about their disapproval of pre reveal Adrinette are all terrible bad people on par with the salters. Nor am I saying they will ever get that bad necessarily. I'm just saying that these posts, to me, resemble the beginning of that road. Certain expectations that weren't met by canon, and anyone who even tries to suggest that those expectations weren't meant to happen are wrong and don't understand the show clearly because if you did, you'd agree with our anger.

Maybe I'm just jaded with fandom. Maybe I'm too old. Maybe I'm a biased Adrinette stan that is happy to see the two kids finally getting together after 4.5 seasons of dancing circles around each other. 🤷‍♀️ But when I came back and changed my tune toward the show I accepted canon for what it is. It's fun. It's cringy. It has good parts and bad parts. It's neither the terrible, awful shitshow the salters make it out to be nor the perfectly innocent devoid of any flaws angel that its highest praisers make it out to be. It is what it is. I told myself a long time ago that I just want to see the love square get together by whatever means necessary. If the writers feel like pre reveal Adrinette is necessary, then that's just what it is. No amount of me bitching about what could've been, would've been, should've been will change that. If I'm really disgruntled, I'll go write a fic about what I wanted to happen instead. That's what fandom is for. That was fanfic's original purpose. It was a writer's ability to say "but what if this happened instead?"

Idk. A lot of the takes I've seen in fandom lately just leave a bad taste in my mouth and remind me of a time in my fandom history that I've worked hard to move on from. This fandom has been dying for years, and I think s5 will be the final nail in the coffin.

[lale-txt]

what’s your favorite piece you’ve written?

aww i saw a few writers getting asked this today! cute question, i had fun thinking about this. i was surprised about how many things i have forgotten and how much i still liked even older stuff? in the past i used to die of shame like half an hour after finishing a piece, nowadays i allow myself to be a little proud of my work (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ i went a bit extra and in detail with my answer oop-

for fluff, i'd say:

birthday letters to Rayleigh ↳ writing Rayleigh is always so bittersweet and this one has it all. i really wanted to come up with something for his birthday because i love this silly fictional man and i think i did him justice <3

confessing while thinking the other one is asleep w/ Roger ↳ i was down bad for Roger but i think writing this made me down even... badder? i loved writing the interaction with the whole crew before it's just reader & Roger. need him to kiss me really bad.

"you owe me a kiss" w/ Thatch ↳ oh bread man. another one in the "need a kiss from him now or else i cry" department. it was fun spinning a story around this prompt and trying to catch his charm!

Flowers w/ Rayleigh ↳ another bittersweet Rayleigh! i saw the whole thing very vividly in front of my eyes and tried to grasp it with words.

comforting their lover on a bad day w/ Roger & Rayleigh ↳ great thing about being a writer is that you can write your own comfort pieces against the blues. it really helped and i love describing those soft little moments where nothing much is happening but you can still feel all the love.

and for smut:

sexual tension while tending his wounds w/ Kid ↳ this was the very first time writing Kid properly for me and possibly the moment i stepped foot into Kid simping hell. i haven't escaped ever since.

"i haven't even touched you and you're already this wet." w/ Sabo ↳ need the unhinged little man to rail me in semi-public okay

loving him all night long w/ Denjiro ↳ do you know the feeling when you want to read a fic about your unpopular side character and can't find any? especially in the smut department? that's how this fic was born lmao. kiss me shrimp man.

undercover w/ Law ↳ this fic has been occupying my brain for over a week. like the prompt was so fun and i wanted to do it justice and then kinda just... ran with it. always the best fics if you ask me.

one night with Kaido & Yamato's babysitter ↳ ahh, yes. the forbidden dilf. i've been joking so long about never being able to write Kaido smut but i guess someone had to? now here we are and i think it's so much fun. thinking about doing a sequel actually and i loooved reading all the comments and tags on this! really said 'pspspsps' to all Kaido fuckers and the ones in denial.

and for headcanons and stuff like that:

their recent search history ↳ because sometimes i'm really funny

giving them a booty call (nsfw) ↳ again, because sometimes i'm really funny

reacting to you not wearing panties in public (nsfw) ↳ always exposing myself in my smut pieces and this was not an exception. many little drabbles were born from this one too and i'm still not tired of this concept.

sex accident headcanons w/ Rayleigh (nsfw) ↳ oh, Rayleigh. horny old man. i love you.

Whitebeard Pirates: online dating headcanons ↳ those were born on a very long train ride and had a few sequels also, i really love all of them so much

[eunoiaaaivy]

I posted 207 times in 2022

That's 207 more posts than 2021!

70 posts created (34%)

137 posts reblogged (66%)

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I tagged 121 of my posts in 2022

Only 42% of my posts had no tags

#knb - 31 posts

#haikyuu!! - 28 posts

#haikyuu x reader - 25 posts

#knb x reader - 24 posts

#haikyuu imagines - 23 posts

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#kuroko no basket - 21 posts

#hq headcanons - 20 posts

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Longest Tag: 48 characters

#many more characters i can't name them oh em ges

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Maybe we were meant to be after all

tw: enemies to friends to lovers, marriage, a bit of angst, family issues.

notes: please tell me if I forgot something but nonetheless this is me trying to write a sad scenario which is totally cringe but hey, imaginations! also lowercase intended! &lt;3

maybe you guys were meant to be after all. sakusa never thought that he would end up with you. but hey, life is full of surprises. his younger self would be disgusted with his current self right now. after all you guys hated each other when you guys were younger. competing in different categories, just to prove one's point. well, truthfully, everything was fair. you two would always end up with fair scores. not that it was special or anything, it meant nothing really but it was more of a "you lose, i win this competition" fight. he hated the way you would accomplish something far more better than him before. he hated how you could be nonchalant and lowkey about life. he hated everything about you. hated, past tense. that was all over the moment he found you crying in your dorm. you looked so vulnerable, so so vulnerable. he tried to help you and found out that you had issues with your family. who wouldn't cry under all those pressure? who wouldn't cry when your highest achievements were nothing to your family? who wouldn't be disappointed when they treat your siblings the way you wanted to be treated? it's disappointing. when he found out, he felt more guilty than ever. you guys competed for high grades, but it was always something more. it was you trying to prove to your family that you were far more better than your siblings which weren't acknowledged at all. it was you trying to fight your way everyday to be acknowledged even once. it was all that. so maybe that's why you're always disappointed with yourself when your grade is not perfect. even if it was a two point mistake. it was why you always wanted things to be perfect. he understands now. sakusa understands now. so he tried his best and became friends with you. which turned out to something more. after all why would you be walking down the aisle right now if you guys weren't meant to be. maybe you guys were meant to be after all in the end.

© Astaaaaa. Please do not steal my works or plots. This is a work of fiction and is not associated with the real anime/manga/manhwa plot. If anyone has done this before please tag me! Thank you very much! Reblogs are appreciated and thank you very much for reading!

184 notes - Posted July 31, 2022

#4

Wildest dreams

Summary: Dating Kosair secretly was amazing until one day it was revealed.

Warning/s: fluff, a little bit of hurt and comfort, implied future marriage, mentions of death (but no death in particular).

Notes: fem-bodied reader, secretly dating. Inspired by wildest dreams Bridgerton version and Taylor's wildest dreams (Taylor's version)

Meeting Kosair is the most amazing thing that has happened to you. Being the third in line for the throne in the Western Kingdom was kinda tough. Being the only girl in the family, your brothers were protective. Even though your brother, Warton the lll was sick he kept constantly reminding you that you shouldn't choose a man that wasn't good for you. Heinrey being a little bit too protective and when gentlemen came near you he would throw them a sweet yet threatening smile. Overall you were still grateful you have them. You wouldn't be standing where you are right now. You weren't sure of how your brothers are going to react to this. The reaction the you're most worried of all is Heinrey's. Ofcourse this is the brother of the woman he loves, so it's kinda nerve-wracking.

So one night you told your brothers. Even if he's bed-ridden, he's still in shock, Warton was still shocked. While Heinrey sitting and sipping tea casually choked on his tea.

You guys were invited to a grand ball. Naturally you had to look presentable. Walking down the stairs Kosair can't help but look at how beautiful you look. Now that you were walking down the stairs to go to the grand ball, he can't help but fall in love all over again. He was mesmerized. He was enamored by how beautiful and elegant you look. You were clad in a white gown. The ends are lined up with beautiful gold linings. The dress aligned with beautiful white pearls all over it. Embroidered with the most and finest embroideries from the Western Kingdom. The sleeves, laced and puff with leaf embroideries lined with a few hints of gold. The coreset of the dress fitting you perfectly fine. The dress elegantly fitting you perfectly. Adorned with also 5 inch white heels with gold designs

Hooking your arms with him you walked down the corridor to the big banquet door, you can't help but think about a few weeks ago. Someone found you two together when you guys just arrived a few days in. Specifically you guys were in the Eastern Empire. It was the concubine and Duke Ergi who found you guys.

To say you guys were surprised was an understatement. The concubine knew something was going on. Specifically the concubine of the Emperor of the Eastern Empire. The concubine who's making your sister in law suffer. Yes, Kosair was already planning to ask you to marry him. You guys have already known each other for so long. You guys were just good at keeping it a secret. Well you both knew that Heinrey has taken an interest on his sister, and all the plan and stuff. Well- he doesn't know the plan but Heinrey and your now late brother Warton the lll knows he'll propose to you. He asked for both of your brothers blessings way before when you were away.

Now that made you kinda frantic. You were overthinking. Ofcourse it would be a scandal. And it had to be the concubine to find out. Ergi would keep his mouth shut. He's a loyal companion of you guys.

"Love what if she spreads a rumor!?" You shouted a little, pacing in your room.

"I'll assure you she won't be doing anytime soon, we'll ask help from your brother."

"Do you think that would work!? Now that someone has found out about us, we're going to be revealed! We worked so hard on keeping it a secret!"

"Darling, love, honey!"

With that you stopped pacing around. Kosair took your face in his big hands and put it close to his face. Your foreheads touching and his warmth seeping through your skin. He was caressing your cheeks lovingly to calm you down.

"Love, even if she spreads a rumor, even if we're revealed, she's still a concubine. You're a crown princess there's a big difference. And plus I'll love you still the same. You're the only person who accepted me and has been patient with me other than my family. You know that and I love you very much. Don't ever forget that." Kosair said while kissing your forehead and caressing your cheeks.

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225 notes - Posted April 25, 2022

#3

What I think Tsukishima's camera roll would look like!

Warnings: none

Notes: pics from Pinterest.

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233 notes - Posted May 19, 2022

#2

Luxury brands that I think they'll be an ambassador of

Character/s: Post timeskip! Sakusa Kiyoomi, Suna Rintaro, Tsukishima Kei, Kuroo Tetsurou, Miya Atsumu, Miya Osamu, Kenma Kozume

Warnings: none!

➪Sakusa Kiyoomi: Balenciaga, Louis Vuitton, Burberry. That's it that's the blog. Joking. OH EM GEE YOU GUYS DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE THIS GUY. Anyways, he would definitely look good in those. He'd definitely be the ambassador of those three brands. Like imagine him in one of those photoshoots, modeling with the new designs. LIKE UGH. This guy would definitely bring you home a bag from the women's section. LIKE YEAH. HE WOULD DEFINITELY LOOK HOT IN THE PICTURES. (OH MY, CALLING OUT TO ALL THE ARTISTS PLEASE DRAW THEM 😭😭)

➪Suna Rintaro: Louis Vuitton, Giorgio Armani, and Gucci. MAN WOULD LOOK SO FINE. Like the way he poses and that fierce look from his eyes. I'M 100% SURE, that they would buy that because he's the ambassador of those three brands. Like Kiyoomi, he'll bring stuff home form the women's section. MAN WOULD LOOK FINE IN BLACK CLOTHING/SUITS.

➪Kuroo Tetsurou: Giorgio Armani and Balenciaga. ANOTHER MAN WHO LOOKS FINE IN BLACK CLOTHING/SUITS. Oh my gosh, imagine him with his usual smirk. That hot smirk that you fell for. Like him sitting on one of those things that models sit on. MAN WOULD SLAY IT. Like you see this man wearing black, you'll definitely know what I mean.

➪Tsukishima Kei: Gucci and Rolex. MAN WOULD LOOK SO FINE IN ONE OF THOSE SHOTS WHERE HE HOLDS HIS HAND WITH THE WATCH AND BE LOOKING AT THE CAMERA AND IS WEARING WHITE. THAT'S IT. My gosh man would look dead in the camera as if he's staring down at your soul. Rawr.

➪MIYA ATSUMU: Gucci, Burberry and Hermes. MAN I'M NOT EVEN AN ATSUMU SIMP BUT MAN WOULD LOOK FINE IN THOSE. IM SO HYPED MY GOSH. HE WOULD LOOK SUPER HOT IN THEM. LIKE PLEASE LIKE NEHUDJAFYWHAH. HOT. THAT'S IT. THAT'S THE BLOG. HOT.

➪MIYA OSAMU: Calvin Klein, Burberry and Louis Vuitton. HERE ME OUT MAN WOULD LOOK GOOD IN CALVIN KLEIN. MANS GOING TO LOOK SUPER HOT AND FINE AND GIVES YOU THE FEELS GSHDHABYDJSHD. LIKE SUPER HOT. JUST AWOO!

➪ KENMA KOZUME: Louis Vuitton, Gucci, Hermes. PERIOD. HE WOULD LOOK SO FINE IN THEM. ESPECIALLY HE IS LIKE A CEO AND STUFF. HE BASICALLY IS VERY RICH AND WOULD GIVE YOU ANYTHING YOU WANT. LIKE HOT GUYS. THIS GUY WOULD LOOK GOOD IN THEM.

And this was a very normal blog of mine. Definitely didn't simp for fictional men. Also I'm sorry if this is not accurate! My knowledge isn't really wide with luxury brands. Oh my gosh and if you guys want to draw them PLEASE TAG ME! I WANNA SEE THEM SO BAD IN THOSE LUXURY BRANDS.

© Astaaaaa. Please do not steal my works or plots. This is a work of fiction and is not associated with the real anime/manga plot. If anyone has done this before please tag me! Thank you very much! Reblogs are appreciated and thank you very much for reading!

265 notes - Posted March 30, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

who would've thought?

Warnings: fluff, a bit of angst!

notes: back at it with Tsukki fluff, i just love the dancing in the rain trope!

who would've thought that the one and only tsukishima kei, the one and only salty, tall, blondie, middle blocker in karasuno, would end up having a girlfriend? the thought of him having a girlfriend didn't sit right with the team. he's salty and a bit too judgemental. or so they thought. they just didn't see the bigger picture. the bigger picture where he uses insults as a coping mechanism, just so that others wouldn't hurt him. it's his way of coping. so that he won't feel pain anymore. pain. he doesn't wanna feel that anymore. so he insults others, for them to go away. so that he won't feel that. though, when he met you, it seems that coping mechanism wasn't working. you were more bright and understanding than the others. you saw the bigger picture and understood each perspective of other people. you were more solemnly kind and understanding than others. you were more patient than others. so his resolve crumbled when he's with you. the way you laugh, the way you smile, the way you understand him and the others, they were enough for him to fall for you. he doesn't express his feelings that much but he knows that you like him. you know that too. he loves you very dearly as much as you love him. hence, it leads down to this moment. a hectic day, a hectic week, who knew this was all you both needed? to be in each other's arms, dancing in the rain. it was peaceful. it was perfect. everything was perfect. the way you guys danced with each other. the way you guys know each other's moves, as if you guys have known each other for hundreds- no thousands of years. fitting in each other's arms, peacefulness and love erupting from you both. what a euphoric feeling indeed. this is what he wanted all along. you with him.

© Astaaaaa. Please do not steal my works or plots. This is a work of fiction and is not associated with the real anime/manga/manhwa plot. If anyone has done this before please tag me! Thank you very much! Reblogs are appreciated and thank you very much for reading!

286 notes - Posted July 24, 2022

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[blackhallow]

milfyuki 4 eva !!! but fr tho i wonder what yuki was like before her milformation/transformilfation and what exactly did spur this all on (mommy issues??????) (im so proud of my creation, i think, maybe, who knows!)

todo was like the starting point and nobamaki were the ones that made the whole transformation i think and then after that its free reign at her house

(part 2 of the series: "oh ya the apartment is like a super secret secure place !!" part 3: "toge mixed food dye with the shampoo and the 3rd tv broke")

i am so invested and entertained by your writing and i rly hope u can tell

satoru having a midlife crisis abt adulthood felt real (a little too real to the point where ngl i felt attacked too....everything okay???!?!?!?) but at the same time sir??? are u okay??? ( i love it when writers make satoru depressed but like the humor coping type i just love angst i love it so much pls hurt me more i love crying over fictional characters )

aoi's sister on her way to turn tsumiki apeshit i will always live for!! nobara just like me fr she would rather go thru a full on elaborate plan involving vandalism shit rather than doing her homework we love a relatable queen i hate homework too

i am so invested and entertained by your writing and i rly hope u can tell

MAN sdjfdsjhs I think about Yuki a lot. I think about Yuki every day, she's just always spinning in my brain like a rotisserie chicken I love her, I do wonder why she decided to randomly take in a boy she saw fighting on the side of the road, like??? She's so ridiculous, she's so shady, she's so funny, she could kill everyone (probably), she contains multitudes. Anyways. I have a lot of very specific headcanons about her backstory I'm sure one day I'll write them down lmao. They don't involve mommy issues but now you've given me even more stuff to think about...

This ask is absolutely taking me out skdhfsk you're so funny anon. The contrast between all 3 parts of the series is honestly one of my favorite things ever, idk what was I thinking. And I'm really glad you're invested!! :D

Poor Gojo lmfao, maybe I was projecting on him when I wrote that scene honestly, I'm still not sure, and humorous angst always hits different... Also not you calling Nobara "Aoi's sister" I'm going to scream they're the weirdest family ever :) Unfortunately for everyone involved (except us because we will be entertained), Nobara will continue to be a menace hehe.... Thanks for this ask, it made me laugh a lot!

[anon-confesses]

Umm, hi.

I’ve a bit of an embarrassing predicament.

See, there is this fictional character whom I rather fancy, yet their age is a bit of a mystery.

I see this character as at least my own age, so that is fine. And, there is proof of their age, it was shown clear as day.

But due to this characters rather silly, rather overly-emotional personality, they choose to draw and write this character as a little child.

Which is weird to me. makes me feel a bit icky, even if the image of them I hold in my mind and these drawings and writings are totally different, and I have no attraction to those drawings or writings whatsoever.

I keep seeing the same number everywhere. The canonical age of this character. I won’t say the number but it’s way over 18.

To me, this character is just a silly guy. A guy. A himbo, if you will.

The only other people I’ve heard of who have crushed on this character have crushed on the kid version people are self-declaring as canon.

I don’t want to be in the same boat as them, those scum of the earth, despite my seeing them as much older than what others believe them to be. As more mature than what others proclaim them to be.

For damn’s sake, they only get like- what- seven minutes of screen time, tops? And like three quarters of it is took over by them crying or singing. Their screen time is soon to be more, I can’t say why though, it’d give my game away.

People get in way over their heads sometimes, when it comes to medias. One person makes something, say, a headcanon, next thing you know EVERYONES doing this headcanon, and the next thing you know it’s basically ‘canon’ now.

I can’t tell anybody. I’ll be treated like those other folk despite my viewing of this character.

I’d AT LEAST end up not being as popular anymore.

I’ve got a pretty good gig on my Fandom blog. Nobody suspects a thing. To them, I see this character the way they do.

I was asked, a week or so ago, which character from this Fandom I’m in I have a crush on by one of my friends.

I declined answering, since I just didn’t feel comfortable with sharing. I know I’d be kicked to the curb before you can say “WAIT ain’t this Fandom kinda toxic???”

All besides this controversial opinion, this Fandom is the nicest, liveliest ones I’ve been in. I’ve come to think of these guys as not just my friends, but almost like siblings.

I don’t want to lost them.

But I want to crush on who I want to crush on without feeling guilt for no damn reason.

I want to be me, not just someone trying to be like everyone else. Trying to do what everyone else is doing, because otherwise, I’ll be publically executed. Kung-Pow-Penised into an oblivion before I even get to plead my case.

Even though I don’t get to share my feelings, when I’m alone, be it dancing in my room or feeling the sunrays when I’m outdoors, I think of them.

It’s so stupid. To imagine someone’s skin against yours that isn’t even real. But every time I feel the sun I imagine them.

It’s so so SO stupid. Yet I cannot help the way I feel. These things just… happen. When I think of them my heart glows from the inside outwards, yet I feel I have to shield it away for fear of losing all the very real people I’ve come to think of as almost family to me.

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[silver-heller]

"They're an asexual character so you can't sexualize them".

As an asexual person, respectfully, honey, babe, they're a fictional character. They don't have feelings. They aren't going to cry cause someone sexualized them. You are literally only causing harm to the asexual community by dictating how we treat asexual characters, our own damn representation. Kindly shut up.

So many of the asexuals you think you are protecting by having a stick up your ass are actually the ones who end up getting harassed over this BS. And other asexuals, stop treating the "not interested in sex" view as the only valid asexual experience and the only valid way to treat asexual characters. I literally do not give a flying fuck if they are shown as not interested in canon, this is the world of fandom with headcanons and self indulgent fics, and it isn't always going to revolve around yours or canon.

If you think people pointing out not all asexual individuals are disinterested or avoid sex is "offensive" that's a you problem.

Block if it bothers you so much instead of forcing rigid standards for ace characters. I wouldn't go harassing you if you personally wrote an ace character who is interested in that as not interested. It really is not that hard to just block and move on or not seek that content. Literally, for the love of God stop purposefully seeking out content sexualizing these characters just so you can get upset about it.

And yes I am posting this on main because it annoys me that much. Don't worry I will calm down in a minute, and I am pretty good at filtering this stuff out but just...ugh, literally let asexual people do shit with asexual characters. Just getting it out of my system because, to be quite frank with you, writing all this out, people that waste that much time "defending" the sexuality of a canon character without caring about the actual individuals affected are so not worth the time of day.

[godstrain]

Rex’s Gardening Service here.

Loamy Soil:

Your passions outside of role play seep through in your writing; you bring an intellectual edge to your words, and it’s very satisfying to see. You’re also a very sweet person, and I hope you get to know you better.

Sunlight:

I’m just so impressed with your portrayal of Albert Wesker. This is a character I’ve loved for well over a decade, and yet I find myself loving him more and more through your muse. You don’t pull any punches, but you also don’t— hesitate to get down and dirty with his trauma and his struggles. Don’t ever change.

Drizzle from the watering can:

Tell us a self-indulgent headcanon that you have about your muse.

th,,, h

holy shit rex im going to fuckn cry???? what the fuck this is so sweet of you!!!!

but im going to get super real here.

honestly, when i first jumped into the RE rabbit hole, i was worried that i wouldn't be able to do wesker justice- and you know my track record of muses well enough from seeing me in the pokemon fandom lmao- and it's not like i haven't written characters that are sorta wesker-adjacent before, because i have, and still there was this lingering doubt which i will guess is due to the fact i had also never really been in a horror franchise because i had so much that i was afraid of. fear, i have found, really does hold people back, and i basically had to supreme exposure therapy myself and even then i was having a time.

that was ... may 5th, 2023. the day i decided to bite the bullet and make wesker a blog and write a character from a franchise i literally knew NOTHING about. and that's not often my style. i am a perfectionist at heart- proud and rather critical of my work, wanting to always put out my best and show that i know exactly what the hell i'm talking about. i'm a researcher and scholar just as much as i am an artist and writer- i accept nothing but 100%, and in the past, i would spend countless hours doing research before writing a goddamn thing, i'd comb through my rp partner's blogs for metas so i could make something unique for their portrayal (and that is something i still do and will always do), and then when everything was in place, i'd post a goddamn reply. i usually read at least 5 scholarly articles about a topic that i want to tie into a muse before writing a meta. i put my professional resources to use to bring life to my fiction.

but with wesker, i just went headfirst in. i didn't master the lore. i skimmed a wiki page and watched a few clips from various iterations of his character. i took a look at his tag on tumblr and twitter (and promptly was like mkay can't handle this right now). i read the wiki page a little more closely, and then i took the leap of faith, hoping that all the things i had learned from past characters and all the knowledge i had accumulated and all the experiences i've had working in the inpatient psych unit would be enough. i am not the type to leave anything unattended. this was wildly unlike me.

and i am so glad i did this, and more than that i am so, so honored that you have found more things to love about wesker through my portrayal. the portrayal that didn't get the same perfectionist treatment before it even saw the light of day. wesker, whose lore i have explored rather extensively in the ... what uh. 3 months i have been writing him- there's so much i still have to learn, and so much i want to explore. i see art as it should be: a mirror of life and society. the truth is, albert wesker could be anyone. that pain and suffering and horrible upbringing is a thing that happens. he's so painfully alive in that way. it's hard to look at the truth like that, but i also sure hate ignorance, in myself and in others. we cannot learn if we do not see. so i don't hold my punches, and i don't hide the aspects of him that i know sometimes would be cut out. there's so much i have learned from writing wesker- about how i write, what i expect of myself, and how i can better myself in so many ways, and i never expected to learn through this.

so thank you. thank you so much for this, it means more than i could possibly put into words.

on the note of self-indulgent meta analysis, i want you to know that i picked "wilde" for wesker's original surname because of my love for oscar wilde. it's a common theme in my metas where i will throw in something as a treat for myself like that. i picked cambridge, ma, for his birthplace because i live nearby, and there's something about having a character you love "nearby" that is??? sorta serotonin inducing. you know, in the style of tolkien's desire of dragons- "I desired dragons with a profound desire. Of course, I in my timid body did not wish to have them in the neighborhood. But the world that contained even the imagination of Fáfnir was richer and more beautiful, at whatever the cost of peril." and for me, i guess it's something like that. i keep the things i find the most interesting close in some form, yeah?

[martianbugsbunny]

OUAT Thoughts Pt.74--Episodes 19-20

I have watched through S7E20; spoilers DNI. Also, spoiler warning for anyone further behind than I am.

I’m gonna miss having to ask spoilers to DNI. If there’s one show I wish I could watch from scratch for a second time, it’s Once Upon A Time. But the idea of not having it rattling around in my brain is also kinda sad, so I guess it’s for the best that I can’t.

—Holy sh*t this sh*t is batsh*t crazy.

—Time travel?!?!! It isn’t bad enough that we had a curse and memory loss but it also had to be time travel?

—TWO RUMPLESTILTSKINS?!?!? Woooow. One of them is the good version of Rumple who’s had character growth and one of them is the Dark One version of him who still burns down villages and says “dearie.” Honeys I am just living. Large. Two Rumples in the same place. Wow.

—I love that basically the first thing Hook did when he remembered who he was, was staring in disgust at his false hand. Icon.

—Actually, there’s technically three Rumples in the same world right now. Once again, wow.

—It’s so sad that when everyone got back their memories, Hook had to be loaded into an ambulance and Rumple was all balonely.

—I’m even less emotionally prepared for Hook dying than I am for Rumple dying. If Hook dies I will never recover. I will cry my body weight in tears and flood my neighborhood. So if a random Midwestern town goes underwater for no apparent reason in the next couple o days, y’all heard it here first.

—Those wood nymphs were pretty. I like how they went for the turquoise instead of standard green, and the red clothing was a brilliant touch. Great color palette.

—I’m now mad at fictional ancient humans and Gothel for wrecking Earth’s magic. How dare they take that from us? They made our world so boring.

—I adore Alice for choosing love over hate. She is such a beautiful little lady, and she’s so clever.

—Her little origami white rabbit in her little origami mushroom forest was cute. I’m soft for handicrafty people to begin with, and add that to bunnies being my fave animal and Wonderland being my fave book, and you get a whole lot of being soft for Alice.

—Family stakeouts are the best.

—Kudos to Rumple for doing the right thing and helping Regina try to restore Henry’s memory. He messed up, yes, but he did his best to make it right, and what’s more he actually apologized.

—I’m very glad he and Regina seem to have reached an amiability because them being shady pals together makes me happy.

—I love the friendly, companionable way Hook said “crocodile” when he got his memories back. It went from *loathing, hatred, saying it is like a curse on your very soul* to *cute, almost fond nickname*

—In case you hadn’t guessed, I’m low-key still on my CaptainCroc kick and in a little while I’m about to make it everyone’s problem. I can’t decide if I’mma wait until I watch through the show again (which is going to happen, because I’ve discovered that I can no longer live without these characters) so I can get as much detail in each season as I have for the seventh, or if I’m gonna shoot my best shot sooner. Probably should’ve started with this, but I’m building a CaptainCroc AU that’s basically just the canon story but CaptainCroc. I have like five drafted posts for it at this point, because I’m waiting to post the headcanons until I post the AU itself, and nobody asked to hear any of this right now but I’m enjoying writing the stuff.

—If you got through that last RKO outta nowhere chunk, here 🫶🙌👏 You deserve heart hands, a high five, and applause. That was a tangent and a half.

—Is Facilier really dead? I must say, I’m a little bit disappointed with how he turned out. They got the aura right; the flickering lights in his presence, the cards (though he could’ve done with a bit more slight-of-hand), and the stuff in the episode where he was introduced was really choice. But they didn’t use him soon enough. We should’ve wasted less time on Tremaine and Drizella, who turned out to be pretty meaningless anyway, and more time on him. Although I will concede that, as the guy working in the shadows, he does work well *alongside* other villains, because that kind of character doesn’t necessarily work great as a singular big bad.

—I like the casting for him tho. Facilier in the movie is interesting because he’s skinny, verging on scrawny; he’s not physically intimidating at all. Compare him to a badguy like Scar from the Lion King. Scar has green eyes, sharp claws, a devious expression, all signs that we’re not supposed to trust him, maybe even that we should fear him. Facilier is a much more neutral-looking fellow, so any sense of fear or apprehension about him comes only from the narrative. But I actually enjoy that he’s a bigger guy in this show, because a crime baron should be someone who’s intimidating through appearance alone. Especially considering it took us a long time to build up to him using magic, giving him a broader, more imposing physique worked to his advantage.

—Also, the dude’s voice is lovely.

—When he’s around people like Alice and Hook, Rumple is really gentle and I’m all here for it. When Hook asked who he was, Rumple smoothed it over without brushing it aside, because he figured the whole truth would probably make Hook more upset. He was also very good with Hook when he’d just escaped the witches and was agitated. Gentle Rumple is yet another laddie I’m soft for.

—I love the parenting in this show. I mean, bad or shaky parenting is also one of the core elements of the story, which is a good counterpoint, but the good parenting is really good. Regina is incredibly supportive of Henry. She makes it clear that his feelings are valid and that he is heard, and I must stan her for it.

—I was gonna say “if Gothel is gone, and Facilier is dead, who’s gonna be the finale villain?” but I just had the terrible, horrible, no good very bad thought that it might be Wish Realm Rumple. Worst case scenario? He kills Rumple, then dies when Alice takes the power from him as the Guardian. Watching two Rumples die in the span of two episodes might end me.

—Can we get some Storybrooke please? If I have to be incredibly sad, then I’d at least like to see the Charmings again.

—Once again, this show is giving me mega Ever After epilogue vibes. “The point, gentlemen, is that they lived.”

—My mom just proposed that the Rumple in Storybrooke will die, and then Alice will take the dagger from Rumple and he’ll become mortal, and *then* he and Belle will grow old and die together and honestly that’s pretty much a same-level sucker punch to the feels, but for different reasons. Watch us both be wrong and the real end be much worse than either of us can imagine.

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the poets and their fav marvel characters/movies !!!

ok honestly i have no idea if any of this makes sense lol but i hope it’s comprehendible. also i have not had the time or resources to watch any of the new mcu era, which is why i didn’t include any of it. and if you have any other ideas of which characters and movies the poets would like comment them bc i want to see what you guys think hehe !! <3 sending love and hugs to anyone who needs it (and anyone who doesn’t, too)

neil: neil adores comic books. he used to sneak them when he was younger, taking breaks from his summer school homework to read them (he has a stash in his room that his father still hasn’t found). there is no doubt in my mind that neil wouldn’t be head over heels for spiderman, are you kidding ?? most definitely tried to climb walls or hang upside down when he was little. desperately wishes he could come up with his own chemical equation for web fluid. he’d completely immerse himself in the fact that there are three different eras to depict and analyze, too, having a very heated debate with charlie and meeks about who the best spiderman is. also really wants to reenact the upside down kiss with todd

neil’s fav movies (he can’t pick a fav) would be: the og spiderman, the amazing spiderman, and spiderman: homecoming (likes spiderman: 3 purely for shits and gigs)

todd: i feel like todd really likes comics (would spend his summers collecting them and reading in his room while his parents took jeff to sports camps/summer camps). he’d love scarlet witch because todd really loves to see her character growth through the films (coming to understand her powers and utilizing them accordingly), and also just admires how badass she is (”she’s so powerful and she doesn’t even know it until she faces hardship. oh, i love her so much”). upon hearing this explanation, neil couldn’t contain a smile because todd doesn’t even realize that he’s the exact same way (’: todd also likes bucky because he’s “so cool” and his metal arm is “sick” hehe (and he really loves the bond that bucky and steve have)

todd’s fav movie would probably be captain america: tfa because he likes seeing young steve rogers of course, but also because todd admires his strength (sees himself in pre-serum steve and hopes that one day he will become his own version of post-serum steve (: ). also like avengers: aou bc that’s when he’s really first introduced to scarlet witch (watches the post-credit scene from captain america: tws just to see wanda and pietro)

charlie: charlie never really read comic books, but he loves the mcu !! first of all, charlie can’t decide anything ever, so why would picking his fav superhero be any different; peter quill, iron man, or black widow. he’d like peter quill because “he’s unapologetically himself and completely hilarious,” and would absolutely dress as starlord for halloween at least once (probably more than once). as for iron man, charlie just likes how cool tony stark is and how he invented a suit that could fly (”there are so many likable qualities about him !!” he’d say, to which cameron would reply, “like what, the fact that he’s a womanizer, a pompous ass, or that he’s seemingly too smart for his own good ?” and charlie would just smirk, “all of the above”). for black widow, it’d be pretty simple (“she’s so badass. i can’t tell if i want to do her or be her”). claims his honorary mentions would be korg, rocket, and groot

charlie’s fav movies are guardians of the galaxy vol. 1 and vol. 2 because they’re “fun.” likes thor: ragnarok because it also has fun vibes.

meeks: meeks LOVES comic books to begin with, and collects them avidly, but dr. strange and the entire idea surrounding his powers/strengths ?? the ability to bend time ?? if that doesn't sound right up meeks’ alley, idk what does. there are clearly a lot of things that meeks will geek out over unapologetically, but dr. strange is one of those things that he just will not shut up about, ever (”it’s just so AWESOME”). desperately wishes that sling rings were real. also gushes with todd about bucky’s metal arm, going off on a tangent about the science behind the “rigidity flexibility ratio.” can also go on for hours about the quantum realm (:

therefore, meeks’ favorite mcu film is dr. strange and he would be completely eager and buzzing for dr. strange in the multiverse of madness. also likes antman (:

pitts: also a comic book geek hehe. and i'm sensing that pitts really likes thor. thor is pretty much just a dorky, goofy tall dude (like pitts, just with... a lot bigger biceps LOL). finds a lot of the same things funny in the movies that thor laughs at. getting into thor gets him into norse mythology, where he’d spend hours searching for/reading books on it at the welton library (meeks would have to come find him because he’d been gone for that long). wishes he could grow facial hair that nicely, and even attempted to once, but charlie shut that down real quick HAHA (”i'm not going to stop making fun of how ridiculous you look until you shave”). becomes a huge einstein rosen bridge geek, learning all there is to learn about that (and norse everything).

pitts’ favorite movie is thor: ragnarok (”it’s the best out of the three”), and he really doesn’t enjoy thor: the dark world (almost has a vendetta against it, “why did they feel the need to dye his beard and his eyebrows ??”)

cameron: surprisingly knows a lot about comics and the mcu ? his fav character is captain america due to steve rogers’ unflinching morals and standards (cameron began to to veer a teeny tiny bit away from cap, though, when he began to rebel in captain america: civil war, but he still loves him). really likes the historical aspect behind captain america (wwii and the 1940s). he and pitts absolutely had a meltdown when steve lifted mjolnir and almost got kicked out of the movie theater for their reaction (”NO FUCKING WAY, NO FUCKING WAY !! I KNEW IT. PITTSIE, I KNEW IT !!” which is super uncharacteristic for cameron, but he doesn’t fuck around when it comes to cap). got in an actual argument with charlie after captain america: civil war arguing that tony was in the wrong (”steve was doing the right thing because he was following his moral code !! even if he was breaking rules, it still made sense,” and charlie would just laugh, “you say that, but i was just following my moral code when i made the phone call to god and you didn’t find that funny,” “you’re an idiot, charlie”). also really likes nebula bc he relates to her in the fact that she never felt like she belonged/fit in.

his father served in wwii, so captain america: tfa has a really special place in his heart (he’s seen it so many times he can cite the movie as it goes along)

knox: knox knows the least about superheroes/comics, but still likes to tag along to the movies when the poets go to a premiere. he really likes black widow (”she’s just really pretty, okay?”) and hulk (”he just smashes stuff, HAHA ! how awesome is that ??”). even though he’s not very knowledgable about the mcu or marvel itself, he loves to listen to meeks about everything. almost always asks questions throughout the entirety of the movie (”knox, shut up, we’ll explain after it’s over !!”). thanos really freaked him out tbh; the idea of something like the snap happening dialed his whole “carpe diem” thing to eleven lol. 

knox’s fav movie is the first avengers because the amount of conflict isn’t as bad as the other avengers movies (”i like seeing them work together, it makes me sad when they argue and disagree).