#also I only made a few because I didn't want to waste energy on stuff no one asked for alsdkjf

[zackmartin]

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[fallout-fucker]

As much as I don't wanna take away from the 50's aesthetic of Fallout, a part of me wonders if any other country did progress past that era, mostly for the music and cultural movements. Like, how do we know the UK wasn't in a 70's hippie and/or 80's punk reminiscent era?

Sometimes I get this little headcanon that a lot of the same songs and music genres that came out of like the 50's-90's, perhaps even to the 2010's, still exist in the Fallout universe. Maybe not every artist, understandably, but a few? But the reason that there's only 50's music is that at some point a few decades before the Great War, America quietly and gradually banned the majority of music genres and songs because they didn't fit into the 'Clean, good, family-friendly' American culture they wanted. Also, it was a move the government made to control the populace. Take away art and music and things that could add to the already existent tensions due to the Resource Wars and such, and there are fewer things to stir the pot. If people aren't inspired by music and its influence, then maybe they won't be influenced to make a stand. It was a way to control them and keep them peaceful. Bring in more songs about love from the 50's, and people start settling down like in the 50's. Want people to embrace nuclear energy and robots, even if they're potentially a radiation risk? Atom bomb, baby! Have a few party songs, a few innuendo-filled songs (The Wanderer, Rocket 69), and one or two slightly political ones (Anything Goes), and they still think they have a choice.

The reason there's only a few songs in the games isn't just because they're the ones that survived the bombs, it's also because they're the ones deemed acceptable by the government and the rest were already destroyed. When I do think about this stuff, I always imagine people smuggling holotapes of music into the US.

Maybe Sole had a couple pirated holotapes? Maybe they never will again and that sucks. The 'Wealth might not even know there's other music. Perhaps Daisy heard some? Perhaps they try to remind one another how a particular song went, or what the missing lyric they can't recall is. They bond over hating the limited amount of songs now compared to what it was. It was bad enough when the US government discreetly banned ABBA, but now there's nothing. If Sole has to hear one of those songs again and nothing else, they'll go storming old recording studios and illegal Pre-War clubs themselves to find other music.

What I'm saying is, I would find it funny if the US is stuck listening to the same 40 songs, whilst people in other countries could be popping everything they have to Dancing Queen or Barbie Girl.

I like the mental image of someone fighting for their life against raiders to Gimme, Gimme, Gimme, or fighting glowing rats to Toxic by Britney Spears. What if Fallout-verse Taylor Swift is like 90-something when the bombs drop, and is now roaming the Wastes as a Little Old Lady Ghoul and the locals dub her as 'Granny/Grandma Ghoul'.

/Joke/Shitpost/

[rttnpnkpmpkn]

💗🌷🌼 ✨This is the you are amazing award. Send it to ten bloggers you think are wonderful or just take a moment to bask in your own awesomeness! ✨ 🌼🌷💗

Aww thank you! Sorry that this ask took so long, mostly because I had to really sit down and meditate on how I want to answer this, especially when it comes to naming the wonderful people who helped made my online experience worth staying for ^^ I can't really pinpoint just a few people because it's pretty unfair to the others who come and go my way and had a part in my character development lolol.

I want to thank my online friends who we've made it through thick and thin whenever something catches on fire. (Y'all know who you are 💖). I had serious anxiety and trust issues, and I still continue working on it but my friends helped provide the breakthrough I needed to get to where I am today. They're my pillar whether they realized it or not and I hope I don't do them much disservice in the future *sweat*. Thank you for all the laughs and everything you do! I know my interactions come off as lukewarm (I'm very introverted, so my battery is busted as hell) compared to how you chat with others, but it's been an enjoyable experience from my POV regardless. Y'all get a huge boop from me!

I'm also sorry that it didn't work out with those in which we left on unamicable terms, they do also have a part in building more to my worldview and life lessons learned after all this. Life is short to hold grudges and stress, so I will wish that they too meet their peace along the way, even in separate rooms. I also have my moments where my handling and problem-solving skills need work, and I can only move forward and improve on the next with my communication skills. I really can't blame others for having a negative view on me because I know I could've handled things better. The answer just had to come later after that point 😓. Take care and may time be kinder to y'all.

I very much want to thank you and every random peep who took their time to comment and like my works! I cannot reply tp all of them because sometimes my energy be too drained to catch up with them all but it really makes me smile reading them! I'm taking notes from y'all~ xD

There are a whole lot of reasons but I'm making stuff to have something to look forward to. So many disappointments in life and circumstances beyond control, I was thinking," it doesn't matter if it's gonna be lost to time, if nobody is making this SHIZZ happen NOW, I'll do it myself!! (though that's too overconfident of myself since I lack the skills to do it justice lol) ." So even if it's been a waste of time in hindsight, it won't feel that way *during* it lol. I didn't realize then it would have resonate and be enjoyed by fellows on the same boat. Even if the campfire is small, the quality of company is better than the quantity. Though the only benefits to offer are inside jokes if you've been there heheh...

TLDR: It's been quite a journey to get to where I am. I have many people to thank for helping me learn, and thanks for being what I want to see in a community. Be well and have a nice one! 🥰🙏

[the-blind-assassin-12]

20 Questions for Writers

I was tagged by the lovely @maggiemayhemnj - thank you!!

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

Ten. I was cross-posting everything for a minute there, but I lost steam and now I only post here - except for Aphelion, which I am co-writing with @something-tofightfor. That still gets posted in both places.

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

68,449 - not counting Aphelion. My tumblr word count is... a lot higher.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Right now just Pedro Pascal characters.

4. top five fics by kudos?

Gonna go by notes on tumblr instead because that's where most of my stuff is:

Bes'laar Din Djarin x F!Reader (based on artwork by @stealyourblorbos!)

Survivor Blues Joel Miller x F!Reader

Forever Din Djarin x F!Reader

The Cold Offends Me Oberyn Martell x F!Reader (The Viper & The Wild Thing universe)

Point of No Return Ezra x OFC Clara

5. do you respond to comments?

I try to respond to all comments because I appreciate them SO MUCH MORE than I can accurately convey. I love hearing from people about what they liked or what shocked them or what made them feel things, and I really love the chance to sort of have a micro mini chat about it in the comments. That being said, sometimes I completely check out and miss a whole batch or a whole fic worth of comments goes unresponded to for far too long. And I always feel bad when that happens, which sometimes results in me responding to things WAY after the comments were left, to the point where it wouldn't surprise me if the person has already forgotten the fic/what they wrote... but I haven't forgotten how much it meant to me that they read and commented on my work. So even if it's 6 months to an eternity late, I intend to respond to them all.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

It Pours From Your Eyes Joel x Tess

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I feel like most of them have happy endings, but we'll go with A Little Christmas Magic - Frankie x F!Reader as perhaps the fluffiest happy ending.

8. do you get hate on fics?

I have gotten non-fic specific hate directed at my writing before, but that was a few years ago and it hasn't happened since. Which is cool because the fewer people wasting their time and energy on being unnecessarily mean about things - let alone about stories about silly little fictional guys - the better.

9. do you write smut?

I do, but I do not consider it one of my strong suits, and I typically only include it if it fits with the overall story though a few times I have written smut just to be filthy as a challenge... and as a treat.

10. craziest crossover?

I've been slowly spinning a True Detective x Tim Rockford crossover like a rotisserie chicken for months but I've only managed to jot down a few unconnected snippets thus far. And a title. It's gonna be called (maybe, if I ever actually write it) Flat Circle, Twisted Game.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, but if I did I would be absolutely PISSED. And I can't say I'd be nice about it.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope, but that would be cool AF.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! I am currently co-writing Aphelion with @something-tofightfor and it is so much FUN.

14. all time favorite ship?

In all honesty it's probably Leslie Knope and Ben Wyatt. I was straight up ready to stop watching Parks and Rec if they didn't end up together.

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

lol what kind of passive aggressive, self-doubt feeding question is this? I'd like to finish them all and I try like hell to believe that I will.

16. what are your writing strengths?

I think it's probably describing natural settings? But maybe dialogue. Idk.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Smut. Also keeping the momentum to finish things in a timely fashion, but mostly smut.

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I try to only use it when it makes sense or when it benefits the story and not just as like... a novelty or an afterthought.

19. first fandom you wrote in?

Teeeeeeeeeeechnically? Like first one I ever made content for? I guess that would be the Twilight series. But I will not be sharing where to find that here. And if you find out where it is, you take that knowledge to the grave with you, you hear me? DO YOU HEAR ME, FRIENDS?

20. favorite fic you've written?

Even though it's nowhere near done, I love and am so very proud of Survivor Blues. But then again, even though it's a few years old now and I feel like my writing has grown since finishing it, Point of No Return will always have a very big piece of my heart.

Tagging: anyone who sees this and wants to play! Please tag me so I can see your answers!!

[madfantasy]

Dear Blogging

Hope ur doing well🍀

When I realise my updates are futher apart in time, it makes me sad. I don't have much new to say, I am in the same trance following no time yet feeling every passing second. In progress that I can't feel because of how much I'm used to pain and nothingness. I am okay, finally had the brain power to make words today, the last months were exceptionally difficult as I mentioned the unrelenting near 50° heat. And for the majority of that time I spent it without any means to cool off, which periodically made me sick and kept me in bed too long. Even more bits of my teeth broke off, rendering me unable to smile or eat without jolts of pain. My unstable network provider topping off the misery.

Since I moved to my "sunny room" I couldn't use the net I waste money on for because of the weak signal, so I had not much sources of distractions or solace. Nothing separating me from the continuous good old times; living in absolute isolation. I don't think I have online connections anymore and wouldn't blame anyone for forgetting me. I'm sorry, I feel absolutely disconnected, I don't know what I want or what to do or how to dare be involved. And in all honesty, I am functioning on 1% energy spent on drawing..

I was trying to have a goal to compete that, to keep my faith up and have hope and project it. Wanting a red and black room was one, but I gave up on it because I didn't have enough work to afford it, and really the experience of buying stuff online only to find the advertised color was a lie, specially if its red was a huge waste of time and money. And my guardians fed up with me asking them to return things, ungraciously. I liked my room eventually

After prolonged periods of depression, I found myself longing for my traditional art, flicking through my old diary. I craved to return able to draw on paper again, and the few times I tried, memories, good and bad gushed through. Relived again how it was to draw in secret and to love things you are constantly told are not for you or called it not natural and be punished severely for.. just made me cry over how culture always just hurt for the sake of hurting and uses religion as a loose cape, mourning them using it to exclude while it was something aimed to be harmonious with all and they never focus on being actual good people over keeping appearances.. for the longest time making me wonder if something was actually wrong with me beyond just being different than them.. now there's plethora of mental things thanks to their abuse. Starting with my inability to look at people without feeling quick to panic discomfort. Making me see this isolation as they say, a "blessing in disguise ". I don't know how to take that as, tbh, I still to this day get nightmares of when I used to live in big houses with multiple families, or the endless schools I went to.

I started drawing on paper bit by bit. The minute I find myself overwhelmed I stop. With time I felt I can enjoy it again, and recalled all what passer through my mind as kid, how I fantasised of owning the chunkiest coloring tin or the thickest drawing paper. So decided to get sketchbooks and notebooks and try everything new, I didn't care

I didn't know where to start, so I got randomly selected sketchbook and one lockable journal, so I can hopefully write diary again like i used to. I show everything i get to them but already Guardians couldn't help themselves and flick though it, I didn't say anything but my inside automatically clinched and turned into an angry imp snatching to have it back, like i used to actually react when they searched my school things for doodles.

I changed the lock c:

I learned of the existence of more mechanical pencil sizes so I got every possible one, carefully not breaking my law of owning only red and black things, hehe. Also some essentials so my guardians won't comment on my spending ways. Like a tooth brush, and the best bonnet ever. I also got myself a backpack for my pen people to live in, for the longest time I wanted a shark backpack but this one just screamed Mani (it was cheaper 😝). As kid I had a red bag with snoopy's face on it, it was my literal safe zone that I carried it everywhere, pretended to travel in cardboard boxes with and had many garbage things stored in it that ment something dear to me, already that blissful feeling is regenerated when i wore it. And hopefully next month I get work to buy colors..

I got my eyes on those atm

(Also something funny, I can promise you I got the talk about devil worship from them for getting horns, and here's the thing; they know about the actual sketchy devil worship practices, its a common knowledge in our surroundings. To me, having red horns it felt Mani like, style euphoria, I love being a polite naughty gentlethem and that spoke of it clearly to me so I didn't care too much)

I also in my careless defiance rush, bought a shoulder- abaya that resembles more of a cloak, to me at least. To help dim my dysphoria even for the tiniest bit and maybe give me one point of courage to want to go out when possible. 'Cause the only thought i have when I'm out is absolute fear, or brain blanking out on me and i freeze in my place

I was stressed for so long that they might fight me on it because they never allowed me to wear but the cover ups of their choice from the dark ages, one I could not walk in or see where I was headed in (i actually wear glasses to see), but I presented it to them and I don't think they noticed.

Maybe now i can feel comfortable in it, throughout the years I never really adjusted to wearing it— having almost no occasion to leave the house 3/4 of my life. It was never something i felt connected to, been only a reminder of pure shame and embarrassment. From the very first day I started to cover my face at middle school, was forced to do that the day before, non of my guardians taught me how to wear it. And the minute it fell from my face thanks to my clumsy attempts at tying it, my face was welcomed with— not the fresh air and 4k sight clarity, but a slap that knocked me back into the car. Followed by an entire hysterical berating, calling me a sl*t and what have you, for everyone who was dropping their kids to see and hear.

I didnt know it at the time, but i was also mocked of how I wore it many times by my peers, while some took petty on me and dressed me themselves. I merely envied those foreign students who wore it just to follow the school rules and offed it the minute they got into their cars to leave. I still have no answer to what I truly want, and thats okay..

I forgot to mention how they can be super pricy, so I got the cheapest I could, resulting it being thick, strings jutting everywhere, way too big on me and all of its buttons fell. So I had to do some long hem shortenings and buttons sewing, I think I started to like it

I now just need someone to hold my hand and never let go, to take me to the hospital and hypothetically be my voice till mine return... manifesting

Oh and i did drew alot of snarry cuz it was my only cure during this time of dissociative routine, ofc endless of sketches that did not make it and 2 did, and still more to come hopefully when I continue to feel better

I wish you all the best in this world my dears, your burdens ease and your heart beats with your desires met , mani loves you ❤️‍🔥🍀🕊🙏

24.6.2022

[ina-nis]

There's something really conflicting I noticed lately... it has to do with my social fatigue and friends, as much as I wish it was not true...

Because, to me, romantic feelings are the natural outcome of friendships, with the ones I talk to, somewhat, regularly, it's always a matter of time for me to fall in love with them so... now that I can actually confess without destroying these connections, I'll take the rejections as redirection and move on, except...

I don't really move on. I compromise. I prefer to maintain the relationship as it is and let go of my feelings but... it's complicated because I fall in love with these people for a reason. By choosing to set my own personal feelings aside in the name of friendship, I end up with all these frustrating feelings that have nowhere to go, being in love with several of my friends, having been rejected by all of them, and compromising by staying friends with them.

I don't... really want to go there but this is, truly, me "wasting" time with unavailable people. The difference is that I put friendship over my own romantic desires - since friendship is something I desire as well! - and it really exhausts me.

I feel silly about only having realized that so recently...

Dedicating so much of my social time and energy to my friendships it's awesome, so long as I keep on avoiding the budding frustration! I thought I got over it already, since I finally can maintain my relationships after a rejection... but it's more the case that I have built a higher tolerance, therefore I can withstand frustration for longer. The end result is the same, I assume.

The time/energy I'm spending with my friends is precious and I treasure it very much. At the same time, it drains me to all other social activities, maybe even stuff like actively trying to date.

When I'm coming from a "blank slate," e.g. when I burned bridges and relationships didn't survive rejection, I could keep on pushing onwards, and looking for what I need without attachments or social "obligations" - when you're alone and you don't need to worry about nurturing your relationships, since you don't have any close to you, etc - I feel like it was "easier" on me, "easier" on my heart too: the rejections were, quite literally, redirection. I'd move on from the person and that relationship and that was it. No lingering attachments, no lingering feelings, no lingering connections. That connection would not provide me with what I want so I'd stop spending energy on it and go find something that would.

The tricky part is that I also want friends so... casting that aside was painful, not having people I can talk to regularly, not having someone to share, and so on... that was all very painful, too.

I found this middle-ground where I can keep my friends, and I feel like the suffering just gets drawn out... without proper "closure," the frustration doesn't go away. It doesn't really matter when I decide that I've "moved on" and "accepted" the rejection because that person will likely remain an object of love to me.

I know the reason why this happens is because I don't have my feelings reciprocated - and I can absolutely tell the difference now, after I've experienced that with my, then, safe person, a few years ago! - I believe once my feelings are reciprocated, I'll have someone I can redirect my love and desire, and I'll actually be able to have friends normally, since I won't constantly fall in love with them and have to repeat that cycle over and over again.

Existing in such state, where I'm trying to maintain my friendships, and said relationships all made me go through falling in love and then rejection, is excruciating. The frustration just takes a longer time to build up but it does happen and I worry it'll eventually become too much for me to deal with.

While I'm spending so much energy to maintain these fulfilling friendships that come with unfulfilled romance attached to them, I drain my social batteries, that I could be using to pursue this fulfilled romance I need. But... the result wasn't that different before, I guess. At least now I can keep people in my life. I'm not sure what to do about that whole falling in love thing that always happen, considering that's the main cause of my ailments currently.

Whatever I choose to do, whatever path I chose to take, there's a lot of things - namely, people - out of my control so I really do need to be "alright" with sitting in this discomfort, but I do wonder what would happen now, if I stopped dedicating so much time to unfulfilling, but yet, precious relationships.

How would the me from today act as a "blank slate?" I'm sure it would be at least somewhat different considering I did change quite a lot in the last couple of years.

I wonder if I'll find something good, or at least comforting, in the midst of these circumstances, too.

[sweetswesf]

Check In

What I Did

Cleaned

Shopped for a new pair of jeans

Sent some friends some Christmas gifts

Led my professional black software engineering group last minute after the original leader couldn't make it

Online shopped for some Carhartt overalls

Reread an old journal...it happened to be a retelling of one of the hardest moments in my relationship with my mom that I think about often

Got invited to ride down to LA by a person I thought didn't want anything to do with me...she may just be using me, but, hey, whatever, I benefit from this situation too...

What I Learned

A lot of people care for me

Don't wait...tomorrow is not promised

But also...wait on God...

Don't be so quick to write people off

Don't be so quick to give people so much information

Feeling

A lot of days recently I have been feeling lonely despite the outpouring of support and check ins I've been receiving...I really want a romantic love...a friend asked if I was talking to anyone, and since about February of this year, I've had NO ONE that I was talking to in a sort of flirty stage

I know God has something great for me

Impatient...impatient for love, friendship, a new job, my family situation to get better, the scale to go down, to move...I constantly have to remind myself, "just wait..."

Bad that I doubted some folks...

Kinda paranoid, NGL, but I need to remind myself God's at the helm

Sad I've got looks from so many companies, some of which I really want to be at...and I am just not prepared...despite me working really hard...

Reading old posts I made made me really sad...I repress so many bad memories that, reading it back, made me feel a bit better about taking this time away to heal...it was so long that I had to stop reading...so much stuff I willfully forgot the minor details of but never forgot the major events and how they made and still make me feel

Kind of tired and that I need a helper...I

Shopping & internet are distractions

Nervous...I think of my gym crush a lot, but that's only because I'm more desperate for male attention right now, and he's the ONLY consistent one that I see every day...I've got a feeling that he may be curious about me but I've been wrong before and I don't want to be wrong this time because truthfully, I don't think he's who I should be with...not sure if it is lust, loneliness, or if it would actually be good to explore a relationship with him...it's times like these where I need to just go with my gut and listen more in my prayers about it

Hearing that another colleague has already done about 40 algorithms and I have only done a fraction of that, made me feel like I've been wasting time, but I have been making progress...I do need to make a little more though...time goes by fast

Glad that I waited on God and didn't go down to LA, because now I've got a trip out...and I bought the 2nd plane ticket by accident, but I guess it wasn't an accident, because now I'm going down and will use it on the way back up!

Takeaways

I should read the resources my therapist recommended

I want to stop dwelling on the past

I'm going to switch up my study schedule and focus more on algos

I'm not sure if I'm ready to stop being so hard on myself...I don't know if I am or not...

How I Got Myself Out of a Rut

Cooked for myself and ate the food that I had in my fridge, not the pizza I knew I really wasn't going to like after a few bites or food from elsewhere

Prayed

Finally decorated my Christmas tree

Goals Completed

Found a therapist

Stopped listening to people worried about their own circumstances and remembering God works on his own time and that I am in no rush...

Got back on the ball

Being kinder to myself and stopping guilting myself if my energy isn't always on 100%

Goals After Today

Strengthen my relationship with God

Understand the main concepts I need to from Interview Cake, AlgoExpert, etc. in 6 months, NOT less than 3

Drop my body fat percentage to Marion Jones, Michaela Cole, or Jade Cargill levels

Consistently fight urge to fill up my time with social media/YouTube

Fully forgive my family & build a great relationship with them

Be more confident & faithful

250 steps/hour & 10k steps/daily consistently

Drink more than 64oz a day consistently

Go on a date with a guy I actually like who actually likes me too

Learn more about my gym crush & get him to ask for my number

Get a house similar to that one in Spain

Update my personal app

[girltomboy]

My headphones arrived yesterday, I like them, they feel comfy and sound good and the battery seems to last forever. The only thing I'm missing and wish they came with is a case or at least a little cloth bag to carry them around. But most of the time they are on my head if I have to be away somewhere so it's not a big bother. Above all, I was able to fulfill my planned aesthetic today 🙏 so that was a sliver of satisfaction in my otherwise grey and exhausting day. I feel so tired and numb this evening, I don't have the energy to move from my bed at all. My bf told me he might actually come here next week, which - and I hope this doesn't make me sound like a bad partner or something - is simply great news. Not only am I relieved of the stress that would otherwise have spoiled my rest this weekend, but I am also able to work from home next week.

So last night I saved this post to my drafts because I didn't have the energy to continue it anymore. Then right before going to bed I discovered that my thermostat batteries went out, which is a devastating experience because my thermostat is right next to a light switch, so I have to pull that out in order to change the batteries. And next year I had to call my landlord about it, and he sent his. Well, my neighbor to help me with that. But this time I really was so pissed off about this chore that I didn't want to deal with that again. So I slept in the cold and decided to take matters in my own hands. I even dreamed that a professor from my uni - WHO didn't even teach my generation!! I never even met this guy!! - came to my apartment for some reason and judged and mocked my no longer functional heating. And I was so mad and shouted at him for his oblivious privilege. Then when I woke up I turned off the power and pulled the light switch out like I saw my neighbor doing, and replaced the batteries in my thermostat, turned the power back on, the heating went on, and the light switch was functional too. Then because it's a gorgeous day and the sun is shining for the first time this week, I put on some nice and warm clothes, put a bunch of stuff in my cool tote bag that my manager gave me for Christmas, put on my headphones and went outside. I got myself 2 hot dogs and went to the forest, I took some photos of the snowy forest warmed by the sunlight, sat on a tree trunk, ate a banana and read my book. I walked some more around the park next to the forest, sat in the sun, and had a lovely time listening to the playlist that Apple Music made me which is full of bangers back to back. However I'm a little more than a little upset with my boyfriend for not texting or calling me at all today, and not even reading my excited texts I sent him after completing the thermostat ordeal. Even though he appears to have been online. And I don't know if it's because he still hasn't woken up even though it's almost 4pm, or if it's cause he's studying (less likely tbh) but it's a problem precisely because he's running out of time to study and he's BEEN wasting his days by oversleeping. But anyway I really cbf to waste my gorgeous day wallowing in my anger towards him. I'm home trying to warm up cause I've been outside for a few hours and it's like subzero degrees.

[vesperewrites]

About the odd takes post, i agree vehemently. Honestly from my time on hotd twitter, the quotes and calling out happens all the time and about everything. Someone made this meme which encapsulated all of the asoiaf fans and it even caused a meltdown https://twitter.com/thelaughinstorm/status/1676291270937813002?t=qbKd-dpdyT4llG38Pe6rZg&s=19

Anyway for rhncts, they're known for accusing people of being lesbophobic for not liking the ship or preferring other ships. And lcmd have had accusations of being racist (other than the debacle over elliot's age which always comes up as if we don't have 5k fancasts for older lucerys) because we didn't fixate on the laenorxjoffrey ship instead as they are "canon gays". Lukeharem had also caused a stir when people found that thread or the abo lcmd ones. Like it's not something you're into, why roast people who are?

With every time we surpassed an asoiaf ship on ao3, came another wave of hate from other shippers (as lcmdrs i think we keep our issues inside the subfandom for better or for worse). Apparently jcmd shippers also called us out last week for our "boring" ship??? But yeah i think everyone should focus on making content and just ignore whatever else anyone is doing like the mean girl energy in this fandom is off the walls. So many creators have been driven out and it's just sad. Also the same discourse repeats roughly every 2 weeks and it's so dull to see the same fights happen again, exhausting.

Still here though because the lcmd brainrot has not gone away and I adore these idiots still.

Hi Odd Takes anon <3

I had a good laugh reading that meme! I'm definitely the l*cmder staying in my lane. I usually don't qrt/comment because it's pointless and I don't want to waste the energy, but the lack of reasoning is what got me.

I think it's immensely funny when people cannot separate fiction from reality and that extends to non-con kinks, reading/writing incest etc. Crazy how people don't see how they think thoughtcrime is real (someone, please catch the 1984 reference).

Ah, yeah I saw the jace*mond stuff and missed most of it on TL, but whenever someone resorts to name-calling a ship, it doesn't really bother me. It's just someone with a random take. We don't like the same cake, end-of-story. I think I missed the Lukeharem one too lol.

Yeah, agreed, I've only been here a few months and it's stale, cyclical, so it's not worth the effort. Mean girl attitude is so funny to me. Yawn. I dealt with it enough in my grad program. Often, when someone insults you without merit, it's because of jealousy or feeling threatened. Very telling.

I just brainrot privately with a couple friends and agreed, anon! The idiot uncle/nephew dynamic have got me in a chokehold and I wish they didn't.

[entoman-created-by-the-tallgreys]

A couple details about the dragon God's Message

Like everything I'm tired I'm very sure I'm very sure everyone's going to be sick in their head like it's more nonsense.

But I want to assure you that the dragon deity which is a spirit form cuz it's not a very strong Spirit right now so that's why I may get me wondering how long it will be before it actually makes an attack.

It may be the year 2026 and that God has still has not attacked.

The dragon God may only use a year 2023 as the initiative to go ahead and launch the attack.

Because that number that year is so effing important 2023.

If the gray aliens I'm going to drive you crazy back cuz it doesn't matter once I'm once all hybrid's, Are Gone !

☠️

We're gone there's no bringing us back and then that's when the Real wave of Darkness will Crash into the Earth

Now the Dragon God, Does not want to do the attack from multiple reasons but he has his Divine Duty and he has to do it to the absolute fullest.

He does not want to destroy the body of Gaia, this will also hurt her spirit massively.

He does not want to waste everything that is on the Earth.

Even if we're all dead the faith the insect toys he still doesn't want to waste our home but on top of the fact that the reptilians are truly messed up the part of the universe with a statistics stupid smile because they don't understand holy and Unholy even though dark is Holy is a time and a place for everything and when it comes to stepping outside your bounds you have to get permission from your deity if you can do something or not and if you do something without their permission it falls back on them. - all these throughout the entire universe take full responsibility over what they arbiter over all deities absolutely all deities they have a job they have a career they have a responsibility that lasts them for all of eternity it is all backed up by God and His creation and his hierarchy of the Universe. - and the dragon God is no exception plus no deity gets to become something they don't love they have to truly love something before they can get the job but it's not really focused on as a job but the spiritual passion but it's also a career it's what they love and what they are at the same time.

So I just thought I'd let you know a few things about the dragon deity you probably wondering how I got this information is telepathic which means any 1 can make Shit up 😡 And . . . Any fool can make a Rule and Any Fool to follow it but I swear this stuff the dragon God extremely rarely contact me.

And his message is extremely simple for me he didn't give me a big package of information I had the few experiences a long long time ago with him that he didn't mean to reveal himself to me at all it was a completely accidental he was more focused on the ships flying away from Draco towards the planet that was on my planet when used to be Fairyland even though it was the dilapidated, the whole planet was in Ruined because of alien race, Attacked.

The Reptilian just made it worse by conquering it the planet was in a very sore state and the reptilians just completely took absolute advantage over Earth a long long time ago before the great aliens were even able to create their hybrids also known as the first model of the humans and the first model was not Homo sapiens it was an earlier version of the Neanderthals.

The dragon God watched as many ships fled from Draco constellation to find other planets to live their life on and the dragon God was disgusted ashamed worried sad angry all the most horrible emotions flowing through cuz he can see all the bad that was going to happen.

But the dragon God far back then was severely too weak to do anything his energy was extremely low he was extremely tired and weekend and broken down he wasn't able to leave Draco if he left Draco he would have killed everybody and Draco because they are feeding off his life force, as deities do.

Think of a deity in a way when it comes to spiritual life force and Essence and energy think of them in a way it's kind of like a star if the star were to leave the plan to go somewhere else everybody in the Earth dies but that's a physical thing if the spiritual life force leave somebody the body starts to self-destruct it's a different kind of energy the body is falling apart because it needs that life force so does the soul so the entire thing that makes up the creature the Mind Body and Soul completely gets destroyed.

It's like a fish out of water and all the water in the universe suddenly went away.

But even that's putting in a horrible way because that's a physical thing again.

The dragon God couldn't leave Draco it has to stay rooted in the constellation if it leaves Draco it's going to kill every reptilian there and it takes an extremely long time for alien races to become so advanced that's why deities when they come into an area they just stay one place forever because they can't really move around they really can't they're very much grounded.

Also they're happy there they also don't want to leave cuz they want to be with their creatures they are deities they are in alien race from a different dimension but they still have their career and they still love their morals and however they love their creatures however that goes about it's extremely different that's putting a mile understatement for deity it's all very different and I don't want to get into it.

This is about a simple message to Dragon God has that's all this is.

The dragon God is watching the Earth he's watching and he's waiting to see how things play out and if there is no war in 2023 with the spaceships in the sky if I don't care how ridiculous it sounds I don't care if it sound like the most hilariously retarded mentally ill meth addict psychotics ridiculous thing you've ever heard in your entire life

If there is no war in 2023, With the 🛸🛸🛸

That'll be it for the planet even the gray alien said they're going to blow up the planet but then again if they were to fail I think that's where the dragon God's going to come in because this planet is an extremely Unholy thing everything in the universe to some degree or an extent is connected and when one plant becomes super let's just say out of sync

When one plan becomes extremely out of sync and becomes extremely rotten it starts to draw attention.

The universe has the spiritually flow now I'm not saying the universe is the place of positivity in Goodwill but there is a nature to things also I think Gaia is too weak to fight off the reptilians as well.

So on top of it all there's a bunch of sleazy guys are sleazy life forms on this planet who took full advantage of tired weaken down to deities and an alien race that got their ass kicked by another alien race because they accidentally trespassed and talked a lot of smack to these other alien race a couple other people not the vast majority and that NRA came back and blew everybody up and kill everybody on the earth and a massive flash War then no one the Earth was going to happen at all and then long story short the right conquered the Earth for the great had a chance even find a way to rebuild their people back and that war has been happening ever since.

! ! ! BUT ! ! !

Not all the reptilians are Evil, quite a few of them are actually kind of good and they actually want to do good in the world.

So do not do not have the word reptilian synonyms with the word evil reptile doesn't mean evil reptile means reptile that's all that means crocodiles are reptile turtles are reptile lizards a reptile Komodo dragons eruptile snake is definitely a reptile.

These are Reptiles.

Do not look at the word reptilian as a word meaning demonic life form because reptilians aren't Evil by Nature like many some of the universe may be there may be some some race in the universe there are pure evil if it's not always going to be a mixed bag.

But there's a lot of assholes in the reptilian race but then again in nature you have to be tough to survive the universe the giant law of the jungle thing so a one side they have their right to be so hyper aggressive meaning cold on the other right there's a spiritual responsibility to everyone has to kind of like not mess up the planet this is why space travel is so hard.

you're not supposed to do it.

Anyway, I made a giant post it probably nobody's ever going to read especially not down to this point.

[the-firebird69]

Watch "The Town Official Trailer #1 - (2010) HD" on YouTube

They go ahead and take the money and they're fighting over it and then fighting like madness and it's very angry and yeah the AI is on the loose we have to do that to and we're going ahead and doing that shortly I'm tired of all this crap out there and he's writing a living s*** out of us for practically nothing but you need to do your damned in fight

Olympus

Most of the money will be in after several more robberies and we're talking about the hundreds and the fifties there's a couple of pinch points that they have to go through one of them is Trump and Saint Elizabeth. The other is Ellie and John and that money is in Boston somewhere no it's in Utah it sounds stupid but it's making it harder. And they took out the money that he used when he was there and they're a couple hundreds of a couple fifties and they also have his savings from the wall and that was three $100 bills and 450s so $500 she freaked out when she got the letter I said I can't pay him this money I can't even get rid of this money and I can't hide it and I can't deposit it and it's true too and you can't use it. There's at least one $100 bill and $150 in his pretzel jar. And he's got it hidden out there and it's not at the well across the street he's digging in the yard all the time. Was Dad asking what he was taking a hole for and said it was for the pool he said why do we need a hole he said we backwash I can just put it rocks in the garbage can run it back washing so that's pretty smart since doing a few times and work great and never stop working great I said it's an invention damn straight it's an invention so he designed it and he sent it out and people start using it and they love it now some things about these things they didn't like all of you poking in trying to steal this tiny invention especially retards so he started writing up notes on who's doing it and Trump did it about 50 times a day finally he had to let it go and Trump's expense made him pay for it every single time you sold one his name was in the newspaper and he's using the computer and still doing it today if he sells those sump tanks or whatever you want to call them he gets put in the newspaper if he sells $50,000 and he gets put in 50,000 times.

I only did it to a bunch of you and try to do it your son she mounted off once it says these people are bothering me 24/7 they're not our race and they're pigs and he said okay so he tried to reverse and he did and tons of people saw it no. It's going on like this who the hell are they so it kept happening he tried doing it to you again after a while we said stop doing that those people want you to it's vulgar and he wouldn't so he left it really was Trump he's too big and I can't stop him and he said I'm sorry but I can't stop him either he'll have to do it and I think we can bring you back pretty easy and it says don't miss it out now we'll see what you say later there's a ton of them dying in the future and boy are they stupid and I figured out why. And he told him and it started changing a little.

That brings us to today and the fact that Trump is insipid and he's an a****** he thinks he's huge and he's still doing the same stuff and he really needs to pay for a lot of things he was doing tons of stuff and we wrote up an expense report. Now he's holding on to the money even though after it gets sorted. And he wants the money from Utah and he wants it back and all this other s*** and the max are killing him because he won't shut up and leave it alone and they're killing all of them. This movie starts today you can see that it leads into a whole bunch of movies one of them is reindeer games and yes my son our son use the money at that casino that they relocated from Connecticut and it's in the casino and it's in the vault and it hasn't been touched and it was $300 $100 bills. And it's amazing this animals love our son I said stop fighting over it you're wasting tons of energy so they went over there and and they found out there's a whole bunch of those cans out so they wait for the certain day they know what state is no but the kind of tell a little bit wait a few days we don't see him and come back and there they are some people are leaving food in there not too much but enough for them to be okay and sealed and they find it and it's not going bad cuz I put it out that night and here it is if they're doing that why not just put out a dog dish so I say how can we do that with dog food it'll stay put in the shade and they put a thing that dispenser and they were trying to rip the dispenser part all the time and they're eating it eating it and they come back and eat it they refill it and they see the bears they look okay they're not real big but they're a little bigger they say this is going to really be hard so they want to make a sanctuary near where they are and trying to get it approved. Using regular dog food and it works because they're meat eaters. No I'm having a tough time with these people the massive assholes hugely arrogant they're going on their missions to steal money and stuff and they're getting caught and they fight and it goes on for a long time hours and hours and days but this movie starts today and the characters have been around fool around with each other for quite a while you're going to see them too and there's more movies beginning today out there in Boston. Like The Departed

Thor Freya

[salsakiyoomi]

"hey,"

atsumu perks up at the sound of your voice, his attention diverted from his phone to you, a smile immediately on his lips, "hey,"

it's lunch break time, and instead of usually eating at the cafeteria with his friends and teammates, atsumu is sitting at the edge of the school on a bench, chewing on his home-made lunch.

you ask, "what're you doing outside? i was looking for you."

awh, you were worried for him.

or at least, he hopes you were.

"i have home-made lunch," he says, shrugging, "it would be a waste to throw it away if i ate at the cafeteria."

"you could still eat your home-made lunch at the cafeteria though," you smile, pointing out the flaw in his statement, "i was waiting for you at our table, y'know, you didn't say anything beforehand at class either," you shift your weight and take a seat next to him on the bench, "so, what's wrong?"

atsumu is your best friend, you know him better than anyone, you know what makes him tick, you know what makes him happy, and his antics when he's upset, and today he's very quiet.

he blinks at you, confused, "nothing,"

he says it without a sly smirk or a pout, just genuinely, nothing's wrong.

"okay," you shrug, you believe him, after all, you would know if he was trying to play it cool.

a bit of silence passes by, atsumu's eating his lunch quietly next to you as you both gaze upon the sky, clear and blue with a couple of stray clouds moving with the soft breeze, it's comfortable, really, the type of comfortable only two best friends so close to each other would share.

"y'know," you swing your feet, "i tease you alot, yeah? i could say some mean stuff but you know i'm just joking, right? i don't mean any of it and i hope you know that."

well, this is unexpected.

atsumu stares at you for a few seconds, "this might just be the sweetest thing you've ever said to me." he says with his most shocked expression, and you know he's teasing.

you spare him a glance before rolling your eyes and snickering, "oh, please."

atsumu laughs, "what?" he asks ever so innocently.

"i take it back, you're such a tease."

"oh, you're one to talk."

"shut up,"

you both laugh, it's nice, really, the atmosphere is light and endearing like sparks of energy going off around you two and it's delightful, it's the kind of intimacy you share with only someone who's significant.

atsumu opens his arms up, "c'mere."

you dive into his embrace with no second thoughts whatsoever, and yeah, you understand what he says by that, he's okay with your joking around, if anything, he enjoys it.

atsumu wraps his arms around you, it's familiar, your scent, the way you bury your face into his chest, the way he rests his chin on your head as rubs your back, your warmth engulfing him, and every time you nuzzle your face into his chest, his heart does a little dance that he can't understand why.

he thinks, this is familiar, this is okay, you're best friends, you're allowed to hug like this, it's okay to hug like this, best friends also hug like this —

shit.

oh, shit.

and suddenly, there's that spark in the atmosphere again, but it's not the same one as of before of 'light and endearing' but rather, enlightening and tempting, dangerous to have in the atmosphere, if a match were to be brought close to it, it would go off.

"atsumu," you say, and suddenly his name on the tip of your tongue holds so much tenderness, "you're my most favourite person."

and that's the match, the sparks going off around him, and his heart clenches tight in his chest, stomach dropping to his knees and he's pretty sure he's face is as red as a rose now.

atsumu wraps his arms tighter around you, his embrace complete engulfing you because he wants to feel your warmth, he wants you close to him as much as possible as his snuggles his face into your shoulder, he says,

"yeah, you're my most favourite person too."

[lewisbian]

CRISTINA GUTIÉRREZ - X44 driver - on LEWIS HAMILTON, their relationship, his texting habits, and the end of the 2021 F1 season.

translation under the cut

TN: this clip was chopped and screwed by me, chunks were left out either because they weren't interesting to me or because the man in the video said something i disliked and didn't wanna waste time and energy on. inbox me if there's a part of the interview you want translated, though, and i'll help.

jordi wild: what's lewis hamilton like in person?

cristina gutiérrez: it's incredible, the first videocall i had, i was told "you have a call with lewis hamilton and sébastien loeb."

jw: both?

cg: both! and me! i was like, is this real?

(...)

cg: yeah, so lewis is - he's lewis, people are like who is lewis? i used to call him lewis (leh-wees) but it's lewis! so anyway, lewis is a very special person. you can tell he's lived through some rough things, because of the values he wants to transmit as a driver and as a person. sometimes he texts me and he talks about energy, about motivation -

jw: he's a very spiritual guy.

cg: yeah. super spiritual. super super. he doesn't speak to me like any other driver, he's very special. when i got injured he really looked out for me. and he really wants to raise awareness about minorities.

jw: yeah, these past few years he's really into that, sometimes it even seems like he pushes it too hard.

cg: he's criticized for it.

jw: but he lives it?

cg: yes. it's real. it's not just on paper. i've seen it, i live it, it's an everyday thing. he created a great association recently, mission 44, he supports black people, women in motorsport for example, or, well - minorities, because he's been a minority. he was a black boy in karting, which was elitist. so i think he's lived through stuff which was made him empathize a lot with those types of people, and he wants to help.

jw: if you whatsapp him tomorrow, will he answer?

cg: yes.

jw: always?

cg: not always. when he had the whole thing with the end of the season, the one that he was robbed of -

jw: (laughs) is that friendship speaking? or reality?

cg: i'm redbull, of course, and i love redbull. but in this case, my heart was with lewis hamilton. i have more empathy for lewis than for verstappen, verstappen doesn't motivate me much.

jw: do you like him?

cg: no (laughs). and i don't know why, in spain they cheer for him a lot.

jw: a lot of those people come from the years of alonso vs hamilton, there's still some resentment there.

cg: lewis has a lot of haters.

jw: yeah, also probably because he's so "progressive," maybe there are people that are kinda like - shut up already!

cg: i get it because it looks fake, like-

jw: of course, a millionaire, mega millionaire, right? but according to you he's a guy that lives it exactly like that.

cg: yes. what i like about him is he visibilizes a lot. he's a figure that raises so much awareness that he helps, only by doing that.

jw: for you, the end of the championship, would you have intervened?

cg: if i were whom?

jw: if you were the organization's boss.

cg: the fia boss, for example?

jw: yes.

cg: i think they fucked up, honestly. the last three races were very dirty, i mean, of course making decisions in the moment is hard, you only have a few seconds, you don't have a lot of time, you press a button, safety car comes back in, it's complicated. but either way, in this case, hamilton had reasons to be angry. so i texted him, like "don't worry about it blah blah," and that time he didn't reply (laughs).

jw: can you text him now, say hello? see if he texts back before we finish recording?

cg: you think he'll reply? i'll say it's good to have him back.

jw: that's really nice, let's see what happens!

- she looks up his contact, texts him it's good to have him back -

cg: this is his profile pic.

jw: that's wes snipes! you didn't know?

cg: no i didn't. see? he's cool!

jw: no, i like him! i am pro hamilton!

(...)

cg: see, now that i think about it, he replies to me more on instagram. now i'm gonna message him on instagram, on twitter-

jw: (laughs) but the same message! copy paste!

cg: (laughs) he'll be like "i think she's sick."

- lewis doesn't reply before the end of the podcast -

cg: well, seb loeb did reply.

jw: you texted both of them? yeah, of course! i mean, sébastien loeb, huge respect.

cg: it's not hamilton, but it's loeb.

(...)

jw: what do i do with this (X44 beanie), then? i'd burn it, i was excited about lewis hamilton.

cg: nah! he must be training, c'mon.

jw: that's a good excuse! no, he's saving somebody in the world, surely.

cg: he for sure is.

[suganovakawa]

𝐒𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐀𝐃𝐄 .

PAIRINGS : tooru oikawa x fem! reader , slight hajime iwaizumi x fem! reader

GENRE : angst , romance

WARNINGS : cursing , car accident , recovery from amnesia

SYNOPSIS : tooru doesn’t understand how special you are to him until he comes close to losing you forever . as he struggles to comes to grips with his feelings and balance it with his future , you still have to recover from your own injuries , but without your memories to assist you .

𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 < [ 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐄 ] > 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓 𝐓𝐄𝐍

he knows what could happen if you remember. he’ll do anything to prevent that.

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saudade masterlist .

SAUDADE

( 𝐧 . ) a nostalgic longing to be near again to something or someone that is distant , or that has been loved and then lost ; “ the love that remains ”

⠀whatever iwaizumi was thinking, he certainly had no logic. honestly, he probably would've been better off just not telling you a thing about oikawa. after all, he should've known from the start it's in human nature to want to push past restrictions forced upon them. and as much as it pained him, he knew he had messed up bad, his anger getting the best of his common sense and regretting it a day later.

⠀he knew you were curious about your boyfriend.

⠀rather, the boyfriend you didn't even know you had.

⠀from the very beginning, hajime could see it in your eyes - the natural attraction your body held as you and oikawa first exchanged short glances towards each other in class. volleyball had taught him to be quite the observer, and you made no effort in being subtle. unfortunately for iwa, oikawa noticed your innocent curiosity as well.

⠀he was afraid to ask you more about what you remember. it was different from the first day you had woken up from your coma, you were completely out of it so your muddled brain couldn't have remembered nor recollected much. now that you were spending regular time at school, just like normal, your memories might have just resurfaced sporadically. as far as hajime knew, you remembered everything, just pretending like you're still suffering from memory loss.

⠀but he knew you weren't like that. you wouldn't do that to him.

⠀you two weren't best friends before the accident, basically just friendly acquaintances who shared the same pain in trying to make the aoba johsai volleyball captain learn how to stop and take a damn breather. you had made it quite obvious in the past that you were an admirer of oikawa's, much to hajime's dismay - but he suppressed such feelings, in fear he'd be seen as too selfish.

⠀and he paid the price by seeing you happy in oikawa's arms.

⠀maybe iwaizumi was biased, but tooru really was more on the shitty side when it came to being a boyfriend. he had asked his peer countless times why he had accepted your feelings when he knew he didn't have time for a relationship; and every single time, hajime would get the exact same answer:

⠀"she made me happy at the winter tournaments, i'm only returning the sentiments."

⠀does causing your car accident count as making you happy?

⠀seeing how determined tooru was to get close to you again, pissed hajime off. what was there to be pissed off about, though? if this was a game, iwaizumi was winning. oikawa lost everything, from his reputation to his girlfriend. hajime was on his way to making you happier than tooru ever could. there was no competition here - he had this hook, line, and sinker.

⠀at least, he should have it in the sinker.

⠀a part of him knew, deep down, he was always default to second place. even without your memories, you still had your conscience, that internal voice in the back of your head that still held its senses. and if your conscience was stupid enough to adore oikawa even after everything he's done to you, how could the ace possibly fight against it? you could've died. and it would've been oikawa's harsh words as the true perpetrator.

⠀he wanted to prove a point to himself, you, and oikawa. that he was worth it. that you shouldn't have to waste your time with a scumbag who took your adoration and admiration for granted. the entire team knew that tooru wasn't the type to put anything over volleyball, and he displayed that when it came to your guys' relationship. while the captain was deserving of any praise he received that was volleyball related, hajime knew that it was unfair for you to be neglected because he spends so much time and energy on it.

⠀"hajime? are you listening to me?"

⠀he turned his head towards you, your words shaking him out of his daze. he blinked a couple of times and sat up, turning his head so his attention was fully on you. "sorry, y/n. a bit tired today. what do you need?"

⠀"huh? i don't need anything." you shook your head. "i was telling you that makki and mattsun were inviting me to go out with them today, just out to eat so they can also fill me in on random things, and to talk a little more. i said yes because they seem nice enough, and you seem to trust them, so i didn't have a reason to say no. i just wanted to tell you because i'm not going to be walking home, so you don't need to take me today."

⠀hajime's heart dropped to the abyss in his stomach.

⠀you were going to what?

⠀he knew exactly what those two were planning on telling you, and he was not having any of it. panic bubbled and almost erupted out in the open, but he saved himself with a deep breath and a plastic smile, nodding his head slowly. "right, i trust them... yeah. you have fun with that." you appeared happy with what he said, giving him a quick hug before walking off. he waited for you to turn the corner before walking off on his own, his jaw clenched and his destination set.

⠀"iwaizumi, where's - " hanamaki was grabbed by the tie as the brunet glared at his former teammate, his eyes anything but nice. "what are you doing? let me go. i'm supposed to be meeting - "

⠀"i know what you're fucking doing," he spat, his grip around makki's uniform only tightening. "this isn't just some random meeting. y/n asked you for this meet up, didn't she? she wants to know stuff, and figured you two would willingly comply." he laughed, more of a mocking volume. "and what do you know, she was right."

⠀"iwaizumi, let me go." the male with pink hued hair snapped more sternly the second time around; hajime hesitated for a few moments before reluctantly releasing his grip on his fellow third year, who pressed his lips together as he fixed his uniform hastily. "you got us," he muttered, his eyes finding iwa's. "she came to us during lunch and kept asking us. you were already on your way back to the table so we simply told her we'd tell her after school. that's all."

⠀"that's all, my fucking ass." pointing an index finger in takahiro's face, hajime shook his head. "you better not tell her about oikawa. she's much better off without that piece of shit in her life."

⠀"but she has a right to know."

⠀iwaizumi's face paled, taking a step back as makki crossed his arms. holy shit, he was serious. he and makki were going to tell you everything. "she's a big girl, iwaizumi. she wants to remember her life before the car accident. i can't imagine what she's going through, having her memories blacked out like that. i know if i was her, i'd want to know every single detail." makki's eyes narrowed. "including the memories that could hurt me."

⠀hajime's hands clenched into fists as he shook his head again in protest, sticking his foot out to prevent the other from walking forward. "over my dead body will i let you do that. the last thing she needs is a reminder of the nightmare he put her through. you won't tell her a fucking word about it."

⠀"or are you just scared you'll lose her to oikawa again?"

⠀just that question was a punch to the stomach as hanamaki observed iwaizumi's reaction. a corner of his lips protruded upwards as he stared at the other male in the hallway, the truth so horribly obvious. "doesn't take an idiot to see how set you are in making y/n fall for you. using her amnesia to your advantage to brainwash her into forgetting oikawa and becoming her new boyfriend... i was on your side at first, iwa. now? you're being just as shitty as he is."

⠀"don't you fucking compare me to him. i'm not like him, and i will never treat her like shit."

⠀"maybe not like shit, but she's certainly more like a prize than an actual person in your eyes."

⠀takahiro watched the frustration boil to hajime's face, taking a deep breath and walking around him before he could be stopped again. "if you excuse me, you made me late. i'm sure y/n will - " he grunted as a sharp pain grabbed hold of his wrist, his eyes widening slightly as hajime seethed at him, jaw clenched and face glowing angrily.

⠀"i said, you're not telling her anything."

⠀"who's going to stop me?"

⠀iwaizumi's smile was anything but pleasant as he pointing towards the school entrance. "mattsun and y/n are waiting for us, right? we shouldn't leave them waiting for too long."

⠀makki's breath hitched in his throat at the realization and cursed to himself quietly, shaking his head as he had no choice but to pull hajime along with him. "your logic is fucked up. y/n is nothing but a trophy for you to show off."

⠀"y/n means more to me than what you could ever hope to understand. keep walking, bastard."

⠀"hajime? what are you doing here?" your face revealed genuine surprise as he had appeared right beside hanamaki, releasing his iron grip on his wrist before exiting aoba johsai. "i thought you were walking home?"

⠀he could see the silent exchange of glances going on between the other two, and he could tell by matsukawa's quiet but exasperated sigh that he understood what was going on. iwaizumi pretended to not notice, however, as he moved to stand next to you. he saw the confusion flickering within your irises, how they were averted towards the ground instead of looking at him. if only he could tell you how important you were to him and why he was acting this way for your own good, maybe you'd understand his side better.

⠀"i figured since i was hungry, i'd join you guys. after all, we all trust each other enough to discuss anything, right?"

a / n : second post today! promised it would come out soon 🥳 ALSO, THANK YOU SM FOR 900 FOLLOWERS !!! it truly means the world to me that you all decide to stick around my profile, i promise i’ll do the best i can to provide content worthy of your attention 🥺❤️

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[inessencedevided]

(You can find the set that this gif belongs to here 💙)

From planning to posting, share your process for making creative content!

To continue supporting content makers, this tag game is meant to show the entire process of making creative content: this can be for any creation.

RULES: When your work is tagged, show the process of its creation from planning to posting, then tag 5 people with a specific link to one of their creative works you’d like to see the process of. Use the tag #showyourprocess so we can find yours

I was tagged by @aheartfullofjolllly. thank you so much Pat! it was really fun to reflect about my own process 💗 You can find her post here and @lan-xichens' post that started it all here :)

Also thank you @huigusu 🥰 (who tagged me for my nie brothers set) I'll get to that one in a few days!

Now Pat gave me two sets to chose from to show my process, so obviously I chose the more complicated one :P

I only work in Photoshop CC 2018. I know that there are programs out there for easier cutting and sharpening but I have only just figured out how to do that in PS and I am too lazy to figure out any other programs right now xD

1. Idea and Planning

This set, like most of my sets with lyrics started with me reading the poem, clutching my heart and going "oh shit this fits my favourite characters!!". The idea actually started with me thinking that the first stanza of the poem would go really well with wwx during the burial mounds arc. Then I realized that the last stanza fits lwj better than him and from there came the idea to contrast the both of them next to each other. This is when I realized I wanted to do a dark-light contrast set, though I did not know that I would go with red and blue at that time. My idea in the beginning was just to do a black and white set

I was really impressed by how Pat said that she plans her sets around exact timestamps. Because I don't do that at all ^^ I just get ideas for which scenes would fit (in this case the wwx burial mounds scenes and lwj's kneeling and punishments scene) and then I watch the scenes to narrow them down.

Back when I made this set, I still used a screenrecorder (AceThinker Screen Grabber Pro to be precise. They have a test version that allows you to record up to 3 minutes) and recorded the scenes I needed from Netflix. This worked well enough but now I have the entire show saved on an external drive and it makes a world of difference when it comes to gif sharpness

Now, in this case I had to repeat this step once because when I was almost finished, I realized that I wanted a gif for the lwj corner but let's pretend I didn't do that and that's the way this gif was always going to look because otherwise this post will be way too long ^^

2. Creation

Short disclaimer: The creation process for this gifset was anything but linear. Multiple effects I used here were things I had never tried before. I just had a vague idea and tried to realize it through trial and error. So whenever I say "then I did xyz", it is implied that I ultimately went back to that step several times and changed stuff ^^

I started with the Wei Wuxian part of the gif. I usually use a frame rate of 0,06 (with some variation depending on gif length and size). I work in timeline so I converted all the layers to a smart layer. Then I resized the gif into a square, leaving big chunks of the gif empty (as can be seen below.) I flipped the gif horizontally, so he is looking inwards. This was simple because I felt it fitted the composition better. Then I imported the Lan Wangji part of the gif, again with a frame rate of 0,06. (Image 2)

After that I created a layer for masking in a separate PS document by rotating a square until it was point down (is that a rhombus?). I sized it to match my gif (540x540 pxl) and copied it over. (Image 3) a bit of masking magic and ta da! There's the basic layout (Image 4)

I put a layer of solid black behind wwx to get rid of the transparent bits (Image 5) and then started adding more white and black to both sides by adding solid whit and black layers that i put masks on and changed the opacity as i needed (Image 6)

("reading" direction: from the upper left to the lower right corner)

Then I fiddled with the colours a bit. The first thing I always do is using the curves layer to get more contrast. Then I use the colour balance tool and the selective colouring tool to get rid of that cql-typical cyan tint after that it's just trying to have it look "natural" while the colours still fit the overall scheme. This was difficult here because wei Wuxian’s side of the gif was very dark and when i turned up the saturation to see which colour dominated it was a very weird mixture of multiple colours. That's when i decided that I'd just go with red on his side, since lwj's side was already so blue and those to look great as contrasts.

After that just came a lot of fiddling with selective colour layers and brightness and contrast unti I has happy. There really wasn't much to it ^^. (Image 1)

After that I added the text. I knew I wanted the two lines to for a square of some kind. So I tried different fonds until I arrived at the one below. The two lines are in seperate layers so I could move them around and change the spacing between the letters until I was happy with the layout. I also changed the layer mode for the text to "difference" (is that what it's called in english? my PS is set to german sorry ^^), keeping their colour white. (Image 2)

I originally hadn't planned adding anything else but I felt like the gifs (plural because I switched between the gifs of this set) was still kind of empty and lacking, so I added the tear down the middle (a tutorial for that is either coming up later or already posted. I recently got an ask for this :)) (Image 3)

It still felt empty after that, so I tried different overlays. Okay no, first I wasted a lot of time on different free image sides but then I tried out different ones until I chose the one you can see in the finished gif. I liked that one because a) I felt the round shape was a nice contrast to all the straight lines already there and b) because once I applied a black and white filter to it and switched the layer setting to "difference" (again, i hope this is the correct translation) it looked a bit like a moon. (Gif at the top)

("reading" direction: from left to right)

And that's it! :)

Although in general, these gifs took so much fiddling! I went back and forth between them a lot and sometimes almost redid the entire thing because I had no idea what I was doing in the beginning and by the time I noticed an error, the only way to fix it was ti redo everything. So yeah, this set definitely is the the one that took me the longest out of all the ones I've posted so far.

3. Posting

I save all my gifs to my drafts first to see what they look like put together and to check if they look any different on mobile. Usually i do this several times and change stuff until I'm happd enough with it to hit post. Once i am happy enough, i can't hold back. Doesn't matter if it's at a time when nobody is online, i hit post 😅

And that's it!

Tagging:

@lanwuxiann for this gifset (I adore it so much. I've looked at it and read it severat times since you posted it and the poem just kills me every time!)

@suibianjie for this gifset (The combination of static images and gifs in your gifs is always absolutely perfect! This one is only my favourite of yours because the light coming from behind wwx is just so pretty!!! ^^)

@sweetlittlevampire for this piece (It was soooo hard to pick a piece of yours because I have so many favourites! But this one is just so out if this world, I want to know how you worked that magic :D)

@wei-gege for this set (sparkling shijie! 😭 that set is so incredibly beautiful! I love how you matched the colour of the overlay with her dress!)

@purplexedhuman for this set (your gifs are always incredible! I chise this one because it showcases both your colouring skills and some really intricate effects)

If any of you have already been tagged or don't have the time or energy for this, obviously no pressure to do this at all! 🥰

(btw, I originally tried to place the actual text of this under a "read more" cut but somehow it always messed with the order of the images, so this ended up as a rather long post. sorry!)

[calaisreno]

Be humble, be nice

My little rant on not being a dick.

I used to belong to an online writing community (NOT Ao3). I left after two years.

There were many helpful people there. We read each other's stories, and I got both valuable perspective and practical advice.

There were also not-so-helpful aspects to the experience. Some writers expected critiquers to edit their story, didn't bother to spell-check their work or use punctuation, and wondered why no one wanted to read their story.

Because you had to critique stories in order to post your own work, some writers gave standard advice about adverbs and other "rules" of writing that don't need to be rigidly enforced. Unenthusiastic, dull, cookie-cutter advice.

The thing that finally made me leave, though, was a conversation in one of the forums. Someone was complaining about "bad writing." Writers who don't know basic stuff, write cliche characters and plots, lack imagination, etc.

One comment: "I don't think that you are doing a person a favour by telling him or her they have talent, but...... Why not tell them outright they would be better off doing something else?"

Another comment: "Some people are dreadfully incapable of creative thought - the pretentious horrible stories of nightmares. Others are incapable of improving, they stagnate and never try for better. Some people are unaware that they need to improve."

In other words, there were people who felt it was their responsibility to tell other people to stop writing, that it was a waste of effort, and that they shouldn't bother spending their time writing because they were never going to be any good at it.

To be fair, it wasn't the kind of writing community where everyone was just writing for fun. These were people who wanted to make a living writing. Many were willing to help new writers. But some of them didn't like "wasting time" helping people who seemed beyond hope.

So maybe it wasn't a good fit for me. I only want to write the stories I imagine, hope they don't suck and that a few people will like them. If they do suck, well, just move along, dear reader. Read something else. I don't mind.

Good advice often hurts. That's something we all have to learn if we want to improve-- at anything.

But there is a difference between hurting to help (when asked) and hurting just because.

If you tell me you didn't like my story because you didn't understand why Character A said blahblah to Character B or because my point of view was all over the place, that is advice I can use to write better.

But if you tell me you just hate stories where characters act that way or stories that end that way, or you think Character A was racist/sexist/homophobic and nobody should write a story where characters act that way-- go read another story.

There were also some really good people in that community who were talented writers. Kind, generous people who taught me a lot. One comment on that thread was right on:

"Look: there's a stage you go through (as a writer). You become so convinced of your merit as an artiste that you feel you are in a position to utterly dismiss the vast swathe of scum that collects at your toenails. "When you're in that stage, you're simply wrong. And what is worse, your writing is terrible. It's probably not execrable but it's nowhere near where it needs to be. "While you spend energy on and devour succor from the idea that "other people are lesser than I", you fail to get on with your proper job, which is sorting out your own material. "So take your ego trip and cram it up thy behind. There's always more to learn -- and there are always dumber people learning it more quickly than you."

Sort out yourself. Be humble, be nice. Encourage art and artists. ❤️