#also happy 1 year anniversary to this picture i guess

[nycticeivs]

D̶̠̣̟͙͕̪̏̆̽̓͝ó̸̪̘̰̀ ̶͖̩̬̓̊̊̉̿͠n̴̤̭̐͋̊͆ọ̴̝̼͈̬́͜t̵͓̟̼̮͍͖̔́ ̸̨̀̉̋p̴̖͍͈̊ȩ̵͙͓̭͗̈̉r̴̡̘̟̫̈́̇͗͝c̸̦̞̈́̒͘͠͠ḙ̵̲̭̜͛ĭ̶͔̪̲̩̐̐v̷̪̂̅̊é̶̦̟̯͋ ̴̡̤̟̦̫͠m̷̫̙̖͊͝ẽ̶̟̃͑͝.̴̱̓͆͑͆͑̈́

[ohmyeyesmyeyes]

write it down in a calendar - george russell

george russell social media au - george x f!reader

warnings: swearing, immature jokes

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ynofficial: snow on the beach, weird, but fuckin beautiful

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landonorris: what is this who is that

ynofficial: ur mum

landonorris: how mature

charlesleclerc: do i know this person

georgerussell63: i would also like to ask that question

ynofficial: maybe how am i supposed to know who you know or don't know??????

mickschumacher: 👀

ynofficial: shh

alex_albon: mick tell us what you know right now

mickschumacher: i've been sworn to secrecy

landonorris: i'll pay you

mickschumacher: i'm loyal to y/n but i won't say no i need the tips

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georgerussell: i'll stick to skiing

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alex_albon: wtf is happening rn

alex_ albon: i didn't even know you met someone!!!!

landonorris: yes we are feeling #veryleftout

charlesleclerc: insufferable posh boy

lilymhe: oh no george you got charles using big english words

georgerussell63: oh fuck

mickschumacher: i only know 1 person who knows how to snowboard apart from me

landonorris: MICK ISTG STOP BEING SO CRYPTIC

danielricciardo: you guys are so dumb (respectfully)

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ynofficial: boom bitches

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alex_albon: GEOERGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

landororris: GEORGE YOU TRAITOR YOU HAD US THINKING IT WAS MICK

mickschumacher: what no i have my own girlfriend and y/n told me because we’ve known each other for ages 😭

landonorris: george russell the type of person to lie to his friends about his girlfriend

alex_albon: george russell the kind of guy to commit to arsefoolery to deceive his friends

georgerussell63: but it was funny

alex_albon: george russell the kind of guy to lie to his friends and find it funny

danielricciardo: george russell the kind of guy to tell me he was in a relationship before albono and lando

georgerussell63: thanks mate

alex_albon: YOU TOLD DANIEL AND NOT ME

georgerussell63: HE WALKED IN ON US OK IT WASN'T INTENTIONAL

charlesleclerc: george russell the kind of guy to pose for every 'candid' photo ever taken of him

ynofficial: he looks accidentally gorgeous though, right???

charlesleclerc: not as gorgeous as me

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georgerussell63: happy four years to my best girl

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alex_albon: back tf up FOUR YEARS

landonorris: your name is in the list in red and underlined russell

charlesleclerc: FOUR YEARS???? i mean congrats i guess

ynofficial: nah he's just joking it's only 2 years and it's not even our anniversary

alex_albon: still: WHAT

danielricciardo: but i caught you guys 3 years ago?

georgerussell63: 3? you sure?

danielricciardo: positive

lewishamilton: how do you forget how long you've been dating? the number one rule of relationships is to write it down in a calendar

georgerussell63: i honestly have no idea

ynsibling: you guys actually met when you were 7, mum said she went to uni with george's dad and we used to have playdates as kids, i just texted her now...

ynofficial: wtf

georgerussell63: wtf

alex_albon: so you don't actually know how long you've been dating OR how long you've known each other???? karma really is my boyfriend

mickschumacher: i have a picture of you guys from when george was still in f2 and you guys were TOGETHER together iyk what i mean...

ynofficial: wait i think that was before we broke up the first time charlesleclerc: the FIRST time????

georgerussell63: i thought we broke up in my first year in f1?

danielricciardo: george was in f2 four fucking years ago guys get a grip, you're practically a married couple at this rate

ynofficial: actually...

charlesleclerc: i'm logging off, someone knock on my door when this is sorted out

landonorris: omg we all went to vegas two years ago...

georgerussell63: i just found the marriage certificate lmao

mickschumacher: lmao????? LMAO????? YOU'RE DISASTERS, BOTH OF YOU!!!!!

fan1: they should both be investigated for being criminally confused

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estebanocon: are you guys even living together?

ynofficial: yes and no but also maybe not so idk

estebanocon: what are you certain of?

georgerussell63: our love lol (i'm panicking right now)

TWO MONTHS LATER

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georgerussell63 and ynofficial:

mini us when we were 7

we were 18 when we started dating which means it's six years instead of four (we're not counting the three months we broke up when we were 20)

we are NOT married (george found UNsigned marriage certificates) but we are GETTING married (we don't have any actual engagement photos because george did it in bed but you can have the makeshift ring because we haven't bought one yet)

to lewis: we don't know the exact date but it's somewhere in october of 2016 but the only date you need to worry about is the 18th August 2023 because that's when we're getting married for real

we're turning comments off because we're cowards

private message from: alex_albon

alex_albon: r u preggers too or is the sudden engagement enough? i feel like i don't know who you guys are. i think this is my villain origin story yk

[posebean]

hands u an au lovingly called the Rinkitty au (feat sana and noya and co )

aka rinky adopt a cat and another one just shows up and they slowly build a family

Basically it starts when rinne and niki go on a date 2 a cat cafe. All the cats love niki, none love rinne.

EXCEPT for 1 small grey tabby kitten. That kitten is all cuddled up to Rinne. Rinne is so in love.

hes just sitting watching all the cats cuddle up with niki and happy cuz god thats so cute but also sad because none of them like him…but then he feels something rub against him and sees the small grey tabby kitten rubbing its head against him and hes overwhelmed with love

In fact he almost gets away with taking the kitten home by hiding it in his pocket but Niki finds out and stops him before they leave.

Niki: Rinne-kun. What's that in your pocket.

Rinne: What pocket?

kitten in pocket: (tiny mewl)

Niki: the one that is moving and just meowed. Rinne-kun. Put the cat down.

Rinne sadly obeys and has to part ways from the little kitty he has become enamored with.

Several months pass and Niki's all but forgotten that encounter until one day he comes home to the apartment to find Rinne holding a small grey tabby cat with a cute blue ribbon. It's some kind of anniversary maybe their one year anni or anniversary of them meeting (as Rinne DEFINITELY keeps track and niki just. lets him celebrate it).

Basically Rinne went back to that cat cafe (which also does adoptions) and it turns out that he had asked the cat cafe to hold the little kitty for him until it was the right age to be adopted, which luckily coincided with whatever anni hes celebrating. he def laughs at that and calls it fate.

so now they have a cat and niki is like. i did not ask for this and is pouty but he quickly warms up to the little guy because. hes basically like dads when they say they hate a pet but are actually the one that ends up loving the pet the most. he feeds the little kitty so so well but also makes sure it stays fit and healthy. (just like how he takes care of rinne-kun)

Rinne lovingly calls the kitty Nikitty which Niki huffs about and they eventually agree on the name Niku (Short for nikujaga) (doesnt stop rinne from calling it nikitty though).

They raise Niku and its mostly Rinne taking Niku to the vet and doing most of the other care besides food and Niku grows into a healthy and happy housecat.

And then one day a year later or so rinne and niki come home to find Niku sitting next to a random ass very fluffy ginger cat that came out of nowhere and is sitting in their living room. The window is open. Niku mustve slid it open.

Niki:

Niku: Miaow (rubs head against the ginger cat)

Niki:

New cat: Mrrp

Rinne: guess we have two cats now

Niki's at first like no- but then all 3 somehow gang up on him with the biggest eyes and he caves so now they have a second cat.

Rinne lovingly once again calls it Rinnya after himself and Niki just stares deadpan at him like we are not naming a cat after you and they (niki) decides on marinara (short, rinrin, which rinne laughs at and says it still has his name and niki ignores him)

both cats love Niki so much Niki makes them such good food and theyre so cute and cuddly with him. rinne takes so many pictures. his phone runs out of storage so fast

niku loves everyone equally (niki most) and also treats everyone equally when upset (except niki niki would never do wrong)

Niku is also as cuddly with Rinne. unfortunately, Rinne and Rinrin have an ongoing fight over. well. both Niku and Niki.

they absolutely cannot get along. ironic cuz rinne vouched for Rinrin to live with them.

like nikis sitting with rinrin in his lap and rinne walks over pulls rinrin up and takes the cat's spot.

it also goes the other way rinne is seated asleep with Niku and rinrin comes and picks niku up by the scruff and walks over rinne's face and away.

Niki finds it so cute but so stupid that his man is literally beefing with a cat.

time passes and etc and then one day they find out too late that wait Niku is actually a girl and oh shes expecting kittens. okay.

rinrin sitting there with a smug face. Niki is shocked. Rinne is just staring at rinrin

Niki: Niku was a girl this whole time?!

Rinne: oh yeah. whoops. I forgot about that

Niki: YOU KNEW AND FORGOT TO TELL ME?????

basically rinne knew but didnt think it was important to tell because well. amagi “anyone can be a wife gender doesnt matter” rinne.

and then the kitties r born and they are the smallest little thtings barely a sauce tall and rinne cries seeing them because oh they are so helpless and vulnerable and small and oh and rinrin is glaring at him, leans down to lick one of his kittens and pushes it gently over to rinne like "hey i Dont like you but the love of my life likes you and so does that other guy that i like so i guess you can touch my children but you are on thin ice and if you dare hurt them i am tearing you to shreds" and rinne just picks it up and starts crying and nikis taking a video of the whole thing because god this is so cute and he saves a shot of it for rinne's contact photo

ok they have like 5 kittens and niki gets to name 4 of them except one that one rinne names

eventually they have to give them away because. well. they already have two grown cats and wont be able to handle 5 more.

rinne is so sad about this. he wants to keep them all. he loves them all. he cuddles with them all and sleeps with them all in his arms and its the cutest thing ever

(rinne finishing all his paperwork actually on time and showing up to meetings early and everyones like what changed and it just turns out rinnes trying to get things done as fast as he can so he can go home and cuddle with the kittens )

niki is shaking his head in fond exasperation rinnekun i love them too but we literally cant handle 7 cats in this household. we need to give them away. dont worry theyll go to loving homes

rinne: they fucking better

niki: rinne-kun you have to let them go

rinne: ok fine but i wont stand for our children having to live in any lackluster home

niki: but theyre not even our children

the two requirements for adoption: be liked by Niku, be approved by rinne (rinne makes them sign an oath to protect the kitten with their life. everyone signs it despite how dumb this is )

ramen m

-mischievous little guy. gets to the most trouble. partners in crime with his brother. always leaves a mess everywhere

(the twins take him, little bb can instantly tell who is who and they fall in love. get into shenanigans with their little guy)

soba f

-the most energetic, literally wont shut up she meows so much and very loudly and runs around - her poor mother struggles to catch her her dad at least can jump on her and trap her but everyone else has to FIGHT to catch her

(ryuseitai takes her, chiakana mostly because god her energy can ONLY be matched by the burning flame that is morisawa chiaki he literally goes jogging with her . she goes pukapuka with kanata. LOVES WATER)

udon f

-the most serious of the litter. is pretty calm and easy to befriend. doesnt play around much as her siblings but if she likes you she WILL cuddle up to you. closest with rice

(they dont know who to give her to and shes super close to udon ( who they pushed onto himeru) and want them to still stick together... and then tetora is like anything for my aniki and then finds his hands full with a kitten now so i guess ryuseitai has 2. teto mostly takes care of udon though because soba is. way too much for him. they all do take udon and soba to practice sometimes and even get kuro to make the two kitties little ryuseitai cat jackets. they are ryusei orange (soba) and ryusei grey (udon))

rice f

-relaxed, sometimes aloof. really kind baby, purrs as soon as someone pets her. . closest with udon

(rinky call himeru and like. merumeru. we need help . himeru is like. No. but then they manage to get him to take her anyway and also take udon for tetora. hes also like. dad that says they dont like the cat but love the cat. he LOVES the cat. spoils her rotten. only the finest food for her. only the finest bed. udon gains some stuff in association because roommates. Nyanko loves them too. she gets so spoiled that she is so picky with food. except for when shes back visiting /being watched by niki and rinne niki's food will always be good no matter how long and how much shes eaten- meru brings her to visit kaname sometimes

(coma) she nuzzles kaname n gives gentle licks

(awake) cuddled up to him so much, sees him as a mini meru and since kaname is important to meru kaname is also important to rice. when kaname is sad/upset she climbs into his lap and purrs )

pachi m

- the worst one (in niki's words) the best one ( in rinne's words) an absolute menace, steals rinne's headband, steals his dad's collar, pushes things over, likes to bite things and leave marks, very curious and quick to getting into trouble. loves his siblings though, wouldn't ever hurt them.. an absolute sweetheart when youre not looking

- (Because Rinne LOVES pachi he has such high expectations for whoever takes him that Kohaku is just like. what about your brother and rinnes like but pachi is a lot of work i dont think he'll be able to do it alone and then kohakus like. ok then me and rabuhan can help him and rinnes like :)))) - pachi has an obvious fav and thats hiiro becsuse hiiro looks like (his grandpa) Rinne. Aira gets frustrated often because Pachi is such a menace and even Kohaku struggles to keep the little guy under control but oh man with hiiro he is a little baby and isnt trouble at all.)

the first few days after the kittens are given to their new homes niku is THE SADDEST thing shes just meowing so sadly looking for her babies and rinrin is trying to comfort her. she doesnt stop being sad until niki gently takes her aside and talks to her telling her that her babies are safe and they will visit often

going back to rinne though. its like hes the actual mom he experiences empty nest SO HARD its pathetic he misses the kittens so much he just. lies down on the floor facedown while nikis just crouched down with niku in his lap and poking rinne like rinne-kun come on my stupid love you can go see them whenever you want to;

rinrin finds this entire thing amusing but puts aside their differences to climb onto rinne’s back and sit and purr trying to comfort him. because wow this guy he Doesnt like really loves his family so he should at least try to confort him.

also rinne slutshames rinrin cuz that guy is stuck behind no kissing before marriage while rinrin is over here making a whole family. Lmfao

and the cats in return cuddle and give niki kitty kisses all over while rinne is just standing there screaming in his head . niki gives the kitties kisses back and rinne just walks over and lifts eithe rniki or the kitties up and nikis just amused like rinne-kun are you seriously beefinng with our cats again

this ones from sana its too good to paraphrase

Rinnya: [nuzzling into Niki and giving him kisses]

Rinne: You have your own wife bACK OFF FUCKER—

this one too sana ily

Thought your cats were gay turns out one of them’s actually a girl call that queerbaiting /j

rinnya doesnt care cuz hes happy with a wife that he can kiss and love

Every time Rinne slutshames him he makes a point to kiss and cuddle his wife

Nikitty has no idea what’s going on but she likes the attention and kisses him back

rinnya: purrr (this is what ur missing out on, loser)

rinne:

rinnya: mrrrr~ (my adorable wife~)

rinne: niki can we kick the cats out

niki:

niki: rinne-kun are you beefing with the cats again.

this ones also from sana its so funny its when the kittens are born

Rinne, deadpan at Rinnya through tears while holding his kittens: whore.

anyways more time passes and gay marriage either gets legalized or Rinne finally decides to just straight up propose despite it all maybe get ceremony done where its actually legal but basically hes planning and talks to the cats while hes planning and shows them the ring and is like. freaking out because he has the ring and what if niki says no like how he always does and what if niki doesnt love him like how he loves niki and what if- and niku and rinrin are so fed up with him niki comes home and rinne hides the ring box and is about to put it off for another day but rinrin jumps at rinne and knocks the box out of Rinne’s pocket and niki sees it and bends over to pick it up and then rinne is cornered and finally finally FINALLY gives a serious proposal and niki actually accepts with a smile on his face because he does love his rinne-kun and honestly had been waiting for a serious proposal rather than the joke teasing ones for so long ever since it was legalized or etc

so of course the cats are invited to the wedding they get niku another scarf with the wedding flowers embroidered onto it and train rinrin to carry the rings. rinrin is a smart little guy and succesfully carries out his job

(rinne threatened to actually kick him out if he ruined his special day; also niku would be furious with him if he made niki (or rinne) sad)

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various misc things//

niki voice rinnekun they roam free they dont need walks rinne voice its a bonding moment nikikyun biki voice you are literally cuddlibg with them (minus rinrin) every day when are you not bonding with them

when niku wants rinnya to stop doing something she just bites the collar and tugs. he stops instantly

rinne tries to sneak some of the kittens to work sometimes when the kittens r still with them and niki is like .-. rinnekun. No

he gets away with it rarely but always comes home to a

1. angry niki

2. angry niku

3. rinrin watching the two get mad at him

ibara: so thats what is happening next week

(tiny mewl)

ibara:

ibara: was that a cat i just heard

rinne: no

pachi: (meows louder, sticking his head out from the pocket rinne is hiding him in.)

ibara:

rinne: i heard it was bring your kid to work day

(cw animal death except its just old age) its still sad tho

niku goes first peacefully passing away of old age way further into the future- all of them can tell shes slowly failing, sluggish and with barely any energy. rinrin sticks next to her 24/7, gently cleabing her, nuzzling her, grabbing food for her. She passes away cuddled up with everyone, Niki, Rinne, and Rinrin all together on the couch saying their goodbyes. She gives a lick and a soft purr to Niki, rubs her head slowly against rinne like the first thing she did when she first approached him so long ago back at the cafe, and touches noses with rinrin one last time before closing her eyes.

a week later rinrin goes he CANNOT live without her he's heartbroken and niki and rinne can only watch in sadness as their remaining cat slowly lets himself die; he doesnt eat, barely moves from his spot which was niku’s favorite spot to lay in, head down comfortably sitting on the scarf niku always wore

The (grown)kittens come by and he perks up a little but only to give them loving licks and gentle bites.

its the one week that rinne and rinrin stop fighting and rinnes at the apartment while nikis working a shift and rinne knows rinrin is on his last legs and is just. holding the cat he could never get along with and texts niki who drops everythinf and runs home while rinne just silently talks to the cat like yeah we hated each other but were the same arent we? we love our loved ones and honestly if i was in your shoes, if niki was gone like niku, id be doing the same. and then rinrin bites him gently one last time and rinne laughs and is like yeah. i understand. say hi to niku for us, okay? and then thats when rinrin lets go

(niki got back during this but opened the door so quietly, saw the scene and heard rinne talking, and stepped aside to give them their moment))

when both cats are gone the apartment just feels. empty and both rinne and niki just sit cuddled up together on the couch silently mourning the two members that have become such a big part of their small family.

they dont ever get new pets again, but still pet-sit the (grown) kittens when asked to. it isnt the same, but they heal together, fill that emptiness with each other’s comfort

[ateez-himari]

SOCIAL MEDIA UPDATE 231024

NEW TWITTER UPDATE

[NEW UPLOAD FROM HIMARI]

ATEEZ(에이티즈) @ATEEZofficial

[#히마리] Five years ago we made our debut with hearts full of anxiety, wondering if anyone would even bother showing up, and now we've just ended a world tour. At first they were strangers to me, people I was too shy to approach but now whenever someone asks about them I simply say 'my second family'. They've scolded me, cared for me, held my hand, showered me with love, dried my tears, created my smiles and played a part in raising me. We're much more than friends, we're soulmates...because in every life I would choose them, no matter where or who we are. I know Chuseok has passed but I want to make a wish. I wish for the nine of us to keep standing by each other for a very long time...so that we can get old together. Let's continue our journey okay? ATEEZ HWAITING! ㅋㅋㅋ Happy 5 years to us, to my home.❤️9 MAKES 1 TEAM! (I can't ever get them in a picture together sorry ㅠㅠ...) #ATEEZ #애이티즈

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10:45am. · 23 Oct 23 · 2.5M Views 41K Reposts 1,267 Quotes 1.3M Likes

mikah @himaswife Replying to @ATEEZofficial We always joke about Joong and Hwa being the parents of the group but think about it...Hima was around 14 when she came to KQ and hadn't been with her family much for about a year cuz she was at JYPE. So they basically finished raising her🥹

koala koala @koalazia Replying to @himaswife omg yes she even has similar habits to each of the members😭idk who else knows this but in an interview Yeo said he saw her copy her older brothers' actions a lot and he noticed she was doing the same with them

cheongdam pepper @33khj Replying to @ATEEZofficial new pre-debut photos yes omg! i've been an atiny since the beginning and i can't believe they've already grown so much- hima went from hiding behind the members bc of all the hate and social anxiety to being a global ambassador for versace and 4th gen's little social butterfly

nabi @jigeumfly Replying to @ATEEZofficial happy 5 years our ateez 🥂we're so proud of you! you went from performing in small theaters to your first ever stadium, becoming the most successful 4th generation group not from a big company. you truly deserve all the happiness that comes your way (also the way she talks about them...my heart can't take this i'm crying)

TOQTOK UPDATE

CHECK OUT THIS NEW COMMENT FROM 히마리

🐯: I didn't think they'd remember either but my brothers all sent me congratulation messages this morning ㅋㅋㅋ My parents called me instead and my mom was really emotional so it made me cry a little bit but it's okay because it was tears of love. I'll go see my birth parents soon! I haven't brought them flowers in a while so they must miss me a lot. It's okay though I'm sure they've been watching over our shows and ATINY as well so they'll understand!

CHECK OUT THIS NEW COMMENT FROM 히마리

🐯: I guess it's true that sometimes I act like the members ㅋㅋㅋ I've always had a habit of copying people who taught me so since they raised me for a while I copy them a lot. Hongjoong oppa says I started biting people only after meeting Wooyoung oppa...so I guess some of them are bad influences ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

5TH YEAR INTERVIEW

'As we're filming this it's ATEEZ's 4th debut anniversary already which means we've pushed through a lot of bad times, a lot of physical and mental struggles. My hope for you is that when thinking of the past you're able to see the happy memories more than the negativity, that you can see everything you accomplished over the years. I also hope you've gotten strong enough to let go of the members' hands sometimes and that you can help them as much as they've cared for us. Learn to take a break sometimes so we can go back to painting okay? Hwaiting!'

Q: Do you feel you've become stronger since last year and that you've learned to rest?

When looking back it simply feels as though I've become more free in the past year, not putting as many harsh restrictions on myself which makes me a lot happier...and I guess it's a form of strength so yes. It's still a bit hard to get into the mindset of taking a moment to rest so the process is slow but I'm getting there at my own pace. I think past me would be proud to know that I've started to paint again...actually my room is filled with messy tools a lot nowadays.

Q: How would you describe your relationship with ATEEZ?

In very short terms...a group of eight chaotic big brothers who would be willing to steal the moon if I asked. They've shown me so much love that it feels as though I can't refer to them simply as friends anymore so...family.

Q: What modifier do you want ATEEZ to have in 2024?

Growth has always been very important to us so even if there's nothing I would wish to change within our team, I want us to keep growing. Whether it be as people, musicians, dancers, performers or even our career, I want us to have come a farther way next year than where we are now. Not only for us but also for ATINY to be able to grow with us without thinking that it is something much too intimidating or unachievable.

Q: A word for ATINY who's been with ATEEZ for 5th anniversary in 2023.

It might seem like something we say very often...but thank you. ATINY have been our biggest motivators from the moment we made our debut and they've always laughed with us, cheered us on, given us words of motivation and during hard times they continued to support us no matter what. They make ATEEZ whole. So ATINY make sure to stay healthy and know that we're behind you too no matter what. We'll make sure to work hard so you can always be proud of us. I love you!

Q: A letter to myself a year from now.

I'm sure that there are still a few mental struggles you need to face but remember that with the members behind you, you won't ever fall far so please don't be afraid of anything. Continue to give as much love as you can to our parents, our brothers, our members, our friends and ATINY so that they can also find the same hope we have. I know you'll be a lot stronger by the time you see this and I promise that I'll keep working hard okay? I can't wait to meet you next year!

[putschki1969]

December 17: Kalafina Acitivities & Ambient Border -DAWN- Pre-Event Report

Tweet 1 & 2 by Hikaru | Instagram post by Hikaru

Finally have some time to sit down and post a little. I did tweet a few pictures here and there so if you follow me you will already know what I have been up to. But I have been feeling too exhausted to actually make proper posts. With such a busy schedule, it’s really no surprise that I keep falling into bed as soon as I get back to the hotel. Today was a more or less relaxed shopping day so I got back early.

After arriving in Japan on December 16 and having a pretty hectic first day, I spent December 17 doing a ton of Kalafina-related stuff. Was wearing a HiKei-inspired outfit to match the occasion and of course I brought my Cakey-beret which I won during her fan club lottery. Feels so nice to wear it here in Japan.

A fellow Kalafina-fan was kind enough to accompany me on some of my Kalafina activities. I get lost quite easily so I am always grateful to have someone around who knows the area.

Kalafina Pinky Ring: FINALLY!! I have been waiting for this opportunity FOREVER! The ring is so much prettier than the one they came up with for their 10th Anniversary. Also, they actually wore this themselves. Quite religiously back then. Keiko wears hers regularly up until this day! The other day Hikaru also wore it for Keiko’s birthday live broadcast. I am sure Wakana still owns hers as well.I have always wanted this ring but in the past I was too stingy and then the pandemic happened and I really didn’t wanna order something this pricey online. So yeah, first thing on my list was the AHKAH store. Best Christmas present ever! Is it weird that I kinda feel married to them now? XD Haha, okay, maybe “married” is not the right word. Oh well.I guess you could say that I am feeling a very strong connection now. Even stronger than before.

PIERRE HERMÉ cake: We all know that Hikaru surprised Keiko with a special chocolate cake on her birthday. It was actually quite easy to figure out where she got it from so of course I had to get one. It’s affordable and pretty small so I was able to finish it within a few days. Since it was a special limited Christmas edition, it tasted a LOT like Christmas. Very gingerbread-y with a hint of jam. Delicious!

Meguro River: I’ve never actually been to Meguro river so I thought I’d check out some of the spots that Hikaru had visited. One day I wanna see the cherry blossoms. I kinda regret not coming at night because there seems to be some sort of nice illumination thingy going on there...Oh well...maybe next time.

Ambient Border -DAWN-: Still can’t believe how easy it was to get a ticket for this. Was a bit intimidated by the TIGET service at first but it turned out to be quite convenient. Simple payment and you get a digital ticket. Had no issues with it. Seems like it was on a first-come-first-serve basis because depending on how early you bought your ticket the lower your number was. People were then allowed to enter the venue in order of their number to find a good spot. Thank God they provided chairs! Wouldn’t have liked standing for this event. Anyway, my number was 41 and I ended up on an aisle seat a few rows away from the stage. Pretty much had a clear view. I chose the Christmas ticket so I got a little A4-sized character card as present. Also bought the pamphlet since I hadn’t ordered that online (only got the Asebi bromides back then). The event started with Hikaru’s Ambient Border and OMG, seeing her in real life again for the first time in THREE years almost killed me. I quite literally teared up. To get an up-close view of her in such a tiny venue while she was wearing this super sexy cyber-punk outfit, I mean, who wouldn’t have combusted at that?! Hikaru sounded great and I was happy to finally hear the song live (it’s one of my faves from her album). Also made sure to buy the special Hikaru drink ^_^ It was a fruity ice-tea so thankfully something I was able to enjoy. After Hikaru, Yuki Sasaki sang his song for the the play and that concluded the first live corner. We pretty much transitioned right away to the two Q&A corners. The cast of the play is way too big so they had to separate the group. During the first set Hikaru was on stage together with a bunch of the other cast members (including Yuki Sasaki and Marina Hamada - I feel like their stories will be quite tightly interwoven which is also why they are singing the insert song “Under the Rain” together but more on that later). The mods had a little box from which everyone got to pick two short questions. It was mostly play-related stuff but I loved how carefree everyone was. I’ve actually never seen Hikaru like this on stage. Usually it takes her a while to warm up to her surrounding and most of the time she is a bit nervous or reserved but among this group of nerds she seems to feel 100% at home. She was clowning around with everyone as if she had known them forever. Super precious. Won’t lie, the second section of the Q&A and the prologue act for Ambient Border dragged a bit because Hikaru wasn’t involved in those but overall they were interesting and got me quite hyped for the play. I REALLY hope we’ll get a broadcast just like we did with her first play. They finished the event with another live corner. First Marina Hamada performed her solo song and then she was joined on stage to reveal a brand new insert song called “Under the Rain”. It’s a collab with Hikaru and Yuki Sasaki. All three got to sing a verse and then they all sang the chorus together. The verses are really lovely, the chorus is just okay I guess. I wonder if this song will ever get an official release. There was some talk about a CD but they didn’t really make an official announcement. Honestly, a CD for the entire play would be neat.

I really regret not getting a ticket for the evening show as well just to see and hear a bit more of Hikaru but then again, it was probably a good thing because jet lag would have kicked my ass sooner rather than later.

[ageless-aislynn]

I would like to thank AARP (that’s the American Association of Retired Persons for my young and/or non-American frens out there who’ve never heard of them) for not actually sending me an invitation to join them on my last birthday, when I technically qualified. They did, however, send it to me today. I guess they figure turning 50 was probably more traumatic and didn’t want to compound things. But turning 51? Yeah, you’ve had a year to get used to it, so you’re fine...

Ah well. 🤷‍♀️😂

However, in the “You’re only as old as you feel” state of mind, look at what I got for my birthday! 😍😍😍

Not my pic, so not my actual figures, but I haven’t deboxed them yet and my Scott has a giant frickin’ price tag right across his face on the outside of the box, so it was kinda pointless to take a picture of that, lol. 😱😂

Anyway, that said... I didn’t know they’d made figures of Sara and Scott until I randomly checked, and YES McFarlane did in 2017! I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to find them for a decent price but I won them on ebay for less than their original MSRP, so I was super glad for that! I can hardly wait to have the Ryder twins joining my Halo gang here on my desk!

I would’ve screamed in happiness if they would’ve made other figures from the game but, sadly, no, the line stopped with Sara and Scott so I’ll just have to dream about having a Reyes 😍 and a Vetra 😍 along with the rest of the Tempest crew as well.

Is this a good time to mention I’m contemplating two different types of crossover vids between Halo and Andromeda? One would be just a more fun, breezy action and vehicles type thing, the other would be an attempt to genuinely make a crossover between a character or characters from each of them. We’ll see how it goes but, for now, it’s just fun to think about!

The general consensus is “Ais got an A in driving Warthogs and the NOMAD... A as in AWFUL, lol!” 😛😉 I don’t even care. I have fun, that’s all that matters, right? Also, I forgot to note it last month but I just celebrated my 1 year anniversary in starting my gamer lifestyle, lol! I got the Halo MCC back in June 2022 and that was the start of many, many hours of awesome fun! 🥳🎉🤗

[please-give-dd-bread]

happy crimuss eve or something! have an amy talking about how life is like a machine gun :PPP

by the way as i type this people have visited my home and have given the old playlist a run on the speakers so now i can hear jinSEIII GOTO MASHIN-GAAAN BLASTING LEFT, RIGHT AND CENTER

7/11, 夜紛い (False Night/Yoru Magai)

I really don't care about singing faithfully Or anything like that I want to live a life, simpler than everyone else I don't want to work hard, to put in effort

I keep my head down whenever I walk Though I don't realize how bright blue the sky is, And the only thing I'm looking at is this picture Of you.

This hollow, empty heart set about, Walking around this sunset-lit town Like those lies, my heart grows tighter, even more Than the barrel of a gun

Ah, life's just like a machine gun! Blow everything away, blast away more My heart could be taken away, with even just that word, "goodbye" I want to erase all the sad things, And even the good things, I want to erase this heart! All you need is one, to open a gaping hole.

"Nameless flowers are beautiful" - I couldn't care less about that phrase. Wanting to erase this pointlessly loud heart, I skip working at my part-time job.

Even when I speak, I keep my head down So I don't get to understand all those people's feelings But even then, I'm still looking at this picture Of you.

In the middle of that live house, There I stood, singing faithfully The fact that I stood there, singing, not expecting money - or anything It must've been so stupid, wasn't it?

Ah, life's just like a machine gun! That's all I've got left to say, Every refrain - sing it all out, hey, use all of your throat Those painful songs, I want to erase them Even these soft love songs, I want to erase them too Listening to them just hurts, But one seems more than enough for me…

You know, life's exactly like a machine gun! Just blast it away, burn up even more, Go ahead, laugh out the pain, with just a goodbye If I become a memory to you, knowing I'll only ever live on through these words, Just watching that happen would hurt! But, you know what, one's enough. One's all you need.

I want to open a gaping hole in you.

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AAAAAHHH JINSEEEIIIII GOTOO MAASHIIIIIN GAAAAN

i'm posting the kokoro ni ana ga aita translation tomorrow and i'm still trying to add some touch ups and really make it parallel this one because i think the correlations between that one and this song are just. a M A Z I N G (and very painful) like OWWWW OWWW WOW OWW PAINFUL. this song uses a machine gun metaphor for life

okay that's all :P

(also as i type this i'm drafting out (as in concepting) what a 2dmv would look like for the ruikasa che-che-check 1 2 thing i posted like yesterday-ish. assume it's in a similar style to the chururira 5-year anniversary self-vocal i guess)

[jandjsalmon]

2023 FFRC - January

HELLO everyone! It's a new year and a new @fanfic-reading-challenge - I hope you've all had an awesome January! Despite it being the absolute worst time to go on vacation for me (work-wise), we spent a week in San Francisco for our anniversary. It was gorgeous. Pictures don't even do it justice (but here are a few 😊)

Anyway - For the new folks (those of you who are not bots) who started following me in the last week - in case you were wondering what this post is - I'm a regular participant (and low-key helper) at the @fanfic-reading-challenge - and I also track all the fic I read each year. For the last couple of years, I've reported back here once a month with some stats and some recs, and a little bit of boring stuff about my life. So, that's what this post is about. Happy you're here! Welcome!🖤

January 2023

Okay okay. SO going into this challenge, I thought it would be a few months before I started reading things twice BUT there is an amazing fic that just LIVES in my brain and I read it earlier in the month - and then reread it again a few days ago. I'm counting it twice and I honestly think everyone should read it (clearly - because I think I've rec'd it twice on my blog already and it just came out). It's beautiful. weird, but fucking beautiful (you, wanting me) by @victimofthemusic (Wednesday/Xavier -T 1/1) Definitely worth my first "double read" of the year. 🖤

As for the challenge! It's a new sheet of fun and challenging tasks. I've only completed 44/309 thus far but that doesn't seem too bad considering I'm only a month in.

Okay - what did I read this month that you might enjoy?! Try these:

The News Article Significance by DefyGravity18 (Sheldon/Penny - M 42/42)

Summary: When I was eighteen years old, I made a decision. I was not going to live the same life that my sister was living, or that my mother had been living, or even my Gran. So, after one semester of community college, I decided that Omaha just wasn't going to cut it for me. I packed my clothes, took the remaining money I had from graduation, got into my shitty red Volkswagen and left Nebraska for good.

Penny knows what she wants in life. At least, she used to. Howard and Bernadette's wedding sets off a series of events which will change her life forever. Plans change and Penny will have to learn the hard way how to adapt.

Why you should read: Okay - so I'm an unapologetic Shenny girl when it comes to The Big Bang Theory. But I like when EVERYONE is happy and the characters are all given just great arcs in this one. It starts at a wedding and the pacing is great and believable. There is mention of domestic abuse a bit (not our mains) - so if that's something you're sensitive about, be aware. I really just love Shenny fic where both are supportive and live their best lives. This is one of those. Definitely a happy ending for EVERYONE.

--*--

Fresh Blood by @ozmathegreatand (Wednesday/Xavier - M 2/2)

Summary: Xavier Thorpe’s eyes have not left her face. The high of the kill is wearing off, but he doesn’t seem fazed, not in the way a normal person would be. The blood staining his face highlights the plane of bone, the shape of his skull perfectly. She wonders what sort of monster she is prepared to open her heart to. “Will you pay me court?” she asks, interrupting his thoughts.

He stares at her. “Miss Addams,” he says at last – because of course he’s guessed who she is – “I would love to.” He smiles at her, the boyish charm in contrast is as jarring as it is swoon-worthy. Disgusting. Wednesday loves it at once.

Why you should read: OH MY GOSH. It's SOO dark. I'm in love with it. There is cannibalism. There are ghosts. There is absolute devotion (think like Gomez - but taller and slimmer). It's delicious. (ha ha. Sorry - that was a little on the nose, considering).

--*--

ALSO - you should read the_retro_witch's entire Sweet Nightmare series. It's a post-canon universe where after Crackstone's defeat, Wednesday and Xavier get together before they leave school and now it's grown into this amazing saga with mystery-solving soulmates and psychic and witchy amazingness. The other characters are developed and the plots are rich and fun. It updates pretty darn regularly and every word is a delight. Honestly. Read the series, you won't regret it. Let it be your first foray into Wenvier if you are on the fence. Don't be on the fence. Come ship with me! 🖤🖤

ANYWAY - sending you all warm hugs and hope for a wonderful February. Love love love to you all! 🖤❤️

[charlesandmartine]

Saturday 1st July 2023

Happy Canada Day

This day recalls 156 years since in 1867 when the US beneath them appeared to be gaining in influence, three great chunks of administrations decided to come together under one all embracing banner, Canada instead of BNA (British North America). Until 1982 it was called Dominion Day, but I guess that might mean different things to different people so it was changed again. Originally it was Anniversary of Confederation Day. Well that sounds exceedingly Victorian and stuffy. Legislation, passed by the British Parliament, created Canada as a new, domestically self-governing federation, consisting of the provinces of New Brunswick, Nova Scotia, Ontario and Quebec, on July 1, 1867, although it looks like BC didn't chip in their tuppence ha'pence until 1871. Further to this, a royal decree in 1868 requests all Her Majesty's Canadian subjects should celebrate on 1st July. It all seems very complicated and how Queen Vic kept up with it from thousands of miles away in London, goodness only knows. Well anyway from what we have seen so far is that Canadians are intending a right knees up and joining in with the spirit of the thing. Flags are up, schools are off and all the RVs (recreational vehicles) are on the road heading for the lakes and coast.

Now Lonely Planet does not brim over with excitement vis-a-vis Salmon Arm. It struggles to find any preoccupation for a tourist who has strayed this far off the beaten and has probably little sympathy if he did.

As the day progressed and expectations were high, the picture that comes to mind is rather that of a damp squib. There was a small hiatus along the main road in downtown Salmon Arm. A group of enthusiastic Canadian citizens were agitated about something. Canada maple leaf flags were abundant and there were placards regarding rights either to be in the LGBT community or possibly not to be as such. Honk if you agree. Hmm, not actually being exactly clear on the subject we deferred.

That being the only incident involving flags etc we proceeded down to the wharf on Sushwap Lake for a little Canada Day preamble. Well be careful who you talk to. We met an elderly Canadian and his elderly oriental wife on the jetty who surprisingly appeared a little anti Canadian and did somewhat confirm the Lonely Planet guide's summation of Salmon Arm; there's not much here. On reflection he came up with a couple of suggestions for us to occupy our time here with. Go to Herald Provincial Park he said. Also you might walk alongside the lake in the other direction. With no other suggestions we did just that. Sadly, all the other revellers went as well. In the middle of nowhere this place was too! We ate our sandwiches, looked forlornly around for somewhere to get a drink, gave up and drove 20km back to Salmon Arm to do number two on the long list of two. This was entirely agreeable. We strolled in the searing sun along the lakeside path which weaved around what was in effect breeding grounds for birds and waterfowl. We saw Red Winged Blackbirds, Clark's Grebe and Western Grebe among others. Loads of Canada Geese of course (in their correct home locality). It was like being in Slimbridge. Following the course of the lake was the main line railway. Amazing freight trains that I calculated to be 1.5km in length rumbled by!

On returning to town we went to search for the celebrations commemorating such an important day. Well, perhaps there'll be more tomorrow? The town was dead, no parties where we are staying, couldn't even find a pub for a beer, nothing....

We had our own celebration; bottle of Canadian SB and sausage egg fried rice.

ps It is said that one should drink a Caesar and eat chicken wings to celebrate Canada Day. We couldn't find anywhere open to even try this aspect of support for the event!

pps This is a stunningly beautiful country. The danger is not to be blinded by repetition of seeing too many lakes, mountains and waterfalls.

ppps Tomorrow we are on the road again, further into the mountains to a place called Golden. Lonely Planet seems a little undecided about this, but we are very optimistic.

[dank-meme-legend]

An In-Depth Letter to Middle School Morgan, letting her rest and heal <3

Hey Morgan,

I hope this letter reaches you well. This is you from the future. I’m nineteen years old and quite happy with my life. I’m not “old and wise” but I know more than you do, but you understand that. You’re a smart for eleven, you’re a smart kid no matter what anyone tells you.

You’re the oldest, you don’t have a big sister to give you advice and tell you things, so I’m going to be your big sister in a way, and tell you some things about your life.

First off, I know autism is a big and terrifying word to you right now. Regretfully, the teasing because of it still happens as you get older, but it becomes manageable. You become quite tough, learn how to fight back the right way. You talk non-stop and that helps with come backs. You also have a partner who likes when you talk.

I should get into that, shouldn’t I? I bet you’re curious. Surprise! You don’t end up alone! Hurray! You have a girlfriend who’s kind and tries their hardest to understand you, understand your ramblings or general thoughts. Your mind is rampant now and it will stay like that forever, it’s a gift. People do love it, even if you don’t think so now. Said girlfriend even asks you to elaborate on your thoughts and to give more thoughts. Pretty cool, right? (Oh, I should mention that today, 1/10/23, is your eight-month anniversary! Your abundance of words comes in handy, guess who learns healthy communication. You!)

I do see the irony in an autistic person being good at communication. I know you’ll find it ironic as well as funny. Your sense of humor doesn’t change much as you grow.

But there is change, I know you’re scratching your head at my repeating of the word, “girlfriend.” Another surprise, you aren’t straight. Not getting all the hoo-pla about Team Edward vs Team Jacob back in third grade hopefully makes more sense. (Win for us lesbians, Kristen Stewart is queer! Your fondness of her has always been valid.) It will take time but your family accepts you and embraces you.

If we’re on the topic of queerness, you also end up a theatre kid. If you remember, (who am I kidding? We have the memory of a super-computer) mom watched a movie called, “Pitch Perfect” when you were young and during the end credits, you saw the name Ben Platt on screen and the picture of a man who wasn’t “sharp” as you classified most men and boys. Literally, he was less intimidating to look at. He becomes quite important to you. Thank him (in your mind, I’m nineteen and I haven’t met him or seen him live) for making music that helps you be okay with being queer.

Oh, and in 2019, he stars in a show called, “The Politician” and you become the unofficial ambassador for it! You become cool amongst other people who love Ben and his shows. But everyone who likes him is cool, you find cool people and friends. It’s awesome, truly, to find people who are nerds like you. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise: nerds, geeks, and oddballs are the coolest kinds of people!

Life will get hard, growing up will be hard, especially in the years that are coming for you. But trust me when I say that it gets better. Not just because of your cool nerd friends, or the girlfriend, or anything else. It gets better because you learn how to ask for help. Asking for help is hard as hell for you, but you seek out help.

It’s hard to let people in, I’m older and I still push people away or downplay myself, but you’ll work at it. You will, and you’ll be happier because of it.

You achieve a lot as you grow. You learn how to play guitar; you play in front off hundreds of people during school! You get into writing. It’ll be terrible at first, downright bad, but you’re a kid. You’ll get better and you’ll find an escape for when the world gets hectic around you. People like you. Teachers, friends, loads of people. People want to talk to you. You’re well loved as you grow.

To close out this letter, I’m going to give you a bulleted list of things to look forward to, to know, and general advice:

-Wait about two years and you’ll learn about an incredible game called, “Detroit: Become Human” and then wait another five and you’ll be able to play it.

-Don’t let people step on you; set boundaries.

-All your old special interests do come back around. It’s cool to have a Monster High collection again.

-High school is not like the movies, neither is college. Just do your work, please. Turn it in at a reasonable time.

-Don’t be afraid to push back against people who do you wrong.

-Be honest.

-Be kind.

-Give yourself slack sometimes.

-A few deep breaths helps you not to faint.

-Enjoy those Game Theories, MatPat retires eventually.

-Some people just want to stir up drama. As much as you want to fight them, please don’t. Let them be dumb.

-One bad day is just one bad day.

-Go outside.

-Don’t stay up too late on school nights.

-You are not ugly. Anyone who’s ever made you think that is wrong. They have always been wrong.

-You get to go to New York as a teenager. It’s epic.

-You get to try ziplining as a teenager, too!

-You’re beautiful.

-You are smart.

-I love you.

Sincerely,

Your friend, Morgan, from the future <3

[talmol]

Year in Review

January

I started off the year feeling a little lost, I think. I had just come back from Rome, and so filled with the magic and beauty of life and living alone and exploring/viewing the world according to me, with this newfound direction and joy, with actually no direction to channel it. Back in Stroud, making new friends in Stroud and trying to figure out what I would do the rest of the year, with the scarce money I had. I filled myself with the love of Ella of course, and also Liora and Hannah- I took a trip to London to refuel my sense of wonder, even in a small way, and remind myself that life was still on the move, even if not at a pace I wanted. Elijah, mine and Ella’s son, was born, and I got my first tattoo! I soaked up being at home with my family, even if it is never as restorative or peaceful as I romanticise it to be. I got a haircut which I think helped my desponded feelings- MILF Tali was born and I reminded myself of my beauty and sexiness and self-worth, and continued to be very much in love and grateful for Ella during this lost period. On the outside/Instagram, my life looked pretty cool and aesthetic, I guess to compensate for the fact that it was in fact, not. I bleached my eyebrows- again a search for newness in being back where I was, trying to move forward when I felt like the momentum I had gained in Rome was coming to a standstill. I began drawing again and trying to find a creative outlet there, and also in an attempt to find things within me in which I could express through drawing. The end of the month was spent in Glastonbury for mine and Ella’s 1 year anniversary. A beautiful few days of escape- we cosied up in Toby’s charismatic house on that busy road beneath the tor, cooked for eachother and bathed in the peace of our solitude together. It was happy, Ella and the sun were beautiful, we both were. We took a quarter tab of acid and explored the magical spiritual town together, I danced in the aisles of the organic supermarket and we witnessed a drug deal at the end of the gong service in the Chuch, the sky was a beatiful shade of deep blue that I cannot describe except for remembering it’s beauty through Ella’s eyes. We picked out crystal bracelets for ourselves and everything was hilarious and full of reflection and clarity. We got Indian takeaway and loved eachother dearly, both in awe of eachother and I think ourselves. One of our many moments of pretending, imagining what it would be like to have a life together, but in the way that we always did- just us and the world, a little microcosm of happiness and simplicity. The more I reflect the more I think, maybe we really never were going to last when we both inevitably got on with our lives in the wider world. We were such a refuge to eachother, I think if I had stayed longer in this bliss then the world may have disappeared completely from my reach. Both inner and outer- we poured everything into this pairing. The house was beautiful and perfectly eclectic.

February

Starts off in my camera roll with more pictures of my bleached eyebrows and me and Ella being silly in Glastonbury- my pictures are how I’m tracking my time this year. It was spend pretty similarly to last month- being with family and friends in Stroud again. I remember particularly a walk at Westonbirt with great hair and a dying dog- we took him there because we knew the end was near for him. I don’t think we’ve been back since. It is actually so powerful how much a pet can bring a family together. Ella and I celebrated Valentines day in the sun room in the evening, with a charcuterie board like last year, and beef bulgogi. I knitted them that pointed ear hat, and we were again a beautiful pair in love, cradled by the love and laughter and joy of my family, especially my dad and sister. Our wordle obsession continued. I think I was still feeling pretty low those days, and lost. But it was helped by the warm sun and clouds, and the softness of a lover and the ease of life with Ella and Julie and dad and Jojo, just being looked after and being fresh and clean and put to bed, running my hands through Ella’s wet hair in the warmth of the lamplight, their soft lips. I can’t remember when I went back to Felt but I was definitely back at this point, and it was pretty nice. Just making coffee and cake and seeing regulars and running from the warm inside with my music playing and the smell of coffee and the sound of chatter and warmth, to the outside, fresh and babbling stream. But not much appears to have happened this month.

March

This month was pretty sad- we put Inigo down on the 5th. It was really pretty devastating- I’ve never seen dad cry like that, like I can remember. Inigo really was a best friend- he gave me so much joy and happiness, he was so goddamn cute and he knew when I was sad and I still miss him dearly. It still feels weird that he’s gone, he was in our lives for what felt like a small blip but he touched all our hearts in such meaningful ways. Ella and I took a trip to Bristol, probably to get Ella’s haircut although I do not remember, but I know we got gyros which Ella loved and sat by the canal and loved eachother in the sunlight. I remember it was the only ever time I think I wore my red embroidered purse. I have pictures of us in the sun on the common- I remember thinking how it reminded me of one time on the common with Ella towards the start of our relationship, where we were still such a mystery to eachother and at once completely out of reach and in eachothers palms, both no idea of what was to come but also having known it all along, it was so natural. And my favourite pictures, or one of, of us, the ones that made me finally start to cry and the reality of the breakup come crashing down on me. Just simple and beautiful, us in the mirror making a heart over my bellybutton, with my bleached eyebrows and amazing hair and Ella looking at me in love and I at them in love. The sun in all these pictures remind me that I think this really was a main reason for my improving mood- hope and softness was brought back again, anxiety eased. I felt the excitement of spring in my kitchen with boxer shorts and a white tshirt and coffee in hand, the air crisp and cool and fluorescent with feeling and possibility. My bedroom which I did love so much, each of the 3 pets always resting there atop my linen sheets whose lightness and air and ease gave me such joy and comfort, the dark wood and my big window and all my new plants. Life started to feel exciting again- it really is making it obvious to me that I just need the sun to be truly happy. Those linen sheets don’t bring me the same joy anymore, the duvet doesn’t feel like a silky cloud enveloping my body, an angels breath hovering on my skin. The air was still cold but we went out in shorts and a balaclava instead. Ella wore the tshirt and shorts I got them and we ate apples in the car, took pictures of eachother sleeping in beauty and I kissed them on the cheek like I needed to breath in their skin, forever soft and cool and the thing I need to survive and to remember that I have a heart. I left for Israel at the end of the month.

[livingwithlosingyou]

Living with Losing You - 11/5/2022

One year ago today, you had a BAD relapse. 

There are holidays, anniversaries, and then dates that you remember for less than happy reasons. Unfortunately, today was a big one. We had recently gotten back from our trip, and you were struggling. I found you barely responsive on this day, one year ago. 

I remember that sinking gut feeling that I had after I picked the lock and ran into the bathroom. You had a tendency of getting drunk and laying in the bathtub with the shower on. I was so scared I’d lost you. I never thought I would actually lose you though. It’s such a strange feeling to have. My heart is a little heavier today. I love you so much. Even in the moments like these, I just loved you. Endlessly, and unconditionally. 

I woke up at 4am a little anxious and excited for our XC League Finals. I was definitely exhausted, but powered through it. 

I got to the school at 6am and secured our spot. I was the first other coach there besides the other coaches who were setting up the course, etc. It was also freezing cold, like the most cold. The athletes and other coaches began to slowly trickle in. 

I was proud of our teams today. I won’t get into soo much detail here (there were a lot of technical difficulties and close calls), but our JV boys got 2nd, Varsity boys got 2nd, JV girls got 1st, and Varsity girls got 2nd. The boys had really tough competition, as the winning school just has depth on their team, and we had to move a couple of our top JV boys up to help they Varsity boys. I have a feeling if we hadn’t moved them up, we could have possibly won for JV boys (but don’t quote me on that). I ended up being there form 6am - 1pm. It was a long morning / midday. 

After the meet all of the coaches decided to go to Epic Wings. Unfortunately, I was not able to eat anything there. Fortunately, there was a Jersey Mike’s next door, so I allegedly snuck in my lunch and ate with the other coaches. Allegedly. I was there for another hour and a half before we all called it a day. 

I headed home and honestly didn’t leave my couch for about 4 hours. I was so tired. I even took a nap and drooled all over my hands (lol). I ate an ice cream too, because I earned that shit. I have eaten at least one ice cream. day. No shame. Treat yo-self. 

Before I knew it, it was dinner time, so I called in Pho. I wasn’t feeling 100%, so I figured that would help. It was delicious this time around. Last time there was something a little off with the broth. I also ordered a banana smoothie. I love banana flavored anything. 

I also was FINALLY able to talk to Kevin. I felt super bad though, cause he was VERY ill. I am just glad he is feeling better. He sent me a couple of roughs, but I am looking forward to getting more from him this week. Excited about my music endeavors! It’s nuts that this is happening. Life is weird. 

Man. I think about you so much. I miss you so much. I was talking to your dad about how I never truly experienced heartache until you died. My chest literally hurts sometimes. 

Fortunately I do not have many plans tomorrow besides church and meeting up with someone from church after church. I guess we will see how I feel though, since I am kind of not 100% as mentioned. 

I really do not wanna get sick. I need to get my flu shot for work still, and I have to onboard like 3 people on Monday. I got shit to do! 

Love you, James. Life isn’t the same. I was looking at the pictures from last year today. What I would give to even go back to a moment like that. Just to know you exist. You struggled, but you were SO loved. You were so blessed too. I wish you saw it. I am sure you feel it now. I sense your peace. 

Rest in Peace, James Burton Nichols

10/1/1993 - 7/16/2022

[chans-bad-girl]

Hi there! I'm very sleepy right now but suddenly this came into my mind : "what is skz reaction when they caught you touching yourself? Maybe they'll asking for mutual masturbation? Or just watching you? Or ended up having sex with you??" Thank you in advance~ guess I can't sleep tonight!!

Hey, hope you're getting your sleep lol

Stray Kids reactions: they catch you touching yourself (+scenarios)

warnings: voyeurism, masturbation (female and male), toys, dumbification, pet names, nipple play, mutual masturbation, mentions of piv, dirty talk, mirror sex, wall sex

chan:

maybe giving your boyfriend a spare key to your apartment wasn't the best idea because now you're sprawled out on your couch, pictures of him on your phone while the bunny vibrator is put on the highest setting. tbh you wouldn't have noticed him standing there with takeout if he didn't grab your hand and take control of the toy. face cold, he whispers into your ear, "tell me when you're horny next time and you won't need my pictures anymore." (which he says while pushing the toy further inside you)

lee know:

minho likes going to bed early. he usually goes to bed at 11, preferably at 10, and sleeps his 8 hours in ignorant bliss of his girlfriend's moans muffled in her pillow. emphasis: usually. because tonight, he feels the shaking and hears the squelching sounds through his lighter-than-usual slumber. "bunny, please touch yourself quieter, I need my sleep." will go back to sleep and then rail you tomorrow while he teases you about it with all the energy he got from his beauty rest.

changbin:

he got you a bullet vibrator for your 1-year-anniversary and boy are you keen to use it. it's been glimmering at you from across your room and now that changbin is sleeping in the other room (and you don't want to wake him because he had a stressful week with almost 0 sleep), you think it's time to use it. when you turn it on, you don't expect it to be this intense. your hole clenches at your clit's sensitivity and your body jolts forward. you don't mean for your moan to be this loud, really, but it rings through the apartment and wakes your boyfriend right up. upon seeing your struggle with the vibrator, he rubs his eyes and says, "my baby is too dumb to touch herself now? oh kitten, do you need master to teach you?"

hyunjin:

oh boy roommate!hyunjin will literally touch himself watching you through the crack of the bathroom door you forgot to lock. dick in hand, he watches as you touch yourself in the bathtub, losing yourself with the shower head on your clit and a hand on your hard nipples. will accidentally be too loud and call your attention. "oh, sorry, uhm..." "couldn't control yourself, huh?" "no..I-" "cut it. i want you. now." this whole endeavor leads to you becoming friends with benefits lol because you're two horny college students who can't afford their own apartments but also have a no-bringing-one-night-stands-home policy. will want to do mutual masturbation because he doesn't wanna get all wet haha

jisung:

he catches you touching yourself in his own home. you were on a trip to meet your family in your home town and your close childhood friend offered you a place to stay. for a week you couldn't touch yourself or even be alone for more than 5 minutes, and when Jisung finally leaves the house for a bit longer than just for groceries, you can finally relax without the fear he might come back soon. so you lie on the couch bed, completely naked because it's 43 degrees and god knows you've waited for this way too long. little did you know that Jisung's plans were cancelled and he drove straight back home to you playing with your clit, two fingers stretching your walls. will watch in awe for a bit before you notice him. "oh, you...that's kind of hot. Mind if I...help?" you don't mind at all. and this is how you ended up with your childhood best friend's head between your legs.

felix:

you blame felix for the suit he's worn and also for the fact that he didn't bother to take it off even when you arrived at his house and started playing video games. Needless to say: you were horny as ever. so you excused yourself to the bathroom to satisfy the ache. because felix had his headphones on and his room was on the other side of the house, you let soft moans slip off your tongue. he sure wouldn't hear, right? WRONG. he got worried after you didn't come back from the toilet for 10 minutes and decided to check on you. and oh was he happy he did that because your moans? music to his ears. "yn, no need to hide, my family won't be back until tomorrow." that's when you open the door and grab his tie for his lips to meet yours. "you stayed in this on purpose, huh? after the wedding you could've taken it off." "I know you like suits."

seungmin:

before he told you he's an idol, you'd never thought of him this way: hot, talented and highly ambitious. but the growing trust in your friendship reveals an aspect of seungmin you wouldn't have expected in your wildest dreams: tongue out, gaze dark, he's hyper-focused on his dance moves, and hell is that making a mess of your panties. at your place, eating celebration pizza after his tour-opening show, you decide to wait until he falls asleep to pound a dildo into yourself in your room. the doors are thin and the couch bed seungmin temporarily sleeps on is only so comfortable. which means that he hears you loud and clear as you whine. you have awakened his curiosity, and before he can stop himself, he walks straight toward your room. what do you look like right now? What are you thinking about? When he walks into your bedroom and accidentally stumbles, you look at him with the biggest eyes and maybe that wasn't the way he imagined the answer to the first question. (good for you that you have the blanket over though haha). "oh, this is very embaressing...in front of my idol friend, wow." "nonono don't get me wrong, I think you put on a nice show. maybe better than mine..." will fuck you in front of a mirror (with your consent ofc) because "look at you, you're performing so well only for me."

jeongin:

after him teasing you all day (being all touchy-feely, being suggestive with his words and wiggling his eyebrows way too much lol) while watching reruns of pretty little liars, he forgets his gym bag at your dorm. now, your touch starved, career oriented college student self is only so resilient. translation: you rub your clit furiously while watching twitter porn. when he arrives at the bus stop, he notices his gym bag is still at your place, and so decides to knock on the first-floor window to your bedroom. when you don't answer (because your earphones blast slapping sounds and moans + you are too far gone to notice anything at this point) he peeks through the slit between your curtains and oh my god are you hot squirming around with your hand between your legs. he's touched himself to the fantasy of you pinned to a wall too many times to count, and now he can finally make it a reality. let's just say he's not shy to ring your door bell at the ass crack of dawn to ask you about what porn gets you off so prettily to then rail you against all walls in your apartment lmao rip your roommate

[bakudekuficlist]

hi!! i was wondering if you have any bkdk roadtrip fics and/or any bkdk fics where they like help patch up each other’s sounds after a fight? thank you !!!

sure! ill actually couldn't find any tending to wounds/injuries but I will look out for that so maybe see it in the future!

Mini-List: Bakudeku Roadtrips!

Fool For Love - EyndsOfTheEarth

Chapter(s): 6/? | 15846 words | Teen / No Warnings Apply

Izuku takes an impromptu road trip after High school ends and picks up an unplanned hitchhiker on the way.

Katsuki is just trying to get to Massachusetts and away from the strange, overly-cheery guy who picked him up for some reason.

—-

“My name isn’t Katsuro.”

“...Okay? So what is it?”

“Katsuki.”

“Eh- same thing.” Izuku shrugged.

“No, it’s not.” Katsuki clenched his teeth together, grabbing Izuku’s hand and ripping it away from his bag.

“Please get in the car?” Izuku pleaded a little instead of arguing that Katsuro and Katsuki were pretty much the same name. When Katsuki set his jaw, still not moving, he added, “I have food.”

And that’s how Izuku found himself driving down the road with a very pissed-off-looking Katsuki in the passenger seat.

All colors will agree in the dark - mudhamster

Chapter(s): 6/6 | 27768 words | Teen / Creator Chose No Warnings

"Did you replace me?" The question felt as if he had been punched directly in the face. His first thought was 'no' - but hadn't he done precisely that? "Deku" the other's expression had become menacing "you shouldn't have been thinking about that question at all. ...Fuck." Too late, Izuku's poor brain realised that he was probably about to be strangled, as the blond had knelt down on the bed directly above him in one swift movement.

A story about how a road trip between two friends just changed everything. A prequel.

New York or Bust! - SexyDex

Chapter(s): 1/1 | 7755 words | Explicit / Creator Chose No Warnings

“Welcome to Day One of New York or bust! I’m Izuku Midoriya and you can call me Deku. I’m joined with my partner and best friend--”

“Katsuki Bakugou. We’re gonna be taking pictures anyway, what’s the point of also podcasting?”

“For posterity, Kacchan! I also think it’d be cool if we talked about the stuff we see on the way to New York.”

“Well, whatever. Don’t expect me to talk all that much. Our classmates said that ninety percent of America is fucking boring.” ----

Izuku and Katsuki go on a couple's roadtrip in the summer to celebrate their one year anniversary. Hijinks of all kind ensue.

The End of the Fucking World - naniwo

Chapter(s): 1/1 | 2520 words | Teen / Creator Chose No Warnings

The world's ending and what's better than taking a road trip for a class reunion?

2,243 Miles From Your Heart - prettymiwa

Chapter(s): 2/? | 4313 words | Teen / No Warnings Apply

“Kacchan” Izuku whispered, snapping Katsuki out of his Izuku induced thoughts.

“Yes, Deku”

“Do you think everything will go okay?”

“Of course, it’s just a fucking road trip, nerd”

“It just feels kind of surreal”

“And why’s that?”

“It’s just gonna be us all alone”

“It’s always been just us”

“I guess you’re right Kacchan,” Izuku gave him a sleepy smile that made Katuski’s heart speed pick up. Dammit, you’d think he’d be immune to his smiles by now.

Bestfriends Katsuki and Izuku decide to go on a road trip the summer before the start of their college careers. They're not sure what to expect from this trip, definitely not picking up random strangers. But Izuku has a savior complex and will do anything he can to help and Katsuki has a disease called love and will do anything he can to make Izuku happy.

Take a Left - bkdk4ever

Chapter(s): 2/2 | 21957 words | Explicit / No Warnings Apply

“In 500 meters take a left on ---- road.”

…

“Re-routing. Take the next right onto ---- street.”

…

“Re-routing-”

“FOR FUCK’S SAKE!”

—————

Or

Both Izuku and Katsuki decide to drive to a resort to celebrate their second year anniversary. Unfortunately, for the both of them, their GPS is very adamant on ruining their plans. Well, it’s a good thing they’ve fought off much worse villains than a GPS right?

Melting - countingpaperstar

Chapter(s): 7/7 | 7309 words | Teen / No Warnings Apply

“One last hurrah, huh?”

Kacchan’s eyes are bright, focused in a way that feels like sunlight streaming through a magnifying glass Izuku is caught beneath. “Yeah…”

The summer Izuku learns Kacchan is a lot of things he isn't expecting and that there's more room on the road for fragile things to grow.

[osakaso5]

IDOLiSH7 6th Anniversary Special Story: Full of Heart...

Chapter 1: The Greatest Show

Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6

Mister Shimooka: The day has finally come for Rabitty-kun, beloved children's character, to celebrate its 6th anniversary with a special show!

Mister Shimooka: Welcome to Kids' Room!

Mister Shimooka: And as we look back on our own childhoods with Toi Toi Toi Company's famous mascot...

Mister Shimooka: We'll also take a peek at the childhoods of idols whose fame rivals even that of Rabitty-kun!

Audience: Kyaaaaa...!

Mister Shimooka: Here come our special guests!

Mister Shimooka: Re:vale!

Yuki: Hey there.

Momo: I hope you're excited for our baby pics!

Audience: Kyaaaaa..!

Mister Shimooka: TRIGGER!

Tenn Kujo: Thank you for having us on.

Gaku Yaotome: Thanks. Let's regain some of our childhood innocence, yeah?

Ryunosuke Tsunashi: I hope you're all ready!

Audience: Kyaaaaa..!

Mister Shimooka: IDOLiSH7!

Iori Izumi: I'm a bit embarrassed to show you all my picture, but I suppose I'll allow it, just this once.

Yamato Nikaido: Ichi's not the only one who's feeling embarrassed, but I think I've got a pretty good shot just for you guys.

Mitsuki Izumi: Thanks for having us!

Tamaki Yotsuba: Thanks!

Sogo Osaka: Congratulations on your 6th anniversary.

Nagi Rokuya: Only you will have the privilege of witnessing this special picture of me!

Riku Nanase: Please look forward to it!

Audience: Kyaaaaa..!

Mister Shimooka: ŹOOĻ!

Toma Inumaru: Let's make this the best anniversary ever!

Haruka Isumi: Hi.

Torao Mido: Thanks for having us.

Minami Natsume: Thank you.

Audience: Kyaaaaa..!

Tsumugi's Thoughts: Rabitty-kun's 6th anniversary special, Welcome to Kids' Room...

Tsumugi's Thoughts: For this show, our members had to find pictures from their childhood...

Tsumugi's Thoughts: And this is the story of how it all happened.

Tsumugi's Thoughts: Specifically...

Tsumugi's Thoughts: How it happened for MEZZO".

Tamaki Yotsuba: ........

Sogo Osaka: ........

- - - -

Tamaki Yotsuba: Welcome to Kids' Room...

Sogo Osaka: A show where we reminisce about our childhoods..?

Otoharu Takanashi: Exactly. You're both familiar with Rabitty-kun, the children's toy that took the world by storm some twelve years ago, yes?

Otoharu Takanashi: It was renewed and began its second run six years ago.

Riku Nanase: I remember Rabitty-kun! It was so popular when I was little! Ooh, ooh! I'm Rabitty!

Yamato Nikaido: The talking rabbit toys? We had at least three of those.

Mitsuki Izumi: Wow, gramps. You must've been a real Rabitty-kun superfan.

Yamato Nikaido: Superfan? Seriously..?

Mitsuki Izumi: Our parents only got us the one, so we had to take turns playing with it.

Iori Izumi: Right.

Riku Nanase: What's with the cool reaction, Iori? Didn't you like Rabitty-kun?

Iori Izumi: I have a cool reaction to all manner of cutesy stuffed animals, in case you haven't already noticed.

Iori Izumi: Besides, don't the rest of you find Rabitty-kun sort of... creepy? Because of the way he talks...

Yamato Nikaido: Creepy..? Nope, not really.

Mitsuki Izumi: Maybe he seemed scary to you because you were so little back then?

Riku Nanase: Do you know him, Nagi? It's possible that Rabitty-kun didn't ever land in Northmare.

Nagi Rokuya: OH, I do know him! I had a Rabitty Boy of my own once.

Nagi Rokuya: He could both sing and dance, and he enjoyed when I fed him carrots and pet his head.

Sogo Osaka: Wow...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Seriously?

Riku Nanase: What about you, Tamaki and Sogo-san? Do you know Rabitty-kun?

Mitsuki Izumi: Ah... Right, I guess you guys might've...

Sogo Osaka: I-I do know of him. Though I never owned one myself, I definitely remember hearing his name somewhere.

Tamaki Yotsuba: S-same here! We had a ton of old toys at the orphanage, so we totally had one of those somewhere!

Tamaki Ýotsuba: Y'know, the, uh... R-Rabitty Man?

Nagi Rokuya: Rabitty Boy.

Riku Nanase: No, it's Rabitty-kun!

Tamaki Yotsuba: Yeah, Rabitty-kun! What's he got to do with the show we're going on, anyway?

Otoharu Takanashi: Rabitty-kun's manufacturer, Toi Toi Toi Company, is the sponsor of this TV special.

Otoharu Takanashi: Tsumugi-kun, would you mind explaining the rest?

Tsumugi Takanashi: Not at all. It's for Rabitty-kun's 6th renewal anniversary...

Tsumugi Takanashi: ...For which they wanted to hold a big TV special where idol groups look back on their childhoods.

Tsumugi Takanashi: The chosen groups are IDOLiSH7, Re:vale, TRIGGER, and ŹOOĻ.

Tsumugi Takanashi: The show will feature not only Rabitty-kun, but many other children's toys and songs from the past.

Mitsuki Izumi: Wow! That sounds fun!

Yamato Nikaido: Are you sure our generational gaps won't get in the way? Take me and Tama, for example. We're a whole five years apart.

Tsumugi Takanashi: Speaking of which, you and Yuki-san are four years apart. That means he and Tamaki-san are nine years apart.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Whoa. He's basically old enough to be my dad.

Iori Izumi: Hush. Don't let him hear you say that.

Otoharu Takanashi: As part of the project, they've asked you to present your own childhood photos during the show.

Otoharu Takanashi: Do you all think  you could do that? If it's too difficult, we can ask them to pass on you during that particular segment.

Mitsuki Izumi: It's no problem for me and Iori. What about you, gramps?

Yamato Nikaido: I'm sure I'll have tons of pictures to choose from... Even ones that don't show where I lived back then. What about you, Nagi?

Nagi Rokuya: But of course. I was all over Northmare's newspapers for a few weeks after I was born.

Yamato Nikaido: Sure, but do you have pictures you could actually use for the show?

Mitsuki Izumi: They're not so overly fancy that they'll ruin it for the rest of us, are they?

Nagi Rokuya: Hm... Very well, I shall select the most wonderful shot  myself. And what of you, Riku? Will you have trouble preparing a photo?

Riku Nanase: I might have kind of a hard time. Especially if I accidentally pick a picture that's got both me and Tenn-nii in it.

Iori Izumi: Which you will not be doing, obviously.

Riku Nanase: Ugh, I can already tell that you're planning to pick a photo that matches Mitsuki's.

Iori Izumi: I'm not trying to be smug about it, you know.

Riku Nanase: I wonder which photo Tenn-nii will choose. We'll have to meet up and talk about this.

Banri Ogami: Are you sure you can all manage? Especially you, Tamaki-kun and Sogo-kun...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Ah, um... Yeah, probably!

Sogo Osaka: I think I'll be able to work something out, too.

Banri Ogami: Really? If it's too difficult, then you don't have to force it.

Banri Ogami: I know both your family situations are a bit complicated...

Tamaki Yotsuba: We'll be fine! I'll ask the director of the orphanage.

Sogo Osaka: I have the contact information of one of our housekeepers, so I can ask them.

Banri Ogami: Okay, then. Good luck.

Riku Nanase: I can't wait to see what we all looked like when we were little!

Mitsuki Izumi: Same. I'm curious to see how Yaotome might've looked.

Yamato Nikaido: I'm more interested in Inumaru. Do you think his eyes were always that stern?

Nagi Rokuya: Are you asking because your own eyes are the same way?

Yamato Nikaido: Shut it.  

Iori Izumi: I'll contact Kujo-san ahead of time, so we won't have any mishaps with Nanase-san.

Riku Nanase: I can do it myself!

Tamaki Yotsuba: .........

Sogo Osaka: .........

- - - - 

Sogo Osaka: Pictures from our childhood...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Pics from when we were little...

Sogo Osaka: Do you think you'll find one, Tamaki-kun?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Maybe, if they've got some at the orphanage... You?

Sogo Osaka: Maybe, if my father hasn't disposed of them... I wonder how many of them we even had...

Tamaki Yotsuba: You should've told Ban-chan that you're gonna have a hard time finding any.

Sogo Osaka: ...I could say the same to you.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Well yeah, but...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Everyone else was talking about that stuff so normally, and I wanted to seem normal too.

Sogo Osaka: Me too... Even after all this time, I'm still desperate to fit in.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Same. Even though we I know I can talk about this stuff with the guys.

Sogo Osaka: I wonder why that is.

Tamaki Yotsuba: I dunno.

Sogo Osaka: It's not a problem with any of them, or Banri-san. I guess I just don't want them to feel sorry for me...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Maybe that's it for me, too... I don't feel bad about it, but I also don't wanna get in the way of their happiness.

Sogo Osaka: Right. Maybe I'm just feeling awkward, because I didn't grow up like them. I didn't even have one of those Rabitty Dolls.

Tamaki Yotsuba: "Rabitty Dolls"?

Sogo Osaka: That's right. I was only allowed to have toys that would advance my intellectual development.

Tamaki Yotsuba: So-chan, that's not what they're called. Nobody had a "Rabitty Doll".

Sogo Osaka: Oh. What were they called, again?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Rabitty Man. No wait. I mean Rabitty-kun.

Sogo Osaka: Rabitty-kun.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Ooh, ooh!

Sogo Osaka: .....!? What's wrong? Did something get lodged in your throat?

Tamaki Yotsuba: ...No, no! Stop trying to pry my mouth open!!!

Sogo Osaka: It's because you made that groaning noise...

Tamaki Yotsuba: I was just pretending to be Rabitty-kun. Like: "Ooh, ooh! I'm Rabitty!"

Sogo Osaka: Ah, come to think of it, he did say something like that...

Tamaki Yotsuba: I wonder what the "ooh ooh" part's about.

Sogo Osaka: I don't know... Isn't Rabitty-san supposed to react to sounds, lights, and touch?

Sogo Osaka: Maybe he's being overstimulated to the point of excruciating pain, without even realizing it himself...

Tamaki Yotsuba: I don't think he says it 'cause he's in pain... Maybe he just can't get his mouth open?

Sogo Osaka: You think he's been gagged?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Why would anyone gag an innocent bunny toy?

Sogo Osaka: You're the one who said he couldn't open his mouth... In any case, I'll try and get a hold of someone  who might know about my pictures.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Like that housekeeper?

Sogo Osaka: Yes... They might help me, so long as they haven't resigned yet... What will you do?

Tamaki Yotsuba: I'm gonna ask the director. Pretty sure the orphanage's got at least some pics of me. Are you gonna call them right now?

Sogo Osaka: That was my plan.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Ok, I'll go call from my room then.

Sogo Osaka: Alright. Goodnight.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Mmh... But I might come back if my call doesn't work out.

Sogo Osaka: That's fine. We can figure this out together.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Okay. 

- - - -

[Door opens]

Tamaki Yotsuba: ........

Sogo Osaka: You're back. How did it go?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Ooh, ooh.

Sogo Osaka: Is that a groan of pain?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Yep.

Sogo Osaka: My attempt didn't go too well, either. Apparently only my father has access to any of our pictures. The housekeeper had no idea what has become of them.

Tamaki Yotsuba: They had pictures of me, but I'm too old in all of them. Like, thirteen and up.

Sogo Osaka: They had pictures of you when you were thirteen?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Yeah.

Sogo Osaka: Did they send you any?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Nope. The director doesn't know how smartphones work. Why, did you wanna see 'em?

Sogo Osaka: A little bit...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Heh. I think I looked pretty cool back then.  

Sogo Osaka: I think you were probably more cute than cool. You were only thirteen, after all. I just wanted to see a version of you that isn't taller than me.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Well I wanna see how you looked when you were little, too. Like, do you even look anything like that now?

Sogo Osaka: I should hope so, since they are pictures of me.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Heh.

Sogo Osaka: I know, it's pretty funny. In any case, I did find one good lead.

Tamaki Yotsuba: What kinda lead?

Sogo Osaka: One of my father's coworkers does photography for a hobby. He should have taken a picture of me with my uncle.

Sogo Osaka: He's someone very important, so his photos should have survived even after my father got rid of every photo of my uncle.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Your dad must really love throwing pictures away.

Sogo Osaka: I can almost sympathize with him... I wouldn't want to be reminded of such a completely and utterly ruined relationship.

Tamaki Yotsuba: So if MEZZO" disbands, you're gonna delete all your pictures with me in them?

Sogo Osaka: ........

Tamaki Yotsuba: You can't get rid of all of them, though. They're all over the world, in magazines and stuff.

Tamaki Yotsuba: So you're gonna be reminded of me no matter what. Tough luck.

Sogo Osaka: ........ ...That's true.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Ah, that reminds ME!!!

Sogo Osaka: W-what!?

Tamaki Yotsuba: I knew an uncle who took pictures of us, too!

Sogo Osaka: An uncle who took pictures...

Tamaki Yotsuba: Mom liked the family portrait that uncle took so much, she kept it near our TV.

Tamaki Yotsuba: We put that picture in her casket when she died, but if that uncle's got the original data, then he can make another one.

Sogo Osaka: True. Do you know where this uncle lives?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Nope... But Re:vale might.

Sogo Osaka: Re:vale?

Tamaki Yotsuba: Yep. What about you? Can you call that guy who works with your dad?

Sogo Osaka: I don't have the connections to just go talk to him. But I know someone who does.

Tamaki Yotsuba: Who? Ah... You mean that dude?

Sogo Osaka: Why do you look so upset? He's not that bad. Not anymore, at least.

Tamaki Yotsuba: I dunno. He still looks like an evil rich guy to me. 

To be continued...

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30.11.2021, 1.12.2021 & 2.12.2021 || 19+20+21/100 days of productivity

How is it already December? Days are flying past and honestly, after the dumpster fire the last two years have been, I don't know what to expect from the new year. I so want it to be my year, and to be optimistic about the new beginning, but I just can't after all the challenges we have faced the last two years, so unexpected and so devastating. On a brighter note, the festive season is coming! Can't wait to buy some stuff for myself once exams get over and also celebrate all the anniversaries and birthdays that fall during this jolly month <3

My goals for the days were:

30th November-

Revise the prose and poems for the exam

Note down stuff that seems important

1st December-

Sample Question Paper Solving

Reading Comprehension practice since that's where I make the most mistakes

2nd December-

Last day revision for the English Exam

Going through important words, poetic devices, formats and other stuff based on the questions I solved.

Now for the two awesome Winter Studying Challenges I am taking part in🌨️ (Under the cut):

❄️ Myhoneststudyblr's Winter Studying Challenge:

Day 1, 1st December: Do you like winter?

Winters are my happy place!

Day 2, 2nd December: What is your favourite thing about winter?

I love the festive mood, the long nights, and the soft, serene warmth of the sun in the cold.

❄️ Tranquilstudy's Winter Studying Challenge:

Day Eighteen: If you could study abroad, where would you go?

Honestly I have never thought about studying abroad, but I guess I will go to the US because I have heard a lot about the med schools there and also my elder brother studies there, so yeah.

Day Nineteen: Do you prefer silence or noise when you are focusing? How about when you're relaxing?

I usually prefer some white noise, I have trouble focusing if things get too quite, it gets on my nerves. Otherwise I will put on some chill lofi. Even when I am relaxing, I am either listening to my fav songs or lofi.

Day Twenty: Give yourself some love today! Post a picture of yourself or your favourite outfit and tell us five things you love about yourself!

Skipping the photo part, hope it's okay!

Five things I love about myself (this is so hard everytime I do it)

I love how I appreciate little things in life

I love how I am willing to strive for my dreams

I love my excitement for stationery and books

I love how I can bring a smile on someone's face through my words

I love how, despite everything, I am still here, trying, fighting, to make my future a bright one.