#and I have 0 self control when it comes to that game

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sometimes I forget I took my adderall and suddenly I look up with all my work around me like ??? work getting done???

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Hazbin Hotel Episode Rewrites

Episode 1 (will be doing all of them)

Take out the “precious daughter” line. This makes no sense seeing how Lilith ditched the family and Lucifer is supposed to be super distant. We get 0 evidence these were involved, doting parents that put a bunch of effort into raising Charlie. Perhaps change it to “And now, its up to their precious daughter” meaning Charlie has taken it upon herself to mend things, instead of making it sound like she’s been coached all along for her role.

Adam and Lute are put off to find out its Charlie meeting with them, not Lucifer as usual. The meeting was arranged because of the very important matter of an exterminator angel being killed for the first time ever, and an important discussion was needed. Adam is much less a 1 dimensional comic relief dude bro.

“So, are you taking over extermination arrangements for now on?”

“Uh, no...actually, it was just kind of out of the blue that he told me about the meeting and asked me to come-”

(seriously, Lucifer supposedly didn’t know about the hotel, or at least he pretended not to, lets just assume he does but didn’t let on to Charlie that he’s watching her)

“Did he tell you why?”

“Ah, no-but, it was really convenient because you see, I have an idea that would actually END the need for exterminations-”

At this point Adam is seriously put off. They just found out demons can kill angels-this has to be a distressing revelation. Now of all times, the guy they have a serious deal with chooses to send someone who wants to talk about ENDING the exterminations? This would almost feel like a threat. So now they want out of the deal? No way! He would feel a need to reassert dominance and get things back under control. Who do these demons think they are? Cue their aggressive mocking and song, followed by throwing Charlie out as they do in the actual episode. He doesn’t even bother to explain why they are moving the extermination up. He’s not going to talk to Charlie. She has not established any sort of repertoire with him that makes him feel as though she is worth having an actual discussion with about a serious matter.

Commercial subplot: Alastor offers a deal to Vaggie in order to help make a successful commercial for Charlie.

“You’re insane, I’d never make any sort of deal with some shitlord

“Hm, such a pity, Charlie will be so let down to see how you fail to manage her project even a day without her. She has to do everything. Why are you even around? Do you really think the princess of hell needs physical protection from a sinner with a spear?”

*sighs* “You making the video for me isnt going to help that.”

“My dear, it wasnt raw power that bent all of Hells sinners to my will. You seem to know me quite well...(this is where we can reintroduce the Alastor lore Vaggie game to Angel Dust in the pilot, instead of waiting until the Mimzy episode to give anything) ...so you see, I have no problems getting things done, and I would be willing to teach you. Imagine what Charlie could achieve, and how much quicker, if she had a competent partner at her side…”

“I’m not making a deal! And you can have fun entertaining yourself with an empty hotel. Nobodys going to want to come to a place a powerful overlord like you so obviously takes as a joke”

“Well, I WILL make a worthy advertizement for the hotel, but I’m going to do it the RIGHT way, and do it for radio!”

She doesn’t make a deal here, but the seeds have now been sown. Her insecurity and feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness are gnawing. She has little feelings of self worth-would it be so bad to sacrifice herself in a deal with Alastor if it meant assuring Charlie achieves her dream? She is tempted.

Vaggie uses a little cunning here. While Alastor manipulates the inhabitants of the hotel to give fantastic line deliveries using a variety of amusing tactics, Vaggie secretly records with the video camera. At the end of the day, Alastor smugly announces that he has the radio ad all ready. When Charlie returns, Vaggie cuts in and says radio AND television ad! The ad then starts to play and is cut off by the news like in the actual episode. Alastor was initially amused she tried to make a tv ad anyway, but he sees enough to tell that she recorded him making the radio ad. His smile tightens, eyes narrow, and he fades off.

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hii hai :3 if it wont inconvenience u i would love regressor todd headcanons !!! please and thank you loads :p

I've been waiting for somebody to ask me fore these!!! I love thinking about Regressor Todd, he's me fr. Sorry if these are a little sadder/more impure than my other HCs, but I think they'd fit, and I think impure regression should be recognized too.

Todd Ingram Agere Headcanons

Todd regresses around 3-5, though occasionally regresses all the way back to 0 in times of high stress.

His favorite little snacks are apple slices and banana slices. His favorite little drink is a strawberry-mango smoothie with almond milk instead of real milk.

He has some Agere gear, but he's worried of what people will think of him, so he keeps it in a box and hides it in his room.

^Included items in his box are: A green pacifier, a teddybear he's had since he was a kid, an apple-shaped teether toy, a frog onesie, and a cutesy fairytale coloring book that comes with crayons.

He loves to play pretend, and his favorite is to play what he calls "The Bug Game", where he and other members of the league pretend to be bugs. He usually likes to be a ladybug.

When Todd regresses around the League of Evil Exes, the ones who immediately go to help are Roxie, Lucas and Matthew. Roxie is an experienced babysitter, Lucas is good with kids, and Matthew is a total caregiver at heart even though he doesn't know the term.

Todd uses age regression as a way to help manage his stress levels, as when he's too upset or stressed out, his vegan powers go out of whack.

Todd is a very active little one. He likes to play outside all the time, but he gets embarrassed most of the time and keeps his regression to himself if possible when he's out in public without a cg.

His tantrums are really big and really bad. He doesn't have them a lot, but if he's made upset enough in littlespace, it could get potentially dangerous. He uses regression to manage his powers, but if he's that upset, he'll freak out and use his powers with even less control over them.

^If this does ever happen, it usually leads to the poor baby feeling guilty. He always cries and apologizes afterwards. He doesn't know what else to do when his feelings are too big for his little self.

In an event where Todd is getting close to a stress level that's too high, Gideon has a special room in his secret evil lair for Todd to try and relax in. It's full of stuffies, blankets, pillows and more. It's quiet, the lights are dim, and it's great for de-stressing or for nap time.

When it's naptime, he likes to listen to music box versions of songs he's performed with Envy.

When Todd colors in his coloring book, he makes it a point to color specific pages for specific members of the league and hand them out accordingly.

He likes to bring in random animal friends to meetings with the league when he's regressed. Frogs, Rabbits, Ducks, Cats, Birds, Hedgehogs. He even brought in a tiger once. Nobody knows how he did it. Nobody knows why the tiger was so nice to him. Nobody knows where he even found it. All they know is that Gideon now has a pet tiger named Fluffy that Todd plays with sometimes.

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Hello, back again! I was wondering if you could recommend games that are available for free or on a pay-what-you-want basis. I’m currently on a tight budget (#collegelife) and I know many people in the same boat. I’m aware of Stars Without Number/Worlds Without Number and a couple of OSR games available in a free no-art edition like Mutant Future. Any others?

THEME: Free TTRPGS (1/2)

Oh my gosh I love this ask. Fear not dear student, I too understand the budget-decimating black hole that is academia, and I come to you with a number of recommendations, as well as helpful hints as to what to look for when you are browsing your favourite ttrpg site! (This is only 1/2) of what I've got in store for you!

1. The Free tag on Itch.io. 

When it comes to finding a free game that works for you, you might have to search a little bit to find exactly what works for you, but there is *oodles* of free, quality games that you can find on this website. I cannot stress how much I love what I find on Itch. Sometimes the core rules are free while additional supplements are what costs money, while others are just games that people wanted to design because they feel passionate about it. 

Kids & Spirits, by Marc Strocks.

I can’t sleep in the new house... Late at night I feel like somebody’s watching. Once I woke up to find a toad on my windowsill so I scared it off. Last night I went on the roof to look out onto the valley. I called out: “I know you’re out there! If somebody’s here, you better say something!” Nobody did.

But then I saw her! I swear a real-live witch flew by on her broom! Dad said witch families used to live in this countryside. They all used to cast magic and stuff together. Well, I don’t think they like each other anymore. I think the covens are at war! And they won’t stop until one destroys the other!

KIDS & SPIRITS is a Studio Ghibli-hack of Kids on Bikes! The system and setting mesh perfectly because: they're about young, impulsive people facing powers beyond their control. In a one-shot or ongoing story, create your own Hayao Miyazaki-inspired tale!

This is a pay-what-you-want game that lets you tell the Studio Ghibli movie that you desire, with tropes to inspire your characters, various kinds of dice to represent the gamut of your abilities, and the beloved Kids on Bikes character connections questions. You’ll begin play with characters who are all connected, if even just because they’ve heard rumours about each-other, and explore a city that you build together in session 0. This is an absolutely charming game, with a spiritual successor in Spiritbound, which resides in the same world but uses the system of Ironsworn. 

If you’re interested in this game, you should also check out my Google Sheets character sheets!

Crypto > exploring // dystopia :: by aseigo.

The year 2100 came and went … adoption of an untraceable digital currency freed Corporations from the State, bankrupted governments and ushered in a new era where the democratic rule of law was replaced by unchecked economic powers. Global conglomerates, self-organizing arcologies, old-money empires, and the pioneers of new frontiers are all locked in a struggle to achieve their ambitions in this world.

Welcome to the cryptoanarchy. We hope you enjoy survive your stay.

Crypto is a tabletop role playing game about exploring a possible future dystopia as citizens of the cryptoanarchy. Suitable for running games featuring cyberpunk, dark future, and/or dystopian political themes.

I check out the newest games on Itch.io pretty regularly, and this one was published not too long ago. It comes with a 68-page rulebook, Fate Cards to generate your character’s backstory, NPC templates for the GM, Character Sheets, Reference Tables, Gear, and more. There’s advice on how to make your character feel real, how to determine the unifying goal of your team, interacting with NPCs, etc. To top it all off, there’s lore that explains how the world works, how it ended up this way, what the Edgenet is, and more. If you want gritty cyberpunk with a lot tools to get you set up, you should check out Crypto. 

The Electrum Archive, by Emiel Boven.

The Electrum Archive is a science-fantasy tabletop RPG, inspired by games like The Elder Scrolls III: Morrowind, Ultraviolet Grasslands, Suldokar's Wake, and Cairn. It is being developed through zines that detail parts of the world of Orn and add new rules and procedures for you to use at the table.

The game is set on the world of Orn, a place long ago abandoned by an alien race now known as the Elders. The magical ink left behind in the shipwrecks of these ancient aliens is now used as currency and inhaled by warlocks as fuel for their spell casting. Adventurers called inkseekers venture out into the decaying world beyond the cities ruled over by scheming Merchant Houses to look for Elder artefacts and ink.

This is a fascinating setting with simple character creation that resonates with lovers of the OSR style of play.Your characters will have backgrounds and archetypes that set them apart, but your inventory is absolutely integral to being able to survive, as you’ll have 8 hit points or less and plenty of the monsters you go up against are likely to wipe the floor with you if you go head-to-head. With special rules for travel and exploration, this is a game for a group that wants to explore new and strange places, no matter the danger.

2. Free games on DriveThruRPG. 

This is harder to search through than Itch.io in my opinion, but sometimes the slog of looking through countless pdfs is worth it in finding a game that you’ll get some fun out of. Here’s a few that I’ve looked at in the past, to help you get past that initial hurdle.

Wicked Ones, by Bandit Camp Games. 

WICKED ONES is a Forged in the Dark tabletop RPG about a group of fantasy monsters building a dungeon, launching raids on the surface to gather a hoard, and pursuing your nefarious master plan. Along the way, there's pillaging, rituals, concoctions, contraptions, discoveries deep in the ground, dungeon rooms, traps, creatures, minions, and so much more! You build your dungeon over time throughout the campaign and no two dungeons will ever be alike. You bask in choosing the greater of two evils as your group strives to accomplish its master plan and terrorize the region around your dungeon. However, your vile deeds lure increasingly greedy and powerful adventurers into your dungeon. Can you stave off the inevitable onslaught of heroism that your notoriety brings?

Forged in the Dark games fucking slap and the fact that you can play this one for free? I had to pinch myself. There’s a lot of moving pieces in FitD games that work together, but the one I want to really shout out here is the clocks. Forget keeping track of hit points for enemies - just slap on a clock to represent how close they are to dying, running away, or calling for reinforcements. Players also get abstracted resources, like Gold, which represents wealth, and Dark Hearts, meta points that can be spent to add extra dice to a roll. Do you wanna revel in monstrosity? Do your characters want to play murder hobos? Do you like heavy improv? Check out this game.

44: A Game of Automatic Fear, by Stories You Play.

"Someone you know was just replaced by a machine. No one else knows. You are next."

44: A Game of Automatic Fear is a suspense RPG. You portray people who know a robot conspiracy called Section 44 is replacing humanity. Can you survive before the conspiracy replaces you with a machine?

Set in the backdrop of the early 1950s, a time of high paranoia, 44 works like an Alfred Hitchcock movie with sci-fi elements. The players will create characters by contemplating their personalities and abilities, while the GM will brainstorm the qualities and agents that work for Section 44. The game is part survival-horror, part investigative-mystery, as the players will have to do their best to keep themselves out of the clutches of the mysterious agency by figuring out how to differentiate the replacements from real people.

This game was one of the first games I found when I was dipping my toes into the ttrpg scene and wasn’t sure if I wanted to spend money on this hobby or not, and therefore I hold it near and dear to my heart.

Pandora London and Pandora Paris, by Cascade Studios.

The story of Pandora is one of the most famous and well known of the Greek myths, a tale told to children to encourage them to behave. It is also a lie. One of the most carefully crafted pieces of fiction ever produced in order to hide a greater truth.

Become a participant in a supernatural war that rages in secret throughout the city of London. Battle forces both magical and spiritual as you and those like you uphold the peace and hold back the night.

PANDORA uses the Cascade Roleplaying System, a streamlined version of the role playing system first seem in the Golden Age RPG. Carefully designed to allow for quick and easy character creation and simple to remember in-game systems without losing the depth and freedom of choice that make role playing games so fantastic. Pandora London is the main rulebook, while Pandora Paris provides new factions, more lore, and a new setting to send your players to.

Pandora uses small dice pools of d10s. Characters have shared Traits and unique Skill Trees according to their class, and will keep track of both Health Points and Grace Points, which are player currency to fuel re-rolls and provide bonuses. Meanwhile, in terms of theme, it’s an urban fantasy game that’s more hopeful than Urban Shadows or World of Darkness, and slightly less mythic than Scion. If you like magic mixed with the mundane, Greek Mythology, or a game about going up against supernatural monsters, you should check this game out. 

3. Small games designed from Lasers & Feelings, 24XX and Honey Heist.

One and two-page games may be rules-light and niche, but they’re also a lot of fun! As a student I especially like them because they take up way less space in a backpack than a conventional rulebook, printing them off is relatively cheap, and they’re so low-prep that I can pick them up and run them with little-to-no planning beforehand - perfect for when the GM had to study for three tests that week but still wants to run something.

Luv and Mutants, by Frames.

What will win in a fight for survival against mutated insects, harsh surroundings and other survivors - LUV or MUTANTS?

This one-page game is based on the Lasers & Feelings TTRPG. It is set in a movie inspired world, where a chemical havoc caused all cold-blooded animals to mutate and destroy most of human civilization.You play a group of survivors in this harsh world, testing your skills and teamwork. 

This game follows the standard rules of Lasers & Feelings. You choose one number between 2 and 5, and your character has 2 stats. One stat will favour rolls below your chosen number, while another will favour rolls that are higher. Hitting your chosen number means that something special happens. In Luv and Mutants, this something special is your Super Survival Instinct - you ask the GM a question and they must answer honestly, giving you a chance to change what you are doing or re-roll according to your insight.

If you like survival games or post-apocalyptic games and you don’t want a lot of prep, check out this game!

24XX PREDATORS, by Dice Ghosts.

DINOSAURS ROAM THE EARTH! A terrible earthquake has struck the biggest city in the world, releasing prehistoric creatures that were trapped beneath the earth. After quarantining the area, a team of experts has been assembled to enter the city and meet this ancient threat.

Play as a team of uniquely skilled individuals venturing into a ruined city that has become overrun by dinosaurs. Using your unique skills and training, you will need to work together to survive this metropolis of prehistoric predators and complete your mission.

24XX PREDATORS is an excellent example of the 24XX style of play. Characters are made quickly and die quickly, missions and encounters are randomly generated, and there’s even a list of dinosaurs to throw at your players! This game also has special mechanics for dinosaur and team-based mechanics - you’ll roll to determine what happens when more than one kind of dino shows up on the scene, and scattering in the moment has the ability to help or hinder you depending on what your teammates choose. If you like suspense, adventure and dinosaurs, you should absolutely check out this game.

Cephalopod Squad, by The Mirage Company.

A game about heroic squid children trying to stop evil schemes and be the coolest fish in school. 

Cephalopod Squad is a goofy hack of Honey Heist by Grant Howitt. Honey Heist games give you two stats, and start you out with 3 points in each stat. Failure in one sense moves increases one stat and decreases the other, while success moves in reverse. You will always have a way to voluntarily move your points around as well, as long as you role-play scenes that match one aspect of your character.

This particular hack is pretty much Splatoon: the roleplaying game, so finding art to represent your characters might be pretty easy! If you want a game that’s a bit goofy and light-hearted, Cephalopod Squad is a great place to start!

Finally…

Games I’ve recommended in the past.

ICON Playtest, by Massif Press.

Cairn, by Yochai Gal. 

Reclaim the Wild, by Eldritch Knight.

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sooo ik you’re not gonna get into itafushikugi’s dynamic in your fic but just out of curiosity, if megumi ever did tell them about what happened to him, how would they react? actually how would they react to yuuta & megumi’s dynamic? LMAOO wait how would they react to gojo being megumi’s parental figure? god. megumi life is just insane.

They are absolutely obsessed with whatever the fuck megumi's life is. he enchants them. he comes off as the most normal of them all and then months into the relationship they find out that gojo satoru is his fucking dad. they didn't know he had a sister until someone else told them. he's the world's most interesting man but he shares no personal information and refuses to acknowledge how inexplicably fascinating he is.

The thing is that I would like to think that he did tell them, but when i say it would take years for him to get to that point.

I like to think that sea glass gardens feeds into a lot of canon as normal, and in my mind, the events of sea glass gardens within its own universe is a lot of the reason why megumi's blatantly suicidal in his first year.

I don't want to get too much into it, because we're still unpacking everything that happened, and like. Spoilers. But I don't think I can emphasize enough how traumatizing these events were for him, and how he is 0% willing or able to start the healing process for what happened. I think that Megumi as a person is just someone who hates being at other people's mercy, and these events were one of the most invasive losses of control for what happened.

I've talked about this in some other post, but one of the most notable things about Megumi is that he seems to constantly be trying to die on his own terms with Mahoraga. He's accepted that he'll go down, but he'll go down his way, taking the person who killed him with him. I view that as sort of the ultimate way of reclaiming control for someone who had very little control over the direction of his own life, and the events of sea glass gardens potentially robbed him of even that. Gojo says that he thinks the Zenin had to have a way to keep megumi from summoning mahoraga, but that means that Megumi's spent his entire life with this one reliable source of autonomy and control over his self and still had it be taken away. Mahoraga was his security blanket, and he lost it.

By the time Megumi reaches canon, he's jumping to summon Mahoraga at every turn, and that kind of reads as someone who 1) doesn't have a very high valuation of his own life, and 2) wants to make certain that he's dying on his terms. He is nowhere near close to being okay from what happened, he's not open to help from anyone, and he's not about to let himself be vulnerable with anyone. The events of sea glass gardens represent this inescapable moment of weakness and humiliation to him, and he's not mentally okay enough to admit to anyone that it happened.

Kugisaki and Itadori sort of start pulling him back from that path. They give him a reason to live and make him start fighting to survive instead of fighting to die his way. They really do sort of set him off into finally healing, and that breeds the sort of trust between them that I think they would one day be the people megumi is most comfortable telling about what the zenin did to him. But it would be slow. It would take a very, very long time. But when it did happen, it would happen because they were the people he trusted most in the world, and there is not a single part of him that thinks they could ever hurt him. He would trust them to the point of his own destruction.

I'd like to think it happens a little like this:

the scars from the Great Serpents fangs were something that Kugisaki and Itadori had been hounding him about for ages by the time he tells them. They have 93 theories in counting, each more crazy than the last. it becomes a sort of joke between them, finding a new explanation for where they came from since Fushiguro wouldn't tell them, and the game marks the first time that Megumi could even think about them without the memories tormenting him for the rest of the day. somehow, he can never feel grief around itadori or kugisaki.

it just comes out. he thought it would be harder, he thought he would choke on it, but the truth slips out easily, and he isn't afraid of what kugisaki or itadori would do with it. He tells them the truth of the Zenin, of what they did to him, of where the scars came from and how goddamn terrified he is of those people.

And it hurts less. It almost shocks him, how it hurts less.

Yuuta and Megumi's dynamic post-sea glass gardens is the source of endless bewilderment to Kugisaki and seething jealousy for itadori. I've talked about it in some other posts, but I think Itadori is unbearably jealous of yuuta when he meets him. He's not even a jealous person. this is an anomaly. Yuuta is living his perfect life, which is a shock to yuuta, who did not think he was living anyone's perfect life.

Like, Yuuta exists in this weird exception to everything for Megumi. Megumi Is Yuuta's Boy. They're inexplicably close and there's simply no explanation as to why that anyone can tell them. Yuuta is so visibly fond and protective of him that there's no way to say that megumi's not his favorite. Kugisaki has no idea what's going on but it's fucking hilarious watching itadori lose his gourd over it.

they go insane when they realize that gojo is megumi's dad and no one fucking told them. Maki lets it slip in passing (because she thought they had to know already) and itadori has to sit on megumi while kugisaki tries to weasel answers out of him. what the fuck do you mean gojo's your dad. why did he think this was not relevant information. this guy won't tell them shit about his life.

After, Itadori and Kugisaki insist on referring to gojo exclusively as "megumi's dad," which gojo is a smug dick about, and which causes megumi endless suffering. he wishes they were not told.

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(repost) [the astrology of pedro pascal] - hard sun aspects (major) | sun square saturn

hey y’all! in this series we’ll be covering major hard/challenging aspects (squares and oppositions) to pedro’s sun. minor challenging aspects to his sun (semi-squares/sesquiquadrates and semi-sextiles/inconjunctions) will be covered in an upcoming series, as well as the rest of the major and minor aspects to the rest of his planets, and asteroids in his chart! i also want to note that when it comes to these aspects, they have to be examined through the lens of the entire chart, as they’re influenced by a myriad of factors within it.

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sun square saturn (0°00’)

in this aspect, the planetary bodies are in conflict with one another. the sun is representative of the self, outward perception from others, how we show up in the world, and our ego and self esteem. it represents our enjoyment, happiness, and our physical vitality. saturn is representative of long-term goals, how we approach those goals, and more specifically the restriction and difficulty we face in meeting these goals. most often you’ll hear saturn referred to as the “teacher” or the “father” of the planetary bodies, it is the “bar” you set for yourself. 

when the sun and saturn are squared in a chart, it may manifest as insecurities or an inferiority complex. saturnian restrictions placed upon the ego can result in feelings of self-doubt and a lack of self-worth, and natives with this aspect may have to work 10x harder to achieve their goals. in youth they may have felt that any attempt they got to express their will was often impeded upon. this can also manifest as a desire to be in constant control of their environment and/or those around them. as mentioned before, saturn represents long-term goals, whatever saturn hits in the natal chart tends to be the area of life or the area of the personality that takes the longest to develop. these people may be considered “late bloomers” and tend to find success later in life. 

that success not only manifests in terms of career, money, social status, but also in terms of their relationship with themselves. they can become less critical of themselves with age, but it may follow them far into adulthood if not addressed. people with this aspect can be extremely hard on themselves, especially in youth. saturn can also represent the father/paternal figures in one’s life, therefore this aspect can potentially manifest in a father figure imposing negatively on the native’s identity, or restricting them in some way shape or form from self-actualization (not implying that this is the case for pedro as he’s pretty private in regards to his family/home life, just speaking in general terms for those with this aspect).

on the flip side, when saturn aspects are fully developed and worked through, these can become areas of the personality and of life that the native has the most strength in, so long as you’re working with saturn and not against it. in terms of how this has manifested in pedro’s life, he has the “fairytale” story where he was a struggling actor in new york, working non-stop, seeing his peers excel in the industry, maybe not with “ease” but perhaps “easier” for them than for it was him. it wasn’t until he was in his late 30’s that he got the role of Oberyn Martell in Game of Thrones, and then after that the role of Javier Peña in Narcos. 

his breakout role was The Mandalorian (a role he got in his early 40s if i’m not mistaken), and then recently, the role that actually made me alongside most of the rest of the world aware of him, Joel Miller in The Last of Us, a role he got in his early-mid 40s as well. he didn’t become “commercially successful” until later in life. i would also argue that a positive effect of this aspect could be the result of him not “peaking” too soon as an actor. because he had to work harder, he was put in a position where he had to actively master his craft. whereas younger actors (not all of them obviously) may find that success sooner and become comfortable, not necessarily have that hunger to improve, and become “pigeonholed” or type-cast after having one big role.

on the other hand though, and this is my own inference, i do wonder how he’s managed in terms of his own self-image and self esteem. he’s obviously at a point now in his life he has the career he’s been working towards his whole life, he’s said himself he’s enjoying all of the attention, adoration, and praise he’s gotten and even plays into it himself. but one thing that sticks with me is something he said in the THR: Round Table interview in reference to the expectations people had for The Last of Us: “but this time around, i was scared. i was so scared. because there was more of an exposed silhouette, a silhouette of coolness maybe, and an expectation to be met as far as what people’s immersive experience of the story was. and to disappoint them in that regard felt like it would be … i don’t know. you don’t want to let people down, but also nobody’s impervious to disappointing people. i want people to like me.” there are other interviews where he brings up this desire to “be liked” and references to how hard he can be on himself, and i always thought he was being half-hearted until i looked at his chart and realized how deeply he actually cares about the perception of himself and his work from others. 

i’m definitely not saying to be condescending, or to infantilize him in any way shape or form. we as human beings are social creatures and whether we want to admit it or not we ALL by default desire acceptance, and WANT to be liked by others. but from my perception, 2023 was his year. he (alongside Bella) was front and center for one of the best shows that came out this year, (and i would argue the best video game adaptation to come out in a minute), he had season three of The Mandalorian come out, he did a short film with Pedro Almodovar, he’s currently working on the Gladiator sequel, and has been coined “daddy of the internet,” (it gives me the ick but if he likes it i love it). i say all that to say, it’s interesting to me that this has been arguably the most successful year of his life, and he seems to be struggling with imposter syndrome. he continues to reiterate how much he desires to be liked, when he’s obviously adored and very much so in demand as an actor.

i also want to address the signs that these planets are in as that also influences this aspect. he’s an aries sun, and the sun is exalted in aries, meaning the planet has the highest ability of expression in this sign. the sun is encouraged to assert the personality and soul’s mission through the courage of aries. on the other hand, his saturn is in cancer, and saturn is in detriment in cancer, meaning the planet finds the least strength in this sign. saturn’s limitations impose on cancer’s desire to nurture/be nurtured, resulting in insecurities and resentment surrounding the expression of vulnerability. those two energies being in conflict can result in a desire to want recognition and having the energy to do what it takes to get it, all the while feeling insecure and unworthy of the goals you’re working towards, even when you do attain them. 

alongside that, he has mentioned either being a gemini rising or a cancer rising. if he does have cancer on his ascendant, that would mean saturn falls in his 1st house. similar to the sun, the 1st house governs the “self,” it represents the physical body, new beginnings, and how your identity/personality manifests in the real world and affects your day to day life. having saturn in the 1st house would not only amplify the effects of the square aspect with the sun, but can also manifest in a literal sense, causing chronic ailments concerning the physical body. natives with this placement may deal with fatigue/difficulty sleeping or issues with the joints and bones. this can also influence the feeling of having to “grow up quickly.” they may go from being perceived as older than they are in youth, to then being perceived as appearing/behaving younger than they are with as they get older, and overall feeling happier as they age. feel free to take this with a grain of salt, though, as we don’t have a confirmed birth time for pedro.

i’ll wrap this up by saying this is the strongest (and arguably most important) aspect pedro has, and therefore one of the aspects in his chart that has the most influence over his identity. i’m very much so an astrology nerd and i love it not only when i can see how an aspect manifests in someone’s personality, but the literal manifestations within their life as well, and this is definitely an aspect/placement in pedro’s chart that you can see has played out over the course of his life thus far. 

i do personally feel like the effort he’s put into his career is tenfold the amount of effort he could be putting into bettering the relationship he has with himself. as someone who has saturn as their chart ruler, i can completely understand why that would be the case. but there’s a lot of unlearning that needs to take place, not only with this aspect but prominent saturn placements in general. there’s a level of hyper awareness that saturnian people have that can become counterproductive and self-destructive. nobody around them is as devoted to analyzing every single one of their flaws as much as them. 

i do have to note that the context is different in pedro’s case as he is a public figure and he definitely is subject to more scrutiny than the average person. and as i referenced earlier in this post, it does mean a lot to him how his work as an actor is perceived, and i don’t think i’d be wrong to assume that those feelings could also cross over into how he is perceived on a personal level as well. this is just speculatory on my end so feel free to disagree, but i wouldn’t be surprised if this manifested in a “self-fulfilling prophecy” type of way in his life, where he already has these feelings of inadequacy, and despite the adoration and praise he receives, he might hear the handful of people saying ‘he’s untalented, he’s unattractive, he’s x, y, and z,’ and internalize that instead because it reinforces a narrative he’s been familiar with his whole life. 

and let me reiterate, i know this is a damn near 50-year-old man we’re talking about, he’s been working at this whole life, he knows what comes with the territory, and if he had a choice between this and living a normal life like the rest of us, i’d put money on him not choosing the latter. at the end of the day, people with this aspect have to work towards not worrying about always being “right” or being perceived in an accomplished and positive light 24/7. once they get to a point where they actually alleviate the pressure they put on themselves, they’ll end up finding that they don’t tend to run into as many obstacles, as they realize a lot of those “obstacles” are self-imposed. everything with them boils down to feeling what it is that they deserve. it doesn’t matter how “liked” they are from others, it will always take them convincing themselves that they are worthy and deserving of love and respect, from those around them but most importantly from themselves.

that’s the end of my ted talk lmfao, if anyone has any of the placements or aspects mentioned in this post i’d love to hear how it personally manifests in your own life and how it impacts your personality, or if anyone has anything to add in general feel free to reach out and let me know! 

[formulawrite]

NSFW ALPHABET - Felipe Drugovich

Summary: pretty self explanatory ;)

Warnings: Smut 

Notes: Felipe and a camera is my weak spot

A = aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Loves to praise you saying how good you did for him while giving sweet kisses on your face, also always keeps a towel and a water bottle next to the bed to clean you up and make sure you're hydrated.

b = body part (their favorite body part of their partner’s)

your butt, he loves grabbing on it when making out on the couch or spanking when taking you from behind

c = cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

your mouth, seeing you on your knees for him, eyes watery, mouth agape and a mix of spit and his cum dropping down your lips is a glimpse of heaven

d = dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Not so secret because you notice his stares, but he loves when you don't wear too many clothes on a night out, he loves when every person in the club is looking at you with desire as you walk to the bar or the restroom, when you come back he makes sure to put you on his lap so everyone knows who gets to take you home that night

e = experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

a little, he had a few flings in the past, but it's different with you since you've been together longest

f = favorite position (this goes without saying)

all fours that he gets to watch you moan his name and grab the sheets while wiggling your ass on his dick, but he also doesn't hate missionary with your legs pushed to his shoulders, looking deep into your eyes with a hand around your throat

g = goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

he always tries a cheesy pick up line to make you laugh but as soon you pull on his hair during the kiss is 100% serious

h = hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he trims enough not to bother

i = intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he's 0 or 100, either super romantic love making kissing every inch on your body and treating you like a goddess, or he throws you on your bed calling you the filthiest things and making you scream his name to a point that you can't barely walk after

j = jack off (masturbation headcanon)

you're not always together due to your own job/college and he's pretty controlled so he can keep it in his pants most of the times, he does keeps a little secret folder of dirty photos he took of you with his camera that he uses on lonely nights

k = kink (one or more of their kinks)

slight chocking, nothing to rough but he loves watching the ring on his finger around your neck while fucking into you

l = location (favorite places to do the do)

the bed, where you have more space and privacy. 

m = motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

pressing you butt against him, even if you're just standing in front of him, the vibrations you send when laughing at something or actually grinding on him makes you want to drag you out from whatever you are to the bedroom.

n = no (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

no embarrassing you, or degrading you (too much ;)

o = oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

giving, this man is sucker for face sitting, he would kill to have you sitting and rubbing yourself on his lips while sucking on your clit, it gets him even harder if you pull on his locks and makes him even eager to look up at you and watch you come with just his tongue.

p = pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

fast and rough (Felipe soca forte e ninguém me convence o contrário)

q = quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

when he wins a race he loves a quickie inside the MP bathroom, usually he prefers taking his time with you

r = risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

no,  you're both very private people and would hate to have anything leaked or invaded

s = stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

call me crazy but this man has a Taurus Venus he can go all night and last quite long

t = toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

he knows you have a vibrator because you sensed a video using it while moaning his name a few times. but he likes to be the one making you feel good

u = unfair (how much they like to tease)

a bit of a tease, whispering dirty things in your ear in public is one of his favorites. for people on the outside he's just being sweet boyfriend hugging you from behind, but only you can hear how much he wants to lift up your skirt and do you then and there

v = volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

low moans against your ear telling you how good he feels inside you

w = wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

"a little bit closer to the corner" he kept pulling you to the edge of the bed

"are you sure about this? what if someone sees it?" your nerves started to get the best of you

ever since he got his new camera he's been shooting every sight his eyes can reach. the idea of getting stills while he's going down on you came as joke that turned to reality a little to fast.

"don't worry you know i keep my pictures of you very safe, plus i really want to see how my princesa looks while i eat her pussy" you can't say no to him while he kisses your neck while rubbing his fingers between your thighs

you just nod as he stands up to start the video function of the camera, he turns to you kneeling looking up to make sure your still on board with it, you just grab his hair and open you legs further more.

he quickly take your panties off leaving you just in your bra and starts to work on you,he starts to lick your folds before giving a deep suck on your clit, you moan throwing your head back as he keeps licking where you want him most

"look at the camera for me love" he whispers against your pussy before working on it again.

the sight of your boyfriend eating you out while filming, the feel of his mouth, his eyes looking up while hooking a leg on his shoulder made you come on the spot, everything was so hot and erotic you just exploded with pleasure.

he got up to turn off the camera and turned to you with glistening lips, pulling him down to clean the mess you made.

"you did so good for me princesa, but i'm not done making you come just now yet" that's going to be a long night

x = x-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

not too thick, but long enough to hit the right place.

y = yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

again this man can go all night with maybe 2 bathroom breaks, a water bottle and maybe a cracker 

z = zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

not that quickly, he chats a lot, you probably sleeps before him.

[laprimera]

ABOUT THE MUN - ooo I got tagged ooOooo

what made you pick up the current muse(s) you have?

fixation as soon as the second trailer with her reveal came? Like the little snippets that was known about the game already weaved a pretty intricate (and disproven lol) plot and personality.

Even after everything got debunked I still kept my original lore + now I live and love the idea her ideal, picturesque self is actually a front for how clutzy and forgetful she really is as a super busy champion who's passionate about her region.

is there anything you don’t like to write?

bad/sad unnecessary endings or forks in the road?? I know it's silly in context like "well stories arent all happy-" BUT THIS IS POKEMON AR PEE AND I PARTIALLY CONTROL THE NARATIVE AND I WANT MY PROTAGS TO GO THROUGH IT BUT COME OUT AT THE END GETTING EVERYTHING THEY WANT. IS IT SO BAD I DONT WANT TO PARTICIPATE IN BITTER SADNESS EVEN IN A FANTASY MADE-UP SCENARIO? REALITY IS HELL AS IS I DONT WANNA BE SAD ALL DAY OVER INTERNET BARBIES, I HAVE BILLS AND TAXES TO DO.

so I make sure to plot with long term plot partners so we all get that character growth and exciting story with something good they can all take away in the end. No, the character doesnt have to die to prove a macab point. No the loving couple doesnt have to break up for some story twist. And thats what AU's are for if we're looking to explore something else so it's easy to separate from 👍

is there anything you really enjoy writing?

plot novellas 👀 I see a partner reply instantly to a plot thread and I jive for days on end until the next reply for real-- each one is a really juicy cliffhanger and a lot of them still haunt the back of my mind.

how do you come up with headcanons? 

most come with interactions or thoughts stemming from the game or story itself. Eventually they branch out and more ideas happen and a lot comes from looking at dash and bringing up some really interesting points!

do you write in silence or do you play music? 

Ambiance and music helps esp when silence is actually really distracting (thoughts wandering and what not-adhd be like that). The mood even influences the reply.

do you plan your replies or wing them?

planned for plot driven replies but ic bouts and simple replies are winged!

do you enjoy shipping? 

YES YES YES YES, though recently I have to be a little more careful about saying Im completely open to shipping on whim. At some points the plot involves the other person too much and it gets hard to move a story along esp with the nature of the rpc and the lifespan of interest in the muse/rpc (which is natural ofc!).

You're okay to show and express interest in shipping so we can take a direction with our muses interaction wise but I say it's not for certain until they develop some more long term. Who knows, maybe it was just a crush or a fling sort of thought :' 0

what’s your alias/name? 

Leche leche leche leche leche milk

age?

30

birthday? 

may!

favorite color?

red and greens

favorite song? 

Sugar, You by the Oh Honey has taken a lot of real-estate in my head lately--

last movie you watched?

I,,,havent watched a movie in a really long time Ill be honest OTL,, I dont have the attention span to sit down for more then twenty minutes if that.

last show you watched?

Aggretsuko final season! That,,,was awhile ago. See above oop--

last song you listened to?

Dont know the last song that played on my car radio 🤔

favorite food? 

spaghetti and meatballs and cereal < 3

favorite season?

spring 🌼

do you have a tumblr best friend?

ooh I dont want to make anyone feel left behind. My moots have a special place regardless of hobby or not <3

tagging: uh...

[fcbfemeni-11]

I can’t

Leah Williamson

Coming back to where it all began would normally be a day to remember, but not for me. I left Arsenal a year ago, and today i’m playing against them for my new team, Barcelona. Leaving Arsenal was never something i thought about, but some day in 2021, me leaving Arsenal became a reality. Jonas, the boss, called me into his office and told me that i wasn’t in his plans. I began to protest and tell him that i would fight for my place, but he told me it was done. Me and Arsenal were done. He told me i had to find a new club by the morning, and that broke me. I had to leave my club, my family and Leah, my girlfriend at the time. This move broke me, but it also broke my relationship.

Arriving at the Emirates was bittersweet. I didn’t know what to feel, nor did i know what to do. So, i silently walked into the the stadium and into the away dressing room with Alexia, the girl i have grew very close to during my time here. She didn’t bother me. She knew i didn’t want to talk, so she didn’t push me. Her presence was enough to calm whatever nerves were flowing through my body.

“Back home, eh?” Mapi said, nudging me as we walked onto the pitch for our warmups.

“Back where it all began” I whispered back to the spaniard who wrapped an arm around my shoulder.

“Do you ever miss it?” Mapi asked, and i thought about this deeply. Do i miss it? No. I don’t. I thought i would. But i don’t.

“No. I’m really happy. I never thought i would be, but i am”

“Te queremos aquí, sabes?”

“I know. And i love you all too” I responded before jogging away and joining in with the warmups.

Stepping out the pitch i once called home filled me with many weird feelings. Never did i think i would be here wearing another teams kit. But here i am. Seeing the fans filling the stadium brought a smile to my face, and hearing them cheer for me filled me with love. The love between me and Arsenal will never die.

We controlled the game. Arsenal couldn’t keep up with the pace with which we were playing at. We were having fun, and the first half finished 2-0 to us. We were happy, going in at the break.

“Time for a goal from you” Alexia said from beside me, just before we were about to go back out for the second half.

“Only if you assist me” I winked at her and she smirked, before standing up and kissing me on the cheek.

“Vale, vamos”

The second half began and i did get my goal. Alexia played an outstanding ball in behind the Arsenal defence, catching all of the defenders off guard, allowing me to slot the ball into the bottom right corner of the goal. When i scored i didn’t know what to do. Do i celebrate? Do i not? But, in the end, i did celebrate. I ran towards where the small amount of Barcelona fans were sat and blew them all a kiss before my teammates surrounded me, all hugging me and congratulating me. As i was walking back with a huge smile on my face, i realised how happy i was at Barcelona.

The game ended 4-0 to us, with us having complete control throughout the ninety. After the game i shook hands with my ex-teammates.

“A goal? And a celebration to go with it? Ouch” Katie said as she hugged me tightly.

“Sorry, my gal” I said, whilst laughing lightly.

“So, when are you coming home?” Jordan asked, joining in on the conversation between myself and the Irish girl.

“I’m not sure. But not anytime soon” I shrugged, which seemed to take them both back. I can’t blame them, because if my younger self heard me saying that she would be taken back too. My dream was to play for Arsenal and Arsenal only. But i grew out of that dream, i guess. I may have been forced out, but my happiness isn’t forced.

“I never thought i would hear that from you” Jordan said, slightly shocked.

“Either did i. But i’m happy. I’m enjoying my football, and i’m smiling” I said, before i said goodbye to the girls.

I was going to walk over and join my teammates, but i was stopped by my ex girlfriend, who grabbed my arm, and didn’t let go.

“Leah..” I sighed as i saw the look in her eye.

“My love, i missed you” She said, occasionally looking down at my lips, but i pulled back from her.

“Good game” I said, trying to change the conversation but i knew it wouldn’t work.

“I missed you” She said.

“Look… I missed you. I missed all of this. This life, i wasn’t supposed to be taken away from it the way i was”

“Then stay” Leah said confidently.

“… I can’t..” I said with zero hesitation.

“Why not..?”

“This… This isn’t my life anymore. This was my home, but… I met new people. I went to different places, did different things. I committed myself to all of that. I have a duty towards the life that i live now.”

“…” Leah stayed silent, but didn’t take her eyes off me.

“I’m sorry. I can’t stay. No matter how much i love you, i don’t belong here anymore” I said, walking away from the girl that i once loved.

“Are you okay?” Pina asked, as she spotted me walking towards the tunnel.

“Yeah. Just got the closure i needed”

“Did Leah give you closure?” Pina asked, not quite sure what i was referring to.

“No, she did not. But i gave myself it. I don’t belong here anymore. I belong with you guys now”

Coming back home wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be. I came back feeling many things, and left feeling one: happy.

[lover-of-skellies]

Really enjoying your ratings and your reasonings behind them. Great work!

Would you be able to rate Geno, please?

I've actually done both Sci and Lust already, and you can click on their names to go to the original posts if you're curious about them ^^ and I’m glad you guys seem to be enjoying these smooch-ability rating things!

Alrighty, after some thought and consideration, I’d say Geno gets a smooch-ability rating of 9. He’s still pretty safe, but if you surprise him, he wouldn’t be too happy about it. Smooches could also get a little gross, with his constant mouth bleeding and all, but if you wanted to overlook that and go in for a smooch anyway, be my guest

1) How dangerous is Geno’s mouth? In and of itself, not very. His teeth are flat, as opposed to being sharp or jagged, meaning there’s less risk of your lips being snagged or cut on them. 2 points for having safe chompers. I’d say the fact that he’s glitched could result in a sting or a zap (like it might with Error) upon smooching him, but he doesn’t seem to be nearly as glitched as Error does. In comparison, he’s still pretty solid

2) Would he bite, and is he aggressive? I’m inclined to believe that Geno may possibly be a biter; the chance of it happening is small, but still a bit more noticeable than it’d be with Sans Classic, for example. As for his aggression, I’d say he’s a little bit more moody and temperamental than his original UT counterpart (likely due to a mix of trauma, possible resentment toward certain individuals, him being from a genocide timeline, and his whole thing with Determination), but not as moody and temperamental as someone like UF Papyrus or Error. He knows how to keep himself in line and relaxed, and the only chance of that self control slipping would probably be if something or someone happened to set him off or trigger him. Since he’s relatively tame but still carries a slight chance of lashing out, I’d say he gets 1 point for this area

3) Are there any health hazards to the smoocher? Quite possibly. While he doesn’t carry around a weapon regularly that could cause accidental injury, he is very adept with magic. We know he has no qualms against using magic when necessary, so if he somehow felt threatened, he could use magic and sort of act on impulse to defend himself. Beyond that, blood constantly drips from his mouth and he has that big gash across his chest area. Blood, no matter what race or species it’s from, could very well be a biohazard. Taking that into consideration and the fact that kissing someone and getting their blood all over you is uh… pretty gross, I’m gonna have to give him 0 points

4) Does he have a sympathetic backstory? He went through all the same stuff as Sans Classic (raising his brother, working multiple odd jobs to financially support both of them, caring for Frisk/the player, being the only one to know about the resets, and being the one to watch judgement hall), which already gets him a small amount of sympathy on its own. That’s not all he ends up having to suffer through, though. In a horrifying turn of events, the player/Frisk decides to go on a murderous rampage and kills every monster they come across, which would’ve been a big betrayal to him. He repeatedly has to experience the death of everyone he’s loved and cared about every time they reset, then out of a desire to stop them for good, he starts experimenting with Determination (from what I remember reading). My memory of the events of Aftertale are a bit fuzzy since it’s been a while since I’ve read the comic, but through a series of events, I know he somehow gets trapped in the save screen and is unable to leave. The game goes on without him, spawning in a new Sans, and he’s just. Doomed to forever be stuck and unable to leave or communicate with anyone. While I believe Aftertale does give him a neutral or happy ending after a while, the fact that he went through so many tragic events back to back and probably has an insane amount of trauma from all of it gains him a full 2 points for sympathy

5) Does Geno deserve a smooch? After everything he’s done and been through, and all horrifying things he’s been forced to endure, yeah, I’d say he’s pretty deserving of a smooch. 2 more points for him

6) Is he cute or cool? I’m not sure if I’d call him cutesy, because when the pixels over his bad eye vanish, we’re left with this disfigured, melted half of his head (some depictions of him have a melted head, others just have the melted socket) and a socket that’s beyond repair. Which, if you were another skeleton seeing that, that on its own would probably be nightmare inducing. In terms of coolness though, I’d say he could be passing; he’s got this very laidback and chill personality, he doesn’t take shit from anyone, he’s incredibly strong and skilled with magic despite the condition that his body and soul are in, and he’s a fighter. He’s got a lot of trauma and obvious issues that need to be worked out, sure, but overall, I’d say it’s pretty cool that he’s willing to keep fighting, again, despite the shape his body are soul themselves are in because of the things he’s gone through. His design is simple, but it’s effective at conveying what he went through, from the blood on his slippers, the gash on his chest, him having pixels over one eye, and him wearing the scarf of his deceased brother, he’s unique, and pretty easily identifiable. 2 points for coolness

In total, Geno gets a rating of 9. If you absolutely needed to kiss him, you could, but you might end up covered in his blood, which isn’t exactly ideal. Since he’s a bit standoffish, he might not be too thrilled about a surprise smooch, but I can’t see him being the type to cause serious injury over it. At worst, he’d probably get super intimidating and tell you never to do that ever again

[felassan]

Mark Darrah's video update that he mentioned would be coming re: him returning to do some work on Dragon Age: Dreadwolf is now out on his YouTube channel. It's titled "Mark Darrah back on Dragon Age: Dreadwolf?!" and the vid description & structure is as follows:

You heard right. I'm working with the BioWare on Dragon Age: Dreadwolf. I am not the Executive Producer. Instead I am bring my experience of the previous 3 games to bear. Unfortunately, I've made the decision to (at least for now) drop the video frequency down to once a week.

Chapters: 0:00 I'm Back! 0:13 What I'm Up To 0:45 The Channel 1:36 Sharing Dreadwolf Secrets? 2:26 Excited 2:36 Dragon Age: Dreadwolf not DAD

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"So if you're seeing this you're probably already aware, but I am consulting with BioWare on Dragon Age: Dreadwolf. I'm not coming back into an Executive Producer position. They already have strong leadership in place. I'm coming back to use my experience on the first three games in the franchise to make sure that this game is respectful of that legacy and integrates into the franchise effectively. There are lots of people already in place who have worked on previous Dragon Age games, but my experience, my perspective, is unique, and that's what I'm going to be bringing to bear in order to help them out. I'm really excited to see where Dragon Age has gone since I left BioWare, and to see what the team has been up to. So what's happening with the channel? The channel is not shutting down, but this will be taking up a fair bit of my time. As a result I'm going to be moving from two videos a week down to one video a week. This is something that I am reluctant to do but I think I'm better off biting this bullet now and getting ahead of it before it becomes a crisis situation. I'd already moved away from doing livestreams because of where they were positioned in the week and their interference with other things I need to be doing at the same time. I'll be looking for an opportunity to re-introduce livestreams if I can figure it out. We're at the very beginning of Dragon Age II. We will definitely get back to it at some point but for now we will be moving from livestreams and two videos a week to just a single video a week, at least for the time being. There's also no plan to do any Dragon Age: Dreadwolf content, so don't suddenly expect to see a ton of that on the channel either. BioWare doesn't get editorial control over the channel or anything like that so that, so the content that you're gonna see is going to remain the same. Indeed we actually have a fairly hefty backlog of videos waiting to go at this point so a lot of the videos you're gonna see for the next little while were actually recorded before this relationship even started. Is there a possibility that I will self-censor myself because I am working with a partner? That's pretty likely actually, but there's nothing in place, there's no contract that gives BioWare the right to control what's going up on the channel. But there's a very high probability that I will moderate some of my thinking simply due to perspective. Like I said I'm really excited to see what the team has been up to on Dragon Age: Dreadwolf and to help make this a really great entry into the franchise. Those of you who are paying attention will notice that I am already starting to fall back into a more formal way of talking about the game. When I was the Executive Producer on Dragon Age: Inquisition, whenever I was talking about the game outside of the team itself I would always say "Dragon Age: Inquisition", even kind of silently saying the colon out loud. You notice that I'm already starting to do that here, "Dragon Age: Dreadwolf". When I'm making videos for the channel I'm more informal, I say "DA" or "Dreadwolf", but when I am speaking about the game in a more official capacity I just have a tendency to fall into that more formal language. So that's a pretty strong indication that my brain is already pivoting to this taking up a bigger part of my thought process. Special thanks to my members. I realize that this is a change in our relationship. I hope you'll stick with me, but I would certainly understand if you don't. If you are interested in becoming a member there is a link to that down in the description. I am going to say that I am probably not going to answer any questions in the comments, but I will pass them along, so if you have questions about Dragon Age: Dreadwolf that you feel need to be answered, this is probably not the best place to ask, but go ahead and ask, and I will pass them along if I feel that is appropriate. Hopefully you will stick with me through this journey. I will see you again soon, thank you."

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[bettsfic]

(Love on Display is the series name for ASE and its sequel)

okay so for this commentary i went through my ASE tag to read the asks i'd gotten about it because i can't really remember the whole process, and found this response i'd written:

you know how like when you read or watch something, you kind of look for the character you relate to most? when i was rereading the hunger games last month i was thinking, i don’t relate to a single one of you bitches. and then annie shows up like “nope nope nope i can handle exactly 0% of this bullshit” and i was just, ah there i am

looking back on my mental health issues, the irony is that i was writing about madness in a time i was actually pretty stable, despite the pandemic being in full swing. i remember writing ASE throughout summer, sitting on my grandma's porch swing and admiring her garden, going inside only when it got dark enough for the fireflies to come out. at the time, i was approaching my third year of rejections on the original fiction front; i'd been querying agents for over a year and submitting short stories, and i felt like i wasn't getting anywhere. i was also about to start a phd program, which i was apprehensive about, to say the least. i wish i'd listened to that "i have a bad feeling about this" instinct.

tbosas had just come out (to almost no attention or acclaim; even now with the film coming out in a couple weeks, the gifsets i've been reblogging don't get a lot of traffic and the tag only has 250 fics in it) and so i read it, loved it, and immediately re-read the hunger games with the new lens of snow's origin story.

the hunger games is one of the few things that i think is completely worth the hype. it's a beautifully written series and i really admire it. tbosas i thought was even better, because it felt like suzanne collins had full creative control. it's not easy writing a villain origin story and i think she really managed to thread the needle with coriolanus as a POV character who is really the antagonist of two protagonists whose POVs we don't have access to.

anyway as soon as i finished re-reading the hunger games, i went back to read the one thg fic i'd written after the film series concluded, the baker's son. it wasn't as bad as i remembered it, because 2015-16 were the years i was really starting to figure out how to write, so everything from that time in my memory is hand-wavy at best. but i remember thinking, this could have been really good if i'd just taken my time with it.

back then, i never took my time with anything. i had so many ideas that i had to churn through them in order to get to the next one. when you're just starting out writing, you haven't followed through on enough ideas to know how to sort through them properly and find the ones that have legs. so i was still learning how to control my attention.

and so ASE marked a huge change in the way i viewed my own work and the reception thereof. i was getting nowhere in publishing, i was no longer in one single fandom and so i didn't really have a community, and i finally realized the only guarantee i would ever have is my own joy. that changed everything.

i know i'll always love the hunger games, because i genuinely believe it's good. it's engaging and entertaining and meaningful. before, i'd written for canons i actually didn't like, because communities had formed around them and i was inspired by what i felt was unmet potential in canon. but i know i'll never rewatch supernatural or the 100. in fact i didn't finish either of them. with big fandoms, sure, i get more traffic and comments. but i'd stopped writing for traffic and comments. i wrote ASE because it was fun, and i knew in 10 years i'd read the hunger games again, and i would want my perfect fixit fic. and i would want it to be long, and well thought out, and something i could be proud of.

i've kept that "i'm writing for my 40 year old self" mentality for all my writing. at 40, i want to look back at what i wrote at 30 and know it was time well spent because it made me happy during a hard time in human history. it's a lot easier to make creative decisions when you're writing for an audience of your future self.

with tbosas coming out soon, i'm hoping to finish the coriojanus fic i started in 2020 (i think it's 7k?). and looking back through my ASE tag i also saw how many ideas i had for finnick POV and i could see myself fiddling around with a few of those prompts eventually.

[magnuficentwo]

Hey guys you wanna see me talk about my rewrite Helluva Time. Of course you do. Come along !

- In this universe, Blitzø is a human from a travelling circus along with his very large family (whom he hates). He's also a little shit with zero regard for anyone that isn't himself, so he'd often steal, lie, and do everything you're not supposed to do according to both heavenly and state law. Blitzø doesn't help anyone, even people he by all means cares about, if there isn't an immediate reward for him to do so. He doesn't help Barbara Barbie Wire when she's going through things in her life, he doesn't own up to any relationships when people ask him if he's serious about anything, he can't even get HIMSELF therapy for all the weird shit going on in his life because "it wouldn't help anyway". The only thing he ever does is fuck around and never any finding out. Well, up until he accidentally gets caught in police crossfire (who weren't even looking for him yet) and goes straight to hell. Lol Lmao [Specifically, the Pride ring.]

- Of course, at first he doesn't believe it. I mean, come on, how could this be his actual punishment right ? He was suuuuch a devout church goer after all. So, he tries to bargain his way out with a particularly large demon that's about to bash in his head..........doesn't work to say the least. He wakes up in a cold sweat again and tries to do the same thing, tricking himself into believing he was dreaming the whole thing up. Well he got stabbed. And then he woke up again. This goes on for a bit until he realizes holy FUCK I'm actually in hell what the fuck !!!!!!!! He panics for a bit, almost gets himself killed a few more times, and then hides himself in some crack in a wall because he is just so miserable. How could this happen to him ??? Sure, he made a few mistakes, but nothing that wasn't fixable surely ! Sure he cheated his way through his life, left his family in the dust when they needed him most, never took responsibility for anything...lied just about every aspect of his life... let his sister die of an overdose instead of calling an ambulance– Okay yeah maybe it's his fault. But STILL what the HELL man

- Being the conniving little shit he is, of course he wasn't about to just accept something like this happening. So he starts executing his flawless 0 mistake plan !!!

- step one: Find a way to travel around through rings without getting your head blasted off (solution was to just pretend to work under some more powerful demon, and kill anyone who noticed he wasn't actually meant to be there)

- step 2: Find a powerful demon around to fuck around and get your way with (he did do that. And it worked. To everyone's shock.)

- step 3: .....uhm. yeah there wasn't really a step 3 he just needed a little more control so he didn't lose his mind. So. Profit ?

- Blitzø climbs ranks is by charming higher ranking sinners/demons with his stinky man rizz and somehow it actually works, basically. First it's Fizz, then some Mafia Man (I'm sure he won't come up later), then a Hellhound (I'm sure she will also not show up later), then Verosika, then some influential sinner, up until he finally somehow gets with Stolas...which is also where he fucks up. [small bit of context: The basic lore for Stolas is hes a demon lord who poses as like, a mayor for a town on the surface, and hes just kind of a rich entitled guy that never has any consequences for his actions. Keep in mind !]

- The way these two meet is: Blitzø was just a servant for a little while, probably hired by Stella herself because you can never have too many servants, but Stolas thinks he's very cute. Stella and Stolas have an agreement that it's okay to cheat, but not with house staff/sinners because that just sounds like a problem in the making (lots of social prejudice)... but he disregards that anyway to go flirt with the new Sinner Boy. Blitzø, being only in the dating game for self benefit, of course flirts back, and ends up with his eyes locked on not Stolas himself, but a certain magical artifact that could potentially get him out of Hell for good: The Grimoire.

- One lovely day, he attempts to steal the book while Stolas is rambling a few feet away from him. Little does he know that there is a security system in place: Book is Very Heavy to hold and he is Very Little.

- Stolas sees this and is like. Man what the fuck. You're just like everyone else, I thought we had a connection, but you just want to use me for my assets ::[. Well, okay then. You want this book ? Make yourself WORTHY of it. EARN IT by DOING WHAT I SAY. And Blitzø is like. Ooohh you just want to fuck ? And then I can have the book ? Well sure I'm in my element right now. I can do this real quick and then go home

[Several hours later]

- ...anyway. The events that follow afterward are pretty much the same as canon, "Sorry I fucked your husband" and what not, only this time "what the fuck was that Stolas" only comes after Stella goes inside because she doesn't need to embarass herself more in front of guests...

- Anyway, now with the Grimoire, things should be easy right ? WRONG. He doesn't understand SHIT that's written in it the letters shift around the page everytime he looks, and being around the book just keeps giving him a horrid headache. He doesn't understand why. He did EVERYTHING right ! This is all he needed to do ! He stares at this big heavy book with insane amounts of knowledge in it and he realizes he doesn't even know what half of this shit means. And then it hits him. He doesn't know anything at all. He never went to school, he's never been in a genuine relationship that didn't involve him wanting something out of it, he's been fighting his way through life for so long that he genuinely forgot there was more to it than just that, but at this point it's a situation with no fixing- He looked back at the wrong time, and now everything he could've had is just gone. And that kinda breaks him a little bit.

- He goes back to Stolas, because what the fuck else is he gonna do with this book, and obviously he freaks out too. This fucking guy RUINED his PERFECT LIFE that he'd been working on FOR SO LONG and now he's here AGAIN, BEGGING for forgiveness and for work. Can't even do crime right !!! He's so mad he contemplates just killing Blitzø and having it be done with........but no. This guy doesn't just deserve death. Instead, he's gonna do his bidding and whatever else he feels like. He's now no longer a person as much as he is a tool for Stolas. And that's just how it is for the rest of it. After they work out a deal, Blitzø forms I.M.P.. From there on, their relationship is strictly business- Kill people, make money, get in then get out. If Stolas wants anything else, he'll just boss him around to do it too. Blitzø's got a thousand and one problems and he's working for one of them.

Andddd that's the Blitzø rewrite ! The tone for this part of the story is darker, but the I.M.P shenanigans are a lot lighter don't worry about it. Please let me know what you think !

[greenyvertekins]

"IDW!Sonic’s manipulative behaviour", do you have examples of this? I never got too far into the IDW comics so I've never noticed this :0

This is gaslighting, an inherently manipulative behaviour. The example that Sonic uses is about a time when Shadow was being manipulated, had his mind tampered with by Professor Gerald. So he wasn't in full control of his actions. Or it could pertain to the time when Shadow was amnesiac and thus wasn't fully lucid. Sonic using his actions during that time in order to get him to lay-off Mr Tinker is some skeevy manipulation. There's also the time when he tries to manipulate Surge by giving his self-righteous lecture about how he gives even villains the right to self-determination...

...Then whines about how she made the "wrong" decision after she rejects his help. This is after she voiced how she wanted to "See the world ... ... that rejected me" as she rationalises that nobody looked for her after Starline kidnapped and experimented on her.

IDW!Sonic is only your ally if you do what he thinks you should do. He uses false claims (That he's "made peace with enough enemies to know there's a better way") He's a hypocrite who goes on about self-determination and how its an inalienable right then whines when you don't come around to his fundamentally flawed line of thinking.

There are so many examples in the book that show that this Sonic is fundamentally incompatible with Game!Sonic. This is a prime one.

[katyspersonal]

I really feel like a Soulsb0rne protag is the only character I can actually be lol. Not the custom version, but the concept

- Strong sense of being guided by something / following it without question (I believe I told this story in a September, how finding star-shaped objects for me is equal to checking bonfires/cites of grace/etc)

- I am an absolute looser that was cast off the face of the world very, very long time ago and I am not supposed to be where I am right now considering everything that happened to me, I carried on because of the sense of something having 'called' me

- Everyone hostile towards me either keeps respawning or is ridiculously difficult to defeat, without help at least, but my friends tend to have the worst luck and be found broken for the reasons I have 0 control over..

- Identity difficulties; it feels like I am able to pick up literally any character as a kin or relate to every character, and yet not really be any of them for long enough. I've been trying to 'claim' a character for many years in many interests, but it feels like I am cursed with always being an OC, if not a self-insert xD (Similarly to how the protag can take armours, skills and weapons of any other NPCs but in the end they're not them)

- No matter how much experience I receive, none of this internalizes until I have a very long talk about it with a trusted friend (similarly to the level-up characters)

- I've met the person who already walked (and was broken by) the very same way I was only about to head towards.. When I've met him, I knew with my gut feeling that I was looking at my own future, even if I could not explain how it could be because of decage age and experience gap between us. And just like I felt, the very same harm that turned him That Way started to be inflicted on me. He gave me "This same thing happened to me years ago / this is why I no longer bother with [insert a demographic]" more times than I could count, and I to this day feel like there is no escape but to repeat his path and become just like him.. except my way is still not finished, and I have a chance to come out different and carry on the impossible way I guess? (Souls games tend to have a character that was on the same quest as the protag prior to game events, but it broke them. Vyke, Djura, Vеndrick....)

[blood-orange-juice]

Hey! I stumbled across your account by accident and I’m curious on what your general take is on Childe (since each language’s VA brings something new to the table). I agree with the (c)PTSD take and often wonder if he might also have ASPD (I say this as someone with antisocial tendencies myself). Anyway, I hope things are going well!

-📀 anon (I’ll probably come back later lol)

Hey. :)

I hope you like walls of text because this turned into a wall of text.

He's a variation of the "came back wrong" horror trope, so a huge part of his behaviour is just some kind of taint/possession/curse (now confirmed in Fontaine's storyline) which you can't really diagnose.

There was a thread started by another psych professional where we still tried!

Personally, I think he doesn't quite fit the antisocial personality disorder profile. - has an aversion to lying and is horrible at it (you know, that thing ASPD brain makes so much easier to do) - shows zero interest in social status or having power over others. People with ASPD usually play social games on par with an average person, although one could argue that they only do it as a source of fun and safety and he has other sources of fun and safety. - is very loyal and, for all his self-centeredness, seems to give others a lot more than he gets in return (although can be argued that he just has too much resources on his hands and really doesn't do that much) - is far too trusting (but also in an unusual way, so it can be interpreted as carelessness) - has that weird "I'll give others the things I never got myself" thing going on (I think ASPD to-go compensatory mechanism would be something else) - shows zero social aggression, it's either 0% ("too polite for his own good" mode) or 1000% (jumps straight to physical violence). I think people with ASPD are generally better with more nuanced agression towards people. But also maybe it's a form of damage control. Or maybe he just never had to learn how to express aggression in socially acceptable form (he's usually the scariest person in the room anyway). - in his character stories it's stated that he used to be a very timid and anxious kid, and it's usually not the case with ASPD kids.

Any of these traits *could* be seen in a person with ASPD and can be explained but all of them in a 20yo guy with pretty horrible life experiences and no access to therapy? I doubt that.

I also think he's a character study on "how can good people end up doing horrible things" and having ASPD would ruin the whole point of his character.

Also it would actually be much easier for everyone inluding himself if he has more ASPD traits. At least half of the terrible shit he does stems from misplaced loyalty, not lack of morals. He might have negative traits of ASPD but not the perks.

My personal headcanon is that he has a dissociative personality type (not a full-blown DID, but a similar way of dealing with trauma by locking away/suppressing parts of himself and shifting between them in different situations), his background fits very well, and the way he deals with relationships, trust and aggression also fits (and it's very easy to write someone like this when writing PTSD, it just happens naturally). His particular brand of chipperness fits too.

But also if you *want* to headcanon him as an ASPD, it's a very good choice too! Low empathy, seeks excitement, doesn't care what others think of him, doesn't adhere to social contract, is fairly cruel, bases his loyalty and ideals on pretty surprising things that have nothing to do with human connection. (it's also questionable whether he seeks human connection in general, can be interpreted both ways)