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Having never played rdr1, switching from Arthur to John was hard and it took me about 100hours just to get used to him and another 100 to grow fond of him. But now he is my special boy just like Arthur. 🧡
#i am in the middle of my second playthrough but yesterday and today i took a break and went to my original save to spent some time with John#and his horse Unshaken#rdr2 john#john marston#rdr2#rdr#rdr2 arthur#arthur morgan#red dead#red dead redemption#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption two#for anyone wondering it took me about 350 hours to play chapter 1-6#about 500 till I had not only the 100% but also the compendium full#and a bit more for the last achievements#then i did nothing important for a bit and started my rerun at like 700 hours?#now i am at 960h of rdr2#in 9 months
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hi i'm alive i'm just struggling my way to happiness & productivity
#but i swear i AM going to achieve it 💪💪💪💪💪 even if my main strssor rn is being so behind on work again 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪#comms comms comms#wheee#tomorrow is my bday but today is CRUNCH day im gonna spend 6 hours minimum @ work and then maybe more#this year im gonna get medicated for my adhd but so help me god in the meantime i am going to try with my whole heart to use schedules#and planners and reminders and focus apps and music to put myself in a no distractions cube#AH#RAUH#who needs addy when i can just smoke a bit of weed and ignore bodily functions for a few hours while i work#wweheeeeeeEW#my art#furry#oc: cow#fursona#cowmic#sortta#idunno. an update comic#bc i feel like ive been leaving everyone in the dark and it feels Bad#also sorry one last thing.#FUCK paypal. fuck paypal forever and ever.
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it's actually so important to me that in the memory loss extras xie lian finds out he doesn't have spiritual power anymore (because he's been having sex). it means
he feels comfortable relying on hua cheng
he's able to be 'selfish', and choose what he wants rather than what other people think is correct
he's free from the responsibility of being the most powerful martial god in heaven
he's getting thoroughly dicked down
#tgcf#i speak#love to the fics that do alternate things where he still keeps it or recultivates or w/e#and initially it feels a bit anticlimactic. he just got that back!! why would he give it up!!! thats such a shame!#and then you realize you sound like a heavenly official#he doesnt give a shit#isnt it beautiful that his husband is always so close#that he doesnt feel guilty about borrowing anymore#isnt it so nice to know that given the choice between upholding an ancient promise for incomprehensible amounts of power#and fucking his husband#he fucked his husband???#slay king#removing the shackle 1) gave him enough power to defeat jun wu and 2) removed the last marks of control that jun wu had#it was about xie lian's freedom and love empowering him#i'd argue that the main point was not the achievement of simply becoming more powerful.#so hua cheng's third death was still hugely important even if xie lian did not keep the power#i cant imagine he has a problem with this development#hc: but gege.... your cultivation...🥺🥺 xl: i want you more hc:🤯😍#gay sex + getting to kiss gege all the time for power > any guilt he might have#thats my two cents :)#hualian#hua cheng#xie lian#tgcf meta#hob#heaven official's blessing#tgcf spoilers#tgcf book 5 spoilers
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2005 Brazilian Grand Prix - Fernando Alonso(aka me crying over an almost 18 year old race)
#I DIDNT REALIZE WHEN STARTING THAT THIS WAS THE RACE WHERE NANDO WON HIS WDC AAAAAA#pls me not legit tearing up over a race from almost 18 yrs ago#i feel validated bcs they just mentioned that the renault crew are crying AAAAAAAA#ive actually never watched a vid of his celebration(cause 'spoilers' lol) so hearing him yell the YES CMONN CMONNNNN made me ;;;;#hearing them talk abt all the 'youngest' records hes won at this points makes me teary#also also also 'first ever spanish wdc' AND HE STILL IS THE *ONLY* RAHHHH#ig its mostly bcs its rly cool to be able to watch these old seasons and celebrate them#but then also be able to tune into the current season and still be able to cheer for him and see him achieve even more#sobbing crying at him here saying that this wdc is the max he can achieve and then having just witnessed him reach his 100th podium last wk#(also fernando winning his first wdc and then missing out on his 3rd almost a decade later at the same gp sobbing crying)#2005 brazilian gp#we do a little bit of f1#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#formula one#(2005: 17/19 races watched)#fa14#renault#giancarlo fisichella
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Stuck in a constant loop of ‘wants to be more open about being a system and maybe make system friends’ and ‘no one needs to know anything about us and if we start talking about ourselves we will shake like a dog who’s existence is an affront to god’
#and by be more open I mean to a few people (at least when it comes to people we know irl)#because most people don’t need to know that shit and never will#also that last part may seem a bit specific but I’ll have you know it is accurate#we do just start shaking#also how the fuck do you tag posts like this#I’m new to the system side of tumblr#I’ve got no clue what I’m doing#so I’m just gonna put some tags here and hopefully I did it right#(trying to get a good grade in tumblr something that is normal to want and possible to achieve)#if anyone sees this feel free to ignore all that#or don’t it’s your life#system#pdid#pdid system#did osdd#actually dissociative#did#osdd
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Steve is most likely to end up in a lavender marriage and Tony's most likely to end up in a “married for tax/immigration/inheritance fraud” reasons.
They meet as married men and pine for each other hardcore and are also trying not to read too much into how their interest seems reciprocated and oh nooooo both Immigration/the IRS and the the Church/in-laws/DADT era army dudes or whatever are snooping around at the same time at each of their marriages and they have to be so good at being married at the people they are married to oh noooooo and they other guy doesn’t know why they are suddenly being iced out and maybe they were just imagining things? maybe it’s for the best with all these eyes around on them…
#not to get too real but i love queer people. we see each other and we save each other#i wish i could talk in depth about this lgbtq history panel i went to tonight without doxxing myself#but basically all of these panelists were older gay ppl & one of them won a very monumental court case in the state#and right after introductions one of the other panelists turned to her and thanked her so profusely for the sacrifices she had made#and the work she did to win that case#and that by achieving that win for herself she paved the way for this other panelist to have her own family recognized legally by the state#i don't know i'm not explaining it well but something about knowing and seeing that gratitude in real time. understanding so viscerally tha#so much of our history has happened within one or two lifetimes. to the point that many of the champions of our current rights are alive#today for us to learn from and listen to and THANK#i met two nb ppl through school last year and have since become very close to them#they are the only two ppl on this planet who use my pronouns the way i want them to be used. they switch it up every time and i love them#a little bit more each time i hear them talk about me. it's magical#my childhood best friend told me he liked boys and girls like a month after we first met each other in the fourth grade#he told me there's a word for that; he's bisexual#i think abt how incredible that was a lot. how brave he was to say that and to own that and how long it might have taken me to figure#out that i was the same had he not said it.#anyway all this to say that yes absolutely i love this#steve and tony meet at a military gala. steve's being recognized for his service and tony and his wife were invited by some higher-up who#imagined he could use the event as a way to cozy up to him and earn some good favor before negotiations start on SI's contract renewal#their eyes meet while steve's up on stage. he hates these things. hates being dragged into the spotlight. he feels naked and bare and#vulnerable every time. trapped in enemy territory with no cover. but he sucks it up he kisses his wife on the cheek and she smiles#big and beautiful; perfect like they've run their lines 1000 times over. like they could recite each other's parts by heart#he makes his way to the podium. breathes deep to center himself before he launches into his thankless thank-yous. steve's a terrible liar#but somehow he's made it this far in his career. he can manage for one more night. except#right as he lifts his eyes to speak he sees him. bright eyes burning into his from a shadowed table in the corner. the brass speaking at hi#on his left and a lovely woman who's bored and unimpressed on his right. and him looking directly back at steve#steve's breath catches and he chokes on air. trips on his lines. forgets himself and loses the beat of the scene#he looks down at his notes and ignores them. raises his face to the light and plays himself to be seen by an audience of one.#anon#signed sealed delivered
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there's a certain quality the harmonies of like... early to mid 2000s alt rock has. which i am obsessed with... like i wanna do that. i NEED to figure out how to write harmonies that sound like that
#ari opinion hour#i sort of understand it but not necessarily well enough to do it on command#i think i sort of achieved the sound of it with my blaseball winter exchange song i did for snow but specifically only in the very last bit#like only with the 'im not alive anymore' part#(which sidenote i wish id had the second half faster + w more drive but its not like that was like a full recording which i could do)#i think i just need my music to have more teeth in general cause it scratches an itch that i think i must have developed due to some aspect#of music school. its probably my dissatisfaction with the attitudes in the classical world#<- which understand i say that in the same way that like my jazz prof does. the classical world doesnt have enough teeth nor enough#understanding of the way in which music is like. another art. and art needs to be able to have teeth and use elements normally regarded as#''undesirable'' on purpose because art is there to make you feel emotions and not just the positive ones and not just sadness or anger in#terms of the negative ones#art is there to make u feel ALL extant emotions and that includes boredom disgust fear jealousy pity cowardice apathy overwhelmedness etc#also the classical world i find often forgets what the word ''play'' means#i am of the opinion that perfection is a waste of time if i wanted perfect i'd ask a computer to do it for me. i want real#anyway. i forgot what this post was even about lol point is i need to figure out how to write harmonies that have that soaring quality that#like. you can hear it in like helena by mcr and wake me up by evanescence and stuff. and frankly most of the songs on three cheers for swee#revenge which i am listening to now for the first time. i need to learn more about this stuff maybe ill listen to the evanescence album tha#song is from next.#or something i should really be working on my essay but theres no way i wont have it done in time which is good i think i just mostly have#to worry about sources and stuff but even that should be relatively easy i think
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it is So Weird how working on my comic makes me feel like i have more free time. and gives me more free time. logically, working on 3 comic pages a week would mean i have Less Time. but no. despite everything, i'm getting more done and able to use my time better now that i'm working on comic pages again. what the hell is up with that.
#it's probably the structure and routine tbh i've been doing this for 6 years#i feel way less stressed about all the stuff i have to do than the 2 months i wasn't working on the comic#and arguably i have more to do now!!!!!#there's just so many little things that working on my comic helps me with. vital part of my daily and weekly structure#1) gives me a Main Goal to focus on every week and it's a goal that i know is achievable#2) gives me things to do almost every day that i am able to get started on right away and then will have free time later when i'm done#3) on days i'm not working on it i feel more comfortable doing things for fun or completing smaller tasks#4) because it's a weekly schedule i actually know what day it is now. completely lost track of the days before. made me really scared tbh#5) actually allows me to relax. the way i make pages means it's a lil bit mindless half the time. which is nice#i spent most of the last 2 months when i wasn't making comic in bed. because i had nothing else to do#now i am not doing that! because even when i'm not working on pages i have the motivation to do things!#this is an ironic post to make when i've spent like 6-7 hours today just playing fathomverse#but that's the thing!!!! instead of hating myself for doing that i still feel like i can get shit done!#also i already knew all this about making comics and how i function but. man idk how to put this#i spent the last 2 months struggling to do fucking Anything#and it was after i was so sure i could handle taking a break from the comic#and it was after lots of people have told me i need to put the comic down and get a job#or do anything that isn't making a comic#i have been working on the comic again for 9 days. and already everything feels more manageable#i literally Need to have projects like this. if i dont i will lose my mind. nobody tell me i need to do other things with my life ever agai
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went to fright fest yesterday and in 2 haunted houses and saw so many wonderful clowns and scare actors and i wish i could do that how do i do that
#toy txt post#both in the sense of. how do i override the social anxiety to chase people with a shovel#and. how do i even begin to get into that as a career#and then also how do i do that and have like. health insurance. maybe even a livable wage.#tho im guess those last ones are a bit more of a toss up w a career like this....#also like lol how to do a job like that and like. be able to wear a mask to avoid covid. maybe a sort of fake muzzle thing#to go over top like chainsaw guy had?#also WHAT IS THE LORE ON THE BREAD???? SIX FLAGS EXPLAIN??????#CLOWN RABIES BREAD CONNECTION???? TELL ME#all their costumes were wonderful and they were doing such a good job i felt bad for not being very startleable#sorry for having a supressed startle response. im going to get a bad grade in being jump scared by the haunted house actors 😔#something normal to not want and possible to achieve
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whether or not joel was right is quite literally a ten year old debate.
he was btw. ik it’s hard to come to that conclusion when all nuance has been stripped from the story and spoon fed back with training wheels for surface level moral character analysis.
#personal#anyways no more clown takes on my dash#if it makes you happy Joel and the fireflies can both be wrong#but as far as Ellie’s agency goes Joel was right#show was Fine. unnecessary but could have been worse as far as video game adaptations go#a lot of bad changes that set up a sequel I can’t help but feel like will be adapted 1:1#just given. how much was changed in s1 (to the detriment of the story I might add) to make it make sense#very heavy handed / black & white writing#I know the source material is unattainable but nuance is still possible to achieve at least a Little Bit if you try#anyways this is the last I have to say about the show any tlou posting going forward is game/comic related Only#except the casting / sets / costume / makeup were all perfect. I swear the production value and acting was insane literally the coolest#shit I’ve ever seen in my life it looked SOOO good
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some people’s fics predict series arcs and character moments… but some of us lose their shit over a beach
#look that fic is like my fave fandom thing I’ve ever made#and when I saw the ‘waves lapping’ subtitle I needed to pause to calm the fuck down#sad no OG Ben :(#but I do appreciate them committing to our original Ben being dead#it gives it a bit more oomf and makes us focus on sparrow Ben who I would like to adopt#a happy medium hit 22k last night as well which was nice 😂😂😂#tua#the umbrella academy#is this my greatest achievement?#predicting a minor aesthetic detail in a netflix show?#yes#yes it is#klaus Hargreeves#spoilers#3x5 spoilers
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“Knight Feeders,” Moon Knight (Vol. 9/2021), #13.
Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Federico Sabbatini; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Moon Knight vol. 9#Moon Knight 2021#Moon Knight comics#Moon Knight#Marc Spector#Taskmaster#Anthony Masters#GAH I love these pages so much; there’s so much to unpack#to start there’s the bullet metaphor#first off it continues in the vein (that Marc occasionally buys into as well) of Marc being more weapon than man#and a point I find interesting that they kind of don’t bring up is that a bullet by itself is not lethal#but instead needs a firearm to jettison it into a lethal velocity#paralleling first Khonshu’s control over the direction over Marc’s life and then Marc taking up that mission on his own terms#and then there’s that last bit tying back into the first time we saw Taskmaster and Moon Knight tangle:#that Marc will take any amount of (often extensive) damage to achieve his goal#but also I love the contrast between the dialogue boxes and what’s actually happening on-panel#you’ve got Taskmaster saying “he’s nothing more than a weapon and a particularly savage one at that”#all while Marc is rather tenderly (for him) rescuing people#love that#wish it wasn’t the case that Marc would probably agree with Taskmaster’s assessment#but I love seeing Marc saving people nonetheless
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“Terror Stalks the Everglades!” Astonishing Tales (Vol. 1/1970), #12.
Writers: Roy Thomas and Len Wein; Pencilers: John Buscema, Neal Adams, and John Romita; Inker: Dan Adkins; Letterers: Jon Costa and Sam Rosen
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Astonishing Tales#Man-Thing#Ted Sallis#I was originally going to include these panels with my last post but I accidentally omitted them#and then I realized that I have a whole ‘nother tangent about these SO#anyway I find the contrast of hope and despair interesting here#considering the nature of the character especially at this point in his history#I suspect the tone of Man-Thing comics to lean a bit more towards despairing and you can see that here#despairing over how Ted’s new form won’t allow him to ask for help and how despite Wilma’s achievements#racists still reduced her to her gender and color of her skin (with a little bit of anti-intellectualism to boot)#so yeah…Bummer
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radiance fight is fucking bonkers but the end is so cool
#at least the dream no more ending#all the little shades coming up as you climb that last bit while she's shooting lasers at you#hollow ripping her face open#the knight with the void tentacles#anyway the real hilarity from this invuln cheat is that i got the speed completion achievement cause i beat the game in under 20 hours lmao#now i might check out the god seeker stuff#try to get whatever ending it is where the knight becomes the god of the void#fel's hk
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-->And then heard a weird musical sting, and looked over at Smiler to realize they were absolutely Hysterical from all this fun. AKA, one good giggle fit away from death. D: I quickly got them away from the games to chat with Victor, who laid a Heat Of The Moment kiss on them as a distraction. XD Once they’d gotten their flirt on a bit, I had Smiler go calm themselves down in the bathroom mirrors (never mind they have no reflection to do so) -- once they were safely just Very Inspired, I then let them hop on the DDR machine while Victor shot some hoops at the basketball machine. As my game threw out ANOTHER barista-related error. *grumbles* I don’t know if that’s the game, one of my mods, or what, but seems I’m gonna have to be careful playing for a while...
-->And then I looked at the date timer, saw that they only had thirty minutes left, and was like “crap, forget the games, finish socializing, do more cute things together!” XD Fortunately they were more than amenable to kissing and flirting some more, and the date ended with them having reached Gold level as well, yay! Not like I need those VIP buckets, but fuck it, we can recycle them or something. I just wanted my boy and my enby to have a good time.
-->With that date done, it was time to send the pair home, where I found Alice, still in werewolf form, sitting on the couch watching some classic Sims TV. Which gave me an idea – VICTOR had already fulfilled the “watch Romantic TV” tradition I slapped on the holiday a while back, but Alice and Smiler hadn’t. And despite the fact it was past midnight, the holiday wasn’t quite over yet (they don’t end until 2 AM the next morning). So I had Alice turn off the classics, let out a somber howl to keep her Fury down, change back into her human form, then put on the Romance channel before sending Victor and Smiler over to join her on the couch. Holiday ended with the three of them hanging out for a while, watching goofy medical dramas and doing a little bit of flirting, before Smiler got up and left Alice and Victor to it while they made a drink over at their bar in the party barn. XD At least they all had an extremely successful Love Day!
*whew* Yeah, that was a bit more chaotic than I wanted – at least for Victor and Alice, at any rate! Seriously – I can get that the problems with them getting their food was because the cafe’s probably a little too small and was built with form over function in mind, but the FUCK was with townies just randomly flirting with Alice?! Like I said, that didn’t happen on Victor and Smiler’s date – everyone just left them alone! Does Alice have some sort of setting on her that makes townies think it’s okay to get up close and personal on her, because I have GOT to turn that off if so. Talk about the most unAlice thing ever... But at least I got my two good dates in the end. Next time, we wrap up in-game spring with another trip to Van Liddelton Groceries! The gang filled the shelves, and now we have to empty them. See you then!
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#Things You Do Not Want To Happen On A Love Day Date:#1. One person on the date dies from hysterical laughter#(though admittedly dying of laughter WOULD be on-brand for Smiler if nothing else#still don't want it to happen of course!)#2. You fail to achieve a good score on the date because you've been distracted by having your Sims play all the games#what can I say I'd never tried out the DDR machine previously and I wanted to see how it worked!#just glad I was able to get them to do the last bits of socializing and grab that gold date status at the last minute#this ended up being kind of Parallel Play: The Date#but we still got some cute moments :)#and I did like having everyone gather on the couch for some ridiculous romantic TV at the end#they all seemed to have fun#and Victor and Alice getting some tender time on the couch helped make up for their glitchy date#it's the small things#anyway yes more grocery store stuff next time#we all like that right? :p#queued
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i will not panic abt my exams
#it will be fine actually#I’m stressed bc they’re in. a month now like a month from today and I’ll be done#but that just means I have a whole month to be making notes I can do a lot in a month#I’m going home on Friday which is stressing me out but it’s just one week I’ll go Friday and leave Saturday/Sunday#and if I can do a handful of lectures while I’m at home that’ll be a useful step no matter what#i can probably focus on like molecular ones which are easier to structure bc I just need to pull out the mechanisms#tomorrow I just gotta read up on two topics really and then I can write the dumb mock exam which I won’t be able to do at home bc its 4 hour#I hate that we have to do that especially bc it’s got shit evil questions but whatever#and I can’t feel bad abt being slow to get back into this bc im an animal with a body and it takes a while to get back into Anything#and I’m worried abt the exam yes bc of how it went last year when I was unprepared but 1) I won’t be THAT degree of unprepared this year#2) it is unlikely that i get as insanely unlucky as I did last year#fucking hell I just. don’t think I’m made for this kinda system I can’t make myself work in it#every single term of my degree so far I’ve been fighting to keep up with everything and had no time to properly prepare for the exams#and then scraped it by working off a baseline level of being good at putting ideas together quickly and strategically working last minute#on whatever will give me the best shot at getting what I need but that’s not possible in these two exams bc I have over 100 lectures to know#I can’t do 100 lectures in a month. it’s just not possible but what I can probably do is summarise some important bits for like half of them#I think I’m bad at the whole sustained effort on a big task over a long period of time#bc this is so huge that there’s no way for me to see progress or move on to anything new bc it’s just. a stack of 100 lectures to deal with#I HOPE I’m better at dealing with project next year bc i think it’ll be more task based#and like I can watch the lectures the first time round bc there’s a set thing to do and an end point#I have genuinely no idea how to approach this in a way that will be useful achievable AND get enough done within the time I have#anyway I can’t stress abt it now bc I have to go to the shop and then home to cook. so#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#luke.txt
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