#and i feel no solid connection at all

[roguestarsailor]

i dont like it here. i think i really just miss my family and my friends. i miss just being around people i know and not feeling so lonely. i want to feel settled and like i belong. i don’t feel it here and i just feel so sad all the time when im alone.

i know that i made the choice to leave behind all that i know but i think i figured it out. there’s no perfect places but i did have high hopes here. i mean i knew but the reality of it is that i really had rose tinted glasses on and its not much different than back home. out here i just have myself and my thoughts alone all the time..

[nostalgia-tblr]

i must admit i think fandom is far nicer to the jotuns than that thor movie they're in was. cos yeah they got their Magic Box stolen but the civilian applications of it are never specified (idk, Magic of some kind?) and we only ever see it used as a weapon, by a people who themselves only ever attack others unprovoked. the most sympathtic jotun we the audience ever meet is the main villain of the movie.

i think fandom's version of events is a much more nuanced one than what that film actually manages (or even attempts) to do on its own.

possibly my view of the Marvel American-Militarism-Is-Great Universe was jaded from the very start but... *gestures towards hollywood blockbusters in general*

[s1nn0hh]

living shell

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

nothing like a call from your mother to make that escapism feel extra sweet

[saintsheriff]

travelling again tmrw so i’ll be hopefully getting some writing done in the process. HOWEVER i feel like i wanna talk more to you beautiful people soooo. consider this a plotting call!

[autisticlee]

sometimes being autistic really separates me from other people. there's an invisible wall that separates me from people, society, the world. all those things can reach through the wall and slap me around, but it's one way. I can't reach them. and they never pat me on the head. nothing nice comes through. and I can't get out. I try to share good things. nothing gets through the wall. they see it as I purposely don't come out of the room i'm locked in. they think I act like i'm too good for them. they are offended and reach in to slap me. i'm desperately screaming and trying to reach out to them. trying to be part of things. but I can't. I can't connect with them. I can't be part of society. this wall isn't my doing, but they are making sure it stays up and making sure they only send negative signals through. know I can't stay behind this wall or I literally can't live. but also can't get out. i'm stuck and blamed for it. told i'm not trying and it's on purpose. i've been kicking and screaming at the wall my whole life and didn't make a dent. the lonliness and disconnection that can be felt when autistic is something nonautistic people will never feel or understand.

[rookieloveskashi]

it's totally fine and normal to write 75% of a fic over two days and then barely touch it for six weeks, right?

[bunnihearted]

i've been too distant for a few days/a week (????) and now everyone hates me probably......

[calamarispiderart]

interested in the potential equation (not solid, rather an association) of soul and whole. externality. soul having the trident canonically (symbol of three,) lack of singular identification? crown and blindfold are individual items, to mind and heart respectively. trident implies a lack of singularity, individuality. i love soul with the noose. would their splitting be considered a death? or their merging? how is death defined within this context.... an end, not literal death. death of a being. soul is that threat, and whole is that threat . mirror? not quite, mind and heart are mirrors. perhaps, a photo? external manifestation, capture, of the self as seen by others. photos provide little insight without context of the story surrounding it. mask (external), whole (external), not the exact same but functionally...? perhaps seeing 'whole' as an individual being is a disservice here, or a misunderstanding. dont solidify that concept too deeply here, okay? okay.

[choilproductions]

3am doodle page

(Plus sopping wet vent in tags read at your own risk)

[famewolf]

if im being honest and allowing myself to vent a bit about it ... another red flag was when the DM went 'wow i love the detail of your backstory but idk what i can do with it tho ):'

[chromotps]

The thing about Ace/Sabo is that the ship is less about them being brothers but more like them sharing a childhood friendship? That had the potential of becoming something more in the future. Except it didn’t, for obvious reasons. And yeah not everyone’s a fan of that, but people also like the raised by wolves/son of a noble dynamic they had as children. While I agree Sabo does kind of feel like he was stuck to Ace&Luffy as an afterthought, with a piece of chewed-out gum — his existence doesn’t… I don’t know, feel out of place? I also enjoy how kinda tragic his character is, and how he carries that tragedy with him? In the form of Ace’s devil fruit (Sabo also canonically hallucinates and there was an instance where he admitted to hearing Ace’s voice, during his fight with Burgess? so yeah, not everyone’s cup of tea again but I’m a huge fan of hurt/comfort so having a character go through a psychotic depressive episode because of the insane guilt he feels? Just, yeah. Plus there’s something really poetic about him literally eating Ace’s DF and still considering it „Ace’s powers” etc) and the way I see Sabo/Lu is through Ace/Lu (and partially Ace/Sabo) anyway. Because Sabo is trying to fill out the role of an older brother/friend for Luffy that he’s well aware is impossible to fill — because nothing ever will be the same for Luffy. Nothing or no one could even come close to making it up for Ace’s loss to Luffy, and Sabo knows he’s kind of a cheap copy of that (figuratively and literally lmfao, as I know people have been calling him low-budget Ace), but still he tries to? And the fact that Luffy is technically his only remaining family (or at least someone he willingly considers family). And I kind of see it as a parallel to how Ace’s approach to Luffy changed after Sabo’s „death”? Because Sabo was the „kinder” brother, the nicer one, the smarter one, it was usually him who took Luffy’s side whenever Ace was annoyed with him? And the one who explicitly asked Ace to look after Luffy — which then was one of the direct reasons why Ace changed the way he treated Luffy, forced him to be more patient/learn to love and eventually led to Ace willingly becoming the „older brother” figure for Luffy. I’m in no way trying to convince you to like Sabo, don’t get me wrong!! I’m just trying to show an example how Ace/Sabo isn’t necessarily brotherly either (like, I don’t know, Sabo/Luffy seems to be?). And it’s just that while I’m first and foremost a huge Ace/Lu enjoyer I also think Sabo did have a significant impact on their relationship both before and after Ace’s death.

((!! sorry i took a while to reply! i made that post before work on Friday and then got slammed until just now fdghjgk)

the odd thing is, I mostly agree!! I think I had to vent bc i saw ppl (a few specific sabo fans haha) on twitter acting like luffy would feel nothing toward ace but be obsessed with sabo. and, lol, no. but what YOU said makes total sense. like, yes, Ace + Sabo definitely has a different, more involved feeling to me than Ace & Luffy. I've had some ships in the past that fit the raised by wolves/runaway noble trope... the charm of the noble feeling like "this is the only person I feel like I can really be myself around" and the wild one thinking "i like spending time with this noble—they're tougher/kinder/funnier than i gave them credit for" AND/OR "society has always rejected me, but this 'cultured' person accepting me heals that pain a little bit"—all of those things are really charming.

Maybe if we'd seen more about how ace and sabo became friends, or if there were more emphasis on sabo's acceptance being what helped ace's anger (instead of, just from how i saw things, it being mostly luffy's unconditional warmth toward ace that did it?) then I'd personally be more feral about that dynamic, haha. But it's like you said, I guess it all depends on what we each connect with. I dont find tragedy alone compelling... I'm depressed enough already as it is LMAO!! if I think too hard about how viscerally sad Sabo only remembering Ace after he'd died is, my brain just shuts down. But I've got really good friends who would EAT THAT UP. Like, yeah, it is beautifully poetic... hahaha now i'm laughing thinking about my friends who were really into Hamlet and Romeo & Juliet finding out about Sabo & Ace and being obsessed, ahaha (they're not so into One Piece tho, only jjk... at least, for now!! 😈)

it's hard to put into words, but there's something about Sabo being a revolutionary vs. ace and luffy being pirates, that kind of explains why my brain sees A+L as very very very different than A&S or L&S. But like, that's just my brain and how my heart likes to focus on characters with really codependent relationships/dreams/themes, hahaha...

[squish--squash]

I think it would be interesting if there was like, a documentary or smth like a deep dive focused on the phenomenon I like to dub the "monkey's paw" of the internet which is where a content creator quickly rises to fame/quickly becomes popular but are then pitted against so much slander, controversies, hate, and/or discourse that it either ruins that person's content creating career or damages it to a degree that will never be fixed

because it keeps happening. over and over I've seen content creators suddenly rise out of the depths and gain masses of followers only for it to topple like a poorly-played jenga tower only a few years later due to controversies and hate. meanwhile, other content creators build a following in a slow, steady way where while they might not be that known, the people who do know them support them wholeheartedly.

And I want to know WHY this keeps happening. I have a lot of theories on this (jealousy of success breeding extreme hate, sudden fame clouding judgement and leading to poor decisions, the lack of trust the apprehension more and more people are having towards newer famous people nowadays, etc) but it would be nice to once day get more than just these theories on why this keeps happening, and if this "trend" will ever stop or just get worse as time progresses

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how being autistic can be one of the loneliest and most isolating things...

[jrueships]

Omg the flowers are so pretty 🌸 worth revealing my chart even tho everyone apparently hates geminis so maybe I'm the worst?? Idc

Sun: Gemini

Moon: Scorpio

Rising: Leo

Venus: Aries

don't listen to the haters, smh!! they hate ur power !!!!

[deerdeardarling]

Me trying to explain & make sense of all the made up pokemon lore/aus/headcanons I have in my head to. Litteraly anyone.