#and i’m stressed as fuck already

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

[glitchinginhyperfixis]

this is the worst day ever

[sittinginsunflowers]

The absolutely real way my heart dropped when Brennan brought out those fucking scantron ass test questions and a timer is proof you never outrun high school and if one of them doesn’t curse him out for this truly cruel (and genius) premise next episode I will be shocked

[0046incognito]

i’m about eight years out of practice with this guy

[transboykirito]

No hate but do you identify as a lesbian now? If yes do you still identify as trans?

it’s something i’m definitely seriously thinking about😭 i’ve always had a preference for women but at this point i’d basically be content with anyone but a cis dude. idk. it’s just something im thinking about a lot and wondering if maybe that fits me more (i identified as a lesbian for a while when i was 12, then again at 14/15, and now i’m just… i don’t know)

i’m still trans regardless but we all know my ideas about gender are kinda complicated and not really in one particular box. best i can do is genderfluid but honestly it’s more just……… i don’t care about my gender lmfao

[freefolkfightorflight]

Happy Turkey Day!

This was me smiling yesterday. I was happy because all the babies and all the being mommy time with all 5 of the littles.

Today I’m pouting.

I just begrudgingly cooked everything except the Turkey. I hate living in a damn shack omg. My kitchen makes me want to stab ppl when I attempt to cook…which is literally never now (well except today when I’m obligated to).

I wanted to make the Turkey. I bought one at my BFs request. And then last minute his mom wanted to make a Turkey and he went out and bought another one. I’m literally going to throw this one away bc my kids won’t eat it whats the damn point. I don’t have money to spend on this stupid holiday. I DO want to make his kids feel special and happy and thought of though…. bc their mom fucking abandoned them after giving birth to them. But like my kids? They don’t care. 😩 molly eats like 4 foods and Turkey ain’t one of them. Junior would eat a little but it wouldn’t even make a damn dent. I was so grumpy y’all. Grummmmmpy

But it’s ok. I turned on Latin music and danced and cleaned and cooked and my bad mood was little bit lessened.

I know I should be thankful today but I’m just fucking pissed at the earth for being so unfair💙💁🏻‍♀️✨

[squuote]

I think people should be allowed to share their distaste for certain headcanons n such without people making posts about how they’re ‘gatekeeping’. for as much as I’m a ‘do what you want’ kinda dude, I do think that includes allowing people to express why they don’t enjoy something. like most people are pretty civil bout it until you antagonize them by pointing and saying they’re ‘policing’ spaces.

[foldingfittedsheets]

So through a combination of sedentary school program, chronic illness, and stress about my rigorous program and ironically my health I’ve gained a fair amount of weight.

It’s whatever, mostly. I wish I could be fitter in terms of how my body functions but things will probably improve once I finish school.

However. We have been invited to a wedding. And none of my fancy clothes have fit for some time. And I’m broke (see above, school). And these are Fancy Gays so we’ll need to look nicer than jeans and a button up.

So tomorrow we’re going thrifting to hopefully find some passably nice finery.

[starbuck]

second night of Murder Mystery DONE all went well i am FREEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!

[thatgirlonstage]

Thinking through the logical conclusions of lore that the source material has clearly not thought that deeply about can be annoying or depressing in the sense of seeing exactly how deep the plot holes go but so long as it doesn’t inherently break the suspension of disbelief or ruin your enjoyment of the overall story it can be really fun to figure out what you can use to plug the holes. Like that’s just free real estate now baby. If the lore implies X but the story wound up at Z, then you can make the journey through Y be whatever you want it to be

[sapphicsnzs]

im so grateful for this corner of the internet where i can just get my frustrations out

[allofuswantgwinam]

it terrifies me the way so many people keep living without even batting an eye about the genocide that’s happening right in front of our eyes. i will never shut the fuck up about this.

[minibunz]

I’m alive still, things are still hard if not more so I’m just having a rough time

[goldkirk]

It is so incredible to be able to leave a situation, center and ground myself, and start recovering my energy, mental focus, and peace within minutes to an hour. What other people said or did wasn’t about me, I behaved well myself, I let things roll off as much as possible during the situation, and as soon as it was over I started doing nervous system first aid. What a difference living this way makes. Life is so much more peaceful when you actually protect boundaries, keep perspective, and care for yourself while properly in tune with your needs.

[mrspockify]

GOD sometimes thing work out okay huh? 😭😭😭😭

[delicateimage]

Hey girlies update time… I’ve been sent to a clinic for my weight and it’s been really stressful and my life is kinda falling apart lol there’s defiantly good aspects to it but ughhh I’m like :( bc my diets had to change so much and I feel so unproductive now and I’m really scared about gaining weight but they’d said I’d like die or whatever if I didn’t which um. I genuinely feel so disgusting heavy and sick and disgusting and DISGUSTIGN eww and my disordered eating brain is coming back in full force after silently controlling me for like nearly years at this point and it’s all so much. the hardest thing about this is that I don’t want to gain weight at all and particularly I don’t really even care to live anymore. I’m scared everyday I’ll fall deeper and deeper back into disordered eating I’ll get lonelier and lonelier I’ll get fatter and fatter I’ll lose everything I’ve ever built for myself… ugh this is a mess but ong.