#and if i am a burden to myself- so what!

[that-bitchdanni]

oh god,,,,,, oh god

it’s all about the

you are the only one who saves yourself. the only one saving yourself. you pick yourself up and are that steady hand that keeps you above water

and yet

and yet you are also dragging g yourself back down. you are not who you are without weights. without memory with casualty without grief without horror without tragedy.

in le poids de soi-même you are given the picture of humanity. the picture of selflessness and hope for a better future. in front of the main courthouse at the edge of the river there stands a man with another in his arms. and the man is strong, but not without showing some effort, as it would not be without fatigue to accomplish such an act, as save a man from presumably drowning as we see here. and the other man, weak, weary; barely clinging in to his saviour. but then you look a little closer. at the men. at their face. and you see. you see their face is the same. for they are the same man. and what does it mean? to be both your own saviour and your own burden? to be the only thing you’re hanging on to and the only thing dragging you down. and what becomes of it? because we’ll you’re left in a paradox. to let go is death. dooming yourself eternally. but to hold on? to persist to struggle to endure incessantly and carry on? at what cost? at what end?

at that is life, is it not?

[bakudekublogblog]

kacchan really is so funny for being like BUT WHAT ABOUT BAKUDEKU CANON when he finds out izuku is quirkless

[stuckinapril]

I’m finally biting the bullet and contacting a therapist today after being ambivalent ab it for so long… this hellsite has its many disadvantages but one thing I can say is it has truly helped me be less scared of pursuing therapy. Silver lining etc etc

[autumnoficarus]

i can't stop listening to the 'purpose is glorious' track from this season's ost and thinking about how lovely the title and its meaning are. it's just such an amazing underlying theme in this show, and - while i do have criticisms about some of the choices made for the series finale - i really do feel the writers wholeheartedly delivered in sending that message home. for me personally, loki's ending is so gratifying and a large part of that is solely from viewing their arc's conclusion with the perspective of this theme in mind. to have spent years watching this character i hold very dear to my heart struggle to find belonging, to feel as though they matter and there is reason in their existence, finally get a chance to show - and recognize - their worth was so, so rewarding. and honestly, i think the message behind the phrasing of 'purpose is glorious' is all the more meaningful because of how loki's arc finished. yes, the outcome was bittersweet; yes, we're left knowing loki didn't get the happiness they undeniably earned after everything they'd gone through. it smarts something fierce to know their journey up until they deviated from their timeline and became a variant, as well as seen their eventual intended fate. the ache is only worsened after witnessing everything that happens within the TVA and the entirety of loki's character growth leading up to a redefining moment where they willingly choose to undergo a nightmarish amount of time in the endeavor to do the right thing. of course we want them to emerge victorious when they've struggled for so long, but that's not the point. loki's final moments are them forfeiting their right to a happy ending to preserve the stories of others because all stories matter and should inherently reserve the free will to be written; as sylvie says, loki makes their choice so their loved ones and life across the multiverse still have a chance to belong somewhere and embrace their place in the world. the take away is that even burden can be glorious. even with all the hardships of life - all the inevitable heartache, disappointment, and grief we encounter just by being alive - we have meaning in our existence. there is meaning in the trials we face, and the suffering we endure in order to overcome them. our pain gives us purpose; it gives us the ability to love, to grow from and for each other, and choose to sacrifice our happiness for the benefit of another. loki's purpose was forged in the bonds of those they met in their time at the TVA and the sense of value they gained from their companionship. their sacrifice perfectly conveys how the human capacity to love is one of cosmic greatness, which can ultimately surpass our instinctual desire to preserve one's self. we can move immovable mountains and challenge insurmountable adversity in behalf of the ones we love and their welfare. if that isn't an act deserving of glory, I don't know what is.

tldr; loki's purpose is the friends they made along the way = as the saying goes, 'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all'. or: our own lives have purpose because of the connections we share with others, even when we are met with great loss.

[wolflyndraws]

i keep feeling like venting so much recently but i keep thinking that my freinds would think its their fault or theyre making it worse but litearlly i feel this way cause of me just me being stupid and fucking crazy and being my own biggest fuckign bully and hater

plus i really want to stop burdening everyone here and on twitter and my friends and moots or whatever with my stupid fucking vents i feel like such an annoying bitch of a burden and this feelings been going on like so consistently everyday for the past month self deprication jokes and talk is litearlly so unfunny im just being annoying and stupid

i thought i was getting better yesterday before i slept but that fuckign feeling is back again as soon as i fucking wake up

god this is so cringe and such a new fucking low for me imagine people saying that they love you and everything you make but being so stupid and fucked enough to litearlly be your own hater and convincing yourself to not believe any of it and let it affect everything in your life I'm never good enough for myself and never will be however hard i try

imagine not knowing the worth of your art like a crazy person

[hauntedwoman]

as badly as i want to avoid my mom she is making it extremely difficult

[theflyingfeeling]

tomorrow-me: I'd really appreciate it if you could drag your arse to the grocery store so that I won't have to get up early tomorrow morning to do it you know?

now-me, wrapped in a blanket with tears in my eyes: but I'm just a baby?? 😭

[vaguely-annoyed]

well well well, if it isn't the feelings i said weren't that deep

[bunnihearted]

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[hecksupremechips]

Minor thing that really irks me is when people treat the femc route in p3 portable as like the lesser story or like it’s a fanfic where nothing that happens in it is the “true” canon like. Bitch. The femc and everything that happens in her version of the story is just as canon as the male protagonist and everything that happens in his story. And there’s literally been so many fucking versions of p3 at this point like the base game, fes, portable, the movies, stage plays, reload, as well as spinoffs and manga and they all do things differently. I don’t see anyone acting like the base game is more canon than, say, reload so why do they do this with portable? Why can’t the (infinitely superior) version with the female protagonist just be respected for five fucking minutes goddamn

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Nothing pisses me off more than when people talk about my friendships with mid-support needs autistics and other people with differently-wired brains as if I am descending to help them because I’ve taken them on as a charity case. That is NOT true. Oh they’re a burden because they’re neurodivergent? WELL GUESS FUCKING WHAT: SO AM I! THE REASON I HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS WITH SO MUCH SHIT WRONG WITH THEM IS BECAUSE I HAVE A LOT OF SHIT WRONG WITH ME. WE ATTRACT EACH OTHER! WE LIKE EACH OTHER! IT’S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD TO UNDERSTAND!

[licorishh]

Most people really don't seem to understand that friendship is a two-way street.

They expect you to wait on them hand and foot as they rant about and constantly pour on you either their issues or their passions and when you finally have something you'd like to talk about you get a "Man that sucks :/" or a "Cool" in return.

Find somebody who doesn't do that. Then you'll have your best friend.

[floral-hex]

Just canceled all of my future therapy appointments. Big fudgin’ bummer. Did I mention I lost my insurance? Didn’t even find out about that until the day it lapsed. Trying to find a way to fix it now, reapplying and whatnot, but ya know, it’s bureaucracy so who knows how long it’ll take. Just fingers crossed I don’t run out of meds first.

lol it’s underwater 🐠

[jarognieva]

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[immamapletreekid]

work anxiety starting before work itself hahahahaahahahahahahhhaha

[regret-breathing]

i am so scared :) and so tired :)) i just want to live and to be loved and to cry and write and yearn for fulfillment rather than simple subsistence.