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scruncheduppaper · 10 months

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guys my little sister just drew sniper and pyro im literally so happy LMAO (our respective favs) im so impressed with her art i love the way she captured them. like yeah that is sniper tf2 fr fr. trying to prevent myself from jumping from joy rn. i love sniper so much

#tf2 sniper #sniper tf2 #tf2 pyro #pyro tf2 #tf2 #tf2 fanart #team fortress 2 #shes only 11 im so proud of her #i remember back when she could only draw scribbles #its incredible to see her progress in art in real time #i would be embarrassed to share interests with people irl #mostly because of. the way i see and portray the characters #but shes just as obsessed with tf2 as i am #which is awesome #and makes me feel less self conscious #okay i talked too long bye

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averlym · 8 months

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,,, wdhdnfhffjjf

#i just. i just wanted the larger version on here. apologies for the spam i suppose #i'm going so insane over them... lives in head rent free etc #also the shading here vibes. so. owo??uu overly proud me. but what is a tumblr sideblog if not to go bonkers.#aknshdhdhdfhfhhfhffhfhfh every so often i have to go back to this and Stare and go 'how on earth did i make this???'#sigh. i feel like i've been flooding the tag lately. alas i shall endeavour to be less self conscious about Posting and more.. as mish said #highly throwable imp.. anyways. teehee #i genuinely keep forgetting i mean for this to be a storage space before anything else for my art #but like make art for funsies is such a healthy mindset i am Adopting lately so #whatever sparks joy. we stay silly!! :33 #adamandi #<- for personal filing ig feel free to ignore #the colours on this really just go so hard !! hhhdbdnfh

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kabukeo · 10 months

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tonight's little doodles

#doodle #lcb #meursault lcb #meurgreg #im trying to be less self conscious about making meurgreg or any ship art really #twt has exposed me to everyone having an opinion on every ship ever #which has made me back away from making too much art of any one ship #i know meurgreg is one of the most popular ships but because of that i also feel an odd sense of guilt #i cant explain it like i should use my art to contribute to a rare pair or smth idk #its all a bit weird and irrational #but ive realized i have not been able to make art for myself for months #every idea i have and everything i go forward to draw im always thinking about how others will feel about it #and how i can make it better fit or adequate for an audience so i dont let them down or bore them #and that mindset has made art so much of a chore that ive significantly slowed down so much on art at all #so idk #trying to stop overthinking and just draw what i feel to the extent that i feel #escape the perfectionism and wanting to please everyone as much as possible #to elaborate on the weird meurgreg feeling i guess its like #i feel guilty for filling tags even more with an already popular ship & making mutuals who dont like meurgreg see it more #but its just not that deep #people can mute meurgreg and thats just not my problem anyway #sry ab these tags!

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variousqueerthings · 2 years

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ok we’ve reached the point where I’ve gotta say it... maybe I’m just projecting gender onto hawkeye pierce

#ah not another one lads #hawkeye pierce #im watching MASH #MASH #i was talking to my partner today (one leg draped over the other at my usual fond exaggerated angle when i do drape them)#about how he makes me feel less self-conscious about some of my mannerisms #because yes i love my mannerisms but you know... also feel intensely self-conscious about how my particular masculinity #is hyperactive and exaggerated body movements and it's like #that post about how secretly wearing your mother's clothing #when you were a kid #always felt like subversive gender (because your gender was never girl) but to the outside eye it doesn't read as subversive at all #because they're not reading your masculinity -- they're just pleased you're finally conforming #(the post phrases it better)#anyway... hawkeye pierce youknow.... what a guy

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meat-loving-meat · 25 days

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I LOVE MULTIMEDIA-ING FANFICTIONS

#IT'S LITERALLY SO FUN. EVERYONE SHOULD FEEL LESS SELF-CONSCIOUS ABOUT MAKING SILLY THINGS LIKE THIS FOR THEIR FICS #IT GETS ME SO HYPED UP ABOUT MY IDEAS. I still don't know if I'll finish this fic but MAGAZINE ARTICLE BE UPON YE #also it's low-key necessary for my nuclear weapons AU. It's impossible to have the characters explain this in an organic way #but it only takes like five sentences if you can just. write it in a magazine article #I stayed up WAY too late making this. RIP #I FEEL LIKE A TEENAGER AGAIN 10/10. STAYING UP PAST MY BEDTIME DOING FANDOM STUFF #gay herald in a squirrel suit

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pikslasrce · 3 months

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day ?? of having the anxiety levels of someone being followed around by a sniper

#feeling very. self conscious rn and maybe being followed around by a sniper would be less stress inducing 😭#they should ban me from experiencing genuine connection to people all it does is make me insane (derogatory)#it is moments like these that make me think i might not be the most mentally sound person....#however im sick of trying to give a name to all this *gestures vaguely at myself* so calling myself plain neurotic is enough....#piksla.txt

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crypt1dcorv1dae · 6 days

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My hair looks cute rn

#i like having part of my face covered it makes me feel less self conscious about how crooked my nose is #if only it didnt fuck up your vision to always have hair in your face...

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callixton · 6 months

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i’ve never seen a man stim so autistically in excitement and joy (honorific) (extremely so) (i want him carnally)

#he literally flaps his entire upper body & it is so comforting to me bc it makes me feel less self conscious about how i physically react #he’s So hot dude. anyway #LITERALLY the bitches he pulls w his autistic swag. fucking INSANE i am not kidding #ted talks #🗡️

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camelliagwerm · 11 months

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I need to slowly try to start interacting with others again. It'll be baby steps since I've not really been as interactive in the last 3-4 months, but I do want to try at least.

#harper.txt #ive been very withdrawn in recent months and i worry how im perceived bc of it.#and im also very self conscious/hyperaware of some things my mum said about me #wrt my asd diagnosis which has made me wanna interact even less.#idk if what im saying makes any sense but. im trying my best. even if my best is minimal.#hard not to feel like im coming off as standoffish uncaring or disinterested

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fearcicada · 1 year

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I am technically aroace but it's like I feel like being ace is so much less important to me and a much smaller aspect of who I am than being aro so I like. Never think about it. Being ace is like ok whatever I'm not attracted to people but being aro is like (the way I view humanity and relationships has been fundamentally altered in every which way and affects how I see the whole world)

#just how i view being aroace obvi #i see a lot of people who just refer to themselves as 'aro' and I'm not thsr because i still separate these two aspects of myself and don't #just think of it as that but #mentioning that im ace feels soo much less serious and unimportant than mentioning im aro #a few days ago my friend was like ''happy ace day!!'' or whatever and i was like wow. cool. this means nothing to me i didn't even know #that was a thing. i stay knowing every aro day week event etc on earth though #words #aro #aromantic #ace #? i brought it up im tagging it #asexual #im always so self conscious about when im tagging things like i don't wanna be that guy that's just like tagging shit thats barely #mentioned in a post or stuff that like someone going down thst tag wouldn't wanna se LOL #but at the same time im obsessed with making sure everything i reblog or post is organized well so im not gonna NOT tag something ...#mine #Aromanticism

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daz4i · 9 months

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too lazy and having trouble with words to work on my fic but i do enjoy imagining it. fuck yeah make that beast bleed

#i think i might try to rewrite the second chapter (or what i wrote from it so far)#it feels too emotional for an early part of the fic in a way that can even be ooc which makes me self conscious #and in turn makes me want to not write it bc it's bad. so. idk. I'll try maybe. just gotta figure out what to replace it with 🤔😔#edit: ok some of this is really cute. i might just tweak the scenario to be less heavy bc the actual start of Thing is p good

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alwaysbethewest · 3 months

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I don’t read a lot fic so I’m simultaneously living in an ignorant lalaland but also wanting more and afraid to venture into wild territory for fear of repeatedly encountering the Joel you mentioned. If even someone like me has noticed it, then it’s truly pervasive. I like to think I do a decent job of separating the character from their dominant trope/au/fanon but it gets hard <insert Oscar Isaac coffee gif>

I'm kind of in the same boat! I'm not reading that much these days (and when my brain is ready to I have a looong to-read list for other characters!) but I like to scroll through the fandom tag and skim the summaries. I'm sure there IS some great, thoughtful, in-character fic out there but I rarely see anything that draws me in. I've actually literally just added a tag filter for his name so I can stop looking in the first place because I find it so dispiriting and confusing 😕

#i hate to even say this stuff out loud because i truly don't want to yuck anyone else's yum or whatever the saying is #it feels shitty to become self-conscious about what you want to write and i don't want to make anyone feel bad #AND i know that my own fics are often not that in-character #i really don't believe that being perfectly in-character is the most important thing #but at the same time i just am so....#confused by the predominant themes and tropes and how much they do not align with my vision of this character #a deeply sad broken hollowed out tired man #who probably barely finds it in him to regularly fuck his long term partner #(not that she is ever acknowledged either 🙃🙃🙃)#much less someone younger than his dead daughter #like where did that.... come from #sorry if this makes me an asshole!!!! oh well #anonymous #ask #and i am purposely not using full names or tags lol bc i'm just saying my thing to my followers not trying to start a whole conversation 😬

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shoechoe · 24 days

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I only lurked on the Internet for a long time and still do not post on most websites I visit but it really is nice to have a place where I can talk about things like animated shows and music and other assorted interests without being judged

#personal #i will go on and on and on about the things i like and IRL it makes people sick of me #especially because my friends when i was younger were mean about my interests #i remember one time (i was 13) i was hanging out w/ my friends and we were watching shows so i put on invader zim #and then in the middle they said ''turn it off this show is so stupid'' and the rest of the night they watched superstore #i had to uh... resist the urge to run and jump out the window the rest of the time #people including my parents would make fun of the music i liked since i was like 11 #it would get to the point where i would snatch my headphones out of people's hands and obsessively clear every tab so they wouldn't see it #i would also get made fun of because i was bad at drawing (by my own parents too) and was kind of awkward in general #it made me very self conscious about so many aspects of myself i really wasn't happy #i think i am only starting to get a little better about it #and i'll be honest i'm not innocent when it comes to making fun of people for harmless interests too. the behavior is contagious i think #i try not to do it now i'm not proud of it #not to be too incredibly vent-y. but i really like feeling more comfortable talking about things i enjoy somewhere #i have found more friends that have some similar interests to me now and old friends have apologized and gotten less harsh #which helps. but also posting paragraphs on the internet about random shit helps too

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prince-jelli-fish · 29 days

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i think i have to admit that mithrun is also my guy

#dungeon meshi #he does NOT get the same kind of place in my heart as sissle/thistle #but his design just makes me really happy #especially cause my hair is that same length and color right now #and his eyes make me feel less self conscious about my asymmetrical eyes

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gibbearish · 2 months

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btw i just wanna say if ur a long term follower but we're not mutuals it 100% isnt a personal thing, i do love and cherish you just as much and have probably checked out your blog multiple times and we just. didnt have enough overlapping interests for me not to have to filter the tags for basically everything you post about to keep my dash from being 99% things i scroll past jsbfjsbfkdb

#I've never rlly engaged with the idea of mutuals the same as other people i don't think #like i think to most people its the social media version of like. best friends? which is also a concept I've never engaged with #normally so. lol #but yeah i check out new followers and ppl who show up in my notes a lot and if im like hm i dont like this person #then i just block them #so if i didnt follow you back it isnt that i didnt like you i just. already follow i think like 700 blogs JEBFKSBFKSBFKDN #actually i should go clean those out again its been a while since the last time #origibberish #esp the ppl i feel like might have post notifs turned on for me #some of u like new posts too quickly too often to just happen to be refreshing your dash at the right time 🤔🔎#jahfkwhfjdb thats /lh dw and i hope doesnt make anyone self conscious #i always have a thing where in like 'oh i cant like this post it was made less than a minute ago thatd be weird'#and then theres me getting likes right after posting a thing going !!!!😃👉 FRIEND #its rambling hours again ig lads JEBFKSBFMDN

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bbqhooligan · 3 months

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through all of it, after all of it, ill still be mulling over Bella Swan. unlike other parts of smeyers writing where the glaring issues take the front seat to parts that are well written or interesting, bella remains special to me. genuinely worlds most boring girl, meant to be a mormon self insert but her humanity fleshes out so nicely its hard not to think this is an interesting character who is stuck in a bad premise. i dont know if many fanfics have it in them to do her justice but i be Wondering.

#mypost #bella swan #twilight #kristen stewart as bella swan in 2008 was my first love yknow.#like shes only ''not like the other girls'' because the narrative compares her to ''Bitch Women'' like jessica or rose #shes only ''cringe love triangle thirst trap'' because narrative has jacob playing this disgusting ass role #shes only ending up in this cheesy happy ever after vampirism because the mormon writing #but what of the girl.#if smeyer had been more self aware and less religious we could truly explore that. what OF the girl?#like edward or jacob or vampirism and the plot ALL need huge reworks. their intrigue is weaker than their problems #but with bella... idk am i biased i always just her as a fellow abusive family teen. traumatized. coping mechanisms to hell and back #she isnt depressed -at first- but shes. emotionally frozen. carefully frozen. and shy and self conscious and...#scared in these ways that make me think renee was as strong in her negative feelings as she was with her positive ones #god shes just a. really beaten down girl who looks strong. who longs for a family and escape escape escape ESCAPE ESCAPE #she longs to be precious and loved deeply DEEP enough to penetrate her thick skin deep enough it warms her carefully frozen self #its so sad. how badly she needs assurance. renee sucks. charlie an emotionally constipated divorcee. and a fuckin. MAN.#bella needs edwards intense ''mate'' connection. because shes so alone. she needs to hear she will be ONE persons priority. forever.#and its god its so sad #i looked over some fics. ''bella swan with a back bone'' and ''bella swan is a self insert'' are the ovherwhelming majority #but of the girl... im tearing up thinking about my girl.. its ok bella... it gets better.....#she was just in high school. like sweetheart it will get better it will get better it will get better. god im #tearing up about bella swan in the club tonight. she was just 17. she couldnt have been in the club but should have been.

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