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jkpng · 9 days

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currently thinking abt surprise hidden track Letter. with surprise jungkook background vocals. and how insane i felt abt a tiny shred of bg vocals . and how those tiny background vocals are the only thing in jks solo era to have an emotional impact on me

#like thats not to say i dont like ANY of his solo songs bc ofc i do #but EMOTIONAL? bro its a drought #letter background vocals can make me cry EASILY if im in the mood #and i cant belivee its background vocals. of all things #one specific part of shot glass of tears ALMOST gets there but not quite. background vocals still beats a whole ass song #feeling rlly bitter abt not liking never let go. like what do u mean theres a new jungkook song and i dont fucking like it #what do u mean theres a new jk festa song and its one of my least favourite songs ive ever heard from all of bts. WHAT THE FUCK #i needed good new jungkook song so bad. i needed a my you pt. 2 so badly. im mentally ill abt my grad ceremony next week I NEEDED IT #I NEEDED ITTTTTTTT. what the fuck bro #ive listened to his whole discography of covers n soundcloud shit so much the mp3 files are worn down to ashes. I NEEDED IT SO BAD #~#awesome i added a bunch more tags to rhis and they just disappeared. fucking whatever #main point was i shouldnt have had such specific expectations for a song similar to my you #and i like plenty of pop and upbeat songs but this house sound has never been my thing #n its just especially disappointing when my current brain status. rlly wanted another my you #just feel sad n shitty abt feeling so let down n disappointed :(

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blairwld · 8 months

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Dark Emma is so silly. She is doing improv.

#like akdjhkgfdskjf #many thoughts. spoilers i guess #but i'm going to start with the fact that her being good this entire time means she is just lying out of her butt and making stuff up #like how much time passed between the curse leaving camelot and them arriving in storybrook #she couldn't have thought of every single detail of her plan #emma crying on the way back while hugging hook: fuck fuck fuck uhhh 'there's no savior anymore'. mm yeah that's good they'll buy that #*emma hearing the sneeze* ''quick just freeze him with a simple spell that regina can easily figure out later''#also it does sound like emma says 'A dark one' instead of 'the dark one'#i don't think the writers thought about that #but it's fun to think of emma unable to forget when she is looking directly at hook #ouat rewatch #i am rambling

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jocelynships · 7 months

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Anyways super fucked up that I’ve gotten more compliments and encouragement on my art from total strangers I talked to for 5 mins than I ever did from my family over 25 years (not counting my sister)

Just. I know I’m separating myself from them but god it fucking hurts I have to find comfort in fictional characters and embarrassing I turn into a sobbing mess in front of their VAs lmao

#like. the VAs have all been really sweet with me when I did cry #and told me to not apologize for it and that they’re glad to contribute to something that means so much to me #but I get embarrassed very easily!!!!#Joce.vent #and Judith Hoag did say ‘ya know what fuck your parents’#bc she said they must be proud of me and I told her ‘No they’re not supportive and kind of awful people I don’t talk to them anymore’#but it’s just kind of sad bc I really wish I did have supportive parents lmao

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shikai-the-storyteller · 1 year

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I somehow didn't catch this during all the chaos from that day but I'm rewatching Forever's conversation with Vegetta, and Vegetta told him: "You're a good person, and a good person knows what their mistakes are. You're a good boy. It's not going to happen again."

#i talk #qsmp talk #and just #I dunno man. that really got to me for some reason #I'm not someone who cries easily at all but this is the second time something related to the server has made me cry #and I don't mean tearing up I mean BIG time crying #which is even rarer for me #It was so sudden too I was literally halfway through a bite of food and I started instantly crying when hearing that #and now my food is COLD agh #Bobby's thing made me cry too but I get because there was so much buildup to it with everyone trying to save him and it was very emotional #but with this I literally just opened up stream and then 10 seconds later Vegetta says this and BAM #[skull emoji]#this post might self-destruct later idk I don't like getting too personal about stuff #I've also been doing so many text posts lately I never used to do that #but this series has made me feel a little bit better lately. or at least my passion for it has made me want to talk and meta like I used to #which is nice #anyways. ya boy's having a rough one I guess

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hecksupremechips · 2 months

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Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’#which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16!#he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’#so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident!#so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

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jarvis-cockhead · 3 months

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#found out last night someone i knew at uni died and its odd. really odd #didnt know them well enough to really feel grief but always intended to hang out with them more #follow each other on spotify & their last listened to artist is one of my favourite bands #i would have liked to have known them better. yeah #really feel for the ppl who were closest to them like im sad but as i said its not like. actual grief #we hear abt other students dying every now and then but its never someone you knew personally or someone whos house you went to #& you meowed at them and they got scared because they said theyre a barking household. and they showed you the dead buzzard in their garden #from which you stole some feathers. and then you went in their fucked up shed that apparently had asbestos #yeah. i just wish id had more opportunities to know them. me and another friend always said we should hang out with them more #man it sucks. which is an understatement rlly but u know #and now its kind of just like. this is a thing that has happened #and i probably wont rlly feel the impact until coming off placement year next year because then ill actually notice that theyre not there #never had anyone in my peer group die before. really fucking weird #really hope theyre at peace now and all. and im glad one of my friends who knew them more i checked in on is doing alright #i mean i say im not grieving but i have cried and am crying but i also cry easily or when i hear people i dont even know have died #but also i do miss them and i wish i could see them again

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transpanda-1 · 1 year

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Whacking KH fans with a newspaper over the head when they insist insist a nobody returning to their other is "dying" when Namine very much stated that the process doesn't make "you" disappear and pretty much all contextual evidence in KH2 points to that too

#chirps #kingdom hearts #sorry we get so easily worked up about this it's just THE GAME SAYS IT! SHE SAID IT LITERALLY!#Roxas and Namine high five when Xemnas bites the dust and say 'hah we showed them! We still exist! Heck yeah!'#they're in the closing cutscene!!!! AAH #we don't mean this even in an alter way like Roxas is still very obviously separate from Sora mentally that kid got NONE of his memories #'Hey why am I crying?' said Sora when talking to people he only just met to his perspective #SEA SALT ICE CREAM

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portablenetworkgraphic · 8 months

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#mom says that the reason she didnt comfort me while i was having one of the biggest meltdowns of my life was cus i wouldnt tell her what was #wrong and i clearly was capable #like i hate to tell you but just because im technically capable doesnt mean i can communicate easily #im too upset to be able to communicate my thoughts to you about why im upset #she literally told me that its annoying when i cry and scream without telling her whats wrong #she said and i quote I could ask anyone in the world and all of them would be annoyed by this #she said if i just said Sorry i cant calm down i cant talk right now that would be fine like hello? is that not fucking obvious?#i said wouldnt this (being a more concerning thing) make you more sympathetic and she said no it just makes me more annoyed and this is the #normal response #she said even when normal people are throwing up and retching they can communicate whats wrong #that im just pretending to not be able to talk to her to manipulate her and that im being disrespectful by intentionally getting louder and #more disruptive #my parents are convinced i do things on purpose to guilt trip them all the time and i dont understand it because theyve known me for #my whole life and thats the most out of character thing i could ever possibly do but they wont even consider that im not doing that #i asked her why she didnt believe me when i said i wasnt manipulating her and she said I do believe you! when did i ever say i didnt #i dont understand. shes convinced that every normal person behaves like her #and the worst of it is i know shes trying her best and yet still refuses to acknowledge the fact that #I DONT FUCKING MAKE MYSELF MORE MISERABLE ON PURPOSE!#she doesnt seem to understand that overreaction can be conscious and still unavoidable #like yes its not like if i tried i absolutely couldnt calm down and talk to you #but thats not helpful! i dont WANT to try because i am screaming so hard that mythroat will be sore for an entire day!#because i am upset!#i am too upset to care that i can tecxhnically stop #i just dont understand why its so hard to believe im not manipulating her when im genuinely upset #i dont understand why she looks at me like a loose screw. something annoying but not something worth fixing #its always bad enough to warrant anger and never bad enough to warrant a solution #because im crazy but im fine and im not disabled at all

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pilotstreets · 1 year

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god. not to be sad online. but im sad online

#um. sorry i went on a really really long rant abt my emotions in the tags. hehehoho im sad!#im just like. there's no way im getting older. i feel like i haven't changed since i was 14 and i feel so disconnected from everything #my birthday is in like 3 weeks but i keep thinking im turning 15 or 16 again and i'll be able to live my teenage years again and #do it right this time or something but no! that's not how that works! obviously!#when my best friend turned 18 she immediately started saying ''im an adult im different im older'' but like #i think about how i'll be 18 soon and im just scared and im going to be holding onto teenage years and #fantasies about them that will never happen and it's just exhausting #i know i sound like such a dramatic teenager but i AM a dramatic teenager!#i had so much shit happen to me that made me lose out on so much of being a teenager and it's like #crushing that i'll never get those years back and other peoples choices ruined my life before i had a chance to have much of one #and i've missed out on so many experiences that all my friends got and i feel such a barrier between me and other people #for that reason and i also feel a disconnect between me and literally everybody i know #and making friends is literally impossible for me anymore and i just feel like i keep losing friends and one day i'll wake up and #i won't have anyone anymore. and i find it hard to talk to people who were my best friends for awhile and i just fall deeper into this #pit of loneliness every day and there's nothing i can do so i just give up. i dunno #im so tired and im just so so lonely and done with. existing #and im also never anybody's first choice which is always annoying but #and it's just.... heartbreaking to think about how my best friend will never choose me when her other best friend is there and #how when we all hang out they're both actually mean to me and there's just nothing i can do other than text my mom and cry #and it makes me doubt how much she cares if she gets that way so easily y'know?#ugh it's all juvenile problems but they just weigh so heavily on me :/#okay enough oversharing online for the night im going to sleep now. then tomorrow i'll just #have the same thoughts and it'll only get worse

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isekyaaa · 1 year

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Where are you getting the spoiler info about Kaveh and Alhaitham??? I'm so curious because of your analysis. lol. I haven't really started playing anything in the current version. - @mimi-cee-genshin

He’s not in the current version yet, but my curiosity kept killing me HAHA. Here you go!

Admittedly I haven’t done a proper analysis on Kaveh yet to understand his motivations. I’ve been stuck in Alhaitham brainrot mode as of late HAHAhaha….. orz

#interactions #I went on that rant analysis yesterday bc I got a text from my kaveh-like friend #she texted me abt how she’s gonna be thirty but she’s still single and ‘when is it gonna be her time’#i think she wanted me to agree and cry along with her #but instead i was just #’in order to get into a relationship you actually have to like… go out and meet people and be proactive’#she hasn’t done that in like more than five years #i love you but why should i console you on something that’s you’re fault and you can easily fix #*your #god we are alike #i can’t just listen to people and console them #i need to fix the problem #i dislike seeing people in pain so people that force me to continuously watch them be in pain makes me just….#i start getting more and more blunt haha #i have so much to say abt this from alhaitham’s point of view bc this literally has been my life these past 15 years HAHA #I AM FED UP #LET ME BE MEAN AND UNSYMPATHETIC #still don’t like alhaitham tho #but at this point it’s just me being stubborn and in denial

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bo0zey · 1 year

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being the oldest daughter raised by a narcissistic emotionally abusive father is just…👩‍🍳👌💋

#i don’t know why i always end up crying when i know exactly what to expect from him #the constant belittling then turning around and crying victim on how i ‘hurt’ him bc he can’t accept the fact that he did something wrong #i know i shouldn’t expect anything from him but it’s like this stupid fucking useless part of me during these moments is just #so heartbroken and frustrated because it’s not fair the child in me just wants to have a dad that cares and sees her as a human #nobody fuckjng cares if they hurt me and i don’t care if they hurt me either that’s why i hurt me too #he’s supposed to be my dad he’s my only parent left and he never should’ve been a parent to begin #i can’t believe how easily he turns things on me saying it’s my fault i never come talk to him and it’s like how the fuck #you were barely basically nonexistent the first 5 years of my life then barely there from then on out #how could i ever come to you how could i trust you just because i’m your daughter by blood doesn’t mean you’re not a stranger to me #you’re supposed to be the adult you’re my father you’re supposed to come to me and guide me why are you such a helpless fucking child #i do everything on my own i have nothing to say to you just like you have nothing to say to me #small talk only does so much i don’t want to talk to him i don’t care about our relationship #i’m just literally flabbergasted at the audacity he has to gaslight and manipulate me and ply victim when i’m the one he keeps hurting #it just reinforces the idea that my feelings are invalid my feelings have been invalid to him for the past 23years #i wish i was emotionless and unfeeling i wish he didn’t have the power to affect my emotions so strongly #i’m such a little kid i wish my mom was here i wish someone wanted to protect me and talk to me and at least try to understand me #i can’t wait to be dead i just want this to be over i’m just wasting time taking up someone else’s space #i think the only time i’ll be genuinely happy is when i’m dead #i don’t remember the last time i was actually happy unless i’m distracting myself #i’m constantly maladaptive daydreaming and when i’m not i’m at work trying to be a functioning an adult #but as soon as i’m home i’m back in my dream world where i don’t have to think about me at all #when gerard said When i grow up i want to be nothing at All that man read my my mind #ramblings #vent

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volinare · 11 months

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i like. can barely read this. barely any mention of why these disorders develop, how they actually work internally (when that was mentioned in other chapters)

literally multiple times like 'these specific ones are super problematic' (literally used the term problematic.

and some of it is just plain wrong. or works off of a philosophy that not everyone subscribes to. like... ugh. its just.

they talk about personality disorders like if you met someone with one you woudl know immediately and like you shoukd never talk to them or theyll ruin your life.

like theyre describing bpd like these people are like monster time bombs or people with ASPD like they dont have an internal world at all.

like i just dont think 'meanness' or 'lying' should be the basis of any diagnosis. I understand why they are included but so much of behavior is influenced by circumstance.

theres also like, I just noticed this (and the next chap is on therapy so maybe theyll talk about it there) but theres like literally no mention of medications or therapy for ANY of these disorders.

it just makes me so fucking. like.