Actual text conversation between Mikey and Raph
Raph: Ok don't tell Leo about that Makibishi incident.
Mikey: Just bc I'm the youngest doesn't make me a snitch.
Leo: This is the group chat. WHAT DID YOU DO? >:(
Donnie:💀
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Leo angst Any TMNT.
Tw: Death ideation, derealization, implied sh
"How do I tell them, I'm going to die"
Leo pondered as the scene around him was warm and familial. His brothers surround him, Michaelangelo cracking jokes, Donatello reflecting on tech performance, Raphael offering suggestions and Splinter listening eagerly to all of them.
All except Leo who fell quiet that night and the nights before. An uneasiness started to consume him, slowly but surely. Any waking moment it catches up to him, training, missions, meditation, and even family dinner. Deafening silence detaches him from his own body.
He lost his appetite a week ago yet he still eats around them so they don't worry, he would have forgotten to eat if it wasn't for them. If it wasn't for them he would have fallen mute too. He had no problem speaking to them on missions, but really having a conversation has been getting more difficult to say the least.
"If it wasn't for me we wouldn't have suffered so much"
"I have dishonored you "
"I don't deserve to live."
"I've been falling behind."
"I don't deserve this."
And more thoughts like that swam through his mind like turtles in a pond, coming up to the surface to bask. And while they bask he finds a way to drown them out, filling the waters of his mind with techniques and training. His body becomes numb to the pain and overexertion, anything to ignore the thought of his own downfall or even speed up the process. Despite all the training and times of relative peace, new scars scatter his body. He kept secret the ones of his own design.
It starts to consume him once more, a cold sensation starting from his center traveling up his spine. It was all he could feel. A feeling worse than pain. "I could stop this, you know" Leo offered to himself. "No, I don't deserve such mercy, yet" he argued back, unconsciously positioning his hands to the kuji-kiri, Rin and Kai.
"Leonardo, my son. Is there anything troubling you"
Splinter's words snap him back to the sewers,
"I'm fine, Sensei" Leo lied
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