#apologies this is also an ooc meme but also happens to be on point for a silly dipshit kamakiri's in love with so

[coollyinterferes]

"Back by unpopular demand:"

"Us!"

[nawoken]

How will the NRC boys react when you overblot with the thought of suicide?

I don't know what I am doing, but since many people are interested in Suicide Overblot Reader, I will write something for it then. Reference to this post.

I think I will try to do all of them. I hope...

Some might be OOC because I don't understand their character enough (Trey and Cater in this post case), sorry if it bothers you guys.

I don't really write it as platonic or romantic, try to keep it neutral so u can read it the way u want?

Warning: Mention of suicide, self-destructive, angst, depression(?), blood,... a bit heavy thought I guess?

Part: Hearslabyul

Riddle

- When he reaches Ramshackle and sees you got overblot, he is uneasy but still remains calm and serious.

- Slightly think that part of this is his fault for not paying more attention to you. He knows that you had to bear a lot of things lately, with school, with Crowley's unreasonable quest,...

- But, he has to stay strong, he has to, he is a Housewarden after all.

- But... when Riddle sees you hurt yourself, he is stunned and terrified. This can't be happening, it shouldn't be.

- He hears your faint cries about your insecurities, your fear of being a burden... and your wish to disappear.

- It makes him heartache, wonder what has made you reach this point. Then, it hit him, every word he told you when you guys first knew each other, before his overblot, and before he changed.

- This must be his fault, he has hurt you... Riddle lost in his guilt, almost overblot right then and there.

- Even Trey can't pull him back to reality, but Ace's punch can.

- "Stop blaming yourself, don't you want to save them?" It actually helps Riddle calm down.

- Riddle braced himself, he had to make it right, so he could apologize to you properly.

- You got him traumatized. And you guys will also have a longgg conversation after things end.

Trey:

- He is... a lil bit shocked and worried about the situation. But, years of taking care of Riddle and his maturity helped him stay calm.

- Even when you hurt yourself, he only flinches a bit before pulling out his pen and trying to destroy the black inky thorns without hurting you.

- Things get worse when Riddle loses his sanity and starts to blame himself while Ace and Deuce lose their cool, kicking and fighting to get to you.

- Try to calm Riddle down. But it's no use.

- Ace's outbursts still make him surprised every time, but at least things have become more stable. They can focus on the main problem now.

- He keeps calm through it all, but when everything comes to an end, he falls to the ground and exhales all his built-up tension.

- He will check in on you a lot more. Reaching out to you, asking about your day, and baking you a lot of treats. Become your figure mother at some point...

Cater:

- Like Trey, being the third-year he is, Cater is much more mature and reliable than he seems.

- Use his unique magic, protect the first year, and even try to lighten the mood while keeping an eye on you.

- He is not too worried since everyone is gathering here, to save you! So nothing can be wrong... right?

- The moment he sees the blood splatter out of your body, he inhales sharply and trembles slightly before turning around to block the view of the freshmen.

- But he fails to keep them from the view, so now Ace and Deuce go berserk. At least Epel and Jack are still sober enough to hold the duo back.

- Multitasking. Become much more serious.

- After it all, he won't force you to tell him things but he will talk with you a lot more, maybe about this funny meme or some new trend on Magicam. Do his best to make you laugh.

Ace:

- He first tries to joke about this when he sees you in your oveblot form. Act cool and funny but can't hide his care for you. Swear that he will knock you on your head a few times for making them worry sick.

- The moment you hurt yourself? Ace and Deuce tried to rush toward you but got held back by other first-years.

- Scold you, told you to stop hurting yourself, and even threatened that if you don't stop he will fight you...

- Also scold you for being stupid. Yes, you're magicless but you also have survived many life-or-death situations that even a pro mage can't. You're not useless!!!

- Asked Riddle to do something just to find out his dorm leader is having a mental breakdown right there.

- He punches Riddle (the second time), how can he act like that when you're still in danger?!

- Ace also cooled down after that, he left the job of returning you to normal to the Dorm leader while helping others destroy those blot-made thorns to prevent them from hurting you.

- You guys will have to talk a lot after this, and you know can't avoid it, Prefect.

Deuce:

- His face turned pale the moment he saw you. Out of anyone, he doesn't think you're the one who got overblot.

- Especially when you stab yourself, he lost his mind. The moment he runs out to you, Epel holds him back. Others told him to calm down, to make a plan.

- But, Deuce can't even hear a word, all he can hear is your whimpering and the scene of the thorns lunging through your flesh keeps playing in his mind.

- Like Riddle, he also blames himself. The difference is that he blames himself for not looking out for you more. You guys have been friends since the beginning and you are always taking care of them, but they have failed to do so for you.

- The guilty feeling building up inside him made him mad, he wanted to punch, to fight, to take his anger out on something.

- After the "fight" between Riddle and Ace went off, Deuce finally calmed down.

- After things end, the moment you back to normal, he will immediately run to you and hold you close, afraid that if he lets go, you will disappear.

- Says sorry to you again and again...

- Become a bit paranoid and protective after your suicide attempt.

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5.C: This took me forever to finish, now I have 17 more to finish. Gotta say, Riddle is the easiest person to write about.

[the-haunted-office]

To clarify: Doom is absolutely still going to be a troublemaking little shit and terrorize people. That part of her has not changed. That's a core piece of who she is. It's just that she's not going to go out of her way to antagonize people anymore where it's not really necessary.

To give an example - a lot of this applies to like when you're making an ooc post about your muse and Doom has some kind of smartass comment to make about it, a lot of times she'll pop into your inbox to antagonize your muse over it. It's meant to be fun and not meant to cause any kind of harm or frustrations for you, the mun, but I've found that sometimes it does, and I've never meant for that to happen. So that kind of thing I'm going to try really hard to cut back on. If I forget and slip up on occasion, I apologize - it's a habit I've formed due to the nature of The Stanley Parable as a fandom, but I don't want to push that kind of thing on other people, especially those who don't know TSP as well and where it's unwelcome. So, fourth wall breaking kind of things is mostly where this applies.

It also applies a lot when I see you've reblogged an ask meme prompt and there's a funny sentence starter or action prompt that fits for Doom antagonizing your muse. I'm going to refrain from sending those kinds of things in UNLESS you specifically WANT me to send those in. BUT seriously, I SERIOUSLY need specific permission from you to send those in. I'm not going to be sending those in otherwise, or at least I don't plan to, unless I accidentally send one in because I forgot since it's such a habit for me at this point. I'm really going to try not to, though.

But other than that, she absolutely is still a smartass and troublemaker in the sense that in like starter threads and the sort, she might sneak around and break into banks and act like she's still a ghost and things like that. It just won't be excessive or to the degree of bullying anymore.

If you have any questions, as always, please do reach out.

[doriangray-irl]

salutations,

❧ dorian gray, he/they

❧ aesthete, hedonist, muse

❧ source: the picture of dorian gray by oscar wilde

❧ 18+ only, please

i am rather new to this site, but everyone here seems quite charming! i hope you all could forgive me if i were to muddle something up.

i adore receiving mail, but i simply ask that you do not bore me. other than that, i assure you that there is no topic too taboo, no question too outlandish, no interaction too scandalous. scandal and i are intimate friends, as it so happens. only, please remain respectful, or i will throw your letter in the rubbish—which would be a terrible waste of stationary for both of us!

i look forward to meeting you all. ♥

regards,

𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐧 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐲.

ooc info!

this is an rp blog (obviously)! so asks, games/memes, in-character rp, etc are all welcome!

it takes place in an au where dorian has not killed basil or at some point in the book before that (that nebulous time skip between chapters 10 & 11). sibyl is also alive. dorian would be about 25 years old right now.

i am very new to running an rp blog (and new to tumblr in general) so please be patient! i’m just a little guy!!

would love to interact with other characters from tpodg or from other oscar wilde works! i’ve read the importance of being earnest, salomé, and the fairytales (though those last two might not make a whole lot of sense timeline-wise oops), but would be willing to interact with others if you can pardon my ignorance :)

no dorian doubles, please!

apologies if i am slow to respond, life is a thing etc etc.

tags:

#asks — asks i’ve responded to

#interactions — interactions w/ others’ muses

#ooc — out of character (either to answer

#🪞 — art depicting dorian

#me core — …self explanatory, i think

#my room — aesthetics of dorian’s house

#basil’s studio — aesthetics of basil’s studio/house

#henry’s house — aesthetics of henry’s house (had to fight the urge to tag it as ‘harry’s house’ lol)

#my attic — the less pretty stuff

#i am too fond of looking at art to care to make it — not my art

as a final note, i have read both the full published version of the novel and the uncensored version submitted to lippincott’s a year before, so if there are any discrepancies in anything i say please let me know.

aaand i think that’s it! my askbox is “dear dorian,” and it’s open!

[knightinoldarmor]

— blog updates

I apologize for tagging you all and bothering you once again for my shitty reasons, but since this is an important update to my blog ( I'm remaking without remaking ), I wanted you all to know what happens and how I'll be running this blog from that point on. ( I'm moving blogs to sideblogs so I can't follow you to let you know I'm moving them )

As some of you may have noticed, I'm moving my muses to separate blogs. That's a kind of system I was using a long time ago and I'm using once again now. How that works, you'll ask. Some of my muses are hosted on separate sideblogs, but I'll still be running this blog as a multimuse/hub blog. Everything will remain the SAME, I'll still be sending asks from knightinsourarmor, like calls, reblog visuals/quotes/aesthetic from different muses/fandoms. What has changed is that the writing has moved to a sideblog for each muse. I wanted them to still be tied to this blog but have a place on their own with their aesthetic, headcanons etc. ( their vibe if you get me ).

With that system, you can follow the sideblogs you want and see content only from the muses that interest you ( cool huh? ). Kind of like, little rooms my muses are hosted at, but still on the same house.

Now, to get to the point.

Todoroki Shoto and Levi Ackerman, my most active and developed muses have moved to singlemuse blogs ( different accounts, I can like content and follow back from there ). That's a decision I made because Shoto and Levi are developed to the point the rest of my muses can't catch up. They have far too many verses, can fit almost to any plot, and deserve the amount of attention I'd give on a blog on it's own.

The rest of my primary and secondary muses have moved to SIDEBLOGS tied to this blog. As for tertiary, private and test (low activity muses) they will REMAIN on this blog. This blog will also be the place I post ooc content, updates, headcanons, rp memes, reblog stuff I find notable from the rest of my blogs. So I suggest you don't unfollow even if there's only one muse you are interested in.

Despite the many blogs, knightinsourarmor will always remain the main I run. You can still treat this blog as a multimuse, tag this url to stuff, send me asks here etc.

As for urls, since I know from experience it's difficult to remember a bunch of blogs one person only runs, I've made them all have a common word, end to ‘–baund’. That way, if a sideblog appears on your dash/notes and you don't know who this is, you'll remember this blog is connected to knightinsourarmor.

Now, because of that, activity of some muses have changed. Below is a list of my muses (+crossover verses), and where they are hosted at: ( my muses page needs updating, and I'll get to it soon )

Singlemuse Blogs: Todoroki Shoto ( @lightbaund ), Levi Ackerman ( @darknessbaund )

arcane: mel medarda ( @visionbaund ), silco ( @fearbaund ), vi (violet) (here), levi ackerman (crossover, enforcer)

bnha: todoroki shoto (singlemuse at @lightbaund ), todoroki toya ( @rejectionbaund ), amajiki tamaki (here), cassiel hart (bnha oc) ( @griefbaund ), levi ackerman ( crossover, hero), kambe daisuke (crossover, detective)

bsd: oda sakunosuke (here), levi ackerman (crossover, ada member)

fkb:u: kambe daisuke (here)

kny: levi ackerman (crossover, demon slayer), mikaela hyakuya (crossover, demon slayer/demon)

miraculous: adrien agreste (here)

noragami: levi ackerman (crossover, shinki)

ons: mikaela hyakuya ( @humanitybaund )

snk: levi ackerman (singlemuse at @darknessbaund ), reiner braun ( @guiltbaund ), mikasa ackerman ( @familybaund ), kuchel ackerman ( @emptinessbaund )

servamp: licht jekylland todoroki (here), todoroki shoto (crossover, vampire)

spy x family: todoroki shoto (crossover, imperial scholar)

spn: castiel ( @freedombaund ), levi ackerman (crossover, hunter), todoroki shoto (crossover, hunter/half monster), mikaela hyakuya (crossover, vampire)

tbhk: tsuchigomori ryuujirou ( @futurebaund )

private (portrayed on this blog only ): violet evergarden, ishida shoya, oda sakunosuke

It's a pain in the ass, I know, but you don't need to remember anything, only follow the blogs you are interested in for the content you want to appear on your dash. Like I said, I will keep this blog as a main, so remembering this blog only is fine.

[p-receh]

For an April fool's game, they have no right to make this good...but they still did it.

IT'S SOOOO UNBELIEVABLY GOOD LIKE HOLY HECK?!

Where do I start? Okay, history-ish lesson time.

This is not the first time that Sonic's PR team make a game specifically for an april fool's joke. During Aaron's era, there was an infamous website game titled 'Big's Big Adventure 3'. And as the name suggests, it tells a story of how Big showed up in random places like you might/might not see him as a cameo during the SA2 event.

Same format as TMoSTH, a visual novel style game with uh....flappy bird-inspired game, and of course the fishing segment as sub content.

And that's it. I like the story not gonna lie. I enjoy playing it. Full of meme content. But the existence of the game itself was huge in 2016. It may not be the best thing to re-live it in this era in my opinion.

I bet the website is down now but you can still watch some playthroughs from youtube though.

And after seven years, the new Sonic PR team create a game for another april fool's joke. But this time....I don't think this is not full of memes to be laughing by the community. It's...unexpectedly something else.

Sure the highlight of the trailer first and foremost: "Sonic is dead" was a real deal. It was all over the internet even though you were not active on sonic at that time.

I personally didn't watch the trailer yet I knew that highlight. So I play it blindly without any knowledge of what the hell happened before this existed.

But as I open the game, I was shocked. It starts with deep and slow music like typical mystery games you played, great art designs, and a nice choice of colors that encapsulated the title itself. Simple, yet the qualities that represent are almost like it was not made for such a free game, even as a joke for that day.

I have yet to start the game but it left me with such an impression.

I love everything about this game. They nailed every. single. one! Even with each traits that were being misrepresented by fandom, somehow corrected to their very core! What is this? What in the world am living right now??

And this is one of the stories that I want to read in fan fiction. Just a group comes together creating unexpected events or just doing their normal life. Whether Eggman got in the way or not is up to you. It has silly and quirky moments freely.

The jokes landed perfectly without making them OOC. In fact, I got a bunch of new headcanon from that game. It has so many memorable scenes that you might already see most of them on the internet.

For the protagonist, yes I can confidently say I related to Barry that much. Even at some point, I felt I was inside the train surrounded by these extravagant abnormal people. I truly thought every response that Barry had was exactly like mine if I was in that scenario. (looking at you Tails)

For a mystery game, I kinda think how they summarize the whole case cooouuld have been better. The sub-ones did a great job to wrapped up the messes. I don't hate the whole problem tho. I actually adore it. Hmm, I might need to replay it again soon and see if it could change my mind about it.

Mini-games! It might be my personal bias so apologize for my taste. If I want to, they should add an additional setting to adjust Sonic's position. I struggled A LOT during mini-games. God why Tails had to toss every thinking section to me, please stop T_T.

For Music... wow I didn't prepare how well thought out this music has. The ost of this game is uniquely true to its theme and It still stuck in my head for days. The theme song and the interrogation section are my favorites. Some mini-game section is also catchy and upbeat!

Artstyle! Oh I loooove the design throughout the game. Each character got well design clothes that are creative and also stay true to their character with a bonus to the lore of the story! Deegeemin has my list as one of fav sonic artists.

Conclusion?

please play the game

[ddyfckr-a]

if  i  ever  seem  curt  when  talking  ooc,  i  apologize.

i  have  been  in     &.     out  of  the  fandom  scene     &.     tumblr  for  a  little  over  a  decade.     at  this  point.     i'm  at  an  age  where  i  don't  have  the  energy  for  a  lot  of  these  things  anymore.     i  am...     afraid  of  reaching  out     &.     forming  bonds.     i  have  realized  that  this  is  evidently  my  fault.

i  am  always  eager  to  jump  in  with  a  writer     &.     make  stories,  exchange  plot  lines,  do  rapid  fire  roleplays,  bur  it  always  starts     &.     ends  the  same  way :     we're  both  invested,  we  make  all  these  scenarios,  we  exchange  in  depth  metas,  we  share  videos,  images,  memes  that  remind  each  other  of  our  characters,  we  talk  every  day  for  several  hours  on  end  etc  etc.

but  somewhere  along  the  line,  i  lose  them.     the  other  person's  interest  dwindles  until  i'm  trying  to  light  up  the  spark  in  them  again.     responses  become  less  enthusiastic,  less  detailed,  until  all  i'm  left  with  is  one  word  responses  or  even  just  emoji  reactions.     until  one  day,  i  realize  we  haven't  spoken  in  several  months,  sometimes  close  to  a  year     &.     it's  not  for  a  lack  of  trying  on  my  end.     i  leave  detailed  plots  or  messages.     or  sometimes  just  me  trying  to  check  in.     &.     i  get  crickets,  because  by  that  point,  the  person  has  already  moved  on  to  something  else.

it  sucks.

what  trips  me  out  is  that  this  doesn't  happen  once  or  maybe  twice  from  the  same  fandom.     this  has  happened  in  several  fandoms,  with  several  different  people,  at  different  stages  of  my  life,  playing  with  different  characters.     logically,  if  it  the  same  thing  keeps  happening  to  you  at  several  different  times  of  your  life  with  several  different  people,  that  tells  you  that  you're  the  problem.     but  it's  frustrating  because...     i  never  quite  know  how  to  make  it  better,  how  to  fix  it.

a  recent  incident  has  also  led  me  to  the  conclusion  that,  just  generally  speaking,  i'm  not  really  likable.     the  other  person  was  apparently  looking  forward  to  writing  with  me,  until  they  realized  that  i  was  someone  they  already  knew,     &.     all  of  a  sudden,  i  don't  hear  anything  from  them  anymore.     &.     i'm  not  saying  that  to  get  pity  points  or  anything,  even  in  real  life,  i've  been  told  that  i  can  come  across  really  blunt,  rude  or  selfish.     i've  been  trying  to  adjust  my  behaviors,  because  i  never  mean  ill  intent,  perhaps  my  personality  may  be  off  putting.

but  again,  it  becomes  frustrating  because  i  don't  know  what  exactly  to  do.     what  exact  behaviors  to  adjust.     previous  experiences  has  shown  me,  apparently  i'm  likable  to  a  point.     but...     then  stuff  happens,     &.     suddenly  i'm  not  interesting  anymore,  i'm  boring,  i'm  repetitive.     &.     yet  i  see  other  people  acting  the  same  way  i  do     &.     they  don't  seem  to  have  the  same  issues,  regarding  writing     &.     interacting / roleplaying  with  others.     

i  just  don't  understand.

people  tell  you  it's  natural,  not  everyone  can  talk  about  the  same  thing  for  several  years  on  end     &.     yet,  i  can't  help  but  look  with  envy  to  those  that  have  these  strong  friendships  that  last  years  on  end     &.     they  can  indeed  talk  about  the  same  ships     &.     the  same  plots     &.     everything.

so  i  feel  stuck,  tired     &.     not  really  eager  to  make  new  bonds  because  i  know  it'll  end  up  the  same  way.     i  just  came  out  of  this  very  situation.     i  had  a  roleplay  partner  on  discord     &.     we  spoke  for  about  just  a  little  over  two  years  about  our  ship,  but  then  gradually,  it  started  to  dwindle.     they  stopped  reaching  out,  they  stopped  getting  excited  to  see  me,  they  stopped  checking  up  on  me,  even  when  i  would  still  do  the  same  in  return.     &.     the  crazy  part  is  that,  with  all  these,  i'm  never  blocked,  i'm  never  '  broken  up  with',  these  people  are  theoretically  still  my  friends,  but  whenever  i  try  to  reach  out,  it's  like  i  have  to  reintroduce  myself  all  over  again.     it  hurts  because,  i  may  have  been  easily  forgetful  for  them,  but  for  me ?     i  remember  them,  i  go  back  to  our  messages     &.     i  read  them     &.     i  have  them  ingrained  in  my  head  because  they  are  people  that  i  want  to  talk  with     &.     continue  engaging  with.     but  the  feeling  is  apparently  never  mutual.

so  this  has  led  me  to  where  i  am  now,  where  i  do  want  to  roleplay,  i  DO  want  to  interact,  i  WANT  to  be  happy  to  get  excited  without  the  feeling  of  dread,  but  the  pain  of  potentially  going  thru  the  same  experience  is  too  much  for  my  mental  health,  so  i  just  keep  to  myself.     maybe  i  can  learn  to  hype  MYSELF  up,  to  get  excited  over  my  own  ideas  i  stead  of  seeking  constant  validation.     it  would  be  so  much  easier  for  me  if  i  didn't  care  for  interaction,  because  then  i  could  just  write  all  the  fanfiction  ideas  i  have,  but  have  no  motivation  to  write.     

but  i  do  crave  that  interaction,  so...     i  just  think  it's  best  if  i  keep  everything  to  a  minimum.     thus,  if  you  have  tried  to  reach  out  to  me     &.     i  don't  seem  that  receptive,  please  understand  that  it's  literally  not  you,  it's  me.     i'm  just  trying  to  keep  myself  guarded  for  my  own  mental  health,     &.     i'm  not  as  diligent  as  i  used  to  be  with  messages.     inbox  is  always  open,  starter  calls  are  obviously  open  if  i  post  them  etc.     this  isn't  to  announce  that  i'm  changing  anything,  this  is  more  of  an  explanation  as  to  why  i  am  the  way  i  am.

thank  you  for  reading  xx

[aparticularbandit]

Do you not ship Agatha x Wanda? Because reading your replies to the ship meme asks really makes it seem as though you truly do not like the ship at all.

Your headcanons for them read like they don’t even like one another, let alone anything more. Like it’s a horrible chore for them to even be in the same space as one another.

Reading your answers was just… like you really dislike the ship and rather than just say you don’t ship them together and giving the asks a pass, you chose to write super negative answers to people that do ship them.

It come across like you really don’t like Wanda, so you’ve morphed her into something entirely ooc and shitty towards Agatha, to scratch whatever itch of severe dislike you have for her.

Obviously everyone’s free to ship/not ship whatever they want and everyone has their own personal headcanons for characters/ships… but you could have just said you don’t like the Harximoff ship or/and dislike Wanda, and said ‘pass’ on the meme for them, rather than have people that obviously do like the ship reading all of… that.

I think, when dealing with Agatha and Wanda as they currently are in canon, there are a lot of hang-ups and obstacles to overcome in terms of their being in a romantic relationship.

Agatha did use Wanda’s children to manipulate her into a space where she didn’t have magic and then forced her to relive some very traumatic events in her life.  She then proceeded to try and steal her magic and kill her, as well as forced her to see what she was doing in the Hex in one of the more traumatic ways possible (being mobbed by citizens who would rather die than what you’re doing to them?  Not fun!  Seeing your husband and kids slowly disintegrate when you decide to let the citizens you’ve been accidentally torturing go?  Also not fun!).

Wanda did lock Agatha in her own mind for what is at least a year and a half at this point, if not longer by the time CoC comes out, stripping her of all bodily autonomy and potentially subjecting her to the exact same torture that we know she (accidentally) exerted on the citizens of Westview (depending on how you read the spell cast on Agatha - whether she modified it or not).

These are some pretty big obstacles to overcome.

So it’s less about whether or not I ship them - I do, definitely, depending on how they’re written, depending on how they get there - and more about this baggage is there, and they either deal with it or they don’t - and honestly, I don’t think they do.

I love Wanda, actually, but I’m aware that she is vengeful and left Agatha hating her.  It would take a lot for her to overcome that, no matter what Agatha did or did not do, and Agatha gets that.  At the same time, Agatha would be trying to avoid literally having her bodily autonomy ripped from her again because Wanda can - and has - done that to her before.

So like - there’s a toxicity implicit in the way I think that ship would happen in canon, and that toxicity and difficulty pops up in my ship answers.  I do think they can get to a much healthier place eventually, but it takes a lot and it has to overcome the deep distrust they have of each other and the deep hatred that Wanda has towards Agatha.

I have a hard time shipping them in canon without dealing with those complicated issues.  I apologize if it comes across as being cruel to those who ship them.  That’s not my intent.

[zorkaya-moved]

deeply apologize for my ooc posting and my reposting of memes over and over again. won't lie, i need to get my shit together and I'll stop doing that. sometimes happens when I'm overwhelmed irl and welp. that just happens. i'm gonna just do what I wanna do and chill out here but I think I overdid it with memes. on this note, prolly gonna close my inbox and restart my queue. this isn't just an apology to my dash, but also to myself for letting myself get overwhelmed to the point of affecting my reposting and constant reblogging. in reality, it stresses ME out the moment I understand what I've been doing lmao. my organization brain is like 'girl wtf' but anyways. gonna work. :')

[karmabcmb]

Guidelines

Hello there! Here we are again, because I love this muse and refuse to let him be ruined. A bit of craziness made me leave, three times, and it's not going to happen again. I've decided to tweak the rules a little bit, reword things a little and whatnot, so I'll apologize now if things sound harsh, but...well, that's a small apology, because apparently harsh is what I need to do. So, here goes:

This is an independent blog. I like to avoid any sort of fandom drama, and even though I know the inFamous crowd is relatively small nowadays, I'm still going to say I'm not directly affiliated with them.

I don't do OOC drama. If you're the type to start it, or enjoy being involved in it, good for you but please keep it away from me.

If you don't like something I'm doing, the unfollow button exists. The block feature exists. Use them. If it's something I can work on, by all means, I am willing to talk about it like adults, but otherwise? Move along.

On the subject of fandoms: I do not care which you're in, or whether I know a single thing about it. I am very open to crossovers and absolutely adore writing the most unlikely of meetings, or creating verses and exploring different aspects of my muse when he's centered in another universe, and so forth. Please, come at me!

The same goes for OCs. I don't expect OCs to be perfectly polished and whatever. A lot of aspects can show and solidify as they interact with other characters and situations, and I am all about being part of that. So, yeah, OCs? Bring 'em here, let me love them.

Shipping: As much as I want to, I'm not going to say that I won't ship on this blog. Things happen, muses mesh - I'm not going to shoot it down if the chemistry is there and everyone is on board. Just know I'm...a little gun shy, so to speak, about shipping this muse, so it might take me a bit to really get behind it. Once I do, though, god help you. I will bombard you with random crap about our ship until you're absolutely sick of me.

Please do not force ships. That is all.

Replies may be slow. I work a lot, but I'll always try to pop on at least once a day. Whether I just lurk, send memes, or actually write, though... it'll vary by day. Patience is appreciated.

Minor godmodding is okay. Things like, assuming my muse passed yours something when prompted in a thread is generally okay. If I had a different plan, I'll definitely let you know but for the most part, it's cool. Anything more than that, and it'll be a problem

I will not write with anyone under 18. I myself am 21+ and it weirds me out, so for my own comfort, I prefer not to write with minors. Also, I am not going to shy away from subjects that may venture into 'adults only' territory - I'm not against smut, if things work out for it, down for violence and foul language, dark themes, and so on - so that's yet another reason I say 18+. Do not lie about your age. If I find out you have, I will block you, no questions asked.

I read everyone's rules and about pages, if they're available. Common courtesy, as far as I'm concerned, so I always make a point to do so.

Mutuals are welcome to my Discord, Telegram, Steam, etc., If they would like. Just hit me up and I'll be happy to give you my handle. Let me know who you are, though, if you add me, just so I don't have to play 'creep or not creep'.

I'm not gonna make you send in a password or anything to interact with me. Instead, I'm gonna do a little thing: if you're feeling up to it, throw a word at me in an ask, and I will write a little starter for our muses based around that word. Not a requirement, but hey, we're all here to write together, right? Let's kick it off right away!

And that should do it! Thanks for taking a second to read through these, and I look forward to writing with you all!

[thiswaycomessomethingwicked]

7, 8, 9 and 14 for the fic asks! Also, I absolutely love your writing and I wish you the best!

Awww thank you so much! I'm glad you enjoy it! 😊

7. Something you hate to see in dialogue.

I don't know that there's anything I particularly hate. Or, nothing has jumped out at me where I'm like "OH GOD HOW COULD THEY"

I suppose, there are times when there hasn't been enough tag-ins of who is speaking so I have to go back to the top and reread the section. But that's more a style thing.

Oh, dialects/modes of speech when written by someone who clearly isn't from that culture/place/peoples and hasn't done the research and so on to do it effectively (e.g. non-southerners trying to mimic southern speech patters and a) assuming the entire south of the US is a single unit that sounds the same and b) not managing to capture the texture of the way people speak). It's mostly that it just throws me off and takes me out of the scene.

8. Something you love to see in dialogue.

A good witty repartee is always enjoyable. I enjoy when action is conveyed through speech, example:

Right. I can’t believe I once thought you clever and worthy of my attention. More fool me, for trusting a thing like you. More fool Théoden, too. No. Don’t sit there. Did I say you could sit? No, I didn’t.

or

'Gods, you're a real louse sometimes, you know that right?'

'Thank you, Downey, you've told me this before.'

'Well, I felt the need to re-inform you of the matter. Now, please move your books, thank you, they were occupying my spot at the table. Don't make that face, DB, it's unattractive.'

That sort of thing. It's very fluid and can be used to capture a more hectic scene without breaking for "and then Vetinari did X" or "and Grima went over here" or what have you.

9. What's your fandom's most overused trope?

(I'm going to speak cross-fandom in this answer because what is over-used shows up in a few of them.)

I'm not a big coffee-shop/high school/university AU sort of person. But I think it's honestly less to do with the settings and more to do with how people are written in those AUs which is usually saccharinely sweet and that drives me a little nuts.

I also find that fandom overdoes the thing with gay couples where one man is, even if it's at a subconscious level, the "woman" and the other is the "man". This leads into that saccharine sweetness that annoys me, it also tends to mean there's a lot of OOC-ness happening. I've found it's a big thing with characters like Krennic, Vetinari, Bilbo, Beckett etc. where they are written in a way that is very out of character but the manner they are written in allows them to be slotted into the "woman" role in comparison to their partner (Tarkin, Vimes, Thorin, Mercer etc.)

Some of this comes from the fact that a lot of writers in fandom struggle to write characters that subvert and transgress certain expectations of gender roles in a way that isn't "they're now a woman." Which is a very layered, complex thing.

And like, I'm sure this is something I've fallen into accidentally myself, but it is a sort-of trope(?) that bugs me and is super common.

14. What aspect of writing have you had the most growth in?

all of it! I would say. I think my writing on the whole has grown tremendously in the past few years. Especially the past three to five, I think.

One of the biggest things that helped me grow, aside from the usual advice of: read, read, read (and read real books! Read widely! Read everything!) was attending writer's workshops.

I'm a writer of non-fanfic things (poetry, short stories, novels [though, those are in the works/being shopped around]) and going to workshops has done amazing things. Almost everything is online now, and there are workshops that are absolutely in the affordable range.

I've also been very fortunate to have a writing mentor for a time who was (and is) a phenomenal poet. One of the most talented writers I know. She, unfortunately, has gone out east to start a cult as pandemic isolation coupled with unresolved trauma that had been resurrected resulted in her going a little Off the Deep End (I have a lot of complex feelings about what happened with her). But prior to that, she was great to work with and helped me a lot.

Also, of course, I've taken a lot of classes and each one has taught me so much (Catapult offers some good online courses. They do cost money, but it's worth it if you can afford it. I think they also have scholarship/financial support options).

Writing poetry is really the thing I can point to that helped me the most with my prose. Night and day. And I suspect the inverse works as well (prose writing helping poets). Learning how form and words and style functions in an art-form that's different teaches you new things to do with your preferred writing method.

But yeah - I think everything has improved. Pacing, plot, description, dialogue etc. I don't think one thing in particular has improved at a greater rate than the others. It's all there.

-

Oh man that last one became a short essay! My apologies!

But thank you so much for the ask and the very kind message 💜😊

fanfic ask meme

[muselexum]

GENERAL ROLEPLAY STYLE & PREFERENCES

BOLD: applies to you. ITALICS: only applies to you sometimes. STRIKETHROUGH: does not apply to you. elaborate on any points you’d like with an *

TYPES OF ROLEPLAY / HOW I DO THREADS 

i don’t. i just do whatever is on my dash when i’m online. mainly asks. i do little short things mostly. i do my threads on discord.* long - running threads that slowly build upon the muses.

*I can make certain exceptions to rp on discord, but if possible my preference will always be tumblr.

PLOTTING PREFERENCES

wing it. get a general idea ooc, run with it and plot further if need be. long expansive thought out arcs.

TYPES OF THREADS I DO / PREFER

one - liners only. whatever dash shenanigans i’m online for. para or multi - para. literal novels.

REPLY SPEED FOR THREADS AND CONSISTENCY KEEPING THREADS

i lose threads all the time and usually get back to them. i tend to lose threads but please tell me if i have and i’ll reply. i drop threads pretty quickly. i’m really slow but i will get back to you. i reply on a schedule / queue.* i usually reply within a week. i reply every day. i reply almost instantly.

*I started doing this because of my semi-hiatus, but I will probably keep using queued replies long term as I like the pacing.

ROMANTIC OR SEXUAL SHIPS

i don’t do these ships. i’m not against them happening but it is not the main point of my blog. ships will have to be discussed a lot ooc. super chemistry based. i love doing ships, hmu i probably already ship it so just ask. i ship really quickly. autoship or ship within a few interactions. i mainly rp for the cute ship fluff or angsty smut.

I’m a bit all over the place when it comes to shipping. There are some muses where I can see the potential dynamic of a ship before even interacting, but in most cases I will warm up to the idea after some time is spent developing it.

The biggest thing when it comes to shipping for me is vibing with the other writer. I know this is vague and I apologize for that, but that’s how I can describe it. If we’re on the same page and most of all if we have similar writing styles, I will be much more inclined to ship. I can’t get myself interested if our writing styles or lengths do not match. OOC communication when it comes to shipping is big for me too. If we don’t engage much ooc and discuss our characters together, the ship itself falls a bit flat to me.

SMUT

i do not do smut at all. i’m very selective about it. i only do it on a separate blog / on discord. i mainly only do asks relating to nsfw headcanons on sundays. i write it a medium amount. i write it all the time and love to. i am comfortable with foreplay and fade - to - blacks but nothing further.

I am completely okay with smut, but I can also get insecure about my smut writing so I tend to be selective with who I write these kinds of threads with. 

When it comes to smut ASKS, I am much less-selective as I treat these as drabble opportunities. I am okay with pretty much anyone sending in smut memes when I reblog them, however I can’t guarantee I will continue the interaction beyond the ask.

I am also okay with exploring most smut themes but because I don’t want to accidentally overstep someone’s boundaries, I am now making it a MUST that we discuss dark or kinkier scenarios beforehand. This is simply a measure to ensure that we’re both on the same page on what the scene is. It personally takes a lot of trust and vulnerability on my end to explore these themes with another writer, and the idea of upsetting an rp partner by mistaking their boundaries is legitimately a nightmare to me.

ACTIVE HOURS

mornings, 8 – 10. midday, 11 – 1. afternoon, 2 – 5. evenings, 6 – 8. night, 9 – 12. ungodly hours of the day, 1 – onwards.

ACTIVITY SCHEDULE

super slow and sporadic, like once a month or so. slow and sporadic, week - long gaps between activity. bi - weekly ish. weekly activity. daily activity.* i’m online nearly all the time. (on mobile)

*I tend to pop in at least once a day just to check up on things, but I will not always reply to messages etc. 

STARTERS

i don’t do starter calls. i want to do starter calls but often don’t have time. i do selective calls. i don’t do calls but always feel free to ask me for one. i post calls rarely, regularly, often.

I don’t do starter calls because I’m uncreative and tend to write similar scenarios for everyone over and over again. If you want to start an interaction hmu ooc or send in any ask meme I’ve reblogged. :)

AUS

i don’t do aus. my blog is an au but outside of that i don’t do them. i sometimes do them but only with a lot of plotting. i have a couple of aus already, feel free to request them. i have aus coming out of my ears, please interact with them. i love making aus, hmu to plot if you think of one. there are some aus i won’t do.

I have quite a few canon-divergent muses so I guess they’re technically AUs, but other than that I am not big on them anymore.

CROSSOVERS

i don’t do crossovers. i’m selective with crossovers. i love crossovers.

[aaetherius]

A tiny update under the cut (one of the personal/mental health/medication variety - it’s not negative, or venting or anything like that)! This is primarily for those I speak to OOC (though can apply slightly to the dash as well)! 

I never know what I should share or not, but I do try to address things when it’s something that impacts things related to threads or ooc communication (plus I sometimes think it can be nice to hear about things sometimes). This isn’t anything bad, more so just a heads up! 

Most of you who I am in ooc communication with know I started medication for my ADHD. I am also on depression medication. The issue being that we’re having a bit of a difficult time getting things to work/work together (I’ve actually always been very resistant to medication for some reason so this isn’t too unusual for me). So tldr, I mostly just want to slide on to say that the medications do influence, greatly, how much social energy I have available. 

The ADHD medication tends to make me more talkative, less tired, and more active on the dash (via ooc posts or just interacting with the dash in general such as sending memes, liking ooc posts, and whatnot). So, when the effects of the ADHD medication are active I can be very social (this is especially true on Discord/if I’m comfortable with someone) - reaching out on Discord/responding to ooc messages/whatnot. Normally I’m pretty shy/reserved and rarely message first ooc because I have terrible social anxiety and don’t wish to be a bother and am usually extremely tired. So I do worry that when I’m in a better and more social mood I might come off as too much as I can type/talk a lot/can be excitable (and sometimes I send cheesy pictures that remind me of people or I think you might like/find funny haha) when I’m usually very mellow, and if I do you are free to tell me you’re not in the mood to talk or just ignore me until you are (you do not have to respond to ooc messages quickly by any means)! So, there are times when I reach out multiple times or days in a row when this is happening. 

And, then, the depression medication does the opposite (see where the issue is coming in hgdufgkf), but helps me with focus/stopping my brain from going 100 miles a minute. It utterly exhausts me to the point where I, someone who has never taken a nap in their life, fall asleep randomly and can stay asleep for hours (aka I can totally pass out mid-conversation, and have fallen asleep at work. Thankfully I am a super light sleeper and pretty functional after just waking up so the phone ringing in my ear is enough to save me hguidflghu). I tend to do more writing when the impacts of this one are stronger. However, I also tend to be very reserved. I may not like things on the dash, send in memes, or might be slow ooc, and I’m very unlikely to reach out ooc first, and may get tired and leave you hanging during a conversation (that said, you’re always free to message me ooc and I will do my best to respond just know if I don’t or if I’m slow or if I stop after a bit it’s not personal, my social energy just died rhgkdu). So, in short, when the depression medication is kicking in, I could go a few days or longer without reaching out to someone if you’re someone I usually speak to/reach out to or, if I seem to like your posts randomly and then there are other times when I do not like them, it’s the medications flip-flopping on me. 

So, we keep trying various things to kind of control it/adjust it as needed. There was a time when I just took the depression meds, and a time when I just took the adhd meds (if I talk to you enough you might be able to guess because I kind of vanished ooc for a bit and I am so sorry gffjgkdgvg). Now we’re trying them at once (in the morning and at night), but that’s making my insomnia flare up despite the depression one being the one at night and tldr there’s a lot going on with figuring out the best system for me and it effects my ooc communication a lot. So, when I’m super active ooc vs when I am not active ooc at all are very random at the moment. Some days I will be, some days I won’t be. I couldn’t tell you the when or the how, we’re trying to get all sorted out, but it’s obviously trial and error.   

So, in short, I just want to say that if I ever go quiet on anyone or I seem to be less active on the dash in terms of things that involve social energy, I’m not mad at anyone and it is very much not personal at all. And, if I’m ever super social and being a bother, I am also sorry, you can always stop responding (there’s never any pressure or even just tell me you’re tired!). I’m me regardless, of course, it doesn’t change anything other than the amount of social energy I have basically which is why sometimes I seem super active on the dash and other times you can message me and I seem dead to the world ghruidfglu. 

Hopefully this explains things well enough/makes sense, I have zero knowledge of how medication works I just know how it impacts me personally so I just tried my best to put words to that so those who speak to me ooc know why I seem to flip-flop between being social and not being social! 

Also not super related, but for some reason I make more typos when the adhd meds are active I have no idea why, you have my apologies for that as well. 

Thank you for understanding, as always! I love all of you very much, and I hope your week is a wonderful one! 

[badassxbirdy]

Edit: I’m having some weirdness with my follow list and discrepancies in who I’m following depending on which platform I’m on. There are some people my tablet says I’m following that my phone says I’m not, so I’m very confused. I haven’t intentionally unfollowed anyone, so please let me know if I’m no longer following you!

If anyone’s softblocked me, my apologies for refollowing. I’m not trying to bother you. Please let me know, or hardblock if you’re more comfortable with that. No hard feelings either way. It’s just hard to tell what’s going on when glitches like this occur. 😅

Activity Update - 7th August

Hello lovely people! I’m a bit late, but it’s time once again for the monthly activity update. These posts help me to keep track of what the frick I’ve been doing, particularly when tumblr breaks or the brainfog strikes. This one only includes activity for July and the first week of August, everything else can be found over on my thread tracker (here). At the time of posting I’m up to to date on things as far as I’m aware, so if I owe you a reply, message, meme, etc, please do let me know!

The full activity update is below the cut. Bolded text = links.

If you want to see all IC interactions without the other stuff, click here. If you’d like to start something new, I have opens, memes, and a wishlist, or message me if you have a plot in mind! Alternatively you can just message me to say “WHAT UP, NERD” if you’d like to chat.

A quick OOC note before we get into the update proper: I’m going to be staying with family for a couple of months. During that time I’ll be on mobile and so won’t be able to use xkit for cutting posts. I’ll be tagging threads with my new mobile tag, which is “mobile post: Em’s on the move” and “long post” when needed. Block/filter those tags accordingly if the mobile reblogs become annoying to see on the dash. Now onto the update!

Threads, replies, and all other IC interactions:

A very confusing conversation - @harkcr

Mutual sass. - @kxllerblond

Jail meme, because our idiots can’t keep out of trouble. 😂 - @schwarzerengeltm

“Easy, there. Try to sit up.” (Deacon) - @wolfhymns

First meeting meme: bar - @real-michael-demiurgos

Awkward cuties! - @heavenguided

“If you’ll put your nose any deeper into that coffee cup, you’re gonna need a snorkel.” (Dylan) - @normallyxstrange

Extremely important food questions. (crack) - @deliciouslyfilthytm

“I was just trying to help.” (Casey) - @normallyxstrange

“What are you doing?!” - @schwarzerengeltm

“Does it still hurt?” (Mason) - @normallyxstrange

“You’re being followed.” - @kiingstech

Freedom! And punches from Tyler. - @schwarzerengeltm

“Wait a minute, you’re blaming me?!” (Carla) - @normallyxstrange

“Are you following me?” (Jamie) - @normallyxstrange

OTP reunion time! 😭 (Killian) - @nightiingaled

Ty is a brat and also in jail. (bodyguard!Killian) - @nightiingaled

Addiction Lyrics - @buggeredson

Lilith makes good points while Tyler refuses to listen. - @magaprima

“Sorry. Manners. I’m Fish.” - @the-immortals-assistant

“This right here is like putting holy water on a demon.” (Mason) - @normallyxstrange

“If you believe in any god, I suggest praying to them now.” - @the-immortals-assistant

“Get down!” (Mason) - @normallyxstrange

*Narrator voice* Caroline did not seem fine. - @seesgood

Interception (Than) - @nightiingaled

An abandoned house… oh, and a murder. - @hcartcfstcne

Under arrest. - @hcartcfstcne

“What the hell is wrong with you?” (Drevyn) - @wolfhymns

“Your mind. It’s… what happened to you?” (v: Walker and Hyde) - @intensediscipline

“You should see the other guy.” - @avengingxmarine

“Fuckin’ werewolves…” (Damon and grownup!Ty) - @schwarzerengeltm

bby!Ty gets stuck in a tree because of course she does. 🤦‍♀️ - @schwarzerengeltm

Tyler 👀 is 👀 suspicious. 👀 - @tobeblamed

Headcanon memes, crack, and various silliness:

Drabbles - here and here, heed the content warnings.

The nickname that hardly anyone is allowed to use. Despite it being her url. 🤦‍♀️

Sarah needs a demon dick intervention, I judge her life choices, and other dash commentaries.

Tyler is ANGY as usual. 😤

Incorrect quotes meme: Damon

Additions to Ty’s strawberry collection.

Ty’s reaction when Mel gets a papercut.

Ty and Damon now have a broship tag and I love it. ❤️

Only SHE is allowed to call her friends names. 😤

On behalf of my muse, I would like to formally apologise to Damon’s blood pressure.

OOC housekeeping:

Thank you to everyone who has been vaccinated this month. ❤️

Thank you for bearing with me and my fluctuations in writing quality. Chronic illness is rollercoaster y’all.

I’m likely going to start defaulting to small text for my threads as I find it easier to read on my phone. I’m on mobile only access currently, but even when I’m not I most often write up drafts on the app, and then post/queue them once I get to a PC. The smaller option being easier to read feels counterintuitive, but 🤷‍♀️.

There won’t be any other changes to formatting. If you’d prefer I use the normal text size when replying to you, let me me know and I will do so!

A PSA regarding character development threads.

Because this blog is Old As Fuck™️ I’m adding a throwback tag and a key events tag. The throwback one will be funny quotes from past threads, ‘oh shit’ moments, things of that nature. The key events tag is self explanatory, key events from Ty’s past. So far in there I’ve only got the encounter with Moros, and her “oops” that caused her to stop drinking since that is referenced quite a lot lately. 😂 More things will be added while I’m retagging, but speaking of that…

Tumblr is being very strange and eating parts of threads when I retag them. It only happens with old posts, but it means that my reorganising has stopped for quite a while now. Tumblr confirmed it was a bug when I reported it but that was weeks ago. 🤷‍♀️

Tumblr is also stretching most of my gifs even when I tell it not to. Apologies for this, my images are not intentionally huge!

Timeline tags for bby!Ty still to come.

Now that I have all of the clips I need from Buffy, I’m slowly (very slowly due to lack of PC access while I’m with family) making new gifs and icons. I’ll also be making new gifs for the relationships pages, as well as finding a better layout for it. We gonna be getting ✨snazzy✨ up in here.

I think that’s everything! Once again, please do let me know if I’ve missed anything. Stay safe and don’t forget to drink some water. ❤️ — Em

[rpbetter]

Raven used to be my friend but I had to cut ties recently due to feeling like walking on eggshells everytime we spoke and they never apologized to me for when I brought up something that they did upset me. I really miss them but I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude.

Pt 2 of Ravens old friend. They reblogged anti fandom posts on their resource blog and I happened to be in that fandom and it hurt. A resource blog shouldn't be doing that.

Hey, Anon! I wanted to post this before I released one of my drafts, as that draft happens to be something I do not want you to misconstrue being about you. Thought about it after the fact and honestly, felt a bit ill over potentially making you think any such thing! The post is about how pushy people can be about what they like (usually as regards fandom) that you don't, and how that can be a contributing factor toward people saying hateful things about fandom topics. It was the quickest of the finished drafts sitting around to edit, so it was being queued, that's all! I do not think you were being pushy about your likes to "deserve" this, and frankly, even if you had? One's meme/resource/help blog is not the venue for shitting on your friends.

Okay, just wanted to clarify, everyone is stressed and feeling judged enough, I don't want to inadvertently contribute to that with any drafted posts!

I'm really sorry this happened, Anon. I don't mean that in a passing, flippant way that looks good on my blog. Not that I mean anything that way lol but I frequently have had "friends" in the past who felt like it was totally fine to reblog, even make original posts, like what you're talking about. Anti-fandom, anti my part of the fandom, my muses, my takes, and so on. Really hurtful things when we'd spoken in DMs about how upsetting it was, then they go and throw full support behind it in front of me.

It would be irritating with a grain of betrayal if it was a friend of a shorter time, or a mutual one doesn't really interact with OOC, but with a closer or longtime friend, it's actively hurtful. It feels like they looked you right in the face, said they do not give a single shit about either what is important to you or sparing your feelings, and went on. Yeah, it's just fiction, but the way we treat each other over fiction is real.

Given the behaviors displayed openly, it's not a shock you received no apology. Whether you got an apology or not, though, good on you for trying to bring it up to them! It's hard to do that with friends, even ones you're more certain won't blow up at you for it. I think if we could all be a little more (calmly, nicely, reasonably) open with each other like this, we could avoid problems that result from things festering and piling up, but it's hard to take that step...and I'm sorry this was your reward for it.

Just as blogs that are not one's RP or personal blogs shouldn't be openly judging and hating fandoms like that, friends shouldn't leave you feeling like you're walking on eggshells.

And, I'm going to say something unpopular here - sometimes, we all are capable of doing that to people we care about. Bad moments in lives combine, there are misunderstandings, sensitive topics, and things we can't entirely control otherwise. I don't like this idea tumblr has that anything other than a perfect, sweet, forever-cheery relationship is the actual height of abuse, so I want to be clear on that because it's just trivializing and blinding people to the possibility of toxic and abusive interactions. When you think "toxic" means "they don't like x, I love x, we don't talk about it," you're not aware of legitimate signs like being too worried to be yourself around them.

It's when this is the typical, established behavior that it's a problem. It's when there's never any meaningful acknowledgment, apology, or attempt at changing that it's a problem. If you constantly feel like you have to be worried about what a friend is going to say or do, it's not a friendship you need to be in, and I'm glad you recognized that and got out of it!

But there's also the idea that this is easy because it's the right and logical choice. It is not, and it's often made even harder because admitting to other friends that you miss the good times with the former one is all but impossible. They're often only reacting out of concern for you, the fear that if you miss this person they watched hurt you, you'll go back to that friendship, but it effectively shuts down a more healthy way of dealing with your feelings by sharing them with better friends who could support you.

So, Anon, it's also fully alright and normal to miss Raven! They were a longtime friend, and the thing about these kinds of friendships, these kinds of relationships in general, is that we seem to fail to realize that if things were straight awful from day one, we'd not have been friends. Of course, there are memories! Of course, you have the impulse to send them a link or that meme you know is their humor! It doesn't stop for a long time, either. That doesn't mean you're fucked up for it, it's something to be ashamed of, or that you're going to drop your better judgment and go send Raven a message immediately and rekindle that friendship. It's okay!

This right here: "I don't want to deal with the if it's not about me I don't care attitude." This is the place you should be in, and I congratulate you on being there because it takes a lot of shit heaped on someone by a friend to get there. Just keep remembering the good things you experienced with them, but always with this in mind, that their end of the friendship appears to have been predicated upon what they were getting out of it only.

Case in point, like everything they displayed to the whole damn RPC that encountered them these last few months, their personal interest and viewpoint was of greater importance to them with that anti-fandom post than a friend was.

I will say, it can be a delicate thing having this blog. I have opinions and takes that most of my friends share, what's important to me tends to run in the same lines as what is important to them, that's the basis of a lot of our friendship. We still disagree! We still have different interests, fandoms, favorite characters, songs, and experiences. Sometimes, I have to address a problem that they could misconstrue, in a totally normal and reasonable way, because while they're not doing whatever in a bad way, others are. I've made a point, more than once, to contact them and talk about it a little preemptively, and that's not just to keep up friendships, it also allows for extra insight from them and better phrasing from me so that other people I don't know won't take it the wrong way either.

Yes, I have some immutable, incredibly hard lines lol I think we all know what most of them are now, but expressing my purely personal opinion on something like fandom is not more important on this blog than anything else. I may genuinely feel like there is diseased connective tissue of disappointing behavior stemming from an origin point in a popular fandom, I'm not going to go off about it on this blog. It's inappropriate as hell, going to make people feel isolated and targeted whether they're my friends or not. Being passionately displeased about that does not have place here, and that's the kind of thing you have to consider, reconsider, force yourself to shut up about when you've got a blog that isn't for RP or a personal, you know?

I don't think everyone is cut out for doing that, and no one is cut out for doing it without ever making a mistake in judgment. Some people really should simply realize that there is nothing wrong with not being in the place in their lives or mental health to put that much effort into being fair or being quiet and concentrating only on memes. If you're one of those people, random reader? I'm serious, it's okay if you can't do it! It's not shameful, I'm also a deeply flawed human being, the quietest, politest, helpful meme blog out there is also run by a flawed human, they're just at a different place with themselves than you are. And. That's. Okay. Just don't hurt other people (and yourself, ultimately) by forcing it, please.

I suppose, knowing that it wasn't important enough to chill and reevaluate for the sake of a friend is some consolation lol what one won't do for friends definitely won't be done for random muns deemed problematic. So, maybe that'll make some other people out there feel a little better, and I thank you for sharing...as much as I wish you had nothing of this experience to share. I know it's an unpleasant one to have had, and I hope you have much better friends!

I promise you that I'll never post anything here that is viciously against any particular fandom or any such thing, and that if you feel like I've been unfair about anything at all, I welcome polite messages as a way of discussing it so we can all be clear and/or learn from each other. I know, I openly admit, it's kind of a draw of the blog, that I have a...um, tone of salt about things lol and sometimes, I don't phrase things the way they deserved. So, it's always okay to drop in for clarification or counterpoint, so long as it isn't being done with a shitty attitude that incites hostilities. Let's do have a legitimate conversation about it instead of hurt feelings!

Thanks again, Anon!

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ALRIGHT SINCE SOME OF Y’ALL CAN’T READ RULES, I’M PINNING THIS TO THE TOP OF MY BLOG SO U GOT NO CHOICE.

Hello. My name is Ares (formerly known as snow - please do not call me Snow). He/him pronouns please. 21+ and prefer to interact with those 18+. This blog is mutuals only and semi selective. I’m autistic, so i will be blunt, to the point where it may seem mean. i’m sorry in advance, i don’t mean it in any bad way, it’s just who i am.

Before we get started, I don’t write on discord. I do have it for ooc purposes though

I have had a callout on me in the past, people are STILL obsessed with me. I make no apologies for the things I’ve written as it has been FICTION. I will say one thing though - I have never ever written pedophilia, no matter what the callout says are “proves”. It was an aged up verse and it was written nearly a year ago anyway. Believe me, don’t believe me, I don’t give a fuck. If you don’t like me - block me. I will not apologize for fiction nor will I blame you for keeping yourself safe. I’m sorry if this seems harsh but I’m sick and tired of the bullshit. And since I know the people who are still obsessed with me will be reading this - call me out 100 times, I don’t care. You’re literally accomplishing nothing.

Call out culture: I want no part of it. Unless someone is being actively harmful and predatory, I want no part of it. Even then, I will not reblog it, and will block and go on my way. Call-out culture does more harm than good and I do not wish to be a part of it, leave me out of it.

Anon hate will be blocked and deleted, don’t even bother.

All muses within ships or involved in smut are 18+. Aged up verses may happen. I’m not writing pedophilia by aging people up and if you think I am, kindly get off my blog.

DO NOT USE ME AS A MEME RESOURCE.

There is rather dark topics present here. I will be handling these as delicately as possible but I will not be censoring myself from anything I wish to write. Just because I write them does not mean I condone them or am forcing them upon anyone/promoting them in any way, ya’ll pls don’t be gross in rl. This includes, self harm, implications of sexual assualt and dealing with the trauma that comes with it, incest, suicidal ideations, toxic ships, among various other things.  Please understand this. Tags will be provided for you to blacklist and no one is forcing you to follow me.

Shipping - I’m a multishipper and yes I ship toxic and incest pairings. If you want to ship an pairing like that, let me know or like the shipping call for that character. I’m not opposed to it but I also will NEVER force anyone into it.

I’m mutuals only. Do not message me if we’re not mutuals, do not send me memes, you will be blocked for disrespecting both me and my rules. However, you ARE welcome to send me headcanon prompts.

No drama. I’m not here to have drama on my blog. This is a stress-free, drama-free blog. Anon hate will be deleted. Callouts will get you blocked. It’s different if it’s a callout over actual predators but call out over things like fiction aren’t okay. Drama gives me anxiety, no one wants that.

I do not believe in policing people. If I see you policing people's blogs whether it's their portrayal, the things they write, etc, or you try to police me, you will be blocked.

Please specify a muse when sending something in.

Multiple threads with one person is okay!

Triggering material will be present. They will be tagged in the format of (trigger here) tw. I will write dark subject matter if I want to. I will write whatever I want, whenever I want. If I get hate about anything I write, it will be blocked and so will you. The few things that I will NOT write is pedophilia

My triggers are visuals of sharks and the c*nt word, please tag and avoid this word with me, thank you

NSFW is allowed and tagged simple as nsfw. I’m not really comfortable writing the dominant party in smut. So that probably won’t be a thing i do unless it’s like with m/f ships and even then i’m not sure if i can. If you don’t like that, you don’t have to smut with me.

I write all my muses as bi/pan/demi unless they are canonically gay because we’re not erasing that yo. Huge multi-shipper, I can probably ship just about anything (except for adult/minor ships) so feel free to ask to ship!

I don’t mind ooc talk, feel free to talk to me, I don’t bite.

Feel free to send as many memes as you want. Just specify muse when sending in. 

Writing: i prefer longer detailed threads such as multi-para and novella.short threads - as in one-liners to one paragraph threads - will probably be dropped

I’m not a fast rper. Some replies may wait months, if you can’t handle that, do not write with me

If I block/soft block/unfollow you please do not come to me asking why. Please respect that I’m mutuals only or that will get you blocked too.

Rules are subject to change.