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more rejuv things but its. its just this guy again, im sorry shes all i can draw
#everyday im like i wanna draw :] and then i just end up with this thing on the page#i refuse to draw hands holding. because i cannot and im too lazy to figure it out#oh yea a couple of these i havent posted before because theyre lame to me but ill put them here for now#anyways!!#i was gonna say something about a couple of these but i forgot#oh well#pokemon rejuvenation#does she. lose her ribbon in blacksteeple. i forgot#she still has it to me..#to me her c15 hair tie is a torn part of the ribbon#anyways again. yesterday i finally figured out what the rejuvrp is. very cool stuff im so incredibly intrigued by it#i have no idea whats going on! but it looks so cool ill try to read it more later.#oh right again about the rejuvrp thing. the character designs ive seen are so so so cool i want to draw them so bad#i think i have to ask about that first though and there is! no way i am going to do that!!! i do not want to bother them#and i think my heart would explode from the fear of it all before i even typed the message.#that and im very lazy! theres a very good chance i wouldnt even draw it in the first place#anyways unrelated but i think if i get another comment from someone on something i Will Actually Explode.#i see someone said something and it kills me on the daily. what is happening... thank you.. i appreciate it very much...#sorry to whoever read all of that. um. hi youre really cool and i hope you have a good day/night#i think being on twitter has done something to me i have to leave it immediately. anyways back to twitter#wait actually i should go back to playing rejuv. im still in the grove from when i first posted the gym leader melia au. im afraid to leave#also play pokemon rejuvenation no i will not stop saying that everytime i post one of these
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I’m like Johnny Truant in the tags of every goddamn post I make or reblog on this site and I’m not apologizing. If you want me to apologize come over to my house and you can talk to the minotaur about it
#House of leaves#im literally going insane these days I should go back to journaling but I’m also afraid of how far off the deep end I’ll go#Literally I am losing it and I’m being serious#I’m so fucking tired of being lonely and being left out and not being able to make connections#Sometimes I feel as if im doing things without realizing and no one is telling me about it#Other times it feels like I must have something incredibly wrong with my face or body and no one will say anything#People make plans and don’t bother to ask me if I want to join and then when I find out there’s a group chat that all my friends are in#Except me and when I asked if I could join I was given a bunch of reasons that were frankly bullshit why I couldn’t join#Are they talking shit about me? I know everybody there it’s not like I am a stranger#Am I just a stranger in this world as I unllikeable? I try my best to be nice and charitable but what am I missing?#Do I black out and say things and do things? Am I more mentally ill than I know?#The only reason (or one of the very few) why I stay alive is because of my horses because I know they would miss me and I already feel bad#Not seeing them everyday#I’m tired of being the odd one out I’m tired of being entertaining when necessary#I don’t want my only friends to be horses because it further alienates me from the rest of society and I just want to be accepted I’m not#Looking to fit in I just want connection and friendship and I can barely seem to manage that#Maybe I’m just not worth it.
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it’s 1.18 am and i can’t sleep bc there’s a thunderstorm and i’m scared of them like a big loser so. don’t hold me accountable for my thoughts and feelings but
#i was just thinking about my day today and how i wrote in the tags after my nap i wanted to maybe go to ikea and so i presented my roommate#with the idea and she said yes ofc i was thinking of doing something too! and so we went to ikea and we got there and they have stairs and#escalators there and she was like ‘what type of day is it?’ nodding at the escalator and i know she prefers the stairs#and i have better and worse days in terms of how much i can do physically before getting winded/dizzy and i haven’t told her it’s been all#bad days lately LMAO bc ahhh i hate worrying people and i have ANOTHER cardiologist appointment next week anyway so no harm done but#the fact that she asks and then goes with me. it catches me so off guard still it’s truly something wondrous to be taken into account#i was really used to being overlooked not among peers but in my everyday family/at home life#and i still can’t believe how easy it feels for her (and my other friends) to take me into account and to just. idk. love me i guess?#i always think i’m impossible to care about on a true level beyond the surface let alone be loved#what a ride life is
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thank you mod for fulfilling our delusions. you do such a great job bringing shane to life. ik i already told u but i just felt like telling you again 🤭
AHH THANK YOU SO MUCH !! i really can’t ever explain how much it means to me to hear y’all enjoy my silly little blog(s). it brings me joy to know i can contribute to this community 💕
thank YOU all for being great and supportive 😪
the shanerot has consumed me entirely, but i welcome it with open arms 😈
#ask-shane 🐓#it is what keeps me going#i think about you guys everyday and i am not kidding#i’ll be here all day every day thank u thank u
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tired girl hours i’m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry
#tw rant#studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not#its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels#so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday#i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me#n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone#yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my#friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep#of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle#but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today#i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts#and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics#just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people#im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier#im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk#and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know#but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac#h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe#ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch#people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and#seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want#are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to#spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was#i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next#“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes#me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good#but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im#intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout#but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one?#the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone
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#I normally don’t post about my following but I’m two away from 5k and I think that’s so cool <3#thank you all for following and supporting#you all are so sweet and kind and I couldn’t have asked for a better community to hang out with everyday#and I so so so so mean that#if something were to happen to tumblr I’d be so sad because interacting with you all makes every day 1000x better#thank you for making me laugh and liking and reblogging things i reblog and for sending asks or messages or comments#I truly cherish all of you <3
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[ Just wanna take a moment to thank everyone for interacting with me! Thank you so much to those who send me asks, I feel so incredibly spoiled for getting so many! ;O; Thank you to everyone who thread with me, and who is patient with me ( I know I am taking a good while with threads atm ). I'm going to be busy again for a few days, but I'll try to get some writing in here and there. You guys are the best! I appreciate you so much!! ]
#[ me getting emotional bc everyone is so kind to me ]#[ sending me asks and interacting with me t-t ]#[ - clenches chest - ]#[ truly i am blessed all day everyday ]#[ UNFORTUNATELY gonna be p busy the next few days ]#[ visiting my family AGAIN ahaha ]#[ my grandmother is coming to stay with my parents so ]#[ wanna make sure i spend time with her :O she is quite old ]#[ ANYWAYS i'm !! very excited about writing nnoitra so hopefully i'll have some time for that uvu ]#toby post. ╱ out of character.
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happy (late) valentine's day! just wanted to let you know you're one of my fave simblrs on here and absolutely love how unapologetically yourself you are (did that make sense? :/) I just love seeing you and your sims across my dash. your creativity (because I'm in love with your stories and your sims style) knows no bounds and you deserve to know how much everything you do is appreciated.
here's a rose for you pretty lady! hope you had an amazing valentines day and if you decided to be a hater, hope your hateration was fun!
first off: i love you. i love your kind, supportive nature. i love how fucking HILARIOUS you are, and these days i mainly post with you and some others in mind. if my sims posts/edits are any good, you have urself to thank for the motivation. secondly!!!! i actually had a shit ton of fun this valentine's (albeit single, which was unprecedented lmfao smh) i have too much ppl in my life who love me and care for me to be a hater on this day (●'◡'●)
#ask#aestralia#fun fact about me that might shock ppl; i actually love valentines day! :") obviously if u love someone u should show it everyday BLAH BLAH#i know that. i'm sure we can all use our brains to figure that out. but its FUNNNNNNN jesus christ#i notice the ppl that say that tired ass quote usually have abusive bfs that lowk hates their guts but lemme not wake that up this morning#ANYWAYS i hope ur having the best day everrrrrrrr LOVE U
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venting abt unimportant things in da tags ignore me
#yall im gonna vent about a boy#and some other things under here#cause i just made myself sad#anyway yeah idk a couple months ago i matched w this dude who messaged me asking abt my love for e and i was like very open abt it#and he wasn't judgemental at all he was very nice and we just like . talked abt whatever#we were talking for like a month or two nonstop like we messaged every day right#and i even told him it's okay if he doesn't message me everyday i don't mind and he's like but i like talking to you i wanna message u!!#and there was like 3 days i couldn't message him and i came back to see he missed me and he was like soooo sweet#and then he took me to get dinner and we went to his place and we literally hit it off so well??? like the chemistry was THERE#like we kissed and he was sooo sweet to me and then the holidays hit and his messages slowed down#and since then it got slower and slower and now he's just completely ghosted me and it's been a few weeks now#and i should get over it i know like im back to swiping on these stupid apps again but it just makes me so sad#because i really did like him and i don't know what i did wrong or if i scared him away#after leaving me on opened 3 times i just gave up like i got the hint i assumed he doesn't like me like that anymore#i saw something that reminded me of him and i got really sad#so now here i am#anyway i went on for tooooo long let me stop there lol
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I think I am finally In love
#this is kinda weird but whenever i had a crush on someone it was just like#i would only think about them when i was almost falling asleep at 4 am and during the day they mesnt nothing to me#and now i dream about him and i think about him during every period of the day#and when he says bye to me after class or just look at me and say “schmidt :D” or stands in front of me#in a line i have to hold myself so i won't start crying and hug him because we don't have inyimacy at all#and i miss it so much when we did every project together and everyday he asked me if i was allright and i should have told him the truth#and months ago he asked me to do a project with him again but that one friend of mine who i recently stopped talking with told him that#i was already doing the project with her#an obviously lie#and he never texted me again#and i have never been jealous but i noticed hes been talking a lot to her and he barely talks to me and he doesnt know she lies all the tim#about everything and he doesnt know i wanted to accept his feelings last march but i couldn't even get out of bed that would've hurt him#and i still think i would hurt him but i want him more than ever#and hes everything i want and everything i want to be and look#and he is smart as fuck and he is funny but never offends anyone with his jokes and he never offended anyone actually#he is the sweetest person to ever exist#and my mom and aunt adore him#and who doesnt?#it hurts so bad that he isnt in love with me again and i want to work out things and i want to be good for him#last year he dated like 3 people but hes been single for almost the whole year and if he starts dating someone again#before i manage to get better ill be so sad#and i need him i need him i love his thin arms and i need him to wrap me with then and i need to rest my head on his shoulder#and i want to play minecraft with him like we used to and i want him to know i like him but i cant do it all of sudden#i need to be friends with him again but i have no idea how#i need him to like#i changed so much in the last year he probably thinks im weird and stupid but he won't say it because he is the coolest person ever#and he is so pretty and i want to adjust his glasses and kiss his hands#and i want to ask him if hes ok too#and i want to make him feel better#and i want to sit next to him
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Top 5 favorite Barbie songs on the album?
🌟 I'm Just Ken 🖤👑
🌟 Silver Platter 🌎🌌
🌟 Dance the Night 💃🎶
🌟 Choose Your Fighter 🦋🐅
🌟 Forever & Again 💌💐 tied with 🌟 Hey Blondie 😘💋
The order of these changes everyday, but I'm Just Ken is always my number one ✨✨✨
Also shoutout to Push solely because of how Ryan Gosling pronounces the word "granted" it makes me laugh every single time
#anonymous#asks#barbie movie#ty for asking!!#i love thinking about dancing with all 50 billion F/Os when listening to dance the night#forever & again makes me WEEP it always makes me think of starlight and i miss himmmm#but i wanna think he'd say no matter how fuckin scared and sad i feel he's not gonna leave me#hey blondie i sometimes associate w/ barbie and/or ken but i wouldnt call either of them blondie fjhfgfkdgf#still nice to daydream#sometimes i think about my F/Os referring to me w/ that song except im... not... blonde#DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON SILVER PLATTER AUGH#i love ken trying to get my attention all damn day#every single time that song begins to play in the background when he's gonna kiss barbie#i sigh like a lovesick fool bc that song automatically puts me in a good mood#because it makes me think of him!!! and how he'd fight for me everyday#I LOVE THIS SOUNDTRACK#honorable mentions: butterflies and speed drive#butterflies im always headbanging to that song and it makes me think of barbie calling me her butterfly/daisy hehe#and speed drive is just a bop AND its gay.#'she says i love u girl. i love her more. barbie youre so fine u blow my mind' NO HETEROSEXUAL EXPLANATION
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man you ever wanna die just so you don't have to deal with the shit that is real life
#i mean ik i don't count bc i wanna die period. but this situation makes it even more so.#which is ironic bc the problem is i am in danger lol. but statistically speaking one is more likely to get injured than killed#and that is something i do NOT want 😐 idm dying - i encourage it even. i wish i did tonight - but getting severely injured is the worst#- thing that could happen to me i think. it's actually my biggest fear. it's essentially the only reason I'm not dead yet#(bc if it weren't for that fear i would just try to kms on a daily basis lmao 😭)#I'm just... very tired. i don't wanna live in fear. but that's impossible. my only other option here is death#this isn't even getting into the everyday life shit. i was supposed to send some files to set up some medical test#but idk if there's any point until the war ends?? like i won't be getting out any time soon probably#and idk if any medical ward that isn't the emergency one would work these days. so. eh#i lost track there. what i was going at is that through all this i also have my regular pains to worry about#and ofc my regular mental shit too. I'm doing badly enough as is lmao 😭#vent#negative //#suicide //#ask to tag#blegh. i hate it here
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Hello! I recently discovered your Eren fic 'Seasons' and I absolutely LOVE it <3
Will you be updating it in the future / ever because its honestly a masterpiece I would love to see how it carries out.
I promise there's ABSOLUTELY NO pressure or expectation on you - if you've moved on that's perfectly okay and I hope you're enjoying life!
Thank you so much for popping into my inbox to leave me such a lovely message.
It always makes me happy to read messages like these and this was something I really needed to hear. Honestly, my depression had gotten really bad to the point where there wasn’t anything in life I enjoyed anymore. But I’m doing better now and am just trying to take it one day at a time.
I’m trying to find joy in the little things and get back into my old hobbies. I went to a swap meet and bought a new keyboard that makes the loud clicky noises. Writer’s block has been crippling me for the longest time and it’s been a year since I have been able to even write something more than a few sentences for a draft. For the meantime, again just taking it one day at a time, trying not to be so hard on myself, and practicing writing some drabbles since I feel like my skills are rusty.
Still, Seasons really has a special place in my heart. Though it has been a labor of love, it’s something I also want to see finished through along with all of my readers.
It may not be the answer you wanted, but one day, I will publish a satisfying conclusion to Seasons. Hopefully soon though, because I can’t tell you how it’s killing me the number ideas I have floating around but I just for the life of me can’t write down coherently.
I wish you all the best anon. Love you to the moon and back
#this ask made me so happy#[☆彡] — seasons#[☆彡] — anon#but thank you all for being so patient#i promise you that this series will be finished one day#sorry if that was too much information#[☆彡] — everyday ephemera#but just if you were all curious about what’s going on
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heart shattering fragment of a poem I wrote:
I won't send the good night text,
not until you notice.
But will you notice?
#poem#my poem#poetry#this is about my ex btw#for context they never asked me how my day was or said good night or good morning#and i would usually ask at the beginning of the relationship but i eventually stopped because they would only text me once a week#not even once a week most times#and we were long distance so it made no fucking sense why they never texted me anything nice like good night#but eventually i started doing what they doing snd they got pissed off and that's why we broke up#i should've broken up with them sooner#but alas i am now left with not knowing what to do when someone asks me how Im doing everyday#heres a cookie if you read all that 🍪
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chewing on nails over not getting a joke
#personal#my coworker was joking about how i was peeing but i couldn’t tell he was joking#and he kept on with it and then i got up again and he was like aloud REALLY?#so i was like is he genuinely upset about this and asking people if i’m peeing too much#and my friends are like it’s fucking weird he’s tracking and announcing you peeing#along with other weird shit#but anyway i ask him and he’s no sorry i was teasing we get into it and he’s like ur so cute#btw he talks about wanting to hit everyday not un usual#but if this is a new negging tactic it’s working i’ve been thinking how stupid and weird i am all day#also he makes overt gestures and comments and my little brain demands me to suffer so suffer i do#if i was normal oh my god. if i was normal and not a freak oh my god
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honesty hour-ing back at you!!!! what are you most looking forward to right now, both bl wise and in your own personal life (if you're comfortable sharing it of course!!!)?
(also how does it feel like to be one of the loveliest person on the planet please speak into the mic 🎤)
I remember once I was asked what I look forward to the most and I just had to list a bunch of stuff that were already out because there's just so. much. content! it's no different this time around as I am in the process of catching up with everything under the sun ✨️i don't really hear of upcoming shows until they're already out so that adds to it hahah
okay so I'm excited bout the upcoming be my favorite and hidden agenda episodes, they are both light watches for me so I'm naturally in anticipation; it's not even announced but I might be most excited about fourthgem's upcoming project :') oh, i'm very interested in last twilight (and here is the moment I realise who I'm replying to lmao because I was thinking of @ the person whose posts got me hyped up about it and- yeah. silly goose)
eternal faith (haven't read the novels yet though so I'm in no hurry); ah the cherry magic adaptation with taynew just came to mind, ig im curious to see how they handle that 😗 I also want to watch wedding plan, jun & jun, stay with me (that's a bl, lads, i've seen how those dudes look at each other and i want more), jack o'frost, cooking crush (I miss offgun suddenly its so weird), minato's upcoming episodes (asuka and shun have the potential to be the best thing that happens in jbl this year and I beg for them to not fuck it up)..*checks mdl* OMG LOVE TRACTOR im waiting for my gal to watch these two fools on a farm (not to be mistaken with the japanese fools on a farm in zenra meshi whom I am in no rush to deal with. do you know how bored and put off by posts I have to be to be uninterested in a japanese bl? sheesh)..unintentional love story is a big one cause of how passionately it was recommended to me hahah and idk if they count but s2 of good omens, heartstopper and our flag means death
there are a few (word with a subjective meaning innit) others on the watchlist and a few upcoming ones i'm so curious about, not to mention all the non-bl shows I'm eager to watch
as for my personal life (what a surprising question! sorry to be more on the private side <3) I am excited bout giffing stuff hahah I love getting the hang of it, it's a slow but fun process🌸
and for the last question..blushing crying screaming-
idk what I did to deserve such cuteness but im very grateful 🥰 I don't know, I think if you're yet to figure it out considering your solid personal experience, we might have to put our heads together to think of a proper answer 🤷♀️
#its called honesty hour but im taking applications all day everyday lmao i just love talking that much#the fact the question clearly states 'most excited about' and i just decided ''that has a broad meaning now let's LIST''#thank you monica you strike me as someone who likes long rants with a 'train of thought' feel so i tried not to edit this too much#if you prefer structured ones you gotta tell me though i love pinpointing in order too 😁#ask game#ppg#petri replies
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