#at least it wasnt the answer she expected to hear

[harringroveera]

Max: I literally just woke up, Billy

[missacidburn928s-heathenhideaway]

Don't care if it sounds cold. It is, what it is.

Bucky x POC!Reader, Ex!Steve x POC!Reader

Wordcount: 1394

Summary:

Steve returns 3 years after he left for the past. Wanting the life he had with you before back without consequence. Too bad you’ve moved on with someone he least expected.

Warnings:

Angst and Feels, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Domestic Fluff, Steve Rogers Needs a Hug, Steve Rogers Feels, Hurt Steve Rogers, Bucky Barnes Feels, Protective Bucky Barnes, Exes, Sad and Sweet, Sweet Bucky Barnes, Moving On, Lovers to Friends, Friends to Lovers, Abandonment, Domestic Avengers

Notes:

Hello Heathens! Woke up feeling angsty, with a mighty need to finish this dialogue heavy drabble I started last week. Happy reading!

You’re preparing lunch in your modest kitchen, singing and dancing along to the music flowing from your bluetooth speaker, when there’s a knock on the door. Knowing Bucky can easily hear it and you're currently preoccupied you leave him the task of answering it. You listen to the door opening and murmurs of speech for a couple moments before it closes again and two sets of footsteps can be heard heading your way.

“Sam, what have I told you about at least texting before you come over.” You look up from the island, expecting to find a grinning Falcon before you but are caught off guard by the imposing form standing under the archway. “Steven?”

“Hey, doll.” He takes a step forward as you close your eyes, shaking your head to relieve you from the vivid hallucination that is taking up space in your home. It isn’t until Bucky places his cool metal hand on top of yours, giving it a squeeze, that you dare to open them again. 

“What are you doing here? And most importantly why ? You went after your happily ever after. You shouldn't be here.”  You blurt out, disbelief showing on your face. Bucky without hesitation makes his way to your side of the island, showing his support and making sure to be within arms reach if you need him. 

“It wasn’t quite as happy as I imagined it would be.” You watch his adams apple bob as he swallows. “All I wanted for so long was to have a do over with Peggy. So the first chance I had to fulfill that dream, I took it.” He places his hands on the island. “It was good at the beginning, but I couldn’t get you out of my head.” He locks eyes with you. “We barely spent any time together after a while. She was always working. Trying to better the world, leaving me alone with my memories of you. I found myself seeking out pieces of you in her. They always fell short. No one loved me like you. I wanted that back. So I decided I needed to come home.”

You take a deep breath to calm yourself, tears brimming your eyes as you hand Steve a dose of painful truths. "What we had was special Steven. I'll admit that. But it wasn't enough for you. I wasnt enough for you. Your head was always full of the what ifs. Your heart was never fully mine to begin with. I thought that as time went on, that my portion was growing in size. How wrong was I to believe such things.” A lone tear falls from your eyes. 

“I'm a firm believer of actions speaking louder than words. You leaving me behind for a chance with her that day was all the reality I needed. It broke me. You broke me. Honestly if it weren't for Bucky, Sam and Clint’s family I don’t think I would have had the will to endure all that pain. I wanted the ground to swallow me up. I wanted to not exist so I wouldn't have to feel the pain of being abandoned for a ghost of your past. I was real, Steve. I was there. I gave you the pieces of me I hadn't shared with anyone else before and you took all of that for granted. And now you're back and expect that love to still remain intact.” 

Your heartache seeps through your words, coating it in poisonous barbs, to protect what remains of the vulnerable organ. Bucky, your lover and loyal protector, moves in closer, wrapping his flesh arm around your waist, grounding you. “You have got to be kidding me. Even if I wasnt with Bucky, I wouldn’t take you back. Not after 3 years and having to rebuild myself. My standards have changed and you don’t meet them anymore.”

It’s as if your words delivered a swift punch to the gut for him as he lashes out with vitriol lacing his tongue. “And he does? My best friend. I always knew you had feelings for her. You couldn't wait to swoop in as soon as I was gone could you.” He has a white knuckle grip on the marble as he stares down the man he’s always trusted with his life.

Bucky just nods his head in disbelief as he replies. “I'm the bad guy, Steve, really?” He pulls you in closer to his side, done with the niceties. “If you must know. We didn't even broach anything near romantic until almost a year after you left us BOTH behind.” 

He clenches his jaw as he gets that possessive glint in his eyes and you know he’s not going to hold back. “When it finally happened, a natural progression if you will, there was no turning back. She became mine, as I became hers. It was fucking magical. She always came for me. On my fingers. On my tongue. Clamped tight around my cock like a vice. Squeezing the life out of me.” He husks, ghosting his metal fingers across your collarbone. “I helped her forget about the pain you caused when you left her behind for the past. I gave her an outlet for that agony. We sank into the darkness of our loneliness together. Don’t tell me that didnt mean something. Don’t be that daft Rogers. Our love for each other is bone deep.”

Steve stares at the both of you, a loss for words.

“Mama” comes over the monitor sitting behind you on the counter. You turn to see your daughter standing in her crib having woken from her nap. She continues on trying to get your attention, “Mama”, “Dada” the only words you can make out from the babble.

“I’ll get her.” Bucky kisses your temple and proceeds down the hall.

“You have a baby?” Steve chokes. “How old?”

“She’s 15 months old.” You state.

“So, she’s not mine.” He whispers out.

“Not a chance pal. She’s all mine.” Bucky beams as he walks back into the kitchen, your daughter Amara on his hip.

“You never wanted kids with me Steve. Certainly not towards the end. Why would you think she was yours?” You ask.

“Wishful thinking I guess.” He looks over at the sweet cherub face cuddling up against her fathers chest. “She’s beautiful.”

“Bug, want to say hello?” Bucky asks his daughter, a hand running up and down her back.

The toddler eyes Steve and squeaks out a “Hi.”

“Hello sweetness. You look just like your Mama, but with your Dada’s eyes. Such a lucky girl.” You watch as his shoulders slump. “I screwed up royally. I acted before thinking, once again, and look at what it cost me. Everything I ever really wanted was always right here with you and now I’m going to have to watch it from the sidelines instead of being the one to share them with you.” A lone tear rolls down his cheek. 

He wipes it away. “I know it’s not much, especially now. But for what it’s worth, I’m Sorry. Truly and deeply.”

“I know you are Steve.” You reassure him.

“We both do.” Bucky adds.

“I don’t hold it against you, ya know.” You impart, placing a hand on his. “If you didn't put me through all of that pain I never would have ended up here, with a life I never could have dreamt of. It’s not perfect, but that’s the point. It works for us and we’re happy. This home is full of so much love and communication. I had to be knocked down to know what I really needed in life. The things I wouldn't settle for. The things I deserved. I hope you can find that one day Steve. I really do.”

“Thanks, doll. I’m pretty sure that ship has officially sailed for me though.” He straightens himself out, Captain persona put back in place.

You give Bucky a look as he places Amara in her highchair. You can’t leave Steve in this state. No matter the pain he caused all of you, there is still love in your heart for him. “Stevie, would you like to stay for lunch?”

“I know Bug would love to get to know her Uncle Stevie.” Bucky states.

You watch a small smile emerge on his face. “I would enjoy that very much.”

[luminusobscurum]

though its easy to overlook, alastor very much is an emotional lil guy

for one, i know the dad rivalry makes great material and ideas for fans to play with, its fun! but i really feel like thats not what was happening here.

i think, alastor didnt trust lucifer the second he was mentioned. Lucifer seems to keep himself disconnected from the population of hell, as we know when alastor comments "nice to finally put a face to the name!"

being the king of hell, youd expect yknow, the bad dog. the worst of the worst. the one all overlords and deadly sins answer to. with that job description its easy to assume lucifer wouldnt have been the sweetheart he is. in fact, before the show was picked up by A24, lucifer was meant to be a bit of an asshole, but the idea must have been scrapped, or at the very least toned down to pursue a better story.

not to mention lucifer taking a shot at alastor's ego? many times? it had al vulnerable. a questionable father figure and a reminder of his insignificance, two personal triggers to him hit in a combo move. it makes sense he was acting a little out of it in their musical, the man is very composed and confident in himself at default.

Alastor had to have a good degree of emotional stress going on to be laughing chaotically with lucifer like that before cussing him out. after all, the man rarely ever swears, hearing it even sounds a little out of character.

we also know alastor looks highly upon his mother, shes mentioned seldomly, but enough times on official tweets and QnAs/livestreams, but there is deafening silence on sharing anything about his father.

i remember vivienne giving nods to a tweet comparing alastor to bambi, perhaps a tragedy with his mother happened, and he developed a sense of personal responsibility to look after women (like charlie, and even the sheep girl from his official comic) he feels would need a friend. Perhaps there was a time he wasnt there for someone who needed him, or was unable to protect them..?

mimzy on the other hand, her case is slightly different. shes a sweet girl, bubbly and cheerful. but she still behaves as youd expect from the more distasteful citizens of hell. but for the longest time, mimzy very well knew alastor was someone she could run too for protection. shed always go to him when she was in trouble, and hed protect her. much like any parent would. not to mention the stern talking to he gave her during the aftermath (since she just harmed something hes in incredible denial of caring about) and the way she threw a lil fit then stormed off was the most father/daughter you could get.

even with the way mimzy was poking his chest, he gently grabbed her hand and pushed it away. compare what mimzy did to how he treated husk and vox, i feel he lets women get by with a lot of shit hed kill over if it came from a man

with this in mind, i dont think there was a competition on who could be charlie's dad, i feel it was alastor testing a man whod already put him in a vulnerable state to see if he was worthy enough of even having charlie as a daughter

after all he looks much less pissed off seeing lucifer prove himself that he loves his family, a very welcome turn of events.

[stevie-petey]

soooo <3 its only fair we see steve’s pov of saving bug during the demogorgon fight ,, right? :) xoxo

siiiigh i guess (because i love u n him). in this blurb we answer: why DID steve come back after nancy kicked him out ??

enjoy <3

"steve, you need to leave. right now." nancy has never looked at steve like this before, with such annoyance and anger. he doesnt know what the fuck is happening but he had just saved your life.

he, steve harrington, just bridal carried y/n henderson to safety after a skinned skeleton looking piece of shit almost killed you.

now nancy is yelling at him again.

and all steve can do is look towards you for help. you have to say something, explain what any of this even means. steve is surrounded by nancy and jonathan, two people who have hurt him so deeply, and yet youre standing right in front of him and not saying a single thing.

you, the only person who hasnt hurt steve, who seems to understand him and expect so much more from him than anyone ever has in his life.

if you told steve to stay, he would.

at least then he'd have a sense of belonging. if you told steve everything will be okay, he'd have no reason not to believe you. he knows you; youd stay behind and fight and defend those you love and steve feels like a fucking coward as his hands shake while nancy berates him.

"y/n, please..." steve just needs one glance from you, a nod, anything.

but you dont say a thing.

steve groans. "fuck it!"

he runs out the door.

he thinks maybe if he drives fast enough, he can go to the police and bring them back here to jonathans. he cant just leave you behind, steve knows this, but what else is he supposed to do? you hadnt wanted him there, neither had nancy, and jonathan hates him.

hes not needed here. hes never been a fighter, anyways.

right as steve has unlocked his car door, the lights inside jonathans house start flickering again. the hair on his arms stand up. he knows. its back again.

and youre stuck in there with it.

three things cross through steves mind at once.

one, youre in danger.

two, you told steve he wasnt a bad person.

and three, hes so fucking tired of running.

so he does what any sane sixteen year old boy would do.

steve runs back inside to save you.

he told you earlier. he just wants to help. thats all hes ever wanted to do, and fuck. if he doesnt help you now, save you when you really need him, then steve is the coward his father has always told him he was.

jonathans bat is scattered across the floor when steve runs back inside. he grabs it as he assesses the situation. he cant believe hes doing this.

youre on the ground and steves heart stops for a moment, but when he sees you shaking jonathans shoulders, who is also sprawled on the ground, he calms down.

then he hears the gunshots and finally notices that nancy is frantically shooting at the monster and the bullets are doing absolutely nothing. she needs help, but you and jonathan are too far away.

steve stumbles a bit. for a second, he doesnt know who to run to. theres blood on your forehead and your ankle is bent at an angle that makes steve feel nauseous to look at, but jonathan has a hand wrapped around your waist while nancy is defenseless against the monster.

flicking the bat around his wrist, steve knows what he has to do.

he swings, distracting the monster long enough to spare nancy some time.

and you watch.

[bridgyrose]

AU where Neo’s ascension sends her to a Modern AU, with all of her powers stripped in order to live in this new world. (Maybe she becomes a child as well? Could be adopted by loving parents in order to have a second chance at childhood)

(I think I can run with this one)

“Over here Trivia!” 

Neo paused for a moment as the noise and lights of the city practically overwhelmed her. She had remembered jumping off the tree and then a bright light as she fell… only to be met with concrete against her hands along with bright lights and loud cars driving down the road. She picked herself up and looked over at her mother, almost not recognizing her. 

Carmel smiled at her and held out a hand for her to grab. “We dont want to be late to dinner. Your father has been making sure that all the preparations for your birthday are perfect.” 

Neo nodded and took her mother’s hand, still not used to hearing her old name. But what really caught her off guard was that her reflection looked like a child again. She looked like she was almost seven again, brown hair pulled back into braided pigtails, the dress she wore was just like the one she had worn all those years ago, though she did notice she wasnt wearing any of the contacts she was forced to wear before. Her mismatched pink and brown eyes werent hidden like they’d been before. 

“Dont lollygag,” Carmel said as she pulled Neo forward. “We’re going to be late if we take too long.” 

Neo sighed but walked a bit closer to keep up with her mother, already dreading her birthday. She still wasnt entirely sure what the plan was, but at least here, she didnt seem to be expected to conform to a particular look. And beyond the lack of dust, Vale still looked mostly the same. Busy streets, shops that catered to particular tastes in fashion, food, hobbies and the like… it all seemed… normal. 

She followed her mother into a restaurant that seemed to have just opened up for the day, still empty as a few of the staff made their way around the tables to make sure everything was set up and in place. Le Mistraili, a name she was familiar with as a favorite of her mother’s for a restaurant. Not that she was ever allowed to go when she was younger, always left at home to be kept out of sight. 

“Carmel!” Jimmy called out from near the back of the restaurant. “Over here! I made sure to get a great table for us and our little Neo!” 

Neo raised a brow when she heard her father call her Neo, not quite sure how she felt about it. 

Carmel sighed. “Do you have to call her ‘Neo’ out here?” 

“Its just a harmless nickname. Her eyes remind me of the icecream flavor-” 

“And you know she doesnt like attention being drawn to them.” 

“She’s too young to care. Besides, she might grow to like the name.” 

“Like you used to be called ‘Sprinkles’ in college?” 

Jimmy rolled his eyes. “Lets focus on our daughter. She doesnt turn eight every day.” 

Neo smiled a bit as she listened to her parents and climbed up into her chair, still just a bit too short to see over the table well. It was strange to see her parents get along, let alone want her around, though she had to admit that it felt nice to be included. Even as she waited for the smiles to fade and the fighting to start, she relaxed as she watched a waitress come over with a few menus while other patrons started to file in and take their seats. For once, she could admit she was happy. 

At least, until she felt a piece of her missing. A piece she couldnt place as she stared at her reflection in her silverware, almost as if something had been stripped away. 

Carmel put a hand on her shoulder. “Everything okay dear? If its too loud, we can find somewhere else to eat.” 

Neo shook her head and slowly signed as the knowledge of the language almost seemed to flow into her mind. “I’m fine. I feel a bit…” she stopped for a moment as she tried to think of the right word, finally signing once more. “...lost.”

“She’s probably feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything,” Jimmy answered. “We’re in a new part of town, she’s going to be starting school again in just a couple weeks without the friends she had before, I’d be nervous too.” 

“Let us know if you need us to leave, okay Trivia?” 

Neo nodded and tried to push her feelings aside. She’d figure out what was missing later. For now, she wanted to enjoy spending time with her parents, a dream she never thought would come true.

[averagetmntfan]

Portals gone wrong!

(“The 4 servants Au” & “time beats a dead man Au” ((collab w/ @mikey-rottmnt)) Crossover fic!)

2/???

Tbadm universe, 12:38pm.

“uh..not to like, complain or anything but-“

“Why am i TIED UP?!?” Leo demanded, squirming in the rope. “because, you look ugly. And we don’t trust you.” Bendy pulled the rope tight, making sure it was secure. jeez, what a crazy day. First he had to calm down a guilt devoured Koi, now these Weridos fall outta the sky and invade their camp? What’s next, Someone loses a leg??

“I kinda feel bad for tying them up..” Dale whimpered. “WHY??? the little orange one was gonna attack us!!!” Chip reminded her, trying to be the reasonable one here. “Yeah but.. Besides that, they seem really nice!! and look at that one!! It’s got cool red paint on its face!!”

“as much as I love a complement, this isn’t paint. It’s my skin, thank you very much.” Leon smirked, sparkling as usual. Except there were literal sparkles..- what the hell???

Chip just..observed carefully. wow, this guy was gayer than him and mugs combined. And that’s really saying something here. Though he hated to admit, these guys did seem kinda harmless.

‘I’m sure the grown-up’s could take these bozos in a fight, anyway. So..whats the big deal?? What’s everyone so afraid of?’

Chip, being the observant guy he is, decided to go check on the others. Since everyone was acting a little bit off. And suspicious, he might add. “Come on.” He Signaled Dale to ‘follow his lead.’ And within seconds, the siblings were on a investigation.

———————————————————————

it was quiet. too quiet. Why you may ask? Well, I’ll let cup answer that one.

Cuphead Stares at raph. No conversation, no movement, just an intimidating cold stare. Raph couldn’t even bare to meet his gaze, so he turned to face the tents wall. As this starring contest continued on, the 2 bystanders looked at eachother with concern.

“cup, lay off dude. It’s been like 5 minutes. You’re scaring the poor guy!!” Mugs suggested. No one dared move.

another couple minutes go by, and mugs tries again. Again, not movement.

She tries again and again, and like every time before..

Nothing happened.

“UGHH!! WHY CAN YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME?!” He shouted, readying up a punch to the face. “Hey, hey! Mugs, calm. Down. Anger will not fix anything.” Boris reassured him, in a desperate attempt to calm her down.

“Tell me, Bucko. Why’re you really here??” cup finally spoke up, building up the tension. Raph finally Met eyes with him.

“I don’t know, ok?! Look, one minute I was hanging out with my brothers, watching a Jupiter Jim movie, and then-“

”wait, who’s Jupiter Jim?” Mugs asked, not expecting to be heard. But of course..

He was.

“ah! Jupiter Jim is the main protagonist in me and my brothers favourite movies! He’s so cool, and also have a red panda sidekick!! But there’s also comics, fan fics, graphic novels, spin-offs, fan made episo-“

“Ok can you shut up? We don’t wanna hear about your nerdy lil sci-fi show, uh..whatever you are.” Raph went completely silent after that, slightly embarrassed.

“Dude. I-“ mugs sighs.

“Ok, move it boy toy.” He attempts to shove cup outta the way. But uh..

Cup snickers at his brothers failed attempt to move him.

“Keep trying, toothpick. One day maybe you’ll be able to make me move an arm” he howls with laughter. Mugs rolled his eyes. Tsk, at least he wasnt an overachiever study nerd.

Raph Just Watch the 2 siblings, letting out a small laugh.

Cup immediately turned his attention back to raph, looking kinda..pissed..off? Uh oh..-

“Find something funny?” his voice was low, as he inched in closer to Raph’s face. He stares at him again, narrowing his eye.

“n-nooooooo…?”

“just leave the guy alone. You’re being a bitch.” Mugs told him off, putting a hand on her hip.

“WHA- I AM NOT!! THIS GUY COULD BE POTENTIALLY DANGEROUS!!!” “Cup, he doesn’t even have any weapons.” this seems to get cup upset, he rolls his eyes and storms out. What a baby. Mugs scowls at him as he leaves, soon turning his gaze to their unexpected visitor.

“Sorry..a-about him. He’s just..very cautious..of people..”

“Well, can you blame him?” Boris stepped in.

“you and him have been through a lot together. He’s just trying to protect you.”

Well, this seemed to get to mugs. He thought for a moment. She hated to admit it but..Boris was right. Maybe they’d been acting like a jerk to cup.

As he got lost in his thoughts, Boris glanced at their prisoner.

this was gonna be one hell of a day, huh.

Welp…

It’s time to prepare.

PREV MASTERPOST NEXT

[lili863]

SNAKE DEN

Ominis x Slytherin!Female MC (Iracebeth)

All fluff.

Iracebeth gets the idea of making Ominis feel better after their trip to scriptorium by asking him to help her with an unsal request, but one she was positive would cheer him up.

The days after the trio's scriptorium venture, Ominis seemed on edge. Rarely seen in his usual spot or beside Sebastian.

The young boy only attended his classes and would disappear after they ended for the day. Iracebeth knew that after sebastian casting that cruccio curse on her, things weren't the same. It was like opening an old wound.

The girl didn't know the story behind Ominis and his family in detail, but she knew enough from the look on his face when she saw it.

Trauma.

She witnessed the boy haunch over, covering his ears, tears prickling his eyes.

They had gone too far. Except Sebastian was willing to go further. And while she understood Sebastian intentions for curing his sister, she couldnt help but feel immense guilt for dragging him along. And truly in the end he was right, the cruciatus curse was a horrifying spell that would render you a different person if you survived it and was sane enough to live with it.

Iracebeth could still feel the phantom pain every night she went to bed with no more day dreams to conjure that distracted her from feeling.

Her skin would feel hot, every nerve on fire, as if she was burning right through her flesh. Ominis had mentioned being on the receiving end of that vile and curse, and she couldn't have imagined what he went through if this single curse had left her this state.

He was different from the other boys. And he deserved every good that came to him. Iracbeth made no mistake when it came to their relationship, he was wary of her at first, but she could see how much he cared about sebastian, about his sister Anne, and firends like that desnt come into your life so often. And while they weren't the best of firends yet she wanted - no needed to do something for him. He deserved it after what he went through in that scriptorium.

Icrabeth wasnt sure why she cared this much. Sebastian was practically his bother from another mother and yet he didnt stick around much to console Ominis. She suppose it fell on her shoulders. At least thats what she chalked it up to anyway for now.

So she was going to make up for it to Ominis, and she knew the perfect way how.

<<<<<_______________>>>>

"Ominis".

The boy turned around in his chair in herbology class, recognizing the voice before giving a small smile in her direction.

"Hello, Iracebeth."

The girl smiled before sitting next him in her chair.

"It's..been a while since I last saw you." The girl tried to be careful with her words, as she was not sure how to bring up his obvious absence without being awkward or pushy.

Ominis focused his attention back on his plant before replying, "Yes, I was busy with my classes"

His short and sweet answer was all the girl needed to hear before nodding her head as if he could see her.

"I see".

The silence in the air was suffocating. Iracebeth squirmed in her chair, busying her hands with her plant and contemplating abandoning this mission altogether.

It didnt help that she was a bit shy in general and hated making people feel awkward.

"So"

Her head perked up in his direction.

"How do you feel"?

She blinked once, and then twice before she relaized he was talking about the curse she took.

Since he knew what it felt like there wasnt any need to pretend she was okay, he would catch her lying in a heartbeat.

She cleared her throat, "Well..I would be lying if I said I feel okay.."

She watched the boy nod his head, now listening attentively to her words.

"But..we did what we had to do I guess"

Ominis frowned at her answer and looked away, focusing back on his plant.

The girl licked her lips and writhed in her seat nervously before facing Ominis.

"I am sorry Ominis"

The boy looked over to the girl in confusion for her sudden apology obviously not expecting it.

"I am sorry you had to be dragged along to the scriptorium. It wasnt fair to you, and I know you did it for Sebastian because he is your firend but it still wasnt right to put you through that despite you telling us clearly how wrong this all was and how you felt about it. I am sorry about aunt too. I know what its like to lose someone you close to you and..while I am glad you got closure I am still sorry you had to face that truth in what I imagine is probably the worst way possible, nobody deserves to experience that"

Ominis listened to apology attentively, focusing on every word in shock. Why was she apologizing when she was the one that had to go through the curse, when she was the one who also had to witness the gruesome scene of his aunts death?

Even more surprising was how genuine the girl sounded and how heartfelt her apology was, just litening to her words he could feel she truly had thought about this and was just dying to get it off her chest as if she owed him anything.

He felt...touched.

To be honest, Ominis was wary of the girl, going off Castle Grounds all the time doing goodness knows what and always accompanying sebastian on his unsavory missions to search cures for Anne.

At first he thought she was just doing so because she liked sebastian. Most of the girls in school do, hes popular, charming and not a bad student either.

But hearing her apology made his head spin, every thought of her, every impression now dramatically changing the more he got to know her. Not to mention the fact that Ominis was a legilemmen. He could sense the sincereity that further proved the authenticity of her thoughtful words.

Ominis gave a soft smile towards the girl and shook his head. "No, you should not have to apologize for anything. Its sebastian who dragged us both into this mess"

The boy sighed before shaking his head "The cruciatus curse is the worst of all unforgivables. Its not numbing like the imperio, nor quick and fast like the killing curse. Its a curse that brings out the worst thing every living creature in this planet fears, the most raw of all feelings which is pain".

Iracebeth focused on his words quietly.

"And when your faced with such agonizing pain, there is nothing else to focus on. Its jsut pure hell and no escpaing it until whoever casts that spell feels merciful enough to give a break however short it is. Its inhumane".

"I am sorry Ominis" Iracebeth wanted to apologize over and over, she didnt know for what. But the mere knowledge he has on this topic said a lot about his experience. And it wasnt by any means pleasant.

" No, I am sorry you had to go through with it. It must have been extremely unpleasant. As for Sebastian, the only reason I am going along with is to stop him from doing anything stupid and for Anne. I still went into that sciptorium on my own accord, so there's no need to feel sorry Icrabeth. Thank you for your words, I appreciate it, truly"

The girl beamed at his words, her heart beating erractically at his accptance of her apology.

"Very well then, I am glad" she replied softly and went back to plotting her plant with the biggest smile on her face.

<___________________>

Herbology class was dismissed and everyone started pack their things and leave.

Icrabeth figured now was her time to ask Ominis before any other distractions took place.

"Ominis, before you leave I was hoping to ask you something"

The young boy stopped what he was doing and gazed at hwr direction.

"What is it"?

"Well, I know now that you can speak Parseltongue and was wondering if you could help me with something" Iracebeth asked nervously.

Ominis furrowed his brows at the mention of his rare ability.

"So you see... theres there little den of snakes at the edge of the forbidden forest, and recently the poachers have been very agressive in capturing them since they are in such an easy place to spot. Since you can speak snake I was hoping you could communicate them to them about the poachers and hopefully wr remove them to another home"

Ominis looked at the girl with wide eyes expecting anything except that request. "You want ME, to go with you to the forbidden forest to speak parseltongue to snakes and convince them to move out of their homes"

Iracebth giggled at his tone "Well anything sounds crazy when you say it like that but...yes. Also correction the den is actually on the edge of the forest, not IN the forest. So we won't be making any trips into the forest"

Ominis stayed silent as if still trying to comprehend what she was asking.

"But..that's still too dangerous. There could poachers near the area and-"

"Andddd I am sure those poachers will be no match for us. Come one Ominis, please. Those poor snakes are getting snatched constantly and used for horrible things. I know..snakes look scary but they terribly misunderstood creatures"

Something suddenly tugged at Ominis's heart upon hearing that statement. Hes not met someone yet who understood understood the mistreatment snakes get sometimes let alone protect them from poachers. Besides being afraid nobody would really care or have the heart to.

"You truly want to help those snakes"? Ominis found himself asking.

Iracebeth nodded " I do. I had no idea how at first, but since you speak parseltongue, I thought this is the perfect opportunity"

Ominis couldn't help but sigh before smiling at the girl intentions. "Very well, but under one condition, if anything happens that puts us potentially in danger, we will leave immediately"

The girl nodded her head "Very well, come on we should head out now before it gets dark"!

Iracebeth instinctively grabbed Ominis arms and began to run towards the north exit dragging Ominis with her.

If it was anyone else Ominis would probably give them a piece of his mind about grabbing him like that, but all he could do now was focus on the warmth of her hold, gentle but firm, and try to ignore the blush creeping up on his face.

<__________________________>

The two students soon arrived at the den. There were multiple holes besides the big roots of the trees and sounds of faint hisses filled their ears.

Iracebth panted looking around "Okay, we arrived before paochers did"

Ominis nodded panting as well from the jog they did all the way from hogwarts.

"The fog from the forest is rolling in and is going to soon approach these dens, but since they are at the edge of the forest, the fog never does well to cover their homes making them easily visible any who wishes to do them harm" Iracebeth explained.

Ominis nodded a bit impressed at her acute observation.

"We are going to have to convince the snakes to move further into the forest west of here. Its not that far, and there is a place thats perfect for them, theres plenty of space, resources, and its hidden, " Iracebeth smiled, giving Ominis hand a gentle squeeze.

Ominis realized they were still holding hands and tensed at her little gesture. It seemed she was oblivious and too focused at the task at hand to notice her thumb rubbing little circles on his hand.

He bit his lips to contain his smile and breathed a small laugh.

" Alright, tell me where the dens are"

Iracabeth frowned before looking upon the dens, realizing the snakes would not be firendly to outsiders.

"Well, before we do that, how exactly do you think we should approach-"

"Leave that to me, just take me close enough where my voice can be heard, and stay close to me. Dont make any suddent movements, " he warned.

Ominis confidence gave the girl assurance as she led him near the dens and crouched down to face them, giving Ominis the cue to crouch down at well.

Ominis exhaled deeply before opening his mouth, and all she heard was the echo of his hiss, entranced by the way his lips moved and prounced the difficult language that she could not comprehend by any means.

Soon, she noticed little black snakes poke their head out of their dens before hissing at them.

She tensed, scooching closer to Ominis, who squeezed her hand in instinctively.

Ominis spoke a little more of pareseltongue before he looked to the Iracebeth.

He smiled "They are ready to move, they say they know the place you speak of and will head there right now"

Iracebeth gasped in delight before hurridly wrapping her arms around his neck and suddenly knocking him to the ground.

Ominis taken a back quickly wrapped his around her waist in order to stop her fall.

It seems today she just couldn't stop surprising him.

Iracebeth quickly realized what she had done and jolted back.

"Oh sorry! I just- I got a little too excited" she smiled sheepishly at him.

Ominis laughed before shaking his head "Its alright. I am just glad they decided to move. " His free hand reached up to find her face before tugging a stray hair behind her ears. "And it's all thanks to you, little dove."

He spoke the last two words in parseltongue and sensed the girls confusion when he felt her head tilt a little. Ominis smirked, a little grateful she didn't know pareseltongue. It just gave him the excuse to call her that name without her knowing about it.

Blushing madly, Iracebeth noticed their proximity. The warmth of his hand on her waist seeped through her uniform vest. His fingers were featherlight on her cheeks.

She licked her lips, secretly grateful he couldn't see her face right now.

Ominis wasnt oblivious. He knew what he was doing, but he couldnt help it. Why was she so endearing to him right now.

Perhaps it was her kindness with the snakes, or her concerns about his well-being after taking a curse, or the way she felt warm against his hands.

It was baffling since the last thing he expected was anything that has been happening today.

Before he knew his hand reached out, he touched her face. Iracebeth looked to him in anticipation, slightly trembling under his touch.

" I know this is sudden, but if you will allow it, could I touch your face? I usually do so to people to get a feel for how they look. You can deny if you want to, though. I dont want to make you uncomfortable" Ominis figured after all this time he never got the chance to feel for how she looked. Not that there were many instances where he felt the need to, but after today, he definitely had to.

Iracebeth smiled at his request. "I dont mind, just dont be disappointed". The girl jests but she was now faced with the insequerity that he might not find her features attractive.

After all this was the first boy she had ever been this close with. And while his request completely normal given his circumstance, she couldnt help but feel the intimacy of it.

Instead of replying to Iraceth, Ominis opted to frown instead at her comment and reached out to trace his hands against her skin, feeling a small mole on the left side of her chin, instantly making him smile. His thump traced over her soft lips, not missingthe little gasp Iracebeth gave.

His other hand gently traced over her eyes feeling her long, straight lashes.

Iracebeth tried not to shiver under his touches. This felt completely new to her, so she just stayed deathly still.

Ominis loved the feel of her skin, it was a little cold from the chilly air, smooth and felt perfect for a kiss-

His thoughts halted when he realized what he was thinking. He should withdraw his hand by now, but somehow kept them longer than necessary.

"Beautiful" he whispered.

Iracebeth, who up until now has been closing her eyes, snapped them open at the comment, which she didnt fail to hear and Ominis must have sensed it too.

Quickly withdrawing his hand he got up and began to draw his wand out.

He offered her hand to the girl still on the ground with a small smile when she immediately took it.

"Is it almost night now" He asked.

"No, we still have a two hours before dusk falls".

"Good, what say instead of running back to the castle this time you and I take a nice stroll back, its a lovely day"

Icrabeth hummed "I say thats a brillant idea"

Still hand in hand, the pair began to walk down the hill back to the castle.

"So...whats your favorite shop at hogsmede"?

Ominis laughed at the sudden question "Pft what"?

For some reason, the shyness the girl got earlier with him was gone. Right now, she was focused on the nice stroll and talking to the boy whom she found intriguing since her first day in hogwarts.

"I for one absolutely adore Honeydukes. Their toffee fudge was the candy I ate at my first day here and I. Was. Floored! I mean how could anything taste that decadent...."

Ircabeth kept rambling about toffee fudge while Ominis smile turned to a grin as he looked at her in adoration.

His trip to the scriptorium was completely forgotten at this point. All he could focus on was the beautiful voice of this girl who managed to single handedly make him feel peace and relaxation. Something he hasnt felt in a long time since Anne left and sebastian drifting away.

If he could bottle this moment up and keep it with him for the rest of his life, he would in a heartbeat. For now, he was just savoring every moment as two walked off in the sunset back to the castle.

[musubiki]

If Lime is getting attention from the local college girls do you think they’d be a lot more forward in asking him out in comparison to just a high school fan club of girls ogling at him? And if these girls have the balls to actually walk up to him and ask him out do you think he’d be more inclined to say yes? AND if he maybe did have a couple dates during time skip period maybe morbid curiosity kicks in and he wants to see jealous Mochi???👀👀👀

to be honest the girls that come at him are always a mix, which was true for their high school days as well!!! theres obviously a big shy chunk that (as expected) would go "no point, he probably has a girlfriend" or "im too terrified to ask him out lets just enjoy his beauty from afar," the normal intensity chunk of regular human beings that ask him once and when he says "ah, sorry im not really interested but i appreciate it," they let it go and dont ask again. and then theres the aggressive chunk he cant STAND which is the "i can convince him to hook up with me 😘😉" girls that try and straight up seduce him in the middle of the store.

the normal intensity chunk he respects a little more. because when he gives an answer they dont press. the aggressive chunk he HATES because he gives an answer and they dont respect it and keep attempting to lure him in. its these people that lime learned early on, its so much easier to use the strategy of "first response will be polite, anything after that i will be an asshole to them"

which throughout high school and very quickly through the post-timeskip earns him a bit of an asshole reputation because "wow i hear hes so mean to girls when he rejects them why is he like that???" but if you get to know him, he only reacts like that if you keep pestering him.

(he learned this in late middle school when he tried to keep being nice in his rejections, but being nice never got them to give up so eventually he figured out that being an absolute asshole turns most of them away)

NOW ON THE NOTE ABOUT HIM DATING OTHER GIRLS: he DID got on a few dates in between the timeskip when mochi wasnt around, and it was always with the normal intensity types who would at least respect his decisions. he did this as an attempt to get over mochi, but one or two dates in realized that yep this isnt working, and also its not fair to this poor girl because im still thinking about mochi and clearly i cant commit to her, so it would end pretty fast.

and when mochi DOES find this out (he tried to hide it from her hehe) its not exactly jealousy, but that horrible twisting sinking feeling you get in your stomach. she usually deals with this kind of emotion alone and doesnt tell anyone, and tries to sort it out in her head herself before coming to terms with it and finally asking lime about it. (lime can kinda tell though. and when he does find out shes feeling like this, post-timeskip lime is a little better at not denying his feelings and isnt bad at making her feel better)

BUT IN THE EVENT OF THEM FIGHTING?????? yeah if he was mad enough he would 1000% go out with one of these girls out of spite just to upset her. in these cases though mochis emotional state is a bit better because its the (oh hes doing this to piss me off then), and not (he genuinely wants to be romantically involved with someone else)

[grodyego]

happy 25th dude!!! i have some OC questions for you. 1) what is the relationship like between rakesh and vega? 2) who is iggy's favorite and least favorite out of emma's friends? who's fish's favorite and least favorite? 3) how would nemo fare in our wexico universe?

THANK YOUUUUU !!! 🥳🎉✨✨✨ THESE ARE ALL REALLY GOOD OMG IM STOKED TO ANSWER THEM !!!

LOVE THIS QUESTION MIGHT BE MY FAVORITE ON THE LIST !!!!!! ive thought about their dynamic a lot. man without literally just copy and pasting a huge chunk from the. actual word document breaking down everyone in the trio's (IVE GOTTA GET A FUCKING NAME FOR THIS GROUP/STORY) relationships to each other: rakesh and vega are extremely close friends. arguably the closest friend the other has ever had. they were brought into T.A.R.G.I.T. at the same time (vega was 17, rakesh was 24) and to say both were not doing great is a severe understatement. they have fully seen the other genuinely at their worst, at rock fucking bottom, and as you can probably imagine that made for quite the rocky start ! initially rakesh was just kind thrown at vega under the guise of being a "lab assistant" to make treating him as a guinea pig less conspicuous (Unsuccessful) and neither of them were happy with that arrangement. over time though they got to get to know and understand each other better, and share in a lot of. ups and downs so to speak besides, and as a result they care so deeply for each other they basically view the other like a sibling ! they would never say as much out loud though, for their own reasons, but the care and affection shared between them is still quite open and obvious

oh another fantastic question. iggy's favorite i think surprisingly would be xavier. hes lacking in the rest of the group's whimsy and she too has a bit of that herself but i think she would actually find his somewhat long-suffering nature endearing because (as somebody who had to take custody of a teenager when she wasnt expecting to) i think she'd recognize that it comes from a pretty genuine place of like, worrying for everybody's safety, like that protective streak. She Would Get It. least favorite would be kevin. honestly nothing even that personal, its just that hes a guy named kevin. fish's favorite... maybe victoria ! we make jokes about her being kind of a dork and a loser woman but thats also kind of the reason fish came to take such a liking to iggy, among other things. somebody's gotta be weird in the mundane ways in this apocalypse anyhow. and besides victoria has very a very niche interest/aera of expertise and fish just loves hearing people talk about those sorts of things/collecting extremely second-hand eclectic trivia. least favorite. actually infinitely harder. might also be kevin. hes kind of an acquired taste even if he has his moments. its not an active dislike or anything though

IVE TRIED TO THINK OF THIS BEFORE ! he would honestly kind of be both better off and worse, depending. honestly in his own regular canon reality breaking and exposing him to horrible things he can't make much sense of is just another tuesday for him, but he would find himself way more distressed to be out of a job and without a way to get or store his frozen tv dinners. i think he would wander the vast landscapes of wexico aimlessly hoping at some point to encounter the world's lasting functioning computer-monitor combo, not even knowing what he would do if he did, just kind deciding he'll go from there, and then just kind of incidentally encounter other people/phenomena. on the plus side for him with complete societal collapse he would start to be a bit less afraid about exploring his gender and sexuality so at least he'd have that going for him

[sunshiinefades]

things had been weird since the death of the mayor , at first she was confused by the dreams she had been getting. but it had been clear to her that they were her memories. the life she thought she had been living wasnt real , it had also left her in a weird spot with diluc. jean decide she was going to bring home dinner and have a much needed talk with diluc since they were both off around the same time tonight. though she wasnt expecting to come home to a half empty apartment and a note. jean placed the take out bags on the table next to where she had found the note. immediately stuffing the paper in her pocket jean turned on her heels and left the house forgetting about the food. jean had checked his usual hang out spots even a couple of his patrol spots before coming across his partner. luckily they told her where she could find diluc since she had been looking for a least an hour before she got the information. it didnt take long for to go over to where he was at. knocking at the door jean didnt know what she was going to say , but it hurt when he said he didnt want to be in her space , did that mean he didnt want her around? it must be if he just moved out while she was at her shift. jean had knocked a couple times before deciding to speak up hoping he could hear. ' diluc i know your in there. please answer the door. ' / jean & diluc : @allthatglxtters

[freebooter4ever]

I think a lot of the dweebyness came from his early years during his shy, awkward, aww-shucks era. once he got more confident with english, he shifted to a more jock-y vibe

Haha, sorry yall are never gonna convince me that malkin was ever dweeby. Jock is winning the poll btw:

I do, however, totally buy that an american audience mostly comprised of sports fans would look at a teenage boy struggling with a language barrier and immediately label him as 'different' and 'awkward' and 'quiet' and 'dweeby' and a whole bunch of other labels that shoves him into a box and then expect him to stay in that box because they've already decided on what kind of person he is.

We know how our (US) culture works, there's hundreds of american high school movies testifying to the sports/popularity hivemind.

But thats a temporary ostracization. It doesn't feel the same as the more personality-based, more permanent ostracization of the stereotypical 'dweeb' in high school. It's very different to grow up with a bunch of kids in the same neighborhood and watch yourself slowly become excluded and ignored as you get older. that wasnt me - my mother was my bully and from elementary school on she forced me into a form of social normal that made me invisible rather than a target for school bullies. (I dont know if i would reccomend this parenting style though). But i was friends with most of those kids - the ones who nobody would talk to and everybody would make fun of behind their back (we were post c*lumbine so outward bullying was frowned upon). That boy in my square dancing class was one of the few male dweebs, his name was yusef - like joseph but with a "y" and "you" sound. And im not kidding, i dont think the poor kid ever had any friends? Even i couldnt get him to talk, and ive always been pretty good at drawing people out of their shell. Most of the dweebs were girls - colleen, diane, stephanie, alicia - all my friends, all of whom i remember better than the jocks at our school. And absolutely a conscious choice on my part, i remember the point in elementary school when i was walking home with a few girls i knew and they saw colleen and diane a half block ahead of us (within hearing distance), and immediately started pointing out everything that made the two 'dweeb' girls weird and what was wrong with them. And i didnt even say anything i just glared at the girls i was with and ran ahead to walk with colleen and diane instead. And that was that, i knew i had picked sides, i wasnt ever going to join in with the people who make fun of those that are different \o/

aaand now im dealing with a total new form of social ostracization here in LA that feels eerily familiar, but whereas in school you could ignore the social game playing and succeed in spite of them, here suddenly what job you get hangs on who you know. Everybody always used to bug me like 'why are you staying in pittsburgh so long, why havent you tried to make it in the real industry yet' and my answer was always a) i loved my team and they needed me and b) i was art director so had more creative freedom (and my own office) than i could expect to have anywhere else. But i think truthfully in the back of my mind i kinda knew - there were enough hints over the years - what this city would be like and that i would be abysmal at fighting to survive in it.

Anyway im just sayin i dont think malkin - or any of these hockey players - has ever dealt with that level of social ostracization. Its nice watching these guys be nice to other people they consider on their level, and really cute and enjoyable. But for me at least there's always that awareness that if any of them met me, im not the type of person they'd consider worthy of time or attention - probably wouldnt be outright mean, but absolutely would be trying to avoid any lengthly association lol. I think its one of the main differences between being in sports fandom vs books or movies.

ALTHOUGH god, i will never ever forget the day i met one of my biggest childhood heroes - an author about my age 24ish. Who i idolized because she was living my dream - getting to write and create for a living and starting at such a young age. And she was mostly indifferent to me, didnt say much, didnt interact, just signed the book. And i shrugged it off. But then this teenage girl came up, just radiating what we'd call dweebiness. Her hair was a mess, face full of acne, awkward, but loud and really enthusiastic about the book, and desperate for someone to share that enthusiasm. And the author was mean. And cold. To this teenage girl who obviously idolized her and would have killed to have some sign of approval even if it was faked. Anway, instead this teenage girl latched onto me and i had to try to make up for the bitchy author but i knew my approval wasnt worth nearly as much and it broke my heart. I havent read or bought a single one of that author's novels since.

so yeah, its not just jocks, but they have the worse reputation in media.

[stxrmylxve]

a good life lesson you might need to hear.

it’s not too terribly bad ig, just my childhood in a nutshell and what i’ve learned lol

As a child growing up, i hated to look in the mirror. it wasnt because i didn’t like myself, hated myself, etc, it was that i looked at myself and saw my parents in me. however, i didn’t hate my parents. we were quite a happy family and i must admit, dispite a lot of discipline, i was spoiled af.

My parents wanted me to walk a tight line. they oftentimes viewed others as dumb and believed i could be much better. i would brag to them about my grades and i would get a good job, but good grades were expected of me. it blew my ego off and i turned.. sad in a way. it still pains me to look back at how i used to be, even still recently in the past year i could say i was this way.

i remember going into middle school; phones were pretty vague in my house, but i would still talk to my friend ever once in a while. she was at school and i was out for the whole year of 6th grade and it severed our bond a good bit. i was her only friend through elementary, but being alone in middle school made her migrate to new friends, bad friends. she would always talk about how she was so excited to see me when i got back, and when i did, she didn’t even bat an eye at me. she stayed with her friends and left me alone to find my way through school myself. she promised to help me, give me tips, help me meet new friends and who to stay away from, and she didnt, she abandoned me.

I guess what i’m trying to say is that relationships dont last. it might sound as what the current generation would call ‘cringe’ or ‘depressing’, but we all know it’s true in its own way to each of us.

Once i realized this, i began relying on myself and myself only. i kept things from others, not because they were necessarily bad, but because i was scared. scared to open up. scared to be myself. I shouldn’t have been, but i was. i shaped myself into someone else to have friends and to please them.

when i joined online in the recent years, it was certainly interesting to learn about. i learned that it is actually okay to be yourself. if someone doesn’t like it, they can be blocked or can block you, or maybe even people will stick up for you. you can be your own self online, and i think that is so cool.

I guess after all of this rambling, it’s a long way to say thank you for the 53 followers i have right now. it’s not a heafty number like many others have, but i do hope to continue to grow as i show others that its okay to have weird thoughts, to share them, to have kinks others dont have, or have that one cool skill no one knows about except your pets. i hope i have at least created a safe space for my small community and i just want yall to know i am here for you because i’ve learned a thing or two by now.

hell, i dont even care if you go anonymously and want to talk through my inbox or if you want to venture into my dms for quicker answers, im here. even if you send me something quick, a meme, any message truly puts a smile on my face.

it shows people know me. they know i exist.

[petorahs]

☀️ the only thing that makes me a bit sad is that the remake will push Minako more into the background. The women are already being treated so poorly and Maya and Minako get it the worst I feel like.

Like i am hyped but also pretty sad bc the port to the switch wasnt the best and thats rn the most accessible way to play the other side of the story.

Idk maybe i am just bitter and sad for all the Minako stans.

yooo i was wondering if youve seen it and wanted to hear your thoughts!!

honestly? despite being euphoric for the entire day after hearing the news , im tempering my expectations to basically nothing 😭 the graphics/ui isnt what i expected from a post-p5 game...

but also i know better than to jump to too many conclusions from a 240p leaked instagram trailer that got deleted (lmao RIP to that atlus intern) like. no sign of minako sucks so bad i agree but theres also no sign of ryoji and mitsuru. all three are p3 staples yet they didnt show up so like? its still possible! so is the answer being included and elizabeth outings 🤔

(at the very least kotone would be included in like. a DLC pack which would suck but better than nothing! or even a whole other "definitive" game down the line)

pq2!minako's whole character arc was about being sidelined so idk what theyre doing when theyre aware of it 😔 she seems to suffer more than the other boy protags yeah idk about maya but i love her so much so that counts as something, right?

[mitangmyoui]

bestie i am ALSO kicking my feet rn

sorry for getting back to u a bit late, i was just super excited that u answered but i couldnt find time to respond, but here i am!!

oh goodness i hope it didnt seem like there was pressure to write it, but im really really glad u want to rewrite it. im genuinely so so honored that my ask made u want to rewrite it

and yessss mitski reference for the win!!

honestly there wasnt much i wanted to see in that fic beyond what comes next!! i want to see mina bond with all the other girls and finally learn to be accepted and loved without expectation, i want to hear about the rest of the girls and how they ended up in that house together, their backgrounds and everything like that. i also would like to hear about what nayeon meant when she was telling mina that she'd been there (referring to mina's suicide attempt or at the very least her bad mental state i think), is that what brought her to jihyo?? idk im just wondering outloud, i could be very wrong but i'd still be very excited to see it!!

and omg i must've been so out of it in my first ask bc i didnt even mention that they lived at 2129!! like!!!! 2129 is probably like one of my all time favorite twice songs!!!! i absolutely adore it when au fics just slip in little references like that its EVERYTHING to me

but yeah there wasnt anything in particular id like to see changed or anything like that lkjsdklfls sorry if thats not helpful but i promise id be very happy to see the story go wherever it's headed!! and i said this before but i really love neurodivergent mina and honestly neurodivergent twice in general, thats part of why that fic touched my heart so much, i'd love to keep seeing that too!!

i hope this isnt...unhelpful?? im just very excited is all, and i really love the fic as it is too, with all its ups and downs and little references and jokes, so whatever you choose to do with the rewrite will be perfect

speaking of jokes-

i was giggling so much at the part where jeongyeon calls tzuyu a garbage disposal and mina is confused that they insulted her that i screenshotted it and sent it to my sister IT WAS SO FUNNY I LOVED IT

but thank you!! a million times over thank you!! im really looking forward to it, but please take care of yourself too!! just know that ill be here, ready to cheer you on when you're ready to share the fic again!!

take care, thanks!!

You take care as well, anon :)

Honestly, I don't know how faithful I'd be to the original in the rewrite, I don't remember a lot of it since it was so long ago and there are some things from the get-go that I'd like to change.

You definitely are not unhelpful! You actually refreshed a few of my memories and brought me out of my writing slump.

[bridgyrose]

Good afternoon Briddy. Most humbly do I request the next part of Transfer Student Weiss Redux. Please have a nice day.

(You asked, and you shall receive)

“Of course they’re late!” Weiss growled to herself as she paced in front of the restaurant while she waited for Yang and Blake. She had told them the time to come around and it wasnt like Vale was all that much busier than it had been a couple hours ago. Even getting a scope for Ruby didnt take that long. “What’s taking them so long?” 

“Maybe they got stuck in line somewhere,” Ruby answered as she tinkered around with the scope. “We almost did.” 

Weiss rolled her eyes and leaned against the wall near the door. “They could at least let us know why they’re running late.” 

“Yang will be here any minute with Blake. Just be patient.” 

Weiss sighed and looked at her scroll to watch the seconds tick by. Yang was already five minutes late, which she had to admit wasnt like her. Both her and Ruby seemed to always be on time for everything, even getting up earlier than the rest of them for class. So seeing Yang run this late… something had to be off.

A frown crossed her lips as she saw a call from Yang pop up on her scroll. “Where are you?” she asked angrily. 

“We’re on our way, but we ended up getting a bit… sidetracked,” Yang answered. 

“And what is that supposed to mean?” 

Yang paused for a moment, only a faint whisper coming over the speaker for the call before she finally spoke clearly. “I… Blake can explain once we get back to the dorm.” 

“Fine,” Weiss sighed, annoyance in her voice. “Just get here as soon as you can. We’re already late and I dont want to lose our reservation.” 

“We’re five minutes away, so we’ll be there soon.” 

Weiss hung up the call and stuffed her scroll back into her skirt pocket as she huffed. “Of course Blake’s the one making them late and they cant even give an excuse for it.” 

Ruby slipped the scope back into its bag and sighed. “You know, you should go easier on her.” 

“If she wants me to treat her better-” 

“She’s our teammate, that should be reason enough. I dont know what Atlas is like, but if treating people like this is how everyone acts, then you’re going to make a lot more enemies than you will friends. How do you expect to work with your team if you cant treat them with just a little respect?”

Weiss went quiet as the words got stuck in her throat, her heart started to ache about the team she had lost. As far as she cared, this team wasnt *her* team, it was just a replacement until graduation and she could be a real huntress. Though, she did have to admit that maybe she was being a lot rougher on them than she should be. They werent Atlas trainees, but they still seemed to be one of the best teams in their class. And even if they were willing to open up to her, it was hard for her to want to put down the icy shield she kept up to keep herself safe. 

And then there was still the matter of her promise to try to help find Penny, the lie that brought them out here in the first place. Or at least, it had been a lie that she wanted to try to help. And as much as she wanted to keep buying time to prevent herself from having to help, with one of the SDC Vale branch office not too far away, it’d only be a matter of time before Ruby would say something. “I… I spoke out of turn,” Weiss responded as she had been trained. “It wont happen again.” 

Ruby smiled a bit. “After we try to find a clue or two about where Penny went, then maybe we can all try to open up with each other and at least try to understand each other. Maybe you can even let us know what brought you here to begin with.” 

“You were given the paperwork, it’ll tell you everything you need to know.” 

“Yeah, but, I want to hear it from you.” 

“That’s not-” Weiss’s words stopped as she looked over Ruby, almost seeing the same look her original partner had given her whenever he tried to get close to her. Her breathing hitched as she felt her heart start to pound and she instinctively reached for her scroll. “I-I have a text from my Father I need to answer,” she lied as she started to pull away. “I’ll be right back.” 

“Dont take too long!” Ruby called out.

Weiss nodded and checked her vitals as her fingers shook while moving over the screen of her scroll. The only thing she could see wrong with her was that her heart rate was more elevated than normal, but nothing else indicated she was having a panic attack like normal. Though, even if it was a panic attack, there wasnt much she could do now to take care of it. At least, not without letting her team know the full truth of everything she’d gone through. And she wasnt ready for that. With a deep breath, Weiss did her best to calm down and made it to the restaurant with a small smile as she saw Yang and Blake finally there. “About time you both made it.” 

“I told you we were coming,” Yang answered. “Like I said, we got a bit… distracted.” 

“Right…” Weiss sighed and opened the door to the restaurant for her teammates to file in. “Just as long as you keep your promise and tell us when we get back to the dorm.” She quickly grabbed Blake’s arm as she passed, letting go just as quick and turning away. “I’m… sorry about getting upset at you earlier.” 

Blake paused in her step, still not looking at Weiss. “Its fine, but… you really should give them a chance before hating them like you do. I know they havent exactly been keeping everything lawful-” 

“I know. But things are… complicated.” 

“Then will you talk about it with us?” 

“I-I… I’ll try.” 

“That’s all we ask.” 

Weiss let out a heavy sigh as Blake walked through the door, heart pounding nervously at the thought of even discussing any of her feelings with her teammates. But for now, she could enjoy lunch with them and maybe get them to forget about that kind of talk before heading back to Beacon. She glanced over at Ruby, frowning a bit when she saw her looking down the street. “Ruby, you coming?” 

Ruby nodded for a moment, eyes still locked down the street as she took a step forward. “I need to go check something.” 

“Wait, Ruby!” Weiss growled as she watched Ruby rush off in a flurry of rose petals. “That… that dolt!” 

“Weiss, you and Ruby coming?” Yang asked. 

Weiss took a breath as she looked into the restaurant, seeing how packed it already was as the maître d' waited for them to give him the information for the reservation. She then looked off in the direction that Ruby had rushed off in, seeing the rose petals already fading. “Dammit,” she whispered to herself. “Ruby ran off and we need to go after her.” 

“What about the reservation you were worried about?” Blake asked in almost an annoyed tone. 

Weiss took a step into the restaurant and gave a quick smile to the maître d'. “I need to move our reservation back a couple hours. Will that be okay?” 

He nodded and flipped through the waiting list. “We have a spot for four this afternoon-” 

“I’ll take it. The name is under Schnee.” 

“Alright, I’ll have that moved for four today.” 

“Thanks.” Weiss turned away from the maître d' and walked to the door, her smile fading into a frown as she left. “That dolt!” 

Blake sighed and followed behind Weiss. “I’m sure whatever made her run off had to be important.” 

Yang nodded. “Do you remember which way she went?” 

“She went down that way,” Weiss said as she pointed down the street in the direction that she and Ruby had originally come from. “We’ll have to start going down that way and if we’re fast enough, we can follow her trail-” 

“No time.” Yang started to run off. “You and Blake search together, I’m going to check the places that Ruby likes to go.” 

“Wait, Yang-” 

“Come on, lets go,” Blake said. “Yang knows Ruby better than anyone and we’ll slow her down if we go with. Besides, I’m better at tracking when I have someone who can follow me.” 

Weiss paused for a moment and looked over at Blake. “You know how to track?” 

“Its a… skill I picked up outside the kingdom. Doesnt matter, which way did you say she went again?” 

“To the north.” 

“Try to keep up.” 

Weiss sighed as she watched Blake use her weapon to get up onto the rooftops and started racing over the streets. She cursed quietly under her breath and used her glyphs to follow, making sure to stay behind Blake. “Dont worry, I wont slow you down!”

[throwingmuses]

need 2 vent about the shit show that was the doctors appt i had yesterday 🤩 cw for weight ment and other eating disorder stuff

ok so basically its been an extreme pain to get into this ed program because i need medical clearance (including blood work) before i can start bc the clinic isnt equipped to help treat medical issues. essentially i have to have a doctor order the blood test or else id have to pay out of pocket and order the tests myself (which i definitely dont have the money for rn), but the soonest appointment my doctor had available was over a month out. so i tried going to several of those walk in clinics and all of them gave me some convoluded answer essentially saying they couldnt help me. finally i found someplace that let me make an appointment with another doctor that was a bit sooner than my other one, so i went ahead and did that. i walked into it expecting it to be pretty brief, and i was confused at first why the doctor was doing a psych assessment when all i needed was a quick physical checkup??? but i was really tired and confused so i just went along with it anyways. from the second i walked in the doctor seemed very irritated and was acting rude for literally no reason. i tried to just let it roll off my shoulders because i desperately needed someone to just order these goddamn blood tests and sign a paper saying im good to go. but then, when she asked me my current height/weight, i told her that i was 5'4 and 120lb, to which she actually fucking responded by saying "Wow, you weigh more than me!" which was EXTREMELY TRIGGERING and has been fucking haunting me in the form of obsessive thoughts ever since. she also implied that my current therapist/psychiatrist wasnt very informed because shes a recent graduate when in reality shes the most knowledgable and up front psych ive ever had and this bitch who thinks shes the hot shit didnt even know that there were different types of bipolar disorder. clearly her "knowledge" of psychology as a whole is extremely outdated. anyways towards the end of the meeting, she told me straight up that the clinic probably wouldnt accept me because im at a healthy weight which is total bullshit because thats not how it works whatsoever and i was already ACCEPTED into the program regardless of my weight. ive had this issue a lot over the years with providers not believing that im anorexic because ive never lost a significant amount of weight and the worst medical issue ive had was having low potassium and almost passing out at work, and im forever fucking baffled as to why that is because i often eat less than 1000 calories per day. like im grateful for my body continuing to take care of me despite all of the hell i put it through, but just because im healthy on paper doesnt mean this shit doesnt terrorize me on a daily basis. anyways at that point i just fucking snapped (which is very out of character for me cuz im rather shy) and i told her that she had no idea what she was even talking about, that anyone with half a brain let alone a degree in psychology shouldnt talk to someone with an eating disorder like that (which she KNEW i had walking into this bc thats what the whole appointment was about), and explaining to her that the stress i have around food is ruining my life and preventing me from doing pretty much anything i want/have to do. after yelling at her she changed her disposition entirely and started acting like a dog with its tail between its legs which was pretty gratifying at least. i was like openly sobbing very loudly afterward tho and like everyone in the office could hear me which i found to be embarassing but Oh Well. then me and my bf talked to her supervisior and told them what happened and they were actually very receptive and apologetic so heres to hoping she gets fired (: also she wasnt even a fuckin doctor so the whole thing was pointless but luckily i got an earlier appointment with my doctor cuz someone cancelled But Yeah Ive Been Fucked Up Ever Since