#blue heart anon

[gnc-culture-is]

so i recently found out labels for myself that i like and i think it like... amplified? some sense of dysphoria that i didnt realize i had? like i felt a sense of wrongness so deep today when my mom referred to me as a girl that i could not hold myself back from asking her not to use the specific phrase she used (which was literally just 'you go girl!' because something good happened - completely ruined my entire mood, by the way).

but it's really just phrases that cause it - i dont particularly care about transitioning and i present very hyperfeminine. i mean, i do want to throw out my uterus and mayyyybe get a binder possibly???? but that's it. idk. i'm confused,,

and that's not even MENTIONING the pronouns mess!!! i went by any pronouns for a verrrrryyyyy long time but idk if that's really true anymore?????? aghghhh everything is confusing i am in a VERY confusing time in my life right now. considering maybe it/he/they, idk.

i have no idea what im doing unfortunately and it suckssss </3 but hey at the very least i DID find the terms i identify with! i am a proud weirdcoric enbything :3

...back to the main point - is this a common thing? to feel amplified dysphoria after finding terms that are liked? - 💙

Oh hi blue heart anon! Long time no see!! But, yes. At the very least, I’ve definitely heard of other people recognizing dysphoria after getting a taste of euphoria. I wish you great luck in keeping that with yourself, dear enbything

[og-danny-dorito]

Hi💙 I was wondering if I can request megumi and his reaction to a sensitive, innocent and easily flustered s/o. Thank you💙

of course! hope you like em!!

𝙼𝚎𝚐𝚞𝚖𝚒 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙰 𝚂𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎!𝚂/𝙾

𝚃𝚆: none :]

to be honest?? i think he'd probably get along with someone who's more soft spoken and sensitive anyways

like he's personally very sensitive himself but because of his upbringing both at home and in sorcerer society he doesn't feel that he can really be that open about his feelings all the time??

and so seeing you be openly flustered and soft makes him feel a lot safer to do the same and its... refreshing, to put it simply

that and he likes with when you get all blushy when he compliments you LOL

always the first to comfort you when you're upset

in fact it almost kinda develops as a sixth sense?? even if you're trying your hardest to hide it he always knows when something i wrong, regardless of how well you're hiding it

hates to admit it but he likes to fluster you a lot. he isn't mean but he makes an effort to be overly affectionate with you and shower you with praise just to see you get all nervous and tongue tied

omg and when you respond with heartfelt/sweet things back to him?? he melts

he's very sensitive to the emotions of those around him so he very rarely says anything outwardly mean or malicious to you, but every once and a while he'll unintentionally hurt your feelings

like he isn't a very physically affectionate person and if he doesn't reciprocate you trying to hold his hand or something he either A) doesn't know you're trying to be affectionate or B) is in a somewhat shitty mood and can't manage something like that at the moment

when he notices that it might've upset you he immediately tries to make up for it, apologizing for being so mean to you and offering to compensate by spending some time alone with you so just the two of you can hang out in peace

overall though i feel like he'd operate very well with a shy and sweet s/o since those kinds of people make him feel safe with being soft himself :]

[ 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚁𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐! 𝙿𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚛𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚜 𝚠𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚒𝚗 𝚋𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 :) ]

[spicy-jmh]

In response to the poll: none of the above. He looks very huggable though, so uh- I’ll hug him.

🩵

I’m sure he appreciates it!

I’ll make some non-sexy options next time!

[randomnerd737]

do you like lemonade?

-💙

yes it is VERY good I like it a lot

[writtengalaxies]

Hi... may I please request some Murdock headcanons?👉👈

This is my first time requesting anything from you, but I've been reading your work for a while, and believe me when I tell you you do a phenomenal job. Your fics and headcanons are always so sweet, I almost get cavities! 😅Anyways, thanks so much for your time, and have a lovely rest of your day. -💙

HERE I AM, GONNA CRY. HECK. (I'mma call you Blue Heart Anon, if that's okay with you!)

Murdock was labeled a serial killer by the press...but he's a hitman. Hired for his particular...skills. He just also enjoys his work. >:3

He prefers knives over guns. Something about the personal nature of it all.

And when I say he enjoys, I mean he enjoys. He reads up on medical theories and a experimentation to find new and interesting ways to take someone apart.

The reason there's plastic hanging up when he does his work? It's because he's trying to be thoughtful about whoever buys the place later. Blood is a nightmare to clean out of places.

Oh and he's strong. Like, good gods, man.

He covers most of himself when doing his work because he doesn't want to be caught by an identifying mark (and you can't tell me this man isn't tattooed and scarred heavily).

He's the world's nastiest man but also the most gentle, detail oriented lover. He's living that Gomez Addams life.

[smileysuh]

Nova!!!! I love that your boyfriend told you he loves you!!!!!! You deserve to be loved and have so much happiness!!! Truly so happy for you, you deserve the world and everything the universe has to offer! - 💙 anon

awww thank you 😩 yeah, life is just so good right now- but I miss that dude when he's up North for work, two weeks up, one week off, thank GOD I have this blog and you guys while he's away, haha, definitely helps with the loneliness, I hope you're having a great day love 💕

[sylviaplathenthusiast]

hey!!

happy valentine's day 💌

How happy is the little stone

That rambles in the road alone,

And doesn’t care about careers,

And exigencies never fears;

Whose coat of elemental brown

A passing universe put on;

And independent as the sun,

Associates or glows alone,

Fulfilling absolute decree

In casual simplicity.

(how happy is the little stone by emily dickinson)

- pebble💙

omg not you choosing one of my favourite poems ever

happy valentines to you too!

At the bottom of my garden

There's a hedgehog and a frog

And a lot of creepy-crawlies

Living underneath a log,

There's a baby daddy long legs

And an easy-going snail

And a family of woodlice,

All are on my nature trail.

There are caterpillars waiting

For their time to come to fly,

There are worms turning the earth over

As ladybirds fly by,

Birds will visit, cats will visit

But they always chose their time

And I've even seen a fox visit

This wild garden of mine.

Squirrels come to nick my nuts

And busy bees come buzzing

And when the night time comes

Sometimes some dragonflies come humming,

My garden mice are very shy

And I've seen bats that growl

And in my garden I have seen

A very wise old owl.

My garden is a lively place

There's always something happening,

There's this constant search for food

And then there's all that flowering,

When you have a garden

You will never be alone

And I believe we all deserve

A garden of our own.

(nature trail by by benjamin zephaniah)

[daisys-gard3n]

okay i’m back with more love cavities thoughts because i’m sick with the flu and i’m out until wednesday :/ at least i’ve got plenty of time to think!!

anyways i really like the idea of formaggio being a bit of a domestic yandere. like he’ll keep you in this little cabin in the mountains, keep you fed and warm, he’ll do all the hard work, don’t worry about a thing! all while he’s just thinking about getting married in a few weeks and you two having a gaggle off red-and-white haired babies with your eyes. its given him a lot of hope. like doppio, i imagine he doesn’t see much of other people. it’s safe to say he fell head over heels.

so when you want to leave? no. oh, no, no, no, that won’t do… you broke his big dumb heart, darling, and he’s got an axe. good luck worming your way out of this one.

- 💙 anon

I would say he's the classical take on a yandere - sweet and doting to you that blurs the line of acceptable and creepy. You don't really know the traditions of the Peppermint Alps, you're the outsider here in this situation. He'll buy you things (like a nice warm coat, why the hell are you walking around in the cold without warmth?!), he'll show you around the snowy areas, maybe show you around his work, let you stay in his cabin, and prepare meals to you (to the best of his ability or just get takeout). He barely lets you do anything by yourself, you can't even shut the door without him coming in and asking if everything was alright. He's very much a helicopter lover.

Formaggio isn't as socialized as other people - of course, he knows his co-workers and greets them politely, there's his sister he basically takes care of, and then there's you. His parents died a while ago and he was forced to work from an early age, which is sort of the reason why he has such a childish and laid-back attitude. Sometimes he'll drink cider with his co-workers but other than that, it was work and home. When you came into his life, you were far different that the other peppermint people. You didn't look like him, you didn't have the same customs like him, and just seeing you look around his home in wonder sent butterflies to his stomach. He's never had a crush until now. Much like he protects his sister from scrutiny while she runs the lodge, Formaggio intends to keep you in check and make sure you won't get hurt...You first appeared to him without a coat and wandering the winter woods, you were bound to get yourself hurt!

But like a classic yandere - he's delusional and rather violent. Trying to tell him that you need to leave, to abandon him after everything he did for you...

"Darling...Let's talk about this...You shouldn't be doing such silly things...Your husband is gonna get worried, y'know." He'll mutter, picking up his peppermint-striped axe that gleamed dangerously in the light. "Why worry so much?...You got everything here...Let me take care of you."

Why...You never agreed to marriage. Formaggio decided that for you, as your husband.

[fbfh]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY!!!! 💙💙💙

LSKFJSL THANK YOU BABES!!!!!! ILYSM!!!!!!!!

[girls-and-honey]

oh i just saw the 50 questions ask game! how about 2, 8, 25, 29, & 39? -💙

2: describe your favorite pair of socks

I used to be such a crazy sock person but now I match my socks... sigh. favorite pair is probably the thick cozy ones I wear when I'm cold! they're navy with some maroon and white stripes near the top

8: do you collect anything? if so, what?

definitely hobbies, I love seeing cool things and deciding I want to try them. as far as physical objects though, maybe plants? I don't have hundreds (yet) but indoors I think I'm at a few dozen and I finally have a balcony so I also squeezed a decent size garden out there

25: do you have any piercings or tattoos? are there any that you want?

answered here :)

29: did you play with legos as a kid? what was your favorite set?

yes! I liked the big bucket of random pieces the best (my brothers and I would have competitions to make the coolest thing) but I also liked this small star wars set we had of yoda's swamp hut, it had stuff on the inside and it was split in half so you could hinge it open or closed

39: what was the best part of your day today?

feeling like a person again, interacting with people not about work. also ran some errands so I got some nice driving time with the windows down which makes me happy!

50 questions just because

[gnc-culture-is]

i might be trans but idk who to go to to figure it out with so i came here - how do i know if i am trans? i dont really want advice that's like - 'have you ever wanted to be in a different body' or whatever because i'm perfectly okay with my body and have thought that i'd be perfectly okay with a different one, too, and i present super hyperfeminine so i'm not really sure if i'd be taken seriously by the people around me (especially my mom - supportive(?) but old-fashioned) - 💙

Do you want to be a different gender than the one you were assigned at birth? Do you feel like you already are? That’s about it. That’s what being transgender is. If those questions are even slightly yes, then… probably yeah. Whether or not you know matters a bit less than what you do with the potential, I think. Bodies are a factor, sure, but that’s just your body, and to some extent, just your sex. So… Take that as you will! Try being trans on. Give it a shot, see if it feels right. If it doesn’t? No harm done. If it does, welcome to the club! You don’t have to leave your femininity at the door.

[bigoltrashpile]

hewo ! just wanted to stop by and say hope ur doing well 🥺

oh and i would also like to give one (1) biiig smoochum to lucky <3

— 💙

Thanks!!! I'm doing pretty well!! And you can sure try to give Lucky a kiss, but I doubt he'll want to stop with just one~

[spicy-jmh]

Cuddles. With Jumin. Yes. All the cuddles. I refuse to let go of this man.

-🩵

I mean, you can still have contact with him and do other things 👀 cuddles might win though damb

[randomnerd737]

Favourite sanders sides character?

-💙

probably either Logan or Remus

[thedragonemperess]

IMPORTANT QUESTION- what's Horace's sisters name??? - 💙

Okay, if you're a new anon, hi! The blue heart has already been taken, unfortunately.

If you're Blue....what's up with the anon and emoji all of the sudden?

And @angelwiththeblue-box said that her name should be Morace, so I've let that become part of my personal canon.

[smileysuh]

Nova! My sweet love, the way you write mark will be the bane of my existence!!!! Like I will never get sweet religious mark fuck him self with a rosary, like truly I think about 10 times a day since you wrote it and now puppy mark??? I truly don’t know what to with myself rn I’m so worked up. Pussy drunk mark will never not be superior! Genuinely my mind is so frazzled rn I can not fathom a single thought expect how bad I need line cook mark in my life - 💙 anon

HAHA THAT ROSARY SCENE LIVES IN MY MIND RENT FREE- Sunday Sinner was such a fever dream to write tbh

and oof, I'm so happy you liked Real Talk Mark too!

it's so odd cuz I never expected Mark to be my bias- and now, every time I write him, I just feel like I'm in love? like... how did that happen???? pussy drunk Mark is the superior Mark, you're SO REAL for that