#bsd driving post

[originalartblog]

1 year and 4 months later: ANIME EDITION (x)

[naetles]

[muttakutagawa]

pov the man you treated like god who gave your life meaning is never coming home

i hope you die. i hope we both die.

[wistfullywaiting2]

Headcanon that the reason why Atsushi’s eyes are purple and yellow is because the yellow part of his eyes is his ability. He was born with bad eyesight and couldn’t see shit so the tiger manifested itself in Atsushi’s eyes to fix his eyesight but now he’s also colorblind.

And then for Atsushi’s first month and a half of working at the agency every time Dazai makes direct skin to skin contact with Atsushi his vision gets 10x worse. And Atsushi’s too scared to point it out at first but eventually he’s like “hey guys every time Dazai touches me I can’t see and also I start seeing new colors what’s wrong with me”

Eventually they all figure it out and get Atsushi a pair of glasses so that he can turn off his ability every once and awhile, Atsushi also ends up learning how to drive because Kunikida and Yosano can’t just be the agency’s chauffeurs and even though he can only drive if he turns off his ability and puts on his glasses it’s still really funny to say that a colorblind teenager can drive better than 90 percent of the agency.

[nonbinary-akutagawa]

Made the lesbian flag from Chuuya's colors for my fellow lesbians that are obsessed with this guy

And then i got carried away ↓

[mysticdevils]

love me till my lips turn blue

(ao3)

Other than the occasional coughing fit, Ryuu doesn’t make any noise in his sleep — he stays completely and utterly still.

It was odd and at first a bit off-putting, but thankfully Atsushi’s grown used to it over time. In fact, he would go so far as to say he’s felt grateful for it; it’s easy to tell when something is out of the ordinary.

Now is one of those times, because it tells Atsushi that Ryuu is awake. More than that, he’s thinking about something, which means Atsushi should wait for Ryuu to speak up instead of falling back asleep.

“Atsushi,” Ryuu eventually whispers. “Are you…”

When Ryuu trails off, Atsushi takes a brief moment to gather himself before he slowly sits up and turns to his side, resting his body weight on his elbow. “Awake?” he offers. Then he smiles. “I might be.”

Ryuu doesn’t startle at the suddenness of Atsushi’s response, but his eyes do widen a fraction. “Oh.”

“Oh,” Atsushi echoes. Then he raises an eyebrow and asks, “Did you want me to be? I can pretend to. Or you can have Rashomon knock me out — I won’t fight it.”

Ryuu squints at him, clearly unimpressed, before he sighs. “You don’t need to pretend,” he snaps, irritated, but his heart isn’t in it. “And Rashomon won’t hurt you anymore, you know that.”

He rolls his eyes. “And you know that the same thing goes for Byakko. It’s a moot point.” Then he gives a sigh of his own. “What’s wrong, Ryuu?”

Ryuu blinks rapidly. “What makes you think something’s wrong?”

Atsushi shrugs. “You make a certain face when something’s troubling you.”

“No I don’t,” Ryuu counters.

“Yes you do.”

“No I don’t.”

“Yes you — you know what? Never mind. I’ll take it back if you tell me what’s wrong.”

“Nothing is wrong, Atsushi,” Ryuu says quietly. “I just…”

Atsushi waits a moment, but it’s clear Ryuu doesn’t plan to continue. Atsushi holds his gaze and prompts, “You just…”

Ryuu swallows. “I just wanted to tell you that I love you, I suppose.”

Atsushi feels his mouth open a bit and his eyes widen a bit. He can feel the moisture suddenly building behind them and his heart feels so full he’s afraid that it might burst out of his chest completely, because it isn’t often that Ryuu says those three words.

That isn’t to say that he feels Ryuu’s love any less, or that he feels like something’s missing. After all, Ryuu shows it all the time in subtle yet obvious ways, and that’s enough for Atsushi.

He shows it by refraining from asking Atsushi about his nightmares after Atsushi tells him that he doesn’t want to talk about them. He just holds Atsushi and stays silent.

He shows it by allowing Atsushi to help him through a coughing fit despite Gin telling him he hates being touched during them. He even goes so far as to let Atsushi help clean him up after the worst ones.

He shows it by insisting that he be the one to sleep closest to the door. (Atsushi is content to let him think that being closer to the door will change the fact that the moment any danger presents itself, Atsushi will be blocking Ryuu from sight before Rashomon can so much as begin to move.)

Which is what makes it ironic that whenever Ryuu does say it, Atsushi tends not to say it back. Not that he doesn’t want to, because he wants to more than anything, but he doesn’t because that’s not what Ryuu wants.

Ryuu doesn’t want him to because even if he doesn’t understand why Atsushi loves him, he doesn’t doubt that he does — after all, Atsushi says it all the time. What he does doubt is that Atsushi knows about his love.

So instead all Atsushi does lean forward, tuck a stray strand of hair behind Ryuu’s ear, and whisper, “I know.”

Because he does, and the smile Ryuu sends him in response tells Atsushi that he believes him.

[note-boom]

After reading that Dead Apple Post and all the posts within it, I had commentary and theories and random points to make....but I couldn't really put in into a cohesive post, so instead just have them as bullet points in the form of questions

So, obvious one first. What in the world is up with Atsushi's ability? The thing is. It's him that's described as a guidepost to the Book rather than his ability and when he looks at that blue cube, he calls it himself. And yet his ability is supposedly the one who can guide people to what they most desire, as well as his ability being described as something that can basically devour other abilities

On that note...it's interesting to me that it's been pointed out how Akutagawa's ability can cut through any physical structure (matter) and even space itself (so Akutagawa has a space-matter ability) while Atsushi can cut through and basically unalive any ability (tiger devouring prey imagery anyone?). And then we have Dazai who is able to nullify abilities for a brief period of time, not obliterate them just cancel them out. Which is very interesting to me when we have this whole imagery of Dazai represented by sunset, the ADA represented by twilight, the PM by the night, the Special Division by the day, and Atsushi by the moon. The moon is within the night and it's what sort of...cancels out the power of the night. Meanwhile, twilight (ADA) is the time between sunset (Dazai) and dusk (apparently, it goes like sunset -> twilight -> dusk), and it just sits interestingly to me that the ADA people are framed as those "in between" two great forces (day and night), and Dazai the nullifier as sunset sits in between Atsushi the ability devourer represented by the moon...and perhaps something represented by the sun. And the question culminating out of all that: was Shibusawa (the chaos of "ability" itself) the sun to Atsushi's moon or have we not seen that yet? Or is Akutagawa, also represented with draconic imagery, supposed to be that sun or is he really the night that "backgrounds" Atsushi's moon, as we seen in their fights?

Thirdly, something to be said about shapeshifting abilities. All I can remember off the top of my head right now is Lovecraft's Great Old Ones, Shibusawa's Draconica's final form, Bram's vampire ability, and Atsushi's Beast Beneath the Moonlight. (And from the theory linked in the dead apple post that talks about a possible Fyodor ability being the ability to copy himself makes him a kind of...form-shifter as well?). That said, in all these four, the carrier of that ability doesn't just use their ability, they become their ability. That sort of distinction clearly sets them apart from other ability users, I think...it makes them something....other (it also brings up Tanizaki as a rather interesting point, not as someone who can shapeshift or cause shapeshifting but as someone who can pretend to do so through illusions). And Dazai has all this angst about him not being human, but the real question is how human are those shapeshifters? Lovecraft clearly isn't human, Bram's vampires definitely aren't, and Shibusawa was an ability that survived its user (we've seen some other abilities do that, but none of them are sentient). I definitely think Atsushi's 100% human, and I think his lack of initial control over his ability is a testament to that....but I do wonder if he has the ability to be a little bit other-than-human like the other shapeshifters seem to be.

Continuing the Atsushi thread...we've already established that his ability can reject wounds/regenerate wounds. And while I do think we have evidence that he's recovered from normal gunshot wounds and such things, there's also the thing about him having orphanage scars and how most of the times he regrows limbs etc. etc. it's because an ability wounded him. Do you think that Atsushi might possibly have the ability to recover faster from non-ability based wounds (and thus get scars out of it) but an actual power to "reject" ability-inflicted pain (so no scars)?

Also, the whole thing about singularities is interesting to me, especially considering Chuuya and his...instability. I wonder if there's a difference between curated and manmade singularities like Chuuya's and Oda/Gide's...or if Chuuya's (and Verlaine's) whole singularity experiment was an attempt to recreate something the scientists had already seen...namely, a singularity that could survive within a person without actually harming them. And could Atsushi be one of those people who contain a natural singularity within himself?

[kylier-c0splays-x0x]

My BSD therory

I’ve been thinking about this for a while but what if BSD is similar to the spider verse (but in my opinion better)

I keep seeing theories about the last episode of season 5 (which spoilers so if you don’t wanna see that I’d suggest skipping to the next reason) where people think that there’s different alternate realities since who Atsushi and Akutagawa were fighting looked like Fukuchi, there was also a theory I saw where someone thought Dazai was from one of these realities which is why he’s so smart and knows everything (unfortunately I saw these a while ago so I can’t remember who said them but if anyone does know please tell me and I will credit!) (also with the Dazai thing though I saw an idea that someone had, I’m not sure if this is a common idea but there was something that was like what if the book ends up destroying everything, one of my friends pointed out since it’s technically not an ability that it may not effect Dazai, theoretically if Dazai is from another universe what if that’s what happened to his)

The fact there are canon AUs, most shows/books don’t have canon AUs (other than like film adaptions since they can change it up a lot but does that really count?)

if you think about it that could play into the real world, Asagiri could be having us think of our world as just another alternate universe since these authors did/do (that one author that’s still alive) exist, they are based off these authors works

also, I haven’t read it yet, but I think there’s a beast page with a lot of different versions of Dazai (I hope y’all know what I’m talking about CAUSE I CANT FIND IT 😭 if anyone sees this and knows what I’m talking about and can find it would it be possible to send it to me [and maybe some panels leading up to it in English so I can get context 🙏])

essentially what is happening is my brain is a washing machine of theories, mixing them up and making my own, and I’m becoming matpat and driving myself a bit insane with this theory (if you are matpat and see this it is /j though I doubt matpat would see this)

[lunarryuuyin]

Omg finally a bsd fans with some sense- actually no most if not all bsd fans on Tumblr have common sense

But the TikTok ones? They literally baby dazai so much but hate akutagawa for abusing kyouka. As if dazai wasn't an abuser too and actually has more criminal record than akutagawa.

Wanna know what they justify their hypocrisy with? They say dazai was a "minor" when he abused akutagawa, which is false because he was 18 at dark era, and since aku was an "adult" while abusing kyouka he should be blamed more 💀 one of them literally compared akutagawa to Mori because both of them were adults.

That just proved most bsd fans in TikTok are early teens or straight up children. Because an adult or elder teenager would know a professional doctor, who was given charge of a military squad at the middle of a war, is more mature than a young adult, whose childhood was spent in the slums and teenage years in the mafia

First of all there's no denying that dazai was a child, being used in the Mafia. Nothing can justify that. Nor that we can blame kid dazai choosing to be in the Mafia. Children don't have the sense to save themselves. An adult in Dazai's life, who just happens to be Mori, should've prevented him. Let's make that clear first.

But here's the thing, yes dazai was a kid when he was in the Mafia, but he was over 16 ( considering we have no mention of akutagawa at the beginning of storm bringer, it was later at the story when he and higuchi were seen) when he took in Akutagawa. And Dazai has always been smart. Smarter than his own good. He knew what he was doing when he physically abused an already sickly teen akutagawa. Don't even deny it, dazai fans. Akutagawa coughed blood in front of dazai . Dazai knew that Akutagawa was sick. Not to mention he literally TAUNTS Akutagawa in the dark era saying Odasaku would've trained him more patiently, taunting him of a present he would never have.

Also Dazai's training did more harm than good. In present dazai agrees aku's more powerful when he's in the defense, but at the start of the manga when we see dazai training aku, he was training aku to be more of an "offense". Even though Akutagawa is protector from his core aka great at defense.

To quote Danny Motta, "that offensive problem would've been easily solved with a gun." (Love Danny)

Oh remember Dazai hitting and shooting aku because he killed the mimic member, accusing him of killing people mindlessly?

He was wrong! It wasn't a mindless kill! Aku attacked that mimic member because he attacked the Mafia members around there first! Aku was in a protective defense position! He was literally explaining that to Dazai!

Aku literally listens to those thugs who stole from the Mafia before killing them in 55 minutes. Is he violent? Yes. But him only being seen as a no sense mafia killing machine is wrong and mischaracterization. He's capable of calculated decisions. In dead apple we see him singlehandedly beating rashomon with his own strategy.

I have a theory that since most of the manga is from atsushi's pov, we mostly see aku with atsu's pov. That's why we tend to think of him just how Atsushi does.

Not to mention aku is an unreliable narrator when it comes to defining himself. He calls himself heartless, someone who doesn't feel anything, but he protects orphans who are weaker than him, he mourns them, believes hell would've been better than living after his friends are killed and he was unable to save them. He kills all the dogs in the slum when one of his friends was torn apart by one. He remembers that friend of his who died because of the cold in the slums. (These are from beast manga and novel)

And Dazai to this day, emotionally manipulates Akutagawa. But I guess that doesn't count because he's in the Ada now.

Lol I know I'm coming out as such a dazai hater right now. Jokes on you I indeed am. I won't deny him losing his childhood to the Mafia. It's literally mentioned in the stormbinger that with each mafia mission, Dazai's eyes got more and more darker. Clearly stating that the Mafia environment made him more depressed.

Being a dazai hater is exhausting. You sympathize with him, understand him, but can't stop hating him.

And no, no redemption of him would lighten the grudge I feel against him .

Lol sorry for the rant.

it irritates me so bad whenever i see “blame mori” comments on content about dazai abusing akutagawa like holy shit ! people ! are ! responsible ! for ! their ! actions !! dazai was the one who abused akutagawa not mori so it is dazais fault. mori didnt even instruct him to treat akutagawa that way. sure you could place some of the blame on mori just as you could place some of the blame of aku abusing kyouka on dazai but at the end of the day aku and dazai are responsible for their actions.

yes trauma totally went into why they did what they did (hell i dont even think aku comprehends it as abuse “it didnt hurt. dazai gave my life meaning”) but when someone continues the cycle, the whole point of that concept is that they are now becoming an abuser as well and in the eyes of their victims they are just as guilty as their own abuser. we can understand why they did what they did and what went into it but that doesnt change the fact that they are at fault and responsible for their actions.

every defense i see goes like this: “heres why their actions are understandable” like ok great we sympathize with them and stuff but where does that connect to them being blameless??

[lilac-cat-draws]

While I'm currently getting my D drive replaced, I decided to re contribute to the bsd fandom again after being away from it for a while

I drew these weeks ago and thought I'd post something since real life is in the way and also I'm working on returning to an old idea that I'll post about soon

[osachiyo]

˖ 𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐀𝐅𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃 ! — dazai, chuuya, fyodor, nikolai & jouno

𔘓 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 — n/sfw content (mdni), hurt + comfort, degradation, tit slapping, use of safe word, ooc in fyodor’s but idc let a girl dream, spanking, rough sex, face fucking, sadism, dacryphilia, toys, role-playing in jouno’s, overstimulation, reader doesn't actually use a safe word in chuuya's (its not possible with a mouthful of cock i promise), cunilingus, one of my only fics where fyodor isn't a toxic little shit so 🤷🏽‍♀️ ps. don't steal my headers !!

𔘓 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄 — here it is, the bsd version ! sorry for taking so long to finish this, there were some.. distractions 😓 i honestly did not expect this many people to request it *sob* anyways, happy reading and i hope ya'll enjoy ! NOT PROOFREAD !!

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“ ‘samu—!” You squealed, tugging on your boyfriend's hair as he moaned into your cunt, doing nothing but giving you more of that toe-curling pleasure.

"Mmh - don't interrupt my meal, darl'," he leaned back for some air only before spitting on your puffy cunt and driving back in. Large, bandaged hands were pushing your hips down on the bed to keep you in place— to let him have his favourite meal in peace, as he told you.

You couldn't recall how many times you came on his tongue— absolutely drenching his beautiful face with your juices, and he loved it. But you, on the other hand, were starting to get exhausted - no, you were exhausted, chest heaving as you tried to keep up with the hot coil in your lower tummy, threatening to snap any moment.

Dazai would know your limits if it were any other day - he'd know just when to stop, but today was exhausting for him too— and the entire day he was thinking of burying his face between his pretty little girlfriend's thighs - it never failed to melt all of his stress away and fuck did it work like a charm - all thoughts but the taste of your pretty cunt left his mind once he finally tasted you. Including the fact that you had your own limits and needed a break - no matter how pleasurable the feeling of his tongue felt against your swollen cunt— you needed a break.

You hesitantly moaned out the safe word, sinking into the mattress in exhaustion as you watch Dazai blink in confusion, before immediately pulling away from you. The bandaged hand that was previously pinning you down with fervor was now caressing your thigh gently.

"Are you alright, sweetheart? Did I hurt you?" He was calm, eyeing you for any sign of hurt or discomfort. You only shied away from his gaze, fingers fingers fiddling with the satin sheets as you shook your head - "no.. just tired, 'samu." He nodded, a pout gracing his lips - the pink muscle glossy from your combined slick and saliva, "aww, was that too much for my pretty baby?" You only rolled your eyes, playfully hitting his chest as he laughed, planting a kiss on your temple with a soft "I love you so much."

"I love you too," You giggled as Dazai buried his face in the crook of your neck, kissing the bruises he gave you earlier that night as an apology.

Chuuya had a rough day, his underlings being "fucking dumb and not getting shit right as usual," in his words. So like the good little girlfriend you were, you were generous enough to offer your hard working boyfriend some "stress relief".

That's how you ended up on your knees in front of the ginger haired man— who was still fully dressed, seated on the fancy black leather couch as you choked on his cock.

Loud growls and words of praise left his chapped lips in hurried curses, a gloved hand pushing your head down to take his cock in fully, basically making you deepthroat him. "God, pretty f-fuckin' girl, my good girl - such a good fuucking- argh—! fuckfuckfuck! Just like that baby, take this fuckin' cock.." He threw his head back against the headrest of the couch, hips now thrusting erratically up to your mouth, fat balls slapping against your chin as you gagged around him. Tears streaked freely down your stuffed cheeks, making him hiss out curses— fuck, you were such a pretty crier.

If he were only more focused and not drunk off of the pleasure of your warm and inviting mouth swallowing him whole, he'd notice your panicked whines, the way you dug your nails into the muscle of his thighs - scratching and trying to pull away from his cock, even slapping them in panic.

You couldn't breathe— you felt lightheaded and if Chuuya kept going, you'd surely faint from the lack of air.

As if right on cue, Chuuya finally remembered that you needed to breathe— hurriedly letting go of your hair and pulling you off his cock, his heart broke once he saw you coughing and sputtering on the floor, your face scrunched up in pain as air finally entered your lungs.

"Shit— doll, are you okay? Fuck, I'm so sorry, baby," he sounded genuinely guilty, and he was! He'd never want to actually hurt you unless you asked for it, and he felt so fucking bad. You nodded in response, leaning your head against his thigh as you finally breathed normally— tears, snot, drool and his precum dripping down your chin.

" 'm sorry for ruining this, Chuu. I know today was stressfu—" Chuuya cut you off with a click of his tongue, his eyebrows furrowed and a frown gracing his pretty lips, "What're you talking 'bout, baby? You didn't ruin anything," he sighed, "c'mere."

He put his hands under your arms before tugging you up in his lap, gently wiping your face with his gloved hands before pressing sweet kisses on your whole face while whispering sweet nothings about how much he loves you— how good you are for him. The ticklish feeling of his kisses made you giggle— sounding like sweet music to his ears.

After all, no matter how much he likes to see you crying and sniffling for him, he'd always prefer your adorable little giggles.

"Slap!"

You choked out a moan at the harsh impact of your husband's hand cracking down on your ass— his hand gently rubbed the heated skin as an apology, but you knew it was only a facade. "How many was that, dear?" He mused, tone nothing but unkind and condescending. It make you feel small, and ashamed— but you also couldn't deny the way your pussy gushed out more and more slick with each hit— and he made sure to belittle you for it.

"T-twenty six?" You stuttered, thighs twitching in anticipation as Fyodor ran a slim finger up and down your soaked folds, collecting the slick on his finger before shoving it inside.

"Mmh—! Fedya p-please.." You begged, which inly made him grin devilishly— god, he was so handsome. "Please what? You have to be more specific than that," he muttered as he shoved a second finger in your drooling cunt— his free hand kneading the battered skin of your ass but you could care less about the sting.

"P-please! Make me cum—!" You gasped when another brutal smack was landed on your poor ass, the soft fat rippling as his hand met your skin. "And who do you think you are to tell me what to do?" His voice grew stern. You flinched when he flipped you on your back, basically throwing you on the pristine white mattress of your shared bed.

You landed on the bed with a soft "oof!", it wasn't long before Fyodor joined you in bed, basically ripping your cute little babydoll dress off of you as greedy hands cupped your tits, his gaze ferocious— you've never seen him like this. "You're such a naughty girl, aren't you?" He growled— kicking your legs apart to nudge a knee between them - against your bare, sopping cunt. "Fedya—" You got cut off by your own pained yelp as Fyodor tangled his fingers into your hair, yanking your head back to reveal your throat— the soft and sensitive skin just begging him to bite it - mark you up as his.

"Hush now, slut." He scoffed, harshly biting down on the column of your throat— as you let out a pained gasp. It hurt like hell.

You don't know what happened but you didn't like this anymore, you didn’t want to be treated roughly anymore, didn’t wanna be called mean names— you weren’t even processing the harsh words coming out of his mouth, you just wanted it to stop.

“Red, S-stop— red!” You whimpered, sniffling as Fyodor’s movements came to a halt. He let go of his tight grip on your hair— instead gently scooping you up in his arms and cradling you, hushing your little whines.

He silently scanned you before saying anything, dry lips pulled into a frown. You certainly didn’t look hurt… was it something he said? “What happened, darling?” He questioned, voice calm and soothing— a contrast to your own broken one. “Too rough,” you pouted up at him, burying your face further in his chest.

Oh.

“I’m sorry, love. I should’ve been gentler, huh?” He brushed a stray hair from your face, before gently massaging your scalp— easing the burn from him pulling it earlier. “ ‘s okay, fedya,” you sighed, he was so good with his fingers (in more ways than one).

“I love you, dear,” kissing the crown of your head, a soft smile tugged at his lips. “I love you too!” You smiled back. A moment of silence passed as you stayed in his embrace, before speaking up again,

“You’re doing the dishes tonight, by the way.”

“…Fair enough.”

"You're so cute when you get like this," Nikolai cooed, voice drowned out by the sound of his hips smacking against your ass. He had you in a full nelson, your back flush against his chest, strong arms hooked under your knees to hold you up in the air as he thrusted into the warmth of your spasming cunt. "Ngh— 's too much - kolya—" you slurred, head falling back against his shoulder. God, his stamina was no fucking joke— you thought, jaw unhinged as you let out wanton moans. His thighs were absolutely drenched with a nasty mixture of your slick and his cum from the previous rounds— making a "pap! pap! pap!" noise everytime they met your ass. The whole thing was dirty, messy and so fucking lewd— his favorite combination.

"Oh hush now— you say it's too much but—" he gave a mean slap to your bouncing tits, making you squeal and kick your legs at the pained pleasure. "You're just gushing all over me— how am I supposed to believe it's too much for you, hm, dove?" His breath was hot against your ear, making you shudder— "ca— can't! please!" You sobbed, but your tears did nothing more but get him more fired up - shit, you looked the prettiest when you cried.

But the thing is— you actually weren't lying, it was really getting too much for you. But apparently Nikolai was too pussy drunk to recognize the exhaustion on your face. He was going too fast - too hard, you could barely process anything he was saying or even think straight. It was practically a miracle that you even remembered your safe word— "c-clown— clown!!"

It took Kolya some time to process the words falling out of your mouth— brutal thrusts coming to a halt as soon as he realized you just said your safe word out loud. As much as he wanted to ask you what was wrong, he knew he had to place you somewhere comfortable first - make sure you're doing okay. He gently pulled out of you with a wet 'pop!', hissing as your tight walls kept clinging onto him.

Being as soft and gentle as possible, he unhooked his arm from under your knees, flipping you to carry you bridal style - before placing you down on the bed and kneeling in front of you.

"Are you okay, pretty?" His voice was soft— a surprising contrast to how he was manhandling you just seconds before. You nodded, fat tears rolling down your puffy cheeks, which he gently wiped for you. "Talk to me, sweetheart," he pouted - brushing some stray hair out of your face and planting a sweet kiss on your swollen lips. " 'm okay," you rasped, cringing at the way your voice cracked. Nikolai nodded, getting up and quickly getting a glass of water for you.

You gratefully took the glass from him, the cool water immediately calming your burning throat. "Are you hurt anywhere, baby?" He questioned, taking the empty glass from you, before placing it on the nightstand. You shook your head, "no, jus' tired, is all."

"So does that mean we can continue late—"

"Kolya!"

“Well, aren’t you just pathetic?” Jouno grinned, holding the wand vibrator against your clit while pumping the bright pink dildo in and out of you, making you squeal and kick your legs— hips bucking up to meet the toys.

“Please, officer— wanna cum s’ bad!” You sobbed, wrists straining against the leather restraints he had put on you. Jouno hummed, his hand speeding up, thrusting the toy even harder and faster in and out— as he rubbed the wand in circles on your throbbing clit.

“Oh, I bet you do— but, I don’t know if you deserve it yet..” he had a faux pout of his face, pressing the vibrator even firmer against your nub - making you see stars.

He had been at this for hours— getting you so close to reaching your peak before cruelly ripping it away from your grasp, only giving you fragment of the mind-numbing pleasure that you so desperately wanted to feel— and let’s not forget about the mean, degrading words falling from his lips - calling you a worthless slut, who’s only purpose is for his pleasure and his pleasure only. You felt like slapping the cocky grin off his face.

It didn’t feel good for you anymore— instead made you feel terrible, really. The continuous edging with the cruel words took a greater toll on you than both of you had imagined, which led you to eventually sob out the safe word.

Jouno stopped immediately after you blurted out the safe word, quickly but calmly pulling the dildo out of you before removing the wand, placing both of the toys on a nearby table.

He went over to unclasp your restraints, heart tugging at the way you sniffled and hiccuped— fuck, he took it too far.

A frown graced his lips once he felt the marks on your wrists from pulling at the restraints for so long— but before anything else, he had to make sure you’re okay. After all, your safety is the most important to him.

“Are you alright, darling?” He leaned closer, pulling off his slick-coated glasses and chucking them somewhere— wiping your tear soaked cheeks with his now clean hands. You let out a pitiful whimper before nodding, “ you’re too mean and— i still.. w-wanna cum..”

Jouno’s lips quirked up to reveal a cocky smirk— but he couldn’t be more relieved that you were okay - not that he’d ever show it. “Of course, pretty girl— my little crybaby wants to be treated nicely, hm?” He grinned, hand reaching down to flick at your nipple.

“Don’t tease!” You whined, but you still couldn’t help but lean into his touch. “Okay, okay— I’ll treat you like the princess you are,” He snickered, kissing the top of your head before picking you up— taking you to the bed to take you like he had been aching to all this time.

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[usagi-chwan]

Oops, I misspoke (BSDxReader)

🌸 Characters featured in this chapter: Atsushi, Oda, Ango, Chuuya, and Dazai.

🌸 Spoilers: none!

Not much (too much) time has passed between today and the last post about this book, wow! For this request from myself (with all my favorite characters), we're going to see what happens when the characters confess their love for you without meaning to.

Let's go!

Atsushi

• You put yourself in unnecessary danger during a mission, so Atsushi, who was with you on that mission, took it easy.

• Well... As a little Atsushi can afford to, in other words. Because when he gets angry, especially at you, there is no guarantee that it will be impressive.

• Nor appropriate, for that matter. Because, between us... Who confesses their feelings while yelling at someone? The answer is simple: Atsushi.

• “Please stop putting yourself in danger like that! I don't want to lose the person I love...”

• But unfortunately, it is too late to correct or make up for it, or even to keep quiet...

• However, it is a super cute confession, is it not?

~

Oda

• Here, the person responsible for the revelation turns out to be someone other than the BSD character in question.

• While visiting his children (it feels a bit strange to say it like that), one of them innocently asks him if he is in love with you; and Oda replies that he is (as calm as ever), but that it is a secret.

• Unfortunately for him (or maybe not, depending on how you look at it), you were in the next room and, even though they spoke in low voices, you heard everything.

• And when he sees the look on your face when he joins you a little later... He immediately realizes that something is wrong.

• And, since he is no fool, he quickly makes the connection between the conversation he had and your scarlet face.

~

Ango

• If there is anything worse than being in love and not being able to admit it, it is having your friend tease you about it for weeks on end.

• That friend, as you may have guessed, is Dazai, who has been having a blast driving Ango crazy ever since he figured out on his own that Ango was in love with you.

• Since then, he has been constantly reminding Ango of his feelings, asking him why he does not confess them, why you still do not know...

• But do not worry, you will find out eventually. No big surprise there.

• The big reveal takes place at Lupin, while Dazai, Ango, and Oda are having a drink while waiting for you.

• But then Ango finally cracks and almost shouts, “I'll tell them I love them when I feel ready!!”... just as you arrive.

• You stand motionless at the bottom of the stairs for a long time, not knowing how to react to the discovery that Ango loves someone.

• And you have to put on a sad face because Dazai intervenes again, saying, “Don't worry, he was talking about you!” with a big smile and clearly proud of himself.

• And Ango? Suffice to say that he would give anything to disappear from the face of the Earth to escape the shame, but unfortunately that is impossible. And luckily for him, his feelings are mutual, so what is the point?

~

Chuuya

• Everything happens very quickly, and above all very strangely.

• Once again, poor little Chuuya was drunk, right in front of you, and was therefore unable to understand what was really going on.

• You do not really remember how you got into this discussion, or maybe Chuuya brought it up suddenly without warning, who knows.

• In any case, he declared his love for the one he loves, and, as luck would have it, that person was you.

• And even though you initially thought that the alcohol was making him say things he did not mean, or that were not true...

• “You're not telling them, are you?” Chuuya muttered, obviously referring to you, leaving you torn between laughing out loud or blushing until you looked like Chuuya's hair.

• But hey. The second option is a pretty convincing declaration of love, is it not?

~

Dazai

• Everything happens when you ask Dazai why he is always on your back, trying to protect you during missions.

• This is indeed strange behavior coming from Dazai, as he tends to let things be.

• He simply replies that he does it because he loves you, and that there is no other specific reason...

• Before realizing with horror what he has just unwittingly confessed, a heavy silence descends on the room.

• He then asks you if it is too late to take back what he has just revealed, but unfortunately (or perhaps not), it is indeed a little too late.

• And, since it is no longer possible to act as if nothing has happened... You might as well admit that you, too, love him more than just as a friend...?

Remember that you can ask me for a headcanon anytime you want—I would be more than happy to oblige!

Kisses to you all, and see you next time!

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

It's June 19th. Happy birthday to the one and only Osamu Dazai !! 🥳🥳🥳🎈🎈🎉🎉🎂🎂🎂

Happy birthday, Dazai Osamu! 🎉🎂🎊

🪢🦀 Dazai is one of the most protective members of BSD Cast. You are his everything, and he wants to keep you happy. He will go beyond his levitations to ensure your safety and happiness.

🪢🦀 Dazai has an ongoing contest with Fyodor. They like to post rage baits to rail up strangers on the Internet. Whoever makes more people angry wins.

🪢🦀 Dazai finds liking in making origami. Not all of his figures are good, but he's just doing it for fun.

🪢🦀 Dazai is a decent cook. He can't do anything too fancy, but he can cook, and he won't destroy the kitchen in the process. He isn't allowed to drive. He breaks every speed limit, but, surprisingly, he has never crushed into anything.

🪢🦀 Dazai's dates can be the most romantic ones and also the most bizarre ones. He likes to surprise you. But he will be one of the few ones who will propose to you "publicly" (before the rest of BSD Cast). Dazai is fine with sharing his time with you with Oda, Kunikida, Atsushi, BEAST! Dazai. Occasionally, he is fine with Fyodor or Ayatsuji joining you two. On big holidays, and if you really want this, he will tolerate Chuuya.

📝 BEAST! Dazai is addicted to booktubers. He will watch reviews of bad books, enjoying the critique.

📝 BEAST! Dazai is terrified of making friends. You always make sure that he feels included. One day, his fear will be gone.

📝 BEAST! Dazai tries to paint pictures. He is good enough in that.

📝 For some reason, BEAST! Dazai is adored by every dog he meets. It is strange, because he doesn't carry treats with him or interact with the dogs. Unfortunately, for now, he can't do anything with that.

📝 He was one of the last to propose to you. His dates are very simple, but they include a lot of heart-to-heart talks. He is fine sharing his time with you with OG! Dazai and BEAST! Chuuya.

💐 WAN! Dazai almost became a friend no one like with his OG! and BEAST! counterparts. WAN! Dazai even more of a nuisance than OG! Dazai. OG! Dazai even apologized to Doppo for his behavior after getting a taste of his own attitude. The trio is still a bit on edge around each other. But when they do become friends... Poor everyone, they will be unstoppable.

💐 WAN! Dazai (and all versions of Dazai) is easy to keep in check. Give him a flower and tell him a compliment. He will blush, have a shortcut, and won't be able to think about something else besides your compliment for the rest of the day.

💐 Loves Bootleg Lego Sets.

💐 WAN! Dazai wanted to live in Disneyland during their first month staying in Real World.

💐 WAN! Dazai is good enough at fixing clothes. Anyone can ask him for help, and he will fix everything.

[baby-tini]

I actually want to hear you headcanons for Chuuya... just more of your thoughts on him because I liked that one post, ahhaa

Ahh, thank you love, I'm gonna assume you're talking about this post, but if not, I'm curious in which one. I'm gonna do some general, relationship and NSFW HCs

General-

-When he's not working for the Port Mafia, he likes too volunteer at dog shelters, he's so good at taking care of the dogs and giving them affection that multiple people have suggested that he take one home... he, for obvious reasons, doesn't have time for a dog but he truly wants one and he knows volunteering is the closest he's gonna get.

-I personally see Chuuya as the type too want either a puppy or an older dog. A puppy simply because they're adorable and he'd have fun training them, watching the puppy sleep in his hat and I think he likes the smell of puppy breath. Most likely it'd be an older dog that he took in though, considering he doesn't really have time too train the dog, plus Chuuya is the type too want too give an older dog the best last few years of it's life, so that it can pass knowing that it was loved and cared for.. that it had a family, he's just the empathetic type.

-Chuuya is kind of a neat freak, he likes things very organized and clean. It mostly comes from his childhood, with him being on the streets and forced too live in dingy, dirty places with dust everywhere. So, now that he has the finances and space for it, he cleans pretty consistently and very thoroughly.

Relationship-

-It is canon that Chuuya would be the best boyfriend in all of BSD, and I think we can all agree with that. Chuuya is the most attentive lover and he's so sweet. He's very intuned with you, and he's an amazing listener, he also always gives you the best advice.

-Chuuya isn't the most patient person, but he has never yelled at you or raised a hand. He's so very loyal to the people that he cares for and the last thing he wants too do is drive you away or hurt you. I do however think that, because of his job, he would want you too have your location on a lot, not in a controlling way but if you were ever in danger he could get to you quickly.

-He doesn't really want you working, now, if you want too and you're really passionate about a career or hobby he'd financially and emotionally support you. He doesn't want you working simply because his penthouse is heavily secured and he knows you're safe. Now, I do think Chuuya can be a pretty paranoid person and he will constantly be thinking about you're safety, so he'd want too know where you are quite a bit because he understands just by association you could be hurt, because of his mafia job.

NSFW-

-He is a giver rather then a receiver. Your pleasure is his main priority and it comes before his own. He loves going down on you, he does it quite often, it's his favorite way too put you too sleep or help you relax. Especially if you've had a bad or stressful day. Also, when he's drowsy, he likes too kiss your neck as he falls asleep, he not only likes too see you before he falls asleep but he also likes too feel you.

-He really really likes having his hair tugged on, it feels so good to him. The first time you tugged on it, was more of an accident, he was buried to the hilt in your cunt with one of your hands tangled in your hair as your other hand is clinging to him. Your head was all foggy as your eyes blurred with tears as he fucked his cock into you. It was more of a jerking twitch that your hands did, but as your hand pulled at the roots, he tensed up as he shuddered, a full body shudder as he came, he has never come that fast in his life and it drove him feral.

-I see Chuuya as someone who's really into the dom\sub dynamic, like he's deep into it. He likes taking care of you and doing things for you, I can honestly see him thriving in that type of dynamic. I see it as something very primary in your relationship and it's just how the relationship is, inside and outside of the bedroom.

[nocturnegarden]

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[nenunaiad]

A Fear Even Greater: BSD Ch. 121 vs. BEAST Ch. 4

I was reading the new chapter today and I couldn't help but notice some similarities to BEAST that I wanted to share. I'm sure I'm not the first person to notice this nor do I usually do this kind of analysis post but I thought it was interesting and I'd like to share so please bear with me!

BSD CH. 121 SPOILER WARNING

I've highlighted the segments from each work that I think are thematically relevant to each other in the same colours because my brain works that way, but if yours doesn't don't worry - I will explain:

In YELLOW we have Atsushi's instinct to flee in the face of the enemy. I touch on this a bit more later on but BEAST!Atsushi is further along this thought process than canon!Atsushi. B!Atsushi seems mostly afraid of pain and violence while canon!Atsushi is more despondent. He's lost hope and had his spirit broken from watching his surrogate family die in front of him (understandably, poor baby)

In GREEN we have Dazai acknowledging/calling out Atsushi's cowardice. BEAST!Dazai is mostly describing how Atsushi used to be while canon!Dazai is snapping Atsushi out of his current doom-spiral.

He does this in most of his other hallucination appearances, not dissimilar to his interaction with Atsushi in Ch. 25.

In PURPLE we have the core of this whole rambling post (*´▽`*) There really isn't any contrast in these two, both B!Dazai and canon!Dazai are saying the same thing here.

Which brings us to CYAN where we see how the purple bits deviate slightly with context. It's a minor difference but B!Dazai lists the things that Atsushi used to fear (pain, violence, etc.) but canon!Dazai lists the qualities that Atsushi feels he's lacking (courage and hope). B!Atsushi is already able to use this "technique" (for lack of a better term) in combat, likely because he was exposed to terrifying situations earlier and more frequently than canon!Atsushi and has had more time to adapt to them (again, poor baby [╥﹏╥])

Now in RED we skip ahead a bit in the BEAST chapter to Dazai giving Atsushi his next directive. B!Dazai uses Atsushi to enact his plan and (eventually) bring Atsushi and Akutagawa together while canon!Dazai urges Atsushi to compartmentalize and focus on saving the people that he's still able to save.

Canon!Dazai's request is reminiscent of Oda's final words to him which - knowing Asagiri - could very well be intentional even if this is obviously not the "real Dazai" but rather the manifestation of some part of Atsushi's inner thoughts or Byakko (personally my money's on the tiger theory but we'll see). The Oda/Dazai/Atsushi/Akutagawa parallels will never stop and I'm here for it tbh.

[Dark Era excerpt from this translation from @nkhrchy]

Which brings us to MAGENTA (Could I have done these in chromatic order? Yes. Did I only realize that after typing it all out? Absolutely.) In both cases at this point Atsushi comes to a realization and I think the difference in what that realization is really drives home how well BEAST uses alternate universe to emphasize characterization in canon. Some of this is based on my assumptions about the final page of Ch. 121 and is therefore at risk of being jossed next month BUT I think that what canon!Atsushi is realizing in the final panel ("who you really are") is that this Dazai apparition comes from The Tiger. If it isn't Byakko explicitly I think it's fair to say that it's coming from somewhere within Atsushi himself. So, that being said, let me explain a little bit: B!Atsushi's only recourse is to take refuge in Dazai's plans/orders. His "greater fear" stems from an instance when he deviated from those orders and as a result he feels safest behind the bulwark of going along with Dazai's will. Not the healthiest coping mechanism, but it makes sense considering what B!Atsushi has experienced up to that point. Canon!Atsushi, however, is (I assume) realizing that the safety and reassurance - however harsh it may seem - of the Dazai in his head has actually been coming from himself the entire time. I think it's safe to say that whether it's his subconscious or Byakko, this apparition takes the shape of Dazai because that's who Atsushi trusts during times of crisis; that's the voice he's desperately wishing he could hear. Ultimately canon!Atsushi is in a much better place (despite... everything lol) because he's able to recognize his own internal strength instead of clinging to the safety he sees in Dazai. B!Atsushi does eventually start this process after Dazai fires him and Kyouka (and then steps off the roof of HQ RIP) but he has to take the time first to heal from the anxiety his violent upbringing inflicted on him (quite understandably - let's all say it together: poor babey T_T) There's more I could say about canon!Akutagawa undergoing a similar process re:Dazai but this post is too long! So I won't ♡

OKAY! My brain has never been satisfied with using one word when I could use ten so if you made it to the end thank you and I'm sorry ♡ I am not a writer and doing this reminded me why!! So I will definitely stick to drawing pictures (I'm almost finished one I swear! I'm like a plant, I wither into nothing in the winter months)