#but also smth smth generational trauma

[justicode]

If you make ME2 deeper than they likely intended, you can read Morinth and Samara as two sides as of the same person, and killing one will always kill the other in some way.

[alicentes]

Why do you like Gale? No hate, I’m honestly glad because I feel like we’re a minority because everyone seems to detest him. What is it specifically about his character that draws you in? For me it’s his endurance despite loss, his devotion to the cause, he’s the flawed rebel that isn’t pure because the system doesn’t allow him to be.

I like him for the reasons you just listed too. His growing hatred towards the capitol and his commitment to ending the oppressive situation is relatable and REAL. He is willing to make the hard choices that aren't always morally right but under the circumstances I can understand why he is willing to use violence, why he accepts that they aren't going to win this rebellion without a few civilian casualties. He was fully committed to the rebellion and was willing to die for Panem to be free and wasn't naive to how that was going to be achieved. I can respect that. Especially given his life circumstances and how much trauma he's been through (something that fans ignore because he wasn't in the horror that is the games, therefore, his trauma doesn't count). We get insight into his view on the people in the capital, the privileged, early on, Before the reaping he says "if they all stopped watching, there wouldn't be any games." in his eyes they are all complicit, which isn't necessarily true for every single peson but you can understand his point. The people in the capitol could at the very least all boycott the games and this would put an end to them because then no one would be profiting off them. We know this to be true as well because the games were not successful and barely anyone watched them in TBOSAS and they were likely going to stop them.

Another reason I like him is because of how loyal he is to his family, the everdeens (he would have taken care of them if Katniss had died and was taking care of them when she wasn't around) and his loyalty to his district. He saved as many people as he possibly could from 12 during the genocide and yet, he still felt guilty that he couldn't do more. It is important to note that it was AFTER witnessing the genocide that he fully became involved in the rebellion and the creation of weapons and was willing to make the tough calls that would've got people killed. He was still a rebel in the making before then but who can blame him? his father is killed in the mines and he has to take care of his mother and siblings and make sure they don't starve to death (yes people in district 12 were literally dying of starvation if anyone is forgetting that fact) and Katniss was the only person who understood this. He resents the fact that some people are living in luxury when his people are suffering so much, he hated the class system and wealth disparity which separates the districts and that is something most of us can understand in todays world. In catching fire, when more people started hating him, he's working 12 hour shifts in the mines that killed his father and yet, his family still don't have enough food to get by, he has siblings who are now getting old enough to enter the games and there's nothing he can do to help them if they get reaped because he's aged out and can't volunteer on his behalf. He acted like a dick at times but he was also suffering and lets not forget that moment when he was TORTURED by peacekeepers and could have been killed had Katniss not stepped in.

I don't agree with all of his decisions but when this war started there was no going back, they either win and create a better Panem or they die, their loved ones die or worse, they suffer fates worse than death and worse than the lives they had before. The first rebellion resulted in the games and further oppression of the districts, imagine how it would've ended if this rebellion was lost? When you're fighting a leader as brutal as Snow you have to fight dirty and be prepared to make terrible moves that Snow thinks you haven't got it in you to make.

Gale is resilient, passionate, a fighter, loyal, smart (disagree with his strategies but they were good and pragmatic war strategies) and just as flawed as any other complex character. It is a shame people hate him so much, and mainly because of a love triangle that Suzanne never intended to write in the first place.

Sidenote: the way the fandom hated on him just made me analyse his character more closely and like him MORE which is a bit of pattern with me and unfairly hated characters.

[danothan]

starting to think the reason i haven’t been burnt out by the relentless angst of dc is bc i’m sitting over here in my high palace of halbarry. it’s not my fault that they’re happy

[benevadeca]

OK the answer TO ME is that trolls are like. To make up with the Canon inconsistencies. Like so uhhhh just brainstorming here but it makes sense the pop trolls population is fucked bc of being annually eaten. So like lack of old people entirely outside the monarchs bc same models lol.

Age is subjective after the developmental years? So it's more quite literally a state of mind. Which can rationalize tiny in the 3rd movie being like IM A MAN and guy only being just a little skeptical and neither branch nor poppy worrying abt him when he was possibly gonna fall off that building lol.

So the monarchs age more bc it's like. Responsibilities and having to tackle Real Feelings and Consequences outside of the present moment. So branch who looks absolutely decrepit with his crows feet bc he was always looking forward on a long scale. Building a bunker he could last 10 yrs in alone. Waiting for his brothers in some unspecified future.

Vs like floyd who even tho he got marinated in a bottle and anime white hair he still has extreme baby face as an indeterminate maybe 30 smth yr old. Like yes months of captivity sucks its not years and you only gotta worry about the immediacy of escape.

[daz4i]

as i'm getting in a better shape these days i can now even more confidently say that anyone who tells me that exercise is a quick way to feel better is fucking lyinggggg that shit sucks so hard. it no longer makes me feel like i'm gonna break after 2 minutes but it's still just bad. not a single positive aspect of it (emotion wise)

[dan-crimes]

I love writers I love when they ramble on abt characters and their motivations, their core values and the reasons why they react to things in certain ways and having character interactions work off of each other due to their differing ways of viewing the world and in general I just love character analysis

[floorpancakes]

i refuse to let clamp off the hook for underutilising himawari's fucking fascinating character setup and traits but on a less serious level im obsessed with the concept of her as an instigator of chaos.

like she's way less airheaded than she seems and it doesn't come off like Default Airhead Girl Behaviour or even Default Girl Companion That Ships Her Friends primarily (like not as hard as some other series by comparison I mean she's very I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE by default) specifically she just seems like someone that thoroughly enjoys being a little shit in a sincere way and giggling at her dumbass friends and has a shade of high emotional intelligence about it all. like she's just girl of all time. she's i don't know where im going with this just take this low effort meme from when i watched the holic stage play on youtube this isn't a coherent thought it's like 2am ill come up with better thoughts later

[writterings]

insanely frustrating wednesday today

[reanimatedgh0ul]

no bc i'm RLLY thinking abt jazz's relationship to maddie rn and how while she may butt heads w her she has def had one to few convos w maddie where it was one of the rare of moments of her mom being the most vulnerable and emotionally honest she's ever been w her abt the more difficult aspects of her childhood and history w her side of the family

like jazz hearing her mom talk abt her relationship w her mother and how it def came across as "i love my mom but also that's my mom" in terms of her complicated feelings towards her

jazz simultaneously feeling for her bc yk generational trauma but also being reminded that maddie in some ways as a mother unintentionally mirrors that of her own mother

it's like yeah it's good that her mom is finally sharing this stuff abt her w her but also jazz in a way feels like she's having to act somewhat as the closest thing to a therapist in terms of how she feels she's more understanding of maddie's own feelings than she is of hers as her own daughter

it's v much this feeling of "i am my mother's child"

[wyllzel]

now THIS is interesting lyricism 👀📝

[alexiaugustin]

All of H. Y.'s books are the same torture/misery/trauma porn with LGBTQ+ characters, a straight person using LGBTQ+ trauma to sell is so gross not to mention she intentionally makes it as triggering as possible and she's said this in interviews. Even if you like the books, read her interviews and things she's said, it's wild. She's obsessed with male rape and as a gay male victim of sexual violence myself this is disgusting.

i do not see how and why her other works that all stand independently of each other are supposed to influence my opinion on the fact that a little life is, in my opinion, a literary masterpiece. even the question whether it’s a morally or ethically good book does not really have to influence your perception of art unless you are reading for moral and general life advice only. personally, i do not do that and do not recommend judging literature through that lens but it’s not any of my business how other people read unless they are somehow making it mine

[emcads]

if i trusted myself to complete a big project i’d write the mutiny era sequel myself

[waywardsalt]

mmmmm

[performing-personhood]

Other people: Yeah, prioritizing yourself can be a struggle, self care is hard. :(

Also those people: covered in tattoos, own nice new clothes, going on vacations, getting regular haircuts, can regularly be found with takeout coffee and sometimes at breweries.

Me: Prioritizing myself is a real struggle. Self care is almost impossible without concerted effort.

Also me: has been planning three tattoos for 15yrs, buys new clothes from fast-fashion only when the old ones stop being wearable in public, has not taken a trip longer than a weekend that did not involve interpersonal labor (wedding, new baby, graduation etc.) in nine full years, been drinking only coffee and water for two weeks because 12pks of soda weren't "a need."

This is not a flex, i am a broken human.

But we are not the same.

And until I know for a fact that at least one of those other people has made sure to carefully request a birthday gift under $25 shipped - so that they could experience the rare, indulgent pleasure of getting something they wanted while also being careful to make as minimal an impact on reality as possible -

I wish people would stop pretending they know what this fucking feels like.

[futurefind]

//Smth that gets me abt Sa's singing is that it truly is secret shy sa lore :'))) she's just... v deeply/inwardly insecure abt p much Everything except fighting and physical strength and dsggdshdsg

[captainseamech]

Romantic candidates go!

@royalreef shanted: miri for the romantic candidates?

             High Tide tapped the small cube he gently held in his servo with a pensive expression, eyes slowly softening as the seconds went by. “... I am not sure. Miranda is... one of a kind in the most positive way, knowing their place and... even cute and funny, as what I managed to witness. But alas... A monarch as well. I mean, this isn’t really an issue since I have my knowledge of mannerisms and I can even be a knight for protection, if needed. I don’t have much to lose behind me as a knight.”

             A pause.

             “The thing is... I don’t know if I can even meet her standards to begin with. They’re someone of a high status, it is very remarkable by the crown I always see her around with and how imposing they can be, of course they would and can be demanding. The real issue is... myself.” Another pause, this time a longer one. Green eyes glanced at his own reflection in the liquid contained inside the cube with a slight disappoint on them... as if he was disappointed about himself. “I... I’m clearly made of metal, even though I’m an alien, a living organism. There might be some needs that she might have that I couldn’t achieve, nor I could satisfy or reach her requirements or... If they would even accept me in general, as a whole.”

             “So,” the mech once again began to speak after taking a small sip of his drink, “in suma, yes. Yes I would give her a chance, though I have yet to know more about her if the opportunity is given. Even if I know I might fail, I will always do my best to improve if and when needed.”