#just cptsd things

[xvelvetcoffinx]

[rainywhispersblog]

[pr1soners-d1lemma]

I don't even remember who I used to be.

[dragonheartstring360]

can’t emphasize enough how when you grew up in a toxic environment, being in the room with someone who’s angry or frustrated - even if it has nothing to do with you - is absolutely terrifying cuz you’ve been 1000% conditioned to assume frustration = all hell is going to break lose and be aimed directly at you

[ladycatashtrophe]

"Wow, you're so self-aware! It takes most people years of therapy and dedication to get to that point." Thanks, I constantly feel completely disconnected from my physical being and the material sensation of my body, brain, and spirit/soul is so overwhelming that I often have to see myself as an objective third-party instead of an integrated entity. Father son holy spirit and all that.

[traumabody]

all i wanted in life was love and now i am terrified of it

[mycptsdstory]

Found on twitter

[volucrine]

Cazador has a lot to say to MC if Astarion isn't with them, and it is all such hard-hitting CPTSD/abusive relationship meta that I had to go stare at a wall for a long time before starting to function again.

Stephen Rooney was not pulling any punches with this storyline. And he really, really did his homework. For his sake I hope that his "background research" on abuse and trauma was entirely theoretical.

And then there is this gem.

[Player: "And you call yourself his family? You're a monster."

Cazador Szarr: "What is family, if not the monsters we are obliged to love?"]

I mean... Jesus Christ...

[xvelvetcoffinx]

"Edging" now refers to when you are on the verge of tears all day but don't cry

[nothing0fnothing]

being like this and living with someone who doesn't understand is so hard.

[hivnegative]

[spoonie-girl-next-door]

[yourhealingjournal]

actually, to have the audacity to live, to take up space, is the scariest and most rewarding gift you can give yourself.

[armchair-lethroe]

Idk who needs to hear this but a parent defending or “staying out of” the abusive actions of the other parent is abuse in its own right. Yes I am also referring to emotional or verbal abuse.

[systemofmemes]

[2random4phantom]

Tried to depict Trevor's inner critic, toxic shame and sense of guilt after North Yankton incident.

"Can I live on without saying sorry?"

I also have CPTSD so I can relate to him to some extent. It's like whenever he stared into the mirror he started to judge himself and ultimately led to an emotional flashback, which is a mixture of abandonment melange, shame from childhood, and came to a conclusion that he should be blamed for fucking everything up.

(Just some yapping above...)