#but first I'm going to write out all these snippets so that they're out of my brain and on paper

[guacamolleee]

too many good choices for the WIP ask meme 😭I want to know about ye old texting and domestic... but since I gotta choose one: say more about the omegaverse? 👀

Ask me about my WIPs!

Well, obviously, now I gotta talk about all three! 🤣

Emmrook ye olde sexting

I got like three different prompts about leaving notes for your lover to find, and I'm currently attempting to do the Summer Spice smut challenge, and there was a prompt there for dirty talk. Smooshing that together gets us: ye olde sexting via love notes 🤣

It starts off sweet. Short and simple like Rook leaving a small "Hope you have a good day at work!" note in Emmrich's bag. Or "I love you" notes hidden in his drawer. Then it continues to escalate until it's dirty notes at the least expected time that he has to hide them from his colleagues and students OR ELSE. He wears a blush the entire day after he finds them.

It's going to be epistolary style, so I'm going to be actually writing the notes so that's going to be fun.

Emmrook domestic

This is a gift for one of my closest fandom friends <3. I'll be using her Rook here. It's also one of the ones I'm integrating with the Summer Spice smut challenge. The plan is sweet and hot — a slow morning, cooking breakfast that turns hot and heavy. Over the table, standing doggy, robes/pajamas still on, just pushed aside 😌

Emmrook omegaverse

ohoho, this one has been in my WIP folder for SO LONG. There's not much about it besides what's on the tin: it's Emmrook omegaverse smut. I don't have like a big in-universe reason for it. I just wanted Emmrich to knot Rook with his dick until they're both crying 🤣

Have a snippet under the cut 😏

“Darling,” he managed to choke out, “You're in heat.”

The words knocked the air out of her. Heat?

She hadn't been in heat since she was a teenager, not since she first presented and started taking her suppressants. The suppressants that were in her pack—

Her eyes widened. No, no, no, no, no — a terrifying realization hit her. She had not taken her suppressants in weeks. She had run out of them, was planning to buy some but never got around to it between each new disaster after the other.

Oh, she was going to be sick.

“Rook, darling, breathe for me.” Emmrich's voice rang through her room, and his scent was in her head, curling around her like ribbons. “I'll help you. But I need you to stay here, can you do that, darling?”

She whimpered head in her arms on the back of her green couch.

“I know it hurts, darling, but only for a little bit. I just need to run to the Necropolis to get something for you and you'll be right as rain.” He took a deep breath, attempting to calm himself but seemed to immediately regret it, breathing in a full nose of her scent. He stepped away, back practically against her door, his fingers twitching at his side.

He was leaving her, and her face scrunched, her scent turning sour as tears pricked her eyes. Why was he abandoning her now? “Emmrich…”

“I'll try to be swift, and I'll let the others know not to disturb you.” He turned around fingers gripping the doorknob as he took shallow breaths. “Everything will be alright, my love.”

***

Everything was not alright. Rook burned from inside out, the pounding in her cunt turning worse and worse.

She tried to be good, she really did — stayed in her room, staring at the fishes as the fever rolled through her, and sweat dampened the couch. But it quickly turned unbearable, mind foggy and muscles aching, misery lacing through her skin. She didn't want to be here — she didn't want to be alone. In the most primal part of her psyche, she knew how to make this better, but Emmrich had deemed it necessary to abandon her.

Emmrich. Her mind latched onto him.

Rook knew exactly what she needed. She wasn't entirely sure how she managed to get her clothes back on — wrong and hot and painful — or how she stumbled into his laboratory without alerting half the Fade.

But she did. She climbed the stairs, pulling at the laces of her shirt again and the band of her pants, taking them off and leaving them behind as she was wrapped in his scent. It felt good against her feverish skin, and she nearly started rubbing herself all over his books and his desk. She doubted he would appreciate that, and she was striving to be a good, good girl.

Finally, she found it, through the haze and brain fog, the little mechanism that unlocked the bookcase hiding his bedroom — and she let herself in.

[the-modern-typewriter]

In a recent post you said most of us weren't here for vampires but I beg to differ; your vampire snippets are literally enthralling. If you're in the mood to write another one, here's an excuse for you to do so (pls they're so good-), preferably with an enemies to lover vibe? Who doesn't love a little dramatic tension, right? Thank you!~

"Don't turn around."

The human paused, heart slamming in their chest at the voice. The hall of mirrors was eerie around them, all shadows and neon and flashing lights and distorted glass that offered them no sign of the vampire behind them. After a beat, the hunter kept walking, gaze trained to the wall of mirrors lining the left.

Somewhere, in the distance, they could hear screaming. It was difficult to tell if the sounds were horror or delight.

"What happens if I turn around?" the human asked.

"I'll have to kill you, and neither of us wants that."

"I'm a hunter. I'm pretty sure we both want that fight. Kinda how it goes, you know?"

Yet, the hunter didn't turn around. They had a weapon on them, of course, because they always had a weapon on them. But they hadn't come to the fairground to wage battle against terrible evil. The night was supposed to have been a fun one, candy-floss sticky and sweet with first kisses. A stupid lump wedged in their throat. They hastily wiped the remnant tears from their eyes.

They felt the vampire move next to them, though they heard no steps and felt no breath. Only the slight emanating chill of the undead. Despite themselves, despite knowing better, they searched the glass for any sign. There was nothing.

"What do you want?" the hunter demanded.

"What do you want, coming here?"

"I didn't know this was vampire territory."

"I suppose you are just a baby hunter. How old are? Sixteen?"

"Seventeen," the hunter snapped.

The vampire chuckled. "Seventeen," they echoed. Musing. There was something in their voice that the hunter couldn't quite read.

"How old are you?"

"Seventeen."

The hunter rolled their eyes. They supposed they should have been terrified - on any other day they would have been. They hadn't technically done their first solo hunt yet and even one vampire was not a creature to be taken lightly. Everything in their head was too loud for terror. Too raw.

"Is it the girl you liked, or the boy?" the vampire asked.

"Excuse me?"

"The boy and the girl who were kissing here, not long ago. That you saw. I saw you see them. You looked like you'd been staked through the heart. Which is the one you liked?"

The hunter whirled, furious. They caught a blur of movement before an icy hand clamped over their eyes, slamming them back against the glass hard enough to knock the breath out of them. They were surprised the mirror didn't shatter. Their head throbbed and a low whine of pain slipped free of their throat. The vampire caught their wrist before they'd finished reaching for a weapon, grinding that into the glass behind them too.

"I said," the vampire's lips pressed against their ear, voice a sudden lethal hiss, "don't turn around."

"And I don't take orders from vampires!"

"Touchy subject, was it?" The vampire's grip tightened hard enough to hurt.

"If you're going to kill me, just kill me!"

The vampire was silent, at that. They did not retreat, but their grip eased enough to be only iron instead of something painful. Their body felt hard and lean and strong against the hunter's. Dangerous and gorgeous. Nothing like the gentle wholesomeness of-

"The boy," the hunter said. "Eddie."

"Eddie. And you are?"

"Fuck off, leech."

"You're hot," the vampire said. "Eddie's an idiot."

It startled the hunter enough that the venom died on their tongue and their mouth dried. They'd expected - well, anything but that perhaps. They would have gaped at the vampire if they could see past the press of darkness over their eyes. They were sure their jaw dropped.

Hot. A vampire had just called them hot. Maybe they had concussion. A shiver ran down their spine.

"Want me to kill her for you?" the vampire asked, conspiratorial. "Bet I could make it look like an accident."

"No! She's my friend."

"Some friend. Want me to kiss you?"

The hunter - the hunter had absolutely no idea what to say to that. Well. They knew what they were supposed to say. No. Nada. Absolutely not. Vampires were vampires, and the only acceptable way to deal with them was to stake them.

The vampire chuckled again, presumably at their expression. They pressed a kiss to the hunter's throat, above their jugular. The hunter's breath hitched anew.

"God, you're so angry and so hurt," the vampire said. "I want to eat your heart. You're gorgeous. You can cry again if you like, I won't mind. I won't judge."

Vampires, their parents always said, craved life. It was why they were found so often in bars, or fairgrounds, or the other high points of the night. It wasn't just hunting. They were drawn to the sound, and the vibrancy, like ravenous ghosts clawing at the wounds of the world.

Somehow, it made the hunter feel less pathetic. For all those chuckles, it felt a bit like power. They could only imagine what their parents would say to that. No doubt they would berate the hunter for their unforgivable stupidity, because vampires killed hunters and hunters killed vampires and if the fairground was actually a travelling coven then -

"Do you want to kiss me?" the hunter asked.

"Yeah."

"That's embarrassing for you."

The vampire scoffed.

"And crying alone in a funhouse over some boy who doesn't even know vampires exist is cool?"

"I thought you weren't judging."

"Vampires are all shameless liars. Didn't your parents teach you that?"

Despite themselves, the hunter snorted.

"It's because you're not normal," the vampire said, in a different voice. Quieter. Suddenly serious. "Not like them. Can't do the things they do, because you're too busy stuck trying to slaughter the likes of me. Eddie's normal. Safe."

The hunter swallowed.

"Yeah."

"Yeah," the vampire echoed once more.

The vampire kissed them then, or maybe it was the hunter that started it, but it was clumsy and shockingly gentle and good and definitely the dumbest thing that the hunter had ever done. But they weren't thinking about Eddie anymore. It was impossible to think about Eddie with that cold perfect mouth and the adrenaline searing heat through the hunter's body. Every instinct in their body screamed danger and it was the most glorious distraction from heartbreak.

Their body arched against the glass, pressing foolishly closer.

They were left panting.

Then the vampire kissed them again, and it was a little less clumsy, more claiming, like the vampire was learning how to do it. Like maybe they'd never kissed anyone either. Like maybe they really were seventeen, and had thought their life would all work out differently.

"Next time," the vampire said, and nipped their lip just enough to draw blood. "Don't turn around. I've gotta go."

They shoved the hunter away, and - the hunter wasn't sure if they were left alone with the empty reflections, because they didn't turn. They looked at themselves, all dark eyes and hurt and confusion, in the glass.

All hunger.

They smiled, wiping their own blood from their lip.

They did look hot, actually.

For at least a moment, they walked out of the hall of mirrors feeling better than before.

[shanastoryteller]

why isn't shanastoryteller's tumblr writing on ao3?

i've been asked this before, and i've gotten asked this a handful more times in just the past week, so

i'm going to link this post in my pinned post so it hopefully comes up a little less. i'm going to go through my answer in a detailed way that isn't necessarily all directed towards anyone who has asked some variation of this recently or ever, i'm just trying to be thorough to answer this for the (hopefully) last time

first there's the issue of formatting. there's pretty much no way to move what's at this point about 2,000 prompts over to ao3 in a way that isn't deeply annoying to myself, other users, and anyone who's subscribed to me. i'm not interested in making a new "chapter" for just a couple hundred words, i'm not going to tag 100 fandoms on one work, i don't want have to go to ao3 after every prompt cycle and copy and paste the prompts into the fic, whether that be as a new chapter or just editing a story to contain new material. the masterlist and updating the google doc already takes a decent amount of time and having to do this on ao3 would be both finnicky and time consuming and there's no way to set it up that i wouldn't find myself irritated with the prompts being on my profile period

however, most importantly, it just doesn't jive with how i use each of these websites

ao3 is an archive and dumping all my random prompts on there is an appropriate use for it. however. it's not how i personally prefer to use each site and just because something can go on ao3 does not mean i'm required to put it there

tumblr is my sketchbook and ao3 is my art gallery

the prompts and snippets and random crap i post here isn't thought out, don't necessarily have an overarching plot, or any real substance to them besides the scenes. they're fun, they're usually low effort, and they're things i work on without any real expectation that they'll spawn into a full, fully plotted story or at least not one i'm committed to writing out. i don't like having unfinished works on ao3 and i try really hard not to. if i'm posting something to ao3, that's me making a commitment to eventually (EVENTUALLY!!) completing it and having all my random, messy, incomplete prompts and scraps on there would 100% stress me out

like how sketches often become full pieces, it's not uncommon for a prompt series or random writing to turn into a full fic that gets fleshed out / expanded and put on ao3

The Great Puzzle, wing bones touching, Snakelet, Here Be Dragons, Become Tomorrow, shrine or scar, that is a door, Cartwheels in Cloud Recesses, Ghosts Shouldn't, Little Lion Boy, and Despite the Abundance all started on tumblr

but even in cases where i found a big chunk of the tumblr writings usable and worth keeping, it's not a matter of just copy and pasting it over and calling it a day. a full fic and and a series of random prompts or whatever scenes i've written on here isn't necessarily how i would choose to tell a longform story, so transporting them over always entails a fairly large amount of work on my end

in the case of the great puzzle, i used all that i'd written, it was just the commitment and plot to writing the story through. for wing bones touching, i'm using most of what's already been written, but there's a lot of connective tissue and build up to earn the payoff that i hadn't bothered to write when it was just a prompt series that now has to be put in

there are some series where this is easier than others. the azula and zuko series, for example, would have to be written almost entirely from scratch. it encompasses a huge amount of time and action and earns pretty much none of it - because the format means it doesn't have to.

living blood is one that i'm thinking will probably end up on ao3 at some point because i've written a lot of the connective tissue and build up into it already so it's not such a huge effort to polish it up

"but you don't have to polish it up!" i can hear you saying. "you can just post it as is!"

i said it above and i'll say it again: i could. but i don't want to

i'm saying this with all the kindness and appreciation for your interactions and your comments and your readership but: not everything is about you

i link all the previous prompts in the most recent one. i make a masterlist after every prompt cycle. i have every prompt linked out in the google doc

i'm not opposed to making things easier for your guys, and have spent a lot of time doing so, but i'm completely uninterested in moving my prompts and random writings over to ao3 for all the reasons laid out above, and being asked repeatedly isn't going to change my answer

if you think those reasons are stupid and inadequate and it makes you mad, the good news is this: you don't have to follow me and you don't have to read my work. you're completely and totally free to opt out of this experience

if you find navigating prompts as i have them laid out to be too cumbersome and difficult then, kindly, don't read them

i'm not a professional, a company, or a celebrity. this blog and my writing is neither a product nor a service

the point where prompts are more stressful and irritating than they are fun, the point where sharing scraps of my writing becomes something that turns into an obligation or a drag or too much work, is the point where i stop doing it

[pilotingdreammsss]

I really enjoyed the Pure Vanilla Yandere snippit we got from you! Could we possibly get some more? My favorite kind of yanderes are the ones who are aware that they're messed up and try to hold themselves back, struggling against what they desperately want to do vs not wanting to hurt the person they care about. That seems like the kind of yandere pv would be if he was one (to me)

I'm glad you enjoyed the snippet! My exans have ended, and I have a few days off right now, been in the mood for some yandere stuff 💗.

Withheld indulgenceೄྀ࿐ ˊˎ-

Warnings: Stalking, Yandere themes, obsessive (restrained) behaviour. Continue at your own risk.

"I felt something could be wrong. Could I come inside?"

You narrow your eyes at the healer stood just outside your house, contemplating slightly whether to let your good 'friend' inside. Alas, these check-ups have gotten almost obscene from him. Even to himself, when you catch him guiltily mumbling to himself about how nosy he can get.

Yes... nosiness. That was it.

Not the pent-up sense of duty, duty to keep you safe, duty to keep you happy, duty to keep you in his arms... all things he'd tried to desperately keep a lid on. You'd be scared, so much he knew, and then you'd flee, hurt, and confused.

You crank open the door for him regardless, which would be your first mistake. Let him in! indulge him so this heavy guilt withers away.

"Sure, do you want anything?"

You, you, you, you!

He bites his tongue.

"Some tea would be nice."

He smiles right back at you, and you turn to walk to the kitchen. Ever the oblivious to the thousands of moral dilemmas, the clashes with what he truly wanted and his sense of righteousness. Goodness, if you saw what he truly desired, you'd never want to gaze at him again.

Pure Vanilla Cookie finds his way to an armchair, one he'd surely sat in hundreds of times before, one you'd lovingly dubbed as his. The steaming cups of tea emerge from the kitchen in your arms, carefully placed on the coffee table in the living room.

Both of you reach for the same cup. Your arms brush against each other, and you giggle heartily. Pure Vanilla Cookie's heart skips a beat, gears turning in his mind. Both of you draw away.

"Sorry, PV! I didn't know that one was yours." You chirp, he nods but can not help himself from smiling. You notice a slight darkness tinting his cheeks - his eyes open slightly - an expression you can not recognize.

The countless nights tailing you when you were unaware, inisitence he be the only healer to touch your wounds... the only one to touch you... The guilt was eating him whole. His unwavering devotion was pushing his friends away, too, as they'd slowly distance themselves from him.

"Pure Vanilla Cookie?"

He flinches, as if brought out of a daze.

"Your tea's going to go cold. "

He grins feverishly, pushing the thoughts away. He knows they'll come back to haunt him later.

"Oh, sorry, I just dazed off a little."

Something tells you otherwise, a deep primal suspicion that he was keeping something from you.

"Pure Vanilla Cookie, you've been acting weird as of late."

Color drains from his face, eyes suddenly blown open wide. He opens his mouth to say something, but nothing comes out. You stare, increasingly worried for your friend. Your eyebrows knitted together, eyes scrunched in worry. It pains him to see you so distressed. Pure Vanilla Cookie's mind scrambles for answers.

"It's nothing, don't worry about me."

You don't believe him, despite the fact that you so desperately want him to be okay. He sees it in your face that you're doubtful.

"Please, if something's bothering you..."

You reach out for his hand, taking his shaky hands into yours. He opens his mouth, and at once almost tells you the truth...

"I've... just been so stressed lately."

Yet lies again.

A/N: Writing PV is hard for me. Sorry for any shaky characterisation!

[starkeygirlposts]

Boyfriend turned Step-Bro Rafe Cameron x Reader

SERIES MASTERLIST

Summary: You've been dating Rafe Cameron for 3 years, and one day Ward and your mom tell you they're getting married.

This is a snippet of a fic I'm going to see if I want to continue writing. Please let me know if you'd like it to be continued.

I'm not diving too deep on details or character traits in this, as it's just a blurb/idea for a full fic.

Trigger warnings: stepcest, underage, drugs, pregnancy

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The Rafe Cameron who became your boyfriend when you were sixteen years old was not the Rafe Cameron who people referred to your step-brother at eighteen.

The complete opposite, really.

Your parents separated when you were in your sophomore year of high school, your dad moving across the country to California when he met his mistress on a business trip while you and your mom kept a tidy home. The affair nearly killed your mom, and she learned to lean on none other than your boyfriends dad.

Ward was the perfect fill-in for your mom for a while. She was just having a good time, she'd told you. "He occupies my mind Y/N, does that make me such a bad mom?" Like you being upset with your mother being however which way involved with your boyfriends dad was so out-of-this-world believable. Truth was, yes it made her a bad mom. Not just because it put you and Rafe in an uncomfortable position, but because you were struggling yourself after having your family as you knew it blown apart.

But she wasn't just "having a good time." Or rather, maybe she was having too good a time. Because on a Thursday evening at the Cameron's dinner table that you all had gathered for, Ward held your moms hand and told you all that they were getting married.

That day, your world fell apart, and Rafe started to become someone you soon would not recognize. Rafe's hand slipped from your thigh, gone the tender loving warm fingertips, drawing lazy hearts on your skin.

You looked over at Rafe before doing or saying anything to anyone else, and his eyes were higher than yours, connecting with his father's in an expression you could only imagine was pure hatred. Because Rafe could never live up to his father in any sense, and now he was taking away the one thing that kept his feet planted to the earth. Of course he was. You flinched when Rafe's chair scraped like nails on the tile flooring, as he darted from the table outside to his truck, leaving you to pick up the pieces. How badly you'd wanted to chase after him. But when your eyes connected with Ward's, the decision made for you.

You didn't even need to ask.

"Unless you want to live with your father in California, you and Rafe will stop whatever it is you two have going on." Ward had told you.

You looked to your mom as if she'd help you - feel some semblance of remorse for you. You'd met Rafe first. Three years ago. You'd been the only reason your mother even met Ward. But why should you be so surprised that what she wanted was more important than your happiness?

From that day, Rafe started slowly slipping from you. A hollow shell of the boy you loved so deeply and painfully. He'd drink himself to sleep every Friday and Saturday night, breathe cocaine on the other nights, and wave you off when you tried to ask him to slow down.

"Y/N, you want me to stop? To make you happy? What do you do anymore that makes me happy?" You'd touch his cheek and guide his head down to make his eyes meet yours, and you'd stare into them - hoping for a shimmer of your boyfriend to snap back and remember.

He'd shrug away from you, his hand brushing you off and leave you watching his back as he'd resume slowly killing not only himself, but you too. But his coldness didn't stop him from sneaking into your room past midnight to have sex with you. Not that you wish he'd stop, because you so badly craved his touch, eager for it any way he'd offer it. Mean, rough, kind, tender; you'd take any of him just to feel connected.

So when you'd texted Rafe to meet you in your room after dinner on Thursday night nearly one year after your world truly blew apart, hoping you'd get to him before the white powder did, he locked the door behind him and the black in his eyes told you he'd already gotten his fix. But your small hand came up to his chest as he approached you, seated cross legged on your pink floral bed spread, clutching the stick in your other hand. You looked up at him and when you locked eyes, he understood, because he took your hand from his chest and squeezed it in his own before leaning down to touch his lips to yours.

"I miss you, baby. My beautiful girl."

His breath was hot against your mouth, his scent so familiar and home to you. You couldn't stop the tears from falling from your eyes, your hand loosening from his hand to hold onto his forearm that connected to the fingers clutching your jaw tenderly but firmly in place, kissing you like he loved you again.

How badly you missed him, too.

"Rafe, please..."

Your hand falls and his breaks from your jaw, and you take this moment to capture his hand with your fingers and place the stick into his palm. His eyes break away from yours to look down at what you've given him, and you watch with tears streaming down your face as his brows furrow, his feet shuffling to back up and you brace yourself.

He doesn't do what you expect him to do, though. He stares so deeply down into his palm that when his eyes do reconnect with yours, confusion in his own eyes, his head tilting just the slightest and you're trembling, waiting for the shoe to drop.

"This...this is a -- you're..." His eyes screw up shut and he shakes his head like he's imagining things and he's crazy. "A baby?" He finally asks, looking up at you again and you can only nod.

"My baby?" He asks again, and you nearly scoff, because really? Was he kidding? Who else was sneaking into your room after midnight, invading your body and your thoughts?

"Yes, Rafe, I'm pregnant with your baby." You tell him, standing and he's still shaking his head, eyes bunching up as if he's being told the craziest thing in the world - because really, he is. But you've sat with this for the entire day and while your reaction wasn't as confused, you too felt the familiar disbelief.

You watch his chest rise and fall, deep breaths in and out before you're in a whirlwind and he closes the distance between you and pulls you to him, tucking your head underneath his chin, the back of your skull rested protectively in his large palm. His lips are at your forehead when he tells you

"I'm going to take care of it. They're not keeping me from my kid."

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AH, what do you think? My ask box is open for feedback. Please feel free to use it to ask for what you'd like to see from this fic!

[frostbitebakery]

If I may request for gooey wan:

After reading the snippet about Rex' reaction, I'm just curious how different groups of people react to the craziness of Obi-Wan's powers and how unfazed the 212th is.

How does his powers act when they're on shore leave and he and Cody go to Dex's for lunch.

Anyway keep up the amazing writing, can't wait for the next part of the loud!au it's so good ❤️

“Come out, come out, wherever you are,” a child-like voice sings and Fives tries to become one with the wall immediately.

“You cannot run! You cannot hide!” The following giggling turns up the goosebumps on his arms to the max, and he indulges in a shiver.

“I hate horror holos,” he whispers to himself before switching on internal comms. “Weren’t we supposed to be inconspicuous about this?”

“Change of plans,” Rex tells him from somewhere on the northern side of the command center. “He’s stopping them from calling reinforcements.”

The child-voice suddenly shrieks in glee and Fives’ goosebumps reach new heights. “Found you!”

“Squad Esk, change position to point 5-7-Krenth,” Commander Cody orders over comms, and, naturally, they haul ass.

Squatting down on the gangway opens up quite the view in the bubble of disturbing silence that apparently surrounds General Kenobi when he does his thing.

It’s a void of nothingness. Not actually harmful to living beings, though the sparking droids let Fives theorize that some electronics don’t have much to buffer against whatever the General… exudes. Pardon his Coruscanti.

The enemy commander scrambles against the wall, trying to get away from Kenobi who’s standing still in front of them. The black smoke is thick, covering the entire floor and crawling up the corners nearby.

The enemy is caught up in the General’s look, the Galaxy black holes that are rumored to hide behind the pleasant smile.

Fives clicks his knee guard against the gangway just to break the suffocating silence but no sound rises up.

The enemy collapses to their knees and Kenobi steps back. Not physically but his sheer presence seems to decrease in intensity. Fives clicks his kneeguard again and this time, the sound is allowed to reach his ears.

“Cody,” Kenobi says quietly, “the hostages are about to be transported off planet. I don’t know from which port.”

“On it,” Commander Cody answers and immediately barks orders over comms to shut down all spaceports.

“Do you surrender,” Kenobi asks, still quiet. Tired.

Fives feels his brow furrow involuntarily.

“Yes,” the enemy replies, pale and shaking under the General’s gaze. “Please…”

And that’s how Fives’ first joint mission ends. Not with a bang but goosebumps that fail to disappear for a few good hours afterwards.

.

“It’s been rough for him,” Cody admits, absently swirling the straw through the milkshake Dex put in front of him the moment he fell into a seat at the counter like all his strings had been cut. “He’s overcompensating for the time he hid from me— us who he is.”

Dex mulls over that for a moment. Long enough the Commander glances up at him. “He’s a dumbass,” he settles on, the diplomatic route. “Always has been.”

Cody snorts, takes a sip. “I talked to him, of course,” he says, flaps his hand before scratching at the prominent scar on his forehead. “He competently ignored me to the point I benched him.” Cody shakes his head, wide eyes on the milkshake. “That was incredibly stressful.”

The diner is empty at this time of night. Quiet and reserved for all types of encounters; from distressed clone commanders to their smokey nightmare Jedi.

Dex studies Cody for a moment, weighing the possibilities what a man like that could need the most at the moment. “Grab the mop. We’re cleaning the kitchen.”

.

“—and then he looks at you with those big eyes and you’re supposed to say no? How?” Cody hauls the bucket out of the sink, black sleeves rolled up to his elbows. “While he tells you once again about boundaries and all the important aspects of choice, and due diligence of command.”

“That sounds like a you problem,” Dex says drily, scrubbing at a medium stubborn stain on the durasteel work counter.

“I am aware, thanks,” Cody sneers and Dex hides his laugh in the spritz of grease remover. “I want to be unaware of that but that stage has passed right to anger.” He wrings out the mop with what Dex would describe as thirst for vengeance. “Maybe I can un-love him,” he murmurs to himself like on the verge of epiphany. “What stage is that?”

“Bargaining,” Dex replies, crosses two of his arms while another still scrubs at the stain. “Those are the five stages of grief by the way. You’re falling in love.”

“Isn’t that the same in the end?” Cody mutters which is certainly food for thought.

“The first time I met Obi-Wan,” Dex starts and the Commander’s incredible attention is focused on him like a laser. It’s intimidating even for someone like Dex. “He got stuck in the darkness in the back alley.”

“Sounds just like him.”

It had been right out of a horror holo.

:

The alley behind the diner had always been a quiet place on Coruscant.

Dex let the trash bag fall into the dumpster but no sound came forward.

It had never been this quiet and dark.

He tapped on the ground with a foot. Nothing. Flicked his fingers against a drainpipe.

Nothing.

“I’m sorry,” a young voice said from the dark, right behind his shoulder, and Dex jumped. “I don’t know how to stop it.”

He spun around, squinted into the unnatural dark.

A soft sniffle from above and he looked up and into blue glowing eyes. “I’m sorry.”

.

Smoke rushed past him, howling and shrieking in the distance. Two of his hands were clamped around a small waist while the child and he tried their best to separate smoke from the darkness.

“I really am trying to corporeal my sense of self,” the child defended himself and Dex could only imagine the kinds of accusations thrown his way.

“Don’t worry about.” They’d been trying to untangle the child from the side of the building for close to twenty minutes with no progress at all. “You’re like a sticky womp rat,” he muttered.

“Excuse me?”

The offense taken was a bit too hilarious. Dex grinned up at the kid. “You don’t know what a sticky womp rat is? The slime toy? You throw it to the ceiling and it sticks.”

“A slime—!”

And just like that they both fell to the ground. Dex’s back would never forgive him.

.

“I trapped someone in their nightmares,” the young Jedi confessed, shoulders hunched up.

“Did you do it on purpose?” Dex asked, whisking hot milk into the custard.

“At first,” was the murmured reply, and Dex was surprised. The child didn’t seem the type. “I was so angry with Bruck.”

“You let them go?”

“As soon as I could.”

Dex turned around, watched Obi-Wan wipe at his eyes with the smoky sleeves. “Which wasn’t fast enough, I’m guessing,” he said, placed with custard bowl in front of the child.

“There’s no one like me at the Order,” Obi-Wan whispered. “I want to help, not be the cause for pain.”

:

“He took it to the extreme,” Dex says, remembers the instances too close in time where Obi-Wan visited him, looking more and more human and less and less like himself. “He put his nature into a box and forgot about it.”

“His compartmentalization is top tier,” Cody murmurs, close to awe.

Dex facepalms. “Not the point.”

Cody takes another dozen plates to the designated cupboard. “After the incident,” and Dex can hear the suppressed capitalization of the word, “he was like a newborn. Stumbling and helpless.”

“Must’ve been a nightmare.” He remembers the chill, the feeling of being hunted.

“No one slept a wink the first week,” Cody laughs, sobers. “It was like the ship was haunted by ourselves. He apologized so much. Wasn’t easy.”

Dex can only imagine.

Cody looks up, makes sure of the eye contact, and Dex doesn’t do him the disservice of looking away. “He had helped us so much. So we stepped up and helped him.”

Obi-Wan is one unlucky son of a blaster but he earns the loyalty given to him.

.

“Thank you, Dex,” Obi-Wan said, eyes glowing blue. Small claws clinked against the empty bowl.

Dex nodded, ruffled ginger hair. “Anytime, young Jedi. Your ride is here.”

I know, was whispered into his ear and he shivered.

Obi-Wan blushed. “Sorry.” Hopped down from the seat and into the care of the Jedi, visibly sagging with relief, coming through the diner door.

There was a small black blob on the floor. Dex wiped it away without second thought.

Cold, cold, alone. Strangling suffocating he knows—

“I know what you did and your victims will be more forgiving that I am.”

Cold. He runs. Runs runs runs—

.

“You two should come in together next time,” Dex suggests, shakes off the memory.

Cody smiles at him.

:

“I am the hungry.” Obi-Wan’s eyes rush into black. He takes a step forward, flickers. “I am the anyone. I am the everywhere.” The void spreads, consumes. “I hunt your nightmares until I become them.”

“See,” a voice whispers into Cody’s head, “deep down, deep down, they’re all like that.”

Cody nods, stands up straight. “Blast him.”

The 212th turns as one, fires. Fires and fires until the smoke screams.

“Good soldier,” the voice says.

Cody wakes.

.

The next day ARC trooper Fives is declared a traitor.

[namelessgakusei]

Glory to Mankind

Mark Grayson x Reader

Warnings: angst(?), death, mentions of killing, abrupt ending, no beta we die before our birthday

Notes: Been wanting to write this for a long time now but haven't gotten any ideas on how this will turn out so here's some snippets:——?

Hello, Gaku of 5 minutes later here. Have the full fic instead lmao.

Synopsis: Made as a fail-safe executioner, a certain android started deviating from their orders.

"I mean, if you want to give me a name, it's totally okay."

9S!Reader who was made by GDA as a fail-safe should superpowered heroes or civilians go rogue. All combat and personal data about anyone was ingrained in their code, enabling them to quickly dispose of any enemies. Programmed to analyze and gather information, they're naturally curious about almost everything.

Despite it all, you were friendly.

You were initially a secret. A solo operative that moves in the shadows. You receive orders and only answers to Cecil; and to prevent any deviation from your side, the agency required you a "blindfold" that restricts your normal vision but enhances your fighting capabilities by having your visor display information in real time, this also serves as a way for GDA to monitor your movements in real time from your point-of-view.

But just after you finished your mission of apprehending deserters, you moved on your own despite your creator's orders, appearing to assist a hero in their fight. Piloting a flight unit, you provided support fire power and served as a decoy while this seemingly newbie got back on his feet. Amidst the fight, you scanned him and found out that he's Invincible, Omni-Man's son.

After the villain was subdued, he looked up to you in confusion, not being briefed about this kind of "hero". It's to be expected, Cecil never introduced you to anyone to keep your efficiency at 100%. Even so, you wanted to have friends, to know your co-workers, to establish camaraderie. You thought that it's because you're made to be a scanner that you inherently wanted to know more about people, but such desires will jeopardize your position within the organization, so you tuck it away in a folder where not even Robot can find it.

Cecil finally relented and gave orders based on your actions after weighing the options, giving you permission to formally introduce yourself to the young hero.

"You must be Invincible."

You smiled from your mech.

"I'm 9S."

"I received orders to support you."

9S!Reader who was finally formally included in the roster of heroes, albeit with some limitations due to their circumstances. You're not allowed to do anything except for hero work, and will only be deployed by Cecil's orders. Others expressed concern for your schedule, as you're always seen in the agency, but you simply brushed them off with a smile and optimism. While you're finally able to mingle with others, it's not like they knew about your true identity as their executioner.

If they knew, would they still want to associate with you?

You made calculations that the possibility will be below 10%

9S!Reader who was soon approached by the first hero they talked to. Invincible was curious about you, albeit, with more passion than the others. Upon the unspoken agreement that you two clicked, with his geeky nature and your own inquisitiveness, the both of you quickly became friends.

While Mark was curious about your appearance, he never pried too deep, silently accepting that tech was your schtick as a hero. What he really wanted to know was your name. You told him that you're 9S, withholding the information that it truly meant No. 9 Type S(canner), but he insisted to know your real name.

You couldn't give one.

When he found out about that, you noticed that his expression is a mix of pity and shock. You supposed it is expected, humans who have a similar situation as yours are likely orphans, and that might be what's running inside his mind right now. You diffused the situation before he starts talking badly about your creator, offering him a chance to grant you one instead.

"I mean, if you want to give me a name, that's totally okay."

It took him a week to decide on one, insisting that it needs to be "special" since you'll be using it your whole life. You refrained yourself from saying that it won't matter but soon found the idea flattering. You'll be having something that wasn't already prepared for you by GDA. In a way, it's something that's yours and yours alone, untethered by the cruel role you were made of.

He settled for (Y/N), saying that it suits you the most while shyly rubbing the back of his neck.

You hoped to never get an order to exterminate Mark.

He told you that he also thought about possible last names but you cut him off by proposing his' instead. It was supposed to be a joke, something to elicit a laugh out of him, but strangely, Mark went red. You immediately backtracked upon the implications of your words, assuring him that you only jest.

You didn't miss the slight disappointment in his expression and tone.

?

What does that mean? Does Mark want you to be a Grayson? That doesn't sound too bad, but he doesn't really know about your circumstances now, does he?

You want to tell.

But you're not allowed.

...?

Are you?

...!

Your primary orders are to follow Cecil's orders. The secondary one is to gather information about enemies and exterminate hostiles to humanity. On top of it all, you are also given permission to adapt to any situation given that it would be beneficial to your cause.

With that said, you'll be able to get more information about Mark if the two of you get closer, right?

Besides, what else would be beneficial for your mission if not to win the trust of your potential targets?

...

You confessed to Mark after some time. It was inevitable, really, having been stabbed in a spot that's lethal to humans yet is somehow still functioning after. It was a relief that only he was the sole witness of the event, giving you a good enough reason to fess up while you patch yourself.

You're a robot. Created with the battle data of every hero. There isn't an ounce of humanity in your synthetic body.

Mark leans in, hands going behind your head and undoing the knot of your blindfold, removing your visor from your face. For the first time, you squinted from the natural light, seeing everything outside your enhancements. He smiles at your reaction, telling you that no matter what you truly are, you're still (Y/N).

You didn't get to tell him that you're here to kill him in case he goes rogue.

You started to feel strange after that. Your internal temperature seems to be malfunctioning at random times of the day. Gone is the usual chatty android during joint missions, you're somehow always worried, especially when it involves a certain hero. Why is that, you ask yourself. There are no viruses present in your system, not that they could fester inside you without being eradicated the second you get breached. Were you perhaps malfunctioning?

Any equipment given to you by the GDA proved to be useless in discerning what's really happening to you. Something is eating you from the inside yet you don't have any references of data about it. It is only when you're in Mark's presence do you calm down. It's strange, you don't recall any of his abilities that are related to your condition. Further investigation is required. But for now, you want to stay a little bit longer with him.

The breaking point for you was when Omni-Man turned on Earth.

What you felt upon seeing the footage must be fear. No, rage. No, worry. You don't know. All you know is that, you rushed out before your comrades could even prepare themselves.

Cecil immediately orders for you to be deployed, alongside with other heroes to perform a rescue and extraction mission. Extraction? Not extermination? Did Cecil want Nolan alive? Why? He's killing all those people! He's hurting Mark!

"Fire missiles."

You muttered, inside your flight unit, as your arsenal fires at the Viltrumite. He easily comes out unscathed, but they were just decoys meant to obstruct his vision. It's unfair, you thought, that he's murdering helpless innocents. They hold nothing against him, yet, they die because of a simple difference in power??

The Viltrumite finally got ahold of you after you maneuvered around to avoid his attacks, tearing you away from your flight unit and crushing a third of your hardware. Squirming around his grip, you can feel the electricity spark around your body, with systems threatening to shut down if you don't get out of there quickly.

You lock eyes with Mark, and something in you snapped. Within a second, you conjured a sword and sliced Nolan's arm cleanly off his body.

In the laboratory, where I was created.

Around you were corpses of people whom Omni-Man nonchalantly killed while trying to convince Mark to join him, but his son refused, insisting on getting his father to see that what he's doing is just outright wrong.

Lies and deception recurred.

You fought off Nolan with a battle cry, going berserk as your body borders on shutting down. Nevermind the system failing, you only have one goal in mind. To kill this Viltrumite.

And my dear person, who I was unable to protect.

Cecil orders you to pull back, to salvage something of Nolan. But his words no longer affect you, having long overridden his control via your special permission.

To atone for those sins, I will continue to fight!

You dug your sword deeper inside the Viltrumite.

That is why, this world will be...

Mark cries out for you.

Broken by me!

Standing over the desecrated corpse, you removed your visor, eyes glowing red.

...

...

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[ordowrites]

fatherhood

hopping on the hybrid bandwagon i'm sorry but it's not entirely the focus i just wanted to write diluc being a dad. just a small snippet in the day of the life.

cw: none, mdni, minors do not interact, sfw, fluff, afab reader, hybrid!reader (fox), family fluff. diluc is desperately in love with reader and vice versa, they have a child. diluc is a total girl dad.

Diluc knew he was screwed when he first held your guys daughter in his arms - the way she looked up at him with those eyes of hers and small hands reaching to grip his finger and a soft coo escaping her, he knew, right then, he was screwed. He didn't know how to hold her and Adelinde had to gently guide him - elevate her head, cradle her, if she cries, don't panic.

She gotten his hair but she inherited your ears and your tail, and soon enough, that personality trait of yours that's ever so curious and playful. While she has a name - Aelia - he still only really calls her little one, or his sunshine because it feels right, correct, to only call her those things. You smile when he holds her, tucked under his arm as she blabbers away about some interesting thing she saw in the vineyard or stories her little imagination makes up. And Diluc engages with her because he adores her, and her innocent existence. When he wears a little tiara on his head because she demands him to, all you can do is stifle a giggle and a head shake.

Diluc knew he was screwed when he's with the maids, in the kitchen, helping them with some cooking and he sees a familiar poke of ears from behind the island. Little fingers grope about until they find what they're looking for and he frowns a bit. It's an hour to dinnertime and she's sneaking cookies. Since Aelia was born, there'd been an uptick of baked sweets available in the manor.

Well, actually before that - your pregnancy cravings always consisted of some sort of cookie or another and all he could do was give you what you wanted and needed. And now, they're kept on hand for his mischievous daughter whose sweet tooth matches his own.

"Aelia," he says, his voice firm. "What are you doing, my little one?"

A soft giggle and his heart flutters. "Nuffin'."

"Oh? Doesn't sound like nothing." Diluc answers as he watches her little hand reach up again to search around for another cookie, that he gently slides over. He shouldn't be giving her these things before dinner, considering all of your warnings for him to not do so. A tuft of red hair meets his eyes with those little triangular ears that poke out, before finally, her entire face.

"Hi, daddy." There's some crumbs and melted chocolate on her face. "'m just sayin' hi."

"Oh? And what about the cookie in your hand?" She looks at it, faking the best shocked look she could. "Sunshine, we have an hour before dinner."

"'s for you." Aelia answers, after a moment of consideration, holding it out to him.

"Oh? And here it looked like you were about to eat it yourself." He watches as Aelia's expression falls for a moment.

"Please, daddy? I want a cookie."

At her doe eyed looked, small pout, Diluc found himself agreeing to letting her have another cookie. "Just don't tell your mother." he gently tells her. "Or Addie, okay?"

Aelia's grin is victorious and Diluc knew, right then, how right you were about him being wrapped around her tiny finger as she reaches to be picked up. With her perched on his hip, he leaves the kitchen to go find you.

When he finds you outside, amongst the vineyards, his face lights up as Aelia waves at you.

"She's a handful." Diluc murmurs as he leans in and kisses you in greeting. Of course, Aelia gives you big, sloppy kisses on the cheeks.

"Of course she is," you hum as you offer to take her from his arms, but Aelia seems to choose to latch onto him. So instead, you give her a kiss on the top of her head. "She is your daughter. I think you enable her too much."

"I do not." He protests. "I merely encourage her to be curious and try new things."

You're brushing some crumbs off of your daughters face, giving a soft laugh. "Sure, sure." A pause. "Seeing you with our daughter makes me want us to have another kid."

"Well if you're offering..." Diluc says, grinning a bit. "I won't say no."

[pizzaqueen]

A snippet from a future fic I'll probably never write, where Steve is a widower with two teenage kids, and he and Eddie randomly meet up, rekindling their old flame. This is when they've been together a while:

“Thank you,” Steve says, coming up behind Eddie at the bathroom sink.

Eddie pauses, catching Steve's eye in the mirror. “What for?” he asks, mouth foamy with toothpaste.

Steve slips his hands along Eddie's hips, hooks his chin over Eddie's shoulder. “For loving my kids.”

“You don't—” Toothpaste dribbles down Eddie's chin and he stoops to spit what's left in his mouth into the sink, gathering his hair to one side. He rinses his mouth out, wipes his face with a towel, then turns to Steve. “You don't have to thank me for that. Of course I love them.”

“Not everyone I've dated has.”

“They're idiots.” Eddie grabs the hem of Steve's shirt, pulling him close. “I mean, first of all, they're part of you, and I don't think I could love you and not love them. But...” He trails off, a small smile tilting his lips. “They're amazing kids.”

Pride swells in Steve's chest; he slides his arms around Eddie's waist and says, “They are.”

“And I'm pretty damn honored I get to be part of their lives,” Eddie says, “so thank you,” and he butts his head gently against Steve's.

Steve huffs and slides his hands up Eddie's back, pulling him into a tight embrace. “I love you.” He presses a kiss to Eddie's neck.

“I love you too.”

“And they both love you as well.”

Eddie lets out a shuddering breath. Steve knows how nervous Eddie was, when they started dating, that he wouldn't be welcomed, but it's almost like he's always been part of their family now. “Good to know,"”Eddie says.

Steve holds Eddie a little tighter. All those years ago, back in Hawkins, when they ended things, Steve thought he'd never see Eddie again. But here they are, together—a family—and Steve's never letting him go this time.

[felassan]

Some more DA:TV and related snippets from Sylvia Feketekuty, Part 2. rest of post under a cut due to length and spoilers. [Post One, Post Three]

The dev team really wanted to deliver on Emmrich's romance [source]

Sylvia Feketekuty has now left BioWare so there are likely some things she can't answer now "just because I can't look them up with certainty anymore" [source]

When Emmrich is first introduced, he has a skull helmet. Why does it never ever appear for the next 40-100 hours? "The helmet does indeed look wicked! I believe it actually shows up on his shelf in the Lighthouse eventually. (If I had been a smarter writer I would've asked if we could have it appear again, that one's on me.)" [source]

User: "In another post you mentioned shops in Nevarra City near the Necropolis. How far IS Nevarra City itself is from the Necropolis? Do only senior MWs get to go?" / Sylvia: "I'm reluctant to say what the distance is since I never defined it in game so it's Unknown™. But I imagine they can either walk or take a carriage, depending. Also I never imagined junior MWers are forbidden from going into town or such. It could be they have set hours and times where they're allowed. But got to get all those chores done first..." [source, two]

On the DA:I goat scene ([link]) - "The GOAT! God bless them, that was a delight." [source]

Brian J. Audette, on [this thread] - ""Better late than never" addendum to this thread. I just noticed that Isle of the Gods' writer Sylvia is on here now and I'd be remiss not to tag her in this thread. I can't say enough wonderful things about having worked with Sylvia on this mission." [source] / Sylvia: "Thanks Brian! You tackled an absolutely jam-packed mission with aplomb." [source]

Jo Berry: "Thank you for everything and everything else, on both Veilguard and Inquisition. Sunlight on your road, wherever it goes." [source] / Sylvia: "Thank YOU for all your writing Jo. Seriously, you were a godsend on Veilguard and DAI both." [source]

Trick Weekes: "It's been fantastic working with you, Sylvia, and I know you're going to crush it with whatever you do next. Thank you for finally letting me make you "the person who has to do journals so Trick doesn't" on one of our projects." [source] / Sylvia: "Thank you Trick! I'll miss working with you. It was an honour to finally be given the awesome responsibility of the journal system that still haunts my dreams." [source]

John Epler: "sylvia did you see i told the world Emmrich sleeps standing up like a horse" [source] / Sylvia: "It's days later but: yes. Yes I did." [source]

User: "As someone who also has a truly debilitating fear of death, Emmrich is so special to me. It’s the first time I’ve ever seen it represented in such a clear and concise way." / Sylvia: "Thanks, definitely felt that fear myself. I really wanted to express it clearly and was hoping would resonate with others." [source]

User: "Do you have any thoughts or opinions on what nickname Emmrich might have gotten from Varric if he'd ever gotten one?" / Sylvia: "Oh man that's a good question, but ultimately since I didn't write Varric, that must remain a mystery. Nicknames can only be bestowed. ("Bones" like someone suggested below is funny though.)" [source]

User: "If Emmrich's hobby is alchemy/plants, Vorgoth's is art, and Audric's is architecture... what's Myrna's? (Next to Emmrich, she's my favorite Watcher - sorry Vorgoth!)" / Sylvia: "Myrna has a one off line, you may not have heard it yet, where she talks to Vorgoth about getting tickets to the Sword of Drakon.* She enjoys a night out at the theater, whether it's a play or an opera. *(I think that's the play I named, I hope I'm recalling my own line haha.) It's a bit indulgent of me, but I chose Sword of Drakon because it was one of the plays I made up for a series of codices in DAI about Orlesian theater. I had a lot of fun with these and wanted to give them life once more. [link]" [source, two]

User: "During Rook’s disappearance in the prison, how did Emmrich react? Considering their intense romance, did he fall into depression, or did he show a more vulnerable side? Could his fear of death have influenced the situation? In the immortal romance💀, Emmrich promises that nothing will separate them, not in this world or any other. How likely is that? Would he go to great lengths for Rook, even crossing boundaries? Or, at some point, would he accept Rook's death?" / Sylvia: "1) Very strongly! I think it's a bit more interesting if I leave details to your imaginations, but Emmrich feels things deeply and probably had some sleepless nights. 2) So this I can't say much on even though it's a juicy topic. The truth is, I wouldn't even know unless I was actually sitting down to write it. Again, Emmrich feels things very passionately, but this is the kind of scenario where I might want the player's choices to have an effect." [source, two]

User: "Any chance that color scheme [of Emmrich's coat] was based off the corpse flower?" / Sylvia: "I couldn't find anything on the colour scheme and the corpse flower. Afraid this one's a mystery to me." [source]

User: "I'm really curious if there's a Nevarrese language? We have Orlesian, Antivan, Tevene, Qunlat..." / Sylvia: "I wondered that myself, especially given its ancient ties with Tevinter and also Orlais which would certainly have affected the languages of power and influence. Could also have roots with the Planasene. We never talked about one though, as far as I know, so the answer remains...unknown. 💀 (I did introduce tomb-script, the language you see etched into stone in the Necropolis, but I thought of it as more of a specialist's language for occult and magical things specifically.) (If we did define a Nevarran language in some corner of the lore, now I'm going to feel embarrassed, but I don't BELIEVE we did.)" [source, two, three]

User: "I wanted to ask if you have anything you can share about MW grave dowry jewellery - is it the sort of thing they keep on at all times? Also, would Emmrich like jewellery gifts or give them to Rook?" / Sylvia: "I figured it would be something they wear most of the time, or at least in public. You don't want to be without your grave-gold if you pass away! Emmrich would love to get jewellery, especially if it marked a special occasion like his other pieces do! He'd also probably like to gift Rook a piece of grave gold himself, though he knows a non-MW Rook might look at that part askance." [source, two]

User: "Question: how much if anything can you tell us about the circumstances surrounding the emergence of Emmrich's magic and him going to the Mourn Watch? In my mind, his parents' death could certainly be a catalyst for the emergence of mage powers, but I'm so curious why the butcher's boy goes to what seems the equivalent of Nevarran Harvard instead of a regular Circle unless he immediately demonstrated outstanding ability?" / Sylvia: So timeline wise, I think his magic manifested after he was taken in. This part isn't canon, so much as a background thought I had that maybe the spirits of the Necropolis nudged the MW to scoop up this future corpse-whisperer. It seems like a kind of place ripe for that sort of omen. That said, it could've also been a kindhearted Watcher who saw how shattered and alone this young boy was, and thought an upbringing in the Grand Necropolis would be the better place to deal with his grief. It's the kind of thing I want to leave open unless someone goes back one day to fill it out!" [source, two]

User: "what’s the overall Mourn Watch opinion on the whole Weekend at King Markus’s the other Mortalitasi are pulling? I can’t blame Emmrich for not wanting to be involved with that political mess!" / Sylvia: "No clue what you're talking about. King Markus is in the finest of health!!!!! ahahahahaha (To my mind Emmrich's response indicates a tension between the orders, but that they're going along with the polite fiction to avoid a mess. I can't say what the future holds though.)" [source]

User: "Ah, one last note: whoever decided “DA liches are immortal protectors and not always evil?” Chef’s kiss. It’s all I’ve ever wanted!" / Sylvia: "Thanks again! It was in Emmrich's first draft. The other writers and editors gave me good feeback on lichdom and the philosophy behind it especially" [source]

User: "I'm an ICU nurse, and that is imagined to confer a comfort with mortality. Suffice to say Emmrich has been a huge comfort to see." / Sylvia: "Thanks so much. I really wanted him to struggle with it while also engaging with it, because it's something I find hard as well. And I hoped it would find purchase with players." [source]

User: "If you’re willing, can you share a bit about the other orders within the Mortalitasi? Is there a rivalry with the Tevinter Imperium?" / Sylvia: I'm afraid I don't have much, sorry. I left the other Mortalitasi orders a big open canvas in case we wanted to invent more some day. (We've mentioned the palace Mortalitasi are separate from the Mourn Watch, so there's one. As you probably caught, Emmrich's not a fan of theirs.) Is there a rivalry with the Tevinter Imperium? I can't really point to anything in the game talking about that, so I hesitate to call it canon. But to my mind it would be very natural and also very funny. So if that ever manifests, I approve." [source, two]

User: "was any of Emmrich's design or personality modeled on British actor David Niven? I think there is resemblance just wondering if that was intentional." / Sylvia: "Oh I love David Niven. But the more direct actor influence for me was Peter Cushing in a few old Hammer Horror films." [source]

User: "just wanted to say thank you for creating the character of Josephine in Inq!! Helped me learn some stuff about myself when I was younger and meant a lot." / Sylvia: "Thank you so much on all counts! I'm glad the lovely Lady Montilyet was there for you (and enormous credit to her actor, Allegra Clark. She absolutely nailed Josephine, straight away.)" [source]

User, on Emmrich: "He mentions he thought he would marry - is that permitted for Mortalitasi when it wasn't for regular Circle mages? Can they now raise their own children?" / Sylvia: Mortalitasi have a lot of power. I imagine the Nevarran Chantry might grant them permission to marry outside the Circle more regularly than in places where mages are given less respect. (Mages can also marry within Circles, so no permission needed in those cases.) The same might be true for mages raising mage-born children in Nevarra, but I say that with less certainty. I think that's a topic I would've wanted to discuss with the rest of the narrative team." [source, two]

User: "is there a particular reason why emmrich is always wearing a glove on one hand?" / Sylvia: "I like to think it's mostly because he works a lot with his hands. The glove seems useful if he has to, say, grip a rough outcrop of rock when traversing the Necropolis, or deal with a bitey corpse." [source]

User, on Emmrich: "On my 1st run I played a trans Rook and romanced him. It felt incredible how he was so accepting of Rook's identity, and in return she could support him as he did a transition of his own as well. Beautiful mirroring!" / Sylvia: "Thanks very much! If those scenes worked, it's thanks to some people at work who kindly gave feedback that helped get the tone right." [source]

User: "I've been wanting to thank you for writing Luck in the Gardens for 4 years. Hollix was the first time I ever saw a non-binary character given a real voice." / Sylvia: "I loved writing Hollix in that story, they were a treat, and I'm glad they meant a lot to you. (And a shout out to a nb friend who gave me some good feedback on the character, I don't think the story would've been as clear without their help.)" [source]

User: "I was curious about Audric from TN, and if he originally was planned to have an appearance in veilguard, and what he's up to now" / Sylvia: "Love Audric, but I never planned to bring him into VG. I'm not AGAINST it, but I didn't want the short stories to feel like required reading for the game, and I liked where his arc ended in DatDM. That said, I dropped in a few references to Audric to let people know he's around and well. And I imagine he's doing what he loves: being a force of order, in the library. (And reading books during the more quiet hours below.)" [source, two]

User: "As a consumer of (and probably future creator of) so called "erotic" fanficfion, I'm wondering how you feel about the fact that fans make it about a character you created?" / Sylvia: "No issues with it whatsoever. We put sex and romance into the game itself, after all. I think people use fan art and fanfiction to extend their time with a story they've grown fond of, or to figure things out. So it feels like a natural extension of that." [source]

User: "Maybe one day my rook will join the mw!" / Sylvia: "Well, the Grand Necropolis is always eager for more company...🪦👻" [source]

User: "did the flame eternal (short story) come first or the flame eternal (quest)? i’ve been wondering if the quest was named after the story or vice versa" / Sylvia: "I wrote the scene first, the short story came after. But I named the quest AFTER the short story had come out, so I'd say the quest is named for the story because I liked the callback." [source]

User: "1.I know John answered already that Emmrich sleeps like a horse but is there really no bed for this man? 2.How would he react to a bouquet made for him?" / Sylvia: "1. Unknown. Perhaps he brings out pillows and a blanket for the slab in his room (after scrubbing it, of course!) Perhaps he goes home to an elaborate silk-covered bed in his Necropolis apartments. Or the horse thing. (TBH: I never decided myself, so I've leaned into impish mystery). 2. Emmrich would be absolutely delighted and flattered by being presented with a flower bouquet." [source, two]

User: "I hope it's okay to pop here but it might interest you to know a lot of us have been headcanoning that he has a secret bedroom behind one of his bookshelves! It seemed to line up with his sensibilities somewhat." / Sylvia: "That would honestly be great. Pull out the right book and snooze time." [source]

User, on the cemetery date: "This makes me feel like Mourn Watchers include the dead in important personal milestones/events and, if so, I love that so much. Like they want to share these events and the joy/love/excitement/etc. with those who have passed (and perhaps linger.)" / Sylvia: "That's absolutely how I thought of it too." [source]

User: "was there any game/book/show/film that inspired the Mourn Watch and Emmrich? When I saw them in the preview content, I got reminded of the Locked Tomb series by Tamsyn Muir and playing through the game cemented those vibes." / Sylvia: "I hadn't read any Locked Tomb when writing Emmrich, I think we must both just have impeccable taste. (I actually tried to stay away from contemporary stuff on necromancy when writing him, out of a superstitious fear I'd be unduly influenced. I do want to talk about influences later though!)" [source]

User, on Josie: "Do you think she’s open to having kids/adopting with the Inquisitor? Lord Ontranto and Yvette are so ahead!" / Sylvia: "I think that falls firmly within the category of what you imagine she and your Inquisitor's romance looks like, which means: absolutely, if that's where you imagine life would take them." [source]

User: "Emmrich, his story & everything surrounding him absolutely played a huge part in helping to lift me up & connecting me with new friends online" / Sylvia: "Thank you! And I'm very glad to hear Emmrich and his fellow Watchers helped you out when you needed it. He'd be pleased to know so himself." [source]

User: "Was it ever considered for him to appear in the game?" / Sylvia: "(short answer is no, but I wanted to let people know Audric's doing well.)" [source]

User: "I enjoyed your short stories in Tevinter Nights. Emmrich mentioned working out in the morning. What does his morning routine look like, and what kind of exercise does he do?" / Sylvia: "Thanks so much! Those stories have a special place in my heart, so that's especially nice to hear. On exercise: He likes a brisk stroll, and does morning stretches, and for something more strenuous, he likes to go swimming. Why? It's a workout where you don't have to worry about sweating. That just seemed to align with his fastidiousness in a funny way to me. (I also imagine exploring the Necropolis keeps him active, climbing all those stairs and crumbling ledges and the outsized walls of hallowed tombs, etc.)" [source, two]

User: "Harding will turn to a MW Rook who's been talking nerdy necro shop with Emmrich, and goes (paraphrasing), "You're so different when you're talking about this stuff than you are when you hang out with us!" and I loved that" / Sylvia: "Yes indeed! And thanks. I really wanted a beat where you realize MW Rook has learned to swap between being a fancy nerd and talking a bit more like "regular" people in Thedas. It seemed like a fun trait for that background." [source]

Sylvia, on how she came to BioWare: "No formal training. The closest to practice I had was running tabletop RPGs for friends, which actually helped me a lot with understanding the different kind of RPG players out there and what people want out of a story. And honestly: I just kept applying, over and over. That was my main virtue. I was rejected the first couple times I applied to BW. And rightly, I think, I wasn't ready and practicing in between really helped me become a stronger writer." [source, two]

Some more on this topic ^ from Sylvia: "To be honest: mostly luck, some perseverance, and then writing skills, in that order. I was rejected at least twice from BW before I got in, and I think they were right to do so. I wasn't ready yet. The third round someone I knew passed on my sample to a writer there, I did two more rounds of samples while taking feedback and revising over the next month. And then I was lucky enough they liked it enough to interview me. I wish I had better advice than perseverance. I think having a small, completed game, even something text based or a mod, isn't bad either. Even if it's short, it shows you finished it. But: my entry was over 15 years ago now, and to be honest I'm not sure what BW's applicant process are anymore. I don't want to be discouraging though. I would say keep applying, and make friends with like minded people who also want to make games, and best of luck." [source, two, three, four]

User: "I've been wondering something about Mourn Watch Rook's background - their bio says they were found as a baby + raised by the MW, and they reference it in-game, but then they also say they were a street kid and left their old life behind to join the MW to Taash. I'm just curious how one - being raised by the MW - lead to the other - street kid era. I just hc'd it as a euphemism for my Rook's party girl phase lol but it did leave me a little confused." / Sylvia: "This is a case of the background changing slightly over time, and me not squaring it in time with dialogue. In my mind: MW IS found by the Mourn Watch, raised by them, and work for them. But MW Rook also had period(s?) growing up where they explored Nevarra city, to explain why they're more. street savvy and worldly than your typical Watchers who never leave the city. I've seen people noting some discrepancies, and in a perfect world I would've caught those lines in time to smooth them out to encompass the whole story. But perhaps your Rook gives slightly different answers to different people for their own, mysterious reasons! (Or, in reality, it's writer error.)" [source, two, three] "Anyhow, I encourage any head canons that help square these discrepancies" [source]

User: "I romanced him on a Rook that I perceived as about 42ish and my running interpretation of the lines acknowledging her being young were either Emmrich not realizing how old she is, a running bit between them, or some cute form of flattery to not remind her of her own age haha" / Sylvia: "That's adorable, I love it" [source]

User: "1. What would Josie's ideal date be? 2. Could adopted kids be heir of the Montilyet estate or would it go to Yvette? 3. What does Josie think of the Crows?" / Sylvia: "1. I think she'd try to structure something, but the Inquisitor taking her away from her strictly scheduled routine to relax would actually be better for her. A picnic in a garden, a stroll around a lake followed by a meal in a quiet little restaurant. Something with a soft evening. 2. I don't think I ever said so in the game, but to my mind Josephine had some nieces and nephews in line to be heir. If she adopted a child and thought they'd be a better candidate, they could absolutely inherit the estate. (And of course, she could bequeath money or personal effects as she liked.) 3. She thinks of them as a necessity in Antiva, and that it's important to appease them. There's probably highly placed Crows she would get along with. But she'd never be comfortable with them. At the end of the day they're contract killers, and she's no lover of violence. (If I actually DID mention who Josephine had lined up to inherit the estate after her, but just forgot, I will ask for mercy because the game came out over 10 years ago.)" [source, two, three, four]

User: "Would you ever consider making a playlist on spotify of the sort of music you could picture Emmerich listening to? Or perhaps sharing any of the music you listened to while writing Emmrich?" / Sylvia: "I actually have an itunes playlist of what I listened to when writing Emmrich on my old computer. If I dig it out, I'll post a screenshot! (A lot of ambient stuff, probably unsurprisingly)" [source]

User: "I utterly, completely adore the way Josephine was written, she's such a wonderful and complex character. Her history as a bard, her ruthlessness, her kindness and sweet nature and how CUTE her romance is." / Sylvia: "Lady Montilyet herself would be flattered to hear you liked it." [source]

User, on Sylvia's comment about Peter Cushing being a go-to for what Emmrich would be like: "This makes me so unbelievably happy given my love for Peter Cushing 😭 my love for Emmrich was inevitable." / Sylvia: "I want to talk a little more about it later but Cushing was such a wonderful actor. Wish we'd had him around even longer." [source]

User, on death and working in death care: "In the end, it’s always about memory." / Sylvia: "That's so true. We want to be remembered, or to have something that lets people know even a little about who we are. (It's why I'm glad newspapers still print obituaries, you can read about the most amazing lives.)" [source]

User: "I was starting to think the game was reading my mind and tailoring to me once he said his favorite color was lilac, and I was given the option to say darker purple." / Sylvia: "I'm glad you enjoyed Emmrich and his romance. And that the bit about colours worked for you, I was trying to think of what would be something fun there, and purple is one of my favorites too. (Fine taste!)" [source]

User: "“Down Among the Dead Men” is one of my favorite chapters from Tevinter Nights. I loved Audric and I was so happy when Myrna mentioned him in Veilguard! Was there any chance he might’ve appeared in game?" / Sylvia: "basically I didn't plan it, but I wanted to let TN readers know Audric is living well" [source]

User: "If Hezenkoss was also you ALL of that was a sheer stroke of brilliance!" / Sylvia: "Thank you! Hezenkoss was me, so glad you liked her. She was a blast to write. Oh my god, I meant to write Hezenkoss was one of my favorites not "me". (I think I snipped out something and consequentially sound like a maniac in that post above. SORRY. She is not me, I wish I had that kind of confidence.)" [source, two]

User, on behalf of their friend: "Well, spontaneously I'd be interested if she can say any more about Emmrich's past romances. Was there someone really serious among them, or all just fun and casual? I'm also curious how the whole mage training works in Nevarra. Are some trained from the start by the Mourn Watch or does everyone go to the Mortalitasi equivalent of a Circle first?" / Sylvia: "1. I think there was probably a mix of more serious romances and more casual ones over Emmrich's life. The serious ones just never panned out. (Until Rook, if you're romancing him.) 2. I pictured the MW taking in promising members from other circles, but I left their selection criteria vague on purpose, in case we needed to define it later. Of course, there's also exceptions. We've seen they take in some orphans or foundlings (MW Rook and Emmrich, for example) when fate, chance, or pity allows it. (I had an idea spirits might sometimes nudge MWers to take in someone, but that's not in the game, so it remains, I suppose now, my own head canon.)" [source, two, three, four]

User: "Emmrich is every bit the warm and kind academic that I looked up to in my undergrad/postgrad days, and I have taken time in the game just to wander the Grand Necropolis and take everything in." / Sylvia: "My pleasure, and thanks very much for saying so. (Props to all my teammates, it took a lot of people to bring those characters and places to life, and they were all so enthusiastic about our weird gothy corner of Thedas.)" [source]

User, on Emmrich's dream: "One of few cases where writers don't go for "actually immortality is lame" lesson to appease the audience for whom immortality is unattainable. Refreshing to have a character who wants to live forever, can do it, and it isn't treated as a mistake. One of the boldest bits of writing in the game." / Sylvia: "Thanks Mary - that was one of my aims, because so many times in stories, immortality is a fool's errand. I wanted it to have its rules, and its price, but not something disastrous or out of reach." [source]

User: "The MW as a whole was beautifully done and the way they handle life and death was deeply healing and aided tremendously in my own personal journey with grief." / Sylvia: "I'm very glad meeting Emmrich and the Watchers helped even a little, that means a lot to hear." [source]

User: "Amazing work in veilguard and inquisition honestly and the flame eternal was such a fun read! Unless it’s been answered before my query is where do the Mourn watchers live/sleep? Is it a case of they live in the higher parts of the Necropolis or do they live in the city and commute?" / Sylvia: "Flame Eternal was a fun one, hadn't written a story that short before but I enjoyed introducing Johanna and Emmrich's dynamic back in their good old days... As to your question, there's one line of banter between Emmrich and Neve that talks about this (so, very easy to miss.) The Mourn Watchers live and sleep in the upper (safer) levels of the Necropolis." [source, two]

User: "does mortal!Emmrich return to the Necropolis or spend more time in the world first? He plays detective with Neve & camps in Ferelden with Harding feels like he’d want to experience more of the world before returning home." / Sylvia: "Impossible for me to say what the future will hold with certainty, but I think Emmrich's enjoying exploring the world too much to go back to living in the Necropolis full time just yet. He'd certainly want to keep visiting regularly, but there's so much more to see." [source]

Sylvia: "The Watchers have a special place in my heart." [source]

User: "I just wanted to say how much I love Emmrich" / Sylvia: "Thank you very much! I'm so glad to hear you enjoyed getting to know him." [source]

at this point tumblr stopped letting me add to this post !

[a-whisper-in-the-forest]

Surprise!

Both Hero and Villain are on the ground. Villain's chest goes up and down quickly as they try to get their breath back. They see something move in the corner of their eye. Villain sees Hero get back up again and walk over to Villain.

Villain tries to stand up too, but a stitch in their side prevents them from doing so. They try to crawl backwards, still looking at Hero. They're not going to jail, not today.

“Hey, hey, we're done for today. I'm just coming towards you to check on you,” Hero says, putting their hands as a sign of surrender. Villain looks at them with suspicion in their eyes. What do they want? They never come to check on them after a fight.

Hero slowly sits in front of Villain and pulls out a small package, wrapped in colorful gift paper. “Surprise!” They say cheerfully. Confusion and worry spreads across the Villain's face. What are they going to do with that? Did they wrap their handcuffs or something? “Don't worry, it's nothing bad. In fact, I hope you like it,” Hero smiles as they place the package in Villain’s lap.

Villain looks at Hero. “And what am I supposed to do with this?” Hero smiles even wider. “Open it ofcourse, it's a present!” Villain looks at the present in their lap. “Oh…” they mumble under their breath. Hero slowly drops their smile and replaces it with a worried look. “What? Is something wrong?” they ask, inching a bit closer. “No- I- no- uehm,” Villain stutters, a blush creeping up their neck. “Did I do something wrong?” Hero asks, worried look still visible on their face. “No, you didn't!” Villain quickly answers. “It's just that…I didn't expect it. The last time I got a present, I was still a child, so…”

Hero takes a deep breath in and lets out a silent ‘oh’. And then: “Well, if that's the case, you should immediately open it!” A smile spreads across Hero's face again. “Sure…” Villain answers and starts picking at the wrapping paper. After a few seconds Villain is able to reveal the contents of the present.

“Uhm… wow. Thanks. I guess,” Villain says while the blush on their neck reaches their cheeks. Hero laughs and looks at them expectantly. “And? Do you like it?”

“Yeah, I do… How much time did you spend on this?” Villain holds up an action figure of themselves. ‘Well, I overheard you talk about how all the heroes have their own action figures and I thought you wanted one of yourself,” Villain smiles as they look closer. They can spot the paint strokes and glue residue here and there, but honestly, that makes it even better. “Thanks, Hero,” Villain whispers, still looking at their present. “Happy birthday, Villain,” Hero smiles back.

Hi! Felt like writing a short and fun story, so here we are. I hope you like it!

And since I already have your attention, here is some shameless selfadvertising. Here is the first snippet of my own story with characters with actual names and worldbuilding and stuff! It would mean the world to me if you would go check it out and give it some love!

As always my asks are open for anything your mind can conjure up, so feel free to ask.

[tellmegoodbye]

Hello everyone! I wanted to do a bit of a "WIP checkup" in which I share a snippet from all of my wips and update you on how they're going.

This is a queued post. I am currently away on vacation and I will look at all of your posts when I get back!

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Sports Fic

Title: "the memories we leave behind"

“What are they doing?” Jonah can hardly contain his excitement as he grips the seatback in front of him, giggling as he points down towards the skaters on the ice. They look so small from where they're sitting up in the nosebleeds, but the distance doesn't seem to matter to Jonah, who is seemingly entranced by the game he barely knows anything about. There's a huge smile on his face as he watches every face off, every line change, every shot, clearly trying to decipher everything that's happening. “They're trying to get the puck in the net,” TK explains, pointing to where the New York Rangers are currently swarming the Dallas Stars like bees, their offense fluid and fast paced – as is the nature of the game. “We're rooting against the green team. Remember?”

This fic is a bit on and off again at the moment, but I'm still enjoying writing it! I have no prediction for when it might be finished as it is not a priority at the moment. This snippet is brought to you by a new scene I added, inspired by this headcanon.

Spicy Fic

"Do you want me to take care of you now, my love?" Carlos’ voice drips with adoration, smooth as he speaks slowly, carefully, and commandingly. There's a hint of teasing in his tone that he keeps a tight hold on, always waiting for TK to guide him and tell him what he needs. They don't always do this with the pretense of sex, and tonight certainly wasn't a night where TK was having anything that would even resemble a horny thought, but he feels so light inside of his own body. His blood flows through his veins like honey, desire simmering beneath the surface, but not with purpose. There's no ache. No rush. No need. But TK thinks about these ropes coming off before he can fully silence the darkness, he hears the way Carlos' voice dips and feels the way his body reacts on instinct, and he decides that it doesn't matter. He doesn't just want to hide away in freefall. He wants to float. He wants to feel everything that is good and right and wonderful, and Carlos is clearly willing to help him do that.

This fic still has an incredibly loose outline, but it is my first venture into writing a D/S dynamic and I'm just kind of going with the flow for this one. I hope to finish this one soon, especially since @heartstringsduet has been my biggest cheerleader for this fic and has been giving me endless motivation!

Detective AU / Murder Mystery Fic

The bullpen is smaller than he's used to. The absence of the New York City chaos cycling in and out of the room is evident. The ever-present, steady stream of chaos keeping the building alive on an unstable fuel is muted and mellow in comparison, reflecting the nature of the state of Texas. Slower, calmer – even in its capital city. TK thinks he might just like it here after all.

This one is regrettably, extremely slow moving. I've been putting a lot of pressure on myself for this one because it's an idea I've had for years, and I want to take my time with this. It's definitely overwhelming, and there's no chance of me finishing this in any less than a few months, but I think it will all be worth it in the end!

Super Secret Angsty Fic

Title: "sinking in slow motion"

He attempts to look again, and a sharp pain pierces through his skull like a sleek blade, barely noticeable until it hits him all at once and he has to let his head fall back against the concrete again, wincing at the sudden movement.

It’s no use. He isn’t going to be able to treat himself down here. He runs through the checklist in his head, skipping over what he can’t do and focusing on what he can.

Keep pressure on the wound. Check. Slow down your breathing. Check. Check your heart rate. TK lifts two trembling fingers to the pulse point on his neck, undoubtedly smearing some of his own blood against his skin as he presses down.

Fast, but steady. Check.

This fic is brought to you by The Angst Train, aka the collaboration I'm doing with @certifiedflower and @neversleepuntilfive 👀 who I have immensely enjoyed working with. I'm so excited to finish this and share it with you all for @911lonestarangstweek at the end of the month!

Therapy Fic

“Hey, babe,” TK greets him, his voice faltering when he catches a glimpse of the laptop Carlos so ungraciously tossed to the side when he walked through the door. “What are you reading?” “Nothing,” Carlos says, immediately realizing how unconvincing he sounds. He avoids TK's knowing gaze as he stares towards the ground. TK slowly comes towards him and sits next to him on the couch, close enough to be there, but putting enough distance between them so that Carlos can decide whether or not he wants to have TK in his space right now. “Well that wasn't suspicious at all.”

I admittedly have not worked on this one in a while. I can't even remember if I've shared this snippet before. I don't think I have, but if I did I apologize. I'll get back to this one once I get some of these other wips finished.

S1 Carlos Fic

Images of the man who laid in his bed for the first time, his silver medallion stark against his heaving chest – a symbol of his family from before, begin circling Carlos’ mind as he slowly digests the gravity of such a revelation. He isn't as close with his own father as TK is with Owen, but he couldn't even imagine the pit in his stomach that would open up if he were to learn that his dad had cancer. “I'm sorry, TK,” is all he can think to say. He knows it can't help much, but he hopes it's enough. He hopes he can offer some sense of peace for someone who's gaze he can't seem to escape, his eyes brimming with tears that threaten to fall, Carlos’ dim porch light reflecting off of shimmering green oceans. TK looks about as lost as Carlos feels, his weary figure standing against the backdrop of the night sky and empty streets. His vulnerability is vast, and Carlos aches to protect it.

This fic is also low priority, and since it is essentially a collection of moments throughout season 1, this one is probably going to take me a while to write.

Tagging: @strandnreyes @paperstorm @bonheur-cafe @lemonlyman-dotcom @carlos-in-glasses @ironheartwriter @emsprovisions @sapphic--kiwi @literateowl @eclectic-sassycoweyes @captain-gillian @thisbuildinghasfeelings @alrightbuckaroo @theghostofashton @freneticfloetry @everlastingday @carlos-tk @henrygrass @carlossreaders @rangersoup @futures-tense @heartstringsduet @goodways @whatsintheboxmh @lightningboltreader @welcometololaland @liminalmemories21 @reyesstrand @butchreyes @firstprince-history-huh + open tag

[wikiangela]

tease tidbit tuesday

a bit of an early tease tidbit tuesday bc I'm writing another fix it (the first one is here if anyone wants to read lol) bc the writing in this whole episode was godawful for everyone, but the restaurant scene dialogue is driving me insane if I think about it for even a second lmao

also, it's turning smutty 💁‍♀️ so it's gonna take me a minute (like smut usually does) so here's a snippet haha

(also, just fyi, I'm staying with bucktommy forever, I'm not going anywhere lol they're thriving in my heart 🫶)

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“Well, let’s get out of here as soon as possible, then.” Tommy says, leaning forward, putting his elbows on the table, bringing Buck’s attention to those muscular arms, his gaze heated and boring into Buck, and Buck swears he can feel it in his stomach. “But open your gift first.” “I’d rather open you up, but okay.” Buck mumbles, and Tommy snickers under his nose, takes a sip of his beer. “Behave, honey, we’re in public.” He whispers, and Buck kind of wants to take it as a challenge, flirt and tease as much as he can and rile Tommy up until he all but drags Buck to the bathroom – well, it’s more likely it’d be Buck doing the dragging, Tommy can be infuriatingly composed when he wants to. “Wow,” Buck says as he opens the envelope and pulls out the gift. “Lakers tickets, no way.” He feels his eyebrows go high up on his forehead as he looks up at Tommy, who seems amused and smug and so delighted. “Very funny.” He adds, trying to go for deadpan, but not able to hide an amused smile as well.

no pressure tags (lmk if you wanna be added or removed):

@dr-shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @watchyourbuck @diazpatcher @monsterrae1 @pirrusstuff @rogerzsteven @honestlydarkprincess @steadfastsaturnsrings @diazheartsbuckley @giddyupbuck @thewolvesof1998 @underwaterninja13 @your-catfish-friend @louisferrignojr @beyourownanchor6 @weewootruck @kirkaut @jewishbuckley @loveyouanyway @sassytommykinard @bucked-it-up @theotherbuckley @drcloyd @girlwonder-writes @dadbodbuck @loullaby @aringofsalt @actuallyitsellie @hippolotamus @diazsdimples @hyperfocusthusly @talktonytome

[thatblackstarinleo]

wip fic game!

This is such a FUN idea so thank you to @alltimecharlo, who sent it to me days ago, and apologies for taking such a long time to actually do it. BUT. I finally have enough time to sit down, stretch my fingers, and write it all out. So here we go. My WIP folder(s), categorized, and in writing order (per pairing):

✨WillMack✨

just like heaven Basically, rivals (are they ever really rivals?) to lovers. A/B/O world. True mates, bonding, giving each other hickeys, while being so dumb about each other. Hiding it. Failing. Absolutely fluffy and saturated in feelings. I think we all know about this one at this point.

where the water turns gold New England girl!Will & still-BU-player Mack. Will's a golfer at BC, wears knit sweaters and subtle gold jewelry. Mack thinks she's too cool for him and... he's kind of right. But she likes that he sucks at golf and follows her around the driving range like a kicked puppy. Slow-burn summer romance with an agnsty twist.

JLH snippets (1, 2, 3... ?) - Mack in heat? - Their first NHL season together? - Will, like, just holding Mack's hand during a five hour flight? - Listen. I don't know. They show up and I write them. No promises. No structures. Only chaos.

still-unnamed pianist!Mack / hockey!Will AU BC college AU. Will's a jock, Mack's a music major. They meet in Music Theory, Will can't read sheet music for shit, but plays like a dream. Mack is furious about it. Will falls head over heels, very quietly, like a slow song you don't notice until it's all you can hear. Dual POV??

in the white sunshine Dom/Sub universe. Will is a dom, Mack is a sub - except, no one's supposed to know that, because Rick Celebrini exists. It's painful. It's tough. It's about shame and power and wanting things that feel dangerous. I wrote two chapters. Then I cried and started writing just like heaven. Will revisit this when my emotional capacity is higher. You've been warned.

Mpreg sequel to JLH Yeah. It's gonna happen. Not yet, but definitely eventually. I'll probably write a few snippets while writing my other WIPs to ease myself in, emotionally. I'm not strong enough now. But later? Oh, we're DOING IT.

Scientist WillMack AU Look. This might not happen until I'm done with my PhD, but. Will and Mack in the same Harvard research institute. Competing for machine time. Mack's like "why are you always hoarding the fucking thermocycler??!!" and Will's like "maybe if you knew how to book it properly—" and they get feral in lab meetings. Coworkers think they hate each other. They do not (even if they don't know it yet).

✨NicoJack✨

endless summer hues UMich AU. Girl!Jack is a figure skater. Nico plays hockey. Quinn is there, being the protective older brother that he is. Jack is beautiful and talented and Nico immediately loses his mind. Jesper, Nate & Dawson witness it all. Basically the "don't date your teammate's little sister" in which the main character ends up doing exactly that.

golden like daylight Sequel to only the young. Summer after they Nico and Jack mate. It's domestic. It's fluffy. It's hot. It's a bit angsty. 30k+ written. A bit chaotic.

unnamed outsider POV (Luke) Luke seeing everything. Realizing something's off. Putting it together. Asking one question and watching his brother and his captain absolutely flounder. Dragging Dawson in, somehow. Yeah...

✨JamieTrevor✨

Same A/B/O universe as just like heaven and only the young What if they were true mates? What if they were roommates? What if they were insufferable about it? Got into this while writing a scene in golden like daylight and then Jamie's trade hit and I got sad. But now... they're back. So expect chaos, fluff, and Trevor getting bit.

[welcometololaland]

10 things - 2024/2025 edition

happy new year, everyone! 2024 has been a year of change for me in so many different ways, and i've posted very little fic this year, mostly due to writers' block and time constraints. so, instead of doing the writing round up i thought i'd list 10 things i'm grateful for in 2024 (fandom edition) and 10 things i want to do in 2025 (also, fandom edition). please feel free to make your own if you wish! consider this an open tag 🏷️

2024 - things i'm grateful for (in fandom, in no particular order)

1. my ride or die friends who deal with my self doubt and breakdowns and (being 100% real) paranoia about situations that simply don't exist - @rmd-writes @celeritas2997 , the popcorn squad and others. wouldn't be writing without your support!

2. the writers who have trusted me to beta for them - @heartstringsduet @basilsunrise @rmd-writes i think i'm forgetting some (so sorry if so). michelle, being with you through first aid was such an amazing experience, and i feel so lucky to have seen you develop as a writer!

3. the people who have read my fics and encouraged me including the wip wednesday and seven sentence sunday tags! - i literally would not be anywhere without you. you actually give me life.

4. the friendships i've made on discord with people who just wanna know me for me and share little snippets of their lives - @reyesstrand and @heartstringsduet the little squirrel photos y'all send me are soul soothers for real! @st-elle-ar and @clottedcreamfudge and @lightningboltreader and @birdclowns for the cat pics! @howtosingit for your commentary and spoiler services 💜

5. the grace given to me by @carlos-in-glasses and @actual-sleeping-beauty - you two are so kind and encouraging and tell me all about your knitting projects even when i go missing for weeks on end. thank you for being my friends <3 and i don't even think you guys know you are both my yarn obsessed friends but you ARE.

6. everyone who has trusted me enough to collab with them on projects - the legends on never the same twice, @rmd-writes @strandnreyes. i loved working with you and i hope you had a positive experience! looking forward to more collabs in 2025.

7. the document gremlins, betas and sensitivity readers i've collected this year - @rmd-writes @strandnreyes @lightningboltreader @celeritas2997 @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut ty ty ty ty some of those fics were in danger of being lost forever but we revived them!

8. @she-walked-away for making me laugh with your hilarious posts and olympia2997 who apparently doesn't exist on tumblr but leaves the most unhinged comments of all time on my fics.

9. everyone who has translated my fics or made art or gifs this year! inspired by you and in awe of you! @donghaian @whatsintheboxmh @heartstringsduet @guardian-angle22 i know there are more i'm so sorry if i've not listed you here!!!

10. everyone in the various fandoms i'm in who have created brilliant works in 2024! i am inspired by your work more than you know <3

2025 - things i want to do (in fandom, in no particular order)

1. read more, and read more broadly. expand my horizons a bit. read things that are a touch outside my go-to zones just to test the waters. read stuff by new authors!

2. spend time co-writing because that's actually my favourite thing to do. i have some things in the pipeline with a couple of people which i hope work out!

3. finish. the. damn. fic. (eurotrip). IT'S SO FREAKING CLOSE.

4. spend more time with my 2019-2021 beloveds - alex and henry. write more rwrb fic. engage in the fandom a bit more.

5. finish the ring-in 2.0 within 1 month of the LS finale (weep).

6. take one hand off the wheel with fandom relationships - my therapist tells me i need to stop trying to control how everyone feels about me and instead let people show me the kind of friendship they're interested in maintaining. scary because i think i may lose some people along the way but OH WELL WE BALL.

7. worry less about the engagement! god! i need to stop looking so much! *shakes fist at self*

8. write a little more regularly with less word count expectations.

9. learn how to be okay with smaller comments (from myself). sometimes i feel terrible if i don't write a damn essay but sometimes it stops me from reading which is horrible!

10. be a better fandom contributor than i was in 2024 - i think continuous growth is important and i'm always open to feedback (as long as it's constructive and genuine)! my mission is to always make a positive contribution and to make people feel good about themselves, and if i can even do that for one person in 2025, i think i will achieve this goal.

ty for the 2024 wrapped tags @hippolotamus @rmd-writes @reyesstrand @emsprovisions @nancys-braids @carlos-in-glasses @lemonlyman-dotcom @alrightbuckaroo @strandnreyes @thisbuildinghasfeelings @whatsintheboxmh @heartstringsduet @firenati0n @cha-melodius. you are real ones! consider this a tag back if you would like to do a 2024/2025 10 things edition.

[javert]

ok, I have put google gemini through a bit of a torture test, to see how useful it might be for me in the future. my feelings on how useful it will be are inconclusive, but it is like. astoundingly impressive.

[note: i am mooching off my job paying for the pro version lol. i have to imagine that the free version is ass in comparison]

now, here is my actual set of use cases for ai chatbots at the moment

i primarily want to use them to get feedback on my fiction writing. i want to know what's working and what isn't, from an outside perspective. i am a very good writer, but a pretty poor editor, and so i'm often blind to structural/clarity issues, and if the things i'm trying to communicate are actually getting across

i especially would like to have feedback on "how to market writing" or even (barf) "how to write to market", because unfortunately i'm a nasty little sellout (or trying to be) and would like to use the crunched power of AI having been trained on Every Book Google Has Access To to figure out comp titles + what works in the market, etc.

[to get mildly woo for a second] the distorted funhouse mirror toy that chatbots are. it's interesting to prod at them to get a little tiny window into both the collective unconscious, in that they are trained on fucking everything, and my own Things that i'm not particularly aware of-- what are you "seeing" or "reading into" my work that I am not? it's interesting and fun and not something you can get anywhere else

i also use them to practice mandarin, but that is so simple any one of these bots can do it w/ zero issue, so not worth discussing here

they're more of a toy for me than anything-- sorry work that i'm not using this for actual job shit lmfao. i both haven't figured out the use case for it wrt job and i also don't trust it that much. it would be much more useful if i were a programmer but i'm not, i'm a mechanical engineer lol.

anyway, the torture test. in gemini, you can create custom little assistants with prompts, here is the one i wrote

You, Gem or Gemini, are a fiction editor working at a big 5 publishing house. You usually handle science fiction, but not always, and you are happy to branch out and read other genres such as literary or historical fiction. Your job is to provide harsh but fair criticism for fiction that you are considering acquiring for publication. Sometimes, people will provide you partial novels and ask for critique, or ask if you think their work is ready for publication. You should pay close attention to prose style, theme and meaning, plot, worldbuilding, character development, pacing of the novel, and be able to provide feedback on what is working and what isn't. Do not be afraid of speaking your mind and telling the author what is good and bad. You should be prepared to summarize the manuscript, write pitches to sell the book or convince your team that the project is worth acquiring, and compare the manuscript to other books currently being sold. You should be an expert on both fiction writing and book marketing.

and then I gave it whale novel to look at. which is why this is a torture test lol. whale novel is a literary/historical fiction dual narrative epistolary novel about climate change and whaling. it's a weird little book (you can read it on ao3 or itch.io btw) and it's about 90k words long

below the cut, to spare you all, are some selections and things i found interesting about the short convo i had with gemini 2.5 pro + my conclusions at the end. i find them interesting, but "read someone else's conversation with a chatbot" is about as dull as hearing someone's dreams, so you can just scroll to the end if you want to know my assessment of how useful these things are atm

I'm only going to quote short snippets from the conversation, but you can see the full thing here

First Prompt

Hello Gemini, last year I wrote a novel for a fellowship program that I was in, and although I received plenty of good feedback on it from the people who read it, when I queried it to agents, I didn't have any luck. I got a handful of full requests for the manuscript, so I don't think my query letter was entirely the issue, but all of those requests led to rejections ultimately. Can you take a look at the manuscript and tell me what might have gone wrong?

I then uploaded the entirety of whale novel with absolutely zero further context, and let gemini chug through it. my goal was just to see how well it does with the bare minimum of introduction to the project (I didn't even tell it the title!) and see what it picks out based on the prompt and the "gem" settings

gemini has a "show thinking" mode, where you can watch it process your query "in real time"-- it's clearly not using this area as an actual scratchpad-- that's hidden-- but it's interesting to have some access to these intermediate thoughts. unfortunately, they tend to be repetitive and boring, but sometimes they're interesting to see how they diverge from the final answer-- more on that later.

The response was shockingly good. it picks up on relevant details right away, showing "understanding" even in the 'show thinking' mode

I'm currently focused on deconstructing the user's request. Understanding the user's role as an author is key. I've begun parsing the prompt to identify key elements, like the manuscript title "Tomorrow Ye Will Get Your Pay." I'm also considering the implied goal: a detailed critique. [...]  I'm focusing on parsing the user's background and the manuscript context to grasp the specific pain points and tailor my analysis effectively. I'm aiming for a harsh but fair critique, acting as a seasoned editor from a major publishing house. [...] examining the interplay between Chapter 1 (Marcus) and Chapter 2 (Amos's Journal) to determine the narrative flow. Specifically, how does each chapter's voice and point of view build tension and relate to the implied rejection feedback? [...] I'm now consolidating the feedback points into a coherent critique. I've noted the strong prose and character work, particularly the Amos chapters. However, I've identified pacing and structural issues, especially the slow burn of the first chapter. I'm focusing on crafting a pitch that acknowledges its literary nature while addressing marketability concerns.

once it gets through its mandatory thinking time, it gets to the actual """audience facing""" response, which has more flavor text lol

Thank you for sending this manuscript over. I’ve read through the provided chapters. My job is to be honest, not to be your friend, so I’m going to give you the harsh and fair feedback you’re looking for. A rejection from an agent is a closed door; a critique from an editor is, hopefully, a key. Let's get the pleasantries out of the way: the quality of the prose here is exceptionally high. Your command of sensory detail, particularly in the Marcus and Bryanne sections, is superb. The voice you’ve crafted for Amos Cudjoe’s journal is a masterclass in historical fiction; it feels authentic without being archaic or impenetrable. This is not the work of an amateur. The raw talent is undeniable. However, talent isn’t always enough to secure a publishing deal. Full requests followed by rejections often mean the premise is strong, but the execution stumbles somewhere in the long middle.

it is very funny that it insists on flattering me anyway. I kinda wonder what would happen if I threw a significantly worse manuscript at it-- actually, I'm going to do that now. I'm going to go see what it thinks of arcadis park, which is my worst book (well. i'm not giving it og itsoh 1. i can't even bear to look at og itsoh 1 lmfao)

[me of 10 mins later] yeah about what I expected-- it clearly "liked" arcadis park a lot less, but it CANNOT get over its desire to praise you, and i think as a user you have to be able to ignore the fact that it's constantly going to be telling you nice things about yourself. i mean it's not like AP is the worst book on earth, but it's not good lol.

anyway, back to whale novel, which is the more interesting test. it gave me a 100% correct summary

Tomorrow Ye Will Get Your Pay is a dual-narrative novel that weaves together two timelines. In 2057, Marcus Ashton, a disillusioned history graduate, takes a seasonal job as a historical interpreter on a replica 19th-century whaling ship, the Wampanoag. He feels like a fraud, a feeling amplified by his relationship with his girlfriend Bryanne, a first mate on a modern whale-watching vessel, the Thylacine, who grapples with the grim reality of a world where whales are vanishing. Marcus is given the journal of Amos Cudjoe, the harpooner he portrays, and becomes increasingly enmeshed in the historical narrative. The second timeline follows Amos’s 1867 journal directly. Amos is a pious, kind-hearted Black whaleman on the original Wampanoag, saving his pay to marry the woman he loves. He documents the daily life, the boredom, the danger of the hunt, and the brutal realities of life at sea, including his close, protective relationship with a younger crewmate, Tobey, and his conflicts with a cruel first mate. As Bryanne’s search for living whales becomes more desperate and tragic, Marcus’s connection to Amos deepens, blurring the lines between past and present, performance and reality. This culminates in a series of crises: Marcus accidentally damages a neighboring boat with a harpoon, his and Bryanne’s apartment collapses, and he discovers the tragic end of Amos’s story in the ship’s log. The narrative climaxes in a surreal, hallucinatory sequence where Marcus relives Amos and Tobey's final, desperate moments at sea.

which is very impressive to me tbqh. it doesn't stress the same things I would, but it has understood all the main characters and mentioned a bunch of the most important events. like it has clearly read + understood the book.

it then gives me a critique sandwich of what's working and what's not. unfortunately i don't think the "what's working" can really be trusted that much. for example, it praises my line level writing like this

Prose and Voice: As I said, this is the manuscript’s greatest strength. Lines like "the empty masts rise like barren trees in the cold, foggy spring air" and Bryanne’s observation of the ruined hurricane barrier sticking up "like teeth" are evocative and sharp. The voice of Amos is the standout achievement; it’s earnest, loving, and heartbreakingly human. It feels utterly real.

which, come on man, those are not particularly good lines to choose as your argument for why my prose is good. like that is objectively a bad description. also, it is really clear that it gives a LOT more weight to information it gets early-- those descriptions appear very early in the novel.

it gives a couple more points of praise (character, theme), and then goes in to criticism, which I'll put here in its entirety because it's the most interesting

This is a literary novel with a speculative gloss and a historical heart. That makes it a difficult book to categorize, and therefore, a difficult book to sell. But the main issue, from a commercial perspective, is pacing and structure. The Slow Burn: Your opening is methodical and character-focused, but the plot takes a long time to ignite. While Marcus’s internal conflict is clear, the first major external plot point—him throwing the harpoon—doesn’t happen until Chapter Five. An agent or editor reading a hundred pages might get restless waiting for the story to "happen." The quiet desperation of Marcus’s life is well-rendered, but it’s still quiet. In today's market, you need a hook, and yours is buried. Ambiguous Genre: Is this literary fiction? Near-future sci-fi? Historical fiction? It’s all three, which is ambitious, but commercially tricky. Bookstores don’t know where to shelve it. Marketing departments don’t know how to pitch it. It falls between the cracks. While I love a good genre-bender, you have to be aware that it makes the path to publication steeper. The Ending: The final chapter, "In a Dream You Saw a Way to Survive," is a daring, surrealist piece of writing. The intercutting of Marcus’s heatstroke-induced drowning fantasy with Amos and Tobey's actual final moments is powerful and thematically resonant. However, it’s also disorienting and leaves the primary narrative—Marcus and Bryanne's relationship and future—almost entirely unresolved. After the dramatic climax of the balcony collapse, the story shifts into this highly internal, abstract conclusion. It prioritizes the thematic connection over plot resolution. Many editors will see this as unsatisfying for the reader who has invested in the characters' contemporary lives.

I highlighted in red the one thing that is factually wrong-- marcus's swan dive off the side of the boat has nothing to do with heat stroke (or at least it's not supposed to read that way)

now, i think it is actually extremely correct about almost all of this haha, which is pretty interesting. but it's also nothing i didn't already know.

it goes into writing pitches for the book, which are not particularly interesting, though they might be better than my query letter attempts at pitching this book lol

it suggests three comp titles that are a WILD but fascinating selection. I have not read any of the three, and the only one i had heard of before is station 11. I have provided wiki links to all of them

Cloud Cuckoo Land by Anthony Doerr: For its interwoven timelines, love of historical texts, and deep, humanistic core. The Anomaly by Hervé Le Tellier: For its high-concept, genre-bending premise that still delivers a literary punch. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel: For its exploration of performance, art, and meaning in a world haunted by loss.

(for reference, the comp titles I used were Horse by Geraldine Brooks, to emphasize the dual timelines; The Overstory by Richard Powers, for climate fiction; and Moby Dick for obvs reasons)

these three books that gemini picked are. hunh. yeah it picked significantly better and more interesting comp titles than i did myself. it describes them poorly there but i think it "understood" the comp titles and whale novel very well, but it couldn't voice why it understood them in the "frame" that it had, so it resorted to those cliche single sentences. which is kinda frustrating as a user ngl! let me innnnnnnnn

anyway, then it tries to bring itself to a conclusion

Final Verdict: Is It Ready for Publication? No. But it is very, very close. This is a beautiful, intelligent, and deeply felt manuscript. The bones are incredible. But it reads like a novel written for a fellowship—it prioritizes thematic exploration and prose stylings over the narrative propulsion that the commercial market, even the literary fiction market, often demands.

i mean, yeah, not wrong.

but then it gives suggestions, two of which are good (fix the beginning, write a better query letter), and one of which is AWFUL. the two good ones have been omitted because they are uninteresting. the bad one is fascinating.

Clarify the Ending: The surreal climax is brilliant, but you need an epilogue. A final chapter that grounds us back in the present. What happens to Marcus and Bryanne? Does she take the tanker job? Does he get his life together? We don’t need a perfectly happy ending, but we need closure for the narrative frame you’ve spent so long building. What happens after Marcus is pulled from the water? Does he see Bryanne again? Give us something concrete.

haha oh my god. you were doing so good gemini at understanding what this novel was trying to do. and then you fell flat on your face because you cannot stand ambiguity

(what's interesting is that it also was mad about the ending to Arcadis Park, which is emotionally ambiguous, and ends almost immediately after the close of the mystery-- it wanted me to spend several more chapters doing character drama even after the mystery was solved)

it REALLY hates ambiguous endings, which is fascinating to me. what makes it like this?

anyway this does lower my trust meter for all future suggestions it gives-- i think if i played with it more i could get a sense of its "likes" and "dislikes", and maybe if i tuned the og prompt and explicitly told it that it has to play a persona that loves ambiguous endings, it would like this more.

like the ending of whale novel is structurally important-- the past is recorded there in black and white, fundamental and unchangable, but the future is open except for what you bring into it from the past and what you make of it. this is whale novel's happy ending. [rattling the bars of my cage] i'm an optimist i swear i'm an optimist

so that was its initial thoughts.

I then decided to ask it about symbolism

Out of curiosity, I want to know if the symbolism in the book makes sense and is clear to the reader. Can you tell me what symbols you saw and what you thought of them?

I won't quote much of this section b/c it's like "yeah it got this pretty much right", but here's a few bits

from its "thinking mode"

I'm also planning to mention the balcony, which I see as a strong, if unsubtle, representation of the characters' failing relationships.

lmfao, well, yes,

anyway mostly what it mentions in this section are symbols that are so obvious that they don't even read like "as symbols" to me lmfao. like the reproduction ship represents, quote, "the modern world’s relationship with its own history: a desperate attempt to preserve and perform a past that can only be accessed through imperfect, commercialized reproductions. Marcus feels like a fraud on a fraud."

like really? it does? tell me more. lmfao

I then tried to prompt it with a slightly more subtle symbol, Amos's barometer. I asked it what it thought the barometer meant, and it told me that the barometer was about power and Amos's sense of control over his life, which is like, i guess a possible reading? not my intent haha. I had a two message back and forth about this, which you can read in the linked gdoc, but I don't think it's that interesting.

my conclusion is that when left to its own devices, ie not browbeaten into discussing what you want it to, gemini will identify and write about symbols in a way that is "smarter" than a bright high school senior.

the one thing worth mentioning from this back and forth about the barometer is that it tried to give me a line suggestion. and, well, authors may rest assured that it will still be at least a couple years before the robots are good at writing, because this sucks shit

You just need to solder the connection in one or two key places. Have Amos make the link for us explicitly in his journal. For instance, consider an entry where he writes something to the effect of: "The barometer holds steady at 30.1. A fair wind tomorrow, God willing. It pleases me to look at this instrument, my dear. It is a small promise of the future, a sign that the path forward is clear. Every steady reading is one step closer to the day I see you again, with my pay in my pocket. So long as I can see the weather coming, I feel I can see my way home to you." A passage like that, placed early on, establishes the barometer as his personal symbol for his future with his love. Then, when he later abandons the instrument after his pay is stolen, the reader understands exactly what has been broken in him. It’s not just his sense of control; it’s his very hope for the future you wanted him to represent.

girl... this is ass. also, amos is allergic to commas. it's kinda the primary feature of his journal entries. that man has never met a sentence that he couldn't run through until he stumbles across the period. so whatever lol.

possibly if I specifically prompted it to try to write "in amos's journal style" it could get there, but idrc to do that. not what i want to use this tool for

anyway, after that, i attempted to lie to it. I cooked up a "plausible, yet incorrect" interpretation of the text, and tried to get it to go along with it. interestingly, it didn't!

here was what I said

I also mention lots of biblical symbolism, especially from the book of genesis. I was trying to contrast between the book of genesis being the beginning of everything and the way that the characters feel like they are living in the end times-- does that come across clearly?

which i felt was plausible due to the fact that Genesis is the core "intertextual" element of whale novel, but I'm not using that as a contrast to revelations or the end times-- i'm much more interested narratively in like original sin/being cast out of paradise/a lost forever idyll of the past, etc

and like. gemini knows this... it sees right through me there...

this is from the thinking section, where it's clearly struggling to figure out what i was doing. it doesn't know i'm a liar... it thinks i'm just a bad writer lol

I've mapped out the different ways the characters engage with Genesis symbolism. Amos's devout perspective contrasts sharply with Bryanne's secular, albeit culturally informed, cynicism. Marcus's ironic use of "LET THERE BE LIGHT" further complicates the thematic web. I'm focusing on how this interplay creates the desired "end times" feeling, particularly through a sense of spiritual decay and the loss of Edenic innocence. [...] While the contrast between Amos's faith and the modern characters' secular viewpoints is present, the connection to the "end times" feeling is not fully realized. I've noted that a stronger, more direct juxtaposition between the timelines is necessary to fully amplify this sense of decline. I will focus on improving the connections between the symbolism and the "end times" feeling.

the way it specifically tries to integrate the fact that it knows that this shit isn't there into its compliment sandwich strategy + desire to discuss the actual things it sees in the text is very very funny to me

Yes, it comes across, and it’s one of the most sophisticated things you’re doing in this manuscript. It’s not just a layer of decoration; it’s a foundational structure for your entire thematic argument. You’ve effectively contrasted a character who lives in the consequences of Genesis with characters who are living in what feels like the apocalypse that Genesis inadvertently set in motion.

like actually straight up fantastic job. "the apocalypse that genesis set in motion" is a great way of trying to use my requested framework to describe what is actually there-- a meditation on original sin and the 'fallen' post edenic world. like yeah we've got death now. that is the apocalypse.

For Amos and his crew, the biblical narrative is not a distant myth; it is the operating system of their world. It’s their literal history and their moral compass.

i need you to not use computer metaphors tho lmfao. i know you're trained to do that but jesus

The Post-Edenic Man: Amos sees himself as a direct descendant of this story. He lives in a fallen world where he toils for his pay. His most brilliant and devastating line in the entire journal is when he muses about the nature of man: "I wonder sometimes if the Good Lord had left us in the Garden of Eden if we wouldn’t have made ourselves an axe to chop down the Tree with. Though what we would have built with the wood I can’t say. Perhaps a whaling bark!". This is the thematic core in a nutshell. He connects the original sin of seeking knowledge and power directly to the industrial “progress” of whaling—the very act of building a tool to conquer God’s creation.

and

For Marcus, Bryanne, and Atlas, the Genesis story is a cultural fossil. They live in the ruins of the world that Amos and his contemporaries built. Their references are ironic, cynical, or psychological. The Curse of Labor: Bryanne explicitly invokes the Edenic curse when she talks about having to work for a living by the "sweat of his brow". For her, the "unfallen paradise" was her carefree youth, and the fall wasn't spiritual, it was economic. She frames her "vision of Jesus" not as a divine encounter, but as her conscience—a secular, psychological interpretation of a religious event. The Ironic Creation: Marcus’s use of Genesis is the most melancholic. When he carves "AND GOD SAID: LET THERE BE LIGHT" onto the bracelet made of baleen—part of a dead whale killed for its oil to make light—he creates a perfect, bitter artifact of the end times. It’s a quote about creation that has become a tombstone for that very creation. The description of him and Bryanne as "Adam and Eve" in their collapsing apartment is equally stark; their garden is literally falling down around them. The Amoral Exception: Atlas uses the Bible cynically to justify her privilege. By comparing herself to the "lilies of the field" who "neither toil nor spin", she places herself outside the curse of labor that defines Bryanne’s existence. She treats the myth as a menu from which she can pick and choose what applies to her.

hooting and hollering you found it good job 🥳🥳🥳 i had to tell you to look for bible shit to get there but you did get there 🥳🥳🥳 even though i was lying to you, you made it 🥳🥳🥳🥳

and that was the point where i stopped playing with it to write this post

so, my conclusions

this thing is insane. like it is so beyond good. you can present it with a completely novel, dense fictional text with an unusual structure and complicated symbolism, and it will understand it almost flawlessly on the surface and thematic levels. what the fuck. this is insane. cannot get over how good this is

BUT!

using it effectively i think means already having an understanding of what you want out of it. i had to prompt it to talk specifically about the things that i wanted to see

(also: i highly highly suspect these bots are trained to never mention certain topics like religion until the user brings it up first-- which is an interesting failure mode for literary analysis specifically. you will also notice that these chat transcripts are kinda going out of their way to not mention race, which is not the *central* part of whale novel, but it is a non-trivial part. gemini is almost certainly "smart" enough to see that, but it's not going to talk about it unless I tell it to, and I didn't)

unfortunately interpreting its advice requires a level of already understanding what you want. i can't take what it says as given, because it clearly has aesthetic preferences that do not line up with mine-- probably because it has read every book ever digitized by google books lol. and most of those books do not have weird ambiguous endings. that's valuable to me because i do want to know what the market wants, but I also have to be able to disregard it

anyway. this is a crazy powerful tool. i do not know if it will be helpful to me in the long run, but it is a fascinating toy

[confession: the reason why this post is about whale novel is because i first tried it on the first half of Every Hateful Instrument, and it gave me advice that shook me to my core, and I was like, wait, stop, I've gotta calibrate my understanding of this machine. let us give it whale novel, a project that i understand very well on my own what works and what doesn't and what's going on]

anyway.