#but honestly i'm lazy so this is good enough for now xD

[albatris]

🎮?? :DD

:D!! thank you so much for the ask! this one was a lot of fun!!

🎮 Characters as a dating sim romance option

so, I want to do a couple more of this prompt with different characters, because a chaotic polyamourous vampire shenanigan rental car dating sim is absolutely something I want to make at some point It Seems Fun, but I started with Ms. Zeke Cunningham-Warwick-Lâm, famous romance novelist, vampire hunter, and Actual Canon Psychic (?)

excuse the stock image background fdhjfkdghd

well, in the story, Zeke and Alex go on a date together, and Zeke performs one of her famous tarot readings with her homebrew deck, and I do feel like that's the sort of thing she'd bust out on a first date hahaha. dicey business, considering one of her custom major arcana is simply called "The Zeke" and it's. um. her "this person is an immediate threat" warning card and means that she's probably about to beat the shit out of you

if you pick that one you probably shouldn't count on a second date

but ye, honestly Zeke is a sweetheart if you don't give her any reason to be grumpy or suspicious of you lmao

@illuminated-interlude you wanted to be tagged in this one when I drew it, hello! :D

[amethystfairy1]

hi I'm back again already lol, bc u really ought to know all the great things about ttsbc that I was too lazy to write out last time lmao.

Also! totally fine that ur not doing skizzpulse, you should write what inspires/motivates you (personally very motivated by them xD I've written ~90k words of skizzpulse myself rip)

Anyways, good things! You! you're the good things! I honestly can't remember when I last sent an ask in for the lil guys, so I'm just gonna say something I loved about each of their recent arcs.

First, Treebark. There's been so many identity reveals but I think this has been my favorite thus far. Ren going all protective boyfriend and fighting over Martyn was SO GOOD, plus soft kisses and they can just hold hands now without Ren being afraid he'll figure it out. Also loved Martyn seducing his entire family while being terrified out of his mind by big dog people with knives, like, I'd be a little out of it too. but the fam doesn't even notice but Ren did and is all supportive and comforts him, offers to take him home. I love how well they can read each other, like they're just in tune. they're soulmates, your honor. and, AND this means we can have double dates where they all know now! so excited :)))))

Zedango. this is what started me reading your stuff (the first fic I ever wrote was actually my own tt zedango ficlet, btw. that feels like an eternity ago now) I love how they've simultaneously progressed and devolved into slightly unhealthy relationship territory. something about not everything being perfect all the time just adds so much depth and realism to their relationship, as well as keeping the plot tense without feeling like you're making up problems just to have something to write about. AND THEN Tango doing the blazeborn courtship rituals was just so aaaaaaaa (THEY"RE SO ADORBSABLEEE) Tango setting aside his disgust with his claws to take care of Zed even tho its uncomfortable for him, and then Zed recognizing that and having all the warm fuzzy fondness for his bf was so sweet. Doc's notes about the rituals were on point, with how he reassures Tango that they're normal, healthy things and saying he's always open to having a conversation about it. (tho, i doubt Tango's ever taken him up on that offer lmao)

The other fic that's been in my head is ur most recent one, Handshakes and Headaches. I highly doubt we'll get a cub reveal in this next chapter, but ig we'll see soon enough. I loved how Cub just knew instantly that Grian was a hybrid and was just going in spirals putting it together that he was cuteguy, then him coming to the wrong conclusion about whether Scar knew, too, was just perfect. Tho, if he did think Scar knew and was cool with it, I wonder what he'd do first? Tell Scar his own secret, guess Grian's secret in front of them? I feel like he would think the safe thing would be to confront Scar about Grian being Cuteguy, and then if/when Scar admits it and says he's cool with it, Cub would feel safe(r) revealing his own identity. Maybe not right away, but sometime. Also, that would mean everyone in Hot Cave knows about hybrids and undercity, so he wouldn't have to glamor while he works (tho, that would also require revealing to Zed... they don't seem super close, but it's kinda obvious that Zed's chill w/ the undercity people, considering he's dating Tango and Cub knows that).

Also! now that Hypno knows G and Scar are safe, I really wanna see him revealing to Scar and Scar being all supportive and stuff :)))) Hypno wasn't someone I knew I needed in this world, but I'd die for him now. (ALSO the casual mention that his scales are dry and flaky rather than smooth and taken care of??? Hello?????? Someone get him some proper self-care ASAP, maybe take him swimming at a private pool or something idk. I feel like the moment Scar knows, he's going to be on it with the cookies and love and support. so excited hehehe)

anyways, I'm probably forgetting something, but whatever. I'll be back with more art soon (maybe I draw Hypno, since I've never done that before and electric eel hybrid sounds cool. Actually, I've decided, I'm gonna do it now. remind me what that looks like pls? or I go reread, whichever happens faster lol)

Ok that's all, have a good day!

I LOVE THE RAMBLESSSSS

Petition to get Hypno a private pool 😆

I'm so glad you love the slightly unhealthy but also very loving Zedango situation we have going on!

I LOVED YOUR TT ZEDANGO FIC! I'M STILL WAITING FOR THE SEQUEL!!!! 😭 /j you don't have to write one if you don't wanna BUT KNOW THAT I LOVED IT!

Ren being a protective boyfriend is all I need sometimes! It's just good fun! Thank you so much for telling all about everything!!!

I would actually LOVE to see how you would design Hypno if you do feel like drawing him! That sounds amazing! Electric Eel hybrid time!!!! 💖

[rosapexa]

WiP Whenever

Thank you for tagging me @chevvy-yates , @wanderingaldecaldo , @gloryride 🖤

I'm working... Ok, working is not the right word for that. I'm experimenting and losing my mind over this for weeks now. And honestly i've been depressed so many times over this, it really hasn't been fun in a while, unlike making the tattoos for V-Lexa. But also i can't let things go, when i start something, so taking a step back and just leave this for a while, was not really an option (and i tried). And i really wanted to make something for her.

And since yesterday, i think i'm finally on the right track. Maybe. Hopefully. We'll see. Sorry, i'm rambling.

Anyway...

I always wanted to give Lexa some tattoos. But there hasn't been anything so far, which i thought would fit her. And also tbh i didn't even really knew myself what i wanted for her. And tbh it was kinda difficult to find something, cause everything i tried, wasn't "good enough" for her and i was (and still am) constantly unsure, if i'm not ruining her.

It was a lot easier to find something for V-Lexa. Not because i care less about her, but because she's in comparison relatively new and i'm still figuring everything about her out.

But Maelstrom Lexa has been around for quite while now and allthough i want changes, i'm so scared (yeah, it doesn't make sense). Also it doesn't help, that her personal lore is about wanting (Maelstrom) perfection and making her body the perfect weapon -.-

Aaaand i'm rambling again. Ok... Changes:

New tattoos of course. Lexa LOVES skulls. On her clothes, as decorations... So that is also mostly the theme for her tattoos. A lot of skulls. But she also got two "let's get some ink while blackout drunk" tattoos (she's not always perfect xD). On her right hip you can get a glimpse of a "yelling" cat, which she got after Salem adopted her and she just wanted to show off, that she now has a fur baby. The other is a Maelstrom logo on her leg which she got shortly before her initiation, when she got extemely drunk with Royce and Dum Dum and decided it's time for a gang tattoo. And of course they thought it was an awesome idea 😂

There's a tattoo for Johnny as well. It's the heart on her right arm. Not a cute heart, since we're still talking about Lexa, so it's the... literal organ 🫀 I still have to add Johnny's name and their wedding date to it. Also i would like to give him the same tattoo, but i'm not sure about that yet. Mostly because i'm hesitant to change his tattoos and don't want to get yelled at for that 🥴.

I got rid of her vanilla body scars and trying right now to give her some custom ones. Because i always thought she doesn't have enough scars, since she's fighting a lot and she sees them as trophies. But that's just an idea for now and i have to see how this goes, cause i'm not really understanding what i'm doing (normal maps wtf!?). I would also like to work on her face scars, but that is even more confusing.

I also thought about making my own skin color for her, cause sometimes her skin looks too red for my taste. I would like to have her paler and with even less color. But i didn't have any succes now, cause nothing looked good enough.

Other stuff:

I'm tidiying up Johnny's NPC+, cause every time i gave him a new outfit i just threw the things into his mod folder without organizing anything. And now i have a ton of stuff and no idea, what is for what. Also there are a lot of appearances, which i will never use (again).

I'm very slowly working on a mod for the Aurore Outfit: Pants, bra, top and jacket. I like this outfit so much but as usual, i need COLORS 😂 Currently only the pants are more or less ready, so this will take a long while until i can share it, since priority are definitely things for the blorbos.

Also in between i make some poses, but these are mostly just for myself for now, cause i'm actually too lazy to make them good enough for the public (at least i know how to position the camera to hide the chaos) or to retarget them for other couples besides M/F.

I think, that was it for now. Which was already too much again 🥴

I'm tagging @togepies , @miss--river , @thelonestrider , @wraithsoutlaws and @dreamskug for a WiP sharing. As usual without any pressure of course 🖤

[frxgmcnts]

GET TO KNOW THE MUN

What's your phone wallpaper? bronya from honkai: star rail (& my lockscreen is firefly!! of the same game not that anyone asked lol)

Last song listened to: chk chk boom by stray kids

Currently reading: nothing, but I'm thinking about re-reading the empyrean books because dragons and all skdjfksd

Last movie: uuhhhh, kinda did a rewatch of 'the other zoey' but I skipped parts (honestly i don't like the movie that much, but drew is cute in it...if we ignore this freaking ugly sweater >.< yes, i'll forever complain about it lol )

Last show: it must be 'all of us are dead'

What are you wearing right now? black shorts and an oversized shirt

Piercings/Tattoos: my ears are pierced but i haven't worn earrings in forever

Glasses/Contacts? glasses because I'm too lazy for contacts

Last thing you ate? potato gratin

Favorite Color: red, blue and black

Current obsession: (post-) apocalyptic settings/genres/games, frank dillane, felix's voice (don't look at me deep voices make me weak lmao), dragons

Do you have a crush right now? um, no. haven't had one in a long time, unless we talk about celebrities then I've got a list for you lmfao

Favorite fictional character: that's quite a list, so only some examples...my ocs (xD someone has to be a fan aside from moni :p <3 ), nick clark (why do you think I'm mainly on his blog?!), alicia clark, victor strand, a number of other f/twd characters, katherine pierce, caroline forbes, davina claire, a number of other tvdu characters, blake navarro, wei wuxian, lan wangji, a number of other the untamed characters, the pogues of o b x, aziraphale and crowley of good omens, dean winchester, castiel, crowley, bobby and a number of other spn characters, malia tate, isaac lahey and a number of other tw characters, uuummm I'm drawing a blank now, but I think that's enough

Last place you traveled: the office this morning because work... xD

tagged by/stole it: my loves @dozenrozez & @r3dblccd tagging: you!

[omegansamurai]

Heyo!!!

Hope you're doing well and I hope I'm not being too much of a bother, but I'd love to hear more of your thoughts on Toph's characterization on the ATLA comics, please? 🥺

Especially from another Taang shipper, I think you're perspective is really knowledgeable and interesting (and you seem so smart with your words)

Oh my goodness!! Thank you! :D I was just about to message you! ^_^ 

LOL, well, I was the fortunate one to not read the comics, as I heard horror stories about them. XD But I just feel like...Toph isn’t treated really fairly in those comics? Like all Bryke can do is make her snarky and tough, but it’s like...she’s so much more than that? She can feel, she can cry, she can even act girly when she wants to! It’s like Bryke are so sheltered, they can’t make her interesting...maybe it’s because they see her as a dude-bro, and don’t want her to be involved with Aang, because Aang has Katara, but...well, why not? You think Aang would be totally fine with just having one girl when there are other girls out there that he can communicate with(like Toph?)? Like let’s be real, he’ll be a teenager soon, and he’s gonna notice some changes in girls...and the whole ‘Aang is a saint thing? Like...kid, you’re twelve. You got a whole life ahead of you. Meaning, different tastes in women change. And honestly, they, being Bryke, screwed up Aang as well. Like he’s too preachy, he’s too...I mean, I like Aang, I just don’t like Bryke’s Aang. Aang could’ve been so much more of a character that grows, but we don’t get that, we just get him to go through the easy way out, without any growth, just so he can get the girl, that girl being Katara. It’s just...it’s lazy. 

Honestly, I’m not even going to watch the ATLA grown-up movie, because it’s going to have Bryke at the helm. I know it’ll be a trainwreck, because they have to make them the way they were in the show...which, look at Korra, they did spectacularly with that show, didn’t they? X( Like, the writing is not on par with ATLA. And even then, the third season of ATLA felt botched. Like they just don’t want him to grow, and they want him to get the girl, which the story of Avatar is so much more than that! Like, care about your story, dudes! DX

Really, what I’m actually waiting for, is the Netflix live-action ATLA. At least that could be good without Bryke’s influence on the show. And it sounds great from all the stuff that’s been said about it! Like, seriously, the live-action sounds like it’s going to be good. I don’t even know what Bryke was pitching a hissy-fit about after they left(it could be ship preference, I don’t know!), but if it’s doing good, just know that they want in on that fame. XP

Okay, I’m gonna stop here, because I feel like I could go on and on about certain things, but just to end this message, the only reason Avatar is so different right now, is because the head writer and his talented writers aren’t on Avatar anymore. Bryke scared them away, because they are petty and stupid enough to cancel a fourth season for (get this) the greenlit of The Last Airbender movie! D: And they threw M. Night under the bus when it did very poorly when they had a hand in it as well! X(

Either way, yeah, I just don’t like Bryke. XP

(Sorry, I feel like I didn’t answer your question. I hope I at least kind of did. ^^; )

[dawnstarranger]

woe, all the even numbered weird asks be upon ye

This is only fair xD

lighter or matches? Matches

which cryptyd being do you believe in? All of them but especially Moth Man

why did you do that? I was left unsupervised

how many water bottles are in your room right now? Just one but its a plastic one that I keep reusing because I'm too lazy to wash my metal one

would you slaughter the rich? Give me a time and place and I'll bring the sharp implements

what kind of day is it? A good one so far!

do you love the smell of earth after it rains Yes!

can you drive? Yes, and I usually enjoy it as long as I'm not driving in a bigger city

what hair products do you use? Shampoo and conditioner and lots of bleach and hair dye

do you say soda or pop? I'm honestly about 50/50 on this one

what type of person are you? A fucking nerd tbh

if we were together on a rooftop, what would we be doing? Listening to music and getting drunk. Unless that's not your thing. We don't have to drink, but if you hate music we can't be friends

a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times? I think about the first time my partner said he loves me a lot :3

is there dishes in your room? Nope. Maybe the occasional mug, but that's it

do you have a favorite towel? Yes, I have my towel I bought when I moved into a dorm that's soft and nice and then there are the towels stolen from the in-laws house that are not soft and nice lmao

is there a song you know every word to by heart? Literally so many but the one that comes to mind is Labor by Paris Paloma bc I was lucky enough to experience it live recently and will never forget what that was like <3

how many times have you changed your url? If you count the entirety of my time on here, maybe like 4-5 times? This iteration has never had a url change

a soap bar that smells good? I buy a lilac soap from the ren faire that smells amazing

did you have any snacks today? Is a bottle of Guinness a snack

an app you frequently use besides this godforsaken site? I waste way too much time on instagram

you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it? My lawyer advises me against answering this one :3

favorite holiday film? Beetlejuice and The Adams Family are p good if you count them as halloween-esque

when did you first try an alcohol beverage? lmao I'm told I used to steal sips of homemade beer when I was a very small toddler

can i tag you in random stuff? Yeah!! Go for it, I love being tagged in stuff or getting random asks <3

[yandereloversblog]

Can we request another Michael scenario?? I was obsessed with how well you wrote the Gift!!

𝐘𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄!𝐌𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐞𝐥 𝐀𝐟𝐭𝐨𝐧 -> 𝙺𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚎𝚍 𝙳𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐

───────•°˖~❉᯽❉~˖°•───────

> 𝗙𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗼𝗺: 𝙵𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙽𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚜 𝙰𝚝 𝙵𝚛𝚎𝚍𝚍𝚢'𝚜

> 𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿: 𝙼𝚒𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚎𝚕 𝙰𝚏𝚝𝚘𝚗

> 𝗪𝗮𝗿𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝚈𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛, 𝚃𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌 𝙱𝚎𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛 , 𝚄𝚗𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚝𝚑𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚃𝚘𝚡𝚒𝚌 𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚎𝚝, 𝙼𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙱𝚎𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚛, 𝙼𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚎𝚛, 𝙺𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚊𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝙵𝚘𝚛𝚌𝚎𝚏𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝙳𝚎𝚙𝚎𝚗𝚍𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛, 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚞𝚛𝚝, 𝙳𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚞𝚛𝚍𝚎𝚛.

> 𝗧𝘆𝗽𝗲 𝗢𝗳 𝗖𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁: 𝙾𝚗𝚎-𝚂𝚑𝚘𝚝

> 𝗪𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗖𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁: 2442 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜

───────•°˖~❉᯽❉~˖°•───────

•I'm surprised you like this guy so much, he was the one I had so less ideas about then boom!... Honestly while writing this I realized that yeah maybe I do like writing him XD

───────•°˖~❉᯽❉~˖°•───────

You opened your eyes, as always waking up on the same bed, to the familiar ceiling up above greeting you. After a few minutes of turning and twisting, realizing you couldn't go back to sleep, you sat up, sighing in hopelessness and glaring at the culprit that kept disrupting your comfort, the handcuff on your right wrist, the chain extra long as the end cuffed to the bed frame, it made you scowl in annoyance. The sound of the door opening reached your ear and your entire body froze knowing what was to come.

"Oh? It seems you're already awake." The smooth voice was laced with slight excitement and happiness once he laid eyes upon you. The footsteps were barely audible as he made his way to the bed, you didn't even look once the extra weight was placed on the bed and together with that, a tray of food on your lap. The pancakes looked extra fluffy and delicious, fruits and syrup adored the top and sides, a glass of your favourite drink by the side, and some snacks placed for later. It was worthy enough to make you drool but you couldn't stomach food very well after what happened.

"... [Y/N], you're becoming lazy these days huh?" Michael, the person that had imprisoned you, let out a playful chuckle, this situation a normality to him "Maybe it's my fault for spoiling you but I can't help it, I love you so much." The brunet hummed softly and moved to sit right by you, cutting the pancake up with the plastic knife rather easily and plucking the plastic fork into it before pulling it up to your mouth, of course he avoided dangerous cutlery to make sure you didn't hurt yourself "Come on now darling, say "ahhh"~"

The sugar-coated tone sent a shudder down your body but you obeyed, it's better to eat something you were going to vomit back later than starve because you didn't do what he had told you.

Michael's eyes lit up when you started chewing on the food and eating it, he's been trying to get you to eat without struggling and it finally happened "Good job [Y/N], let's try finishing the entire plate this time." Michael put down the plastic knife in favour of patting your head, laughing softly at the achievement he got before repeating the process of feeding you.

Michael was your boyfriend, your ever so loving boyfriend that had everyone jealous for some reason, why wouldn't it? He was handsome, pleasant to be around and had a great personality, he always knew what you wanted and never made you angry, except things started to quickly go wrong... The further your relationship progressed, the more possessive and controlling Michael became. Suddenly all your friends started avoiding you, the ones who stayed started harassing you online which made YOU want to avoid them. You moved in with Michael and it seemed like the dream relationship until you started depending too much on him, Michael didn't let you do anything.

Whenever you made him angry you had to worry about the most basic things because you didn't have anything of your own. So when you tried taking control of your life again you got kidnapped by your boyfriend, locked in your shared house, with no one to search for you and no job to call for you on why you haven't been to work... You have nothing to hope for anymore.

You hated this part after you were done eating, hated Michael carrying you around with a collar on your neck like some pet 'Should've left when they told me to.'

"I've always loved your hair doll." Possibly the worst moments of your life, it made you seeth in anger and shame "I can fucking do it on my own-" You yelped, closing your eyes once the water splashed down on you to rinse the shampoo off your hair "What did I tell you, babe? You should say "thank you" in these situations." Michael laughed, rolling his sleeves up further as he continued to bathe you, your skin burned from how gentle he was being.

You bit back a growl and huffed in annoyance as you took the toothbrush from him, whispering out a "Thank you." Michael gave a hum in amusement once you finished brushing your teeth, he was barely able to hear your appreciation voiced out. The brunet wrapped the towel around you, picking you up without any trouble and carrying you back to the bedroom "The least I could have is some privacy..." You mumbled, your voice not as harsh hoping to appease Mike's good graces so he leaves you alone for today "Now why would you want that darling? I wasn't able to see you yesterday so I'll be sure to spend every second I can with you."

Michael didn't miss your sour expression once he set you down, it surely seemed to amuse him as he unlocked the handcuffs, gently holding your right wrist, the one that was chained up when you slept or stayed on the bed as he wasn't home... It had turned purple and blue, your skin also a bruised green if he locked closely, scratches and old blood on it, indication that you tried your best to remove it when he wasn't present yesterday "Looks like I should never leave you alone like that again."

You whimpered when he traced his fingers over the wound "You can't even take care of yourself to not get hurt." Your eyes burned from anger, tears threatening to spill when hearing Michael's troubled sigh, biting your lower lip to not say anything. Michael observed your reaction and smirked, gently petting your wet hair "There there, no need to cry dearest, you know I don't mind taking care of you." The brunet laughed when you glared at him, trembling and doing your best to not yell at him again.

Michael began taking care of your wrist, gently disinfecting it and wrapping it up in some bandages "Maybe I won't tighten it up so much next time if you behave." You listened to Mike's useless chatter as he picked up the hairdryer, from how the day had been to what he was doing and then some news for the world, he kept going nonstop while drying your hair and gently brushing through it "Maybe you shouldn't place it on me at all."

From the mirror, you saw him rolling his eyes at your snarl "But how could I do that?" His voice faked innocence as he turned off the hairdryer once your hair was dry, placing a gentle kiss at the top of your head "You're gonna escape if I do~ and neither of us wants that, right?" His hands placed on your shoulders, starting to squeeze you "How can you even survive without me, love? Everyone will take advantage of you just like before~"

You clenched your jaw at the statement, your nails digging at your palm as you clenched your fists, the hands letting your shoulders go as Mike moved away from you "You were the one behind that..." You mumbled, fighting back the urge to get up and run, knowing the collar on your neck would tell him your location no matter what, and you didn't want Michael to implement the electric features he promised.

Michael kept looking through the closet, not even looking at you "What'd you say, honey? Speak up." You couldn't tell if that was sarcastic or he didn't hear, you heard him come closer again as he placed the top in front of you, looking at your reflection in the mirror "Hmmm... Yeah, let's go with purple today as well." He chuckled and went back to the closet to pick a skirt or pants or whatever the fuck, that was the least of your concerns right now 'I should run. I should run... The key should be in the living room...' You knew Mike kept it there to tease how no matter what you wouldn't try to use it.

Your breathing quickened, your body trembling as the heartbeat on your mind got louder "You want any particular hairstyle today o-" You didn't even let Michael finish before you sprung up from your seat and bolted for the door, Michael flinched at the loud sound and turned to look at you, only catching glimpses of your hair as you left for the hallway "... Hah." An amused and surprised scoff sounded out from his throat as his smirk twitched once realizing what happened.

You ran down the hall, skipping down a few stairs while holding onto the railing, you started panting once making it to the living room, your eyes lighting up once seeing the key that unlocked your collar, hope starting to bloom inside your chest only for it to be shattered and ripped away from you once a shock emitted through your body, you let out a scream once your body heated up and began hurting, it lasted for a few seconds before stopping, not even registering Michael's footsteps coming towards you.

Once you could finally breathe properly, albeit somewhat ragged, you looked up at him, tears in your eyes "W-when..." That wasn't *supposed* to happen... Michael shrugged, having a grin on his face "At night, I realized since I was gone for a day you might get some ideas." He scoffed, and leaned down, carefully picking you up "Turns out I was right." He huffed and began walking back upstairs, you looked back at the key and whined, this was it. You give up.

Michael frowned once your body began shaking in his arms and you started crying, did he overdo it?

...

You opened your eyes once a clashing sound reached your ears, normally you knew Mike would come back in the middle of the night but he never made so much noise. So against your gut and better instincts, you sat up. Having fallen asleep crying after what happened in the morning and Michael comforting you, your eyes red and tired, you glanced at the clock and saw it was somewhere around 8 pm... Did Michael drug the water he gave you to get you to sleep? "Of course he did." You grumbled in annoyance, getting up from the bed and barely making it to the door, creaking it open just a bit to peek outside "Michael?"

You called out, knowing how the brunet kept the house under tight security while he was away... No answer...

You frowned in confusion and gently rubbed your throat, groaning at the collar around your neck, and made your way downstairs, you could use a not drugged glass of water now.

"Since I don't have the handcuff around me he probably hid the key somewhere else..." You frowned once you entered the living room and the key wasn't there, sighing you turned to leave for the kitchen only to yelp once you got harshly pushed back, landing on your side and hurt wrist which made you let out a small cry from the pain "M-mike...?" You stared up at them in confusion, Mike had times where he got angry but never like this, your blood ran cold once you didn't recognize the person at all and notice the glinting of the knife they were holding, when they saw you attempted to get away they stepped on your leg harshly and leaned down, raising the knife up in the air.

You stared at the knife, hoping you would be fast enough to dodge to the side once he brought it down, only to flinch in sudden shock once blood splattered on your face, turning to look at the person instead your eyes widened once noticing the axe jammed to their neck, noticing a hand still had grasp of the handle you followed up the arm to see Michael, a terrifying and disgusted glare on his features as he looked to the person, gripping the axe and tearing it off before hitting them right back on their teared neck and making them fall down to the side.

Michael scoffed, stepping on the body as he made his way to you and leaned down, his expression, as with a switch, softened once he looked at you "Damn, are you alright sweetheart? You didn't get hurt anywhere did you?" He mumbled softly, noticing the blood splatters on your face and scowling, using his sleeve to wipe them away, mumbling "filthy" a few times.

You had begun shaking, tears swelling up on your eyes as you looked at the corpse, you had known Michael killed people, he had told you so himself but to actually see him do it, with so little care and such hatred...

"Ahh my poor darling, you're trembling now, I feel guilty for leaving you alone." Michael huffed, once done with cleaning your face he picked you up and made his way to the living room, leaving you on the couch "I'll be right back, just try calming down, okay babe?" He kissed your forehead and turned the TV on, leaving it to some comedy channel and walking away.

You weren't focused on the TV at all, faintly hearing and paying more attention to the background sounds of what Mike was doing. From the faint sounds of the body being dragged away to chopping sounds and rustling of bags, then squeaking on the floor. After a few minutes you heard the shower running. You couldn't grasp your own thoughts while thinking back to what happened merely one hour ago.

What made you snap back into full consciousness was your vision being blocked by something red, your nose catching the pleasant scent of roses "H-huh?" You voiced out in confusion while looking at the bouquet of roses Michael was holding out to you, when had he sat down next to you?

"It's for you [Y/N], I knew I was a little harsh in the morning with the shock collar and all so I got you some roses and snacks." He grinned, seeing how you just accepted them without any disagreement made his heart flutter happily, he wrapped his arm around your shoulder and pulled you closer to cuddle, changing the TV channel to Netflix and picking your favourite show.

While you were in a trance Michael made sure to set some of your favorites snacks and drinks on the table, glancing at you he couldn't help but to snicker at your still scared expression, who knew you'd give in after just seeing him do a little bit of killing?

"Don't worry honey, just leave everything to me~"

[minzart]

Now I'm curious about the rest of the students who hopped on to the “our dear little host~” trend? (Leona? Jade&Floyd? Jamil? Lilia? Oh god what about Rook??) Also how would Arthuro act if he was on NRC Host (I headcannon that he's the person who sent the anonymous letter if he was in this AU xD)

Riddle

He thinks it's how they are suposed to refer to Yuu for now on, it's a more endearing nick name than "radio host" that's for sure

He when after Malleus, the circle repeats this week, so you can imagine how he's confused, then apologised, but inside HE'S DIEING TO SEE THOSE CHEEKS FLUSH AGAIN PLEASEEEE YOU'RE SO CUTE

In the end he finishes gets out of the house and- you guessed it!

Riddle felling cheeky tonight: that was a very pleasant conversation Yuu! Thank you for inviting me again

Yuu: it was nothing! I'm sorry chat called you strawberry boys btw, but it is a cute nick name and they won't let you scape it, belive me I tried

Riddle: all is forgiven. And Yuu

Yuu: Yes?

Riddle: sleep well... my dear littlr host

Yuu implodes and Riddle is giggling the hole way back to Heartslabyul

Deuce

Like Ace he joins in the bullying, YOU'RE JUST TOO CUTE WHEN EMBARASED XD

Cater

He's the mastermind behind the new #ourdearlittlehostmoments wich are compilations of all the times Yuu said embarrassing thing or acted baffled by something

He will tease Yuu one time per day in the chat and rise a wall of spam of DEAR LITTLE HOST DEAR LITTLE HOST DEAR LITTLE HOST! When Yuu is acting too serious

Trey

If Yuu visits Heartslabyul and stay too long alone with Trey, he'll be precise~ when he hear footsteps close enough

He's whispers in Yuu ear "I hope you appreciate this dessert... my dear little host"

Yuu will implode in a pink puff and people will walk in becoming extremely confused bc Yui is trying to compose themselfs while Trey is wearing his most innocent face

Leona

No shame at all call's Yuu much dear littel shot the hole time he's there, he usualy sends Rughie bc he's too lazy to go BUT THAT WAS A DECLARATION OF WAR, and a free chance to fluster Yuu is always welcome~

Literaly purrs the frase out you can se chat basicaly beting Who will snap first to initiate the kiss dear host or purring boy? "Just make out already!" Makes Leona laugh so hard he falls out of teh chair

Ruggie

Teases Yuu when in public spaces but is careful to only both hear it, loves their reaction so much, that his revenge for "donut boy"

Jack

He only uses it in the show, he doesn't tease Yuu with it during the day, but you can see his tail wagging when he got a reaction from Yuu during radio time

Idia

He joins in the #ourdearlittlegostmoments

Probably uses without thinking when he was forced by Ortho to participate in persson

Both are blushing messes by the end and chat found a new victim to mess with

He does not have the guts to use the name on purpose, he doe suse "our dear little host: but "my"? My is just too much for him. Chat had to donated to make him say "My deat dear little host" and his attempt is golden to this day, more flustered than Yuu

Ortho

The most innocent one right with Kalim, he's just joining the fun! Prefect looks so happy and they said he's cute saying it too!

Rook

Somebody help Yuu, Rook is doing poetry with that nickname

Yuu knows very well who is sending that one ginormous post with flowery lenguage in the #ourdearlittlehost tag, they know it's you hunteroflove, honestly Rook can try to tease Yuu but Yuu has the ultimate weapon! NEIGE LEBLANC VOICE LINES

Yuu calls him Simp and chat loves it so much he's one of the faves just bc it's very easy to pick on him if you know what to use

Epel

Joing Ace and Deuce, he's adoring how easy Yuu is to fluster, gremling having a good time

Lilia

Greats Yuu by My dear little host each time he has to pass by Hamshackle, ah the false of youth, look at those rosy cheeks

Silver

Had no Idea what the fuck was going on and uses bc he thinks is appropriate bc of Yuu's friend doing it ONLY TO MELT YUU OH SEVEN WHAT DID HE DO???

Sebek

Does not uses it, and refuses to do so, but Acea, Deuce and Epel uses so often blows his vow once or twice

Arthuro

HEADCANON ACCEPTED

He's mad bc he didn't used "my" first, wished he knew who dear host was and how to participate in the radio, Yuu's voice is just so cute and their reactions even cuter~

He thanks the seven that he has a friend that discovered NRC radio station in it's early days, it's very useful to know what the other school's up to, and the tea ofcourse, his favorite was that one time someone spiked the teaches drinks and they all become rowdy kids, the students had to pursue them around the school, it was his best prank to this day~ and one of Yuu's best narratives too

Is over the moon when Ambrose asks him to participated he makes a show to pronounce "My~ dear little host" prefers not to say it was him who created the nick name, that's his little secret and guilty pleasure

[butterfrogmantis]

if each smurf ship where standing under a mistletoe how would they react? 🤔

just curious

I'm going to assume you mean mine and not every ship in the fandom, that would take a while! As for mine, I won't go through every bg ship because a lot are simply filler, but I'll go through my main ones and some secondary ships for you! ^^

DonxSomebody:

Pretty typical of every other aspect of their relationship tbh XD Don attempts to act all swoony, Somebody pretends to roll his eyes but chances are he'll make the first move and sweep him off his feet >:) Then Don can swoon for real~

FarmerxTailor:

So this was touched on in my recent fanfic, heh. Farmer is a hopeless romantic and tends to get a bit flustered, even though he says it's his favourite winter plant because of the connotations. Farmer may be a grown Smurf but he still giggles like a schoolboy if the opportunity arises. Tailor knows this, and loves it, though he does have to stand on his tip toes most of the time XD

HandyxClumsy:

You'd think Clumsy would be fairly chill by now having already been in a previous relationship in my hc's but the truth is he's still a bit nervous at heart. Clumsy's ears tend to go a bit pink when he's embarrassed so stick a sprig up somewhere and it'll happen. Handy finds it adorable but doesn't want to embarrass him, maybe a quick peck c:

TrackerxDreamy:

Tbh it's sort of hard to get Dreamy AWAY from mistletoe in December. He sees a bunch of green anywhere on a doorway or tree and he's off for maximum smooches. Of course that's not particularly difficult to do when Tracker is the village forager so they get to spend a lot of time in the woods. Kind of a win-win situation, for Dreamy certainly

PainterxPoet:

If they could stop painting/writing an ode to mistletoe they'd probably eventually get under it. /j but it's somewhat a typical dramatic affair for them. High chances of them reciting a bunch of overly romantic nonsense to the other whilst a queue forms behind them urging them to get on with it already XD

BrainyxGutsy:

Brainy finds this whole thing highly illogical. Actually, did you know that mistletoe is technically a parasite? It's true! The plant steals from- oh, he's being kissed now? Well that's nice, about time he got some well deserved attention

VanityxGrouchy:

Grouchy says he hates mistletoe. Turns out, he does not.

MarcoxTuffy:

Tuffy refuses to go anywhere near it ... at least, while people are watching. If the room is empty or everyone is preoccupied then he brings out the puppy dog eyes until Marco gives in, possibly playfully holding it out of reach but it's only to tease

GreedyxLazy:

Honestly pretty simply in the best way possible? Lazy is rarely standing anywhere if he can help it though but on the rare occasion it occurs he'll give a sleepy lil' smile c:

JokeyxHarmony:

Harmony has become very cautious of this tradition due to an exploding mistletoe prank one year. And the year after that. And the year after that. Luckily the year after that he got a normal sprig. But even so he's always a bit cautious-

HeftyxSmurfette:

Smurfette is pretty happy to give cheek kisses anyway, so I suppose it's the only time Hefty becomes really flustered at all - He does prefer lip kisses because it's more special to him but he's a gentleman that lets his gal decide

PapaxWillow:

Old couple vibe goals. Just a quick peck, nothing extravagant, something cute. Usually followed by a group of Smurfs singing 'I saw Willow kissing santa claus' as a bit of fun afterwards though

And bonus TimberxMiner crackship cause why not-

Timber is very interested in trees and kind of does the reverse to Dreamy/Brainy - he knows mistletoe isn't good for trees and doesn't particularly approve of people kissing under it and encouraging it's growth. He doesn't want to let Miner down though so they've agreed to personally change the tradition to kissing underneath holly instead. It's still festive enough!

This doesn't even scratch the surface of my bg pairs that exist mostly for next gen djfkdls I didn't even get round to any grove gals! D: But I also don't want to make this too long so that's probably enough for the time being XD

[ladyramora]

Hi, first off I hope you’re doing okay and if you’re not that you’ll be okay soon

Secondly I wanted to say thank you, tank you for all the wonderful writing you’ve given us and all the ideas you’ve put out into the world. I found your writing after I started XIV and it was a blessing, not just because of how little people were writing for it at the time but also because I was in a hard place and your writing offered my a lot of comfort. I’ve followed you and your writing since then and I wanted you to know that I’ve read almost everything you’ve put out, I dosnt matter to me they’re short or long as you’re truly talented. My favorites are the mini ascians or the weird courting with Nabriales and Lahabrea and I tend to go back and read them often

Thank you again, please take care of yourself and do what you need to to be the best you you can be okay? Everyone deserves to thrive and be happy and that goes for you as well. It’s not selfish to take care of yourself so please remember that

Thank you, anon. I'm doing alright, as well as anyone right now I would think, but better than I have for a while. I've really struggled for a while with writer's block, or maybe just simply burn out.

I'd honestly love if I just could write all the time and fill every request that I have. Unfortunately everyday life prevents that for me most often as I am one of the caretakers for my sister and the designated chef of my house that makes sure everyone is fed. If I don't cook, nobody eats.

Still, that doesn't stop me from thinking up ideas all the time and jotting them down when I can. I like connecting with people, I like making people happy. It's a little funny with how socially awkward I am. I've always been a bit of a shy person, at least until I feel comfortable with someone. (I've been invited to a few discords, and I truly feel terrible that I never talk because of this.)

I had quit writing for a long time when I picked it up again at a certain point in Heavensward. (Has it really been so long now? Time is flying by.) I never expected to be where I am now. I didn't really think I'd get something like a hundred followers, let alone over 2k. (Not a lot by internet standards, but it is to me. When you think about that many people in one place, it's rather a lot, isn't it?)

I'm really glad that my writings could help anyone at all. That they could bring people joy even when they're having a hard time. Because that is what writing has been for me. It's my piece of joy even when I'm feeling terrible. Reading was my escape ever since I was very young (too young to be reading smutty Inuyasha fanfictions. Let's be real here. Mom was right when she found out. XD I still think of you, smutty SessKag fanfic. My white whale. Will I ever find you again? Are you as good as I remember? The world may never know.)

I loved reading so much, and I had so many ideas. I started writing really bad Inuyasha fanfic when I was a teenager. Most of them are still there, still unfinished and collecting dust on FF dot net. I even wrote some stuff for Final Fantasy XI, too. But I'd given up writing until Haurchefant made me feel things.

So to be where I am now, with enough interest in my writing that people actively request it. It feels good. (I only wish I could write more, that I had more time. That I could clone myself maybe. No, maybe it'd end up like Multiplicity with Michael Keaton or Living With Yourself with Paul Rudd. I'd just end up jealous of my clone who got to write all the time, or who got to spend time with my family without me. Would it end in attempted murder of said clone? Nah, they'd probably off me first. I'm too lazy. I just want to lie down most of the time and write. They'd get me first.)

Right now I am happy.

Starting commissions has been really lovely. Being trusted to write for people's lovely characters, and seeing how happy they are to talk about them. Doing my best to accurately protray those characters as I would any other with a lot of research (I feel sorry for all the questions on my Google Doc, only to ask a hundred more as I write.) I feel like I'm connecting more with people, even though I am the way I am.

And... Being able to say "yes, I am making some money at what I do all the time" is certainly good. I have dealt with judgement that I was writing all the time for free instead of doing things to make money, so. Doing commissions has been good.

We only have one life and I'd love it if mine could be spent making people happy with what makes me happy, too. So, thank you for reading and staying as long as you have even with my long pauses between writing. I appreciate you all so much, I hope you know.

Thank you for all your kind words. I hope that you're doing well. That things are better for you, too. That you will be happy.

I hope you know I'll be thinking of you, anon. Especially when I write some more of those ascian things you love. I'll be dedicating that to you. You take care of yourself, too, ok? ❤️

[kingborb]

Spill the tea bestie :0 I'm pretty curious. Deadass I'm so glad, literally EVERYONE I know loves nick and/or dogmeat ONLY and it's so tedious and stale to me. It also makes talking about fallout 4 so boring bc they haven't traveled with anyone else but Nick and dogmeat 😫

Yeah, that's a huge problem and I'm having it too, especially when the tier S companions for me are Preston, X6, Hancock and Gage XD Ok then, I think I can adress few things, why not c: It will be the longest post ever, cause I will try to write everything I can about this topic (cause it bothers me so much). You don't have to read my rumbles of course, I will make tl;dr version somewhere at the end just in case you get bored, my friendly anon <3

Oh and if you want to talk about any companion (I've done everyone except Dance), you can hit me on dms or asks, feel free to do whatever suits you! :3

So I have a few problems with Nick, some of them might not be that serious or game changing, others were huge when I encountered them for the first time. Let's spill some tea on one of the most beloved characters in this game!

1) People see Nick as an empathic person who wants to help people, makes rational, unbiased decisions, and has a good reason to be against the Institute. When I can agree with some of those things, this image of him was ruined for me in the Acadia. Okay, okay, I understand that DiMA actually murdered Avery and it wasn't a good choice. However, it bothers me that Nick sees nothing against forcing DiMA to confess to people from Far Harbor about what he had done in the past (and Nick actually likes this choice!). It is pretty obvious that he would die there and every other synth on the island would share the same fate if not now, then probably in the nearest future. And even if Aleen kills 'only' DiMA (because of the speech check with you) Acadia would fall anyway. Why? Tell me - who would be their next lider? Maybe the ex-courser whose mission is bringing back synths to the safe place because DiMA said it's the right thing to do? Or maybe 'dearest Faraday', depressed after the fact that some random wastelander came to the Acadia and convinced his loved one to literally commit suicide? The only safe place for synths who don't want their minds to be wiped by the Railroad or the Institute would be gone forever and for Nick, our 2nd gen hero, it is the right thing to do. Great. Fantastic. I love his logic.

2) Nick sees DiMA only as a murderer, even though he kills with you so many people on everyday basis... I know it's not the same. But c'mon! DiMA killed once because he knew his people were in danger. It was them or Far Harbor, and obviously he chose the Acadia. What a surprise. I wonder what Nick would do in that situation... I know I'm a bit biased with some of my opinions here, but I love so much the concept of the Acadia and 2nd gen gay nearly-pacifist Plato that DiMA is. Nick doesn't understand that the whole Acadia is in constant danger because of some bigotry in Far Harbor and Children of Atom being, well... Children of Atom. And he does nothing when people from Far Harbor murder not only DiMA but the entirety of Acadia - a group of innocent synths. Their lives apperently mean less for Nick than hiding one bad thing done in the past...

3) So now we can begin the next chapter which is the Railroad. Nick loves their every move, of course he does... I don't want to talk about them too much, but here I can mention their fantastic standards, when it comes to synths. They're killing the 1st gen and the 2nd gen, they're saving the 3rd gen... and what about the coursers? Desdemona is calling them per 'IT'. Fucking hypocrisy hits hard on that one. I know they're enemies but man... Why are you objectifying them? Why are you assuming they don't have personalities only because they're fucking brainwashed and controlled as hell? The existence of Chase and Harkness shows that coursers can resist too, so... Yeah I have a general problem with the Railroad and their double standards, but this fact is killing me every time. And about Nicky, oh... I'm sorry man, but they will shoot you on the side, when you will take off your clothes and appear as every other 1st and 2nd gen.

4) So here's the another thing, which is the atmosphere around him and a character building. People seem to like Nick because he's a unique synth (that's actually a great point) and because of the noir/detective vibe around him (as with Deacon/Railorad and their secret agents vibe - I get that too). I know, I know it's pretty fun to have the 2nd gen experimental synth as a companion who has memories of the detective from the past with... A DEAD FIANCÉE. Yup. Another one. That's why I don't like Deacon's and Maccready's stories too (and the main plot of fo4, especially when I want to play as a character without a wife and a fucking kid...). I like his storyline, don't get me wrong. However I think some companions in fo4 are well-written as well, maybe even better than Nick (I like in them the lack of dead wifes!). The last standing Minutemen, depressed and traumatised, who is such a sweetheart anyway. A killing machine which turns out to be real human being with fears, emotions and insecurities. An asshole who becomes a raider because he didn't want to suffer the same pain as his parents did, and has trust issues because of his past. A lonely, depressed drug addict who wants to see good in people but was rejected by his own brother only because he has became a ghoul. Again, don't get me wrong - Nick's story is really interesting and tragic as hell. His problems with his identity, personality splited between the prewar detective and the 2nd gen synth... It's all fascinating, however I will not forgive the developers recycling over and over again the same fucking cishet tragic story with dead wife/fiancée/whatever. It gets boring and repetitive after the main plot honestly.

5) WHERE THE HELL DID KELLOGG GO AFTER CORRUPTING NICK'S MIND ONCE?! TODD. WHY. It would have been much more interesting than another dead loved one plot. Todd, you lazy ass. He had offered so many, and he gave nothing back... As he always does.

6) The last one, I promise... Nick's reaction after siding with the Institute bothers me so much (the same deal with Piper). I. Am. The. Director. Of. The. Fucking. Thing. And it means I can do whatever I want, cause the director has a pretty authoritarian power there. So I can change everything, including the way they treat synths, accept or deny their experiments, say goodbye to some nasty scientists... The Institute route is not ideal in any way, however I see it as the only reasonable path in this game, even from the lore perspective. The Brotherhood is just a bunch of shitheads in the blimp, and I've said enough here about the Railroad earlier. The Minutemen are great but I would like to have an option to connect their morals with the Institute's resources and wabam - you've got the true happy ending in fo4. I understand why Nick is pissed, however if you are with him on the highest level of the relationship, he knows that you are an emphatic person who wants to make Commonwealth a better place for everyone including synths, ghouls, etc. It would be logical for him to not see you as a traitor. But well, I guess I'm wrong. Whatever, Nicky, whatever...

So here's the lazy version:

1)/2) Nick likes convincing DiMA to tell everyone in Far Harbor that he killed Avery. Nicky does nothing when people from Far Harbor kill innocent synths.

3) The Railroad and their double standards, when it comes to synths, especially coursers, but 1st and 2nd gens too. Nick loves it when you're helping the Railroad, even though they would kill him on a spot if he forgot to wear his clothes, so...

4) Another companion with dead wife/fiancée needs your help.

5) Kellogg in Nicky's mind. Missed opportunity for a good plot... What a shame, Todd.

6) Siding with the Institute and Nick's reaction to that, even when you're at the maximum level of the relationship with him.

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Actually i don't get Reki at all. Like even in the first ep he was worse even than Shadow and i'm not talking abt Cherry, Joe and Adam. And he was ok and loved skating. But like... if your friend is better than you, then you get depressed and making your friend feel guilty abt you not being good enough? I didn't even ship Reki and Langa, they are just giving me only friendship vibes, but i'm still sad, wtf writers did with his character?

Yeah, same. Like, sorry, I just don’t think Reki’s character can be redeemed for me personaly at this point.  

Like what should I even stand for in his character? I do not respect his life position at all. Like I dislike Makoto for being a shadow and not wanting anything in his life, but hey, at least he’s genuinely happy for Haru’s success. I adore Rin who never gave up and dove into the hardest challenge possible from the start to get on Haru’s level, cause he wanted to swim with him for the rest of his life and he got there. And then there’s this..  it’s like.. he loves to skate, but apparently not enough, cause his doesn’t want it, if he isn’t the best at it, so he’d rather... not skate at all? He wants to be as cool and on the same level with “naturally talented ones” and wants to compete with Langa, but he doesn’t want to do anything for it or search for his own unique style or smth to beat them in another way? And on top of that he’s also sad about seeing Langa succeeding? The whole thing is... like.. no, thank you?

Like are they really gonna go with the “you made me want to be great at this like you, but if only you are great at this, than screw both you and this?” lolz. Even if they will go with the psychological block bc of his friend’s injury, it’s gonna be lousy af now. It’s like is there even a route left which could make him look...ahem... presentable at this point? Idk.

I also was right about the fact that he’s the type who prolongs the whining instead of doing things, unlike some other characters who were in his position too; realistic maybe he is, but I don’t want it, honestly, like I see such things every day and I do not like it.

From what I’ve seen in the tag some are already trying to apply here like 50 mental disorders to excuse him and stuff like “it’s realistic” and at this point I’m honestly used to people on the internet using mental disorders not for spreading awareness, but bc they’re thinking it’s “trendy”, which is a cringe galore and shame on you. But it still makes me kinda sad all the time. Also there’s nothing unrealistic about not giving up and getting where you want, it’s just harder for, to say, “ordinary” people, that’s why most rarely choose this option (although it’s for you to decide if you’re ordinary or not, cause everyone can be extraordinary, you just need to find it in you). Anyways, drowning in a self pity is not the trait I’ve ever found appealing in people, along with the constant comparing yourself to others.

Sadly many prefer to use these excuses to get out of everything along with being lazy or jealous, esp the young generation. At this point, it’s like the same thing as with this other fandom. Like, sometimes when someone is trying to hit someone because he saw that he’s more talented than him, that just means that he’s an asshole, there’s no need to come up with ridiculous excuses to justify this and try to make him a hero. And sometimes ppl are just jealous, as simple as that. And no, not everyone is like that. At this point ppl on social media are like... fuck your hard-working characters, who are inspired by talent and do not give up on trying to prove yourself even if the whole world is against them. Let’s promote being emo and how it’s okay to spend your life on walking around telling everyone how you’re a useless trash, like this will help you in life.

Also if seeing someone succeed, esp your best friend, makes you sad, might want to reconsider the way of living your life. Just saying.

Also since when you have to be the best just to enjoy doing what you love doing? I’m like... personaly I do not get it. Looking at my vids 10 years ago they look like utter trash, but I tried and tried and yeah, I might not reach some levels of mega talented ppl, but hey, I’m still trying and searching for stuff I can improve all the time and watch talented ppl tutorials like “holy fuck, you can do that?”.

But hey, at least he doesn’t want to only make boards, he wants to compete... (or does he? I’m honestly not sure at this point lol)... I mean, there’s... that. but I thought, when he’s gonna realize it, he’s gonna be back on track, but n.o. xD back to self pity. ok then. Some go like “its only been 3 episodes” and I’m like “this... ain’t a 24 episodes anime tho..(?)”.

So far I’m just confused about what are writers intentions with some characters are. Like the most interesting ones at least for me are technically a background for some reason idk. I was literally sad about the wasted amount of screentime on Reki being.. well, nothing new.

Sad part about this is that people like this also need a constant reassuring to the point of them just sucking your life out of you, too, so I honestly do not know how to deal with this life position. Ppl like this have a tendency to never be happy, so Langa would just have to run after him and feed him with compliments for the rest of his life to water his tiny self-esteem or say smth “don’t give up, don’t give up, fighting”? It’s like... well, ok. Friendship, yeah, but ship? Nah, not for me. Also I do not smell any huge romance there tbh, and from Reki’s side this is all just a mess tbh.

The saddest part was that he saw that Langa won after his yelling and he didn’t care for that. Like Rin was mopping bc he wanted to swim with Haru, so when he saw that Haru wanted to swim with him, too, that was it for him. And that’s the problem all the viewers who watched Free! got hit with while watching this. My DMs are literally all about “why do I not feel anything about them?” or “sometimes cute, but smth doesn’t hit me shipping wise”. Cause I think most expected for some reason that he would also put Langa first, but at the end, they’re not on the same track, bc their priorities are different.

I actually think it was just mistake for all of our Free! hommies including me to go at it from the wrong point of view and from the beginning expecting it shipping wise to be like that one other Utsumi’s work. I mean, she’s just a director there, not also on the storyboard or anything else. Should’ve gone watching it with a clear head. The main ship just does not hit any spots for me either. And my heart does not lie there at all. I do blame Free! for this, cause it’s like impossible to compare bc of those our scenes, I keep seeing, but at the same time, they do not hold up not to the dynamic, not to anything at this point. Like I do not know where they’re going with them, but this is just not my type of a ship in general and definitely not the one I can go crazy about. I honestly do not think 3 episodes can change that. It’s says a lot if at this point I do not even care much for their reconciliation, I’m like.. tell me about the seniors’ drama tho xD So I’ll stick with my side ships.

Also, unrelated to the question, but did Adam seriously just went and hit Cherry with a board in the face?!!!! (THE FUCK DUDE?) Like, this was definitely not how I thought this was gonna go. I also kinda felt like Cherry was in love with Adam in the past. All in all this was like a... strange episode, at this point I just feel sorry for my baby Langa, Joe and Cherry were very cute (esp at the end) and my god Cherry is hot, but like I also want something complex pls, so idk I’m  still waiting for the Adam/Tadashi shananigans.

At this point I’m like “I love watching this, but what am I watching?” haha supernatural skating soup opera it is then. 

Also I just love Langa my dude, my man. How he’s such a puppy in real life, but so freaking hot when he skates??!!! T_T 

[masternest]

Hawkeye Show - No Spoiler Review

Now it had taken me some days now to write this up as I wanted to make a fair enough review of it and I've also been lazy to be honest XD but I'm finally finishing it now. And thank god too cause this is really a Christmas show and I wouldn't want to enter the New Year yet without finishing this. And I will do my best to make this a spoiler-free review but do take note that I will mention some cases from the comic books and such. I don't consider those as spoilers because with the way the MCU is going, things are never going to be exactly the same as the comic books. Plus with them opening up this idea of multi-verses, they can take the story any way they want XD

So where to begin? Obviously the show focuses on the characters Clint Barton who is Hawkeye but also on Kate Bishop, who will eventually take over as the new Hawkeye at least in the comics version. It's six episodes long and each episode is about 40+ mins or so. Naturally the show can only be watched thru Disney Plus. The episodes came out each week on Wednsday starting on late November and ending with the final episode on Christmas day. Honestly, it's the perfect Christmas time show to watch for the Christmas season. The cinematography and acting is great just as you'd expect from any Marvel production. And since we're mentioning actors, we got mention the acting of Hailee Stenfield

Honestly, this was an excellent choice when it came to casting the role of Kate Bishop. She came off as very likeable and funny which was a good contrast to Clint's often stoic attitude. Aside from being knockout gorgeous, you could tell that the actress really had to be physically active for this role. I don't think there were too many notable action scenes for her off the top of my head after having watched it days ago. But instead there were a lot of memorable scenarios which highly took advantage of her down-to-earth personality

Overall, it's a great show. If you're expecting super special effects and highly complicated action scenes, then you'll be somewhat disappointed. But if you don't come in with those expectations, you're going to have a fun time watching it. It's got a lot of good stuff for those who've read the comic books with certain character reveals and some great crossovers but I won't mention more than that XD I don't want to get into spoiler territory. Maybe I'll make full spoiler-filled review if people demand it. But yeah, with Christmas time ending, it's time to look forward to the New Year. Let's all have an amazing 2022!

[thebraingremlinsaremad]

Daily Blog #15: August 22, 2021

Dollar Tree is honestly pretty fucking awesome 👌👌👌

I set my alarm for like 6:25 this morning, but it took 6 minutes for the "Horsin' Around" theme song instrumental to wake me up. I was pretty tired lol. I just dismissed it and went back to sleep.

I only went back to sleep because I knew I had another alarm set for 7:00. That got me up.

I should mention that this was still in the RV over an hour away from the house.

After I got up, I went to go get a shower, and did so successfully.

Unfortunately, I had forgotten my brush this time and had to do it afterwards after my hair had a bit of time to dry, which did make it a little more difficult lol.

I got dressed and grabbed my stuff, putting it into my car.

I made it a point to see and say "see you later" to my grandparents before I left for the flea market.

My dad insisted that I stayed to say goodbye to my mom, so I left.

I did NOT have cell service up there, as was mentioned in my previous 2 blogs of which I could only post today, so finding my way was a tiny bit difficult until I got some service to ask Google to take me to "...".

It worked and I got there.

On my drive, I listened to 1 by Simple Kid, a CD I had previously purchased at a Dollar Tree location.

I got a call from the guy at the flea market saying that I had some people there waiting for me. He asked how far away I was, to which I said "about 10 minutes." Ironically, that call made me miss my exit, as Google couldn't talk during the call, and added about 3 minutes to my arrival time lmao.

I did sell the Xbox that he said someone was interested in. I got $40 for it. I spent 27¢ on it. Pretty good return if you ask me.

I couldn't sell it with anything other than a power cord because the controller and AV cables I had been using to play it there were for my personal console. I'm just glad I can actually hook my Xbox up and stop having to drag them to the flea market along with a small library of games.

Not too long after I sold the Xbox, someone came in and asked if I wanted to see some electronics he had in his car. I went out with him. It was a pair of 3ft speakers and a Pioneer audio system with dual cassette decks (although neither of them works) and a 25 Disc CD-changer, as well as the standard AM/FM tuner. Additionally, there was a Fisher amplifier and AM/FM tuner as well as a Fisher Direct Drive turntable. He said he wanted $60 for em, but before that he casually, and probably accidentally, dropped that he was just gonna take em to the thrift store.

Big mistake.

I got em for $35 lmao. THERE GOES MOST OF MY PROFIT.

Oh well.

I tested everything. As I mentioned, the cassette decks don't work, but everything else does apart from the turntable needing a new stylus.

I posted some new photos of the shop to Facebook, and someone soon DMed me about a stereo system.

I priced everything, and it turns out I have about $300 worth of equipment from that deal, the Fisher amp and tuner being worth about $150.

The buyer will hopefully show up next weekend, for he wants to buy the Fisher stuff ($185 with the turntable), the 3ft speakers, an 8-track deck, and a Kenwood deck we've had for a week or two.

The speakers are listed for $50 (and are worth around $100-150), the Kenwood Deck for $50 as well, and the 8-track for $35. That makes it about $320 in equipment. Since he's buying so much, I'll knock it down to $270 and essentially give him the speakers or cassette deck for free lol.

Apart from that stuff, not much happened at the flea market. I sold some records, cassettes, CDs and I think 2 DVDs. One person bought a VHS tape? That money was the other guy's though. Oh well xD.

I can't say that I didn't miss my wonderful partner while on the trip. I actually brought along the stuffed animal they gave me (who's name is Greg) and snuggled with him both nights.

I was very happy to hear from them UwU.

They let me rant and I let them rant.

I honestly give them too much responsibility over me xD. I'm like, "Okay, I'm gonna do this. HOLD ME TO IT."

I know I can't hold myself to anything I personally say (this blog being the only exception apparently), but I listen to them pretty well I think 🤔. If they tell me, "No, you don't need that VCR," so long as it's not some weird specialty thing, like a worldwide VCR 🥵, I'll be like "Yeah, you rite bro."

I love you man xD. You control my craziness pretty well. I'm so thankful for you UwU.

#relationshipgoals

So part way through the flea market day, I went over to Dollar Tree to buy some snack, but ended up looking through the CDs to see if there was anything good. I took photos of about 18 CDs and flipped through them online for the remainder of the flea market day.

I deleted the photos of the ones I didn't want and kept those that I liked. Surprisingly, I ended up buying 13 CDs there, but not before dropping them on the floor like the dumbass I am.

Also, sorry for all the nerd shit I spilled on your lap earlier. No one cares about amps and tuners xD.

I'M LISTENING TO ONE OF THE DOLLAR TREE CDS RIGHT NOW THO.

I already transferred over to my online library on iBroadcast and put the disc into my CD changer, which is now holding 164 CDs.

Its max capacity is 300 discs 🥵

WHY AM I NERD

Oh well

I like being a nerd gurl

Also maybe a technosexual 👀

I get really excited over some electronics. Like. REALLY excited.

Some editing VCRs are like "Holy shit that is SEXY. Look at those goddamn VU meters 🥵. And hhhh there are like 7 inputs on this thing and individual controls for left and right audio gain, not to mention Hi-Fi S-VHS recording. Hhhhhhhhhhh please gimme 😭. Why are you so expensive?"

I uh, mean, uh, *cough* look, pretty lights.

Oh yeah, I was gonna say the album I was listening to xD. MAN I GOT SIDETRACKED.

It's 37 Everywhere by Punchline. Def give it a listen; it's pretty heccin good.

Another notable album I picked up was Page One by Steven Page. I very much like the first track, "A New Shore." It's quite catchy and he has a great voice imo.

Also at dollar tree, I bought a regular bag of Fieras and 2 bags of Fieras Sticks, which were marked down to 75¢/bag because they're expiring soon.

I honestly like the generic Dollar Tree version of Takis more than actual Takis. They're a lot more flavorful when it comes to the lime, but also hotter at the same time.

Don't get the hot nacho ones tho. Hot nacho? More like hot pile of shit.

HAH

Goteem.

They're not that good xD.

THE REGULAR ONES ARE FIRE THO

"How do you do fellow kids?"

I got home and started working on putting the CDs onto my computer, and then onto iBroadcast, but not without first adding The Music Man to my digital library, something I had neglected for a month or two. The CD had just been sitting there lol.

I also switched my digital file for "The Black Parade" to that of the uncensored CD, which I had purchased before I event started working over 2 months ago.

MAN I'M LAZY

I eventually get around to shit tho lol. I guess it's just a matter of priority.

What usually takes priority is digging through everything to find something that I forgot about but then remembered, making a mess in the process that I would then have to clean up, at least partially.

I think the album just ended. I've been writing for a while xD. I'ma start "I Made You Something" by The Island of the Misfit Toys.

I'll tell you where that album came from in a minute.

In the meantime, where was I?

I kinda lost my train of thought despite reading up to see where I was. Oh well. On I go.

I ate dinner and kept working on those CDs, eventually putting my clothes from the week into the washer.

I FORGOT TO PUT MY SHAPING UNDERWEAR IN. FUCKING HELL MAN.

I wanted to wash em for this week 😭

No tight pants for Leonna I guess qwq.

Meanwhile, the box of my CD album cases is overflowing. I need another box.

I keep all of the album artworks in a big CD folder. That's almost full.

I wanna fill my entire CD changer. That's one of my big goals in life. Idk why, but I just wanna legitimately fill the entire thing.

My clothes are in the dryer now. I don't think I have the time (or energy) to fold them tonight. I'll leave that for tomorrow morning before work.

And God. Fucking. Damnit. I start school again on Wednesday. NOT looking forward to that, and neither are my 2 coworkers. We already have low enough staff, but only the two of them working is gonna be a pain in the ass.

I'll still work Saturdays.

I need to contact my guidance counselor to get out of the gym class I signed up for. I scheduled this shit before I found out I was trans, and I don't wanna deal with the fucking locker room situation 🙄 I have far more important matters.

Okay so anyway, the album I'm listening to came from a cassette. I bought this cassette a few months ago at the flea market along with a few others. The reason I bought them? They were all newer cassette releases from the 2010's, and they're all actually pretty good music from very indie bands.

Currently getting mad at iBroadcast's compression algorithm. It's unnaturally fucking anything over -10db up. Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it.

I have like 13GB of music on my phone btw. That's about 3.5k songs on 268 albums.

I'm kind of an audiophile, but I'm too cheap to pay for a lossless service. Oh well.

They do actually have a lossless service on iBroadcast, but once again, too cheap.

Someone just sent me a friend request who legitimately posted that BLM and the democratic party are hate groups.

BLOCK.

Goodbye ho.

I don't get that. They call the democratic party a hate group when they hate people like me, and I, being more of a democrat although not fully because the 2-party system is fucked, think nothing more of them than they're very wrong about certain things, especially, as shown, that black people, as well as asian, Indian, native, and people of all ethnicities and backgrounds, are not equal to white people.

Yeh.

Totally.

You go buddy.

Anyway, yeah, I can, and do, convert music and video from analog formats to digital files in order for me to archive and listen to whenever and wherever I please. I've actually made a bit of a business out of it, but I don't get too much work from it. At least I'm not overloading myself xD.

I honestly have so much more to say, but I should probably go to sleep soon.

A few final shoutouts to the following people and companies:

-Dollar Tree

-Steven Page

-Broken World Media

-The Island of Misfit Toys

-Simple Kid

-Punchline

-My incredible partner QwQ I love you so much. Thanks for being the best all the time. I hope I can give you the best life ever.

Anyway I suppose this is goodnight. Lmk if you want a full list of the CDs I bought today! I'll link that song by Steven Page here.

And here's a good song from Simple Kid

I really like music lol. Enjoy these pieces.

Anyway, goodnight lol.

Lots of love,

-Leonna.

[apenapaperandadoofus]

Ok, so, I would like a RFA match up, pretty please 🥺 I just love how you portray them.

About myself, I am an introvert, idk if you follow the personalities test thingy but I am INFP-T, which is basically this:

(The T stands for Turbulent and is just about me being on the lower self esteem spectrum of the personality)

I do tend to be more shy and quiet, around strangers and general people that I just don't get along with, I prefer to simmer on my emotions and thoughts by myself, and once I've process I share with whoever is willing to listen. I don't like when people start pushing me about the meaning of my feelings when I'm not ready to express them.

However, I am a very feeling-based-decisions type of person.

I grew up taking care and responsibility for my sisters, and I was in charge of babysitting a lot of my baby cousins during extended periods of time, that gave me a weakness to babies but low patience to brats and their parents. Also, now that I don't take care of anyone that actually needs to be taken care of, I'm kinda restless.

I try to be polite to everyone, because I hate bullying, but only once I feel comfortable enough I show my quirky, and weird part of myself, I am a gossip (however, I don't spread rumors nor do I tell secrets that were confided to me), loyal to a fault (which sometimes leads to being spiteful if I'm betrayed) and a hopeless romantic to the core.

I am touch starved, like very very mcuh, I just want cuddles, kisses, hugs and physical affection, but I also need my space and time for myself to do my own stuff. (Is it just me or that sounds like a cat?)

I'm somewhat lazy, I daydream a lot, and I come up with a bunch of writing ideas that I never really write or finish.

My favorite color is pink because it reminds me of the good parts of my childhood, my rebel time as an angsty teen and now it brings me peace and familiarity, however I like to wear more red and black clothing because I think I look better in that.

My perfect date would be a sleepover either in my house or his house, we would order takeout from his favorite place but we would get my favorite desserts. We would watch a Dreamworks movie marathon previously agreed by rock, paper, scissors (he won, but ultimately he chose my favorite movies) and we would snuggle together in a pillow fort in front of the TV. After each movie we would share commentary in how the plot would've been better, or the actors performances, our favorite scenes, characters or anything really. Afterwards, in the middle of the night, when all the movies are over we would just start talking about everything and anything, maybe share one or two kisses but nothing more until one of us falls asleep.

The thingd I look in a partner are fidelity, patience, words of affirmation, trust, stability, and affection, a little bit of lust and possessiveness isn't bad for me, I like to feel that I belong somewhere, with someone and if my partner can be that for me would be ideal, also, I don't like being teased or mocked because I'm very sensitive, preferably someone calm that can ground me when I'm stressed or lost inside me without being mean about it, basically a man that can help me making me feel safe about myself and safe in the relationship (my ex was rather abusive and I just want stability and safety)

Ok, do I don't know if this helps but a little description of my physical appearance: I am 21, mexican, 5'4, shoulder-lenght layered dark brown hair, big dark brown eyes that I like to hide behind huge glasses because I'm blind as heck, chubby, thick thighs, plump-cheeked, round face, my skin is light with yellowish undertones, with small scattered freckles on my nose and cheeks.

Damn, this is very long, I hope this is helpful to you.

Thank you so much for your patience and for doing this, and no pressure at all, take your time and make sure to take breaks to care for yourself.

Gracias otra vez y que tengas una excelente semana.

Oh this is perfect!

Also are you me bc I honestly relate to all of that 100% (twinsies heyooo and not only that I'm an INFP too! xD)

Anyway here we go!

I hope you enjoy the match pft I'm always nervous about this!

I match you with....

THE HANDSOME MAN IN A SUIT! JUMIN HAN!

When you first met, he found it a bit strange about how quiet you were. At first you were pretty quiet in the chatrooms, but after a few days he began to see more and more of you.

One night while you were in bed writing, you received a call from Jumin. Normally you'd be pretty shy to talk to him, but you decided to be brave and answer.

At first it was a bit awkward, but for some reason listening to Jumin made you want to get to know him a bit more. The two of you ended up talking for two whole hours.

One night you invited Jumin over to watch a movie together. The poor man had never seen the wonderful and beautiful thing that is all the Shrek Movies.

It was amazing.

Jumin actually gave some pretty deep commentary, and you loved talking about your favorite parts of the movie once it was done. Jumin couldn't help the big smile that appeared on his face and you suddenly stopped your rant about the movie, feeling suddenly a bit self conscious. Were you weirding him out?

You immediately mumbled an apology, feeling hurt, but Jumin grabbed your hands and kissed them. "No, no, please don't think I'm laughing at you. I just...well....to be honest I've never found myself captivated by someone....yet here I am, unable to tear my eyes away from you. You...you are truly a wonderful person you know?"

That day you had your first kiss.

The two of you had a really cute dynamic, with Jumin being the one that always solved everything by logic, and you being the one that always followed your heart. You two ended up helping each other a lot!

Whenever you feel down or tired, Jumin only has to take one look at you and will immediately come over to hug you. He won't ask about anything unless you want to talk about it. He's super observant, so he always knows how you're feeling without you having to tell him.

Another thing, is that you've helped this man take more care of himself. Whenever he's overworking, you'll come up to his office and wrap your arms around him, telling him to take a quick break.

Also, did you say you were almost like a cat? Because this man absolutely loves cats and just adores it when you come up to cuddle with him.

Jumin knows when you give you space, and he is always there if you need someone to comfort you. He is also extremely loyal (and protective too! -not in the creepy DONT TALK TO OTHER GUYS way- but he always makes sure you have body guards when you leave, and if he finds someone staring at you funny he will suddenly come up to you and kiss you.)

If you're ever stressed and dealing with any problems, he will take you by the hands and lead you to the balcony, where he will guide you through some breathing exercises. Then, when you've calmed down he will talk to you about the problem and give you solutions.

If you need time by yourself Jumin will definetly step away for a bit and come back when you're ready!

At dinner time he humors you by talking about any office drama he's heard about (recently he's been asking Jaehee to keep track of those sort of things so he can tell them to you -also he's definitely become invested but won't admit it pft)

Over all, Jumin will always take your feelings into consideration first, and he will make sure to always be there for you!

[daffodildazaiwrites]

i'm very curious about your selfship :000 and i'm looking for something to watch, maybe,, a top 5 anime would be sweet ! hope it's not to much, i'll keep the birthday wishes to later 💗

Ohhhhh okay! Thank you for asking anon also tell me about your top 5 animes too!  

Let me tell you my top 5 anime and then about my selfship then  (≧◡≦) For the top 5 I’M going to pick normal length anime’s (like i love one piece but it’s like 900 episodes and I feel like suggesting that would be cruel but if you’re up for the challenge to it xD)

Self ship stuff under the cut!

Also keep in mind my top 5 always changes but if you want to watch something new these will be fun! 

Birthday event: Alphabet and Interactions

Top 5 Anime

1. Black Clover (Episode count 157 - ongoing)

Okay if you want something action packed + fighting the system made up by asshole royals this is for you. 

Basically to give you a summary in this world magic is everything, everyone can use it except for Asta. Asta and his brother Yuno want to become magic knights and travel to the capital and participate in the magick knight exame, Asta gets picked for the worst squad and Yuno the best one, their adventure starts from there. 

Animation very good, story, in my humble opinion, good. So yeah go watch it before this too gets to like a 900 episodes xD   

2. Toilet Bound Hanako-kun! (Episode Count 12 one season but there probably will be more) 

I just watched this and fell in love with it enough to start the manga because I can’t wait for season 2 to come out :’D The animation is very pretty and you just want to learn more about the characters, highly recommend! so here’s what 9anime’s summary about it: 

“The famous "Seven Wonders" that every school seems to have are a staple of Japanese urban legends. One of the most well-known of these tales is that of Hanako-san: the ghost of a young girl who haunts the school's bathrooms. Kamome Academy has its own version of Hanako-san's legend. Rumors claim that if one successfully manages to summon Hanako-san, she will grant her summoner any wish. Lured by the gossip, many people have tried to call upon her, yet every attempt has failed. However, when Nene Yashiro, a girl hoping for romantic fortune, dares to summon Hanako-san, she discovers that the rumored "girl" is actually a boy! After a series of unfortunate events involving Nene's romantic desires, she is unwillingly entangled in the world of the supernatural, becoming Hanako-kun's assistant. Soon, she finds out about Hanako-kun's lesser-known duty: maintaining the fragile balance between mortals and apparitions.“

3. Haikyuu! (There’s four seasons but I don’t know how many episodes and I’m too lazy to count sorry :’D) 

I’m sure you’ve heard of Haikyuu, basically it’s a sports anime about volleyball. I was one of those skeptics saying that I wouldn’t enjoy sports anime but here we are. 

The animation and learning about each individual characters story really gets you hooked so if you haven’t check this out yet you totally should! 

4. Jujutsu Kaisen (Episode Count 12 - Ongoing)

Ah yes the ever famous Jujutsu Kaisen, there’s a reason why everyone’s talking about it, it’s because it’s very very good. If you like your hero stuff with angst and interesting worldview philosophies I highly recommend! Here’s what 9anime says: 

“Idly indulging in baseless paranormal activities with the Occult Club, high schooler Yuuji Itadori spends his days at either the clubroom or the hospital, where he visits his bedridden grandfather. However, this leisurely lifestyle soon takes a turn for the strange when he unknowingly encounters a cursed item. Triggering a chain of supernatural occurrences, Yuuji finds himself suddenly thrust into the world of Curses—dreadful beings formed from human malice and negativity—after swallowing the said item, revealed to be a finger belonging to the demon Sukuna Ryoumen, the "King of Curses." Yuuji experiences first-hand the threat these Curses pose to society as he discovers his own newfound powers. Introduced to the Tokyo Metropolitan Jujutsu Technical High School, he begins to walk down a path from which he cannot return—the path of a Jujutsu sorcerer. “

I also, of course, have a jujutsu blog if anyone’s interested it’s @sassystarlightgojo !

5. Banana Fish (Episode count 24 - Complete) 

I’m not gonna say much about this other then I still think about it, also this has mature themes and again I won’t say much but it’s angst but it also has its cute moments! highly recommend! Also if you do start watching do not look up ANYTHING about it!

“Ash Lynx, was a runaway picked off the streets of New York City and raised by the infamous godfather of the mafia, Dino Golzine. Now 17 years old and the boss of his own gang, Ash gets his hands on a mysterious drug called "Banana Fish"—the same two words his older brother, Griffin, has muttered since his return from the Iraq War. However, his investigation is hindered when Dino sends his men to retrieve the drug from Ash at an underground bar he uses as a hideout. At the bar, Skip, Ash's friend, introduces him to Shunichi Ibe and his assistant, Eiji Okumura, who are Japanese photographers reporting on American street gangs.”

Honorable mentions: Fire Force (beautiful animation great story watch it), Given,  Welcome to Demon School! Iruma-kun, Seraph of the End: Vampire Reign, Ouran Highschool host club

Now on to my Selfship! 

Okay I won’t keep this super long (I do want to post some selfship stuff but honestly I’m not sure anyone would want to read those xD) I ship myself in a poly relationship with both Dazai and Chuuya.

 In canon world I also joined the port mafia pretty much at the same time as Dazai, we already had somewhat of a relationship but Dazai, as we all know, was a bit too intense back then but when Chuuya joined I realized that I like them both and slowly out relationship starts to bloom. Chuuya is quicky to realize he might have a bit of feelings for Dazai too and even if he never told him, in order to understand himself better he rolls with it. 

But when Dazai decides he’s going to leave I try to stop him but then end up going with him, leaving Chuuya a letter before we go. 

So that’s pretty much the gist of it xD I didn’t write much of the relationship dynamics because I just thought it would be too long of a post buuuuut if anyone is interested feel free to ask!