#but i like these a lot. and it felt nice to draw something that isnt loop for once lol

[codacheetah]

The gang's all here! Decided to practice how I want to draw all of them + testrunning the colors I picked out for them :3 (individuals + sprite edit used for colorpicking under cut)

[t3ag3rs]

g e n s o - 0 5.

"the thirds ones wrong.. it should be will not well.."

you sighed out answering present mics question. "thats correct!" he continued to ramble on about grammar and english. 

you put your head down and closed your eyes wishing class would go by faster. 

then the bell rang, dismissing you all to go to lunch.

"y/n! come sit with us!" said mina, pulling your arm. you laughed and walked along with her, kirishima, and two other boys. "sup beautiful im denki kamanari and thats hanta sero, nice to finally meet you" said the yellow haired boy grinning.

you waved, "nice to meet you two as well!" kirishima groaned, "im so hungry..! i cant wait to some of the yummy food!" sero laughed as he patted his stomach, "hes like a baby!" 

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you sat down between mina and kirishima, chatting with them as they ate. god im so hungry.... but i cant risk gaining any fat right now... im at the healthiest ive been.. i cant gain anything!

you looked down at your fingers and fiddled with them. "hey y/n, why arent you eating anything?" asked kirishima curiously, you looked at him and quickly blurted an excuse, "o-oh! i had a heavy breakfast right before i left so im still stuffed!" you chuckled to deflect any second thoughts from them.

mina nodded, "ohhhh i get that.. well make sure to eat at home kay?" you nod smiling at her, of course i will..

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finally it was time for the class you were waiting for. "i am here!! coming through the door like a hero!" announced all might as he made a dramatic entrance into the class. you couldnt help but let out a wide smile at him.

the whole class started talking amongst themselves at how they were amazed he was teaching them. you knew bakugou was jumping inside at the sight of his favorite hero, but didnt wanna seem like he was a fanboy. 

 "today we will be focused on battle!" you looked to see bakugou grinning, "but in order to do that you guys have to look good!" suddenly boxes of all of your hero costumes came out of the wall.

oh my gosh is that really my coustume??? you thought excitedly, smiling widely. "change and meet me at training ground beta!" all might instructed.

 you went into the girls locker room and started changing, "i cant wait to see how my costume looks on me!" exclaimed mina, as she put on her costume. you laugh in agreement and start putting on yours. 

 "ill see you out there y/n! dont take to long!" she said as she ran out giddily. you finish putting on your costume and look at yourself in the mirror, you smiled as you saw how it accentuated your muscle and curves well, before running out to the rest of the students.

you walked out while smiling, "OH MT GOD Y/N YOU JUST RAISED THE HEAT OVER HERE! YOU LOOK SO HOT!" screamed mina, getting everyone's attention. you blush and thank her for the compliment while adjusting the thigh harnesses. 

you look over to see bakugou in his hero costume and take notice of how much his body had changed. he had definitely grown more muscular and even though you wouldnt admit it, he looked good.

you held your breath as you made eye contact with him. he widened his eyes a bit before looking the other way. "honestly though.. your costume looks so good!" mina praised, " o-oh! thanks..! honestly it isnt really something i usually wear.. the skin tight crop top, and i always usually try to stay away from pants that are somewhat tight around my thighs and butt.. "

 "no way! they show off the body you got blessed with! besides the cargos accentuate your muscular thighs! i think your whole costume looks good on you!" she smiles, you blush and bow your head thanking her.

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you listened closely as all might explained what you all would be doing today. you felt someone glaring at you and turned to look at them, only to meet a pair of vermillion eyes. you narrowed your eyes and stared back until he turned away, haha! i win asswipe!

you walked up to all might to draw your lot and see who you got paired with. letting out a low curse your paper read 'katsuki bakugou'. god you must really hate me huh..? out of all the people here this guy??

sulking internally you walked toward bakugou and stood by him silently. "all right lets see who the villian and hero will be!" all might reached into the box and pulled out your team and dekus team. "just great.." you mutter realizing you and bakugou were the villians and had to go up against deku. knowing bakugou he would target deku to try and beat him up. 

you and bakugou started heading on inside, "young y/n, young bakugou the key to this exercise is to embody villainy- think like how they would and act upon it, make sure to communicate and work together." you nod, youll only be able to communicate if someone doesnt target deku.

you follow behind bakugou into the room with the fake weapon. you walk toward it and look around to check your surroundings "hey." you turn and look at bakugou, "do you really think deku has a quirk..?" you bite your lip, "well.. we both saw what he did during the physical tests, so yes i do think he has a quirk" you respond looking at bakugou.

you noticed him tense up, "look.. just because he has a quirk now dont go targeting him whenever you can, we both have to communicate if you wanna win this- which im sure you do. so please just try and calm your temper okay?" you add, he stands still and you sigh. "whatever.. its not like youll listen anyways... ill guard the weapon, knowing them uraraka will probably try and come up here, once i deal with her ill help you with izuku"

"all right! lets begin the indoor combat training!" says all might over the loud speaker, "be careful" you tell bakugou before he walks away. you purse your lips knowing he wouldnt hold back on deku, but right now you had to worry about uraraka.

you smirk as you come up with a plan and go to hide behind a pillar near the entrance. suddenly, you hear a huge explosion, "here we go again.." 

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"bakugou take it easy on the explosions.. i dont think this building can handle too many" you say through the ear piece, "shut up and defend the weapon genso!" he replies. you roll your eyes, this bitch... 

you suddenly hear footsteps and ready yourself quietly, "theres the weapon! wait... wheres y/n..?" she says as she steps through apprehensively. you smirk and let your wind propel yourself forward, manipulating the earth under uraraka you made it wrap around her body, making sure to bound her arms down knowing if she touched you she could make you float. "right here!" you say as you wrap your tape around her, successfully capturing her.

she looked at you with a blank look still processing what just happened, "wait what??" she says questioningly, "sorry to get you out so early, but i really dont trust leaving bakugou with izu" you say before hearing another couple of explosions. 

"bakugou! where are you?" you ask through the earpiece only to get no reply, just great..! no reply from the asswipe!

you run out and touch the floor closing your eyes, you saw the floorplan of the building in your mind letting the earth draw it out for you. you felt a huge surge of motion coming from a specific side of the building and ran to the location as quick as you could.

suddenly all might came over the speaker again, "use that power again bakugou and ill disqualify your team! you need to be aware of your surroundings and strive to make the least amount of damage to it as possible!" 

oh my god theyre gonna kill each other...!  you closed your eyes and pushed your legs faster trying to get there quicker. you heard another couple of explosions and widened your eyes.

 you werent gonna make it in time. 

stopping, you placed your hand on the ground again and found where they were in your mind. deciding to test your quirk, you focused on the spot and found the wall closest to the area. maybe.. just maybe.. i can manipulate the earth and get myself there by moving through the walls..

you focused all your power on the walls and let yourself fall into the earth, the next thing you knew you were in the same room as the two. they were standing in front of each other, izuku was screaming at bakugou and your gut told you to move in between the two. the next thing you knew your feet were moving, and you were hit by both their quirks. 

you let out a loud yelp of pain and fell to the ground. you heard another thump and saw izuku fall to the ground, wincing you crawled your way to him and wrapped the capture tape around him before you passed out. 

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you blinked your eyes as you familiarized yourself with light and winced as you tried to move. "there, there, take it easy... your bodys pretty beaten up... taking those two powerful blows wasnt very smart of you to do.." explained recovery girl, you let out a sheepish smile, "i couldnt just stand there and let them kill each other.. ive known both since childhood and bakugou isnt one to hold back when it comes to izuku.." you explained.

"hows izuku..?" you ask curiously, "hes already back in class, i still need to heal a couple other of his injuries but he has no energy in his body left for today.." you nod, "can i go back go class..?" she nods, "yes, but make sure you come back tomorrow.. i bandaged the blow on your stomach, but it still needs a bit of healing.. keep the cast on your arm on till tomorrow" she explains before letting you go.

you limp slightly as you walk back to class, gosh itll be so embarrassing walking into the class knowing they saw me pass out- yet again..

opening the door you walked into the class, only to be bombarded by kirishima, mina, and a couple of other students. "oh my gosh y/n you were so kick-ass!" exclaimed mina as she threw her hands around you, "be careful mina! shes still a bit injured!" reminded kirishima, you smiled before waving it off, "im fine.. im just glad everyones okay..!" "that move you pulled where you moved yourself through the earth was awesome!" praised uraraka.

"wait.. wheres izu..?" you question as you couldnt find him in the room, "hes talking to bakugou.." sighs out uraraka, you widen your eyes and run to find the two outside.

gasping for air your finally reach the two, "thank goodness i found you izu..!" you say tiredly, "my gosh y/n... are you okay?" you smile before nodding, "im fine, nothing too major..! im glad your fine though..!" you pause and turn to bakugou, "look bakugou.. as much as i understand your frustrated, you had no right to try and kill izuku in a practice match!" you sighed as you looked down.

"we used to be good friends.. just because of certain values we had we stop being friends.. whatever happens this year- i promise you two this, im not sticking up for either of you. you guys can either die fighting each other because of your massive egos, or learn how to grow up and act like mature people." you grit before turning and limping away.

you knew in your heart that you still valued the friendship you had with them, but you werent going to let bakugou continue and treat deku like shit just to fulfill his ego.

previous parts: pt. 0 0 / pt. 0 1 / pt. 02 / pt. 03 / pt. 04 next parts: pt. 06 / pt. 07 / pt. 08 / pt. 09 / pt. 10 / pt. 11 / pt. 12 / pt. 13

[cloverwood]

☾ ﾟ｡⋆｡ﾟ☁︎｡ ⋆｡ﾟName Hoard ⋆｡ ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡☁︎｡｡ﾟ

just a little living post for me to keep all the names I've started collecting. It's actually something I started doing long before my awakening just by chance (having usernames/nicknames for different friends or groups and realising that felt rly good) so now that I'm doing it more consciously I just want somewhere I can keep track of them. Kinda wanted somewhere a bit more private and I might end up moving to my diary discord but I also think its nice and wanna be able to share it so. For now I'll make it a post :3

I've realised that the "main" name I've been going by, since I was like 13 always felt kinda? odd? like it was my NAME but not in a 'this is me way' and more of a 'this is the mouthsounds one makes to get my attention' kinda way. like how one would name a dog. if that makes sense? as a wakened fae entitity, i've realised i may (or may not) have some sort of "true" name, but if i do I don't know of it yet. But every other name I go by or collected so far are what I call "utility names" and I think that's useful to know too <3

Each name sometimes has rules or fun little bits of info hence why I wanted to write it out like this. But if someone knows of a site similar to that pronouns tracker one but for names that would be kewl :3

Nix - meatspace name, ie; "real" chosen name. real in brackets bc it's what I say to ppl when I dont have the energy to discuss my name thing. What my friends and family call me, how I'm credited in my TV/film work, etc. What I'll probably change my legal name to eventually. Anyone can call me this.

[deadname] - a name that has since achieved it's purpose and is no longer of use to me. No one can call me this.

Helio - my artist/online username. shortened version of my full usernames (heliocanix. heliosynchronisity and others). Realised I also like being called this in online spaces but even irl i suppose. Kind of a secondary name. Anyone can call me this.

Neifion - my "utility" fairy name. Mostly just for fun and as a way to talk abt my fairy experiences separately from my human ones. Mostly just found it in order to easily describe "who" im drawing in my fairy self portraits when I'm too shy to say its just me. Only other fae can call me this.

Clover - just a name I recently realised i connect to quite well, surprisingly unaware that it was literally half of this blogs name at the time :'D but it makes a lot of sense. One of my earliest OCs was named clover and she had plant powers hehe. Feels connected both to my rabbit identity and fairy identity. Currently only my romantic partner can call me this. Thought it could make a nice thing to share between us, as well as the only person I would be comfy using it.

Angel - my kink pseudonym/persona/nickname, used when I'm at events or during scenes with play partners. Only people in my local scene can call me this.

[any sort of pet name] - certain partners use petnames or nicknames for me, changes depending on human or circumstance. Obvs, only partner's can use these.

N - shortened form of Nix, what I use when my name isnt important, surveys, emails etc. Considered making this my legal name but figured it would cause more problems than it solves. Interestingly this does feel the closest to what could be my "true" name but i have a feelings it's because said name might not be translatable or comprehendable to human speech. anyone can call me this, if they want?

NIX - all capitalised, my fine art name/persona. May change may not, I sign off and credit all my work to my name stylized like this. No surname. Only really applicable in these settings.

[scarsmood]

Knifeplay

This topic will cover bodily harm and scaring for anyone uncomfortable with that this might be one to skip!

Hello degenerates its been awhile :))

Look. Things have gotten a little crazy ive learned quite a lot recently and I’m here to start sharing! Today were going to be covering knifeplay and otherkintiy! I hope your excited cause I sure am, so let’s hop into it.

Knifeplay is a kink or fetish revolving around sexual activities with a knife. Threatening someone with a knife, cutting, slashing, marking, etching. Using it for symbolism or to communicate intent. It is very versatile and different blade shapes, types of knife, size of knife, and the symbolism of a knife can impact the play.

So what makes knifeplay fun. Well for one this is a kink you need to know where your limits on your body is. Before jumping into knifeplay perhaps consider the following. Do i want scars? Where do i feel safe being cut? Is there anywhere thats absolutely not ok to interact with? What type of play do I feel okay with?

Typically theres going to be a lot pf communication because of the inherent very real danger of handling knives. Before doing any kind of knife play you should be fully confident in handling and maintaining knives, you should know how to cut with them, you may also want to learn basics in first aid or get first aid training for minor cuts.

My personal suggestion to beginners would to be to use a butter knife, something with 0 edge that absolutely cannot cut you and practice with your sub with that. Until both of you feel confident and move up. Here’s some general information on knifeplay.

Pressing harder = more dangerous

Dull knives with intent to draw blood or slash someone is going to make the wound less concise and more prone to bleeding and healing funky

Don’t cut over vital organs they’re vital for a reason lets keep it that way

Take frequent breaks and check ins with your partner to see how theyre doing. As a dom you also have to know your sub well enough at this point to knowbwhere theyre limits are. Its easier to gauge how the play is going if you already know their signs or signals they need to stop.

Doms are alos obligated to make sure they don’t go to far. These limits need to be discussed in length and make sure its clear what is and is not to far.

As a final note as well. These are guidelines, it really comes down to what you both are confident in and what you know you can handle. I am a fan of going slow and ramping up. For example my first encounter with knife play i picked a spot i thought would be good to try hugged a pillow so i felt safer and we kept the energy very relaxing and low to see how i handled it.

As it turns out I’m very sensitive to knives (but not blunt for trauma? Who knows why) So doing that was very helpful for me and my partner cause on the flipside his tolerance is much better if he assumed my tolerance was like his tolerance and went to town on me we would have had a very bad time.

So what can you do with knifeplay? Why is it fun for otherkinity. I’m sure there’s plenty of people out there with darker kintypes, demons, fictionkin, werewolves, rabid animals that want to bite someones face off, suffocating vines, the concept of malintent or rage as a kintype.

Knifeplay is a nice mode of expression. Its all acted and quite useful. Personally since starting knifeplay my impulsive thoughts diminished pretty effectively about killing someone or hurting a person. Knifeplay gives you the option to see “what its like” and answer that burning what if question. Its a great way to play on fear kink and if you really wanna have fun cnc and drugging. All very dark kinks that in concept are terrifying but in play are pretty goofy.

I don’t know how many times i had to stop to laugh mid scene or cracked a joke that broke the serious vibe and we both enjoyed a good laugh. The importance is that is isnt legitimate. Its also very awkward at first when your still getting used to it. Your standing over someone with a little metal stick going “grrr im scary” its painfully human and very humbling. You learn a lot as a dom on how to play into believability without crossing any boundaries.

What could you do with knifeplay? A sacrifice and a sacrifical knife would be fun for demons, objectkin may find something they can relate to thats terrifying and use it on a partner, fictionkin can act out scenes safely and get a unique kin euphoria experience. For animals i see a knife as an extension of my jaws. If you dont want to use a knife i would suggest using your nails cutting them to tips with a nail clipper and taking a biotin supplement will make them thicker. You dont want the nails to be long, short and pointed is ideal. If not that, even cutting random jagged edges would work.

Some scenes that really stick out in my brain are stand downs. Wouldn’t recommend anyone not experienced to ever do that given. But it is a lot of fun. Since me and my partner are both switches there are times where we are both trying to out dom the other or one of us simply hits a limit and starts retaliating. Circling someone else with a metaphoric barred tooth in their hand is very fun espically when you have your own.

Were not idiots though not using the knife to use in a lunge. were aiming to find a way to disarm the other person. Often times for me my strategy is disarming myself on purpose because it means i can get much closer without the boundary of a blood circle for myself at least. It also means I’m challenging my partner to have at it cause i think i can disarm them with nothing but my hands.

Which is to say, that method only works out 50% of the time.

Another one is stalking. Feeling a blade on your back while your walking is unnerving, feeling it touch you when you werent fully expecting it yet can be quite the rush. Speaking of getting sticked lets talk injuries.

Now injuries are its own beast. Knifeplay is 100% going to be based around the injuries left from the knife. Whether thats nothing or something permanent you need to make that choice before hand and then be prepared for after. I would never suggest to go deeper than skin level. As medical attention for wounds is extremely necessary and reducing and eliminating as many possibilities for infection is extremely important with knifeplay. Keep the knife clean and sanatized, wash it after sessions, have gauz, bandaids, and rubbing alcohol at your disposal, wrapping also wouldnt hurt.

Again first aid knowledge is necessary for this kink. I would say straight up don’t do it unless you know first aid.

On another tangent. I’d say knifeplay’s intensity can carry lots of different flavors of “oh god oh fuck” from stalking, a horror slasher, kidnapping, fighting for your life, total submission, cnc, sedation. When it comes to inciting fear knifeplay is an easy go to. A very scary concept that has the very real potential for legtitmate injury.

A favorite tease my boyfriend likes to do is just point out knives from horror movies when were out and about. Terrifying, charming, really portrays clear imagery. Simple and elegant it also gets him excited cause he loves horror movies as its a win win.

Overall great kink has a large learning curve but one of my favorites now. Very fitting for a rabid or feral vibe.

[marsixm]

im gonna list things ive been doing lately to conceptualize to myself that my life is not empty or meaningless, feel free to ignore this post-

-i know work stuff shouldnt count but i have become very exceptionally skilled at different aspects of my job and not only do mostly all my coworkers like me and turn to me for help, but lots of customers recognize and like me too and i know its just a minimum wage grocery store job but im proud of myself for building so many skills -on a related note the relationships ive been able to build with some of my coworkers makes me very proud as someone who struggles with socializing as much as i do, and in the context of that being the thing ive been the most sad about lately, its nice that a good handful of my coworkers really like me as much as they do. and i know the main reasons things have been hard at home arent really My Fault as it were -being a figurehead in a truly wild work drama as it unfolds (okay sure this isnt me /doing/ something but it is /interesting/) -every day i try to wear fun little outfits and do fun little makeup things and i often get compliments and really love my style and its definitely off the wall and im very proud of it and am constantly adding to my repertoire -i got pretty damn good at fortnite. no further comment -i got back into sims again and im still pretty good at building -i listen to musicians i personally like and ive been poring through these two youtube true crime channels lately. and i fell off it again but i got back into playing card games besides solitaire on the computer for a bit. i /do/ have interests outside whatever the polycule is doing around me. i /am/ still my own person -adhd win: ive been keeping up with my planner for like 9 months now! leaving it open on my desk and not being too strict with myself with how quickly i write things in has helped a lot -its not even been a week so touch wood but im making it a goal to listen to an album once a week, watch a movie once a week, and if i can, read a book once a week (like, starting small like goosebumps level stuff) -on an average work day i frequently break 20k+ steps and average 17kish steps a day, and in my less active role im still averaging like 13k -i dont draw as much as i want to but i have been drawing more than i was when my depression and mental health were at their worst, again keeping sketchbooks on hand for easy access has helped a lot -ive been having more ideas for films/shows/whatever again lately -i got christmas gifts for lots of friends and family which was the first time i was able to and i got them for people who werent expecting it at all and it felt nice to do nice things for people i care about

i feel like i should list more things but i dont want to force myself to grasp at straws, my life isnt quite as full of things or going the way i want it to be, but its not empty and its not worthless and im trying to remind myself of that without trying to put aspirations in here. im looking at facts not wants. and im doing okay! i could be doing better but im doing okay

[arbustorum]

feel free to ignore this message if you don't wanna answer. When I think of "art expert" I think of you lol.

Basically I've been using the same crappy drawing tablet I bought as a teenager and I've been wanting to upgrade for years and years, I could never justify the expense because art doesn't make me money it's just a hobby. but it is a hobby i love. I've saved money, I want to throw down to get a goooood drawing tablet. But i'm super clueless about what tablet that would be. something like a cintiq? If you have any recommendations for brands or what you use I'd love to hear. I get so overwhelmed trying to figure out what to get. If you have any other artist friends who want to input their advice that would be cool too. Even if you don't answer this message or can't give advice, thank you so so so so much for encouraging women to do art. Stuff you've said has really inspired me before and I'm just glad for it. :) thankies!

"When I think of "art expert" I think of you lol."

thats so sweet!!! im not expert by any means but i am passionate about the subject so i can definitely go on about it and lots of opinions. im gonna try and keep this short tho.

Heres a youtuber whos reviews and information i found really helpful and information when i was doing research for a tablet purchase. highly recommend. https://www.youtube.com/@aaronrutten

I've used wacom: bamboo, intuos pen small, intous medium and now my cintiq pro 24. my previous screen tablet was a huion 19 inch.

I used to have a lot of trouble with colors (still learning rn but anyway) so i didnt mind having a tablet with poor color fildelity but knew i wanted a screen tablet. I should have bought wacom cause i did end up wanting to replace it eventually, tho my huion did the job and lasted, its better to do one expensive purchase instead of two.

I agree with what this guy has to say about wacom alternatives. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOnt5mLeJ0E Ive only ever used one huion tho so my personal experience could be limited.

Personal preference: i know extremely talented artists that dont use screen or large tablets. I personally have a lot of trouble with smaller non screen tablets. Screen tablets helped me improve noticeably. if you feel like the non screen tablets are limiting you might be like me and benefit from the screen.

I also felt guilt about wanting to buy a nice tablet "what if i fail? what if this just stays a hobby?" theres nothing wrong with that. Why cant you enjoy your hobby and have tools that imrpove your experience?

my main advice: its better to buy an expensive thing once then a slightly cheaper thing that isnt exactly what you want and then have to buy a second one or third. Do the research, find the one you want, even if its more expensive. My first screen tablet was 500 dollars…and it was the cheapest one but it wasnt really what i wanted so i inevitably replaced it with what i wanted the whole time. So research and just try and be sure about what you really want. The more thoroughly you research the less likely you'll have to spend even more money if you have to buy a different thing. If you said you saved and you want it, its worth it. If you just opt for a cheaper one you'll probably end up having to replace or buy a newer one.

[gloam-eyed-radio-tower]

January 20th, 2024

"I already feel like ill quit super fast

Uhmmm May 5th 2023, 12:30 pm" I didn't quit but when I said I would write to myself at chaotic time frames I clearly did mean it. Well I did write in my notebooks more, well in 2 specific ones, one right after may in june where I spent just 1 week writing in it, in a way it was an act of passion and the other one quite the opposite an act of love ( something that goes against passion ). I was thinking of doing a third one as they are cursed notebooks and I wanted to make a Gravity Falls joke but since 1 isnt with me anymore and the 2nd I was writing during a span of 6 months and finished on New Years I thought it was a fitting end of that. I...just need a place for this stuff and its easier for me to write here than in some scrappy notebook sometimes, ill think of a thing to do with them. The first time I wrote something here is when I finally started feeling better ( not again, before that point I never felt good ) at January 10th, 2022., before that point every year I was getting worse and worse over the course of my life but right when I did get better in 2022... my mom died, I ran away alone and planned to run away even further alone until I couldnt ( not because of my mothers passing, just something else I felt) and I came back, no matter how you try and fight it you come back where you are supposed to be. 2023 was a calm year, probably the best one I had maybe, I dont think about that stuff much, I got something back thats extremely dear to me, the only troubles that I did have were managing how I should feel about having it back and maybe some sort of fear of restarting the last 8 years all over again. I started uni, its nice, I am managing, tried to be more social but I feel like there is a disconnect that I cant brake on my own with the world... It snowed yesterday, I have a lot of thoughts always but I cant speak, write or draw a thing. I sometimes want to live more normally but I require other people for that, going places, maybe parties, even if I hate them I would go, drink coffee, maybe, but I need other people for that and I dont really have either family or friends for it. No matter how you look at it and no matter how many times I justify to myself that other people are a problem also and the world its all on me, its on my if I cant change any of that and if I cant change the world in the way that I like so I am at peace, as long as I am at fault for my life, I am at peace. I guess I did feel a little bit gloomy but it is comforting to me. It is still inside I am sure of it, it will always be, you will know what I mean. Anyways what was playing while I wrote this.

I played a lot of persona, done with the Prime Ministers palace, almost done with the game it does feel a bit sad ( and pathetic) saying goodbye, I did spend more time with those characters than with people in real life.

Also 1 photo from the time I spent with my brother and his girlfriend at the mountain, it was nice, there is a lot of pretty pictures tho.

I little bit longer than I wanted, but Ill probably forget about this until next year anyways.

[hannahfundie]

Reflection.

Over the last 11 weeks I have used 3 different adobe softwares: Illustrator: I had only briefly used illustrator for small projects, but never for something big. The pen tool was something that was insanely hard, I couldnt grasp the idea of how the pen tool worked, with the handles and the points. It wasnt until recently when designing the book that I think it clicked and things became easier to use. Like the penguin task, I think once I started understanding how it worked, going back to fix things became very common. What I didnt like about illustrator was that sometimes things didn't do what I wanted them to do, like the pen tool! The fill and outline was frustrating because sometimes it swapped when I pressed something, and trying to get use to how the layers work compared to how the layers work in photoshop was tough to understand but eventually i got thee. The way that illustrator uses vectors and lines instead of pixels ins really nice because it adds a crisper and nicer look to the work being created, thats something that was really easy and nice to get with because it was nice to look at. One thing that I would like to improve on would be getting things done quicker and not having to go back through and change things. I found myself drawing with the pen tool and the going back and fixing all the mistakes, I want to try and get to the point where I can just get it nearly right and carry on instead of having to go back in. What helped a lot when using illustrator was having the past weeks to be able to remember what was needed to be done so I could have the outcome I wanted, without the past writing I wouldnt have been able to get through a lot of what was going on with illustrator.

Photoshop: I would say I had a pretty good knowledge when it came to photohop. So personally I didn't struggle that much. In general I enjoy photo editing so the process to me wasnt that harsh and because I knew what i was doing most of the time, trying to figure things out was easier. What was tricky wasn't the program by changing from a PC to a Mac, the keyboard and the layout of everything is different so I found myself clicking buttons that didn't do what they would do on PC. The curves for photos was an enjoyable process for me because I enjoyed how the photos changed so drastically and the end result was something that I felt like I had worked hard. What I found challenging was the masks, it was hard to understand what masks were and even now im still a little confused as to why they are needed. The masking exercise, the man jumping and trying to figure that all out was the hardest part for me because I just couldnt figure out the purpose of the masks.

InDesign: Doing graphic design I already had a brief understanding on how to use indesign, how to create pages and how the spreads worked, putting text in, etc. Using indesign compared to photoshop and illustrator was a weird change because the tools that I was use to having on the side were no longer there. I found the process enjoyable however because there was a lot to do, playing with text and making it do strange things, something that isnt really that big in photoshop and for sure not really a thing in illustrator. The photo placement was a pain. Trying to get photos into indesign at the start was challenging because it did this weird thing where it would disappear because the box was too small. Holding command kept the picture in place and with shrinking the image, holding down shift to then keep it the same shape, those 2 tool were very helpful with using the software. I found the text boxes frustrating because the text box didnt grow with the text (Didnt make room for the text) instead it would just hide the text. that was probably the only real struggle and problem I had with indesign, other than that I think I improved a lot from the first time I had ever used it.

Overall, the fundamentals class taught and helped expand more on what I didnt know and what I already know. There were aspects of the course (The book) that I kept getting distracted or saying I would do it later and that would then lead to the book not looking the best and not looking ow I wanted it to. The most important thing I did learn was the function of each software in depth and what they were all good at and how they all worked with each other, like you can put photoshop files into indesign, and they can all cross over to each other.

[smollandkindaannoyed]

I dont know if anyone wants to hear about my intern at a highschool but I am going to tell you about it anyway.

So I am studying to become an art teacher and like I am focusing my intern on a first year class right now. Before I start venting about this class I do want to say it is a nice class, they are in general sweet kids but omg last lesson I got way to close to punching a kid.

So the lesson begins and the class in split in two right now, one doing a photoshop assignment and one doing a drawing one. The photoshop group goes to the computer room and like within less then a minute a girl comes back going "I can't find photoshop on the computer and the guys don't want to help me." And the teacher I am interning at was still explaining something to the other group so I go and help her and like after fixing it just ask the guys next to her why they wouldnt help her, dude just goes "I am to sigma to help her." And omg that is where it started for me because no, please no, why do these 14 years old kids have to be talking about the stupid wolf-pack theory that was disproven ages ago. But like I leave this be for now, do ask wether he was a Andrew Tate fan (because lets be honest from who else would they have learned this shit) and sadly yes, luckly not anymore. Did go "you know for what he was/is in prison right?" But like i left it be in this group.

Went back to the drawing group, because I am good in drawing and suck at photoshop, and I am just walking around. Checking if everyone is doing well and suddenly I hear someone say they have the N-word pass. I would like to say this class is 99% white and I am also white, in the group of boys this conversation was being held there was one boy who isnt. And I am annoyingly woke and confrontatiable, so of course for some reason I have to go and mingle with this shit. And like I do stop this convo just going like "You are white, an N-word pass is not a thing and will not make you be able to say it."

So I probably didnt change their minds but at least I ended that conversation with some grace. And then I hear that same group also talk about the god damn SIGMA MALE BULLSHIT! And like I can handle 14 year old boys talk about stupid wolf-pack theory bullshit once a day and like I said I will start a conversation when I feel like needed. So I just ask how these kids even know about the whole sigma male mindset and stuff, ANDREW TATE WHO THE FUCK ELSE! And like I just went "You know the whole alpha male stuff is based on a science expirement that was disproven by multiple other scientist (also I know they are probably called different but not sure) and like that Andrew Tate legit is being questioned for human trafficing."

And then these kids found out that this was the shit that would make me mad. And then other kids of this class where catching on I was getting mad. So this kid that usually is nice to me is just on his phone constantly so I ask if he is not going to use it to look for pictures to use he could give the phone to me. Instead of doing that he puts on De Kabout Dans (a fucking dutch children song and also absolute club classic cause every dutch/belgium person under 30 knows it from their childhood) on and then just puts the phone in his pocket. AND LIKE WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?! I CANT TOUCH THE KID! And like calling their actual teacher just felt like showing them I couldnt handle them.

And like I got him to turn it off but when that was finished some other kid was drawing on her desk. And like I dont care that much, I do it a lot, but the school doesnt allow it so she had to clean it. Asked her to do it, she starts doing it with a piece of paper and just smudges it all over the desk instead. And like their is a sink on the classroom so I just ask her to get a sponge with some water on it and just clean it, of course 'she doesnt know where they are' while I legit pointed at them and she has been in this classroom longer then I have been. So well 'you could clean it for me right' and omg I am so annoyed by these kids because I got her to clean it but only after asking her to do it like 5 times.

So ye my "omg I am going to punch a kid"-stories of my interning at a highschool :)

[honeyrisuke]

ok no turns out what im mad about and posted about earlier wasnt a big deep "modern media bad bluh" thing, im just. not feeling so hot rn

very long boring ramble below

I've struggled with my art ever since I started to put it online

like, I'd always refresh and check if someone saw it and then get all exciting when someone did see it and like it and so on but not even once have I had some art I did actually,,, do anything for me. it was never _worth it_ if that makes sense.

I'd sit there for hours upon hours and then post it in hopes someone else enjoys it and seemingly nobody ever does. I can spend days on a drawing and it barely even reaches my friends, and in old media at least I still had one or the other random

even right now on Furaffinity, which also isnt algorythmically sorted, I occationally get people who just like all of my stuff in a quite sincere way, or comment on my art in a genuine way- and that's why I've recently enjoyed drawing furry fetish art a lot more than anything else, even when I didn't wanna draw furries that day.

but on shit like instagram or twitter or even on here I've. I rarely even get one interaction?? on my art?? I've never gotten a comment. I've never had someone share my art on twitter or instagram because they liked it

and when I did get faves or comments it was always either an IRL friend of mine who'd like a selfie of me taking a shit bc they don't care, as long as I posted it, or someone I don't know who just wants to promote their own account

I've blocked people in the past who left a nice comment on instagram, and when i replied to thank them they immediately went for "would you mind checking out my page"

bc yea i do mind shut tf up

its. fundamentally uncomfortable to be in those positions. I don't wanna go around using other people as stepping stones to get anywhere. I don't wanna go around and put up this big professional influencer facade just so I can draw my lame fucking characters and have maybe 10 people like it

and no, I'm not talking huge numbers and wanting fame or whatever, just. something. anything.

I've grown to really really hate art communities, and that means whenever I sit down and want to draw I have to first fight a big "but what for?"

and most of the time recently? I lose that fight. I can't think of a "what for", and then I sit there for several hours slowly thinking myself into a rage instead of doing anything productive, because actually I'm also very upset about not drawing, but I can't think of a good reason to do it

and to anyone who says "just do it for yourself"- you know you're lying. I've never met an artist who said that shit to my face and didn't have at least one person they could share their art with

I'd just be out here sending it to random ass people knowing damn well I'm annoying.

art is worthless if it can't be shared with anyone. I really picked the worst fucking hobby as a child. I hate everything I do and I hate doing it

I was hoping to rekindle my muse with artfight but as for right now, it looks like I'm not even gonna get a single attack, and each time I sit down to draw I'm building my hope up again that "this time they will respond and draw something back to" just to sit here on the 31st with maybe one really crappy doodle made by someone who just wanted to get free art from me. and if I'm as stupid as I've been all these years, I'll even have given them that free piece of art.

I'm just. I don't know where to go from here and. not to be even more of a downer at the end of this, in case anyone actually did read it, but

I've. not felt so hot about being around anymore recently, and fundamentally feeling like I should stop doing at alltogether is a big part of that. I've always done art one way or another, and so far nobody has ever given a shit about it. I have genuinly no idea why I've done it for so long. but i feel like if i stop then I am doing absolutely nothing anymore. i wouldnt be expressing myself anymore, i wouldnt put anything out there anymore. id just be here locked inside of my head unable to communicate the things im passionate about because i KNOW im annoying, i KNOW im unbearable and overly aggressive and genuinly unlikeable, and i know nobody gives a shit about the stuff i like or enjoy. i already stopped being excited about things bc of that years ago and am now only defaulting to be pissed and to complain and to make fun of things

and i feel that if i fully stop drawing and making art its. kinda over. idk i dont wanna write it out but that'd be it.

[myownprivatcidaho]

but also like. how do i say this. its not like he ISNT guarded its not like he doesnt act presentational or have a face he puts on that i havent seen at its strongest and i havent seen slip. its not like ive never seen him vulnerable and he knows that i think. so. and ik he had a tough end to a relationship a while back so it makes sense hed be hesitant to do that again but. why ME?? like im not saying im the first hes liked after all that time but what is it about me that he might even want to be vulnerable with??? like /I/ want him to feel like that like hes cared for and safe and his authenticity is welcomed with open arms. but. you know idk maybe its not just stuff he Likes that he sees maybe he. sees actively good attributes?? but idk like im not sure how often i really show those except when my Presented Persona slips as well. im realizing im gonna have to trust him with myself but im realizing that for some reason he in some sense is trusting me too. im honored and if this goes anywhere ill do my hest but i dont know what to do with the idea i might not just match subjective preferences but he might actually like. see some things about me and think im a good person or something

[thefairygodmonster]

Hey I really enjoy what you do, and I'm willing to ask you something! It's been my dream for awhile to become a character designer/storyboard artist since the beginning of highschool. I draw as much as possible, but I'm usually not satisfied with what I make, and I'm wondering I'm going about this dream right. I guess my question is, how did you achieve your dream?

I can relate. In highschool I drew a lot because I loved drawing! But there were a few things I really needed to learn before achieving my dream and they werent what I thought they'd be.

And hope youre ready for a long post because this stuff is sometimes complicated!

Up until the end of college and even after that I worked under the assumption that if I drew enough and drew well enough I'd eventually land a gig by having a strong portfolio alone. However its important to remember that working in this industry is: 1) A job with certain requirements that need to be met and- 2) collaborative which means its going to be very hard to go about this alone but also- 3) Dont lose yourself in pursuit of a job.

Regarding the first part. I thought being a good draftsman alone would get me in. I wasnt really paying attention to what goes into the field I was trying to get into. I focused mostly on character acting which is what I loved most but sorta ignored the fact that storyboards also require things like characters being in backgrounds, strong composition, and knowledge of picking good shots to tell a story. I had to step outside of my comfort zone and learn those things. I didnt have to be the best at them but I had to know enough to make it look believable. (Meaning, dont beat yourself up too much, nothing has to be perfect) Point being, research the job you want to do, find out how the animation pipeline works and what is expected of you in the position you want. If you dont know whats expected of you, it can be harder to tailor your portfolio to display the skills that recruiters want to see.

Secondly

You're going to be a part of a team so its important to make connections and be a person people will want to work with. I dont mean you have to change yourself entirely to fit in. But it helps to have social skills that show you're cooperative and nice to be around.

You may have heard about how this industry has a lot of nepotism. Thats not wrong, and it may suck to hear. But in a high stress team oriented job, you dont wanna work with people who will treat you like shit, so people are more likely to recommend you or seek you out if they know youre a good person to work with. I wasnt the most social person in highschool or college. I had a small group of friends and stuck to them. Nothing wrong with that but I was a bit...rusty with interacting with people outside that. You have to learn things like how to compromise, do things that others may want to do but you dont. It can be hard, especially if like me, you're neurodivergent, but its still important.

Not everyone is fortunate to be able to meet industry people in person but thankfully the internet has discord servers and other online spaces to try and interact with people. But PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS GOOD do not approach people to make a connection solely for a job. People smell that shit a mile away. Instead just, try to be yourself and be kind, make genuine connections with people when possible. Which leads me to my last point.

DONT LOSE YOURSELF

I've given a lot of information that may seem contradictory and hey, this shit isnt easy to navigate and Im still learning. Somewhere in the second step I sorta lost track of what I liked, what I wanted to do, I really became stuck on being someone I thought other people in the industry would like. I changed my art style and what I drew to better suit what I thought would be well liked. I did enjoy trying new things but eventually I was just trying to impress some anonymous blob and felt overwhelmd. I really felt like a failure as a person and an artist.

If people told me my art was so good, why couldnt I get a job?

My portfolio had examples of it from things I'd done in freelance but still no major job. I was about to give up when I was ghosted after a test I was proud of. After a really bad depressive episode I just decided to make a storyboard about fairy. Something simple but fun. I hadnt drawn a lot of my dreamons and shared them in a while so it felt nice to return to the things I liked. After finishing that personal board I put it up and thats when I started to get bites from studios.

I'll share with you what I've heard from many industry artists interviews. You need to have your own voice. It may be tempting to try and emulate someone else. (for ex. I saw a lot of people really try to replicate glen keanes work) and its okay to be inspired but if your work is nothing more than an imitation of someone else then studios would probably rather just get that person. You are an individual! You have your own experiences and likes and maybe they overlap with other things (thats okay) but try to bring your voice to the table. That also helps with the above in helping people get to know you. My shit is weird whacky zany squishy stuff and I'm happy to be getting back into it full swing. Also remember everyone's journey is totally different. Try not to compare your progress with others, it'll drive you nuts. Also remember this is just my personal experience. If you ask this question of others you're likely to get a million different responses, so take my words with a grain of salt!

[lesbianmarrow]

hiiiiii ok i watched legends of tomorrow 5.02 yesterday and i wanted to post some of my thoughts :) i know it isn’t technically the season premiere bc of the crossover but i’m going to treat it like it is. i enjoyed the episode overall, i didn’t like it as much as the season 4 premiere but i still liked it a lot! i just woke up from a nap soooo i am going to wake up my brain by writing this post. 

i had mixed feelings about the documentary gimmick. i felt that since this episode was the first one of the season, the documentary style made it harder for me as a viewer to get a sense of what the tone and themes of the season were going to be, which is something i feel the season premiere ought to lay out. it did establish important plot things like the encores and the zari mystery, but the characters were all acting strange due to being aware of the cameras, and i don’t want the characters acting strange in that way in the first episode, you know? however the documentary format did give the show an easy and fun way to give us a bunch of exposition at the beginning without it feeling like a drag, so there’s that. also it’s just so meta in a way that is just so legends of tomorrow. and the fake documentary “the office” style humor was so so funny at times. 

this episode deals very directly with the turmoil sara feels due to the crossover, which i think is a good thing even though it sort of derails the season for 1 episode (is it derailing if the season has barely started?). if legends hadn’t addressed sara’s grief, i think it would have done a disservice to the sara-centric moments in the crossover, which were overall poignant and relatively effective. i love the idea that sara is grieving not just oliver but the last tie to her old self (although isnt her mom still alive....) and i think that idea sort of comes through in this episode. usually she’s well-equipped to deal with the wackiness of her life as time ship captain but at this specific moment it’s just too much for her. i loved the drawing behrad gave to sara, it was so cute. and i like that she was able to eventually make up with ava, but more on that later. 

it feels kinda bold of the show to introduce behrad by retconning him into the characters’ past so that they’ve already all known him for 2 years, but i think it works. we get a good idea of what kind of guy he is, how the other legends relate to him, and even some important backstory details like how his parents think he’s at business school. he seems like a nice guy and i like him :) his “time bro” friendship with ray and nate is sort of interesting to me bc i feel like if behrad is also there then does that weaken what ray and nate have? that’s the immediate impression i get but maybe later episodes will show otherwise. being a sort of goofy well-meaning guy he fits well on the team, but we’ve yet to see what it is that he brings to the team that nobody else does. but i have patience, i’m sure we’ll find out in time :) oh also i noticed that when all the legends were drinking behrad just had water which was a nice bit of cultural sensitivity on the writers’ part i think. 

whatever happened to zari tomaz.....i like how this episode addresses the plotline of missing zari in an indirect way, sort of building up the mystery without letting it take over the show. i’m not as big a fan of it being a nate-centric plotline. i know it makes sense bc they were dating but also feels cliche in a way i don’t care for and as we’ve established before i am not a nate fan. i wish it had been charlie instead.....speaking of whom i found it odd how she just like got on a jumpship at the beginning of the episode and wasn’t present for the rest of it. doesn’t bode super well for the rest of the season! i hope it’s a plot thing that gets addressed and emphasized later but for now i am discontent bc i want to see her!!!! 

LOVE that mona became mick’s literary agent. that made me laugh so much. so that’s how you break into the publishing industry these days! i am really fond of the friendship between mick and mona so i really enjoyed those scenes in this episode. i was surprised when mick gave up the mantle of rebecca silver to mona, i guess that means he’ll be having some other character arc this season? i really liked his rebecca silver thing but if the writers have a definite direction they wanna take him in then i trust them....for now. also i guess that was their way of writing mona out of the show? i wouldn’t have minded seeing her stick around longer but i don’t mind her being gone. i thought it was so sweet when she hugged mick. 

i adored ava in this episode, i found her so relatable. LOVED her terrible condolence card. i like that she is the one who is the most adamant about making everything seem nice for the camera. it actually reminds me of her earlier appearances at the beginning of season 3, how it seemed like she was trying so hard to come off as tough and confident because she was actually hiding her doubts and insecurities. i like that she ultimately admitted very straightforwardly to sara that she doesn’t know how to support her but she really wants to be there for her however she can. and the scene of them having a heartfelt conversation while casually taking down bad guys was so funny. oh they are such a good couple. was also really cute when they kissed and ava fell down. me too. 

oh my goodness i forgot about constantine. i like that gary is his assistant, i think it’s a good niche for him to fill for now. uhhhh wasn’t super paying attention to this plotline tbh but it seems fine. whatever. extremely funny that he tried to buy an alcoholic drink for a child and got kicked out. i had trouble following the main plot of this episode as well, i think bc i dont know anything about russian history so i was just taking things as they came. i loved when ray embiggened and exploded rasputin from the inside. very ant-man thanos butthole of him. not as good as the unicorn biting off gary’s nipple, but still pretty good. looking forward to seeing more of astra’s evil machinations

[silima]

Hey man I wanted to ask, i am beginner artist and I feel kinda discouraged because i have a smaller acc than I lot of artists, how do you feel like encouraged to draw more stuff about your fandom?(i really love your art and is so inspiring!)

thank u!! first of all, it's awesome that you've decided to start putting yourself out there!! i think motivation can be one of the hardest things to deal with when it comes to making art, & sometimes it feels like u either have it or u don't. but i think it's definitely possible to improve in some ways!

i think the most important rule of trying to motivate urself is, when motivation/inspiration hits you, DON’T WASTE IT. if you think to yourself, “hmm, it would be fun to draw right now… but it would be easier to keep scrolling on my phone” do your best to actually go draw!! i’m not gonna tell u to skip, like, ur homework for art (although i totally do that) bcz u should do ur homework. but when the urge hits u, don’t let it go!! u gotta ride that wave as far as it’ll take you.

obviously sometimes motivation will hit you at times when you’re in a situation where you totally can’t sit down and draw. like it’s 3am and you really should’ve been sleeping 5 hours ago, but u just got a super cool idea for a drawing or a comic or something. if that happens, i’m not saying to actually sit down & draw right then, but you absolutely should write your idea down while the idea is still fresh!! it’s easy to forget small things or even the whole idea if you wait for later. plus, when you revisit what you've written down, you might find yourself having ideas of how you could make it even better.

one thing that’s kind of unfortunate about making art is that, yeah, external motivation is a big part of motivating yourself to make art (at least it is for me). BUT you definitely don’t need to have thousands of followers to get nice feedback on your art. i mean, you could just show it to an irl friend who likes the show/book/etc that you’re drawing for too. hell, you could show it to ur mom

but to put yourself out there online, uhh my advice is to

make art that’s interesting in some way. (character interactions are often more interesting to ppl than solo character art, for one; uhh, comics are super super super fun although i personally felt intimidated by them at first; in general, trying to give ur audience some kind of emotional response to ur art--whether it's "aw so cute" or funny or angsty--is good.)

participate in fandom events (like ship weeks, big bangs, etc). at the very least, ur art gets reblogged to a bigger blog that can get you some exposure. and you might make some friends!

try to connect w/ other content creators—go compliment cool art! send nice asks! make gift art for fanfics u really like!

look for some fandom discords with nice ppl

post ur stuff on multiple social medias

i personally spent like 3 years on tumblr just kinda tossing my art into the void before i actually started gaining a significant amount of followers lol so i’m not exactly a social media guru but i think those are some good places to start.

also, NEVER BE DISCOURAGED BY UR OWN ART!!!!! sometimes it happens when you'll look at ur art and be like "holy bejeezus i suck at art" and like, it's inevitable that it happens occasionally, but u gotta avoid that as much as u possibly can. practice positive self-talk--be like "aw fuck yeah i love how i drew that hair" or smth to yourself. bad self-esteem will kill your motivation & your fun.

(it's worth keeping in mind that oftentimes, if u feel like ur art is "getting worse," that's literally just your eye for art developing and learning to recognize flaws that you're about to fix--a good sign, not a bad one. your hands will catch up to your eyes in time.)

oh and DONT be afraid of posting little sketches or unfinished doodles that arent that fancy...... thats something i struggle with lol i always feel like "if my art isnt perfectly cleaned up and shaded then whats the point :(" but whenever i see someone else's cute little sketch on my dash im always like omg thats so cool. doing this is also good because if you don't feel obligated to put tons and tons of effort into each piece, you'll have an easier time creating lots of art which ultimately helps u improve way faster

lastly i uhhh really strongly recommend against doing that thing that some beginner artists do where you're feeling insecure about your art and, in anticipation that people will hate it, you say something like "haha yeah i know it sucks" in the caption/tags to sort of insulate yourself from criticism. cuz like, most ppl are not little loser bitches who go around insulting random ppl's art, and besides if you do encounter people like that, u can just block em. more importantly, a lot of people do find such captions kind of off-putting/guilt-trippy, so it's bad for growing ur audience, and it's also harmful to you as well, because you're verbalizing your insecurities (& thus intensifying them). just own it. you don't need to apologize for "imperfect" art. it happens, & it's totally okay.

[soup-du-silence]

So, have you been watching Amphibia? If so, do you think it sorta nails certain elements of Ducktales better like family (Plantars vs the Ducks), actual important onscreen stuff being shown, better balance on characters (only has about 7-ish in main cast at Anne, Plantars, Sasha, Marcy, and Grime compared to the boat loads on Ducktales), and better world conquering villain (Andrias>Lunaris)? Do you also ship Anne/Sasha/Marcy?

oh anon, you're not slick. you must follow me on twitter because I know I've talked about at least one of these things already.

yes frog show is doing a way better at found family than duck show. a big part of the sell for me is that its very show-not-tell. I believe that Anne has become and will always be a Plantar-by-proxy because it's just....the truth. We didn't even start getting really meaty lore until season 2 so all of season 1 was just....Anne and the Plantars as a unit, having wacky adventures. It was a very natural progression. I feel like....a big part of the thing that others Anne, that she's human and an outsider, is always obvious and something you're always aware of. She's different, she doesn't belong here, she's going to go home eventually, so they dont need to draw attention to it all the time. Unlike Webby, who looks like she belongs, and we're told she's supposed to belong, and they keep saying family, only to keep pulling the rug out from under us by focusing on the biological McDucks or whatever. Ducktales told us she was Family without really explaining what that meant outside of her obsession with Scrooge, and then, at the last minute, her actual biological relation to them. Anne and the Plantars love each other. like, its not a question. It was, in fact, pretty devastating to find out Hop Pop had lied to Anne in the interest of protecting his biological kin, but unlike Scrooge lashing out at Webby in Last Crash, the frog show actually fucking addresses it and they work through it.

i do think the smaller cast helps, and the fact that its an original property and doesnt feel the need to waste time on nostalgia bait. amphibia isnt even a show like, say, steven universe, in which every single episode leant something vital and integral to the lore. You'd wait 6 months for a new episode then get a townie filler ep and think, "aw man," only for something set up in that episode to pay off in an important way 30 episodes down the line. there are loads of amphibia eps that are just....goofy fun. they dont add anything to the lore, except that they continue to sell Anne and Sprig's friendship. you KNOW Anne and Sprig are best friends because you've seen how much time they spend together and the adventures they have and all their heartfelt convos. on the other hand you could go ages without a Webby-being-treated-like-family ep, and instead have several while she's standing on the sidelines or excluded from Della-centric stuff because she's not Della's fucking kid. Anne and Sprig are almost ALWAYS there, because it's their show.

I feel like both Lunaris and Andrias have similar energies in that I knew not to trust Andrias, like the dude was too big, sorry. You dont trust a dude that big voiced by keith david, especially if he's nice. But yeah, he's definitely more threatening. If I thought he was maybe a little cheesy before, then he put a flaming sword through marcy's chest. so like....yeah dude means business.

I dont....really ship the girls? I always had trouble liking Sasha, particularly in season 1, not in a "i think she's a terrible character" way because i think she's a fascinating character, but in a "I had a lot of trouble believing she genuinely liked Anne because my personal experience with girls like Sasha is they do not have your best interest at heart." They kind of started walking that back in season 2 with flashbacks that kind of didn't gel with the image of her I'd formed in my head during season 1, so I just kind of...had trouble figuring out how I felt about her. PCS wrote a nice Marcanne fic I enjoyed a lot back when the ship honestly hadn't occurred to me, and seeing how...uh. Unhinged? Detached from reality? Marcy is really adds a layer of intrigue and angst that's probably definitely worth thinking about. I'll have to poke around in ao3 and see what it has to offer on that front. I'm not like, totally sold on it, but it could be interesting.

Sprig/Ivy is where it's at. Sorry, I love Ivy, she's perfect in every way. I hope she goes batshit fucking bananas when she finds out what happened.

and though you didnt ask? The big super-anne twist fucking slaps. I dont know where it came from and I dont care. It was badass. come up with something cool enough like that and people will play along. Webby-as-Scrooge's clone? Sucked balls. God. not even in the same ballpark.

[escapewriter]

Light of My Life

pairing : minghao x reader

synopsis : what’s better than celebrating your boyfriend’s birthday rapunzel style?

genre : whole lotta fluff and a bit of humor

word count : 2k

warnings : slight mentions of murder but its a joke

a/n : for minghao’s birthday😌 it isnt a lot like how i wanted but it does justice lol. also, lets pretend they weren’t by the ocean lol

svt written masterlist || main masterlist

You sat in your apartment opening the box you received from the mail today. Jun had helped you plan this date for Minghao for his birthday and this item would complete the whole date. You pulled out the lanterns that were in a plastic bag and scanned them. 

“Perfect,” You place them carefully in the picnic basket, finally set for your date with Minghao tomorrow. You heard your phone buzz on the table.

Minghao : hi yn, what you up to?

You smiled at his text, grateful that he took the time to text you even with his busy schedule 

You : i am currently preparing for our date tomorrow :D

Minghao : ooo how exciting. can i know what you have planned??

You : you should know the answer to that question 

Minghao rolled his eyes as he stared at his screen. Of course you would turn the tables on him, he always made your dates a surprise. 

Minghao : no fair :(

You : how is this not fair??

Minghao : cuz i want to know lol. 

You contemplated but stood your ground; you can’t tell him. 

You : guess you just have to find out tomorrow. 

Minghao sighed, giving up on attempting to find out what you have planned. 

Minghao : fine. but don’t think ill tell you what i have planned for your birthday. 

You : yeah yeah i know. dont you still have practice?

He looked at the clock in the practice room and then to some of his members who were sitting on the floor or standing. 

Minghao : yeah i should probably get going. its late too, you should sleep. 

You : i will dont worry. stay safe and dont push yourself. 

Minghao : i wont. goodnight my love, i love you.

You : i love you too. 

You locked your phone and took the basket, placing it on the kitchen counter. Tomorrow was going to be an eventful day. 

~

You placed the basket with all the supplies you needed in the trunk of your car, deciding to make it a surprise. Taking the other basket that you prepared this morning with various types of food, you put it in the backseat behind the drivers side. Getting in, you started the car and headed to Minghao’s dorm. 

You tapped the wheel in excitement, you finally get to have some part of the day with Minghao before his birthday. It was November 6th, so it wasn’t exactly his birthday, but you did get to have him until midnight and that’s all that counts. And it made your plan perfect. 

You got to the parking garage and texted your boyfriend that you were downstairs waiting. After 5 minutes, you see the elevator open and Minghao step out, looking as handsome as ever. 

He approached the car and got into the passenger seat, giving you a quick kiss. “Hi,” he smiled at you, “Hi,” you smiled back. You began to pull out of the building, picking up a small conversation with each other.

“How was the drive?” You turned down the radio, “Same as usual, smooth, nothing wrong, I was safe.” He smiled, happy that you had a decent ride, “That’s good. So, where are we going?”

You took your eyes off the road to look at him for a split second before focusing back on the road. A grin creeped onto your face, “You’ll find out soon Hao. Be patient, you’ll love it.”

“No, I know I’ll love it, I just have to let my manager know because of protocol,” You sighed, “Is that really the reason?” He looked outside the window, playing with his rings, “Half of it, they told me to have fun.” 

You smiled and turned up the radio, “Shut up and enjoy the ride baby. Trust, you’ll enjoy it more.”

~

“This is nice,” Minghao sighed beside you on the picnic blanket. “Yeah it is.”

All the food in the basket was empty, mainly Minghao devouring most of it. “So, what are we gonna do now?” You looked at the time on your phone. Sun sets at 6:45 and it’s 3:50. You have three hours for what you have planned so it should be enough. 

“I’ll be right back, I have to get something.” You got up quickly and retrieved the extra basket that was in the trunk. You returned to Minghao, “Ta da!” 

“More food??” You laughed and sat down in your place, “No, an activity. Jun actually helped me with the idea.” You opened up the basket, taking out of the things you packed inside, “What is this YN?” He picked up one of the lanterns. 

“It’s a lantern. I packed all these art supplies so we could decorate them and light them up and release them. Originally, I wanted to do it at midnight because that’s when your actual birthday is, but the timing wasn’t right, and plus it’s dangerous during nighttime.” 

He looked at you with his mouth agape, “That’s so,,, thoughtful. I can’t believe you came up with this.” 

“Actually Jun-” “-let’s just give you the credit for now.” You smiled at him as he leaned over and kissed you on the lips. You held his face in place as his right hand was planted in between the two of you so he wouldn’t lose balance. Pulling away, you smiled at each other, “Happy Birthday my love.” 

“Thank you, I love you so much. Now! Let's get to painting!”

~

“My lantern looks like crap oh my god,” you looked at the blue blob on your cylinder object. “I’m sure it looks fine YN, just keep going.” You put down the paint brush and looked at your boyfriend. 

He’s been in ‘The8’ mode ever since you two started painting. He didn’t want you to see what he was making, so it became a rule that when you both finish, that’s when you present your pieces to each other. 

“I don’t know why you’re not letting me see yours, it’s not like I haven’t seen you paint before.” You continued to try and make your blob look presentable by drawing a happy face, “You know, when you took me out here in like the middle of nowhere, I thought you would’ve killed me, broken up with me and left me here to starve, or go cloud watching.”

You looked at him with a weird face, “Well for one thing, there are no clouds today. And two, I wouldn’t have let you starve, that’s too painful.” You finally looked up at you, “So you would’ve killed me?” 

You purse your lips, “Would you rather starve to death?” He rolled his eyes and looked back down at his artwork. 

“I get that Jun helped you with this, but like, how did the idea come about?” You painted mindlessly while pondering on an answer, “Well I thought of you and what you would like, even if you said anything. But I just thought about what you meant to me, like how lanterns are bright when you light them up, and when you release them, they float. It’s a really bad metaphor, but you’re like my lantern. You’re the light of my life and every time I’m with you, I’m always on cloud nine. Plus it fits with your culture.”

He was looking at you when you tried to sneak a peek at his lantern. “I’m gonna pretend I didn’t just see you try to look at my lantern. But besides the point, that was really cheesy, but I love you.” You smiled and put down the brush. 

“Well, I’m done with mine.” You looked at him, seeing him also set down his brush, “Me too. Do we let it dry and assemble it?” You contemplated on your answer for a bit, “Uhh, I could probably assemble mine because it looks like trash anyway, but if you like yours, let it dry a little and then assemble it.” 

~

Minghao just finished assembling his lantern after it dried for a bit. It was currently 6:50, the sky was just turning into various shades of orange, pink and purple. “Okay, wanna see mine now?” You looked at your boyfriend and he held his lantern behind his back, “Show me.”

He brought it in front of him and lifted it up, slowly turning it to see the details that he drew on. “Wow, it looks beautiful, I can’t really see it.”

He brought it back down and signaled for you to scoot closer, “This here, is the bouquet of your favorite flower that I got you for Valentines Day,” You smiled as he turned it a little to move to the next picture, “This is the tree that we sat by on one of our dates. The one where a bird pooped on you,” You laughed and slightly hit his shoulder, “I can’t believe you put that there.”

“How could I not? It was an amazing memory. Anyway, this is a drawing of our matching bracelets, I didn’t want to paint it because I thought it would ruin it, so it’s a bit plain.” You shook your head, “No it’s beautiful.” He turned it to the final piece.

“This is a picture of us, or a silhouette of us. We’re watching the lanterns fly up into the beautiful sky together.” You felt a tear drop fall from your eye, “Aw crap what the fuck? Why am I crying?” You giggled and quickly tried wiping away the tears with your hands as Minghao laughed beside you. 

He put down his lantern and pulled you in closer to him, “Why are you crying though, baby?” You sniffed, “Because this is a celebration for you, and I feel like I should’ve painted something beautiful for you.” You kissed your forehead softly, “I don’t care what you paint baby, as long as I’m here with you, it doesn’t matter.”

“I kinda don’t want to release that one, it’s too beautiful.” He looked at you with a pout, “but I painted the future.” 

You laughed, checking your phone, “Okay fine. It’s 7:10, we should light it up now.” 

You both got up, lanterns in your hands. Grabbing a lighter, you lit yours and then Minghao’s, “Ready YN?” You held the hand that he held out, “I feel like I’m in high school musical,” he laughed, squeezing your hand, “Keep it PG, we do not makeout in public.”

“Okay,” You rolled your eyes with a smile, “On the count of three.” You both gazed into each other’s eyes, “1. 2. 3.” 

You both let go of the lanterns and saw them slowly float into the sun-kissed sky. You felt Minghao release your hand before hearing jazz music begin to play and feeling his arms wrap around your waist, swaying softly to the music. 

“Of course jazz music.” You heard him chuckle behind you, “Well, you can’t blame me, it’s a perfect time for it.” You smiled and leaned more into his embrace.

“Did you like the date?” He hummed in response, his chin on your shoulder, “It was perfect. I loved it a lot, thank you for making this special for me.” 

“Of course. It’s, well almost your big day after all.” You turned around, placing your hands on his shoulders and his on your waist. “Happy Birthday my love,” He smiled at you, heart filled with love and happiness as he looked into your eyes more. He leaned in and placed a soft kiss to your lips, taking your breath away. You would never get tired of this feeling. 

Pulling away, you smiled at each other before he looked up, “We should take a picture.” He took out his phone from his pocket, pausing the music and switching on the camera. He held it at a low angle to get the lanterns in the picture, but also getting the sunset in the background.

“Say cheese!” Instead of smiling at the camera, you placed your lips on his cheek, him capturing the moment perfectly. “You sly person,” you giggled and quickly pecked his lips. You grabbed his phone and resumed the jazz music. 

Hold out your hand, “I believe we were dancing earlier?” He gave you a smirk and took your hand into his before pulling you closer, the two of you watching the sunset and dancing slowly to the sound of jazz.