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legendarycherryblossombarbarian · 1 year

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Hey, does anyone know what I just found out??

I look almost exactly like what 9 year old me thought was attractive and cool

I have:

•blonde hair

•wear those military pattern pants and black sports pants almost exclusively

•only wear short/no sleeved shirts

•boobs

•I can wear my hair half up half down, and I look androgynous

•my face is adorable (in my opinion), yet i can still intimate people with a glance (people think I'm mean when I'm really just touch starved and have a resting bitchface)

•I'm very tall (I'm delusional)

•I still like minecraft very much

•I can work with my hands (now I'm really reaching, aren't I?)

•I look buff (my child self would be very happy about that)

I think that's it for now

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ot3 · 4 months

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i know i've said this plenty of times before but nothing is funnier to me than the idea of phoenix's parents being pretty normal but maybe kind of lame and him almost completely ghosting them just because he doesn't want to explain any of the insane life decisions hes made.

#in my heart i KNOW that phoenix has 1. a ton of stuff in common with his mom but 2. would rather die than hear anyone say that to him.#he just radiates that energy to me #phoenix voice my parents thought me going to art school was stupid so i can NEVER let them know it didn't pan out #edgeworth voice but youre one of the most important contemporary figures in the city's legal system. wont that impress them.#phoenix voice its not ABOUT impressing them i just dont want them to be RIGHT you dont GET IT

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endrimer · 15 days

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MY BINDER ARRIVED!!!!1 YIPPEPEEE!!!!!!!!! have normal in his binder as a celebration :DD

#ITS A REALLY GOOD BINDER TOO IM SO HAPPY #IM SO HAPPYPY!!!!!!11!!#i got this binder in secret since my mom wont let me get another one and itts SOO GOOD OGGH MYG OD #ITS EASY TO TAKE ON AND OFF AND I DONT FEEL SICK WHEN WEARING IT #+ IT MAEKS ME LOOK FLAT ITS SO COOL #dndads #dungeons and daddies #normal oak swallows garcia #normal oak #me when i project on normal…. transmasc normal save me….#i did a little dance around the room its so comfortable its so cool #dndads quest #dndads s2

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dunesilly · 4 months

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I started watching lego ninjago in front of my mother and now she wont let me watch it without her and we are stuck on the last season of the first series because we both dont have time together to watch it

#lego ninjago #ninjago #shows #my mom literally wont let me watch it without her or she will get upset

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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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sieglinde-freud · 4 months

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started another file and got two really terrible pairs of siblings. arent they pretty :)

BONUS I MARRIED ONE OF EM I LOVE U FOREVER PINKNIGO 🫶🩷

#ann plays awakening #the great thing about the gay hack is that if i make most of them siblings #it cuts my grinding in half!!#anyways i absolutely started a new file to marry pink inigo like i wont even bother hiding that #but i figured while im here i might as while try out some other pairings #i have the rest of them written down i just need to. yk. grind em out #another time though #in case you havent noticed by now awakening is really just my fun family simulator #its fun for me #something i didnt expect though was that cordelia!owain looks REALLY good #i didnt expect that but his hair + his red accents??? HELLO??#and ik u can make him ginger in the base game but no one really matches cordelia red yk #sully could work actually but that’s still not a vanilla game thing #also cordelia lets him have full access to the VVW combo which is excellent #severa unfortunately misses out on wrath but thats alright #she’s really pretty with lissa’s hair. maybe she got the pigtails from mom

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andiv3r · 8 months

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Tumblr folks 💀 pls help me I was drawing Crowley (the same WIP I posted earlier) and my homophobic Baptist Christian grandma came up and said "whatcha drawing" and I can't very well say "oh I'm drawing a gay genderfluid demon" now can I? So I just said "uhhh... a... person." And she was staring SO SUSPICIOUSLY AT THE DRAWING AND HIS EYES AND THE POINTY EARS I GAVE HIM and I just had to SIT THERE-

Also here's an update on the drawing.

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spearxwind · 6 months

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feeling solidarity these holidays with everyone not allowed to talk about their partner with the family

#for some reason i too am not allowed to bring him up when my dad is present because he gets really uncomfortable about it #and my mom has to come tell me off about it in private bc he wont say the problem directly to me #thunderclap #i understand the problem but what the hell man im almost 27 years old #its extra annoying cause ive been to his house a lot already and i know his parents and have a good relationship with them #but my parents absolutely REFUSE to let him come here because again itd make my dad uncomfortable to have us (checks notes)#living in the same space??#my GRANDPARENTS have seen my partner more than my parents have #i just think its annoying as hellll holy shit all i did was bring up miguel sleeptalking and say hes woken me up once or twice saying stuff #and my mom told me off on it after like 'dont bring up you being in bed with your guy in front of your dad' HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO INFER THAT AS THE MEANING TO WHAT I SAID... I WAS JUST TELLING A FUNNY ANECDOTE #THAT HAD 100% TO DO WITH THE CONVO WE WERE HAVING (SLEEPWALKING)#ARRGHGGHGHGHGH THIS IS JUST LIKE COSMIC ONLINE REACHING BUT IRL

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critterofthenight · 2 days

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there's a banquet with my class and our teachers tonight, and i really really don't wanna go (ಥωಥ)

#the only reason why i wont try to convince my mom to let me say that im sick and not go is that i bought new makeup yesterday #and i wanna try it out #also my art teacher is gonna be there and i love her so much #but god i think that im gonna be miserable #✩‧₊˚

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sagnaevi · 6 hours

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/ nice, dad being drunk and obnoxious. id just drive back home again honestly, if it wasn't for having promised to spend midsummers eve with mom. i'll go home tomorrow though, bc this just triggers my anxiety so much and i cant, i just cant. i wanna go home... im sad. Now he is playing music so loud i cant even hear my own thoughts.

#✧ ┊ ⁭❛ ⸺ ooc. ❮ rambles ❯#//mom doesnt drink. but she also doesnt listen to me when i ask why we cant eat lunch elsewhere without dad when hes like this.#//she just #: he wants to eat too #//me: so let him eat alone???????#//i love my mom but she enables his bullshit too much sometimes.#//she and I will go away and do thibgs alone tho in the evening #//this just upsets me abd i know i wont be rested on monday for work bc of this #alcohol tw #negative tw

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shower-phantom-ideas · 9 months

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Yall know whats crazy? I grew up in an actual haunted house lmao. Most of my friends wont even come over to my moms house now a days. My roommate hates it there

The phone is literally not plugged in to anything (it’s an older style that isnt wireless) and it will ring. And I mean it’s not plugged into the phone line or power.

Old clock chimes. Never mind that the chimes r just sitting in it not strung up.

Locked out? But that door is a deadbolt?

Ah yes the person who is standing in the kitchen looking out the window. Never mind that the sink and counter are in the way. (Got a photo of this one but the ghost only remained in it for a year before it disappeared)

Foot steps behind u in the hall? Don’t use the end bathroom then cause u will have no privacy. One of my friends had the door open then close while he was in there smh.

Random shadow hand covering up tour phone screen? Time to leave.

Don’t bring keyboards in this house if you aren’t ready to see them type. Don’t being computers if you don’t like the blue screen.

Do not sleep here unless you are ready to sleep like a coma so the ghost can’t wake you up at 2am.

Do not be here unless you are ready to be watched and never alone ( menacingly)

#no joke yall #she had a wireless phone that kept ringing so I took the battery out of it and it still kept ringing #I got locked out for hours then it let me back in once it got dark #ghost said go play outside child smh #the grounds are spooky too btw #the woods call to me #they say shes here help her she needs your help #and I listen but never go #sometimes #I am literally sitting jn my car outside my moms house too scared to go in but I was washing clothes here and I have to go in snd get them #for work #smh why wont anyone pick up my phone calls so I can have support with me

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wittyworm · 4 months

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im at my wits FUCKING end

#surely in another timeline tonight would be the night i kill myself #but put of pure stubbornness ill keep going just to see what happems #but damn its a close one #eeveryones so FUCKINGSTUPID and i cant take it anymore im sixk of everyone around me im sick of being poor im sick of Fjjsjfnfn #shorty literally sent a picture of both sides of his new bank card to some stupid fucking gold digger online that hes never met and shes #100%already hacked into the card im screwed im ANGRY #i had to turn the card off #i cant do this #and now my mom wont let me use her car anymore because something started leaking #whil3 i was driving it so #i need to save money i need a car i need to get out of here

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bunnihearted · 2 months

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#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

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flamboyant-king · 9 months

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I had an Isaac run where it was so stressful my heartrate was at a 145bpm and it persisted for 6 hours. After that, like every day that followed, my heart would just suddenly shoot up to 120-140bpm for an hour if I so much as thought about something I've been stressing over recently. Everybody encouraging me to go to the ER. And I'm just like "Oh please I've actually always been like this, I'm fine." Had to chop down my Adderall dosage. But I swear I've felt like this since high school, but I guess the medicine enhances the feeling and that feeling was ANXIETY.

So, suffice to say, playing The Binding of Isaac™️ almost gave me a heart attack.

#and its not the adderall thats just inducing the heartrate #cause i only got prescribed adderall this year #dad got diagnosed with afib when i was still in school. he rushed himself to the hospital with mom while i was taking a test #i was like what the heck where did you guys go and mom said oh dad was having a heart attack or something and we didnt want to bother you #like WOULDNT YOU TELL YOUR CHILD OH MAYBE YOU WONT SEE YOUR FATHER AFTER WE GO TO THE HOSPITAL BUT FINISH YOUR EXAM BABY #that was like 2020 and we have a couple of those oxygen readers for your fingers and it measures your heartbeat #i out one on for fun im just sitting there at the dinner table and my heartrate was at 120 #like i didnt do anything we been stuck at home because pandemic and we just having a nice dinner #and my heartbeat was just thats my resting heartrate. they told me to try the blood pressure thing #average blood pressure but truly my heartbeat was just vibing at 120. mis padres were like oh no maybe you have afib too #babes youre too young to have that. and i jsut said oh is that what it means when im nauseous and have to lie down #i havent been diagnosed with anything. i suspect is tachycardia but no official thing #although i havent seen a cardiologist. what if we pay to get a screening and its nothing #i dont want to go thru all that and let it be nothing. lets wait until its a real problem #when my brother and his family visited just like what two weeks ago he was like #he was sitting on moms exercise bike and said it reads your heartrate #and it did you put your hands on the handle and it reads yer pulse #i told him like oooh let me try. hey brother my resting heartrate is 120 a lot. and hes like. what. get on this thing #and i get off the couch literally resting and lay my hands on the handles #and we see it go up. from 80 to 90 to 100 to 110 to 120 and hes a nurse and my moms a nurse and he says go upstairs and rest #dont hang out here with the kids. and im like ha i already told mom #he said sit there for ten minutes dont do anythingg and were trying again #he got mom to call our doctor and my doctor said to stop taking the adderall which is NOT IDEAL theres worse repurcussions to stop cold #so i cut mine in half. cause i had a dosage of 20mg and i almost fainted at work. we died the dosage down to 15 #but after all that i cut my 15 down to 7.5 cause hey i cant stop cold but i can ween myself #brother said i shouldnt be taking adderall if im not doing anything that requires focus. but im like i need focus to live man #look at how much ive been drawing...i mean its only in like hour long intervals but its productive #so theres that. i can feel my heartrate already up but i guess its just a thing with me...anywho #doodles #the binding of isaac

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natjennie · 2 months

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anyone else out here a middle child saddled with eldest daughter responsibilities?

#a bumper sticker that says 'middle-child neglect and eldest-child duties'#i want to believe it started when my older sister moved out but. lets be real. it's always been me.#i am genuinely acting care-giver to my chronically ill younger sister while my dad watches basketball on the couch #and my mom doesnt get out of bed.#like. my mom is pretty sick too and works all day and does most of the housekeeping too #so i dont blame her at all.#i mean i guess my dad works all day but. for real king you can't get up off the couch to support your daughter crying and heaving #no that falls to me. yeah yeah I'll get her a drink and make sure she takes her meds.#what's that? yeah I'll rub her back and run a cloth under the sink and bring her something to eat too.#oh? yes fine I wont take a gummy so i wont sleep because she's in a flare up and needs them more than me #to be clear!! I'm not blaming her either like clearly she feels like shit and she feels guilty all the time #i just. some amount of help from anyone else. or at least maybe. idk A DAY I can rest when i feel like shit #but oh- no- she's coughing up bile again. yep I'll come bring a bucket.

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acaciapines · 1 month

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guys what if i told you ive been thinking about dess and actually i think dess/chara might be able to work out in the drkau...like ive been doing some thinking into dess and her reasons and why she does what she does and how she cares about people and im starting to nail down the role i want asriel to play, and. and.

guys i think dess is actually going to be able to change. i think dess figures out how to change but asriel never does....

#chatter #its about like. okay azzy's big thing is normality right.#ive decided hes our monster representative for the prophecy #(which i could make a whole post on but these tags are not the place)#which means dess ISNT which means dess isnt stuck by that #which means like. god this needs so much context i dont have time to give but.#in order for asriel to change he has to come to terms w the fact that a lot of things are his fault #like if he had reacted differently dess maybe stays #or at least doesnt take kris with her #and DESS comes to terms w this. dess is aware that she sorta fucked kris's life #and no shes not their mom but she does love them and care for them #and eventually would start to realize like. i have to be there for them #it wont be perfect but i can TRY even if trying is really really scary #and its this idea of like. what dess-chara-kris-frisk have #is family that could NEVER fit into what society sees as 'normal'#but they have each other. and they want to try. so they make something good #vs asriel chasing normality and pushing everyone away and at the end of it all like #that cant make you happy. all it does is make you Alone. and i dont know if he like #changes. cause hes so deep in he cant admit he was wrong cause then what was any of this for?#anyways let me remind you that noelle is our main character--#(though tbf since azzy is her brother and has a huge impact on her life its fair he gets a focus too)#I LOVE MY OWN AU <3 #drkau

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