you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
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Medical Equipment Deco for The Sims 2
These are some 4to2 conversions from Kardofe set, low poly. Monitor can be found in Electronics-Miscellaneous. Wheelchair in Seating-Miscellaneous (sims can sit on it) and the others in Deco-Miscellaneous. 3 recolors each.
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Prompt 311
Alien biology is weird. Liminal biology? Even weirder.
Ecto? Very much a wellspring for creation despite its association with death. Or rather undeath, but that’s a debate that many a realms denizen has tried to find the answer of. Usually there weren’t many liminals- ecto contaminated, yes, but enough to form Cores? No, only a few throughout history. Until the age of Heroes and Villains came about. But that’s a story for another time.
See ectoplasm builds up over time in the human body, and even more so for those that have formed cores who create their own. And it’s not like it’s well studied, what with most not even being aware of the changes or the fact they aren’t fully human anymore.
Why is this important? Well, what happens if two liminals (accidentally or not) mix their ecto together? Well, that depends on intentions, even if it’s just an impulsive thought at the time. Which in turns means that accidents? Yeah, accidents might’ve happened. Oops….
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so weird being an eldest sibling who can't relate to most of the "eldest sibling memes". not the being a surrogate parent against your will to your younger siblings and being expected to set the bar for success in everything you did, i did have to deal with that, but all the jokes about how you were the only one resembling an actual normal human being in your family and your younger siblings were like imps sent from hell to torment you. because out of me and my brother i was the devil sibling. he didn't like to bring his friends over to our house because they were scared of his creepy sister who would stare out at them from the windows with her horrible dead shark's eyes and read books and watch shows on tv with photos of real life decomposing corpses and diseased rotting flesh in them that would give them nightmares.
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I still think it’s incredible that people blindly accept big brands = unquestionably good when regarding pet care. If you can accept that human care products have been at times poorly researched or downright harmful (and with the brand’s knowledge) like in the Johnson & Johnson scandal, why do you not believe that a brand would mislead or lie to you when it’s regarding your pet?
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a deep sense of dread has invaded my souls but I brought you muffins
Chocolate!!!
have a nice day :)
danke my friend! and a good choice, i like them very much!!
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Yesterday someone in the airport was watching some sports broadcast on his phone with the volume on right next to me and I didn’t wanna deal with direct confrontation so I turned my own volume all the way up and started to play an instructional video on how to wear headphones correctly (the opening was “hey guys, it’s [name] from [channel] - you’d think wearing headphones would be as simple as putting them on your head!” And I played that on repeat several times)
He kept glancing over trying to look casual but still letting his loud ass sport video play but he eventually simply left the gate entirely.
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Introducing 2t3 Epi Sims Pharmacy Posters
Originally by @episims - Original Sims 2 Post
There are 5 presets
§10 - Moves up/down the wall - 3 poly
Mesh by AikeaGuinea, edited by Moi
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Thank you to @joshttew for sharing these with me!
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Emergancy medical costs.
Some of you may have seen that I have opened a commission sale for the summer, my wife and I are trying to raise money for some emergency medical coverage… they are losing vision rapidly in one eye due to their neuro disease, and need dental surgery.
Although right now the eyesight lost is much more pressing. My commissions will remain open! And they’re on sale so you can get some nice art for pretty cheap.
But, I’m also going to be posting my kofi donation link if anyone is able or willing to donate to and share this. It’s very scary right now and we’re doing all we can to prevent them from losing their sight entirely, so anything would help. Thank you.
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