Turning tragedy into hope-Let him lose those arms
I’ve tried making this post three times so let’s hope that third times the charm y’all.
I’m just gonna come out and say it but when I saw that panel where Izuku doesn’t have any hands I literally got so excited.
AND ITS NOT BECAUSE I LIKE MY FAVORITE CHARACTER GETTING BRUTALIZED (well? I do think it’s a little funny but shhh)
But it’s because this has been foreshadowed almost as much as the handhold itself between Izuku and Katsuki. And it’s wonderfully tragic in the best of ways. Literally half of the commentary surrounding it when it came out in the leaks was “omg I thought of that!” Because literally everyone and their mother KNEW this was coming in some form. Izuku was going to lose an arm, and that would be the case.
Hell, even outside of the story the amount of official art and AU’s Horikoshi drew that had Izuku without an arm is astounding. Like it’s so painfully obvious that this was coming, and so he upped the shock when he made Izuku lose them both.
Izuku is even doing his white eye thing, he isn’t shocked, he’s angry. My dude is pissed. Clearly, to me at least, the loss of his hands is less of a shock to him and more so that he’s angry that afo took away the reason he lost them in the first place—Tenko.
Y’all gotta remember who Izuku is, he’s the stubborn motherfucker that refused time and time again to give up on his dreams, he’s the one that illegally saved Iida and Katsuki, he’s the one that refused to let go of Tenko’s hands because when he was in his time of need, it comforted him.
Izuku has been told by his doctors for over a year atp that he was going to eventually either lose his hands, or lose the function within them. He’s accepted that. He can try to stop it, hold it off through equipment and treatment, but at the end of the day, everything breaks eventually. He knows that. We know that.
So if he was going to lose his arms in some way, it’d be through this: saving someone, holding their hands, never letting go, comforting them.
It’s tragic and sacrificial, but Aizawa’s the same. Did we make theories about how Eri is gonna heal him from being an amputee? Did the story say “actually due to this cool magical illusion/quirk it was all a mirage/eri could heal it”? No, it didn’t. Did Mirko somehow get her arms and legs back because they’re tied to how she views her strength? No, she didn’t.
And there’s a reason they didn’t. Multiple reasons they didn’t. They’re heroes, their scars tell their stories.
Not even mentioning how that’s such a trope (“everyone else keeps their long term injuries except for the main character because he’s special and gets main character powers, like not getting a disability from a dangerous job! :)”), but why should eri, a little girl, be responsible for everyone’s injuries? She doesn’t even have full control yet, she’s playing it by day. (People LOVE to talk about how all the 1-A kids are just kids fighting in a war, except when it comes to a little girl being responsible for everyone’s injuries, somehow)
The reason eri was shown wasn’t because she was going to somehow save the day, but because she wasn’t. It was supposed to stop those theories from having actual merit, because eri doesn’t actually have the built up strength to help.
So, with that out of the way, I wanted to say how this is so fucking beautiful. It’s tragic yes, Izuku and Katsuki never got to hold hands, not properly, but maybe the measure of their trust is beyond that. Maybe, an embrace could suffice—this would go back to Izuku’s vigilante arc. Where, instead of holding hands, Katsuki caught him when he needed to. And he’s going to do it, again and again.
Maybe holding a robot or silicone arm won’t feel the same, but it’s the feelings surrounding it that matters, not the act itself. The hand hold is still there, the hands still haunt the narrative like a mouse within the walls. It bites at cords like their own emotional walls.
Katsuki missed his chance, over and over again, and he’s going to have to come to terms with that. But that’s not to say that the story won’t let this aspect haunt the narrative like it always has. It’s still THERE, and I believe in Horikoshi to continue to write a story about hands while the main character doesn’t even have them.
Izuku’s hands are tied to his strength, physically and emotionally. He views them has the glue that ties his heroics to himself. His hands have always reached out to others, his hands have always punched those who were wrong, and even when he had to switch fighting styles he still saw them as the reason he was able to fight at all. They represent OFA, his love, his anger, his weakness, his strength. They represent his sense of self, and yet he’s more outraged than hurt that he lost them for Tenko to be free—only for AFO to take away that freedom all over again.
THATS why the loss had to happen. THIS. He lost something so incredibly valuable to himself, but he lost them of his own accord. He could have let go of Tenko at any moment, yet he didn’t because he wanted Tenko to know comfort and freedom. He wanted him to be free.
You could say that Tenko was telling Izuku to let go because he was breaking down his emotional resolve, and I believe you could also say that he was telling Izuku to let go so he doesn’t hurt someone who tried to help him all over again. You could say it’s both. It’s selfish and selfless, like everything in this story is. But Izuku refused to, and that was a choice Tenko could never take away from him.
So, that’s how I’ll turn this tragedy to hope, because this was done out of Izuku’s love, why take away that meaning?
Why put them back?
Why take away those scars?
Scars tell stories, they tell you how we became the greatest heroes.
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Although nobody likely cares, I'll post some OC lore. Because I have COVID and will be confined to one small room for many days, and my neurodivergent ass can't handle that.
The character's name is Nairin Chauveron, and he's from a species called Shadows. These creatures have the ability to use magic and live for a very long time, and can also become Beast creatures. His, for example, is some weird giant white fox thing. However, Shadows are prone to a disease widely known as Corruption, which screws up their magic and can alter their forms.
They have crystals on their bodies, usually their chests, made of similar materials to their bones and horns. When a Shadow has Corruption, these crystals, or Cores, as they're known, fill up with dark magic when they usually contain regular life force. This makes the Shadow have a lot of negative effects, which I might explain later if prompted. (Although I most likely will not be prompted.)
Anyway, Nairin is pretty much the new king of the mountains, and I call him the bean man because he has paw feet with toe beans. He's also a slut. If you want to read the story I wrote featuring him, here's the link: https://www.wattpad.com/1318871197-mirror-dreams-not-this-dream-again-chapter-1
The story posts irregularly and it's mostly so I can get myself to do things. The first pic was drawn by me a while ago, the second is in a Picrew, the link is here: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1414503
I might post more about him later, and I had another, newer image somewhere, but seeing as I can't find it, that'll have to wait.
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Kai & Relationship Failure & Suicidal Tendencies
In most situations, Kai has too much pride to take his own life. He'd much rather go down fighting an impossible fight or taking on a job that he knows he will never walk away from at the end. He wants to fight and make as much trouble as he can until he draws his final breath. There are some circumstances where he can become downright suicidal, though, and they generally tend to include the failure of a close romantic or platonic relationship.
As someone who has been told all throughout his life that he is an unlovable monster by his parents, he doesn't want to test the theory, which is why he spends his time solely with one night stands. However, there are times when he can't help himself from falling into a romantic relationship despite his best efforts not to.
Dating him is difficult. Like really, really hard. He puts up a confident front, but in reality, is the most insecure guy you'll ever meet. He's insecure about his appearance (since he looks like a mirror image of his father), his ability to relate to others emotionally, his way of life, his ability to please his partner, his violent outbursts, and pretty much everything else. As such, he becomes jealous very easily.
If and when a relationship breaks down, he always blames himself, no matter what the circumstance. Having a relationship fail is the ultimate loss for him because he starts to believe he has proof that he is unlovable and will never be able to relate to someone on a romantic or emotional level. It's akin to having everything his parents told him growing up proven right, and he can't handle it. Knowing he will never be accepted, which is all that he's ever wanted, crushes him. After that, he feels like there's no more point in living. It's the one of the few things that will drive him to taking his own life.
The methods of which he uses to do so vary depending on the circumstance, but often include overdosing on heroin or using a knife to inflict a fatal wound (slit throat, wrists, etc).
I added "The Death of a Bachelor" from PATD to this post because, while I know it's intended to be a song about Brandon Urie getting married, I often think of the "death of a bachelor" in a literal sense, especially in regards to Kai's suicidal tendencies after a romantic relationship fails. Many of the lyrics ring true for how he would feel in that situation.
Notable lyrics breakdown:
Dᴏ I ʟᴏᴏᴋ ʟᴏɴᴇʟʏ? I sᴇᴇ ᴛʜᴇ sʜᴀᴅᴏᴡs ᴏɴ ᴍʏ ғᴀᴄᴇ
Pᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴛᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ I ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴛʜᴇ sᴀᴍᴇ
A breakup will affect him so profoundly that he won't be able to feel anything other than guilt, sorrow, and self-hatred.
Mᴀʏʙᴇ I ʟᴏsᴛ ᴡᴇɪɢʜᴛ, I'ᴍ ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ʜᴏᴏᴋʏ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ
After a relationship fails, he's likely to lose the will to live, or at the very least be so distraught that he forgets to eat. He would be "playing hooky" with the person he was dating (or had broken up with) because he's the type of person to leave without saying goodbye in the middle of the night, so he just disappears one day and never comes back.
Pᴜʟʟ ᴍʏ ʜᴇᴀʀᴛ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴍʏ ᴄʜᴇsᴛ, sᴏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ sᴇᴇ ɪᴛ, ᴛᴏᴏ.
"Pull my heart out my chest" in a literal sense to show the person who he loved just how much they meant to him.
Tʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏғ ᴀ ʙᴀᴄʜᴇʟᴏʀ, ᴏ-ᴏ-ᴏʜ! Lᴇᴛᴛɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀᴛᴇʀ ғᴀʟʟ
Tʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏғ ᴀ ʙᴀᴄʜᴇʟᴏʀ, ᴏ-ᴏ-ᴏʜ! Sᴇᴇᴍs sᴏ ғɪᴛᴛɪɴɢ ғᴏʀ
Hᴀᴘᴘɪʟʏ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴀғᴛᴇʀ, ᴏᴏʜ, ʜᴏᴡ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ I ᴀsᴋ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴏʀᴇ?
A ʟɪғᴇᴛɪᴍᴇ ᴏғ ʟᴀᴜɢʜᴛᴇʀ ᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴇxᴘᴇɴsᴇ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴏғ ᴀ ʙᴀᴄʜᴇʟᴏʀThe whole chorus really shows that, after his death, he thinks the life of whoever he's leaving behind will be better. He believes a "happily ever after" for his partner at the expense of his life is a small price for him to pay.
Aɴᴅ ᴡʜᴇɴ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ᴏғ ᴍᴇ, ᴀᴍ I ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴇsᴛ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀ ʜᴀᴅ?
Sʜᴀʀᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴅʀɪɴᴋ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ, sᴍɪʟᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ sᴀᴅ.
Sometimes he won't leave in the middle of the night and instead spends one last night with that person or "share[s] one more drink" with them. He wouldn't explicitly say he's going to kill himself or even that he's going away, but he'd say many self-deprecating things that heavily imply it. At the same time, he'd try to keep the mood somewhat light so the person doesn't suspect the worst or try to stop him. He might ask them with a sad smile "am I the best you've ever had?" not in a relationship sense, but in a sexual sense, since his main method of communication is through physical touch. He would ask because he would want to know that, even if it was only for a little bit or only during sex, he gave that person some good memories/made them feel good.
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