Being sad and in my sadness corner cuz I have a crush on an aromatic person who I helped find out that their aromatic (it was at camp, ill explain at 3 likes)
I've officially started on the prep/writing for my newest fnc Fic, it'll be modern au, crack treated seriously, mayyyybeee 5+1? Depends if I wanna do more or less than 5 of the funny moments
And for additional context, the Fic will be called "Chibo's Guide to Self Defenestration"
Where Chip, after embarrassing himself horrendously in the first meeting, proceeds to jump out a window everytime he is in close proximity to Gil, also because he is having major Gay Panick™, as Chip tends to do
Funny silly goofy screenshots about fic down below
With @cant-think-to-save-my-life as a frequent pop-up
The very start of this whole thing, a passing 1 am thought, simply throwing out a funny thought, unknowing to the amount of brain power that would soon be dedicated to this
Then slowly adding things to the universe, until I have the overwhelming urge to actually compile this into a fic
Perfectly cut off reply from my enabler friend who was the one to suggest 5+1, which is still up in the air
Panic *Jazzhands* (writing human interaction is hard v-v)
(I made them neighbors)
I then proceeded to ask my friends about embarrassing things that chip would do that'd cause him to dive out a window, got any great suggestions, but brain came up with one that was way worse than anything they said 💀
And then, at like 4 am, I saw this tiktok, and got called out so bad I decided to start writing the fic 😬
Then I sent my friends a mostly blocked out screenshot of what all I've written for who and what, to emphasize how little I wrote for Gil lol
Like, thats all that needs to be said for me to understand how I wanna write Gil XD
anyways ph you know when you finish the temple of fire and head back down to the ship and find that linebeck isnt where he usually is, because he’s at astrids? what’s he doing there
So I know this isn't anything that like actually needs an apology but it'll make me feel a bit better to say it. Oof whoops this ABoT chapter is super late. Timing kinda sucks since I wanted to have some updates out while s3 was airing but
Been kinda mega busy and stressed since October with the whole condo buying thing which rolled right into immediate day 0 plumbing and boiler issues I had to get fixed and general moving hassle and financial commitment stress and I kinda just fried myself hard. Plus then acclimating to a new place without my familiar street or familiar grocery store or familiar room or any of that. Like there's no "just go home and take your mind off it" to this cuz home is the "it". So I'm just kinda enduring until I can calm the hell down.
And anyway I definitely have progress on ch47, like 7000-ish words of it, but it's the kind of like "there is writing there" and hasn't exactly hit the "there is substance there" that I want ABoT chapters to be. Like this in particular is a chapter I want to be good, not just be done. So it's taking time to get my brain somewhere that can do that.
Actually cry so goddamn hard when I think about Shinjiro Aragaki healing and being loved and having to learn to be okay with himself and being taken care of
Made the mistake of reading a reddit thread of a bunch of people talking about how easy and irritatingly unchallenging MLIS programs are and im filled with such dread and preemptive rage. I am not cut out for boredom and bullshit, and i kind of knew i was getting into something that was basically gonna be super easy and just busy work but now that im actually staring it down its so much worse :(
And my coworkers are all so excited for me and supportive and it’s already taking so much work to not sound like a total bitch when they ask me questions. Like no I’m not nervous about grad school because academia is a challenge, I’m nervous because if it isn’t challenging (which it rarely is) the boredom will turn me into a monster.