#darkandtwisty

[fluffysmutsmaketheworld]

[whatsheread]

My therapist said I should something light before bed to help avoid the nightmares that have been plaguing me. Except I don’t have any. Dark and twisted books make me happy!!! 🖤🤷🏻‍♀️📚🧛🏻‍♀️📖🧙🏻‍♀️🧌🧟‍♀️🕴️🧝‍♀️🧝🧚‍♀️🧜‍♀️🧞‍♀️🪄 #apictureaday #2022inpictures #readspookybooks #darkandtwisty #darklikemyheart #read #reader #readersofinstagram #readersgonnaread #bookstagram #book #bookblogger #itisalwaysspookybookseason #ireadwhatilike #ihaveatype https://www.instagram.com/p/CjrCDOxrjTa/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[phishouttawatta]

If God made me in his image, we know He has a sense of humor :P . . . #gravityfalls #gf #gravityfallsoregon #gravityfallsmemes #disney #disneymemes #disneyanimationmemes #cartoon #cartoonmemes #animation #animationmemes #animemes #imgoingtohell #itwasworthit #gettingoldcough #darkandtwisty #grunclestan #greatunclestan #stanpines #stanleypines https://www.instagram.com/p/CN82Y82l6XY/?igshid=10hzxplemstoy

[inside-my-mind12-blog]

I surround myself in darkness because it’s where I feel the most safe— but it’s also where I feel the most vulnerable and scared. The dark, unlike the day, is still, quiet, and cold. And when it’s still and quiet and cold is when the thoughts that were pushed aside all day make their way to the forefront of my mind. Almost suffocating every other thought so you have to face them. Darkness is when you have to deal with everything you avoid. At least mine is. But darkness is also my calm. The still calms my anxious mind and I don’t mind the thoughts I’ve been avoiding because at least my mind is finally, FINALLY, set on one topic instead of ten different things. My darkness is an oxymoron and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

[raeattemptsserotonin]

[ginniibee]

You.

Will always be a part of me.

The dark twisted memories along with the rays of sunshine.

I wonder. Did I have an impact on you? At all?

[00k4y]

i don’t know who i am anymore

[sleeplessnarcolepsy]

#mentalhealth #badday #darkandtwisty (at Grand Rapids, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bzt23gvBqyY/?igshid=di7f8g5nlwfz

[raelenel]

I haven’t decided on a blog name or cute tag line yet

"The night is dark and full of terrors" I woke up with this quote repeating over and over in my head. The quote is from a Game of Thrones episode where the "Red Lady" or Melissandra is pregnant with Stannis Baratheon's child and ends up giving birth to this shadow demon who goes and kills Renly Baratheon (a brother to Stannis and Robert who is in line for the Iron Throne) with the face of Stannis. All a little dark and twisty honestly. Now. Why I woke up with this particular quote on my mind makes me wonder, why the fuck. I haven't watched GoT since the new episode on Sunday nor have I read any theories about Baratheons lately (Yes... I read GoT theories between patients, don't judge). I don't remember what my dreams were about last night either but this quote for some reason is haunting me today. Lets keep writing and maybe i'll have this great revelation and figure out why it's stuck in my head. So I like to think my life is somewhat comical and people always tell me I should have a TV show. Well, I'm a chubby nurse with no TV connections and definitely don't have a face for TV, I don't even think I have a face for radio at this point so, blog it is!

Let's get to know each other a little bit. Or you can actually get to know me since this is my blog and i'll probably never meet you. Same same. So, I'm Raelene. I'm a 30yr old VERY SINGLE mom to two perfect girls; Kenadie who is currently 9 and Emery who is currently 5. Did I mention they are literally perfect? This si where I post a photo of them buuuuut I don’t know how yet so sit tight and when I learn to not be computer/tumblr dumb, I’ll show you just how gorgeous my crotch fruit are! 

Notice the emphasis on the VERY SINGLE, heyyyyy *eyeroll emoji* I guess this is where I give you back story on that. I married my high school sweetheart back in 2007. Shit out two kids and left him in 2015 because he was fucking my friend. Super great right?! Since then I've dated here and there but have only had one serious relationship which lord have mercy has ruined me mentally and emotionally more so than the end of my marriage did. Now, that doesn't mean i'm completely unavailable emotionally (heyyyy) but i've got some baggage just like the next chubby girl looking for love in all the wrong places, maybe just a little more. Weird story actually is that even though Tyler (the most recent ex) ruined me, we're still weirdly close friends*shoulder shrug emoji* That's a whole other post we can go into if y'all ask enough about it. 

So a little more about me. I still live in band tee's and converse. I love emo/indie music but if you get in the car with me and let me shuffle all the music on my phone you'll get anything from Marilyn Manson to Hillsong United. I have weird taste in music haha. But my go to is definitely emo/indie. My favorite movies include Breakfast at Tiffany's, Definitely Maybe, annnndddd uhm maybe the Harry Potter series. I'm a big Potterhead, way into Game of Thrones, I like to watch reruns of shows because i'm afraid to get into new ones for fear of hating it and wasting brain cells. Sometimes I don't realize the words that come out of my mouth until well after I've said them which seems to not always work in my favor. I'm a family medicine nurse and a hopeless romantic.

Should you continue to follow this you'll quickly realize that I am scatterbrained as fuck, I sometimes get very dark and twisty because I have what my doctor likes to call "debilitating and uncontrolled depression and anxiety" that I choose not to treat with SSRI/SNRI's, half of the time I don't think I'm making any sense whatsoever and the other half I'm patting myself on the back with how smart I am, and sometimes I'm just sassy. It'll be a rollercoaster but I can promise you that at some point I'll make you laugh, I'll make you question this crazy life the universe has given us, and I may even make you cry. Not just with my stories but what I hope is relatable words to touch you, your soul in some way. We all need a person and I truly believe sometimes that person isn't going to be right in front of you every day (thank you technology). I have made some of the best online friends that I go to with more of my life than my best friends I see every day.

So lets journey together, yeah? Lets see what shenanigans we can get into. And finally, welcome to the shit show!

-R

[tattooedchick1394]

Scream all you want but eventually the darkness consumes us all... 📸@arichtig_photography #darkness #darkandtwisty #elfish #darkelf #spooky #scream #woods #blacklips #scleralenses #scleraxl #cresentmoon #headpiece #inkedup #inkedmodel #halloweentime #melaninmagic #surrealmakeup (at Lake Manawa) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqH1lnaDCub/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1xinigy91vyql

[talesofanavidreader]

ℚ𝕆𝕋𝔻: Have you read any twisty, mind bending reads lately? Or what’s your favorite twisty read?⁣ ⁣ I know I’m late to this party, but I finally read Verity and DANG. That was crazy! Verity was a rollercoaster full of twists and suspense. It was such a good read! ⁣ ⁣ ✨Hashtags✨⁣ #ColleenHoover #Verity #SuspensefulReads #Mystery #TwistyReads #Suspense #Fiction #BookRec #DarkAndTwisty #BookObsessed #ShelfLove #BookstaFeature #BookBlogger #AllTheBooks #BookNerdigans #Reading #Bookalicious #ReadersOfInstagram #ReadersAssemble #GranniesOfBookstagram https://www.instagram.com/talesofanavidreader/p/CY_zVQwLdTb/?utm_medium=tumblr

[soraiide]

Our love was like the first week of spring all so sweet like honeysuckles but after all the sweetness our love became the darkening showers of our heart.

~Soraide Marte

[badkittyknits]

From crochet water balloons to this...I guess this seems kind of dark...but I've been up since 130 am with those storms... When you're awake you may as well do some work and research...I'm looking for more items to add to my autumn inventory and this is giving me plenty of ideas. My ivory color "Lost Souls" sold last weekend but this one is still available. I'll have it with me this Saturday at Vagabond Makers Market 10am to 4pm...we'll be at the Forty Fort Sports Complex near the Airport off Wyoming Ave. DM me if there's something specific you'd like to pick up while there. Booth 39... be certain to stop by, support local artisans and small businesses. #badkittyknits #slowfashion #skullcrochet #CrochetSkulls #creepycrochet #imyselfamstrangeandunusual #strangeandunusual #gothcrochet #crochetgoth #darkandtwisted #darkandtwisty #bohocraftysouls #bohemianstyle #festivalfashion #fallfashion #hippiestyle #halloweencrochet #lostsoulshawl #queenofhalloween #crochet #crochetlove #lostsouls #halloweeneveryday https://www.instagram.com/p/CRT13u-L9tl/?utm_medium=tumblr

[whatsheread]

Facts • #sickmind #darkandtwisty #someoneknowsmewell #pollyannacansuckit https://www.instagram.com/p/CQ30S3NrYlU/?utm_medium=tumblr

[prettyrecklessswiftie]

I hold my husband I want this quote on my headstone when I die, he said it was very appropriate and he’d see to it. 🖤 @taylornation @taylorswift ✨✨ #tlgad #thelastgreatamericandynasty #peony #quote #taylorswiftlyrics #folklore #darkandtwisty #gothswiftie https://www.instagram.com/p/CFxuFgVHUr6/?igshid=it37vl9re5cf

[00k4y]

you will be ok..

i gave all of myself to a boy who i thought was the one for me, who i thought loved me as much as i loved him. i was slowly giving him pieces of me and i never realized until i couldn’t even recognize myself at the end of it. i knew it wasn’t going to last but because i have such an abandonment issue, i needed it to work. i tried settling for someone who didn’t love me. i tried changing my ways for him. i tried and i tried and i just couldn’t do it anymore. i broke myself. a year later i have never been more happier. yes i get lonely at times but i’m finding my ways. i was in such a dark and twisty place for such a long time but i needed it. it made me realize my worth. it made me realize that settling for some temporary love isn’t enough. it made me realize that i rather be alone than with someone who didn’t love me for me. and i am someone who needs love. i am someone who loves and feels deeply. i couldn’t breathe, i had panic attacks and my anxiety had got worst within time. i quit my jobs i couldn’t breathe i couldn’t do anything i legitimately felt my heart breaking and it was the worst feeling in the world. i guess i thought that being with someone was going to ‘fix’ me or fix all my problems- it didn’t. he didn’t. i ruined him and he ruined me. i felt alone. i felt like there was no purpose in life anymore. i had no purpose. i didn’t have a stranger telling me from an outside perspective that i was going to be okay. but you do. you are. you are going to be okay. the worst part isn’t realizing that you’re losing your relationship, the worst part comes after that. it’s the feeling of emptiness, loneliness, the doubts, the insecurities, the hurt, the pain, those will last you days, weeks and even months. but as someone who came out of this from the other side, i’m telling you it will get better. maybe not today maybe not tomorrow or next week, but i promise you it will