#dispair

[risinglikesunflower]

Maybe I do just ruin people's lives and it would be better if I didn't exist.

[life-imitates-art-far-more]

Louis-Jean-François Lagrenée (1724-1805) "Love Consoling Painting from the Critics of her Enemies" (1781) Oil on panel Located in the Louvre Museum, Paris, Francec

[m4d0lyn]

[intoodeepoceans]

DISPAIR is pressing in on my ears.

I am at the bottom of the pool, but there is no cool water.

Only hopelessness.

This hopelessness is ceasing at times, so that I am unable to adapt to the nausea of it.

It strikes me deaf and blind each time.

It lurks at the back of my throat during fleeting moments of happiness, and tastes of bile.

My mostly bright smile malformed, turned down at the very edges.

This hopefully goes unnoticed.

My point is that things are certainly not what they seem.

I may be this, or perhaps even that.

But deep deep inside,

All I am is a neglected dog.

A stray lying in the street.

A filthy fucking mutt, with dirty paws and an unkempt shaggy coat.

You would do well to steer clear, because I am not worth your time.

[guestiguess]

[chronicfatigue-silverflame]

If there was a magical cure for your disability, would you take it? I currently feel like I would. Yeah, I wouldn't be the same me. But I'd be a me who can go in loud, crowded environments without a fight. I'd be a me who can socialize without worry. My spoken words could match up with what's happening in my brain. I could live without pain. I could dance and play sports. I could go to school like everyone else. I could get a job.

Please don't talk about accommodations here. I'm tired of fighting for things others take for granted.

[restinslices]

I feel so bad for Liu Kang. His life had to be so unbelievably lonely, and can you imagine being him, knowing all these people but they don’t know you. He loves Kitana but had to watch her grow up with no memory of what they’ve been through in other timelines. I just know he misses his friends and everyone he knew beforehand but he’s forced to forget about them and never see them again. This game makes me miserable.

[seasons-in-hell]

Melancholy and sadness are the start of doubt... doubt is the beginning of despair; despair is the cruel beginning of the differing degrees of wickedness.

-Comte de Lautreamont

[beljar]

The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther.

Sylvia Plath, from The Bell Jar, January 14, 1963

[risinglikesunflower]

Here I am.

Suffering on a place I exist not by my choice.

[draw-the-squad-like-this]

Draw your character like this

[babz30]

[the-insect-is-awake]

"Then there are those of us who give ourselves completely to the irrationality of existing (which means living without knowing what for and with an ever-present sense of anguish)." —Ignacio Moya Arriagada, Entre Infinitos

[ashlianaelemental]

hi anyone whos here and sees me of all people. im so sorry to post this, but im going to be homeless. 😔

for the last week, our plumbing was broken and spraying sewage on the floor from every faucet and got my family and i sick as a result of having to use public restrooms every day. if we cant pay rent by tonight we get a ten day notice of eviction. its nearly over, and theres nothing left i or my family can do. <\33333333333333333333

i love to be punished for working as hard as i can to survive and provide for my family

if anyone wants to donate, i have two cats (ziggy and stardust) and two partners (my wife and boyfriend and i) who i love and have worked hard for to keep safe more than anything in my life? and we cant loose our home. we spent our life savings to move here and be safe, and our attempts to settle have only been met with hostility and apathy. :’(

please help any way you can, im so sorry to ask, i want to and will die, this is the end 😭😔💔😭😔💔

[queercherrypie]

[imdrowningindispair]

When you can’t become the strawberry blonde, so you settle with becoming a strawberry 🍓