#doctor trauma

[pr3ttyr0t]

Getting to see a GI specialist is almost triggeirng, but I'm excited. If only my mother didn't blame me for being sick and needing surgeries, maybe I would have been helped by now ❤️🩷🎀

[gore-system]

You know you're in deep medical shit when the doctors get so done with not being able to figure out whats wrong with you that they literally give up on you and stop trying at all and so now your health is getting worse and no one is trying to figure out why

Ps: a good way to lose 35 pounds in 3 months is to be super ill and have no idea why

[angsty-aliens]

Pro-tip. If you have medical anxiety and they leave you alone in a room with a gown. You don’t HAVE to sit on the scary paper seat. You can sit in the bonus chair and wait for them to be ready.

Also this doctor was so good. I didn’t disclose to her any trauma. Just said “sitting on that thing gave me anxiety.” She had to do a skin scrap on my back and talked through every single step. “I’m putting on my gloves, I’m swabbing with alcohol, I’m rubbing with tissue” etc. It was so appreciated.

[mndvx]

[spoopdeedoop]

au where they’re all human and best friends and nothing ever goes wrong ever

[nobleriver]

DOCTOR WHO

Smith and Jones (3.01)

[the-patrex]

They are cute... but watch out

[donttouchtheneednoggle]

I know the bi-generation was silly and goofy and all but like also

The Doctor getting to the point where they couldn't bear the weight of it all, Eleven and Twelve and Thirteen's guilt and grief on top of all that Ten already carried, and the only way to survive it was splitting in two?

Where one Doctor takes most of the trauma and has to stop and process it so the other Doctor is free enough of it that he can keep doing what they always have to do, keep running because what will the universe do without them? What will they do without the universe?

The self destruction combined with the most radical self love where they share the burden and the responsibility and the grief and the joy between them-

(x x)

They couldn't survive it alone any more, but between them they can

[dinoburger]

OH TRAITOROUS SYNAPSES

[pr3ttyr0t]

I'm so scared of the doctors and medical stuff and hospitals (cuz trauma), and the doctor was so creepy and weird at the hospital today I legit don't think I'm ever going back it's too scary. No one ever believes I get abused or harrassed or triggered or mistreated or anything, and I don't want this doctor to end up assaulting me :( I just want to heal...

[vero-niche]

when you tell your therapist something from your past and it leaves them speechless

[sparklejumpropequeen1949]

8 year old me is crying for a hug

[vi-138]

[catabasis]

We stare at that universe so far away, but you have owned it. You are such a prize. What are ya?

Doctor Who: Wild Blue Yonder (2023)

[teaboot]

Me, turning everything off and unplugging the lamps and sitting in the dark all day like a normal person: My house is always cold. I can turn on the heat, but that idea scares me.

Brain voice that I got in therapy: Why would that scare you?

Me: I think I'm worried about setting the apartment on fire, but that makes no sense. My usual problems have nothing to do with that

Brain voice: Did you forget that time when you were 8 years old and you walked to your grandparent's house alone to find it burning down with your grandma screaming in the front yard cause a heat lamp fell and caught the spare room on fire while she was out feeding the chickens and you had to run and find an adult to call 911

Me: Oh yeah lmaoooo

[cantorpike]

julian: when i was younger, i was terrified of doctors jadzia, laughing: really? julian: well they seemed to know everything. it was as if they held the power of life and death in their hands. i used to think that if i didn't behave, they'd make sure i got sick. then, as i got older, i decided that i wanted to know what they knew—be as smart as they were jadzia: and that's why you went to medical school julian: that's right

i'm fucking screaming and crying and sobbing this is literally even worse after finding out about all the medical trauma he went through as a kid. UGH