#dolly we bought a dream house

[calypsoff]

Sixty.

When Joyce was telling me how she has told Chris to go to church, I mean back home in Barbados, I would go to church, but it just came to me. We probably do need to go to church because all we get constantly is hate, especially Chris, I feel like bad vibes follow him a lot and it is because like she said, there is a lot of people that don’t like him. Imagine your own family wanting shit on you, those bad vibes can get you, so I decided to come to church, Chris was side eyeing me, he was like I am being dramatic, but I believe in it, I do think it’s right and with the baby coming, Chris going to court we need the luck because I do not want to lose Chris, I need god to help me through it. When I was with Rakim, I felt so lost and I turned to god, he blessed me with Chris. He bought the love of my life back and I feel like maybe we lost that by not going, by forgetting god “this is a cute church, so did you go here with your Sunday best yes?” Chris shrugged “I was forced to come here and I played up, my grandma would beat my ass and give me those looks to stop fucking around but it’s me so yeah, but I did come here until I went jail, after jail I didn’t go even though I could gone to the church in the jail, I just was hating everything, I was so angry at why, why me. Every nigga is dealing but why me, so I was hateful” I can imagine he was “well we going today so come” Rich and Frank got out of the car “mhmm, we will see if this blesses us” he is so negative, his ass “thank you” Frank opened the door for me, I slid out of the car with my ever so baggy clothing, I hate it but you never know, people do take sneaky pictures and I don’t like that so I rather be safe. Also with what I posted, people are guessing now, some believed that it happened. TJ’ son really made me excited, he was so adorable and kept patting my bump anyways.

Frank walked inside the church first, it is so eerily quiet, and I am glad it is, I hope nobody is here so we can get some peace. Walking inside and it’s silent, nobody is here. Frank just stood to the side, looking behind me. Chris is of course dragging his feet because he thinks he doesn’t need this, he does. Only thing you can hear is my heels hitting the floor “you’re very heavy footed” rolling my eyes, Chris is annoying “thanks” sitting down near the front but one back, shuffling along “church reminds me of Dolly so much, we had so many good memories with her” Chris sat next to me “do you not believe in god?” I had to question it because he is being negative “I do” he looked at me “then?” I asked confused with him “just you lose it when so much shit happens, is god playing with my life? Why is it I am always on edge, how is that possible. It just makes me think and lose that, I really do believe in it because he bought me you but now I am always thinking I will never get to see my kids grow, so that is it. God ain’t going to fix the fact I like your feet either” he is so annoying but I understand what he means “I am in no way preaching so let’s just sit here and think for a little, we both have things we need to think of” that is if Chris can keep quiet because he likes to play a lot.

I am proud of Chris, he remained quiet and had his head bowed down. He was thinking, the pastor finally came out. I fully expected him to be here earlier but no, he smiled at me “welcome” he spoke “thank you” Chris lifted his head up “not coming on Sunday?” he asked “I think we will be gone by then, this is Chris’ church more then mine” the guy smiled “I know him” he chuckled “Joyce’ boy” he made his way over to us “I am here if you need to speak, it’s nice to see you here today. Both of you, god is always with you” Chris sniggered “god is out here trying to kill me, like am I supposed to be here? Or is god teasing me with the good?” the pastor smiled and made his way closer to us “do you mind” he asked, I am going to keep quiet because this is Chris’ time not mine “no sit sir” he sat in front of us and turned to us “god will never give you something you can’t handle Chris, do you have good?” Chris nodded his head “yeah, I have the love of my life. My literal soul mate. I am sick and tired of feeling like I have to watch myself, like I want to live but I can’t” the pastor nodded his head understanding “son, it’s because you are losing faith. Once you start to lose faith, you start to feel scared. God can’t protect you, the fear you feel is the devil getting to you, the words you hear and fear you feel is what the devil wants you to feel. You’re letting the devil in more then god, bad times happens son. But you are reaping the bad with the good, stop thinking on the bad. Once you divert yourself away from the devil talk and listen to god, which is the good. You will see the difference. Tell me the good?” he asked Chris “married, going to be a father, moved out of VA, have my own business. I can get my parents their own home” the pastor smiled “and the bad?” he asked “losing my best friend out of this, being shot. Three times I kissed death, I been dead I know I was, then my family wishing death on me” he nodded his head understanding “the good outweighs son, if you lose people now then they aren’t meant for your new life and let them go. Let god in Chris” Joyce really knows her son, he needed this.

In the SUV going to see the house Chris chose, he got it because he likes it and didn’t even go to look at it. it’s out of the way from where he lives originally anyways “how you feel?” I asked Chris, he seems to be quiet “ok, he is right isn’t he. I let the devil speak to me, I think of that. I just need to think of the blessing I am getting, I can’t let the shit my family want to happen to me affect me. The best thing I can do for my parents, sister and nephew is move them from that place, the family that hate me can choke when they see this. Anyways I told them where to meet us, after the realtor is gone. This home is perfect. I just want to say thank you Robyn, like you been my rock. Even though we have disagreements, but you have my back, you’re supportive of me. Even though you know I am thinking of the bad, you’re there dragging me out of it. Also just allowing me to buy a home for my family, the fifteen million is both of ours and it was earnt mostly on your name” I cooed out, that is so sweet of him “Chris, what is money to me. I have what I want in my life. Your family treated me so well, Joyce treated me like her own. They were so good to me and I remember those things, you’re my husband. I want the best for you, I just don’t want your family to be harassed because it can happen, it did for mine in Barbados. Then you don’t have to worry” Chris smiled at me lightly.

Staring out of the window as we drove by homes, the area looks nice “are we here?” I asked, the car cut away and onto a drive “oh my god, is this the home, Chris this already looks amazing” the home is really big and remote “yeah, you like it. The only thing is that it is a five car garage space, and they have one but who cares” he shrugged but who cares, this looks so nice “I love it, it’s very VA. And the price tag on this is amazing, you know this would be millions?” I laughed, I laughed because it’s true because it’s six bedrooms too so that would be over a million” Chris really just bought it so he has to like it either way, Chris jumped out of the car, he didn’t even wait for the bodyguards to open the door, he is excited and I am excited for him. Rich opened the door for me as I got out, I am randomly feeling tired now “Mr Brown we have no had sale like this, where the person didn’t wan tot see it but you won’t find a single thing wrong with this home” walking over to Chris and the realtor “wow Rihanna” he didn’t even stop himself and said it “that is me” I laughed “nice to meet you” shaking his hand “oh yes, erm nice to meet you too” he is shook clearly.

I have looked through the whole home, this house is amazing. A dream home from when I was a child, I would be so jealous of people with nice homes. The home we had wasn’t bad but it’s tiny, it’s better then what Robyn came from but it’s just something I always wanted to do for them “here you are” pulling back the dining chair “I am tired, I don’t know why but what do you think? How is it? I really love it, see I can see us visiting here and staying here. I feel secure here too, it’s where I know if I don’t come with you that you will be safe here. I am so happy you have done this for them, even so if our baby comes here we can be happy about that. I don’t mind leaving it here for the grandparents to spend time with our baby, it needed to happen didn’t it?” my smile grew hearing Robyn say that “you would let our baby stay here?” I questioned, I had too “of course, I mean now they have moved to a much quieter and remote place. It will be safe for us to do so, it’s a shame they are here in VA but if we go on holiday we can” I like to know that Robyn would be happy to let our baby stay with my family “I think they are here Chris, excited” I clapped my hands “yes! I hid the champagne the realtor left us, I can’t wait” walking off to the door to meet my parents, they are going to think what the hell we doing.

Rubbing the top of my nephew’ head “you good big man? Come, come in” my mother is suspicious “there you are, I was about to say Christopher where is Robyn?” my mother cares for Robyn and that is it “so you renting this place now? It’s a little dead” my sister would point “yes well who cares, you should be blessed I even invited you to see the home Robyn and I are staying at” side eyeing my sister “boy shut up” she waved me off “oh my word, you look so well!” my sister yelped “wow, I wish I looked this perfect pregnant, I gained so much. I was a whale; my thighs were huge. You are glowing, oh my god” my sister complimented Robyn as they hugged “your sister is right, a little empty” my dad is noticing “so what, y’all always complaining. Look how nice the home is, let’s just think of that. Come” waving them over “calm down hyper aren’t you, you sister is talking to Robyn” oh boy here is Tootie taking up my time “it’s ok, Chris is excited. We can talk after” Robyn knows, I just want to say it to them “go on, what you want to show me” my mother gestured for me to walk ahead, I jumped walking ahead of them.

Walking to the back yard, seeing the pool and jacuzzi outside “look at this private land, and pool. What you think” turning to my family grinning “this is so cool, is you and auntie moving here?” Desean asked “auntie? Who that?” I asked all confused “Rihanna uncle” letting out an oh “yeah, no we not just you know seeing but what you think? It’s got six bedrooms and it’s private” Robyn slowly made her way over to me “it’s lovely son, I mean of course you both going to get the best home and we love it. Are you both going to tell us you moving here now?” my dad said with the biggest smile thinking I am going to say it “well I can tell you one thing we won’t be moving here but erm, this home. It’s yours, this home is for you mom and dad. I couldn’t be living the way I do and not have my family living good too” my dad’ face softened “what?” he said in disbelief “the home, everything. It’s paid for it’s yours” my mother looked around in shock “no way Chris, serious. This home!?” Tootie spat “oh my god” my mother of course cried “son, really?” nodding my head smiling “it’s yours, this is yours” my mother rushed over to me in tears “it’s yours, honest mom” hugging my mother close.

It’s crazy seeing my dad crying “I don’t cry, I don’t but this” my dad paused looking ahead “just” he put his head down “I always wanted the best for you kids, I am sorry if you felt I didn’t” shaking my head “no dad, you did a great job but it’s time you both just relax now dad. You are the best parents and I wanted to repay you both with this home” my dad smiled at me “we thank you son, we do. I get to be away with the negativity and just see peace, thank you. Thank you Robyn, I couldn’t have asked for a better daughter in law, you have healed my son and loved him when he needed the most. You blessed us, you have” my dad is emotional “wow, this is really our home now, so I get to have my own room when you come” I chuckled “yes, and then we can also stay over. Mom, I told you I would have you living good, I want to be here for you all” my dad placed his arm around me “thank you god, thank you son” he pressed a kiss to the top of my head “now I am going to need to buy you four more cars huh” my dad chuckled “mom please stop crying, it’s ok. And if you need anything at all, I am here. Robyn is right, this makes you all safe too and we can come here without issues, we want to stay with the family” my dad pulled me along as he made his way to Robyn “and I would like you both to stay with us” he also placed his arm around Robyn “I love you both so much, thank you to the both of you” Robyn cooed out “stop it Clinton” she said, my dad is so thankful but he really doesn’t need to be “Chris said it, he said he wanted to make his money and buy his family a new home, and he did it. I am so proud of him” putting my head down smiling.

[theiconicscott]

Whumptober Day 4

Prompts: taken hostage, "Do you trust me?"

Relationships (Fandom): Buck & Chris, Buck/Eddie (911)

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The queue for the checkouts goes half way back the store, dozens of young people and their parents lined up to get the latest Carmen King novel, but Buck smiles at Chris as they join the end of it. When he and Eddie got together Chris was struggling with his reading, and didn't want to work on it because it wasn't cool. Luckily Buck had changed his mind, by introducing Chris to some of his favourite books as a teenager, and since then Chris had made huge progress. Now they read together, almost every time Buck hangs out at the Diaz's house, and spend hours talking about their favourite characters and the best bits of the stories.

Sometimes Eddie watches them, smiling softly, and Buck apologised the first time, worried Eddie may be annoyed at the amount of time they spent together, sharing their love of books.

"Hey, I'm just glad he's happy," Eddie had said, and Buck grinned, delighted by the idea of making Chris happy. "Also, all of his grades have improved, so this can only be a good thing."

So today they're getting the latest book in the Slow Dreams series - two copies, so they can read it at the same time - and Buck doesn't even mind the wait, because they're both so excited, still talking about how the last one ended.

While Chris reminds him about Esmena, a character who was introduced in the penultimate chapter and only got two lines of dialogue in the book, Buck searches for his wallet. They've been in and out of a few stores today, to get Eddie new jeans and a birthday present for Chris' friend Devon and to look at TVs, since Eddie's is struggling to change channels now, and Buck knows his wallet is around somewhere, but he wants it ready in his hand when they get to the front.

Except it's not in his jeans, or his jacket, or the backpack Buck's carrying, which he packed full of snacks and drinks so they wouldn't have to buy extra in the mall.

The only other place Buck's wallet could be is in their shopping bags - the ones Eddie's holding, outside the bookstore - and Buck groans.

"You okay, Buck?"

Buck looks down at Chris and drags his frustrated expression into a weak smile. "Yeah, I'm okay. But I gotta go and find your dad quickly. I left my wallet with him, and now I don't have the money for the books."

"Oh. Do I have to go too?" Chris looks behind them, at the ten or so other people who have joined the queue. "Or should I stay here, to save our place?"

Chris is 12 now, and Buck would be happy to leave him for the five minutes it should take to get his wallet from Eddie. But Eddie still worries about Chris being on his own, especially in public, and Buck doesn't want an argument about Chris' safety after such a good day out together. "I, I don't-"

"Excuse me?"

The lady behind them is smiling, her wrinkled face and neat curls and handmade cardigan the epitome of a doting grandmother. "Sorry, I heard you talking, and I wondered if you wanted me to watch your son while you get your wallet?"

Buck looks at the woman, and the two girls with her, and breaks out into a relieved grin. "That would be amazing, thank you," He says, and pats Chris on the shoulder. "This is Chris, and I'm Buck."

"Well I'm Dolly, and this is Lauren and Meggie, my granddaughters." Dolly shakes Buck's hand, then shoos him away. "And you'd better go, Buck. The queue's starting to move faster now."

The queue is indeed moving quicker, thanks to two extra attendants at the checkouts, so Buck rushes out of the store and quickly finds Eddie, sat on a bench with his phone out. "Hey, just getting my wallet," He says, grabbing the first bag from the floor as Eddie looks up. "Which one has the clothes in? I think it's with the shirt I bought, for Maddie's birth-"

Four gunshots ring out, coming from the bookstore, and Buck whips his head around to see what's going on. People have started running in every direction, screaming and jostling each other as they try to get out of the mall, and when they finally disperse Buck gets a clear view of the door.

Two men are stood at the door, pointing machine guns out at anyone who passes, and three men have gone inside, also armed and yelling at the customers to move to the back of the store.

When Buck turns back to Eddie he's frozen in place, staring vacantly at the store where his son is, trapped on the other side of five men with guns.

"Do you trust me?"

Eddie blinks twice, then frowns at Buck. "What?" He says, his tone lacking any emotion.

"Eddie, do you trust me?" Buck says again, still quiet as he looks around, checking the few other people watching the scene unfold.

"Yes?"

"Good."

Buck stands up and walks towards the bookstore, his empty hands up in front of him.

"Hey, get outta here!" One of the guys on the door says, as the two of them both point their weapons at Buck. "We will shoot you."

"I know that, and I'm not asking you to stand down, or let anyone go."

They both give Buck a once over, then the first guy calls to someone inside.

Another man comes over, and presses the tip of his pistol against the centre of Buck's forehead. "Give me one good reason not to pull the trigger, pretty boy."

"My son - my 12 year old son - is in the store." Buck's proud of the way he maintains eye contact with the guy, but not feeling so good about the way his voice wavers as he speaks. "He's on his own - I only left for a few minutes, and I should have been in there when you arrived. I'm not asking you to release him, but at least let me come in and be with him, so he's not on his own."

There's an awful moment where the men talk about it, in hushed voices Buck can barely make out, and he screws his eyes shut. Hopefully Dolly is still with Chris, and covering his face in case this goes sideways. Or someone else is looking after him, if Dolly's with her grandkids. Because Buck doesn't know what will happen next, but he does know he would never forgive himself if Chris had to see this asshole shoot him in the head, just for loving Chris and wanting to look after him.

Eventually the pistol is removed, and the guy drags Buck into the store. "Okay, dumbass. Go join the others at the back."

Buck staggers through the store, breathing heavily at the adrenaline rushing through his veins, and just hopes he lives to regret this.

[kookscrescent]

BTS Reaction │ Your child finds your condoms

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➤ pairing│bts x female reader ➤ rating│R ➤ genre│reaction, dirty minded, humor ➤ warnings│talks of condoms, established relationship, some dirty humor ➤ release date│January 30th 2020 ➤ disclaimer│This is all fiction! Nothing mentioned/written are facts and/or real! So please just keep that in mind when reading and enjoy! Thank you ♡

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JUNGKOOK 

It’s Saturday, your day off from work, but it’s cleaning day at the house. With Izza running around the house, spreading her toys in every single room and the various of crumbs she leaves behind her like a little trail, it’s over due. 

Luckily, Jungkook is home to help you. “Baby, can you take this box into Izza’s room?” you ask him, holding out a box of her toys. 

“Of course,” he replies instantly, taking the box. He kisses our cheek before disappearing down the hall. 

You sigh. That’s the living room. Now you only need to finish the rest of the house... 

You follow Jungkook's path down the hall, past Izza’s room where you see him bend down and putting away her toys. Your heart swells at the sight. He’s such a good father and husband, and even though he works himself endlessly hard all the time, he still comes home with the biggest smile, ready to be Izza’s father. 

Commotion coming from behind your bedroom door catches your attention. Cracking it open, it reveals your daughter with both hands and most of her small head down in the draw of Jungkook’s bedside table. On the floor next to her is most of the content from said draw. 

“Isabella!” you scold catching her attention, “what do you think you are doing, young lady?” 

She jumps slightly not having heard you coming in, and turns around with big eyes. In one hand she holds the charger to Jungkook’s phone and in the other she holds a pack of condoms. 

Wait what?! 

“Oh my god!” you shriek, “Izza drop that right now!” you scurry towards her and she drops both things on the floor. 

You can see the tears welling up in her eyes and as you reach the mess on the floor, Jungkook makes his appearance.

“What’s going on?” He asks, stepping into the room. He eyes his daughter and the mess in front of her. His eyes go wide. He’s clearly spotted the condoms. “Oh!” 

Picking up Isabella, you hand her one to Jungkook. “I’m sorry,” she tells you, her lower lip wobbling. 

Jungkook pulls her closer and kisses the top of her head, “Do you remember what we have talked about?” he asks her and she shakes her head, “you can’t go into mommy and daddy’s room without permission, remember?” she nods. 

“What do you say to mommy then?” 

“I’m sowry.” 

“It’s okay darling, but no more okay.” She nods and Jungkook puts her down, telling her to go put away her toys in her room. 

“Why do you even have these?” you waft the condoms in the space between you, “we don’t even use condoms.” 

TAEHYUNG

“Mommy can i play on your phone?” Jayden asks you, his small figure appearing at your side. 

“Of course sweetheart. It’s in my purse over there,” you tell him and he scurries towards it with a spring in his step. 

You return to the conversation at the table. You have come to Jimin’s house for lunch and you’ve just about finished. 

“Thank you for the lovely lunch, Jimin,” you thank him. 

“You’re welcome,” he replies, setting down his utensils, “it was about time. It’s always you and Tae treating the rest of us.” 

“It’s our pleasure,” Taehyung replies taking the words right out of your mouth. 

Behind you, you can hear Jayden groaning and sighing in frustration before he calls your name, “Mommy i can’t find it,” he whines. 

Turning in your seat you face him, “It’s in that little pocket there,” you point and he instantly unzips the pocket. 

You face the table again. “When do you go back to rehearsals?” you ask. 

“Monday,” Taehyung replies. 

“We have to go through the choreography a few mo-” 

Jimin is interrupted by Jayden, who once again appears next to you with something in his hand that is not your phone. “Mommy, what’s this?” 

Your eyes nearly bulge out of your head when you realize he’s got a condom in his hands. Quickly you take it from him. 

“It’s a ballon!” you lie, while Jimin and Taehyung almost die trying to keep in their laughter.

Jaydens eyes light up, “A balloon!” he yells excited, “can we blow it up?” 

Taehyung fails to not laugh and bursts out, Jimin following right behind him. “No Jayden, we can’t!” 

“Why not?” 

You look to Taehyung for help, your eyes pleading and sharp. He clears his throat, “Because Jimin doesn't like balloons,” he tells him, obviously lying, “so we can’t blow it up.”

“Oh,” he pouts and walks away disappointed. 

You sink into the chair, and close your eyes. 

“You’re right Tae,” Jimin says making you open your eyes again to look at him, “I really don’t like those type of balloons.” 

JIMIN 

“I’m home!” you call though the house, getting no answer. 

You frown. You know for a fact that Jimin is home because he’s been looking after your daughter all day. Kicking off your shoes, you walk to the kitchen to find Jimin with his mouth full of food and no child in sight. 

“Hey,” you greet him, kissing his cheek, “where’s Esther?” 

“In her room, playing,” he mumbles with his mouth full. 

You crunch your nose in disgust, “Don’t talk with your mouth full Jimin.” 

“Sorry,” he laughs, “Good day at work?”

“Yeah, a little busy, but good,” you reply around a yawn. “I’m gonna go change,” you tell him already halfway out of the kitchen, “did Esther have lunch yet?” you call out to him. 

“Yup!” he yells back and you don't bother answering him. 

Entering your bedroom, you throw your bag and jacket on the bed and head for the bathroom. You debate whether to take a shower now or wait till later after dinner, and in the end your laziness wins and after dinner it is. 

You still decide to quickly wash your face though. It’s been a long night shift at work and scrubbing all the dirt off your face is much needed. Especially with a three year old running around the house. 

Splashing some water on your face, you give it a good scrub and pat your face dry after. You head commotion coming from the bedroom and thinking it’s Jimin, you call his name, “Jimin?” 

No answer comes but the commotion continues. You try again, “Jimin is that you?” No answer. That weird, you think. 

Leaving the towel on the counter, you head back into the bedroom. Jimin isn't there but the noises still continue. It’s coming from the other side of the bed. Hesitantly you walk closer, cautious that an animal may have gotten in through one of the windows. 

Rounding the corner, you peak around the bed only to see Esther playing with two of her doll on the floor. You sigh in relief. 

“Esther, baby, you scared mommy,” you say as you crouch down next to her. 

“Look mommy,” she cutely shouts, “dolly’s gotten a new purse,” she shows you a small golden square and your brows knit together. Did Jimin buy her a new toy? You haven't bought her anything. 

“Can mommy see that?” you ask her and hold out your hand. She places the golden square in the palm of your hand and instantly you freeze and ball up your hand, hiding the square that is an empty condom wrapper. 

“Mommy purse ruined,” she cries, her hands reaching for it. 

Pulling away your hand, you try to comfort her, “I’m sorry honey, daddy will get you a new one okay? An even better one.” you promise her, all the while you are killing Jimin in your head for not remembering to throw away the wrapper. 

NAMJOON

For once you’ve left Namjoon home alone with your five year old son Jamie. 

Namjoon is often away for work, and whenever he’s at home you like to give the two of them some father and son time together. So you’ve taken the day off and gone to the spa with some of your girlfriends and left him to the parenting duties. 

He was excited from the moment he woke up that morning. Having already planned out their day and what they were going to do. 

They’ve returned from their walk along the Han River and are now having lunch in the living room by the television. 

“Don’t tell your mom that I let you eat in the living room okay?”

“Why not?” he asks curiously. 

“Because mommy doesn't like crumbs. So it’ll just be our little secret, okay buddy?”

He nods, “Okay daddy.”

After a while, they both clear their plates and Jamie is in no mood to sit down a be quiet. He is ready to run around and play with his dad. Namjoon on the other hand is about ready to fall asleep. 

“Why don’t you go get some of your toys from your room. We can play in here,” Namjoon tells him as he lies down on the couch. 

Jamie doesn't need to be told twice. He run to his room and returns seconds after with his arms filled with toys that he dumps in front of the couch. “Here daddy, you play with this one,” he hands Namjoon a small figurine, while he bounces a firetruck along the wooden floors making loud car noises. 

That’s gonna leave scratches in the wood... 

Busying himself with playing, Namjoon takes the opportunity to close his eyes for just a few seconds. But just as he’s about to drift into dream land, Jamie wakes him, “What’s this?” 

“What’s what?”

“This,” Namjoon squints his eyes open to see a blurry square in Jamies hands, but he cant see it properly. 

He turns, fully facing him and a string of curse words almost leaves his lips, “That’s, that’s... for gum!” he lies eyeing the unopened condom square in his sons hand, “I’ll throw that away!” 

Springing from the couch, Namjoon grabs the condom faster than Jamie can blink and sprints to the kitchen to throw it away. 

That was close! Nervously her retinues to the living room and crouch down next to Jamie who doesn't even seem phased - he’s just playing with the firetruck like nothing happened. 

“Listen... this is another thing we don’t tell mommy about okay.”

“The gum?” Jamie quirks. 

“Yes the gum. We don’t tell mommy about that because daddy is going to be in a lot of trouble if we do.” 

“Okay daddy, I won’t tell her. It’s secret,” he cheekily smiles at Namjoon. 

“Yes, it’s secret,” he breaths relieved. 

HOSEOK 

“What in the world?” you mumble confused when you enter the bathroom. 

An almost empty box of condoms is lying on the floor with opened wrappers all around it and a few unused condoms sticking to the tiled floor. 

“What?!” you’re confused. You know for a fact that Hoseok hasn't been unfaithful to you, because he has been with you all day long, in fact this bathroom break is the only time you’ve really separated today, because you’ve spent most of the day cooped up on the couch watching movies while Josephine has been playing in either her room or has watched the movie with you. 

Bending down, you notice that there is also water all over the floor, running all the way towards the bathtub and the toilet. And one of the condoms are half filled with water. 

“Oh god,” you groan already knowing what has happened, “Hoseok!” you yell out. 

“Yeah?” he yells back. 

“Can you come here for a second please!” 

It takes him only seconds to reach the bathroom, and he halts with his brows raised in question upon seeing you crouched on the floor and the mess before you. “What happened in here?” he asks, “Are those condoms?!” 

“They are,” you sigh getting up, “and Jo happened in here.” 

“Jo?” he almost chokes. 

“I think she got in the cupboard and thought it was water balloons,” you rub your face with your hands, “where is she?” you ask him. 

“In her room i think,” he gestures with his thumb towards the door, “I’ll clean up in here, you go check that she hasn’t also made a mess of her bedroom.” 

He pecks your cheek before you part ways, and when you reach Jo’s bedroom you find her sitting on her bed with one of her books. 

“Jo did you make a mess in the bathroom?” you ask her already knowing the answer. 

“No...” she lies timidly. 

“Jo,” you say a little more stern, “lying is bad. Did you make a mess in the bathroom?” 

“Yes...” 

“Why did you make a mess in the bathroom?” 

She doesn't look you in the eyes as she talks, “I wanted water balloons,” she tells you and you can see her lower lip starting to tremble. 

“And they didn't work?” she shakes her head still not looking at you, “those aren't water balloons honey. Those are... those are not water balloons,” you’ve never been good at lying. 

“Then what are they?” she asks, this time looking at you. 

“That’s not important,” you brush off the question, “what’s important is that you made a mess and didn't clean up after yourself or asked one of us for help, and that you didn't ask permission first.” 

Hoseok appears in the doorway and Jo looks at him with sad eyes. She’s always been a daddy’s girl. “I’ve gotten rid of the con- uh the balloon things,” he tells you. 

“Is there still water on the floor?” he nods and you turn to Josephine, “you’re going to go help daddy clean up all the water, okay.” 

“Okay...” she pouts hoping off the bed and walks to her dad. He takes her small hand in his and leads her to the bathroom. 

You sigh. Well that could have been a lot worse, you think. 

YOONGI

It’s always hectic being backstage at a bts concert. People are always running around like headless chickens, trying to get everything ready for show start. 

The boys have just finished their last song for the night and have said goodbye to the crowd. They are loud and rowdy in the dressing room, and yours and Yoongi's son, Daniel, whom was calm and asleep just seconds ago, is now just as loud and rowdy as his dad. 

Wide eyed you watch as he runs around after his uncles and a hope that he will tire himself before you head home is coming to life. 

Daniel runs towards you, “Mommy, mommy, mommy!” he yells excited. 

“Yes buddy?”

“Can I have this gum? Please, please, please!” he begs and you don’t pay much attention to it and tells him he can. 

He runs away again with the gum in hand to show his uncles. You sink further back into the couch and close your eyes. You aren't really tired but you could sleep if you were given the chance to. 

“Hey there little man,” you recognize Yoongi's voice even with your eyes closed, “what’ve you got there?” you hear him ask. 

“Gum,” Daniel tells him proudly and you hear Yoongi pick him up. 

“Gum huh?” he sounds uncertain, “who gave you this gum?”

Daniel points to you in the couch, “Mommy said i could have it.”

“Mommy said you could have it huh,” Yoongi puts him down again, “can daddy see it for just a minute buddy?” when Daniel hesitates, wanting the gum to himself, Yoongi promises to bring him back to packs of gum instead and he hands it over. 

“Thank you,” you hear Yoongi say before his footsteps heads towards you. 

Your startled when he something light is thrown in your lap. You open your eyes to see an unopened condom in your lap. You frown at Yoongi, “Why are you throwing a condom at me?”

“That’s the gum you said Daniel could have.” 

“What?” you shriek, “I didn't say he could...” remembering you didn't pay much attention to what he was holding, you shut up, “shit...” you groan. 

“Don’t worry,” Yoongi reassures you, “he doesn't know what it is and he luckily didn’t open it. But now we owe him two packs of gum,” he tells you with a crocked smile. 

SEOKJIN

Another day of practicing has gone by for the boys and another day has come for you and Hailey to pick him up from there. Or at least that’s what Hailey says - that you’re going to pick up daddy. 

She always gets excited to go pick him up from there. Not only does she get to see her dad after a long day, she also gets to see her six uncles who spoils her rotten at times. 

She immediately lets go of your hand as soon as the door to the practice room comes into her view. Sprinting towards it, she opens it and instantly yells out for her dad. 

Seokjin whirls around, a light layer of sweat covering his skin. He looks exhausted but still he yells out for Hailey with just as much enthusiasm, “Hailey, my princess!” 

Gathering her in his arms, he swings her around while hugging her close to him and kissing her cheeks.

“I missed you daddy!” she laughs and tries to swat him away when he keeps kissing her. 

“I missed you too,” he tells her and plants another kiss to her rosy cheeks, “where’s mommy?” 

She points to you by the door and he sets her down on the floor, and before he can tell her anything further, she runs in the direction on Taehyung and Hoseok loudly laughing. 

“Hey baby,” Seokjin greets you with a kiss on the lips, “I missed you too,” he tells you. 

“Missed you. Good practice?” you ask, hugging yourself closer to him. You don’t care that he’s sweating. You missed him and want to be near him. 

“Yeah, we got the final moves strung together, so i’d say it was a success, but if you ask Hobi he might say otherwise,” he laughs and you both watch as Hailey abandons Taehyung and Hoseok to explore the room.

“I’m sure it was a success,” you assure him. 

“Daddy, mommy,” Hailey sings wanting your attention, “look what i found.” She holds up a string of golden condom wrappers - unopened and you nearly choke on air. 

“I found Christmas decorations!” She happily declares for the whole room to hear. 

You nudge Jin in the side with your elbow and he rushes towards her while the rest of the room is in fits of laughter. 

“What are those... uh Christmas decorations doing here?” he nervously asks taking them from her. 

He bundles them up and throw them to Jimin across from him, “It’s not even Christmas.”

Hailey is clueless and just laughs at her dads silly expressions, while you on the other hand is trying to calm your rapidly beating heart. 

“Why do you even have... Christmas decorations in the practice studio?!” you hiss at them. 

They all look to Jimin who stands there and shrugs his shoulders a cheeky smile on his lips, “What? You gotta be prepared in all situations.” 

All Rights Reserved © 2020 Kookscrescent

[oh-theres-a-woman]

Blood Doilies; Part Three

A/N: Warnings for mentions of abuse and abusive relationships. Please read at your own discretion. The next chapter will also have the same warning. I understand that such topics can be triggering to some people, this is pure to show what the Female Reader has experienced in married life and her breaking away from that with the aid of the Blinders. Once more thank you for taking the time to read this story, feel free to reblog or comment if you’re enjoying this. 

Taglist: @zodiyack , @itsfrancisneptun , @shelbys-we-get-the-job-done, @amy-booxx​ & @fandom-fucking-shit​

Parts: [ 1 ] , [ 2 ], [ 4 ], [ 5 ], [ 6 ], [ 7 ], [ 8 ], [ 9 ]

Pairing: Thomas Shelby X Female Reader

Word Count: 1923

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You set the tea down on the coffee table noticing the children had both fallen asleep on Mister Shelby’s knee. Offering a smile at the sleeping children. Whispering softly that you could take the children to bed, Thomas simply rose to his footing. Carrying both the children upstairs, calmly following him. Showing the beds for each child. Annabeth curled up into a ball with her little dolly looking absolutely smitten and at peace. Leaning down you kissed the little girl’s head, smoothing the messy mop of hair away from her face. Pulling the blankets up to her shoulders, brushing the back of your knuckle lovingly over her cheek.

Repeating the same action for Marcus, knowing that he’d need another feeding in a few hours time. “You’re a good mother, you do so much for your children,” Thomas said observantly from the door watching on with silent awe. Aunt Pol had always warmed someplace in his heart at her mothering but it had been a time since all the Shebly children had ground. Now the mothering seemed like a nagging.

Maybe it was the war that changed him but watching you at that moment. He didn’t see the harshness of his own upbringing. But the solid foundations of nurturing and admiration. Tommy didn’t quite remember the loving gaze of his mother, only her death. It had been the first of many lives that were lost. Charlie Strong had been the replacement when his father walked out of them and Pol took the helm of mothering. Swift in her workings and proved very stern for the young Sheblys’ that were left like orphans before she swooped in.

However, you were a different case. There was something about your maternal instincts that caused Thomas to stop a moment. Admire the qualities of a woman. The way in your wounds and bruises from an abusive husband, no matter the pain. You carried on your task of being a mother never let anything go to chance or mess with you. Easily smoothing a hand over baby Marcus’s locks whose were just like your own. Beautifully soft with a slight wave in the front. Tucking your son in, you watched him for a moment listening to his breathing, the little snores that left his buzzing button nose.

Thomas and yourself wandered back downstairs to the tea. Looking at each other for a moment. The narrow stairs led to you brushing hands in the walk. Causing you steps to falter for one moment. However, the Blinder once more found his seat again. Marking the page he had been reading to the children as if he’d continue that story for them another time. Picking up his teacup, he added some cream and one sugar. Stirring with the provided teaspoon then offering the spoon to you. Carefully, you poured the creamer not adding any sugar. Enjoying the strength of the tea. Lips slightly pursed together, glancing back to Thomas Shelby again. “Thank you for offering my family this safe house for the time until we get our lives back on track,” you said with a warm blush on your cheeks.

“It is alright, Mrs [Y/N],” Thomas said in a swift and noble tone of voice. Leaning back into his chair observing you. “The Peaky Blinders don’t take kindly to men who bash into their women and children.” Thomas’s words sparked a cool murderous rage in him. His eyes were like a cool fire, burning hotter than any red flame you’d seen in your lifetime. Glancing down at the marks that riddled your body and all that was hidden under your clothes. You hadn’t remembered a day where things weren’t thrown or fists were flying. Once upon a time, it was a social norm for a husband to beat his wife.

“I’ve had it happen all my life, my father was a drunk and my mother a prostitute. I don’t really know any better…” You admitted in a defeated manner. Clenching your fists on your legs thinking about the life you led. “But, I want this cycle to end. Because if I let this keep happening, it’ll only happen to my children and they won’t know how to respect each other or their future loved ones.”  Deep down you knew this was the right thing, the sudden separation to make sure no more harm would come to yourself or the children if your husband overstepped his normal range of violence.

“Do you need my help in any way of separating from the man, because once you're divorced of him that debt owed is only on him. I don’t believe in wives cleaning up their husband’s debts when they have a family to protect. By those marks too, I’d believe you’ve been looking over them for some time too.” Mister Shelby said, reaching into his coat pocket, procuring a silver cigarette case. Opening it and offering you one with a slight incline of his arm. Reaching out you picked up one of the expensive tailor-made, always used to the harsh rolling without a filter.

Placing the stick of nicotine in between your lips, that were chapped and broken from a hit. Picking up a matchbook from the table lighting up your cigarette, then leaning out to light Thomas’s. He leant into the flame. The small light of the match burning embers of life at the end of the neatly rolled tobacco. Watching the embers eat at the paper when Tommy puffed. The flame licking at your fingertips were lighting the sharper features of the Shelby before you, causing a feeling of enchantment to pull over you.

Tingling burns at your fingertips, causing you to finally shake the match and drop it into the ashtray. Settling back into your seat letting out a calm inhale and sighing softly. The sitting room clouded with an illusion-like smoke cloud. Giving a new atmosphere to the room. Like it wasn’t heavy in the topics of conversation. The stress had been disbursed in to the air, exhaled with the carbon-dioxide and smoke through lips and nostrils.

“I need to find a way to get divorced from him, I know it’d help my case that we’re living separately from one another. It would be a year’s process at the longest, I’d need to find a way to keep the tea house. My own business… I don’t want to lose it to him. Need some form of income to keep a roof over the wee ones’ heads.” You muttered, flicking the ash into the crystal tray on the table. Wondering in all seriousness how much it cost to buy because it was impeccable. Everything in the Watery Lane home was beautifully charming and way out of your price range.

“I’m hoping to get settled then go back to work, have a friend lookout for the kids.” You said to the man, who seemed to offer a small nod. Knowing the modest little establishment in your ownership. By far considered the loveliest tea shop in Small Heath, it had charm and class to the small little shop. He’d remembered Ada gushing over it opening some years ago, by a beautiful young woman that had the dream to do so. Through the proper means, she opened the shop by herself. Even without her husband’s help. This seemed like an even biggest motivator for Tommy’s little sister feminist ideals.

“Given your current condition, I’d recommend your healing before heading back to work. Keeping a low-profile due to your husband’s likely retaliation to your left with the children. For your safety, I’d advise you take a week at the least, then return to work. I or one of the Blinders will be there to escort you home after.” Thomas took a swift to inhale of his cigarette. He didn’t know why he was so adamant to protect you. Normally the Blinders would help get rid of the trouble and then recoil. Yet, deep down he knew it's because he’d seen what the government and church would do if they caught wind of things happening.

You’d lose your children. Thomas didn’t want to see that happen, because you’d taken responsibility for your husband’s debt and tried to clear it up. Even in such a state that you were in. Trying to protect the little family you’d been in. Keeping those well-behaved children in line, working the long hours that he found out on an investigation prior. Where your morning shift could start as early as four-five o’clock in the morning for the baked goods. Then until closing hours in the evening. A short break in between to take your children home, giving the neighbour a break.

Only to have most of the money earnt wasted on your husband’s addictions and there were plenty of them. Never in a million years did he even expect anyone at that meeting today. But, there you were to shock him. Taking time out of your day, to see him and try to make things right. Surprisingly, it gave Tommy a little bit of hope for some of the women in this day and age. So, the patriarch of the Shelby family sat there and discussed with you into the long hours of the night. Things were arranged for your meeting with a solicitor under the guidance of Polly Gray. Moral support. Plus, everyone seemed to be as scared of her as they were with Tommy. Bonus.

*********** 

The following days passed quickly with everything being prepared. Marks began to fade on your skin and it restored some of your lacking confidence. You felt happier in the safe house. Not because of the fancy layout because your children were happy, they were settling in nicely. The Shelbys’ came to visit enough. John Shelby bought over his children someday and they all played while business and things were attended to. More often than not it meant walking in on the children all snuggled up on each other and napping; after having an argument or fight. Everything was sorted with a simple nap together, then they were as good as rain. It made you often wish that adults were as simple as children.

By the following Monday, you were returning to work. Your workers had been running the ship well and left things in perfect condition. It was nice to see the faces of the customers again. Hours were long like normal, but that’s how you enjoyed working. Things were peaceful and you didn’t feel an ounce of stress because Thomas had promised to come to pick you up after work and walk you home. It was safe… Well, that’s what you thought.

Hours passed by swiftly and you finished the till counting after hours in the office. The last thing was to do the bins. When you were collecting the bins. Wandering in the dark alley, tossing things into the larger bins outside for landfill. You were so focused on your task that the sound of someone sneaking up on you escaped your knowledge. A rough hand, the smell of hard liquor and cigars filled your nostrils. You knew that scent from anywhere. Your husband. 

He holds a hold on you, smothering your screams of utter terror and pinning your body against the firmness of his body. “It’s not nice to say goodbye in a letter,” he whispered in your ear with vile intent. Holding out in front of you, the wedding band you letter on the letter. Forcefully sliding it back onto your finger as tears fell. 

[tabloidtoc]

National Examiner, January 25

Cover: Secret Dawn Wells took to the grave: her affair with Bob Denver of Gilligan’s Island 

Page 2: Best and Worst Celeb Tippers -- Katherine Heigl, Amy Schumer, Drew Barrymore, Jessica Simpson, Britney Spears, Madonna, Johnny Depp, Jay-Z 

Page 3: Charlie Sheen, Ben Affleck, Sean Penn, Sharon Stone, Naomi Campbell, Mark Zuckerberg, Tom Selleck and Donnie Wahlberg took the 2020 Tip Challenge 

Page 4: Goldie Hawn’s movie roles 

Page 6: Melissa Gilbert who played Laura Ingalls on Little House on the Prairie says if there’s one piece of unfinished business that emerged from the show it’s that she’d like to punch former co-star Shannen Doherty -- Shannen was only 12 when she joined the Little House cast for the show’s ninth and final season playing Jenny Wilder but in a couples therapy session with her first husband Bo Brinkman it came out that Shannen at 22 had bagged Bo in bed 

Page 7: Country star Dolly Parton may be 75 year old but that doesn’t stop her from leaping out of bed at 3 a.m. every morning -- she’s a very very very early riser and she goes to bed pretty early but she’s up and down

* Tom Hanks has been in countless movies and TV shows but his most important role in life has been as a father of four and he has tips for how to do it right 

Page 8: If you’ve soured on feeding canned dog food to your precious pooch you’re not alone -- plenty of owners are switching over to healthy people-food diets for their pets but it’s essential to get guidance from your veterinarian 

Page 9: Most of your kitty’s diet should be a nutritionally complete cat food but you can give them a treat from your plate every once in a while -- you just need to know how to choose feline-friendly snacks with nutrients they need and which they should NEVER eat -- check with your veterinarian 

* Why animals creep into our dreams -- we all dream about animals from time to time and here are some of the most common creatures of our nights and what they could be trying to tell us 

Page 10: On his 21st birthday Matt Goodman raised a glass to his late father who had left behind the money to buy his son’s first beer 

Page 11: Your Health -- the stark truth is that sleeping naked is good for you 

Page 12: Top Guns -- these Hollywood stars were fastest on the draw -- James Garner, Henry Fonda, Eli Wallach, Burt Lancaster, Roy Rogers 

Page 13: Kevin Costner, Yul Brynner, Gary Cooper, Clint Eastwood, John Wayne 

Page 14: Dear Tony, America’s Top Psychic Healer -- a lesson from COVID-19 which is work on mentally healing ourselves, Tony predicts Miley Cyrus will struggle to overcome many of her self-destructive habits, finding strength through religion and she will be back on the hit parade come summer 

Page 15: If you and your partner fight a lot here’s a great idea to grasp: holding each other’s hand is the key to better conflict resolution 

Page 16: Prince William and Duchess Kate Middleton might be royals but they’re raising their children just like any other parents and family is their first priority and Will and Kate are rarely apart from their three kids Prince George and Prince Charlotte and Prince Louis 

Page 18: Maggie the shelter stray was twice unlucky when two potential forever homes kicked her to the curb but now she’s found her true calling as a beloved K-9 officer 

Page 19: A homeless man in Atlanta put his life on the line to rescue every single cat and dog from a blazing inferno at an animal shelter 

Page 20: Cover Story -- a three-hour tour that turned into a three-season laugh-fest on Gilligan’s Island made Dawn Wells a star and she took the show’s juiciest secrets to her grave including a red-hot affair with co-star Bob Denver -- Dawn who died of complications related to COVID-19 at age 82 hid a crazy sexy side which she kept under wraps because it was the exact opposite of the squeaky-clean image se presented to the world as farm girl Mary Ann on Gilligan’s Island 

Page 22: This Michigan teen is a top Elvis Presley impersonator even performing in Las Vegas and the only one with Down syndrome 

Page 24: Texas firefighters were hailed as heroes after they rescued a four-year-old boy who had fallen down a well 

Page 25: Here’s the dirt on soil-free gardening 

Page 26: Nice Work If You Can Get It -- celebs shell out stupid money for stupid jobs -- Rod Stewart travels with a room-darkening team, Lady Gaga hates to sleep alone and her personal assistant had to get in bed with her on nights when Gaga was solo, Larry Ellison likes to play basketball on his yacht and employs a person who job it is to circle it in a boat and retrieve stray balls from the ocean, Mariah Carey has a woman who stands beside her at all times holding a drink, Snoop Dogg pays a professional blunts roller, Prince Charles has a personal dresser, Justin Bieber’s entourage includes someone to hold his drink and another to hold his slice of pizza, Sean Combs has an assistant whose only job is to carry around an umbrella for him 

Page 28: Burt Lancaster was one of Hollywood’s biggest stars acting in more than 70 movies during a four-decade-long career but he was also a silly practical joker says his daughter Joanna Lancaster one of the actor’s five children 

Page 30: Legendary actress and dancer Ann-Marget will be 80 years old in April but she’s still stepping out and making movies -- you’re not dead when you reach a certain age said the star who shot to fame when she famously dated Elvis Presley when they made Viva Las Vegas in 1964 

* Candice Bergen running wild and free at age 74 -- she recently became a first-time grandmother and is selling her hand-designed merchandise online 

* What is Marie Osmond doing during the pandemic? She bought a Harley motorcycle and so did her husband Steve and they love to go riding together -- the twosome also take walks and see their kids and grandkids and stay busy and have fun 

Page 42: All Washed Up -- surprising facts about bathing and showering 

Page 44: Eyes on the Stars -- Ellen DeGeneres goes for a spin in California (picture), Chrissy Teigen and John Legend take their kids Luna and Miles to watch planes make the tricky landing at St. Barts’ airport (picture), Joan Collins claims she once gave Bobby Kennedy the brush off because neither of them was single at the time, George Clooney can’t bear the thought of his early film Grizzly II seeing the light of day but it is set to be released later this year, Barry Gibb the last living member of The Bee Gees says life was incredibly hard after losing his brothers and bandmates Robin Gibb and Maurice Gibb who died in 2012 and 2003, Ray Liotta and Jacy Nittolo engaged, Bob Seger paid tribute to saxophonist Alto Reed a longtime member of his Silver Bullet Band who lost his life to colon cancer 

Page 45: Prince Charles and Duchess Camilla show off their walking sticks outside their home at Birkhall in Scotland (picture), Tori Spelling gets some puppy love from one of their pet pooches in L.A. with help from hubby Dean McDermott (picture), Megan Fox has moved on with Machine Gun Kelly and her estranged husband Brian Austin Green isn’t moping solo -- he vacationed in Hawaii with Sharna Burgess of Dancing with the Stars, British photographer David Bailey is dishing on his storied career in his memoir -- he claims sloshed Elizabeth Taylor tried to swipe his camera and his first impression of ex-wife Catherine Deneuve was that she was short and a bit on the fat side, Phyllis McGuire who shared the stage with her late siblings Dorothy and Ruby as the McGuire Sisters died in her lavish Las Vegas home -- she found fame through her voice and infamy through her relationship with Sin City mobster Sam Giancana 

Page 46: Good-hearted sheriff’s deputies surprised a woman with a vehicle after they kept getting calls about her walking along the highway in the freezing cold each morning 

Page 47: These UN Ambassadors use star power to help -- Emma Watson, Danny Glover, Nicole Kidman, Angelina Jolie, Antonio Banderas, Whoopi Goldberg, Susan Sarandon, Liam Neeson, Laurence Fishburne, Mia Farrow, Katy Perry, Alyssa Milano 

[xxgoblin-dumplingxx]

Off Day: Eleven

Bucky leaned on the bathroom door watching you apply makeup to your face, pulling seemingly endless pallets, brushes, and bottles from your bag. “Why’s your foundation not match your face?” he asked.

“Because I’m not gonna go out and kill the Batman later.”

“Huh?”

“If your makeup stops at your neck, you look like a party clown.”

Bucky smiles a little and watched you work for a second and nodded, “You never used to wear makeup,” he mused.

“I never used to have money,” you say shrugging, pouting at him in the mirror. Bucky nods, “How does that work?”

“Does what work?” you ask, starting to blend things in properly.

“Do you get a check from the store?”

You shrug and smile a little, “Theoretically. But. Jack and Judy are paying for the groceries in the house. Kaity won’t let me pay rent. So, like... I just take enough to buy gas and cat food. Everything else I take out of my savings.”

Bucky shook his head, “Baby,” he scolded.

“What?” you ask, quirking an eyebrow.

“When’s the last time you bought yourself something fun?”

“I buy art supplies and makeup all the time. Online shopping is nice. I can buy pretty things in my underwear.”

Bucky tutted and made a mental note to buy you a little something. Still. He couldn’t be upset. You had his hoodie on and your panties, nothing else. It was a nice view. It was why he’d come to lean on the doorframe. He stayed because he was a little fascinated. Like watching you draw on his arm with sharpies, it was a miracle of artistic skill watching you play with contrasts and colors. If he hadn’t watched you do it, he wouldn’t believe it. You look like an almost totally different person.

When you finished your makeup, he smirked, “How mad would you be if I dragged you back to bed and ruined all that?” he asked.

“Pretty mad. I’d be keeping Kaity waiting,” you answer, smiling just a little as you put things back in your bag.

Bucky winces internally, feeling guilty. For just a minute, he’d forgotten. You were his and didn’t have responsibilities. It wasn’t Christmas and Kaity wasn’t dying. You weren’t putting makeup on like you were getting ready for battle. Armor to protect you from the reality that nothing was ever going to feel right again. 

“Are you ready to go home?” he asked.

“No,” you answer, “But. I need to. I just... I don’t know if I can handle this.”

“Do you want me to stay?” he asked.

You shake your head, “No. I just... I just need to suck it up. It’s not. There’s not anything I can do.”

He nods and wraps his arms around you slowly, “I’ll come by tonight,” he murmurs, “Put something warm in your belly and put you to sleep.” He kisses your neck and shoves his hand in your hoodie pocket.

“Okay,” you murmur, focusing on putting things away to give you time to breathe. 

“Maybe make you come two or three times,” he teased, kissing the spot on your neck that he learned made you shiver, chuckling when you did. “That never gets old,” he rumbled tightening his arms around you.

“Bucky-” you protest weakly

He grins at you in the mirror, “What is it, doll?” he teased, taking his hands out of your pocket to rest them on your hips.

You whimper and he stops moving, not letting you go but not pressing any further. “Baby girl,” he said gently, “Talk to me. What do you need?”

“I need to go home. I’m sorry I-” you take a breath and let it out slowly, “They’re waiting and if it’s another bad day, they’re gonna need me.” You can’t meet his eyes expecting him to be mad and Bucky feels like an asshole. “Let me put on some decent clothes and I’ll take ya home,” he said softly, “And then tonight I’ll come keep ya company... can’t promise to behave. But I’ll be there.”

You half turn to look up at him, all big sweet eyes and a soft smile and he kisses the tip of your nose. “Promise?” you ask.

“Promise,” he answers softly, cuddling you for a second before going to get some jeans and a clean hoodie to replace the one you’d stolen.

He’d never had a girl that asked so little of him. All you wanted was his time. Some attention. A little TLC from time to time. And he felt, strange. It felt like he wasn’t doing enough by not buying you gifts and making extravagant (for him) gestures. Char had been like a magpie. She liked her shiny shit. She liked to be fawned over. Treated like a princess. He desperately wanted to treat you that way. You deserved it. But as far as he could tell, you didn’t wear much jewelry and you worked in a whole store full of books if you wanted books. He didn’t know dick about art supplies of jewelry. And he felt silly buying cat toys. What did you get somebody who’d learned to get by on as little as possible? For Christmas, well. He didn’t know if you’d like it but. It was the only thing her could think of. 

He pulled it out of the closet and set it on the bed, thankful the girls had done the wrapping for him. It looked pretty. All green paper and silver ribbon. Glitter. “Fucking glitter” he groused, brushing it off his sleeve. The inside of his closet looked like a titty bar exploded. 

You pause in the doorway, pulling leggings on, “What’s that?” you ask, cocking your head. “Santa must have figured out where you were,” he said grinning.

“Bucky,” you protest, “I told you not to.”

“And I didn’t listen,” he said simply. “Come on, open it,” he encouraged, “I looked everywhere for it.”

You look up at him and smile, kissing his jaw before sitting next to the box, starting to open it carefully.

“C’mon, we’re not gonna save the paper!” he teased.

“I’m trying not to get glitter on your bed!”

“Doll, there’s been stripper dust on my sheet before. It’s fine.”

You snort and tear the paper off, opening the box carefully, “Bucky,” you gasp softly, “This is too much!”

“No it’s not,” he said grinning as you carefully inspected the new tattoo kit. “I figured if you wanted you could start doing them again. I got bored the other day and looked through the Instagram you post your art on... It was a few years ago and you were learning sure, but you did pretty good tattoos.”

“I dunno, Bucky,” you say hesitating, “It’s really nice but-”

“No buts,” he said, kissing you softly, “I just wanted you to have it if you wanted it.”

“Thank you,” you murmur, blushing as you kiss his cheek.

“Anything for you, doll,” he murmurs, “Honestly I didn’t know what to get for you at all but, then you kept doing a bunch of pretty artwork on my arms and so I thought I’d do this.”

“Even though I told you not to,” you pout.

“Sorry doll,” he chuckled, “I took enough orders in the army. Unless you’re naked I’m probably not gonna let you boss me around.”

“I don’t wanna boss you around,” you protest, “I just knew I wouldn’t have time to go get you what I wanted to get you.”

“Whatever that was, darlin’,” he drawled, kissing you slowly, “It wouldn’t have compared to last night.” Your cheeks burn and he smiles, “That was a dream come true. Literally. Thinking about you was the only thing that got me through basic. And both deployments.” He tugs you into his lap and kisses your head, “I always had a picture in my head of what it’d be like if I saw you again. I’d know exactly what to say. I’d sweep you off your feet and do the whole nine yards... Instead I didn’t even recognize you.”

“I mean, Dolly Parton once lost a Dolly Parton look a like competition to a drag queen, so I can’t really blame you. A new nose, some new hair, and sometimes probably made it a little difficult,” you tell him.

“A new nose?” Bucky asked.

You shrug, “Got my shit busted enough times it needed done,” you tell him.

“I couldn’t even tell,” he said.

“Well, no,” you answer, standing up to get your things around, “That was the point. I just had them get as close to the original as possible.”

“Who busted up your face?” he asked following you.

“Parents a couple times. The last time, it was a guy I’d just started dating,” you don’t look at him, pretending to be preoccupied with your coat. Bucky does his best to breathe. To stay calm. He’s very, very aware of how fragile your emotional state is and how likely you are to jump to the worst conclusion if he looks angry but inside, he wants to reach through time and beat the living shit out of your dad for it. And find the guy that hurt you and snap is legs off. 

“Y/N,” he said gently, tilting your chin up, “I love you.” It’s all he can think of to say. The best way to remind you that you’re safe. 

“I love you too,” you tell him, turning your head slightly to kiss the palm that’s cupping your cheek.

_________

Bucky walks you into the house. It’s quiet but for A Christmas Story playing on the TV and Jack and Judy quietly eating breakfast. You sigh and let Bucky help you out of your coat before padding into the kitchen. This is going to be a long day. It feels like a wake. A really fucking lame wake. The kind of thing Kaity hates.

Bucky accepts hugs and Merry Christmases after you get yours and watches helplessly as you pad into the bedroom to say hello to Kaity.

Judy hands him a mug of coffee, “How was your party?” she asked. “Fine,” he said, “We had a drink and I took her home with me. Watched some movies.”

“No mistletoe?” she teases, handing him a plate to go with his mug.

“I don’t kiss and tell,” he said blushing.

“You’re a good boy, Bucky.”

“Shh,” he hisses, “Don’t say that too loud. You’ll ruin my rep as a drug king pin.”

Jack chuckles, “Son,” he said, “Anyone who believes that is an idiot. Your truck is real nice but it ain’t that nice.”

_________

“Hey, Kaitykat,” you murmur, leaning over to kiss her head, “Merry Christmas.”

She opened her eyes a little and smiled, “You smell like boy.”

“Well I mean. I slept with one and stole his hoodie so, that’d probably do it.” you tell her, smiling a little and curling up on the bed next to her to watch Muppets.

“Slut,” she teased, tugging a hoodie string, “Did he at least go down on you.”

“Kaity-” you start blushing.

“So no,” she chuckled, tucking hair behind your ear. “But did he take good care of you?” she pressed, looking anxious.

You nod, “Yeah,” you tell her, “He did.”

“You used a condom right? I mean. If he knocks you up I’m not going to have any fun making fun of you while you panic taking the test.”

“You’re such an asshole,” you giggle.

“Yeah, but you love me.”

“You know I do, Cat-cat.”

She smiled a little and laced her fingers through yours, “Do you love him,” she asked, laying her head on your shoulder.

“Yeah.”

“Good,” she murmured. For a long moment, Kaity’s quiet, watching Michael Cain find redemption. Trying to gather the strength to go sit out in the living room. “Promise me something?” she asked seriously.

“What?” you answer.

“When he does knock you up, name it after me.” She grins at you and you groan.

“Goddamnit Kaity.”

“What,” she pouts, “You’ll make cute babies.”

“He probably doesn’t even want kids, Kaity. And I don’t think I do either honestly.”

“Why?” she asked, letting you help her into her chair.

“Because,” you answer, kissing her head, “I don’t want to turn into my mother.”

Kaity winces but lets the matter drop. For now. Letting you wheel her out to the kitchen for something to eat. She’s thankful for the pain medicine that makes this possible. Thankful you’re here. That she can watch Bucky fuss over you fire hand. Coffee. Pastry. Anything he can coax into you. She meets her mother’s eye across the table and they nod. Thankful Bucky realizes that you’re losing weight and shouldn’t be. 

Bucky lets you walk him to the door and steals a kiss goodbye. A lingering kiss that makes you sigh, “Be a good girl?” he murmurs, kissing the tip of your nose.

“Yes, sir,” you answer, rolling your eyes. Bucky chuckles and raises an eyebrow, “Careful with that, darlin’. Especially with those pretty red lips.” You blush and he kisses your nose again, “I’ll see you tonight. I love you.”

“I love you too,” you answer, kissing his jaw before he slips out the door into the cold.

Tags: @lancsnerd @stevieang @thorfanficwriter @blameitonthecauseway @etherealwaifgoddess @wellfucksorrymum

[lovemesomesurveys]

What is the title of the strangest book you own? I’ll just go with the book I just finished called, “Miss Polly had a Dolly” lol. May sound like a cutesy children’s book, but nooope. It’s a murder, mystery, suspense kind of book.

How often do you actually wake up in a good mood? I wake up feeling like a zombie.

What can we usually find you doing on a Friday night? Same thing I do every night. It’s just another day for me.

What would you say is your guiltiest pleasure? I like reality TV and celebrity gossip. 

Tell me all about your special lady/gentleman. I don’t have one.

What is the highest outdoor temperature you’ve ever had to endure? Like 115F. 

And the lowest? Low 20s, I think. It may have been a little lower. It was snowing and super cold, I know that. Certainly not where I live, though. The coldest it gets here is low 30s sometimes during the winter at night/early morning.

What is the funniest thing a child has ever said to you? Who knows. Kids are really random.

Do you let your pets on your furniture? My dog has her own couch completely to herself. She’s not allowed on the other couches, though.

Can you usually tell when someone has feelings for you? Probably not, it’s been so long.

What would you plant in your dream garden? I don’t have a dream garden. I don’t have an interest in gardening.

Do you believe in fairies, gnomes, or elves? No.

What is your favorite thing to cook for someone else? I don’t cook except for ramen, so I guess if someone wants that then I could haha. I’m the only one who eats it in my house, though. Well, the kind you cook on the stove anyway. I think it tastes way better than the kind you just add hot water to.

What’s the last thing you ate that was made with phyllo dough? After a quick Google search I can say that I’ve never had phyllo dough. 

Have you ever bought underwear simply because it made your underwear drawer look nice? Uh, no? I don’t care about how my underwear drawer looks, I buy what I find comfortable.

How do you feel about kettle cooked chips? I don’t like them.

What sort of things do you do when you have the entire evening to relax? So how do I spend every evening? Somedays I’m just waking up. :X In which case, I’m drinking coffee, checking my social medias, watching TV, and playing some Animal Crossing. If I got up earlier than that I’m still doing much of the same except I’ve probably finished my coffee or I’m just about done. 

Opinions on cold pizza? I used to like it when I was younger. I took leftover pizza for lunch in middle school and high school all the time. Not a fan anymore, though.

What’s been on your mind lately? I found out this past Thursday at my doctor appointment that I have a kidney stone in my right kidney and I haven’t stopped thinking of it since. It was discovered in the CT Scan I had done a couple weeks ago for my back. Ya know, the one I complained about and did NOT want to do? Good thing I did because who knows how long it would have gone unnoticed. I don’t know how long it’s been there, but it’s not one that will just pass. It’s going to take some kind of procedure, possibly surgery, and I’m terrified. I’ve never had a kidney stone before so I don’t know what to expect. Figures my first one is a bad one. :/ And in typical me fashion, I’ve started to feel crappy and some pain in that area ever since finding out. Like, it had been there for who knows how long but of course now I feel it. I’m hoping that doesn’t mean it’s actually gotten worse. I can’t get into my primary to get the necessary referrals until November 3rd and then who knows when I’ll get in to the see the specialist(s). I’m praying nothing happens between now and then that will require me going to the ER. I was a nervous wreck thinking they’d find something new and bad in my back, I was thinking of all these crazy scenarios, but I certainly hadn’t thought about my kidneys. Thankfully, there wasn’t anything new or scary going on in my back, just the stuff we already knew, so of course I’m glad about that. And a kidney stone, even one like this, can be treated and taken care of, so it’s not the worst thing (unless it gets left untreated and causes blockage...), but still. I’m scared and stressed and ugh.

Are you currently waiting for something to come in the mail? No. What makes your best friend the best? My mom just is the best. 

How do you go about cheering someone up? I’m really awkward about trying to do that lol. I never know what to do or say, especially in person. 

Would you ever consider visiting Texas? Uhhh maybe?

Have you ever been greatly dissatisfied with a haircut or dye-job? How did you react? No, honestly. Not at the time anyway. I’ve looked back at hairstyles I had and thought wtf but at the time I liked it lol.

When you drive - if you do - how do you hold the wheel? I don’t drive.

Who was the last person to turn you on? Haven’t felt that in a long time.

Who was the last person to turn you off? *shrug*

[beenjen]

Ok so @abcd-adventures tagged me for a 3 random things post... hers was super dope, I will mildly rock the boat with my own 🙃

1) I have the Dolly Parton Playboy issue framed on my bedroom wall....

my grandmother was my rock, she was the matriarch of our family (real surprise), she had 5 kids, was married at 17, and my grandfather (from stories) was a bipolar, womanizer, and died in his 50s from cancer. All through that time, she worked 2 & 3 jobs, raised those babies, cared for both ill parents (also with cancer) and her sister was rich rich and once wouldn’t lend her $16 to license her car, so she took the kids to collect glass bottles, with 2 babies, and did that shit herself. Long winded explanation to why she was beyond amazing, to the point though, she sold insurance as one of her jobs. She was going door to door, and one of the peoples door she knocked on was Dolly Parton. Dolly was a dream to her, brought her inside, gave her a cold drink, they shared their life stories and she bought the biggest policy they had. Needless to say, we were raised listening to Dolly and I love her even still.

When my grandmother passed, a year and a half ago, I was broken hearted. No one could ever take her place. My mom wanted me to go through some old bookshelves, and I found the Playboy Dolly Parton issue. Y’all, my grandmother was so sassy. She read ‘sexy books’ and had this playboy - which is now framed on my bedroom wall.

2) I believe in Bigfoot and I will swear to everyone that I saw him as a child at my parents house. I was being a brat, couldn’t have been more than 7, and I remember it because I refused to go to bed, so my parents left me up, turned out the lights and went to bed themselves. I thought I was big stuff, so I went and got myself some chocolate milk, but it was dark and my bravado wore out pretty quickly as I walked through the house. Because I could barely see, I gravitated to the front door, where the top panes were glass and the moonlight was shinning through. I sat against the door, drinking my chocolate milk, crying and one of the blocks of light on the carpet became obstructed. I leaned forward and looked behind me and up, and I swear I saw what my mind explained as that of the face of a gorilla. So, it had to have been 6 ft tall to look through the window at least, his head close to a foot across to cover the entire pane, and I screamed bloody murder.

As an adult, I remembered that watching a documentary and I am a believer. I grew up in podunk middle Tennessee nowhere, there wasn’t a circus or primate population, what else could it have been?

3) Most of you know that our second, Lilith, was completely unplanned, but what you may not realize, was that after Jamis, I desperately wanted another baby. He was such a poor sleeper though, that there were times he would be up every 20 minutes. NOTHING worked. My mom even came and stayed some nights to let us get a few blocks of sleep. His poor sleeping lasted for almost 2 years until we gave up and just put him in the bed with us. No judgement.

With this ordeal, hubs was 10,000% against having another baby. We went around and around about it. We had horrific fights, I cried, screamed, pled, and he did the same. It was literally the only thing we have been unable to find a solution too, and it about broke us. I realized after about 2 years, that I couldn’t go on like that. I started seeing a counselor to come to grips with the fact that it just wasn’t going to happen. I was frustrated, but I truly felt, that he had a right to feel that he didn’t want another baby. Why should only my feelings matter? So, I’m going to this therapist, we talk and talk, she essentially said my husband was a narcissist, and that if I wanted another baby, I could just get pregnant without telling him I was off birth control.

I couldn’t believe it! I came home and told Chris all about it, outraged. He was too. I let it go, as best I could, trying not to be bitter. After I lost my grandmother, I was so sad. I was in such a deep depression, Chris was trying everything to snap me out of it. He got his parents to watch jamis for the weekend and we went on the 20 mile backpacking hike. On the way there, we had a really long and deep discussion about having another baby, i finally made peace with it, decided that we could finally hike the Appalachian trial, plan some more overseas adventures and it was going to be great. I was going to plan a spa trip with my best girlfriends and just live my life to the fullest, also, we had this awesome 3 year old who was healthy and so many people don’t even have that, I needed to just get over it.

On the hiking trip I almost passed out multiple times, my joints were killing me, and I could not believe how out of shape I was. I found out a month later I was 6 1/2 months pregnant, putting me at 5 months when we were hiking, explaining all that happened on that trip.

We still don’t know what happened, I had been on birth control solid, where you never have a period, and I hadn’t gained weight because I was dieting to ‘live my best life.’ Chris never though I did it on purpose, and he for sure knew that when we found out how far along I was. I still believe though, that Lilith came about, however she did, to bring me peace and pull me out of my downward spiral. I immediately started taking better care of myself, working hard to get my mind right, and she saved me. The rest is history.

10 chapters later and there you have it. I tag @pithypepper @plantsandpupper and @katiewithakandanie2

Xx

[rimurutempest-bounced]

soft asks, im just gonna answer them all:

1. cherry - what is your sexuality?

gay

2. lollipop - favorite makeup products?

eyeliner. i usually like stuff by e.l.f.

3. daydreams - if you could be anything or anyone, who would you be?

assuming “shapeshifter” is off the table, i’d be an unkillable dragon.

4. october - what month were you born in?

september!

5. caress - do you like to snuggle?

rarely, actually! sometimes i like it and seek it out, but i have a capacity limit.

6. ivory - describe your pajamas?

uhhh, right now? grey t shirt and black shorts. sometimes nothing. sometimes t shirt and underwear. i dont have any specific pjs.

7. golden - favorite stationary product?

stickers. metallic paint pens and, like, gel pens are pretty high up there too.

8. freckles - most-worn article of clothing?

boots or poncho/shawl.

9. twilight - best friend?

@skulloflibitina​, @aftermidnightblue​, @papamoomin​(he’s my husband, so he’d better be my best friend)

10. silk - do you like k-pop?

i only know a couple of songs, and they’re all pretty damn old now. not into any specific bands. i love BoA though, just in general.

11. poppy - favorite pastel color?

lavender

12. dimples - most attractive features of a person’s face?

eyes!

13. sunkissed - autumn or spring?

autumn.

14. buttery - favorite snack?

probably seaweed snacks, i think. im picky though, some days nothing is RIGHT.

15. whisper - how much sleep do you get?

........not enough. usually maybe 6 hours? 

16. pencil - do you own a journal?

i do, but i never use it........

17. cupcake - are you a good cook?

yes! i rarely cook though.

18. honey - favorite term of endearment?

darling, beloved, sweetheart. in that order.

19. clouds - describe one of your favorite dreams?

i have a recurring one about being in a dinghy on a small sound and the water is so calm the surface is like glass. the sky is grey and heavy with clouds. im rowing, or drifting, to a point with a rocky shore, and when i get out, i walk into a beautiful forest(not quite boreal/taiga) and it’s warm and sunny and green. i walk to a stump, covered and surrounded by beautiful cushion moss, and i feel like someone very important to me is with me, but i dont know who.

sometimes there’s more to the dream, but often the other elements are stressful or upsetting, so. that much is really nice and calm though!

20. velvet - who was your first crush?

i guess a boy named ashton i saw during the summers for a few years. he and his family had a summer house up the street. i honestly cannot fathom why anyone would want to leave jamaica in the summer to stay in THAT neighbourhood, it was not a particularly special place imo. he was really nice to me though, and said i could call him my boyfriend. i think we kissed once or twice. his family was wonderful. i think the people who started staying in that house after they stopped going there were pretty rude, but my memory around that is kinda hazy. apparently i was so upset about his family not visiting any more that i keyed my name into the new peoples’ car? i got in trouble for it anyway.

21. paper - favorite children’s book?

the hobbit. or the last unicorn. or blueberries for sal. i dont know, i loved a LOT of books as a kid.

22. peaches - do you have a skincare routine?

nah. not really. i use a face cleanser/wash in the shower, but not with any routine.

23. mochi - favorite studio ghibli film?

princess mononoke.

24. backyard - did you ever have an imaginary friend?

yeah, i think so. i played alone a lot, but usually not with any imaginary friends. but i DID have a tiny pocket journal that i would write letters to my “friend in fance” in. his name was pierre i think. i dont remember writing his responses, and they were in completely different handwriting. even into high school i would sometimes write him a little note when i cleaned my room and found the book, out of nostalgia, and every time i found it, he’d written a reply. usually asking why it had been so long. i think he might have said some kinda creepy/wierd stuff, too. wonder what happened to that little book lmao. (it was a teeny tiny lisa frank notebook i think. with a little snap button clasp to close it.)

25. strawberry - favorite fruit?

obligatory, apples! also blueberries and mango. botannically, non traditionally for culinary speaking, avocado too.

26. kiss - have you ever kissed a friend?,

i kiss my husband a lot, but in a purely platonic way, uh. on the cheek, sure, plenty of times. on the lips, i think only once, and i was not comfortable with it at all.

27. nightlight - do you read before bed?

if social media, wikipedia articles, and/or video game dialogue counts, then yes. if only books do, then no.

28. shampoo - favorite scent?

mint and rosemary, for shampoo. in general, my fave scent is wood smoke. briney, salty, sea air is up there. and pine(especially balsam), cedar(technically cypress), juniper, sage, leather...........

29. skin - what distant relative are you closest to?

uh, idk what’s considered distant honestly. im not really close to most of my bio family, in any sense tbh. maybe my cousin faith? we rarely talk and she lives in north carolina, but i think probably her somehow, lol (she’s my 1st cousin though, idk if that counts?)

30. aphrodite - favorite actress/actor?

mmmmm.......maybe lupita nyong’o? or jason momoa. i also like michael b jordan, elijah wood, shia labeouf, dolly parton, daniel radcliff, robert patterson..... idk, i dont actually usually have fave celebs like that much.

31. cuddles - do you have any pets?

my son, a beautiful but not very bright fat clumsy goblin of a cat whom i love.

32. lace - if you own any dresses, which is your favorite?

no, even when i still wore skirts sometimes, dresses werent really my thing. i gave my skirts to my friend anna, and she still has some. my fave is probably the long, black skirt with autumny coloured vines and leaves. apparently the style of skirt is called broomstick, according to google?

33. sheets - sanrio or san-x characters?

i had to google the difference, but sanrio. they’re all cute though.

34. cream - frozen yogurt flavor?

usually taro! i also like just plain, tart froyo, or pomegranate. i generally go for fruity flavours, aside from taro. it’s also one of the only times i’ll sometimes opt for coconut, esp if it’s paired with taro!

35. watermelon - do films ever make you cry?

almost always. the genre DOES NOT MATTER. im less likely to cry watching horror/slasher/gore stuff (but im also less likely to watch those vs suspense thrillers/psychological horror anyway)

36. sapphos - favorite poet?

emily dickinson, i think. despite my love for simple rhyme and meter, i just love how evocative her writing is. each of her poems is so personal, but because of that, they’re pretty widely relatable, so it’s easy to resonate with them. 

im also very fond of frost and poe’s poetry(and poe’s writing in general, ofc)

honestly, this is making me want to just binge a ton of poetry by poets i havent read before. (if anyone wants to send me recs, PLEASE do.)

37. plush - how many stuffed animals do you still own?

i am not counting them, lmao. suffice to say, too many to count without a good deal of effort.

38. roses - what flower do you find most beautiful?

most beautiful i’d say wisteria, but my faves are chrysanthemums and hydrangeas. wisteria is my 3rd place.

39. sweetheart - favorite mug/cup?

i have a few i like a lot, but my husband bought me a World’s Best Dad mug that is a particular fave right now.

40. sunset - what are your pronouns?

exclusively he/him/his

[szopenhauer]

What would you call your body type? hourglass? vase? chubby yet underweight? worse version of Juno Temple’s body? petite?

When is the next time you’ll be at work? when I’ll have a job lol

Are you good at wrapping gifts for others? am not, thx for gift bags!

Do you have a dirty clothes hamper in your room? besides pajama I put all my dirty clothes into laundry bin

Do you enjoy big holiday dinners? no

Is your vision good? yes

Is there any piece of jewelry you’re constantly wearing? recently - necklace from my gf

Is your present hair color, natural? it is

What makes you the most angry when it comes to people? where should I start...

Have you ever felt as though you were drifting apart from a best friend? yeah, and I did, more than once/one person

Have you ever worn color contacts? I haven’t worn any contacts

What’s the best thing about a hug? dunno

Do you buy your friends gifts? sure

What color headphones do you own? light blue

Have you ever shopped on Urban Outfitters? I wish but home stuff, not clothes

Would you rather wear necklaces or earrings? my ears ain’t pierced

Do you enjoy watching fights? in action movies?

Have you ever been in a physical fight? I’ve been hit/punched/slapped 

Do you tend to talk badly about people? I complain about people often

Where are your parents as of now? my dad’s working and my mom is calling him from their room, I turned music on to not listen to their conversation even tho my head hurts a bit

Does your computer cooperate most of the time? pfft

Does your family have any cheesy traditions? hmm...

Are you wearing make up at the moment? obviously not

Favorite television channel? I don’t watch TV

Describe the worst day of your life: ugh...

Name something that’s your favorite color: lime, sun, darkness

Do you judge by appearances? kinda

Do you follow a certain religion? Christianity

What are you most self conscious about? I’m insecure in general

Do you have any family members who live out of town? yup

Do you consider yourself short? I am short

Hoodies or jackets? why not both? there ain’t a big difference between those

Are you outside a lot? nope

Have you ever been dumped via text message? I dumped someone via text message

Do you like dreamcatchers? not anymore

What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? T?

Do you believe in any particular curses? I’m afraid

What movie scares you the most? that I watched or don’t wanna see?

Do you work with any close friends? I don’t work

Do you listen to any country music? few songs of Dolly Parton and Johnny Cash

Do you still sleep with any stuffed animals? bunch

Are you normally an independent person? I don’t believe you can be totally independent, you can be more or less but never 100% and I wish I wasn’t so dependent

Ever been judged because of your weight? I’ve been told I must have anorexia or bulimia which is a lie

Do you regret meeting any of your exes? obvi

What’s the meanest thing someone’s called you? I’ve heard so many names that it’s hard to choose

Do you own any brown clothing? I might but I can’t remember atm

What is the first digit of your phone number? personal

Do you tend to sleep a lot? wouldn’t say so, especially recently

Silver or gold jewelry? dunno, depends

What’s the best gift you’ve ever received? I’ve received lots of goodies

When was the last time you showered? last night

Would you consider yourself attractive? me? r u kidding?...

Has anyone made you mad today? mom - slightly

Favorite smell: sigh...

Are you afraid of insects? dead ones and maggots

Do you have any children? noooo

If so, what are their names? -

Have you ever lived on a farm? been visiting my aunt, I enjoyed it

Ever played any sports? we all had to in PE 

Are you afraid people won’t accept you? I know they won’t

Are you, for the most part, an honest person? I try to be?

Did you make prank phone calls as a child? no way

Do you like to make donations? if I had money... but I donate old stuff at times 

Meet anyone from your past lately? yep

Have you ever called a suicide line? nope and no comment

Have you ever caught something on fire? my fingers 

Have you ever climbed a mountain before? I think it was a hill actually

At what age do you plan to get married? about 30 if at all

Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 12 hours? I have not What’s something you need to go shopping for? food tomorrow? How many hours did you sleep last night? fallen asleep before 2 am then woke up twice until 5 am as I felt bad and then finally about 10 am  In the past week have you watched cartoons? She-ra Do/did you do good in school? very then I got worse gradually Who are you most like in your family? look more like mom but have personality and interests more like my dad

Last thing you had to drink? I’m drinkin’ water now Is there any part of your body that hurts? there is Where is your biological mother right now? balcony

If you say “haha”, do you sometimes put space between them? [Ex. Ha ha] then it has a different (sarcastic) meaning

Do you have fruit flies in your house? only sometimes when there are fruits in the kitchen

Have you ever seen a spelling error in a book that you read? yeah and that annoys me 

Do you type “mhm” a lot? mhm hehe

Have you ever tried eating peanut butter to get rid of your hiccups? it helps? :o

Do you have a garage? we don’t as we don’t own a car

Do you think it would be cool if one of your family members was your neighbor? but I live with my parents 

Do you remember the first time you experienced the Internet? not exactly the very first time

Are you still in your pajamas? am not

Is Jiminy the Cricket your favorite Disney character?   sorry but no

If you were Noah, would you procrastinate building the ark?   it made me laugh

Do you know anyone that snores really loud?   my mother

What kind of purse do you have? I own many

If you were only allowed to make one more phone call to a loved one, who would you speak to?   my dad

“Age is nothing but a number.” Is that true? said a pedo

What’s the most interesting thing about you? depends on a perspective?

Have you ever lost someone to suicide? If so, how did you cope? I haven’t

What’s your most prized possession? Why? personal

What’s your favorite part of speech? mic drop, jk

Would you rather have it all or know it all? does have it all means also have all illnesses? then thx but no

Do you actually read privacy policies when signing up for new things? only part about paying, I check if it’s free or else I’m paranoid about it later What’s the most dangerous thing you would like to do now? eat what I can’t Did you invite classmates to your birthday parties? only my best friends Do you like when things are color coordinated? nah

Have you ever participated in one of those “guess how many jelly beans, mints, etc. are in this jar!” contest? if so, have you ever won? I didn’t win Can you juggle? can’t

Have you ever mistaken a ringing phone on TV or in a movie for your own? not only, sometimes there is a sound in a song and I think it was my phone or smth  How often do you use bobby pins? very rarely Are you in a good mood right now? I’m in one of the worst moods actually Who was the last person in your bedroom? my mother Are you listening to music, if so, what song? I’m not in the mood Have you ever taken a picture with Santa when you were little? I wish I had What color is the sky outside? light blue with white clouds Have you ever rolled down a steep, grassy hill for fun? I haven’t

Do any of your neighbors have dogs? some, one of the dogs is barking 24/7 and I hate it

Have you ever bought a fragrance by a celeb because you liked who it was? that’s stupid Do you normally wash your hands in warm or cold water? warm Do you watch The Big Bang Theory? used to Do you think about the way things used to be often? overthink, feel nostalgic, miss stuff Do you know someone who has purple in their hair? Or do you? not anymore Are you a competitive person? competitions are too stressful How often do you get an upset stomach? all the damn time Do you have any ceramic animals in your house or outside? we do :D What’s worse : A clingy person or someone who doesn’t care enough? I prefer someone balanced, in between How many dresses do you own? just a few Do you read instructions? partially Have you ever seen the show Wife Swap? I heard of it

What was the last thing you took a picture of? flowers for my parents

What’s the worse type of weather in your opinion? very cold and snowy Would you rather read or write? depends Growing up, did you see your cousins often? no Where was your first job at? dunno what I can count as my first job Is life a party to you? as a person who doesn’t like parties...  Who are you tired of seeing in the news a lot? I’m tired of news in general When was the last time you flew a kite? as a kid :( How long have you had Facebook? I don’t remember how old I had my first account but this one is new, had it just couple of months  have you ever wanted to be a dentist?:  no way in hell

does your cell phone have a charm hanging from it?:  new cellphones don’t have the spot for that like the older models did and that’s really sad, I had charms on my blackberry

what color was the last thing you drank?: transparent

what was the last game you played online?:  I’m playing Raid shadow legends 

do you have something with your school’s name on it?  not anymore

which one of your friends would make the best roommate?:  my dad as I already live with him 

how old were you when you first learned how to read?: I learned very soon

do you have a favorite cup or mug? if so, describe it: I don’t use my fav ones as I worry I will ruin them

who was on top the last time you had sex?: personal

what color was the last blanket you used?: it’s blue with sun and moon

if you don’t have a car, what is your dream car?: DeLorean or jeep

have you ever wanted a pet chinchilla?:  yep

has gum ever gotten stuck in your hair?:  będąc w lokalnym sklepiku z tatą zauważyłam, że żując miałam włosy w buzi i się wlepiły i powiedziałam ojcu o tym, a ten mnie pociągnął za czuprynę i guma wyskoczyła mi z paszczy i zawisła na tych nieszczęsnych kosmykach i ekspedientka to widziała, chciałam się zapaść pod ziemię, nie pamiętam jednak co się stało potem czyli jak odlepiliśmy to świństwo oraz kiedy właściwie

[empressgreyofphoenix]

Long Time No See pt 5

A week had gone by since you left home for your grandma's house and so far, you were completely miserable. You called your boss Yumi the day after you arrived, claiming that there was a death in the family and that you needed to leave town for a little while. You were relieved to hear that Yumi was OK with that and said that you should take as much time as you needed and to call her if anything changes. Man, she was a really good boss, an employee's dream come true. But you were so bored and lonely in this place. Sure, you had your mother, but you also had your grandma still nagging you about getting married and having kids. So much so that your mother, using very colorful language that she used only when she was really mad, told her to back off. You expected your grandma to snap back like she normally would if anyone questioned her, but she instead apologized and dropped the conversation for good. She barely said anything to you or your mom since. Thank god. Still, you missed your house. You missed your room. You missed riding your bike and hitching the bus downtown. You wanted to go home so badly and so you finally gained enough courage to ask your mother if you two can go back. But as you were headed downstairs, your mother called for you. "Y/n! Jerome is on the news again!" You rushed to the living room and saw the breaking news story on tv. The six inmates who escaped Arkham had robbed a shipyard and took some employees hostage. The inmates then tossed the hostages off of a newspaper building. Each hostage had a letter spray painted on the clothes which spelled out the word, "Maniax!" Well, so much for asking to go home. Then your mother's cell phone started ringing and she went into the kitchen to take the call while you sat down on the couch looking at the tv. They showed the mugshots of all the inmates again, including Jerome. That creepy grin was absolutely the stuff of nightmares. To think that this was the same guy who gave you the best week of your life, the same guy you fell in love with. A few moments later, your mother came back into the living room with a terror-stricken look on her face, as if she had seen a ghost. "Mom, what's wrong?", you asked her. "That was Mrs Lane from next door. She said she saw a redheaded boy come to our house knocking on the door. She walked over and told him that we were out of town and he said he would come back another day." Uh oh. "What do we do, mom?" She shrugged her shoulders. "I'm not sure. Mrs Lane swore that she didn't tell him where we were so hopefully that bought us more time." You hoped and prayed that was the case. It was 2:30am and you were in your room wide awake and pacing frantically. So many thoughts flooded your mind. What in the world were you going to do? Would Jerome try to find you here? Would he try to hurt you and/or your family? Would you run away again or stay to confront him? And could he fall any further down this horrid rabbit hole? Killing his mother was immoral and cruel, but you could kind of understand how it got to that point. But escaping Arkham with other dangerous criminals? Kidnapping innocent people and chucking them off of buildings? That was just flat out unacceptable. You sat down on your bed, trying to not get yourself too worked up. You needed to be strong. Strong and brave for your sake as well as your mother's. As you laid down on your bed, your phone's screen lit up. You had a new text message and the number came up as “unknown”. You opened the text and what you read made your heart race and body tremble with fear. You actually had to read it over and over to make sure you weren't hallucinating. "Hi, gorgeous! Boy, did I miss my sugar sweet dolly! Not sure if you heard but I'm back home now! Met up with a very interesting cast of characters. Can't wait to tell you all about it. Be seeing you soon, doll! JV" You didn't have to think that hard to figure out who it was. JV. Jerome Valeska.

[whatsnewcartoons]

What’s New In 2019: The Cartoons.

PART 2:

Separated by network. All premiere dates are estimated until confirmed. Timings are in EST.

DISNEY CHANNEL:

- Amphibia (TBA):  Created and executive produced by Matt Braly (Gravity Falls), Amphibia chronicles the adventures of Anne Boonchuy, a self-centered 13-year-old who is magically transported to the fictitious world of Amphibia, a rural marshland full of frog-people. With the help of an excitable young frog named Sprig, Anne will transform into a hero and discover the first true friendship of her life.

The series was announced to be greenlit for production in early 2018 and is expected to premiere later in 2019.

- The Owl House (TBA):  Created and executive produced by Dana Terrace (DuckTales) is a horror-comedy series that follows Luz, a self-assured teenage human girl who accidentally stumbles upon a portal to the Demon Realm. There she befriends a rebellious witch, Eda, and an adorably tiny warrior, King. Despite not having magical abilities, Luz pursues her dream of becoming a witch by serving as Eda’s apprentice at the Owl House and ultimately finds a new family in an unlikely setting.

The series was announced at the same time as Amphibia and a Season 4 renewal of Star vs the Forces of Evil in early 2018. Similar to Amphibia, it is expected to release in late 2019.

- Vikingskool (end 2019): The series will follow a group of young would-be Viking warriors in an elite Vikingskool. Ross described the alumni as being “Like freshmen in ‘Top Gun,’ but for Vikings. ”The group will embark on a series of humorous and exciting adventures in a mystical world. At the heart of the tale are three best friends: Erik, Arnie and Ilba, each with their own unique Viking strengths and weaknesses.

The series is being produced by Ireland’s Cartoon Saloon (“The Secret of Kells,” “The Breadwinner”) and France’s Samka Productions (“Jamie’s Got Tentacles”) with post-production from Norwegian VFX company Storm Films. It’s this pedigree that prompted Ross to explain to Variety: “There is a substantial Viking history in Ireland and Northern France. As a co-production we can say it’s the only Viking show made by actual Vikings.” 

The series’ 26 half-hours are scheduled for broadcast at the end of 2019. 

- 101 Dalmatian Street (early 2019): Inspired by Dodie Smith’s 1956 novel and the 1961 movie, it will be based in Camden Town, London.

Featuring 43 cast members covering 106 speaking roles, the modern tale will focus on dalmatians Dylan and Dolly, their parents Doug and Delilah and 97 younger puppies whose names all also begin with D. Miriam Margolyes, known for her portrayal of Professor Sprout in the Harry Potter film series, will voice Bessie the Cornish Cow.American actors Josh Brener and Michaela Dietz will voice Dylan and Dolly, the eldest Dalmatian siblings. Rapper Ben Bailey Smith, also known as Doc Brown, will voice Sid Squirrel as well as Spencer Sausage Dog. The series will also feature EastEnders star Tameka Empson as Pearl Police Horse and Bethan Wright as Prunella Pug.

The series has premiered its first episode on Disney Channel Africa and is set to premiere on Disney Channel UK in January. It will premiere in the US in spring 2019.

NETFLIX:

- Pinky Malinky (January 1, 2019): Pinky Malinky is a brand-new fly-on-the-wall reality show that follows the everyday life of Pinky, an infectiously positive hot dog living in a human world. With his best friends Babs and JJ by his side, Pinky reaches for the stars in the small town of Sackenhack. Through his good spirits and sausage sensibilities, Pinky proves that a "wiener" is only one small letter away from being a "WINNER!"

Using the tropes of a mockumentary and reality show format, Pinky and his friends will talk directly to the camera and the audience to share their absurd and silly take on real life. At times, all children feel like they don't fit in and Pinky's undeniably unique point of view as a literal wiener amongst humans will allow kids to laugh at his familiar struggles and enjoy his unusual perspective on the challenges of being a school-aged kid. By always reaching for the stars, Pinky pushes himself further than anyone could imagine. Pinky and his friends' humorous experiences will also be shared across social media and Nickelodeon's digital platforms. Co-created and co-executive produced by Chris Garbutt and Rikke Asbjoern (The Amazing World of Gumball) and executive produced by Scott Kreamer (Kung Fu Panda: Legends of Awesomeness), the trio are a part of the Artist Collective, an internal diverse group of experienced creators who mentor and support up-and-coming talent while also collaborating to cultivate, challenge and inspire Nickelodeon's development pipeline. Pinky Malinky will star Lucas Grabeel (Glenn Martin DDS, I Kissed A Vampire) as Pinky Malinky, Diamond White (The Haunted Hathaways) as Babs Buttman, and Nathan Kress (iCarly) as JJ Jameson. Under the deal with Netflix, Nickelodeon is producing two seasons — 59 episodes — of Pinky Malinky for the streaming service. The first season, consisting of 28 episodes is now available on Netflix.

- Tuca & Bertie (TBA): The series, which has received a 10-episode order, is an adult-oriented comedy about the friendship between two 30-year-old bird women who live in the same apartment building: Tuca (Haddish), a cocky, care-free toucan, and Bertie (Wong), an anxious, daydreaming songbird.

Both Haddish and Wong will also serve as executive producers in addition to starring. Lisa Hanawalt created the series and will serve as executive producer. Hanawalt is the production designer and producer on Netflix’s critically-acclaimed animated series “BoJack Horseman.” Raphael Bob-Waksberg, the creator of “BoJack” will also executive produce along with “BoJack” executive producers Noel Bright and Steven A. Cohen. Michael Eisner’s The Tornante Company, which produces “BoJack,” will produce. Animation is being done at Shadowmachine.

The series was announced to be in production in February 2018 and is set to release in the summer.

- Carmen Sandiego (January 18, 2019): Carmen Sandiego started as a video game in 1985 and ventured out into books, television, and comics. Children of the ‘90s have searched for Sandiego in the U.S.A., in Europe, in Space, and back in Time. The PBS animated series Where In The World Is Carmen Sandiego? ran for 295 episodes between 1991 and 1995. Author John Peel wrote 10 Carmen Sandiego books in the '90s. DC Comics published four issues of a Carmen Sandiego comic starting in June 1996.

Believe it or not, after more than two decades Sandiego, a notorious crook, is still on the loose. Can she outrun the Netflix binge watchers? We’ll have see if Rodriguez has what it takes.

Insiders say that Netflix has ordered 20 episodes of the series, which aims to be as educational as it is entertaining, given the title character’s globetrotting adventures. The series is set to release on Netflix on January 18, 2019.

- Cannon Busters (March 1, 2019):  Cannon Busters tells the story of a royal droid named S.A.M., who is searching for her best friend, and heir to the throne. Along the way, she’s joined by an old maintenance droid and a fugitive. The 12-episode series buy is part of Netflix’s impending wave of anime titles including Ultraman, Kengan Ashura, and season two of Aggretsuko.

Cannon Busters was created by LeSean Thomas, a storyboard artist and character designer known for his work on The Boondocks, the animated Black Dynamite series, and The Legend of Korra. Following a successful Kickstarter campaign, Netflix has bought 12 episodes, adapted from a 2003 comic of the same title. 

The series was first announced at the Netflix panel at the 2018 Anime Expo and is set to release on Netflix on March 1, 2019.

 - Twelve Forever (TBA): The series centers on 12-year-old Reggie, whose desire to remain a child is so powerful it creates a fantasy world in which she never has to grow up. She’s joined by her friends Todd and Esther, who visit this amazing world to live out their superhero fantasies and escape the responsibilities of impending adulthood.

Production companies behind the series are the Cartel and Puny Entertainment. In addition to Vickerman, executive producers include the Cartel’s Stan Spry and Bradford Bricken, and Puny’s Chris Hardwick and Shadi Petosky.

The original pilot was first aired on Cartoon Network in 2015 and was not picked up by the network until Netflix was announced to have picked it up for a first season in December 2017 and is set to release sometime in 2019.

So that’s the stuff you can expect from the major networks (and Netflix) in terms of animation this year. Which shows are you most excited to watch this year? Here’s to an amazing 2019 full of amazing cartoons.

For the upcoming cartoons on Cartoon Network and Nickelodeon, go check out Part 1.

[hayffiebird]

Tag game

I was tagged by @theanonymousreader21 Thank you! Nickname: Ellie Zodiac sign: Scorpio Height: I’m your gal if you need something on the top shelf. 180 cm Hogwarts House: Hufflepuff. Got to put on the sorting hat in 2001 on a widely popular swedish social community called hogwarts.nu where we played quidditch, bought dragon eggs and wrote terrible fanfiction until it closed in 2006. Good times Last thing I googled: “How to make a wix blog step by step.” I’m Renewing my blog/website Favourite musician: I have plenty of them. Right now I listen to Dolly Parton a lot. Love her! Song stuck in my head: “Seagulls! (Stop it now)” by Bad Lip Reading. Don’t listen to it. Don’t! Followers: 440 Following: 72 Do you get asks: Not frequently but I have a couple of hayffie prompts under my belt Amount of sleep: 8-10 Lucky number: 7 cause lucky seven from IT and 12′s for District 12 of course ;) What are you wearing: A morning gown. Writing this in bed while recuperating from a cold Dream job: Writer and illustrator. I already am, well a little bit even if I don’t make tons of money. I’ve published half a dozen short stories and about twenty illustrations for magazines and I write a novel in my freetime Dream trip: Greece, Edinburgh, Copenhagen Instruments: I played the sax when I was little Language: Swedish and english. Tiny bit of french. Wants to learn german Favourite Song: Oh gosh. It differs. But like I said I just discovered Dolly so “Coat of many colors” Random facts: I’m a hopeless dress lover. Preferably with flower or fruit patterns on them. It took years though, to muster up enough courage to start wearing them all the time but now when I’m off work I almost never go out without one. Much thanks to Fran Drescher (Fran Fine from the Nanny): She is my spirit animal! Aesthetic: Trees, the ocean, new notebooks, birds, blowing soap bubbles

I tag @dazeyrains @wigsandwhiskey @weirddreamergirl @100years-to-live @ellanainthetardis and you if you wanna do it.

[murderballadeer]

21 things aboutMe /21 Tags

Shoutout to @an-elephant--never----forgets for tagging me! Thanks! It’s been too long since I’ve done a tag game.

Nickname/s: My mom calls me Lulu, some of my aunts and uncles call me Lu, a few people call me Lucie-lu and my dad calls me a lot of stuff, like “Lulabelle” and “Lulalinda”

Zodiac sign: Pisces, but I’m not very into astrology.

Height: 5′3″ (160 cm)

Hogwarts house: Ravenclaw

Last thing I googled: “Mata Hari date of birth”. We had watched the movie (with Greta Garbo) and I wanted to know how old she actually would have been during WWI.

Fave music: I like a lot of stuff! I like 30s and 40s jazz/swing music, 60s soul, 50s pop, and some classic country.

Song stuck in my head: The other day I was listening to “You’re the Reason” by Arthur Alexander and it got stuck in my head.

What I follow: A lot of old Hollywood blogs, either blogs that only post old Hollywood or people like me who post other stuff too, my friends from real life (well now it’s just one person cause the other left Tumblr), and some history blogs like @yesterdaysprint

Followers: 3748

Do I get asks: Sometimes, and I’d love to get more!

Amount of sleep: 7-9 hours

Lucky numbers: 8

What I’m wearing: Dark jeans and an embroidered blouse I bought in Mexico.

 Dream job: Film historian, but my more realistic ambition is to be a therapist and work with kids.

Dream trip: Europe! I’ve never been and I really want to. A bit closer to home, I’d love to see new York! It’s a bit ridiculous because it’s actually pretty close to Montreal but I’ve never been.

Favorite food: I like Mexican and Italian food. 

Instruments: My main instrument is the alto saxophone, which I started playing in sec. 2 (8th grade). I also play the piano a bit and I’ve been pestering my dad to teach me how to play the ukulele.

Languages: My mother tongue is English, but I’m also fluent in French.

Favorite songs: here are a few faves

“Lover Please” by Arthur Alexander

“I Can’t Get Started” by Billie Holiday

“The Waiter and the Porter and the Upstairs Maid” by Bing Crosby

“Jolene” by Dolly Parton

“You’re Awful” by Frank Sinatra

“Nevertheless (I’m in Love With You)” by Fred Astaire

“Get Happy” by Judy Garland

“Troubled Waters” by Ivie Anderson

“The Lady is a Tramp” by Lena Horne

“That’s How I Got To Memphis” by Solomon Burke

Random fact: I don’t have any earlobes. It’s a weird quirk in my family. My mom doesn’t have any either.

Aesthetic: My main aesthetic is what I like to call “vintage teenager”. I wear  lots of full skirts, sailor shorts, jeans cuffed at the bottom, cardigans, peter-pan collar blouses, small prints (like polka dots or tiny flowers), pastel colors, sweaters that are a bit too big for me, ballet flats, tennis shoes, etc.

tagging: @celiabedelia @thevintagious @sinatraswooners @avasgal @garygrant @thatweirdvintagegirl @classic-flicks-chick @genelizatierney @her-man-friday @classicfilmgirl

[teakwoods-ghost]

With Great Power

Ships: NA

Genre: Fluff, Vampire!AU

Word Count: 2.3K

Status: One Shot

Warnings: NA

Summary: It is commonly known that when a vampire turns two hundred years old they develop special powers. This is what Hakyeon, Taekwoon, and Jaehwan experienced when they turned two hundred. 

This is Part Four of the Clan Diaries series. To read from the beginning click here!

Hakyeon

Hakyeon remembers the day he first discovered his powers very well. He had been having little glimpses into the future for several years, but he chalked that down to him being a vampire. He was sure Taekwoon and Jaehwan had been having dreams like him but they just didn’t feel like telling him. So it was a bit of a shock to him when his dreams became more and more frequent leading up to his two hundredth birthday. He finally opened up to Jaehwan and Taekwoon about his recent visions. They admitted to him that they had never had dreams like he had. Once he heard that Hakyeon became concerned. Why was he having such vivid visions of the future in his dreams? It all came to head on the day of his two hundredth birthday.

The day started out normally for Hakyeon. He woke up, got ready for the day, and proceeded to try to wake up the other two vampires living in the house. But something felt . . . off. As he put his hand on the the door knob to Taekwoon’s room he suddenly felt like he had floated out of his body. He saw himself opening the door, just to be met with Taekwoon throwing a pillow in his face. Then he heard Jaehwan banging at the closet door, screaming about how Taekwoon had locked him in there when he tried to wake him up earlier. Hakyeon then felt like he was being yanked back into his body. He gasped, letting go of the door knob in his shock. He wrapped his arms around himself, as if to confirm he hadn’t floated away. Hakyeon’s eyebrows furrowed as he reached for the door again. He twisted the door knob and pushed the door open wide. He was quick to dodge the pillow that was thrown at him. Hakyeon was more shocked as he ran over to the closet, and sure enough Jaehwan had been locked in it. Hakyeon took a few steps back. “Hakyeon are you okay?” Jaehwan asked when he saw how pale the older had gotten. “I think so?” Hakyeon replied his right hand coming up to rest on his temple. Taekwoon looked concerned as he quietly led Hakyeon to sit on the bed. “What happened?” He asked. Hakyeon shook his head a bit. “You know how I have dreams of the future?” Jaehwan and Taekwoon nodded. “I think that just happened, but while I’m awake.” There was a moment of silence in the room. Taekwoon’s eyebrows furrowed. “Hold on a minute.” Taekwoon walked over to the shelves he had in his room. He scanned over the titles until he found the one he was looking for. “Jaehwan could you get Hakyeon some water?” Jaehwan nodded and went to do so. Taekwoon read over the pages of his book.

“I think I have an idea about what’s happening.” Hakyeon turned over to Taekwoon. “What’s your theory?” Taekwoon sat on the bed next to Hakyeon. “You turn two hundred today. From everything that has been written by other vampire clans it would seem we get special powers when we turn two hundred.” Hakyeon tilted his head. “So I can see the future?” Taekwoon shrugged. “Only one way to figure out right? See if you can see what I’m going to do when Jaehwan comes back.” Hakyeon frowned. “How am I supposed to do that?” Taekwoon shrugged. “I don’t know. Think about him?” Hakyeon sighed as he closed his eyes and focused on Jaehwan. He felt light headed and was once again ripped out of his body. He saw Taekwoon walking over to Jaehwan and dumping the glass of water over the unsuspecting man’s head. When he returned to his body he looked to Taekwoon. “You were going to pour the water on his head?” Taekwoon smiled. “So you can predict the future.” Taekwoon looked back to his book. “You must be a really powerful vampire. Usually it takes months for other vampires to master their power.” Jaehwan came back into the room then, and he gave Hakyeon the glass of water. “So what’s going on?” Taekwoon patted Jaehwan on the shoulder. “Hakyeon can see the future.” Jaehwan looked confused. “But why is he getting that power now?” Taekwoon shrugged once more. “No one has been able to figure it out. I guess vampires just get more powerful when they reach two hundred.” Jaehwan hummed. “So it’s like vampire puberty?” Hakyeon snorted. “I guess you could call it that. I hope it’s nothing like actual puberty though.” The trio laughed before going to properly celebrate Hakyeon’s birthday.

Taekwoon

Taekwoon had been very fearful of his two hundredth birthday. He knew Hakyeon’s power had been easy to control since he was a very powerful vampire, but Taekwoon wasn’t as strong. He was so afraid of getting a power that was dangerous to the people around him. He could only hope that he didn’t get anything like fire or lightning. He knew he would never be able to live with himself if one of his friends, well more like family, was injured because of him. Taekwoon never could have predicted how his two hundredth birthday would go.

Hakyeon had been warning him all day that something was weird about that day. The trouble was Hakyeon couldn’t see what was going to go wrong. Every time he tried he would see nothing, which led Hakyeon to believe something terrible was going to happen. But Taekwoon didn’t listen to him. In hindsight, Taekwoon was being a complete idiot for not listening to the older vampire. Usually he would have listened and stayed home with his clan, which had just gained two new members. But for the last eighty years Taekwoon had done the same thing for his birthday, and he wasn’t about to break tradition. Taekwoon would bundle himself up and head to the shops. He hadn’t told anyone about his little collection of things he found pretty, which is why he would limit his shopping for such items to one day a year. He would spend the entire day looking for the perfect gift for himself. When he found it he would sneak himself back into the house with his prize and hide it in a room that was hidden in his closet. Taekwoon smiled at himself at the thought of his “pretty room” as he called it. On days he felt like the world was crashing around him he would sit there for hours and just look at his treasures, admiring the beauty he felt he didn’t deserve to possess. So, foolishly, he ignored Hakyeon’s warning and bundled himself up. He walked to the shops, making sure to check that none of his clan members had followed him. The day was hard, since the shops didn’t have anything he felt he could put in his collection. That was until he walked into the toy store.

There, in the far back of the shop, was a little doll. Her dress was a beautiful shade of green, which matched the color of her glass eyes. Her hair flowed in black curls down to her waist, and she had the cutest little bonnet on. Taekwoon picked the doll up, and that was when he heard something. He must be buying that dolly for his daughter. What a lucky girl she is to have such a pretty doll. Taekwoon whipped his head around. The voice sounded like one of a child. He turned around and sure enough there was a little girl standing behind him, looking longingly at the doll in his hands. I wish I could have a pretty dolly. Taekwoon nearly had a heart attack. The girl’s mouth wasn’t moving. That was when Taekwoon knew he needed to get home. Now. Before he left he paid for the doll, and he bought the little girl a doll as well since he knew the guilt would kill him if he didn’t. The second he walked out of the shop he regretted coming. The street was crowded with people. Taekwoon took a deep breath and walked through the crowd, hoping he could make it home without any incidents. But suddenly he heard whispers. They started off as quiet little whispers, but they were quickly getting louder and louder until it felt like every thought the people around him had was taking turns beating at his skull. It was so loud, and Taekwoon felt like his knees were going to give out from the pain the noise brought.

He didn’t know how he managed to stumble his way home, but he must have looked dreadfully ill if the way the crowd parted for him was any indication. Hakyeon tried to greet him at the door but Taekwoon pushed past him, saying he felt sick and would be back downstairs after a nap. Taekwoon crashed through his bedroom door and locked it behind him before he locked himself in his pretty room. He could hear the thoughts that his clanmates were thinking. Their thoughts felt like knives stabbing into his brain. He took the doll he had purchased and held it to his chest, trying to will the pain away. Finally, he had managed to calm himself down and the pain faded. The thoughts buzzing in his skull turned into soft whispers once more. He took a few deep breaths before he stood up from where he had crouched on the floor. He placed the doll in her place, fixing her dress and hair in the process, and went to tell Hakyeon about his new power.

Jaehwan

Jaehwan was one of the first vampires in their clan to be excited about turning two hundred. Hakyeon and Taekwoon had such cool powers. Hakyeon had predicted the lottery numbers that got them the money to buy the house they were currently living in. Taekwoon had used his power on almost every sugar daddy he had so he always knew what they wanted and their intentions. He was so excited to get a power. So when he woke up on his birthday to nothing happening he felt cheated. Was this some sort of joke? It had to be since he wasn’t presenting any new powers. Jaehwan huffed as he made his way downstairs.

“Good morning birthday boy!” Wonshik called as he made his way down to breakfast. Jaehwan pouted as he sat down. “This is a bust of a birthday. I don’t have any powers!” Hongbin looked concerned. “Really? Ummm, maybe you’ll be like Taekwoon and your powers won’t hit you until the end of the day?” Jaehwan brightened up a bit that the thought. “You’re right! Maybe my powers are just a little delayed.” With his hope restored he enjoyed the day. The clan had agreed to do anything he wanted for his birthday and he was excited to just have a day for the focus to be on him. Jaehwan decided to go shopping first. Taekwoon sheepishly walked up to Jaehwan. “Is it okay if I stay home for the shopping trip?” Jaehwan was disappointed. He really wanted this to be a shopping trip with the entire clan. Taekwoon looked incredibly guilty. “I’m sorry. I know you really wanted all of us to go but . . .” The older man took a deep breath. “I’ve been really scared of crowds since I got my powers. I’m afraid of losing control and having that pain from the first time come back.” Jaehwan’s eyebrows furrowed. Taekwoon had never been so forward with his emotions before. It was kind of shocking to hear the older man open up so much. Jaehwan smiled and rested his hand on Taekwoon’s arm. “It’s fine. You can stay home if you need to. We have plenty of things to do once we get home so you can join us then, okay?” Taekwoon gave him a little smile before nodding. “I’m sorry.” Jaehwan patted Taekwoon’s shoulder before making his way to the front door.

The shopping trip was fun, and Jaehwan had a lot of new things as a result. Once the group got home they were greeted with a decorated kitchen. Taekwoon stood in the middle of the room holding a cake. “Happy Birthday Jaehwan!” Everyone yelled. Jaehwan couldn’t help but smile as he blew out the candles. “You guys planned this all along didn’t you?” Jaehwan turned to Hakyeon. “We did. We’ve been planning this for about three weeks now.” Jaehwan looked shocked. “You’ve been planning this for three weeks?” Hakyeon looked confused. “How do you know that?” Jaehwan laughed. “You just told me silly.” Hakyeon looked more confused. Hongbin spoke up. “No, he said we decided to do this last minute.” Jaehwan’s smile fell. “But I heard him say you guys have been planning it for weeks.”  There was a moment of silence before Taekwoon spoke up. “Jaehwan, tell me why I said I wanted to stay home today.” Jaehwan’s eyebrows furrowed. “You said the reason you weren’t gonna go was because you’ve been scared of crowds since you developed your powers.” Taekwoon looked shocked. “Actually I said that the reason I was staying home was because my stomach wasn’t feeling good.” Jaehwan couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Hakyeon seemed to catch on to what Taekwoon was implying. “Hongbin, lie about something.” Hongbin looked confused. “Why?” “Just do it.” Hongbin thought up a quick lie to tell. “I love Park Hyoshin.” Jaehwan rolled his eyes. “Hongbin, Hakyeon told you to tell a lie.” Hongbin looked offended. Hakyeon spoke up. “Hongbin did lie. He said he hates Park Hyoshin.” Jaehwan’s eyes widened. “But I didn’t hear that. I heard him say he loves Park Hyoshin.” Taekwoon smiled. “Looks like you’ve had your power this entire time.” Jaehwan turned to Taekwoon. “My power is?” Hakyeon answered the question. “You can only hear the truth. You’re like a human lie detector.” Jaehwan took a minute to process what Hakyeon had just told him before his eyes lit up. “I’m a lie detector!” Jaehwan screamed, jumping around with excitement. Jaehwan forced the clan to lie to him the entire night, enjoying the fact that he wasn’t cheated out of a power after all.

[mill3nniumforc3]

200: My crush’s name is: Russell :) 199: I was born in: April 1994 198: I am really: energetic 197: My cellphone company is: Verizon 196: My eye color is: hazel 195: My shoe size is: 7.5-8.5, depending on the shoe 194: My ring size is: 7.5 193: My height is: 5′5″ 192: I am allergic to: penicillin, cats, pollen, and strong scents 191: My 1st car was: I’ve never owned my own car. 190: My 1st job was: babysitting. First real job was a desk job at my university 189: Last book you read: I don’t remember. I don’t have time to read for leisure. 188: My bed is: comfy 187: My pet: Seamus the miniature schnauzer and Sugar the Aussie-mo 186: My best friend: Ashlyn 185: My favorite shampoo is: Dove 184: Xbox or ps3: neither 183: Piggy banks are: for kids and rainy days 182: In my pockets: nothing 181: On my calendar: going river tubing on Saturday, party next Saturday, trip for T’s birthday weekend, and possibly going to Kennywood and Kings Island sometime in August. 180: Marriage is: something for my future self 179: Spongebob can: do anything 178: My mom: is the bestest 177: The last three songs I bought were?: who buys music anymore? 176: Last YouTube video watched: probably an ASMR video 175: How many cousins do you have?: too many to count 174: Do you have any siblings?: three sisters 173: Are your parents divorced?: no 172: Are you taller than your mom?: yep 171: Do you play an instrument?: piano, drums, bells, and I know three chords of the guitar 170: What did you do yesterday?: sleep [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: sure 168: Luck: yes 167: Fate: maybe? 166: Yourself: depends on the day 165: Aliens: not really... 164: Heaven: yes 163: Hell: Do I believe in it? Yes, because God is just. Do I believe people are damned there? No, because God is loving. 162: God: yes 161: Horoscopes: no. It’s funny to see “horoscope” posts and see if they apply to me, but it’s a bunch of b.s. A bunch of Aries aren’t going to have the same day/month/year. That’s ridiculous. 160: Soul mates: I’m not sure if I do or don’t, but I do believe in love. 159: Ghosts: no 158: Gay Marriage: of course! 157: War: it’s an unfortunate and unnecessary part of life 156: Orbs: no 155: Magic: yes [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: both 153: Drunk or High: drunk 152: Phone or Online: online 151: Red heads or Black haired: no comment 150: Blondes or Brunettes: brunettes 149: Hot or cold: hot 148: Summer or winter: summer 147: Autumn or Spring: spring 146: Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate 145: Night or Day: night 144: Oranges or Apples: apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: straight 142: McDonalds or Burger King: McD’s (though I’m probably biased because I work there) 141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: both 140: Mac or PC: PC 139: Flip flops or high heals: flip flops 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: sweet and poor 137: Coke or Pepsi: neither 136: Hillary or Obama: Obama 135: Burried or cremated: I want to be cremated and have my ashes buried with a seed and grow into a tree 134: Singing or Dancing: dancing 133: Coach or Chanel: neither 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: Kat 131: Small town or Big city: small town 130: Wal-Mart or Target: Target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: Ben 128: Manicure or Pedicure: mani 127: East Coast or West Coast: east coast 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas. My birthday stopped being special after I turned 19. I get good food every year on Christmas. 125: Chocolate or Flowers: chocolate 124: Disney or Six Flags: Six Flags 123: Yankees or Red Sox: Indians [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: What is it good for? Absolutely nothing. 121: George Bush: he had some good policies. Better than Trump, that’s for damn sure. 120: Gay Marriage: should never be illegal again. 119: The presidential election: #FuckTrump #VoteBlueNoMatterWho #ImpeachTheMF 118: Abortion: all my life, I was told to be pro-life. These days, I don’t know anymore, but I think my beliefs are closer to pro-choice than pro-life. 117: MySpace: it’s not 2008 anymore. 116: Reality TV: glad it’s not my life 115: Parents: they’re doing their best. I’m not looking to be one anytime soon though. 114: Back stabbers: bye! 113: Ebay: Amazon is better. 112: Facebook: these days, I use it to get laughs and memes. I don’t interact with people I know IRL much. 111: Work: good for the money. Not good for my mental health. 110: My Neighbors: they’re ok. 109: Gas Prices: #ThanksTrump 108: Designer Clothes: I can get good clothes at Target. The only “splurge” I do for clothes is at Spencer’s or Kohl’s. 107: College: I plan to go back soon. 106: Sports: entertaining. 105: My family: family is life. 104: The future: anything can happen [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: Tuesday. 102: Last time you ate: a couple hours ago (chik’n patties and cheese) 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: last week. I saw a manager I hadn’t worked with in like a month. 100: Cried in front of someone: Monday 99: Went to a movie theater: July 2nd 98: Took a vacation: June 97: Swam in a pool: back in February 96: Changed a diaper: I don’t remember 95: Got my nails done: way too long ago 94: Went to a wedding: in April 93: Broke a bone: 2017 (broke my toe) 92: Got a piercing: 2006 91: Broke the law: never. I’m a good person. 90: Texted: three hours ago [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: Russell 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my dog 87: The last movie I saw: in theatres, Toy Story 4. At home, Adventures in Babysitting. 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: being off on Saturday 85: The thing im not looking forward to: working tomorrow 84: People call me: Vonnie, Vonn, Bonbon, Sophia, and “the girl” 83: The most difficult thing to do is: not cry while watching Grey’s Anatomy 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: never 81: My zodiac sign is: Aries 80: The first person i talked to today was: my sister 79: First time you had a crush: kindergarten. His name was Wally, and we were “boyfriend and girlfriend” til about third grade, and we remained friends til we graduated 8th grade. Haven’t talked to him much since. 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: Russell 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Sunday 76: Right now I am talking to: nobody because it’s 3:30am 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I hope to be teaching English education 74: I have/will get a job: I currently work at McDonald’s, but within the next 6-12 months, I’ll be moving out of state, so who knows where I’ll work.  73: Tomorrow: work 72: Today: work 71: Next Summer: I’ll be in a whole new state, so that means new amusement parks to visit and rollies to ride. 70: Next Weekend: party. Oh, and next Saturday makes officially 18 months with me and Russell, so go us! 69: I have these pets: two dogs 68: The worst sound in the world: the beeping in the headset when I work back cash. It haunts my nightmares 67: The person that makes me cry the most is: Heather because she sends me to back cash all the time 66: People that make you happy: Russell, my mom, my dogs, Ashlyn, and Aunt Dolly because she sends me lives on Candy Crush 65: Last time I cried: Monday 64: My friends are: Ashlyn, Mikayla, Jon, Rilee, Lamar, Tae, Alexus, Clare, Katie, Mario, and Kel 63: My computer is: all mine because I bought it with my own money 62: My School: not in school  61: My Car: don’t have one 60: I lose all respect for people who: lie 59: The movie I cried at was: Avengers: Endgame 58: Your hair color is: natural 57: TV shows you watch: Grey’s Anatomy, Once Upon a Time, House, The Simpsons, Bob’s Burgers, and... I don’t really watch TV because I don’t have cable. 56: Favorite web site: YouTube 55: Your dream vacation: Just a big coaster trip 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: my period this month. I had cramps for days leading up to my period that were so bad that, the day my period actually came, I couldn’t stand straight. 53: How do you like your steak cooked: I don’t eat steak 52: My room is: a mess, like my life 51: My favorite celebrity is: NPH 50: Where would you like to be: with my boyfriend 49: Do you want children: someday, but not today 48: Ever been in love: ohhh yes. 47: Who’s your best friend: not answering again 46: More guy friends or girl friends: i think i have a fair amount of both 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: this is tmi, but sex with my bf. 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Russell 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: yes 41: Have you pre-named your children: I don’t have any definitive names, but I’m thinking MaryGrace Linda for a girl, and James Sebastian for a boy 40: Last person I got mad at: Anna because she put me on back cash 39: I would like to move to: someplace south 38: I wish I was a professional: dancer.... no, writer.... no, why not both? [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: peanut butter cups 36: Vehicle: Jeep 35: President: FDR 34: State visited: North Carolina (not just saying that because I lived there for two months) 33: Cellphone provider: Verizon 32: Athlete: Trevor Bauer 31: Actor: Justin Chambers 30: Actress: Amy Poehler 29: Singer: Chester Bennington 28: Band: Linkin Park 27: Clothing store: Kohl’s 26: Grocery store: Marc’s 25: TV show: Grey’s Anatomy 24: Movie: 13 Going on 30 23: Website: Pogo 22: Animal: seal 21: Theme park: Cedar Point 20: Holiday: Christmas 19: Sport to watch: baseball 18: Sport to play: softball 17: Magazine: I only read magazines at the dentist office, and I’ll read whichever has an interesting cover story 16: Book: A Series of Unfortunate Events 15: Day of the week: Saturday, as long as I’m not at work. If I’m working, then Mondays, I guess... 14: Beach: Huntington 13: Concert attended: Winter Jam, because I got to see Skillet play, and I met Matthew West. 12: Thing to cook: desserts 11: Food: eggplant parm 10: Restaurant: Olive Garden 9: Radio station: Star 102 8: Yankee candle scent: vanilla 7: Perfume: I don’t wear perfume 6: Flower: Daisies 5: Color: pink 4: Talk show host: Ellen DeGeneres 3: Comedian: Steve Rannazzisi 2: Dog breed: I really like terriers lol 1: did you answer all these truthfully ?: For me to know and you to find out :)