#don’t mind me rambling

[panstrange]

the lack of shippers of taub and foreman in the house md fandom is insane. they lived together. they played videogames on the couch late at night. taub tried to get foreman laid and foreman brought taub to a strip club after the ruby thing. the whole study tutor stuff. I WONDER if the fact no one talks about them has something to do with one being a black man and the other not being conventionally attractive…

[dont-let-me-eat-pears]

no tv show ending has ever devastated me as much as merlin’s. and i haven’t watched “the diamond of the day” in years, but i still remember thinking the first time i finished it, back in 2013, that i maybe, with much reluctance and tears, maybe could’ve accepted that ending—

IF! it weren't for that final scene, with old merlin in the present day.

i could’ve comforted myself with the thought that arthur might rise again in just a few years, and even though gwaine still would've died tragically and pointlessly, at least merlin and gwen would get arthur back. but instead! we end on merlin alone, hundreds of years in the future, still waiting for arthur. which means gwen lost arthur forever, after so much angst and such a short time together. (she wouldn't have lost merlin, though. i don’t care what anyone says; there’s no way merlin wouldn’t have returned to camelot for at least her and gaius. plus, he hadn’t found out about gwaine yet.) and whenever arthur does return, it will be to a world where his wife and all his other loved ones, besides merlin, are long dead and gone. and sure, merlin still had people—gaius and gwen and his mother—to live for after arthur's death, but eventually, inevitably he outlived them all. to wait for arthur entailed losing everyone else.

so i can't quite comfort myself with the thought that merlin and arthur will eventually be reunited. because of what gwen lost. because of the losses arthur will awake to. because of the losses merlin has been carrying with him for hundreds of years.

so, no, i can't accept that ending.

[eepsy]

When ppl draw sun with blue eyes which contrast Moon’s red eyes it always reminds me of this image

[xlocalkatzx]

honestly I’m SO BAD. At drawing Dream. And interpreting him. Like, I love him. I love him a lot. But there are so many things to consider (for me at least) with his character?? Like I can’t get over how he’s basically like, the size of a 10 year old? And also I have no clue how I’m supposed to draw him sometimes??

It might be because of how little I draw him (which I really want to fix) but… if anyone has any tips for his character, just in general, PLEAAASE TELL ME, I’m so lost

[dick-meister]

Eldrich horror’s are some of my favorite things to explore only because like… how much of an enigma they are. Like, you cant imagine the incomprehensible. They’re creatures of impossibilities come to life. It’s like trying to imagine a ‘Grassy ocean of lava’ you can try and you might succeed with something but are you certain that’s 100% what it would be? Would everyone comprehend it that way?? Idk, it’s just cool and giving them an alignment/personification of good and evil brings a lot more to the imagination too.

[stargayzingidiot]

I get now why heartstopper makes me so emotional. I get why the show makes me so incredibly sad and happy at the same time.

Being queer I already knew the show would be somewhat relatable as it is about the queer experience. But I never realized just how much I related to the characters. It’s like watching bits of yourself in every one of them.

So many of their experiences are mine to some extent.

I relate to Isaac. His experience watching friends finding and falling in love but himself standing alone by the side always watching never finding or quite understanding what it’s all about. Just the immense confusion and loneliness that creates. And then finally finding the words to describe the way he feels and the relief and smile on his face when he picked up the ace book starting his journey to understanding himself. And I also just relate to being the quiet friend. The one who is always there but never a 100%. The one who has trouble standing up for themselves but never for their friends. I just love Isaac, okay.

Then there’s Nick. Someone who has so much love to give. Someone who spends a lot of time worrying about those he cares about. He has an absent father and a judging sibling. I relate to all that. I relate to him not knowing how to help someone with an eating disorder and feeling frustrated because all you want is for them to be okay. It’s like watching my own words on screen, begging someone to come to you if they feel bad and hoping they know how much you care about them. Nick makes me emotional.

Charlie. Charlie has a special place in my heart. He loves so loudly. He doesn’t want people to worry about him because he feels like he’ll be a burden. So he hides the pain behind smiles and love. He struggles so much in silence. And I just see myself when I see him. He’s very dear to me.

Tori is the protective big sister. Looking out for her sibling and doing everything to make sure they’re okay. She is me. I am her.

I relate to Darcy having a parent who you feel you have to walk on eggshells around because they get angry easily. I relate to Tao feeling awkward, unlikeable and difficult to love. I relate to Imogen trying to find a place to fit in and feel comfortable in.

So much of this show is just me. It makes me feel seen, heard, and most importantly loved.

[im-just-a-mississippi-girl]

I’ve been thinking about changing my profile pic to a pic of the Motor City Machine Guns.

Would it throw y’all off too much?? Or should I change it to Hangman??

Or maybe I should put one as my header and the other as my profile pic?? 🤔🤔

So many options that I can’t choose 🤣🤣 Help y’all!!

[bixy]

Man I had a friend in town visiting and I was supposed to see her Sunday after she took a nap flying in but her flight got delayed so we rescheduled for yesterday and like I made sure I wasn’t doing anything both days to see my friend and like, yesterday she didn’t respond to me all day and the next day she was like sorry I had a date and slept most of the day

Like bro I’m too old for this, I work a ton and barely have any free time for someone to just constantly do that even tho a few weeks ago kept messaging me how much they miss me with little heart emojis lmao

And like if you know you can’t just tell me in advance bc we were supposed to get food so I barely ate bc I’m not about to eat a ton before eating but whatever at least i still had time for the gym

[maskofredacted]

Thinking very hard about a Moon Knight x DC crossover where Damian is a knight of Khonshu

His alias will be Nightingale

Suit similar to Talia’s iconic white look

Little crescent moon cape

Crescent moons framing the sides of his domino mask

I was already writing a moon knight crossover a while ago but I’ve also always wanted to design Damian under a new identity outside of Robin so here I am I guess. Merging my two favorite superheroes 😌

I also feel like it’d be interesting to see how the moon knight system interacts with the batfam in general? And if no one’s gonna do it I’ll do it myself LMAO

[peasthedumb]

The un-ending desire to screech into the void

(Btw bois, unless I get surprised, looks like there will be no digital art from me until my B-day/ December)

[cupidskissx]

Are you ok with random questions? like, what songs would you associate with lestappen or max, charles individually?

Hello darling Anon,

Of course, my ask box is always open (except we don’t talk about the prompts I’ve had for months and haven’t finished yet 🫣, I will, one day!)

I once listed a few songs that made me think of lestappen here 🥰

I have been in a music funk for a while so I don’t really have many songs that make me think of them. However, there are a few songs from Niall Horan’s first album that I rediscovered a couple of months ago that scarily echo and incapsulate the themes and viewpoints from my Temptation’s Trajectory series. It still makes my mind spin how perfect of a fit they are!

Cross My Mind is quite literally Charles’ POV:

🎶 Leaving me in pieces, but I swear it's worth it every time

And it doesn't even cross your mind 🎶

San Francisco is Max’s subconscious which he really needs to listen to:

🎶 I want to let all my defences down

Scream until you hear me out

I'll lay it on the line for you 🎶

Still is very leatappen coded and maybe one day Max will jump on the honesty train:

🎶A thousand miles away from the day that we started

But I'm standing here with you just tryna be honest

If honesty means telling you the truth

Well, I'm still in love with you🎶

[exception-witch-proves-the-rule]

I get a lil excited every time I happen to see my content in someone’s masterpost 💕 a little surprise that makes me feel appreciated

[ink-n-shadow]

currently having the softest thoughts about dad!simon :’))

like the way he’s stripping off his Henley t-shirt at the hospital right after you give birth because he “read somethin’ about how bein’ skin to skin is better fer ‘em,” not wasting any time in letting your newborn child rest on his tattooed chest while you take a small break.

or how he would gently push you back into bed when the baby starts crying in the middle of the night (especially in those first couple of days), answering your mumbled annoyance with a smeared kiss to your forehead and pulling the comforter up higher around your body. “haven’t ‘ad good sleep in nine months, lovie—i’ll take care of the bug, ‘lright? tha’s it, go back to bed sweetheart.” takes care of the baby while he watches footy and rugby, one arm cradling the swaddled up little one against his chest as the other nurses half a beer (the other half having been poured into soap’s cup of whiskey, “fer added flavor”).

the boys actually enjoy having to transition from nights out to the bar to nights crowded in hours and simon’s basement. they all take turns cradling your newborn gently, snapping at each other when they get a bit too rowdy and more than happy to give you a break from the baby whenever you needed it.

[shepscapades]

Thanks to artfight, I’ve finally finished a detailed, official dbhc cub reference! :D

(I’ve put his Artifight description below the cut, which has a more detailed explanation of his timeline, lore, and aesthetics! >:3)

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  OVERVIEW ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

Name: C.B.F.N.4000 (Cub) Pronouns: He/Him Species: Android Height: 5’9’’ Associated Visual Themes: vex, ghosts, explosions, mischief, scientist aesthetic, potions, potionmaking, sleepy/tired aesthetic, conspiracies

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  ABOUT ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

CBFN4000 is an au version of MCYT Hermitcraft’s Cubfan, set in my DBHC (or Detroit Become Hermitcraft) AU! This au is inspired by the 2018 game Detroit Become Human, but not because it really has anything to do with DBH—I simply yoinked the android mechanics and incorporated them into the world of Hermitcraft. It began as a S8 au, and has roughly followed the hermitcraft timeline up to the present! 

Cub was the last android made during Season 8. While many of the hermit androids were made at the beginning of season 8 and a few were made for season 9, Cub was finished and activated mid-late Season 8, around the time when Hermits started noticing the Big Moon. Cub’s model ended up being a sloppy experiment in deviation, as Doc suggested they try to transfer deviancy to an android upon activation to try and avoid traumatic situations that might cause an android to deviate violently or upsettingly, such as Etho’s, Tango’s, or Mumbo’s experiences. While this went relatively well initially, it clearly wasn’t very thoroughly thought out, as Xisuma (who is normally so adamant and detail-oriented when it comes to assuring the androids’ safety with experiments like this) wasn’t truly himself due to external manipulation and mostly left a relatively young-deviant Doc to carry out the project himself. 

Cub, though adjusting to sentience rather well at first, very quickly became wrapped up in the Big Moon happenings on the server, new personality and inexperience to emotions like fear and ignorance completely overwhelming his young system. He became obsessive over the implications and consequences of the Season 8 Moon Apocalypse, joining the Mooners and spreading his conspiracy theories religiously throughout the server as he descended into madness. The insanity was like a virus to his programming, pervasive and all-engulfing, and Cub’s final attempt to free himself from the Moon’s impact with the Earth—to launch himself on a llama into space via potion-powered TNT(insane btw)— left his hands and feet singed and cracked to ruin.

The experiment, considered a horrific failure by a deeply shameful—and more awake—S9 Xisuma, left Doc and Xisuma with the decision to reset him for the new season, and they ended up pairing him with a hermit like they had done with the other androids until they had found deviancy enough to pursue their own projects. So, at the start of season 9 and fresh after a reset, Cub was paired with Scar. Naturally, because Scar is… Scar, Cub deviated almost instantly after being given to him, and very quickly adopted the iconic lazy, stoic, amused attributes normally associated with Cubfan. Scar’s tendency towards mischief and general shenanigans grew instantly on Cub, and the two were an immediate inseparable pair. So much so that when Scar began rambling one day about his Season 5 Hermitcraft Shenanigans (where deals with the Vex may or may not have been involved), Cub immediately stated he was interested in being in on it. Whatever “it” means. It’s unclear if Cub also made a deal with the vex or became connected to them in some other way, but… well, he got Doc’s help to trick out his eyes, hair, and back to best fit the part. Scar is very jealous that he can't magically make himself have the same features to match.

Cub is closest with Scar, but he gets along just as well with any of the other hermits! He’s close with Jevin and many of the other redstoners like Etho and Doc, who are the other two androids I’ve put on artfight!

-ˋˏ ༻ ❁  EXTRAS ❁ ༺ ˎˊ-

Cub's eyes can light up in the dark, and he’s the only android who has edited his programming so that the default state of his LED is white, not blue. It still will go yellow and red if his processors are working particularly hard, but he’s replaced the blue setting on his LED with white to better match the Vex vibe. Cub has all of the vibes of a fae. If that’s anything <3

[solarpunkani]

Hot 4am take but I feel like if we want to get people more interested in making their yards a more habitable space for wildlife like insects, we have to acknowledge that ‘Don’t want bugs in your house’ is still a 100% fair and valid point of view. ‘Loves nature’ and ‘doesn’t want roaches spiders and mosquitoes in the house’ aren’t opposites.

And with that in mind, when we propose to people that spraying pesticides around houses is Not A Good Idea, Actually, I feel like we need to give an alternative asides from ‘deal with it.’

[pocket-watcher]

Titnosis and dicknosis work so well in erotic hypnosis because you genuinely and get so lost in a beautiful person that you just end up staring at them, especially if they are making repetitive motions.

Body hypnosis supremacy