#don't mind me i haven't slept

[synthshenanigans]

Jashtober Day 31- Loop

//bright colors & glitches

I had Dream(OfC) on loop again can you tell?

Separate/isolated images below v

[monsamborabutterfly]

I really don't know but the happy ending loving little hopeless romantic in me really wants to see the typical route in only friends.

All three of the couples happy and in love in the end.

I know I know it's not realistic and given how messy this show is maybe not even a good idea. But angsty shit with a happy payoff is SO MUCH fun in fiction.

I even like that it's a little unrealistic. I'm watching these shows to escape reality.

Break my heart & put me through it but give me the sweetness in the end & the queers their happy ending please & thank you so I can swoon over pretty actors with good chemistry being all lovey dovey for a bit.

And yeah look here I could also see the messiest ending. Everyone broken and alone.

But messy and broken characters realizing that sometimes changing and fighting for something is worth it is just chef's kiss 💋

[carfuckerlynch]

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[necrotic-nephilim]

Fandom: DCU (Comics) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Helena Bertinelli/Dick Grayson Characters: Dick Grayson, Helena Bertinelli Additional Tags: Omega Dick Week (DCU), Omega Dick Grayson, Alpha Helena Bertinelli, Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Religion Kink, Religious Imagery & Symbolism, Catholicism, Cunnilingus, Praise Kink, Body Worship, Femdom, Timeline What Timeline, Gentle Sex, Mating Cycles/In Heat, Aphrodisiacs Summary: Helena does what should be a simple and easy mission with Dick. But when they both get hit with an aphrodisiac that only targets omegas, Helena learns interesting things about Dick and helps him through the worst of it. - Omega Dick Week 2024 - Day 5: Hidden Designation | Heat During A Mission

[pardonmydelays]

good luck at your new job!!! i hope you'll love it!

thank you so much edith!!! i hope so too!

[rawliverandgoronspice]

the animatic does end up with ganondorf's very public cancellation in front of the entire hylian court pre TP, and so I was thinking.............. will he play the organ for his apology video............

[sassypantsjaxon]

You know that post about how when deaf people get hearing aids or something, they're surprised that the sun doesn't make a sound?

Right. Now consider Hizashi 'Present Mic' Yamada (who is fairly commonly headcanoned as deaf) and who is a literal noisy sunshine

I don't know where I'm going with this, but I'm going

[natelia-aldelliz]

Okay, I slept less than 4 hours last night and none this night, so I'm getting kinda sleep deprived, so I decided I'm gonna share some personal headcanons about the birth dates of the boys!

It's a bit long but not that long, I just put it behind a read more so people who don't care can pass it more quickly 😊

I'm going only by feeling, it's also got nothing to do with the horoscope bc I have personal beef with it but anyway feel free to tell me if something makes sense anyway, I'm still really curious despite my grievances (I'm being dramatic for fun btw, my beef with the zodiac is not that bad)

Anyway, I feel like Soap is a June 1996 baby, because he's sunny, so a warmer month, not overbearing tho because he's soft, so not summer, so that leaves either early June or late September and I feel like June is hope and September is not, so June it is.

Gaz I feel like is a winter child, but not a cold one, so either December 1995 or March 1996, the years are because I think he's older than Soap but not by more than 6 months, which he still lords over his head.

Ghost is harder because he is shaped by his trauma and it does not represent who he might have been if he hadn't gone through all that. But I think he's a softer month, so no winter or summer, March and November are too cold still, but September and June are too warm so I think either October or April or May 1991.

I have no idea for Price tho, I feel like he could fit any month, cause he's protective and possessive enough for winter, hot headed and brave like summer, warm and nice like spring and headstrong and cold blooded enough for autumn... The only months I can't see for him are January, April, July and October but the rest are fair game...

I dunno the year, I think he's between 38 and 45 years old tho.

Alejandro strikes me as either August or September... It's this late summer nostalgy vibe of looking at the stars at 22:00, being sad that it's been night since 21:00 when just a few weeks ago the sun was still out, but the weather is still comforting and you can hear the ocean.

Rudy I think gives off soft but sad, so I'm gonna go with maybe late winter early spring? Or February, maybe... Mmh no maybe not... Oooh maybe late March or early April actually, he gives sudden harsh rains that stop immediately, with hot chocolate and cookies and flowers and puddles outside, and hugs.

I think both Ale and Rudy are around Ghost's age, like early thirties, they're the same year but Rudy is older.

I think Graves is a January if anyone wants to know, because he's a bitch and I don't like him (sorry for anyone reading this who was born in January, I'm sure it's not your fault /j) I also think he's late thirties, but maybe he just looks old because he's a terrible person.

I think Roach is either May, July or November because he gives "nothing can kill me until it does" and I think it applies best to those months. I think he's either 1992, 1993 or 1994, not younger not older.

If you want to put anyone else through my compleeeetely unbiased and true feelings (lmao) don't hesitate to tell me, be aware tho that I don't know the multiplayer characters beyond the few tiktoks I see.

If you agree or disagree please go ahead I love when people do tho I fear my only arguments is 'my brain associates feelings with months based on my personal experiences and memories and feelings, which wouldn't apply to another part of France, let alone another country, so I completely understand that you have completely different feelings' which honestly wouldn't make me win a debate, sadly, but thankfully I'm not competitive.

[jonsaremembers]

I think I'm having my first migraine, which is Super Cool, and made cooler by everyone and their mother telling me to get a full night of sleep. I have a toddler, get real.

[starryeyeddreamer21]

Manic episodes are such an experience because it's like

"Wow I feel so good right now. I don't think I've ever felt this good in my entire life like watch this I bet I can do a perfect backflip- No I've never tried to do a backflip before but that doesn't matter because I am amazing I am just so good like I can see it perfectly in my head"

"hmmm that doesn't seem right... When's the last time you took your medication?"

"Oh well um I ran out a couple days ago but I feel better now so like I'm probably cured"

[dirty-urie]

I wonder if Brendon got medicated for his ADHD, and that's why he was noticeably calmer, more mature, and slightly more detached on his last tour. I was reading a Reddit post where someone lamented that there weren't any tour vids, and someone responded that (allegedly) Jake Chams had said it was because everyone backstage was more mature and less interesting (I still would've loved to see B though 🥺). And I don't doubt Brendon matured "naturally" in the ~3 years he was MIA, but it is SUCH a distinct change from the PFTW tour that it seems strange there weren't any other interventions. And we know he was going through mental health struggles, so seeing a therapist and psychiatrist wouldn't be out of the question. I know he said he hated his ADHD meds when he was younger BUT A. Our brain chemistries change as we age B. There are different ADHD meds that I affect each person drastically differently C. His mindset could have shifted, improving his results. Especially knowing he had a kid on the way. Crippling executive dysfunction, inability to focus sometimes, and self-medicating with alcohol and weed are fine when it's just you to look out for, but that could pose a danger to a child. I'm not sure my point. I hope he's okay is all, whether that's medicated or rawdogging it.

[soultoken-archived]

john?

he shivers, pulling the coat stronger on himself. all the alcohol in his veins almost made him forget to be outside in the middle of the winter night, but now he's starting to feel it again. his liquor stained breath condenses in the chilling air, looking like the smoke he can't have because he ran out of cigarettes. it's freezing. but he's not moving. his eyes wander up, to the apartment he's been sitting in front of. his old apartment. their old apartment.

johnny...

a silhouette moves behind the curtains. maybe someone going for a glass of water, maybe it's just his own imagination. or maybe a ghost. but who or whatever that is, it has the same silhouette of des. it stands near the window for a moment, stretches. then it's gone. maybe they got back to bed. like he used to do, when john would call him, sleepily lying there after the only truly restful nights of his life. he would call him, and des would lie down again, just a little longer. just for him. but john didn't do the same. no, he had to sacrifice the only man he truly cared about to save his stupid, pathetic life.

you drank again, didn't you?... i know. don't worry. i know it's not easy to stop. but you promised me, johnny.

he realizes he's crying only when he feels his tears getting colder in the freezing air. why did he think he could handle a normal life with des? why did he think he could even remotely have a right for such a life? to try and take it, he ended up taking des' too, and they both lost them. if only he could stay away from him, if only he could stop lying to himself, saying stupid things like i can do this, i can live with him, everything will be okay, everything will get fixed, des would still be his own person, he would be free. and instead, he had to try and take it. the normal life. the life that he was never meant to have. and he just can't stop hearing his voice, now.

don't worry. i'll help you. you'll do better next time.

and he's always so kind. so extremely kind. and he doesn't deserve it. he doesn't deserve him. he never did.

you promised me, johnny.

but i can't keep any promise.

[be-my-sunrise]

i wanna punch someone in the face rn, i'm being so serious bc why tf did the people moving my stuff put all of the boxes in my room??? EVEN THE KITCHEN STUFF??! LIKE ????? IT LITERALLY SAYS "KITCHEN" IN BIG LETTERS🤡

[seasealwaters]

Long distance relationships are well and fun, until you get the physical longing to be with them at an ungodly hour, so strong that it actually, physically hurts you

[https-chaos]

Honestly one of my favorite things about my weird brain is when I get something I call "The Words". It usually starts with getting excited about something, and suddenly I'm typing out a monster fic or putting together a research essay in a quarter of the time it normally takes.

Another thing I do when I have The Words is talk nonstop. If you're in the room you're listening to me. If you're my friend I'm texting you nonstop. If you follow me you already know I'm posting. The Words are coming and there's nothing I can do about it. Luckily my friends love me despite (or because of!) the sms essays they sometimes get at 2am.

I just have so much to say! My fingers fly across the keyboard and so many words fall out of my brain, it's such a magical feeling

[dreamboatsandtrenchcoats]

I just want a full night's sleep and my privacy again 😭😭😭