No one else thinks the exact same way you do. What may be obvious to you may not be to someone else. Don’t base whether you think someone cares about you on you dropping hints and expecting people to get it. Most of the time, they’re not ignoring your hints on purpose. Start being upfront with people and telling them what you need.
BPD culture is feeling like you've lied about yourself when someone calls you a nice person, you've somehow manipulated them and they've fallen for your lies, because they can't honestly think that
You know what’s selfish? Breaking someone to the point where they don’t live. Breaking them so bad that they cant be fixed anymore. When they think of life, it’s synonymous to agony. They just survive each day. It’s not selfish to want to end it. It’s liberation from suffering. It’s selfish to do this to someone repeatedly and ask them to stay.
Cluster B culture is wanting to be a kind & loving & gentle person but lacking empathy, struggling with anger & hatred, and overall feeling like your personality disorder will never allow you to be the true Good Person you want to be
npd + bpd culture is not doing ask games because nobody bothers to send you an ask anyways. why bother trying when everyone is just going to fucking ignore you
I’m done, defeated. Some of us aren’t meant to be loved. Today is the day I will try to accept that. Keep to myself. It’ll hurt. A lot. A lot. But I’m done. My life has been agony and my fragile heart can’t take this anymore. I’ll always be an object. To be used then thrown away. I’m not good enough or worthy of being loved.