#effervescent!

[loemius]

just saw a centipede if you even fucking care

[sabrebash]

The Ballad of Bella Buttons (based on a true story)

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[effervescent-fool]

digital painting, tracked time: 2h 46m

[edgion-the-great]

My genius remains unrealised

[queertwilight]

as someone who has moved to a smaller city (30K people in total) for grad school, i would like to say twilight is wrong. the smaller the population the more people know you. i went to a cafe twice and they already know my order. 1000% everyone in forks knows the cullens are vampires and are just too entertained by how bad they are at acting normal to break it to them

[saccharinescorpion]

i know that if you look up any character on the Stardew Valley Reddit you'll eventually find at least one person who's hysterically angry about them for whatever bizarre reason but this is literally the "I like to play and draw" meme

[xensilverquill]

🐌 mama ragu & the pasta babies (castellane, gnocchi, orzo, farfalle, & penne)

(patterns (x)(x) by crafty intentions!)

[gaypirate420]

This is how I think Renesmee looks like, and I don't mean it as a eewww stinky demon doll baby.

I think she would look like a literal doll, porcelain skin but with the little blush and rosy lips, unusual eye color, healthy hair and precious curls. And the way Rosalie (yes, Rosalie not Bella) dresses her wouldn't help with her blending in with a normal human child.

I think most people go for the horrible looking puppet on Twilight that they kinda forget how she's supposed to look like.

And yes, I got my interpretation from the Illustrated guide.

I don't care about Renesmee enough to hate her, she's a little creepy and I love that honestly, you go demon baby! terrorize everyone around you, girl!

[cononeillbreastingboobily]

Twilight remake where everything is the same except Bella is played by Kristen Stuart as a full on dyke a la her character in Love Lies Bleeding, Edward is played by Robert Pattinson but he's doing the Heron's voice from The Boy and the Heron, and Jacob is played by Taylor Lautner's wife, Taylor Lautner.

[gravehags]

never forget what he took from us 😔

[purplepenguintime]

Everyone’s favourite slug girl is back! 

I fell in with with the fit they wore in the gallery nucleus piece Dana did so I just had to draw it!

[dewitty1]

Ride like the wind, lil buddy...

[fawnnbinary]

this doesn't count as in public, I'll say it: Boys w Big Boobs

[effervescent-fool]

devastating: local heartthrob only has eyes for his cringefail loser boyfriend