#elo rambles

[queermentaldisaster]

I crave soft Ghoap...

Give me Ghost constantly avoiding sexual intimacy with Soap because he's still working through that trauma from Roba.

Give me Ghost breaking down, feeling like he's a horrible boyfriend because he can't even be intimate with his boyfriend.

Give me Soap finding him in the midst of the breakdown and helping him through it.

Give me Ghost Simon opening up to Soap Johnny

Give me Johnny telling him that he'll wait until Simon is ready.

Give me their first time.

Give me Johnny comforting Simon and reassuring him the whole time.

Give me soft and tender Ghoap sex.

Give me Johnny helping Simon work through his trauma the best he can.

[paulmcclocky]

hi have this

[bilbao-song]

!!! i officially have three concerts secured >:)

[set-wingedwarrior]

We all celebrating the bees and the fact that we got to slowly see who Blake actually was all along underneath the pain and trauma and this is all awesome, but can we get a minute to apreciate how hopeful this portrayal of Blake is?

Like, it's not just about seeing what she was like before, but the fact that she was able to get and be herself again!

When we go through so much pain we are so afraid to lose who we are, to "never be back to who we were". In a way, it's true that we'll never be exactly the same, but that applies even if we don't get through hard times simply because changing is part of growing up. We're constantly evolving during our life and we never stop, but that doesn't mean that we'll lose who we are!

I'm rambling, what I mean is that seeing how you don't lose who you are at your core and that you can get back to it and be yourself again, even after the worst times, even with all the added knowledge and experiences, is such a great and positive message.

I will never thank CRWBY enough for giving me this through Blake, and I'm beyond happy for being able to witness her arc like this.

[forestshadow-wolf]

Why are the mooties that shouldn't be awake right now.... awake 🤨

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

I'm thinkin maybeeeee more c.S jump cancel backward > fuck off on Axl pressure for certain MUs. Fucking around with Wild Assault for longer blockstrings and pressure is cool and works sometimes but I think if I just play slower at certain intervals and back off and force them to play "Axl's Whacky Maze" (neutral) again I'm more likely to win games. Pretty sure most of my losses and missteps come from pretending I'm Sol Badguy and not giving up my shitty pressure which leads into overextensions and then me dying, and the other times it's leading into a crummy post wallbreak situation without a HKD or sucky damage because Axl Low hates killing people. Which is fine it's how it should be but if I keep refusing to accept that this is Neutral Zoner Man most of the time then I'm just gonna piss myself off and wonder why I'm losing LOL.

[artbyeloquent]

Hey I wanted to say I think you’re a good writer and I hope one day to purchase your novels

I kept this ask for a very long time.

It made me a little upset, at first. I saw half a dozen other blogs on my dash receive it and, for whatever reason, it hurt a bit that the words weren't personalized. (Perhaps it was a little, "how could you know you want to read my novels if you don't know what they are? Maybe you'd hate them.") But I couldn't bring myself to post anything saying that, because these are kind words all the same. And kind words are in such shortage--I certainly don't want to repay them with anything other than equally good ones in return.

But it was very hard for me to summon up kind words, because that period in which I received it was very hard. Regrettably, it only got harder, so I never answered it. It wasn't fair to lash out at a sweet anonymous message bc my mental health was low.

So i kept it in my ask box, and each time i read it, it meant a little more. I got a little less grumpy and a little more appreciative. Now I'm looking back at it, after what a hellish year 2022 has been for me, at how hard it has been to do the most basic tasks--brush my teeth, get dressed, take myself to work every day. Copy-pasted or not, nonnie took the time to navigate to my page, paste or type it in, and hit send. That was a lot more energy and kindness than I was able to spare for a long while. And a lot more kindness than I was willing to give myself.

But now I'm a little stronger, and a lot more grateful. I hope whoever sent this dear anon message has had a bit better of a year than me. Or, if not, has a better 2023. I hope you're doing well, and that you're still creating, still enjoying, still rejoicing.

The point of me saying all this is just to remind myself and anyone who needs to hear it that we aren't perfect. We aren't always going to think kind things about ourselves or others or put good energy where it needs to be. But when we do, it's a lot more powerful than we necessarily think it is. And I hope for the days where we feel good enough to say the kind things we think. And do the kind things we want to do.

I hope 2023 is a sweet and generous year for you.

[nero-neptune]

no, i don't believe in gatekeeping music. but i do draw the line at calling "classic rock" a genre. a grouping of decades doesn't make something a genre bc that's not what a genre is.

[egoarc4de]

TAG GAMEEE 

6 albums that were a big part of your childhood!

tagged by @chocopinda :))) !!! thank u i am finally getting to this lolol 

if u see this i am giving u a free coupon to be tagged by me and do this i dont want to bug anyone!

[queermentaldisaster]

I want to see Pav trying to mimic Hobie

GIVE ME PAVITR PRABHAKAR TRYING TO BE LIKE THE COOL OLDER(ish) SPIDER-MAN

[love-overdrive]

Could Mary’s stand and Heaven’s Door be considered the bride and the ugly ass groom core

I had to look up what this was (apparently I really live under a deep rock) but-

NO they could not BECAUSE HOW COULD YOU LOOK AT HEAVEN’S DOOR AND THINK HES THE UGLY ASS GROOM??

HES JUST A LIL BABY?? A SILLY GUY??? HE JUST LOVES HIS TALL WIFE THATS ALL!!

The real ugly ass groom is Rohan (affectionately)

[bilbao-song]

i like jeffrey

[ryderdire]

Thinking about the cy trio again my brain is spinning

[paulmcclocky]

elo posting

[tygah]

my fav part of cs2 comp is getting flamed for 5 rounds straight about my inventory worth =/= skill and how its private, only to absolutely unload on them for a minute straight after reaching my breaking point (no slurs or anything problematic, just telling him how much of a disappointment he is in life and how pathetic he sounds from an outsiders perspective) and have them not say a single thing in voice or text for the rest of the match aside from a gg in text after we fucking won.

[cursed-elo-images]

I’ve listened to the song I tagged in my recent post.

If anybody sees this post and hasn’t seen the post I’m referring to, and has NO idea what I’m talking about, I drew something cursed you can find on my blog and the song I’m referring to is “Confusion” by of course ELO.

It’s not one of my most favorites, but it’s a really good one.

Well, I think I just ruined the song for myself. (half jokingly)

While I said the above phrase in jest, there is some truth to it.

But first, I must mention my backstory.

The Backstory of the One and Only, cursed-elo-images Herself

My relationship with ELO started in March 2020. This was right before lockdown, and a parent of mine showed me a copy of ELO’s “greatest hits all over the world” CD, and we decided to play it in the car. I did like them, but I didn’t really listen to them much that month (really just a little bit of Elton John and some David Bowie too who are also good), but I decided to in April that month. I fell in love with them. I did however discover them in 2018 but didn’t feel like trying them out since I wasn’t into classic rock during that time besides Queen, since I listened to a few vocaloid songs. I also had “Don’t Bring Me Down” stuck in my head in late 2019, for some strange reason, but again didn’t feel like trying them out at the time, since I just liked Queen then. (Also a very good band, and I should also mention I stopped liking vocaloid music in early 2019 and Queen was what brought me back to classic rock)

Since then, I’ve listened to this band a lot, usually during the spring-summer because those seasons I find “enhance” the experience, I suppose it’s to invoke the nostalgia I felt when they first touched the neurons in my ear canals. I have went on a hiatus in 2021 though, because I temporarily replaced them with British rock band Sweet, which are arguably MORE underrated than them, but came back to ELO since… not to slander Sweet but, ELO is just more interesting and sensorily pleasing. I wasn’t really interested in the members, just the music. This lasted from 2020 to March this year. I did try to memorize the members of the band last year, but again I wasn’t really into the fandom, I just liked them as background music/shoving their music into my ears whenever I feel like it, which was a lot, but not on the same level as me immersed in David Bowie’s many personas and the fandom side of THAT.

I don’t know what got me interested in drawing ELO members or reading fandom posts about them, but here I am. I love being this way, and it gives me more people to be interested in so I take this as a win. They just have that adorkable charm to them.

Why I’m Obsessing over ELO’s Confusion

Now the context is out of the way, let’s discuss why I’m obsessing over their “Confusion” song. Like I previously mentioned, I liked the song to listen to sometimes, and to use as background music. Yes, even when I was blissfully unaware of the members and the fandom, and the future that was to come of me drawing the most bizarro cursed nonsense shlock (affectionate) regarding the band. It’s a nice song, detailing the (in my interpretation, yours might differ) confusion, shock, and sadness one feels after breaking up with their significant other. However, I, being the equally cursed weirdo that I am, decided to use that song for the dreaded (affectionate) Melvyn bread train doodle. Why? Because that was the theme of the drawing. Did I need to add the song? No, but I thought it would be funny and look cool. Then when I clicked on the Spotify link I heard a snippet of the song and I unfortunately applied the lyrics to the drawing, implying that the band lost… Melvyn’s… human(?) form and became that cursed abomination (affectionate) and have their feelings about it.

Now, instead of being at peace with their music (specifically Confusion) I am now going to think of that drawing every time I listen to it. Just great (lightheartedly sarcastic).