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pastelpool · 3 months

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DEADPOOL AND WOLVERINE BOUTTA BE THE GREATEST MOVIE EVER MADEEE

#deadpool #deadpool 2 #deadpool 3 #deadpool and wolverine #ryan reynolds #hugh jackman #marvel #mcu #i’m actually crying right now #like full blown breakdown #losing my fucking mind #i won’t shut up about this #ever for as long as i live and breathe

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aq2003 · 7 months

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i feel murderous intent within my bones whenever i see someone calling ten whiny for his "i could do so much more" speech . do not ever talk about him ever again. EVER again. i am in your walls

#dr who #anyway ever regain your will to live bc you've connected with someone that you (bleeding heart. loves people as easily as breathing) see as #almost a father figure . and he tells you that youre a wonderful person and that he doesn't want you to die/sacrifice yourself #(he's known you for such a short amount of time. but he knows how much you mattered to his granddaughter and that means so much)#and then just as you think youve finally made it and survived despite everything you have to sacrifice yourself for him. so he can live #he screams about how it's unfair and IT IS. ITS SO UNFAIR. and also because he's made his decision the second he saw wilf stuck there.#'oh i've lived too long' is how he makes peace with it. he's only lived for six years.#i cried again typign these tags turns out im not over his death lmfao somebody lobotomize me #10 era

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gxlden-angels · 2 months

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RUBY FRANKE AND JODI HILDEBRANDT SENTENCED TO 4 TO 60 YEARS IN PRISON LETS GOOOOO

#Ruby pled guilty to the charges #She'll likely stay about 30 since that's the current limit legally in Utah for consecutive sentences #But that's only if she's sentenced to the maximum sentence possible #15 years for each case of child abuse #for a total of 4 cases and 60 years #her adult children aren't considered methinks #similar to how a therapist can't tell authorities you're being abused after u turn 18 without your consent #idk how much she'll get seeing as they're in Utah #so there's a lot of ppl that genuinely believe she has a right to do anything to her kids short of killing them #if it means they stick with the religion for as long as they live #some do believe killing ur kids should be allowed tho if it saves their soul or whatever #I disagree with both obviously I think you should be hit with hammers if you treat your kids anywhere near like this #but Jodi better get got those aren't even her fuckin kids got damn #I hope they both get the maximum sentence but especially Jodi cause she absolutely exhasterbated this paranoid mom's shit #Ruby isn't innocent in the slightest she was fucked before Jodi ever showed up #but I fully believe Jodi pushed her closer to this extremen #extreme*#and I hope we start to chip away at the religious exemptions we still have in the US when it comes to child abuse #'spare the rod' spare ur fucking breath if you hit a child I'm gonna hit you with hammers #ex christian #religious trauma #child abuse

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thepinkseashell · 8 months

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<3

#before its not boston2's birthday anymore i have to make a sentimental little post about her. because i love her. so here goes.#that day actually kind of changed my life a little bit.#i had been very deeply unwell for years and i think that was the day that a little switch flipped in me and the ice began to melt #and i started to be okay.#i dont think i had ever experienced that type of sheer joy and elation and relief and catharsis and it just sortof sent a shock to my system #like. this is real! you are real! you are alive!#you are capable of feeling and existing and being so do it! go. exist. be. live. breathe. and god did i fucking try #and i cant say it was suddenly easy after that. of course not. it is still not quite easy now. but its gotten better. little by little #i started doing things more. i started seeing myself more as human.#and things sort of snowballed and now i feel like im on the cusp of something. i dont know what.#the cusp of living. the cusp of being alive. the cusp of being human.#its the same but different. i was so very dead and just barely teetering into not dead and now im not dead and teetering into alive. i think #i am not substantially different than i was a year ago. not on paper. but i have hope now. i have a little sliver of something.#i have clawed at the wall long enough to dig a hole and goddamn it im climbing through it if it kills me.#boston2 was a catalyst for me. a celebration. an invitation. an apology. a love letter. a hug. a kiss. it was my permission to be okay.#and maybe i am. maybe i will be.#i love you boston2. thank you for everything. i will exist. i will live. i will breathe. and my first breath will be for you.

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smallmightsfantastictwink · 2 years

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Like father like son

#first and foremost I am a toshien stan #toshien is toshi x me and I WONT apologize for that cringe #yes I came up w that on the spot #secondly I do ride the erasermight train CHANGE MY MIND YOU WONT #sometimes a family is an insomniac his skeletal husband his loud mouth radio announcer husband and their lesbian best friend #thirdly I will live die and breathe tododeku BUT but #anyone that treats my baby boy w respect and love I am okay w #i would prefer to see tsuchako but if izuchako happens I won’t be angry #fourthly this is a bakudeku hate blog and I won’t apologize for that either #i love my feral baby boy but he has hurt my lil green sheep too much for any chemistry to ever work like that#also kiribaku is number one irreplaceable fav so #anyways pls enjoy #it took me way too long #BNHA #mha #Deku #midoriya izuku #tododeku #izuchako #shindeku #iidadeku #all might #small might #Yagi Toshinori #erasermight #aizawa shouta #eraserhead

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rutadales · 8 months

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Stages?

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STAGES IS MY BABYYYYY i love writing about grief and loss of self, and how to cope with that. C!Dream is perfect for that type of analysis. It started bc I really wanted a way to explore dream and bads relationship and their similarities. They both lost their families and both believe that what happened to them was mostly self inflicted. there's a lot to explore there. And of course I love rivals duo and also wanted to write a scenario where techno isn't able to repay the favor. And, ya know, healing and growing together is such a good trope.

I already have the first chapter posted on my AO3 but I've written so much for this fic but still never managed enough to finish another full chapter ughhughhuh. I've also posted some of this fic here but there are so many nuggets I've written that I'd love to share (sorry all my excerpts are so long 😭😭)

"I can barely walk, I can't fight-! I'm helpless. I'm at everyone's mercy and I hate it." His hands are shaking, the pencil moving like a record needle— up and down and up and down— in his weak grasp. Dream wants to steady it but can't, hasn't been able since Quackity's first visit, and he hates that too. His body isn't his anymore. It's a malfunctioning tool, but there's no fixing it. No quick repair. There's no fixing him.

Nothing can cure him, not potions, not time, not XD. He's broken, plain and simple. And all that's left is crossed wires.

A hand lays over his own and Dream looks up into Techno's eyes. His hand still tremors underneath the warm grasp, but it hurts less, now.

"You're not helpless, Dream. You're not. You're just changed, and I know that hurts. And I know I can't fix that but let me make it a little easier for you." His voice chokes on the last syllable, the emotion making it crack.

Sweat pools on the back of Dream's neck as he quickly adverts his eyes. A million thoughts run through his head, seeing Techno's care so plainly on display. He can't bring himself to pull away though.

"I don't get it." It's an admission he wouldn't make normally, but Dream wants to understand at least this about Techno, if nothing else. "You've more than repaid the favor, you don't owe me anything anymore."

"Yes, I do." Techno says, so quietly Dream is half convinced he didn't hear it at all, before Techno continues as if he hadn't said anything to begin with. "When are we just going to admit we're friends, Dream? We can be that to each other, you know."

Now, he does pull away, just barely. Their hands touch still, if only slightly, and the contact burns.

"Fine," Techno speaks, not with anger or frustration. "I'm doing it because I'm selfish. I like having you around, and keeping you healthy makes that easier. Not to mention you're skinny enough to be one of Phil's scarecrows. We can hang you out in the fields and you'd scare all the crows off, nice and easy. That's why I'm doing this, for the good of my crops."

Dream furiously ignores Techno's smug smile when that draws a laugh out of him, but it doesn't get rid of the pit in his stomach. Dream knows what happens to his friends.

He doesn't want that for Techno.

#root writes #c!dream #c!techno #c!rivals #rivals duo #dreblr #my BABYYYYYYYY #I had started to write stages when I was going through one of the worst depressive episodes of my life #and every plan and goal I had for myself had gone out the window and suddenly I didn't recognize myself anymore #I had no idea what I was going to do or be or how I would get past it #and it's taken years of struggling and fucking up to even get to a place where I'm comfortable again. where I have room to breathe #i still have a long long way to go and recovery is a huge task #and I wanted to capture all of that into my writing #the confusion hurt defeat hopelessness. the grief of it all. cdream is a really good vector for that #especially the idea that someone as fucked up as him can learn to live again then so can I.#day by day babyyy #Also just realizing ur not who you used to be and ur not who you wanted to be and you can never be either is such a painful feeling #grieving who you used to be and grieving who you almost were. and you'll never be either ever again.#we can never go back we can never go back ect and so on

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quietwingsinthesky · 1 month

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i have many many thoughts about rose & tentoo and how their relationship would evolve in this verse. about how you can't just take the love you have for one person and put it on someone else. not even a clone, a regeneration, a metacrisis. about how that doesn't mean you can't love them, or that you can't fall in love with them the same way, but that love has to be for them.

#it is relevant it just isn't relevant. right now.#but i do think about them a lot.#i think about them still living their lives after even leaves. think about rose and donna bonding. think about rose working for torchwood #and seeing a new side to jack and new sides to herself as well because she has to be there for the whole CoE thing.#think about tentoo transitioning because she is trans have i mentioned she's trans yet. she is. even doesn't know that yet because they #weren't there but they will someday.#i think about them all being at donna's wedding. and about a rose noble who grows up knowing the woman she took her name from.#they're a fambly..........#i think about rose actually not keeping the whole doctor/aliens/mind wipe for your own protection/etc thing from tentoo for very long #about how working through both that being kept from her but also how it was killing rose to do that. how rose had to tell her.#is a fundamental part of what they build everything on now. they grow together.#i think about donna missing someone who isn't there and how sometimes with tentoo she feels a little better but it isn't exactly right #and how as time goes on. that feeling goes away more and more. her grief over losing the doctor *increases* as tentoo grows into a differen #person. she is still. fundamentally. the doctor. but she is also johanna tyler. and donna loves her. and still misses the doctor.#and i think. a lot. about that empty space that even leaves behind. about how they aren't there for donna's wedding.#about how they aren't there when rose noble is growing up. about how they disappear one day and no one ever tells rose or donna #or johanna or *any of them* what happened. i think about how they put up missing posters. i think about how rose holds her breath #for a whole year because hell the doctor got it wrong once with her. maybe they're just late. maybe they'll be back in time for christmas.#but even doesn't come back. they keep a picture of even on the mantel. and they do set an extra plate at christmas. just in case.#a lot of times it stays empty but they sometimes have other impromptu guests. martha and mickey and jack. jack comes by a lot.#couldn't keep him away if they tried really. sarah jane comes sometimes too. (sky babysitting rose noble. ough.)#something about. the doctor does have a family out there. if he'd only come home to them.#so does even. they're both going to have to go back sometime. face the music. sit down for dinner.#there's still time. there's still time.#dw oc

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sonknuxadow · 1 year

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does anyone know if there are any solid rules regarding underwater animals in the sonic universe and if they need water to survive or not? i know later issues of archie sonic had a lot of characters who were from the ocean but i cant remember if this was ever clarified or not because my memories on some parts of archie sonic are a bit fuzzy

#like i know they can still breathe on land and walk on land and they wont just immediately start dying when they leave the water #but do they need to stay near the beach or have some kind of water source on them ?#can they only go so long without water before they start not feeling so great ?#or is it not that deep.#i think princess undina had an umbrella that dripped water on her when she was living on land for a while #but idk if that was a necessary to her survival thing or an aesthetic thing #and i also remember a lot of issues involving the underwater characters took place on a beach or a boat or something #also i know mimic from idw sonic exists and my memories on stuff involving him are Also a bit fuzzy #but i dont remember it ever being mentioned that he needs water ? but hes also the only underwater animal in idw #so for all we know he could just be an exception and not whats typical for underwater animals in idw #i think theres some underwater characters in aosth too but. i havent watched any of the episodes with them so idk #im just wondering becuase i really wanna make a sonic oc based on a marine animal of some kind #but idk if i should account for the water thing or not. i mean i kind of want to because i think it could be a fun idea to play around with #but if its not really typical for underwtaer animals in sonic to need water then it wouldnt really make sense would it

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whodarestoloveforever · 3 months

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Hard to believe this was a year ago today.

I’m still so grateful I was able to see POTO the night of the 35th anniversary; it actually brings me to tears. 💕

#POTO #y’all if I think about it too long I start to fuckin cry #nothing will ever live up to that night I stg #because if I’m being real w y’all…getting to experience what I did made me content w/ being alive for the first time since I lost Mercury.#like I remember thinking to myself toward the end of the show ‘maybe it’s ok I’m still alive bc things like this make it worth it’#like ik some ppl would read that and be like ‘it’s a fuckin musical it’s not that deep’#but it fuckin is. I’ve loved POTO for almost 20 fuckin years #and I experienced something that made me feel true happiness in I don’t know how fuckin long #also not to brag (and sound insane) but *ahem* I was in the same room as ALW. Like I was breathing the same air he was breathing 😭#AND I got to sing with Emile and Ben…yeah so maybe it was ‘happy birthday’ bUT FUCKIN STILL

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rule-number-3 · 2 years

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10h blinky

#dont worry hes ok #just a book shelf falling #nothing bad will ever happen to blinky #ever #not as long as i ever live and breathe #blinky #blinkous galadrigal #trollhunters #toa #tales of arcadia #toa wizards #blood #blood tw

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pepprs · 2 years

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also the favoritism thing is still making me so fucking mad and insane btw. im not jealous / resentful of my brother bc he deserves her love and is also burdened in his own ways by it and bc i think my drama w my mom has shaped my life in profound ways and given me friends i cherish and i would never trade any of that for the world but jesus fucking christ. why do i have to beg you to interact with me like a mother. why do i have to talk to me at all beyond asking me to do you 847439473 favors a day. why do i have to beg you to take an interest in my life and apologize when you hurt me and be nurturing and perceptive for once in your fucking life. like it hurts to hear her asking him about his classes and whatever bc she didn’t think i was stressed out w school but i had to talk to a ****** hotline last decemver when i couldn’t take it anymore and my mental health was crashing and burning and it doesn’t even fucking matter to her at all and she’s going to get him the nice gifts and throw him the nice parties and whatever because she hates me and my sister for… and let me get this straight… being complicated and anxious and depressed and also girls. lol!

#purrs #delete later #sorry i knowive been insane about momposting but this shit has me screeching like an ape. the way when my brother was born she decided me #and my sister would be okay with each other bc we were twins and meanwhile she was leaving my sister to have anxiety attacks and me to take #care of her and all of this happening at like 7 years old and she would come into my brothers room every single night and kiss him goodnight #and talk to him for a long time and she wouldn’t even come in and say goodnight to us. LOL. ok. like our room being a depression nest is not #an excuse. us not helping out much in the kitchen or around the house (which is bad but also we have reasons for it that i think are valid #and i only do it here and not elsewhere btw.) is not a good excuse. you can’t decide you love your one kid more because he helps out and #keeps his room clean and whatever. maybe he is normal because you made it very clear from the time that he was born that he was your top #priority and you gave him your attention and didn’t take it away meanwhile my sister and i have always had to share bc we’re twins and she #cast us aside when he was born and has fucking tormented both of us for years over who we like what we want where we go all of that shit and #then has the AUDACITY to call herself a good mother. being a good mother is more than feeding your kid and projecting your childhood trauma #onto them by preventing them from ever developing cancer to the point where they’re afraid fo like. go outside. you have to be patient and #nurturing and kind and like.. motherly. ans i know no one can be a perfect mother and she has been hurt so badly and she is dealing with a l #lot right now but COME ON. for gods SAKE. i am right fucking here. why don’t you care about me? why do you make it clearer every day?#ask to tag #like the way she would say when my sister and i were growing up and going through it that she wished she could book a hotel and live there f #far away from us and miss out on us growing up so she wouldn’t have to deal with us being anxious and hormonal because we were teenage girls #LOL. totally did not impact me at all. totally is not a wound that informs every breath i take and every thought i have. not at all #* like maybe he is normal because you uh… idk. just a guess here. actually gave him the motherlove people need to be functioning healthy #human beings? idk. just a silly thought. haha

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benbraeden-a · 1 year

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get friends who will randomly call you and tell you how amazing you are and you both just talk about positive things to uplift one another.

#ooc.#the best compliment i could have ever curated for her; and it's the truth:#is that she BREATHED life back into me.#i felt stagnant for so long and she taught me how to live my life again.#and i love that in a friendship.#and i just love that she called and we talked about how important we are to one another.#i appreciate and love my friends so much?#endlessly?#i always tell my friends 'love you' before i hang up the phone because i've always done that.#and i've noticed that they started to do it BACK TO ME.#I GOT EMOTIONAL.#don't mind me; just crying over how amazing my friends are to me.

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bo0zey · 2 years

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everyday i wake up against my will n im lettin y’all know now that i’m abt 1 more waking up against my will day away from somehow someway making it god’s personal problem

#blueface baby ayyy #i love my cat but sometimes i am annoyed bc if it wasn’t for his existence i would said sayanora Long ago lmao #i wanna d word i was not supposed to make it past 18 i’m so fucking angry #im not gonna amt to anything in life i’m so scared of it all so pathetic and weak #i’m too weak for this world someone else can have my place i was never supposed to be here anyways hahah i’m not good at anything #i have zero talents ive wasted 10 years of my life writing books and publishing nothing i live in my stupid dreamworld #i don’t know how to hold a conversation i don’t want to go outside i want to rot in my bed i am so sick of myself #also don’t come in my ask box on some wahwahwah stop self pitying crybaby grow up ok bc i’ve literally been telling myself that for years #if someone walked up to me rn n was like here have this euthanasia pill and i knew my cat would #be safe and happy w someone else then yes i would take it in a heartbeat lmao no water necessary !!#im a burden to my family a financial burden all i’m good for is putting more debt unto others how USELESS!!!!!!!!#i have no friends but it’s my fault bc i don’t talk to anyone back i just i can’t #i think subconsciously i’m trying to push everyone further and further away so when i die they aren’t hurt #i don’t want a funeral i don’t want anyone to grieve me i feel like a narcissist even assuming someone would grieve over me lol #i just want to be forgotten about i want everyone to keep living and doing well without me to get in their way #i’m just an obstacle in other ppls lives a hindrance a fucking troll without a riddle just hurtful mean words #i’ll write everyone apology notes #i have so much guilt inside me it’s filled my lungs and heart sometimes i can’t breathe if i think abt all the ppl i’ve hurt by being alive #god put me on this earth to teach ppl lessons abt avoiding ppl like me #fuck god i’m done being his puppet i’m done hurting ppl i’m gonna go away someday and no one will ever hurt again #why do i want to cry i’m so fucking self absorbed why the fuck am i sad abt myself #i think subconsciously there’s something in me that wishes to stay alive and be the positive impact on ppls lives like i always wanted #i always wanted to help ppl and make friends and include everyone and now i’m just so toxic i let younger me and everyone else down so bad #i feel like my mom hated me too right now i feel like she deserved a better prettier smarter funnier more selfless daughter #im ok everyone btw im just being dramatic n venting lol dw i’ll start writing in a journal instead of tags soon #shut up cianna

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galacticlamps · 2 years

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Now that Beyond the War Games is out & before I actually get around to listening to it, I just wanna go on the record saying this: I cannot wait to see what fun new ways it finds to contradict the existing 6b stuff we have

Don’t get me wrong! I have nothing against any of it - some I absolutely adore (Short Trips my beloved!) - and I’m certainly not one of those people that thinks incompatible details are the same as retconning, especially in a series with as little continuity as this one can sometimes have, retroactive or otherwise.

In fact, the only thing that could make it seem un-DoctorWhoish is if this series - which has arguably been in the works for anything from 15 to 17 to 23 to 37 to 39 to 50 years - actually does manage to make total and complete sense of everything that’s come before it. I’m not kidding, that would be too strange to handle.

#second doctor era #big finish #what's that post about poking holes into the lid of the plot box to let the the story breathe?#it's like that #it's hard enough when normal doctor who makes sense #can you imagine living in a world where the 6b timeline was actually straighforward???#no thanks #me looking at the tangled web that is the dweu: omg you look so great!#is that a new bit of lore explaining something nobody ever asked about?#wow i love it - it really suits you!#Also if anyone's wondering what the years reference -#in order that's how long it's been since bf did Helicon Prime #since Terrance Dicks wrote World Game (which seems to be the first full length adventure to be 100% 6b)#since Terrance Dicks wrote Players (the novel that foreshadowed/necessitated World Game)#and then the 2 doc's the 5 doc's and the 3 doc's #yeah I know 3 doc's claim to 6b is a lot less compelling a factor than the other two #but for a guy who was literally being executed by them the last time he was onscreen #two was pretty damn chill about working for the time lords in that

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simanzi · 1 year

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visited someone whos very very sick. hes convinced hes about to die. what the fuck do you tell a person who knows theyre gonna die

#hes always been so so so so good to me sweet as pie kind like no one else ive ever known #sitting by his bed him struggling to breathe oxygen attached to his nostrils had me excusing myself to go cry in private #as i tried to lighten the mood and let himself into my life by talking about my uni life and my upcoming exams #he told me he knew he was dying and he wished really with all his heart for my life to be long happy and fulfilling #im not religious but if it means he gets to live ill convert to any religion on earth please just give give him another ten years.#i want him to see me get my degree and maybe get married i want him to see me do something with my life i want him to witness it #i want to celebrate with him i want to sit and talk with him i havent thanked him enough i havent expressed how much im grateful for him #w.txt

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