#feelin lonely

[nothanksbi]

Some days it's easier to act like you're a friend. Even if I accidentally flirt with you while talking to you, it's easy enough to cover up sensibly. You tease me, I tease you back, I challenge you, you declare that I win - and it's easy enough to tell myself: I was smiling because I was winning, because it was fun.

Today is not such a day. Neither was yesterday.

A tinge of longing keeps hanging at the back of my mind, like it's about to fall off a cliff but refuses to just slip and let go. I ask myself, do I long for you or for the satisfaction of having a lover? Do I long for you or for love? Do I long for you or for the version of you I created in my head? Of course, these are questions I've asked myself about the others before you, too. And the answer has always been, "both." I long for a lover that has your kindness, warmth, ready wit. I long for a love that is simple, clear, calm; a love that you seem capable of. I long for the version of you that you show me, the version of you I have seen, the version of you that might just be the version you really are. Maybe I am too desperate, too lonely, too impatient, too enthusiastic, too straightforward...but haven't I always been?

The question is, do you think I'm too much? Or not enough? Or lovely but not equal to the person of your dreams? Or you've simply never seen me that way, even though I told you I liked you all those months ago?

How many more of "you" must I go through, before I find which one is meant to stay? How much longer before I give up and do something I might regret? When does it end? When does it end? When does it end, so my heart can finally be at peace?

[insanewizards]

thought too hard about having a group of 4-6 friends who all know eachother and all have common interests and almost started crying on public transport

[yukarinuniversaltraveler]

I wonder if people get those "YOUR CRUSH POSTED SOMETHING GO SIMP EM" notifs whenever I post a thing.

[l0nesome-dreams]

I’ve been emotionally drained lately, so art is s l o w right now 😪✨

[mugenloopdalove]

bleh

[moodyseal]

TOApril Day 19 – Haunted

"Am I making you feel sick?"

[bonetrousledbones]

i think. i want to focus on the idea of roaring knight papyrus where he knows exactly what the roaring entails

[willyhoos]

NAOMI: …Everyone should join me. I'm... so... lonely... YUKA: Big brother, I'm so lonely...

two different girls, two different deaths, only one thing to say to the boy who failed them.

[guardian-angle22]

GOOD MORNING (EST time) 911LONESTAR FAM!

[grungeprincess2]

Things that makes me feel alive - part 1 -

The wind in my hair while I am standing in the meadow

[nothanksbi]

I guess I really am too stupid when it comes to love.

Just yesterday we were discussing in class how it's never "love at first sight" but only "attraction at first sight" because love is too deep an emotion to develop at first sight. So I thought, have I found my attraction at first sight yet? And I thought, no - you were my attraction at third sight, and right now you're not supposed to be my attraction at any sight. Because you're taken. Then I heard rumours. And I convinced myself, maybe I had a chance. And I confronted you, the only thing I do best, and ended up re-breaking my own heart. I mean, someone as handsome and caring as you is anyway not prone to just jumping from one person to another.

What was I thinking, trying to grab you the moment I thought you were single again? Who does that? And exactly how desperate am I that I started confronting you by hinting that I think you like me? I'll admit - I'm still too embarrassed to admit this, but still - so far, only three people have actually found me worth pursuing and I even pushed them away. I'll also admit I'm starting to think I'm a fool for believing any romantic love is meant for me. Because let's be honest, I'm always either a little too much or just not enough. Plus always scared of commitment. And out of the 7 billion on the planet, I'm still waiting for my attraction at first sight...and I'm still waiting to be someone's attraction at first sight (of course, they better not be an idiot).

Does any of this make sense? Guess I should stop trying to make sense, and then it will.

[mattibee]

when the whole polycule long distance.....

[this-is-turtles]

the overwhelming urge to hide in a large pile of blankets and just.... blah for a few hours days

not me projecting my own blahs onto my fave boi sorry raph

[mugenloopdalove]

Hiii does anyone want to give me.

Attention

[bernard-posting-inactive]

I know. We haven't been on the best of terms but. I was just told we're leaving soon??? And that pikmin who stole your shades. Her name is Bandit. I've grown attached to her and she's similarly attatched to me. And I don't know what to do I don't want to leave her behind but I probably have to. What. Do I do.

@santi-blogging

That LITTLE rascal?

Y’know, I’d usually just SAY to sneak them on, but, I just dunno if that’d be GOOD for their health, man.

It’s definitely NOT safe to stay here with them ON your own, either. I’m pretty SURE nearly everyone’s leaving- and that INCLUDES the ship.

I mean, there’s always OPTION to come back to this planet and TAKE a visit when everything’s all SETTLED, but, that might not be too safe EITHER.

..Y’know, the crashes.

But, I’m sure there will BE some sort of base set up on this PLANET sometime near. It has a LOT of potential; you could come to visit then, but that’s NOT an absolute.

At LEAST you will have the memory of them to smile back on, if push comes to SHOVE, man. And I’m sure they’ll REMEMBER you jut as fondly, too.

[moodyseal]

This came to me in a vision