#for listening

[bettertwin1]

you look like the type of person to listen to the crane wives /lh

What the fuck- HOLD ON? PAUSE? Why did you add a light hearted tone tag what are you trying to say??????

[sir-subpar]

why have you been so quiet in the past 5 days?

also hope you had a happy 4th

I've been at work.

My job keeps me pretty busy. I work at a hotel and often spend my shifts alone. So I do a lot by myself. Reservations, appliance set up, post-stay charges, room inventory, key card issueing (although that's pretty easy, in my opinion), giving out complimentary laundry/soap/silverware, discounts, cashiering for the snack bar, etc.

And, very excitingly, I have been working with a local art gallery where I will soon sell my art.

I make scratch boards of people's pets. Example:

And on top of those things, I have been working on a collaboration with a very close friend of mine. We are writing an original story together. Is a story has two main protagonist, he is writing from the perspective of one of them, I am writing the other.

I have made concept portraits of some of the characters from our story:

Suddenly Psychic

So I have been pretty busy!

But I am doing well. I left a job that was treating me very poorly and now work at the hotel. Where so far I am much happier. After years of struggling to work with galleries I found one that is embracing my niche passion for Scratch boards. And I am working on a fun story with my best friend.

I had been fighting a rough depressive episode for a while, especially after the loss of our dog Buddy, making the choice to put him down was not an easy one. But it was the right one to end his suffering.

And I tend to have a bit of a depressive episode around the 4th pretty much every year.

As well as a bunch of questionings of my choice in career. A part of me is unsure if I want to pursue a future in psychology, but I'm so close to getting my associates degree. So at least I'll get that because I've spent years for it.

I worked on the 4th of July, but I'm not really a fan of 4th of July anyway, so I actually did it willingly. My manager asked me if I would work that day and I was very happy to accept it.

I don't like fireworks.

All in all, I had some tough decisions to make, still do.

But at the same time, so many things in my life are starting to come together now. I have a chance to really make a career as an artist. If this really works, I might not even have to continue College. I'm not putting all my eggs in one basket however, so I'm still going to classes in the fall. Just in case.

I had become a Psychology major because I wasn't seeing success in my art career. I figured I could just do art on the side and still be happy. But finally, I have a chance. A chance I thought was lost to me.

A chance with a gallery owner that really Believes In Me.

I'm kind of scared. The overwhelming positivity from this Gallery owner does make me uncertain about whether or not I can live up to his expectations of me. Even so, I have to try, I want to try.

I spent a huge part of my life, my upbringing, with very little hope for my future.

But I'm starting to see it. My hope. My chances.

My Future.

It will take years I'm certain. Currently I still live with my mother because I can't afford to move out or find an apartment.

But I feel hopeful. Even... Happy.

Sorry I haven't been on here as much, I do appreciate you all checking in on me after my radio silence. But I'm doing well as of now.

My "father", who wasn't good to me or my family, isn't in my life anymore. I got to spend time with my brother. I am working on a passion project with my best friend. I'm working a job I feel more respected at and pays more than my old one (about $12/hr). I am seeing my art be enjoyed both online and in person.

I even started HRT! Been on T for a little over a year now!

I'm just... Starting to find happiness.

It wasn't easy, still isn't, and it won't be easy going forward, but I feel like it is all worth it.

[monards]

barbeloth so insane. I hope she's like an insanne grandmother when we meet her

[tjerra14]

Sorting through some stuff and came across this one again. It’s going to be six years in July but I guess it never really stops hurting.

[ethernitty]

New tweet

Hello, I am now saying something on Tumblr, I think the name of this site is very weird and the people on it are also very weird. It is just as confusing as twitter, but more demonic I guess

Seasons Greetings form a friend from the owner

[chilewithcarnage]

'you still listen to music from 10 years ago 🤨?' bitch if prehistoric humans had audio recording technology id be sat up here listening to grog and unga bunga's greatest hits don't play with me

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

the curse of summer is buying and eating an inadvisable amount of fruit in single sittings.

[jackyjackdraws]

I got this idea at 3am.

No, I won't elaborate further

[moodsandtenses]

There's something hilarious about how so much subsequent media has positioned Vampires and Werewolves as, like, binary opposite entities, and then you read Dracula (1897) and realize that wolves are that guy's preferred solution to every problem. You'd say something to Dracula about "ah yes, werewolves, vampires' great eternal enemies," and he'd just be like "you mean my subcontractors?"

[xzyumi]

tang dynasty miku

[great-and-small]

Turdus aficionados of Costa Rica please know I love your national bird but this is objectively hilarious

[unluckyprime]

four trans people walk into a movie theater …

[crimeboys]

god i love making animatics in my head i wish drawing was real

[killingmyselfbutnotdying]

"Friends dont look at friends that way" COWARD. I look at my friends with awe in my eyes, my chest is filled with love, im glowing because i get to be near my friends. I look at my friends and i would give them my everything. SO SKILL ISSUE, look at your friends with all the love that you have

[some-pers0n]

I hate how people will look at popular indie artists who had one or two songs go viral on TikTok and start making fun of anybody who listens to them. "Oh you listen to Lemon Demon, Will Wood, Jack Stauber, Glass Animals, and Mother Mother? Tsk, don't you know that is stupid TikTok neurodivergent white transmasc preteen music? It's so mid and bad you should listen to real music–" you are a pit of misery

[undercovercannibal]

I think kids should be taught the joys of wearing headphones on public transport very early in their lives