#fuck my autism specifically also

[wainwrightjakobshammerlock]

The way I see it, it is:

Hyperfixations are more short term. They might not be pleasant despite the neurotransmitters they give you. They occupy every space in your brain. You stay up at night researching every aspect of them, trawling through wiki pages like a maddened scholar. Sometimes they come and go.

Special interests are long term. They last a year at minimum. You see the world through them, they are a part of who you are, your identity. When they cross over somehow, it's the best thing in the world. You invest genuine emotion and soul into them, because you enjoy them. When they go - or even you are afraid they might go - it's a crisis, it's deeply unpleasant.

Of course, this is just the way I personally experience these. All audhders are different, but still - I do not like when people mix these concepts.

[us-the-voices-and-more-voices-2]

a quick reminder to everyone

I have SEVERE LEARNING DISABILITIES

I am literally disabled because of my learning disabilities, I have faced literal descrimnation because of it.

everytime you call us retarded or a retard you are ACTIVLY upholding the systems in which I am trapped in.

I take more offence in being called a retard than anything due to the literal DECADES of systematic abuse and descrimnation from the medical system, every single government resource, and almost all school alternatives.

fuck you greatly if you use these words against us, I have to live in a country where they hate people like me and would rather us dead than to do literally anything to help people like us.

call us what you will, but I will never call anyone retarded because it’s a basic decency reserved for everyone.

I’m a very happy retard, fuck your ableism!

I will happily live and love and learn even if THE LITERAL GOVERNMENT doesn’t want me too.

(yeah being a mid supports autistic with other learning disabilities and disabilities in general that made me unable to attend a school just means I deserve to die. 100% legit I deal with this literally all the time always fuck the Australian government)

so again fuck you all greatly, for using a literal slur against me one that has been used against me since I was a baby.

fuck you all, genuinely.

did I forfeit my rights to be treated as a human being the moment I had a bit of trouble learning things? Because if I did I’d like to break someone’s teeth with a brick.

Edit: the language and lines between what the fuck developmental disabilities and intellectual disability are is confusing as fuck.

I have gotten very confused between the 2 because they are grouped together half the time.

My apologies to everyone for being utterly confused where I fall because it is extremely confusing to figure out, and internationally it varies wildly according to my brief reading.

I did not mean to be mean or anything I just was genuinely going off what I’ve been told most my life lol.

Shout out to my developmentally disabled brethren you are loved

[pixel-with-wings]

me when the disability with “embarrassing” symptoms disables me in an “embarrassing” way:

[moe-broey]

MOE. SUMMER ALT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

BIGGEST thing about Moe history is that for Literally Actual Years. I have been trying SO hard to get a beach outfit for it Right. I always had some aspects of it in mind (the white cover-up -- initially sheer, but I like the idea that it's a light shawl kinda like Lyon's, here). But a lot of my designs felt too feminine. Moe is about Balance. Moe is about Mishmash. Moe is about The Silly Factor. It's also unexpectedly practical and loves questionable fashion choices.

All this in mind! I think its Look really came together when I decided to give it some sporty touches. I esp love the wet shoes... and the visor works so well on it?? The little fish skeleton is a handmade accessory (not actual bones.), like its "tail" in its everyday outfit. I imagine it's jointed/maybe chain linked, so it has some movement to it! The skeleton adds a bit of edge it always has, and ALMOST. Gives a manta ray silhouette paired with the shawl (most noticeable in the topmost art! Didn't set out to do that, but when I noticed this I ran w it LMFAOO)

And. Some doodles

[landfilloftrash]

accidentally made Eno obsessed with shrimp. how did we get here.

[girlwiththegreenhat]

love when the robot media hits me when i think i'm finally normal about robots. i'm never normal about robots. i WILL overthink The Media(tm)

[tittyinfinity]

it's crazy finding out you're autistic as an adult bc then you start to notice the ways it affects you and has affected you throughout life

and then it becomes a hyperfixation bc you're like "omg this makes so much sense now" and you start feeling a bit better about yourself knowing that there's an explanation to everything

[intertexts]

new haven wards thought dump under the cut....!!!!!!! 💥

william bell / wraith-- breaker, shaker, stranger / his breaker state manifests as a crackling form of white-blue fire; he can control how visible or how much this form manifests; the less visible it is, the harder it is to affect the physical world. *crucially, it thereby evades the manton effect organic/inorganic limitation. [in addition to this, whenever he's in his breaker form, he can manifest, shape, and control energy where the energy's volume/strength is directly relative to the amount of recent death in the near vicinity. the energy manifests as similar ghostly fire.] + post second trigger in deadwood, his ability to shape, maintain, and cloak this energy in illusory appearances is greatly heightened.

dakota damascus / failsafe-- mover, thinker / capable of extremely fast and controlled flight [around 90mph top speed] and movement, with similarly heightened perceptual processing. in addition, he senses whatever future pain that anyone in a several block radius will experience in the next shortly before it happens, and lasting as long as the sensation does. this manifests primarily as a dulled, ambient sensation that can be focused in w/ similarly mirrored pain to pinpoint who and what. this perception cannot be 'turned off.'

virion sol / imprint-- trump / copies abilities by touching another parahuman. the copied abilities maintain the full strength of the original, but he does not similarly gain an awareness of how to familiarly use the ability. for many powers and with experience, this isn't a problem, but there are also many which are not only be difficult to learn and inefficient but also debilitating to himself and/or others [i.e. overwhelming sensory input, difficult to control]. he cannot turn this ability off-- any skin-to-skin contact with another parahuman will result in copying of their powers, with any previous copied abilities he has being erased. he keeps these abilities for as long as he can concentrate on holding them: familiar and frequently-used powers he can often keep for hours at a time, while mentally overwhelming or potent powers slip out of his grasp quickly and leave him with migraines or other symptoms of distress.

ashe winters / auxiliary / muse-- shaker, breaker / pure telekinesis affecting inorganic material with an upper limit several times his body weight. the longer he's actively using his power and the more strain it's under, the more powerful the telekinesis becomes and the less lucid he becomes, with his powers moving more and more on autopilot until he catches on, pulls himself back, is pulled back or knocked out. in certain rare and unfortunate situations, almost always preceded by this death spiral his breaker state involuntarily triggers: in these scenarios, his power narrows down to a smaller radius around him, within which physics and spatial laws of reality melt, bubble, and shift in improbable, dreamlike, and irrational ways.

[gobstoppr]

sorry babygirl i'd go to bed it but its my weekly half-conscious 2am music session where i listen to a song from a game i like and cry about how much i absolutely love it and i love art and i love music and i love loving art. and i express this with barely comprehenisble discord messages that 2 people read where i just send a link to the song im listening to with the caption "OUGH" and then send a bunch of fast moving gifs

[immortalsins]

going boxing for the first time in months (at a new place, with my brother) and i wish i was normal i wish i could chill and enjoy my day without getting stressed over absolutely nothing

[ween-kitchens]

yk when you can feel yourself starting to stop caring about stuff you love and you are White Knuckling through it because no I Will still love this so fucking help me

[flippedorbit]

no one look at me i know too much about squids

[princescar]

me, writing concepts for my danganronpa x genshin au: lalala :)

A real great concept: *strikes me*

Me: holy fuck

[moe-broey]

LIKE........ @ the prev post about armor flexibility.... Is That Why They Look Like That??????? 👁️👁️

Something else fascinating I found actually when I was comparing the Askr trio (knowing Alfonse and Sharena largely match, just a few differences here and there), wanting to get a better look at Anna...

SHE HAS BIG ASS BOOTS?!????? I. COMPLETELY FORGOR ....... it gives her a real sturdy look though. Hm.... (Thinking about what this means for characterization/how I'd draw her, esp w my initial impressions kind of. Being the opposite of this LMFAOOO oops 😥)

[f00t-fic]

Shoutout to the Usami family, they were far too normal and cute to show up for like three panels and never be heard from again.

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

what do you mean my disabilities disable me 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they aren't just funny little things that make me quirky and I can joke about 😟😟😟😟😟😟 what do you mean they're actually delibitating and prevent me from doing things 😟😟😟😟😟😟😟