#autism meltdown

[seventyone-71]

having an autism meltdown all by yourself handsome?

[autisticdreamdrop]

before a meltdown

[support-ponies]

hi ive been having rlly bad autistic meltdowns happening more and more frequently and i was hoping i could request pinkie pie being comforted by their friends reassuring them that meltdowns arent childish tantrums and that their feelings matter

I’m so sorry that you been going through these meltdowns, but your feelings are valid and I know how you feel, being autistic myself I also get meltdowns so I know how you feel! You will get through this. 💕

Also happy autism awareness month to you! ✨

~ Mod Faeling

[autistic-bibliophile]

what’s the dumbest reason you’ve had a meltdown? just curious because my reason was so insignificant now that I’m thinking about it

[perplexingluciddreams]

I have barely even started growing my hair, and already I am thinking I need to cut it (which means buzz my head again).

The bits at my ears is too long, and really bothers my sensory issues when I wear my noise-cancelling headphones. Unfortunately, the headphones is non-negotiable because my sound sensitivity is so much that I can barely sit in my quiet bedroom without being bothered by other house sounds and people sounds and outside sounds.

I am so upset about this. I really want long hair.

I am even more upset that I don't even get the choice. My disabilities decide for me, for so many things. I just want to choose. I have no control over even the smallest of things.

Today will be my last attempt to find a balance of wearing my headphones a bit less, to see if that can help the around-ear-hair-sensory-bad-ness.

But even if I manage to keep going for another week or month or few months (unlikely), I think at some point I will start having violent meltdowns because of the hair again. Especially when it is wet in the bath, or when it is greasy. I already still struggle with those sensations even when it is a centimetre long. And even if the meltdowns are not a problem to consider, it feels so bad that I am miserable.

I just wish I had the choice, for this one small thing.

And through all of this, my chest is still there. Still large and heavy and causing pain and sensory issues and worsening clothing-related sensory issues. It makes my thoughts so negative and angry and I get irritable and so unhappy.

I usually like to try and see both sides (positive and negative) and think logically about a situation. But this one is so overwhelmingly negative that I often can't see a positive. Sensory issues is only one aspect of my autism, and on its own it is so disabling.

I can get so upset about these so called "little" things, because the control is so completely out of my hands for the big things that I don't bother to think about them. I only want to be able to grow my hair - I don't think that is a big ask. Yet I am still too disabled to do even that.

[sicksadstar]

ok we tried making an educational post.. it turned out bad but yeah we tried.. meltdowns!! we have them often. we can't.. we're trying to have less of them but we're struggling hard… - The Dreamdrop System

[dxndxrxvxbe]

i know my autism and adhd is "normal" and "nothing to be ashamed of" because theres literally nothing i can do about it but recently ive been feeling so ashamed of myself.

i get frustrated so easily with noise / talking and i have to quickly leave the room. it makes me wonder what people who dont know me think.

i cant focus on homework i never do it. ever. and you would expect me to get expelled but no they just give me a sympathetic look and a pat on the head like im a dog. why do i get Bs when i do NOTHING?.

and what about my hyper fixations? do people think its annoying when i wanna talk about the same episodes of a show that came out in 2016?.

do peoole wonder why i cant look them in the eye? or why im always on my phone?.

these are questions that are literally haunting me. i cant be stuck in this brain for the rest of my life. its torture.

im trying so hard to be normal but i think the stress is making it worse. i lock myself in my bathroom so i can jump up and down and talk to the mirror because thats how my embarrassing self stims

[drowninkystar]

star-shaped nuggets (drowninkystar on ao3)

autistic!regulus jegulus oneshot where regulus has a meltdown and james and sirius comfort him

[pixel-with-wings]

me when the disability with “embarrassing” symptoms disables me in an “embarrassing” way:

[theorahsart]

Paupers Prince 5 pt 23

Please see #paupersprince5 for previous and future updates~

Alfred's trauma is making him surpress a meltdown. Current culture acts like its a good skill to surpress a meltdown, but as an adult I'm not so sure. It makes you feel physically sick (which is what Alfred is feeling here, even talking or someone else talking makes you feel sick!!) and encourages hiding negative feelings.

[quietgamelover]

After a long day with a lot of emotions and arguments and me crying I finally admitted to myself how much I hate having autism.

I’ve tried putting a positive spin on it and I don’t think I can live with that lie anymore.

It makes my life harder, it’s made me do things I’m not proud of and upset people I love. I hate having this disorder.

Idk if I’ll ever be “ok” with having it but maybe one day I’ll at least learn to live with it

[dreamdropsystem]

having a meltdown / shutdowns from forcing verbally all day / a lot / period of time

[autisticdreamdrop]

our meltdowns have been very extreme lately and we're lashing out on our mom when she upsets us and we are scared we already hurt our plushies and self.. now we're hurting real people... we're scared..

[something-existing-somewhere]

TW:

I know I have friends who care (or at least say they care), but I don't want to try to Make friends anymore

Almost every single one I've had irl just gets tired of me. And it's not just me being negative, it's true. Everyone lies to me and it's just making me go insane. I don't really trust anyone anymore.

Most of the time I don't even know if they're actually my friend or just pretending..

[perplexingluciddreams]

well.

the appointment with the CMH (community mental health) doctor was really really shit. to put it lightly.

she said lots of bad and wrong things like saying that i have no sign of infection so i don't have ME/CFS (which is just not how that works).

she also made a bunch of assumptions about my life and experiences based from very scattered (and often inaccurate or just unrelated) medical notes. and tried to tell me my life story and how my FND is caused based from that which was all just completely wrong.

she also said that because i have FND "there is no reason you are not talking and walking". which was what made me so upset that i ran (/crawled fast) upstairs and had a meltdown crying and hit the floor really really hard (hand still hurts ouch).

me not talking is NOT from FND. it's from autism (plus regression, which is still a part of my autism for me). life long experience of communication struggle and language issue and body not in my fucking control. and she completely disregarded my autism basically and saying i have no communicating problems even though that is such a HUGE HUGE part of my life.

also she said that i am "medicalised" and don't really need bath lift or stair lift or medical equipment (EVEN THOUGH i am have low mobility and CAN'T have a bath or go up down stairs without it AT ALL).

i don't know what else she said because of the running upstairs and meltdown but mum had some more talking with her and then she left. then i had a lie down in mum's bed and she did nice stroking on my back and i calmed down a bit.

still very upset. today was supposed to be good because new AAC but now it just is ruined.

and this was me trying really hard to give a second chance because she was horrible the last time too but i was being good and really trying to stay and listen but it was just horrible.

and she had awful strong perfume and the house still smells like it. making me feel sick.

sad angry frustrated.

((ask if need more tags on here i don't know what ones is right to put)).

[raccoonsrummagerostrum]

Yautja reacts to your sensory overload

Gn!Autistis!reader Gn!yautja

Word count: 622

Warnings: sensory overload, autistic meltdown

-It had started with the lights on the kitchen, but they were alwase loud

-But the constant sound of running water made it worse

-You would normally listen to music, but you couldn't find your headphones and figured you could do without them just this once, it was only like six things, no big deal

-Then the feeling of soap and water on your hands made you want to vomit

-And the feeling of the wet sponge

-But dispite all of that, you could still handle it long enough to wash the dishes, if you haven't touched that peice of wet food

-That just sent you over the edge

-Sudenly you were gagging, breathing hard, and beginning to spiral

-You droped a dish on the floor, shattering it, as you started deaspretly stimming for your life. Flailing and flapping your hands, pulling your hair, and hitting yourself in the head

-But then your previously fine clothes started to feel constrictive against your body, and your breathing got shallow and hurried

-Your yautja heard the sounds of distress for across the house and came running

-They froze for a moment when they saw you. They had never seen you like this before and they had no idea what to do

-They slowly approached and rested their large hand on your waist, only for you to flinch and recoil

-They quickly pull their hand away

-Wether you realise it or not, your yautja is constantly aware of their strength, and they constantly make an effort to be delicate with you. It is one of their greatest fears to hurt you on accident

-At first they do fear that they have hurt you, but observing you for longer, they do not notice any signs of injury. Where they touched you or anywhere else

-They carefully approach you again, going down on one knee meeting your eyes they offer you their hand, you shake your head. The contact being to much for you

-Tears roll down your cheeks as you drop to the floor and curl into a ball. You press your head against their frount

-The yautja settles in on the floor and allowes you to just be. Rocking back and forth with your ear against their chest. Listening to the rhythmic beating of their heart.

-Slowly you begin to calm down. Your breathing steadies, the memory of the meltdown begins to fade

-Your yautja offers their hand again. This time you guide it to your back

-You turn up to wrap your arms around their chest

-But you start to come back to reality

-The lights are still too loud, the water is still running, and your clothes are still restrictive

-You start to get upset again, and your yautja askes whats wrong

-"Lights" is all you can get out

-"Lights?" They ask. "Off" you respond

-Untangling themselves from you, they get up and turn the lights off which is a huge relief for you

-You look over at the sink, and the yautja follows your gaze. Almost instinctively they walk over, picking up the pieces of the broken plate and throwing them away. Before sweeping up the rest

-Then they finish up by finishing the dishes. You had already gotten though more than half the six items, so it didn't take them long

-When they finished the dried their hands and claws thoroughly before returning to you

-They carefully helped you up, and when you got to your feet you all but jumped into their arms

-They still asked first before pick ing you up

-By now in your relationship they knew that now was the time for "cuddles". So they waisted no time in whisking you away to your shared bed upstairs