#fuck I’m so scared bro

[malcolm-reeds-pineapple]

OKAY IVE HIT SOME BAD NEWS BEARS okay so I’ve been planning on breaking up w my long term partner for a long time but I haven’t seen them face to face in almost a year. I was determined to do this face to face because it’s the honourable thing to do (and I have a lot of shit at their house) I decided I was tired of them back in April for a whole host of reasons but I’ll boil it down to a few:

Poor communication (never used to tell me things until everything boiled over biyearly)

Doesn’t deal with problems head on. If I have a problem I take the bull by the horns and deal with it. They, on the other hand, never had that skill and often took an apathetic approach to things which led to people making decisions for them.

No sense of adventure. I love adventures, I love taking risks, I love rolling the dice to see what Lady Luck has in store for me that day. They never did and would just send me out to go on adventures of my own. I’ve since learned that I want to share my adventures with someone. I want to have some one to yes-and me and vice versa while we get ourselves into trouble.

Unemployed for over 2 years with no real reason. Piggy backing on this, they moved back in with their parents in the middle of nowhere and doesn’t have the will to learn to drive.

No discernible drive to get better at living their life. In fact they repeatedly shot themselves in the foot. Absolutely no fire under their ass and it drove me insane.

Not once did they make an effort to meet any of my friends, not even my day ones.

Our goals no longer align. When we first started dating, I said that I didn’t want to have kids or get married but yeah no now that I’m older and my brain is developed and I know who I am as a person, I really fuckin wanna get married and have kids!!!! Not immediately or anything but god dammit I wanna be with someone who wants what I want long term!!!

Anyway my partner told me they were trans yesterday which I’m very supportive of and I hope being out will maybe help them improve as a person. I can’t imagine the kind of mental turmoil they’ve been going through their whole life with fundamentalist family while being closeted like that. However this didn’t magically fix all of the reasons I’ve wanted to end it with them since fucking April. It didn’t add onto the list or anything, but now I’m worried that if I break up with them they’ll think it’s because they’re trans :( I’m writing them a letter to make sure everything is abundantly clear but I’m not sure it’ll do anything :/// like how long should I wait to break up w them?? I’m really worried that this will hurt them and it’s not my intention we’re just straight up the worst possible match. I guess I never should have waited but we’ve lived 6 hours away from each other for a year and a half and before that we lived 2 hours away from each other for 6 months after we fucking lived together and shared a bed. I really just wanted to give them the decency of a face to face break up instead of just sending them a text or calling them. I was gonna go this Monday to do it like I’m freaking out

[huanted-dennys]

My warm ups for the last few days

This time it’s mermaid au themed

siren?

idk take em

I love the idea of bored out of his mind Jazz

also thalassophobic Jazz

[tanjir0se]

Every time I think Sasuke’s clear and obvious homosexual obsession with Naruto might be maybe a little one sided, Naruto will do something absolutely insane like walk into his childhood room after two years, grab his dusty picture of Sasuke, gently brush it off, fingers lingering for a moment over Sasuke’s face, and lovingly whisper “Sasuke…I’m home…”

[star-shaped-froot-loops]

So the Genshin 4.1 trailer was today and

Excuse me

What

The

ACTUAL

FUCK????????

[darth-does-stuff]

ok wait why is this recent ep actually fucking terrifying i did not expect it to be this scary

[themournwatcher]

I need comfort and money

[evansbby]

I cannot believe the wicked games Drabble was 5000 words long like basically a full ass fic and the low amount of notes it got…

[pickle-wiggler]

Okay so personally I think the phantom from phantom of the opera is so cringefail and pathetic 99% of the time and I also hate All I Ask of You as a love song 99% of the time because its just so sweet it makes your teeth hurt but its not earned because the relationship is not built up at all and consists entirely of Raoul gaslight gatekeep girlbossing Christine until she enters a secret engagement with him but like. That one part at the end of The Point of No Return where phantom does his little reprise of All I Ask and his voice is just so light and fragile and he’s just asking to be loved and seen by another human being really does fucking GET my ass

[autistic-katara]

genuine question how do u stop someone from offing themself?

[mutalune]

on one hand I am very glad that ketamine therapy has been helpful for my severe depression and anxiety and ptsd and whatever else is going on up there, and I’m grateful that it’s available to me as part of my treatment plan

on the other hand I’m not a huge fan of the payment for that help being a 50/50 chance every time of having a bad trip that unlocks some deep scary part of my psyche and then having to address all of that in therapy until the next trip

[scrambledslut]

@ my lovely mutuals/friends; sorry if i’m not very active and don’t interact with your fics etc… i’m still working through stuff and being on here takes too much energy idk

[binders-and-beanies]

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[ace-of-d1am0nds]

being out as a non-binary person in a space with a gendered language has never made me feel so ashamed of being non-binary

[mars-ipan]

man. strangers you don’t know but have heard stories about are wild

[autistic-katara]

i don’t understand how someone so perfect could hate themself

[southislandwren]

EHAT THE FUCK ARE GIBDOS