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#writeblr#creative writing#writers on tumblr#writing#writers#writing community#i'm going to hate myself in the morning#but when the muse finally beckons#you fkn listen
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gojo satoru x reader story where everything's the same---riko is killed and haibara dies and geto defects and jjk 0 happens and jjk happens, with nanami dying and gojo dying etc. etc.---and you're gojo's widow, who also used to be his best friend while in high school but then were married to him once you two became adults because 'clans'---you did not really ever fall in love with him, and satoru knew this still chose to love you everyday of your married life together---anyway... as the plot is approaching an end, you finally make peace with the death of your husband, your comrades, so on and so forth; and just when you think you finally have some peace and quiet in your life, you're vaulted back in time into your 13 y.o. self, suddenly standing face-to-face with your best friend satoru complaining to you how he's utterly sick of his very overbearing clan elders, and that he is planning on going to the tokyo branch of jujutsu high---you just received a second chance at life, at correcting all that went wrong---so what are your plans? do you think you have enough energy, enough life left in you to assume the role of the construction crew, huh? or will you just let everything happen the way it is doomed supposed to happen, and just keep yourself out the way, stopping your second life from being messed up by anyone and everyone?
#i don't really want anyone to see this yet i feel a need to share this#idk if i'll ever make this into a proper fic *stares at my exam schedule*#but i'm going to try going to try going to try [the fix-it bug is <<<<]#i don't think anyone will but pls don't plagiarise this. like. PLS!! 🙏🙏#i just wanna write a reader who is just. so fkn. weird. and confusing...#okay. i will shut up now *sighhh*#gojo x you#gojo x reader#gojo satoru x you#gojo satoru x reader#jjk x you#jjk x reader#jjk leaks#jjk spoilers#kit posts 📝
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#so i have an appt. to the psychiatric department for personality disorders tmrw...#and like i tried sending a self referral to them last year lmao#and they only said that heyyy you're doing amazing sweetie you are high functioning 🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻🖕🏻#then i've ben to the health care center and since they think they cant treat me bc it's too severe they've sent referrals to other places#which have all declined me... so they also sent one to the psychiatric who sent a referral to this pd department#who that time also said that they can't accept me#so the therapist at the health care center like idk exactly but she sent a report on how they didnt handl my case properly#which made them call on me for an evalutation appt.#but i have 0 hopes. i honestly think the entire psych care is fucking lame and bullshit#i highly doubt they're even equipped to treat personality disorders#& even if they are theire budgetis getting cut bc ppl love having rightists ruling the government .... which means no funds for healthcare#anyway. PLUS it's a man.... -_- which reducuses my chances of being taken seriously even more...#i also hate talking to male therapists/psychiatrists... no fucking thanks. but i have to </3#i just really dont wanna go. like im gonna have to put energy into trying to argue for my right for treatment. w ppl who should inferstand#UNDERSTAND* i hate typing on my ipad ffs. they should understand my personality disorders..#bit health care proffessionals are horrible ppl and dont give a fuck abt their patients lol. so they're only condescending and rude 🤢🤮#i hate being in these environments bc everyone treats u like shit. the receptionists are so fkn rude and almost outright mean and insulting#the doctors and therapists and psychiatrists are all bullies who look down on u and make u feel small and worthless#so im really dreading it... but im also at my wit's end. i am missing out on my entire life. im desperate for help#even if i wholeheartedly believe that these worthless wastes of space wont give me any treatment i'll still need to go and try#then ig i'll just have to keep pestering the healthcare system. i might wventually even have to start going to the psych. ER so they put#that on my records and like idk. that costs money tho. plus from everyone i've heard from...#being at a psych ER esp when your situation isnt dire is awful and hell#my cousin who had been ther after a sui attempt had said that it 'scared him straight'#and that it was so terrible that he did everything to get back home as soon as possible and do whatever to never end up there again#so yuh... i'd rather not!#i was supposed to (my own decision) to write a list with ALL my symptoms and bring and be like LOOK MONGREL!!!#but since i suffer from avpd...... i havent. i procrastinated and now it's too late whoopsie. i'll just have to wing it fuckkkk 🥴#ofc it also has to be 8.45 .. so early in the morning for me im so mad ahhhhh i dont wanna go i am throwing up and screaming#but atp i'd have to pay $35 myself for not going so that will motivate me enough to force myself to go
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i regret to inform y'all that during the divorce from hell i think ravenstan wrote a song called f(o)r(ver) and it was bRUUUTAL
#nina speaks#i am sorry i am obsessed with the parenthesis thing#idk why i did that but i think its kind of neato#anyways fucking horrible#but Nina u might cry and scream#You Undivorced Them!#like damn thats crazy#u thought u were free that is so funny my love#or in jks case my l-- my...my lo-...my l-lo#get it#bc he cant say it#Anyways!#hows ur day#is it ruined#nina stop writing songs#and write a damn ask meme or oneshot u fkn idiot#also this doesnt even matter#but i get a weird jerseykyle really likes fleetwood mac vibe#so cd covers a lot of them also bc stevie nicks is an icon#and i think ravenstans voice would sound beautiful#also x 2 bc ull never get away from the sound of a person that loves u is fucking brutal as hell and jk would khs#raven red hair divorce era is so powerful hes so frightening holy shit i hate him i love him like go off but have Mercy
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ari & rem i just saw your requests i hope you know i’m mentally and physically frothing at the mouth
#ohhhhh i’m gonna go feral if you hear snarling and metal rattling it’s me digging my canines into the bars of my enclosure#REM YOURS IS SOOOOOOO. FKN GOOD I LOVE THE CONCEPT??? it’ll help me write emotions/delve into geto’s psyche more so THANK YOU#AND ARI…….. you know what you sent………… TRUST that geto is papa… father… Nurturer Extraordinaire#i could write that Drabble one of two ways and i’m waffling rn on which way just know . I Feel Insane in the Best Way Possible#i’d die 4 both of y’all SMOOCHES :3 it’s midnight rn so i’ll try writing these in the upcoming days!!!!#gonna remind myself that it’s just practice and good writing experience! WOOHOO I’M EXCITED#it’ll be good for me too bc instead of making them full fledged fics i can just make them drabbles!#but also. your ideas. Make Me Insane#me: it’ll be a drabble :3#me: how did this turn into a 100k word fic 😪#ANYWAYS. FANK YEW BOTH I LOVE YOU#personal
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One of the funniest parts of the KimPorsche AU is that even though Kim has OCD, he’s not particularly a neat freak? He has some weird organizational habits, but he doesn’t need everything spotless. Porsche, however. Dealing with Kim has turned him into a neat freak. And there’s this really funny scene where Kim is giving him a strip tease, dropping clothes on the floor while making his way to Porsche on the bed. About to give him a blow job when Porsche is like wait—can you pick those up? Kim is going to strangle him. Porsche has a lap full of horny boy, and he’s worried about some lingerie on the floor? Really?
#cookie writes#kimporsche#kim is like FINE#he’ll get up and pick up the clothes#and fkn LEAVE#porsche has to throw kim over his shoulder and carry him back to bed#(this was kims plan all along)#except now he’s going to make Porsche work for it#he’s gotta earn that ass now
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me when i want to eat suna as in nom nom nom likr chicken fry but i need to be normal
#and he doesnt exist#i want to be a kid again#no like i will literally talk so much in tags#apparently i get real yappy ab night#batman more like yapman#go get it girl!!!!#what is this#it#we speak of#i dont fucking know#i have daddy issues guys#this has a point plz stay with me anyways i have daddy issues right#why do people want to think of their dads in bed like why will u connect ur significant other to ur father by calling them daddy#how does that work#like personally if i WERE to have sex <- im ace btw#i would NAWT want to think of my dad#then again i cant even write fanfiction if im in physical contact w any of my family members#esp my dad it makes my skin crawl#i should switch to sideblog but im too fkn lazy#someone give me a good fic to binge before i go back 2 wdo#white denim overalls save me.. save me white denim overalls....#no like next time i write anything the reader will have such a great relationship w their parents cuz i deserve that?????#also unreq. lvrs org literally came from me making up scenarios in my head at 2am#also super funny (not) i wrote the suna marriage proposal drabble while listening to my parents' one falling apart a bit more#“we're humans we all make mistakes” “how many times will you make the same mistake??” and im hiding from them writing the most horribly#in love couple#because i DESERVE THAT#pretend i never said any of this im so sorry chat#↬ talk talk talk !
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i bet it feels good as fuck to release emotions thru music. would luv 2 try it one day
#learning is hard & i only know the flute....#but it must be so fkn cathartic 4 artists 2 spill their guts in a song in a cryptic way#& then hear it back & being able 2 (i imagine) go 'ok. that piece of my heart is dealt with & resolved. now i can move on'#i just dont rlly know how to symbolize what i feel ...#if im making 'vent' art its just like...#ok im exhausted lets draw a tired guy with baggy eyes. now what#& it doesnt rlly evoke anything or give me any closure.....idfk#i feel so much & i have so much to say and talk about & i write it as much as i can in my diary but its like#just me recording events. not me putting my heart down on paper so its not rlly the same#im rambling again whatever. if u read this far i dare u to like this post#and if u like this post it means im kissing yr cheek#so dont give this post a like if ur not down for a digital courtesy smooch. goodnight everyone lol
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i know that in media you're constrained with things like budget, time slots and stuff, but sometimes i'm just like. my god. the insane shortcuts people take to write "smart / intelligent" characters, especially in plot-heavy stories, always pisses me off. they write them like they're sherlock holmes (bbc version, derogatory) but they fail to realise that even sherlock holmes (arthur conan doyle) was written with a lot of thought, suffered his own subconscious prejudices and had to learn from mistakes.
i guess what i'm trying to get at is—"smart" people don't magically get good at things overnight, the only difference between them and others is how much they're willing to go through to hone their mental acuity. which means when they try something new, they're going to make obvious mistakes, not understand how things work beyond the surface level, and make mistakes in judgements (like when you don't understand something well enough, your analogies and metaphors aren't 100% accurate or concise).
but it feels like there's a assumption hanging over our heads that, as readers, we don't WANT to see the smart one go through the entire nitty gritty of the learning process. we just want to see them do cool things, piece the puzzle together with a flourish, and clap our hands at the end. and in some parts, yes! that is what i want to see! but i am also interested in how they pieced it together. the joy of mysteries is, to me, that everyone is exposed to the same pieces of information, and we're given the chance to try to piece it ourselves. but then the smart character comes along and interprets those pieces of information in a not-obvious way to us, and it's cool!! years of living with a mind that is primed to turn things over in their head, to make sense of things, reveals to us how differently we experience the same reality, and it's wonderful. i'm able to learn from someone who sees life differently than me, and interpret information differently than me!
but right now i'm often left out feeling flat and confused in the mystery-type plots i've seen. the smart person will have been exposed to information we didn't even get the chance to see and interpret, and then they piece things together and everyone in the story claps their hands at the artificial pedestal that's been propped up under that character's feet. explanations of in-setting magic that can be retconned in and out at any point in time, so there's no logical consistency for us to nitpick or understand, so there's no basis to stand on that the story should be taken seriously. plot twists that make no sense as a gotcha. so many things!!
like. this particular example just my beef with g*nshin, so ignore it if you don't agree or smth. but the use of red herrings in the stories piss me off. the red herrings are either too obvious or nonexistent. they always use some random guy acting suspiciously and have the other characters react to it, as if we can't understand it on our own? but like. these red herrings, in the real world, aren't even red herrings. sometimes people just "act suspiciously" just by virtue of being human, not because they're complicit in some bigger overarching plot. sometimes people just stutter because of their anxious disposition, not to hide a guilty conscience. sometimes people are just defensive and irritable because they're a defensive and irritable person, it doesn't mean they're the ""bad guy"" who you need to crack down on and interrogate even further, especially if there's literally nothing that indicates this character is guilty other than their outward appearances.
but like. the smart characters/protagonist almost never get proven wrong. the stutterer was guilty all along and they're just a bad liar. the defensive guy is selfish and obnoxious, they're defensive because they're hiding something, not because it's a natural reaction on having one's sense of privacy and personal space violated.
the game sure loves trying to do nuance with "not everyone is 100% good or bad, we're all Flawed" but they can't put their money where their mouth is. everyone who is not guilty acts in completely transparent and "good" ways. everyone who is guilty acts in completely opaque and "suspicious" / "bad" ways. end of story. how the hell am i supposed to think anyone in this game is smart when they don't even have to use their brain to sift through, critique, weigh and interpret information? what use is there to do so? just use your eyes and ears. the stutterer is nervous for hiding a secret. the anxious is guilty. the angry is scornful.
there's also another rant here about how g*nshin fucking sucks at writing unique and flawed characters, because they like to make everyone the Specialest Guy In The World, but that's for another day.
#yuu rambles#☠️☠️☠️☠️#they got better at writing plots with f*ntaine i have to admit. but im going to expect better from the company that makes millions#every month from character banners. if you're going to be a gacha game that exploits people who are prone to addictive habits#you better have a good fkn story to back up for being a blight on society's moral problems. we have enough of those already#also when i mean they got better with f*ntaine i literally meant i was impressed by the bare minimum#as in they finally followed coherent story beats and had decent pacing#ive also had enough of the bullshit magic explanations using ley lines and shit. its so stupid that they even make their in game characters#explain how ''no one really understand how it works but it doesnt matter here's what happened as a result''#what a waste of talent and money paying the VAs for that kinda bullshit infodump#ok i think thats enough tags for the algorithm to hide my#genshin impact#tag bc i dont want this to show up randomly to ppl who are just vibing and enjoying the game#im critical for my own reasons but i dont want to be a party pooper. you know what i mean?#anyways yeah see ya#also censored a lotta stuff so it doesnt show up in the post tags LMAO
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when i back in uni
me think
i do uni updates again
#i used to do them#and was basically like day 1 i made friend she uggo and she basically torture her dog#(it was a tiny dog and she would send it to a trainer and not see it for weeks and she also missgender me a LOT)#day 2 everyone was uggo and big meanies and missgender me#day 5 sm gurl call me Konstantina (not my deadname ir clos to it and a girls name)#day 6 that same girl called me amy and a girl name (not close ti Damien and a girls name)#day 6 again i correct that girl and said is Damien and am a boy in front of ppl#day 10 that girl from b4 called me 'that uhh little boy over there ' we were the same age maybe i was a yr older than her#day 15 i wore 2 binders qnd went to the bathroom coz i couldn't breath#day idk anymore sm teacher called me girl thrn apologized and called me a young man (only positive)#day 24 that girl w the dog spoke abt canibalism w me (also pos but i regret it coz normies shouldn't know abt it)#day 56 the girl w the dog said she had a girl in her school w similar vibe as me (i was still a he) she kept missgender me#day 32 sm other girl v cool asked for my pronouns (she probably the only out if them i could have been friends)#day idk i quit uni to sad i go to therapy depressed want kill self (then i started t and changed legally my name etc#also my mom when i 1st go to uni didn't take all gender stuff seriously#like i was w my mom at the secretary and i told the secretary if could write my name Damien and my pronouns next to my name#at the papers the teachers see#and my mom and secretary was laughing and say 'hohoho but u wint be speak to me all the time'#im not ask to speaking to u am ask to write at the teachers paper#so I don't try to kill my self in the unis bathroom#and so i don't have to start every sentence with ' am actually a boy and my name is Damien '#I FKN HATE EVERYONE THERE AND I HOPE TJEY DIE#the main teacher of graphic design change so they maybe better now i hope#the reason i choce tjat uni was coz when i go there#was btwn 2#the other didn't even show me around and thought i would enrol#the one i went i hadn't said anything abt my gender yet#but the teacher was 'misgender me ' he was say he and then correct it and say she#i didn't correct him at the time coz wasn't sure i would go there but v cool#that's allmost a full vent in the tags
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Like rlly, I took a nap earlier around 8AM (been up for a little bit before then) and now I'm just even more mentally exhausted by this man's b.s.
Ladies, come forth. There's more than one of you. There usually is.
#BeSafe
#be safe#be safe out there#nickn0t#ugh#my bones hurt#bc i'm super empathetic#good gods#i kinda wanna go back to sleep#teacher crush#teacher student#student teacher#predatory behavior#predators#predator#he gives the .01 of older men who aren't like him a bad rep#maybe i should shower...i was thinking of that earlier#sitting in there and just watching W so i can fkn write later#cads#no i will not release anything abt said girl#she going thru enough rn and since she is legally an adult it's not up to me
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I am so tired I think I could genuinely sleep but like fjdkfnjefn I do not want to. I want to stay up and read and do stuff
#i was feelin pretty rough yesterday n the night before#and like. i realize.i was probably really fkn dehydrated because i was so focused on Things I Had To Do that i kept forgetting to drink#so i Had A Bad Time. and im still super easily exhausted#im def more hydrated tho. i am remembering to drink more than just coffee#hyah rambles#i deadass started to fall asleep writing these tags i need a freaken nap#im just torn on if i try for a 20 or 30 min nap and then go to sleep at 11/12 like normal#or.if i just commit to sleep nkw and hope.im not up at 2 am hyped and ready to fkn party
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my upstairs neighbor is actually fucking insane and idk how im supposed to keep living like this 🙃
#it sounds like he's moving stuff and renovating constantly every day#like .... this is not normal and NO ONE would be able to be ok with living like this when it's been over a year of this#it's like that chinese torture method#when you're locked in a room and they let a bucket drip constantly non stop every day#the same noise all the time you cant escape will affect your psyche very negatively#like i cant escape because inside my own home i have to listen to some fucking crazy person#move stuff around all the time#and like i know he does illegal work and has a workshop up there but no one cares#like even if i'd contact the landlord office they wont care or do anything#so im just forced to live beneath some pos who makes noise... all day... everyday. it drives me crazy#like maybe some of y'all think im whiny or stupid or exaggarating but THIS IS NOT NORMALLLLLLLLL#you're not supposed to hear your neighbor have a workshop from home everyday all day#those noises drive me insane i cant live like thissssss i hate it#i dont like being a snitch or whatever but i've started to consider reporting him for the illegal work he does#but im not gonna bc they wont do anything#ppl are allowed to do whatever they want 💗#but if they drive you insane and you snap suddenly YOURE the bad guy and will end up in prison#everyone are insane i hate everyone im going crazy i fkn hate him so much#sometimes i consider just doing the deed and k wording him#then at least i will never be homeless bc i can live in prison. and i'll always have food lol#and i can exercise and write and read... learn languages. yeah sounds cool
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Okay so this Somewhere in the Orange fkn Zach Bryan song is so steddie angst coded and i need to make a post about it. Like the fkn
To you, I'm just a man
To me, you're all I am
Where the hell am i supposed to go?
Like sorry but its about Eddie leaving Hawkins and Steve being like i guess IM JUST A MAN THAT WAS HOT FOR A TIME thinking Eddie leaving bc he was always meant for better things and steve is just a smalltown loser who works retail jobs like a teenager (steves pov) and the thing is Steve is like Eddie is the love of my life and im a fkn better person when im with him hes the best part of me tbh so who the fuck am i without him? Nothing. Bc we all know steve is martyr.
And Eddie is like? I can not fkn stay in Hawkins? Ppl hate me Steve. And who said I didnt want you to come with Steve? I guess im no one to you damn. Bc both are stupid and Eddie is way too nervous to ask Steve to come with like seriously sure hes gonna get rejected and he tells himself he gets it because of the kids and Steve doesn't want to believe Eddie actually means it when he mentions it casually one night.
And the song.. just !!! Listen to it because literally Steve
But I miss you in the mornings
Something in the orange tells me we're not done
Which yes!!! They are not fkn done
and then later its
I poisoned myself again
Something in the orange tells me
youre never coming home.
Like EXCUSE ME. Poisoned myself.. steve self sabotaging like need I go on fr fr this shit fits perfectly.
#also writing this im like this is desperado by paradimeshifts which is so heartwrenching but i love it so fkn much guys#anyways lol i had too much time to myself during gmy 6 day road trip and i listened to this song a lot#very aware this is like so many fics but i needed to talk about this damn FKN SONG before i go crazy#steddie#steve x eddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#this is like make an edit to this song of these scenes were canon lol
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Seven Sentence Tag
Rules of the game: post the last seven lines of your WIP (or the one you're currently working on?!)
tagged by @in-flvx and @ambrxsiaa,,thank u <333
Here’s the thing. The damnedest, most frustrating thing about this whole situation.
Sirius made an extremely, intimidatingly attractive girl.
They’re in the Hospital Wing, Sirius is sitting on one of the beds with his arms crossed over his chest and an impatient look on his face and James can’t stop staring at him. Now, if he was able to think about it for more than a second (which he wasn’t, because this was his best friend) then this fact would’ve been quite obvious, really. Sirius was the kind of pretty that turned eyes, even before this mishap. More than one person had joked, a bit nastily, about how he could pass for a girl from the right angle, the kind where you’re looking down at him. It wasn’t until he’d seen those people strung up by their ankles in the Great Hall the next day that he really understood what they meant.
#these are from almost a month ago#so if u forgot the tag...dw its on me lol#ha james being bamboozled by sirius’ what’s new#look pretty sirius just…works so well#he’s so fkn powerful and resilient and arrogant and intimidating#his looks only!! add!! to it!!#it’s beautifully subversive#i’m fully committing to my bella hadid fc for him lmao#if not the exact looks then the vibe. that’s the one.#so really. that’s what i’m going for here#pen’s writing
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Random blackhands (with an steddyhands ending) came to me after my shower and I physically could not get myself to sleep until I wrote this so
Usually warning to give this one a skip if you're avoiding s2 spoilers rn bc it does pull from a big scene in s2 at one point. Otherwise please have at and hopefully enjoy!!! I'm going to try and actually sleep now lol
#text post#genuinely have no idea where this came from just sat down post shower and was like 'i have to write this or im gonna. fkn die or something'#and I think it turned out p well and is a fun lil thing (it's actually longer than my usual stuff lmao)#am I still too scared to ship tag for this? yup! But maybe folks will find it more via search on ao3 even if I'm not bold enough#to directly put it in the ship tags on here lol#I can hope at least#...I'm actually going to bed now I swear
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