#god i'm so tired while writing this

[hiyokoswriting]

hello mod hiyoko!! :D how are you? i hope you’re doing well!! could i maybe get mikan, junko, nagito and mahiru comforting a reader after they had a panic attack? i completely understand if not!! thank you if you do decide to do this request :D remember to drink some water and take care of yourself!

I'm doing very well, thank you!! And tysm for being my first request too! And ofc I can write this for you, I hope I did these characters justice :) - Mod Hiyoko

Mikan, Junko, Nagito and Mahiru Comforting Reader After A Panic Attack!

CWs: Panic attacks

Mikan:

- Mikan is rather prone to panic attacks herself. But although she understands how it feels - she can't quite imagine her beloved going through such a thing.

- If she were to walk in on you sobbing to yourself, she would apologise for intruding.

- "H-Hyaaa! I-I'm so sorry! I-I should know better than to e-enter without knocking, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry!"

- Though, this probably only serves to stress you out more. You put your hands over your ears and rock back and forth, as if you could block out the thoughts in your head.

- "B-Beloved?" Mikan whispered. "D-did I upset you?"

- Mikan being Mikan, immediately assumes she was the cause for your stress. And although she doesn't mean you any harm, her frantic apologies and questions of how she can make it up to you don't serve to calm you down.

- Eventually she'll join you where you're sat, and if you're comfortable with it, will cradle you in her arms.

- She is crying along with you at this point, but attempts to keep herself quiet for your sake. She whispers frequent "I'm sorry"s and "It's okay"s.

- "Shhh.. N-nothing can hurt you here, o-okay? It's just me. I-I'm so sorry, I should've came sooner.. I-I'll stay right here until you feel b-better..."

Junko:

- Junko is surprisingly empathetic.

- This doesn't mean she necessarily cares for comforting others, though; because she doesn't. Usually.

- She will typically show mock sympathy and move on. However there are certain people she makes special exceptions for, one of them being her S/O. Because although she loves despair for herself and others, seeing you in such a state of despair gives her a feeling she doesn't want.

- Junko would hold your cheeks in the palm of her hands, tilting her head and looking at you with a frown.

- "Poor you. Everything is so stressful, isn't it? The whole world seems so big and scary, sometimes you can't help but to panic. I know, I know..."

- She would talk to you for as long as she can, as nonchalantly as possible. She does come across as mocking and slightly condescending with the way she speaks to you, like how you would deal with an upset child, but she never outright disrespects you.

- "Sometimes it feels like you're all on your own, but I understand you. I'm right here, and I have the whole world at my fingertips." Junko smiled. A wide, ear-to-ear grin. "Tell me what you wanna change. Or even get rid of, I'll fuckin' destroy it! And you'll have front-row seats to watching it all burn."

Nagito:

- Seeing his dearest hope struggle in an internal battle with despair is hell for him. But of course, he knows you will win. He has faith in you.

- Nagito is tall and lanky, so if you wish it he could hold you until you calm down. He'd rest his chin on top of your head and rock back and forth with you in his lap.

- Although he doubts trash like him could provide much help, he does adore helping you overcome your own despair.

- "Maybe I can finally be useful to you, my hope... How I hate to see you struggle like this..."

- Nagito never shuts up, which this time can give you something else to focus on.

- Even if his ramblings are nonsense and make no sense to you, at least you can listen to him instead of your own thoughts. You can take your mind off of things.

- He will not leave you alone for the rest of the day.

- "Forgive me, but I need you to stay here with me so I can ensure there's no chance of those pesky thoughts returning. I can't let you lose to your own mind, and though I'm sure you could handle yourself... I'd just like to make sure."

- He just means he's worried about you. That's his own roundabout way of saying he doesn't want to leave you alone again.

- I hope you went to the bathroom prior to this.

Mahiru:

- Mahiru is another one who can't stand seeing you in such a state.

- She's quite experienced with comfort and positive reinforcement, and out of everyone on this list is probably the calmest about the situation. If she saw you in the midst of a panic attack, she would keep a level-head and follow very simple steps. She talks to you and asks you frequent questions.

- She would approach you slowly and crouch down to eye-level with you. She keeps a distance from you at first, afraid of accidentally making you panic even more.

- "Hey... Hey, it's okay. Can you look at me?"

- Lots of gentle instructions and praise. She'll guide you to take deep, slow breaths, and count up and down to 10 with her. And of course, whenever you listen to her, she makes sure you know how proud she is of you.

- "You're doing such a great job. Just keep up those deep breaths. Here, can I hug you?"

- If you say yes, she will pull you into a tight hug and begin to rub your back. If not, then she settles for holding your hand so she can still gently rub your skin as you bring yourself down.

- "There we go. All better? Next time don't just sit there, okay? If you feel panicky, come straight to me. It's not a burden, I promise."

[araneitela]

Me staring at test results: It makes so much sense for her, but if I don't specify or elaborate, then we end up with the fanon take. Ugh, how do I easily explain that if you look at the word 'sex' through a much more old-fashioned lens instead of the modern one, that you'll get a vastly different picture of it?

/takes angycat.png typing to my tags

[rheusia]

tw! blood, (gore?), weapons

"A man in a coat, with his face hidden behind a… mask? He slayed the vampires with one move, cutting their heads off with unnatural precision. As the man stopped in front of Mizrak curled up on the grass, the vampires’ bodies fell to the ground and vanished, turning into ash. The knight acted like not himself, crying in fear. He disappointed his god, he turned out to be a coward.

The unknown man stood without any movement, he had mixed feelings about saving the knight. No matter what, he still was Olrox’s love interest, the man could tell that the Aztec vampire got attached to Mizrak pretty fast. [...]

The knight looked up at the man who saved his life. His black hair seemed to look very similar to Olrox’s, except there were more braids, and these weird, bloody eyes, glowing just like the Aztec’s ones, staring at him, making shivers go down Mizrak’s spine. “A vampire?” He thought."

simply - how Kwahu met Mizrak (and Olrox by the way)

I am sorry for making Mizrak looking so submissive, it's just something about his outfit that didn't allow me to draw him like a normal man.......

[turtlecleric]

I think hearing the sound of Mikey's chucks slamming into a bad guy's jaw irl would fix me

[felixvanhuss]

The chronic illness really be chronic illnessing today

[edwardshundredyearoldspunk]

stumbled across a ballad of songbirds and snakes critique video and I couldn't even watch it because the person so did not get what the book was doing and saying and the comments were complaining about the unnecessary romance when it's super obvious it's not intended to be a romance. suzanne collins is, yet again, ahead of her time because I remember the hate mockingjay got when it came out for killing prim and having katniss vote for new hunger games when those plot points are crucial and are meant to act as a commentary

[urlocallesbiab]

sorry to everyone who's been missing me/waiting for something from me, i've been slipping in and out of depressive fog for a week or two (and in general have experienced significantly worse depression than normal for a couple years, but that’s another story)

i long to get back, too; a lot of things to read and ideas to write and people to talk to. love y'all, take care

[cosmos-dot-semicolon]

Your turn for a Ninjago question!

Which season's your favourite?

Hmm. I suck at picking favourites. It's made worse by the fact it's been a while since I've rewatched anything but season 1. So uh, I guess I'll answer this question backwards from worst to best. Have a very rambly, vaguely ordered list :)

I never watched much past S10 - the move to 11 minute episodes was really jarring and only seemed to work well for that one bit of lore for Wu and Garmadon in Crystallised. Which is great, but it's not the actual story, so :/

You've already seen my hatred for the Oni trilogy. Really all I wanted to add there is that I count it as one season, because it has the same plot structure as a regular season, but stretched out over a year for god knows why. I remember making remarks back in the day that it straight up felt like season 4 but longer and edgier, down to the bait-and-switch love interest and end-of-season war.

Hands Of Time I think is generally glossed over in the fandom, and understandably so. I remember they made jokes about iPhones and also captured Borg and there were snakes or whatever. It promised we were going to explore Kai and Nya's family dynamic and then. I'm sure they did something there? Wu's sacrifice was memorable, but absolutely nothing else was. It felt like the new writers were given a script for what Ninjago was known for, but never actually watched the show.

Season 6 I think had a good initial impact on me because of its sky pirate aesthetic but the longer it went on... Eugh. You Already Know

Season 3 I remember, but only for Zane's sacrifice and Garmadon's moments. There were really good character moments in there, but overall there wasn't much going on.

So that strikes it down to 1, 2, 4, and 5.

4. I think 2 comes last by default. I don't dislike it and find a fair bit of it fun, but they really did sap most of Lloyd's personality once he got aged up. There are filler episodes (which are fun, but still), and a second half of the season that drags on until the final fight that everybody was waiting for.

I think Garmadon had some really good moments in here, both funny and dramatic (and especially with Misako). But I think that's still eclipsed by season 1's setup of him. I've drawn fanart of it before but Misako could've been one of the funniest character premises the series had and it's a shame her character was never capitalised on.

3. Possession, as cool as some of the character moments are, is a season I think I liked as a kid mainly because of its ghost aesthetic. Which is amazing, for the record. The art directors were absolutely on point there, and the atmosphere of places like the caves, the washed-up town of Stix, and the sheer scale of the final battle are still burned into my brain.

Character-wise, it's quite nice in showing Kai's loyalty and caring towards Lloyd, and great in that it actually gave Nya a proper character arc. But a lot of the exploration of other characters feels more like... lip service? Cole is a fantastic leader and willing to sacrifice himself for the team, and now might have to deal with being a ghost. Zane sometimes has to deal with things beyond his control as a robot. Wu's carelessness as a mentor actually got one of his students killed back in the day.

What do we do with that? I don't know. I might be overlooking things but the fact these aren't truly followed up with always felt off to me. I want to say Morro himself is sort of representative of this, but I'd need another post and a rewatch to detail my thoughts on him properly.

1. I don't think I want to decide between them: season 4 and season 1.

Tournament of Elements had practically everything I wanted from Ninjago back in the day. It's got some really heartfelt dialogue about the team having broken up after season 3 (as short as that is), it's focused on the more interesting of the two Senseis, it's got espionage and revolution and this whole grand hotel to have ridiculous fights in.

It's not as laser-focused on adding to the ninja's characters as other seasons, but in lieu of that you get a lot of expansion on what we already had, and the best written plot in the entire show.

Like you know something is up with Chen from the very beginning, and so do the ninja, but you have to keep pushing on just to see what happened with Zane. I kept expecting the plot to follow a clear structure and get boring or drag out the mystery of what was going on, but they just kept switching it up whenever I thought things were going perfectly.

You thought the whole team would make through the tournament? Nope! But Cole did find Zane! Holy shit! You thought uniting the elemental masters would be easy? Nope, one of them's a fucking spy. She's literally the main villain's daughter! You thought this'd just be about Chen stealing everybody's elements? Nope, he wants to revive the long dead and conquer the world. Have fun fighting a war!

It's genuinely fascinating how much the plot evolves over the season's runtime, with everybody doing their own separate things. Not every twist works, but the writers clearly put some amount of thought into all of them, and it makes me love the season despite some of its, well, 'culturally insensitive' plot points, as Pythor might say.

Season 1's strengths lie with its characterisation instead of the story, but I still like it for largely the same reasons as season 4.

What really drew me back into Ninjago out of all the action shows back in the day was that instead of just being another 'dumb action show for boys,' it was about a bunch of friends growing and learning as they prepared to grow up. The ninja have to deal with things kids know intimately: absent parents, self esteem issues stemming from your social status, self-centeredness vs being a normal person, discovering your own heritage, feeling excluded, and coming out.

The side characters are also all fantastic. Pythor's delightfully smarmy as a villain. Garmadon's both the most dramatic theatre kid you've ever seen and the sweetest father to Lloyd. Even Lloyd had a lot to do back here! This is the only time I've seen a sad white(-coded) boy villain work out, because he's a child looking for friends. He's genre savvy due to him being Garmadon's son, and smart in suggesting that the ninja steal back the fangblades from Pythor, but he's also still like, 7.

And while the season doesn't have as strong a plot as season 4, I still think small things like the fangblades being stolen from both sides and having the ostensive 'villain' defeat the Great Devourer were fantastic ideas within the constraints of a very structured story.

[memento-morri-writes]

"Out of one box, into another."

I- uh... I wrote more about my DnD character. Sorry it's not WIP content, but poor Rook had the worst session ever tonight (technically yesterday, since it's almost 1 am), and I was Very Inspired.

TW for violence, abuse, vomit, panic attacks, drinking, and death (in a dream).

transcript under the cut.

Strong arms grabbed Rook and pulled him away from the wall where he was sandwiched. Rook whipped around, heart pounding, expecting to see a familiar hulking goliath man. He breathed a sigh of relief upon seeing that it was Warren who had pulled him free, not Olvar. Shaking, Rook backed away from Bullosa, Aki, and Maka, pressing himself deep into a corner. His breath came in shallow pants, and his heart was racing

***

Rook had never heard her voice sound so warm, so loving. In fact, the only time he had ever heard happiness in her voice had been a kind of sadistic joy when she toyed with him.

***

Suddenly the neat, simple house felt too small. The walls felt crowded, like they were pushing in on him. His lungs and limbs were screaming, and his heart felt like it was about to burst out of his chest.  Taking the bottle in one hand, he pushed out of the house, letting the door swing closed on its own behind him.

***

Warren was silent for a long moment, but eventually he spoke again. “Those scars, did she give those to you?” Rook nodded. “Sometimes it was her personally, sometimes she was content to just watch.” His stomach twisted as he remembered those sessions. Wolf lounging in a chair while Olvar beat or whipped Rook bloody.

***

He looked around at the three people surrounding him. He had never once in his life imagined having three people who cared about him so much. Who cared enough to follow him when he vanished, and check up on him. He felt comfortable, sitting here on the roof with them.

***

Rook was only semi-aware of what was happening as Canan and Warren hauled him down from the roof. He only became more aware when they got inside and Warren pushed him towards the door that had been closed ever since Rook had arrived.  “Nnnn-no,” Rook stuttered. “I d-don’t need to sleep in there. The couch is fine.” He tried to push himself away from Warren, but stumbled.  Warren grabbed him again, and propelled him towards the door. “You’re sleeping in a bed. At least for one night.” Sensing the hopelessness of his situation, Rook gave in and allowed himself to be led into Rowan’s room. He was vaguely aware of pink walls and numerous vibrant decorations scattered around the room. Warren led him to the bed, and Rook collapsed onto it, still mostly dressed.

***

Beyond the door, he could see CaptainWolf’s crew all gathered around the door, laughing. Aki and Maka stood at the front, one on either side of the captain. Their laughter was the loudest, and even above the din of the crew, and his own rising panic, he could hear them. “You were a fool. You should never have trusted us. Maybe if you hadn’t, you would be free.” But as the walls of the room crept in, Rook knew that wasn’t true.His last thought as the walls began to crush him, and as Olvar’s fingers squeezed the life from his body, was simple. It was always going to end like this.  Rook bolted awake, heart racing. A scream was building in his throat, but he quickly clamped his mouth closed, biting his tongue in the process. His stomach heaved and he leaned over, vomiting bile into the bucket beside the bed. As he lay back, panting, Rook heard Captain Wolf’s voice in his head. “Out of one box, into another.”

[gabriellovescandy]

Kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me

[atimeofbeing]

I’m re-watching Work Later, Drink Now and I forgot how much of an absolute trip the opener of this show is. I tend to think a lot about the later episodes because they’re so good, but the first couple really do their job well of hooking the audience with humour

[howtosingit]

People have been writing Carlos bottoming since 2020 and if you have a problem with it I think you need to do some self-reflection to examine why you’re being so fucking weird about a man -- fictional or not, because I’m sure this doesn’t just stop at Carlos -- enjoying getting pleasured and fucked by his partner who loves him.

[godsfavoritescientist]

you’ll always be my favorite ghost - Big God, by Florence + The Machine

[Image description: Lineless digital painting of Ford kneeling in front of the stone statue of Bill, hugging it and crying. He is in the woods, surrounded by birch trees, with beams yellow light streaming down from the treetops. The grass around Ford is shaded to be reminiscent of the shape of the portal.]

[encrucijada]

i think it really is time to accept i have creative burnout.

[noxtivagus]

i'm so tired /pos idk what it's called but yk those rock trails !?!

nyways have these low qual flowers bcs my phone camera is mostly broken 🥹

[covenofthearticulate]

you ever get just one of those weird moments where you realize if anyone saw you right now you would look so weird