#gor3.sys

[gor3sigil]

[CW Talk about integration, major changes in a system, grief]

We're going through a tough time rn. We've been from being a traumagenic, heavily fragmented system to a median one. From what we've gathered in therapy and in private, most of the alters who were individuals integrated and what remains are parts of myself at different ages/emotional state.

And now, it feels like I'm struck by grief, like I lost my friends. More than a decade of being together. It feels so weird. I know that it means we healed, but a part of me struggles to get it, and another part is like, "What if we didn't actually integrate but just lost communication ?" and not knowing is hard.

Has anyone lived that kind of big change in their system ? How do you process all this ? I'm aware that you don't know much about us, and it's really specific, but any type of insight helps. Even resources. If you can. Thanks.

[gor3sigil]

About Me

My name is Cyan. I'm a 27 years old enby transmasc from France.

My pronouns are strictly it/its.

I'm machinekin and voidpunk.

And other things you can see here

You can find my writing with the #gor3sigil.txt and my zines on:

My thought under #gor3sigil.thoughts for posts that I make without really working on it like it's literature

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And everything related to OSDD/DID/plurality under #gor3.sys

Note that we are a traumagenic system in a complex situation of integration, it's hard to talk about it for now.

I write poetry, excerpts of my transition, just whatever crosses my mind, in the hope it can help people feel less alone.

Feel free to send ask if you feel like it !

Other blogs:

@takemetoneverlandihateithere - mostly hobbies, aesthetics, more positive stuff and fandoms

@escapismcoric - blog where I post little reviews of the books I read