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canon-toaster · 4 months

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LoTM chapter 946 spoilers :) (the drawing is below)

So uh I arrived at the fun rainbows and ponies chapters,,, I definitely did not have a mental breakdance on my couch

I have a little rant about the whole ordeal of me reading these chapters in the tags so bonne appétit

Also I have really no idea if i should hide the art behind a scroller if i did tag the spoiler but yk what I could never be too careful, I've seen people still reading on here so better be more cautious than not

#lotm spoilers #lotm spoiler #lord of the mysteries #i am very passionate about this novel #I might cry too much while reading but bro #BRO #My hands wouldn't stop shaking my eyes became a waterfall #My friends now have pictures of me crying and each time captain dunn smith was involved #AND I HAVENT EVEN ADRESSED THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM BEING LEONARDS MONOLOGUE CRYING TO OLD MAN #LIKE ???#broke down at the train station I couldn't get home faster #AND AS AN AVID LEONARD AND KLEIN ENJOYER THAT EXCHANGE AT THE END #i did not expect that it would hit me so hard #I DID NOT EXPECT THEIR REUNION TO BE ACCOMPANIED BY DALY'S DEATH #i knew she would leave because i got spoiled by fanart on pinterest just like a bunch of other stuff BUT #and bro Daly dancing with Dunn...#THEY MAKE ME SO EMOTIONAL #the rant is now over I believe I haven't read the continuation yet because Klein is gonna start talking about the powers of the new sequenc #and not process his emotions and I am just ill #daly simone #dunn smith

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caernua · 5 months

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i won't lie i am loving deadfire but i miss caed nua like crazy

#the fact that i can't speak to the steward?? criminal she's such a sweetheart i miss her #'castle or no castle you are still my lady and i will aid you to the best of my ability' what if i cry then. what then #i'm literally switching between replaying the first game and playing deadfire dfjdfgkdfg bc i can't LET GO!!!!#my main girlie is a death godlike cipher...but i want a druid methinks.......i want to turn into a cat and cause damage #you know that post if i were a tigress i could just say 'but i tigress' and then eat people YEA. YEA!!!!#shoutout to keyleth i think that's where i got that particular brainworm from #but also i haven't yet played the white march and i want to so bad bc i heard it's SO GOOD #i don't know when my poe phase will stop bc i am in DEEP i think about it all the time!!! i wanna read the books too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so sorry but not sorry!!!! my brain is pillars of eternity shaped rn i am so serious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#.txt

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mechawolfie · 1 year

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i finally got to say i love you to simeon

#smudgy.txt #obey me #obey me spoilers #<- just in case!!#was sad at first bc i wasted. all my dp & 2000+ energy trying to get his card in the '21 bday (& didnt even get it </3)#but this story is so sweet i donteven care............#seeing him happy w his family..... & then happy w mc..........#'i haven't seen simeon smile this much in his life' OUGHHHH.. laying on the floor crying sobbing throwing up #i havent finished the key story yet i was breezing thru it earlier cuz i couldnt stop myself LMAO #but im giving it a break now #but anyway. my sweetheart. im going to pass away

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cuntwrap--supreme · 9 months

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Important life lesson I've learned recently: Never fall in love with an anarchist.

#leon bitches #I'm dying #yesterday i slept for three hours before the horror of what's happening kicked in and insomnia kept me from sleep #fucking went and ran like four miles just to drive the thoughts of him out of my brain #didn't work #but before that i had a complete mental breakdown like i haven't in so so long #like. unable to get off the floor. unable to stop hysterical crying. unable to stop shaking.#it was pretty bad #and it's no wonder i didn't sleep. how could i when the only thing I've hoped for for years - my only goal - is distancing himself from me?#and i know I'm making generalizations but anarchists all have shit going on in their heads dude #like. my take on anarchy (as an anarchist) is that everyone should be kind even when we don't beed to be #and we need to do shit to save the planet even if it's kinda extreme #radical kindness kinda route. but without some government entity forcing it. it's just how we should be.#but his type is very overthrow the government kill the politicians force the world to get better #and i agree with bits of that. mostly because it would be faster than waiting for people to wake up and choose kindness.#but he is legitimately about doing shit that can accelerate that change #one of the earliest conversations i had with him he was saying he voted for trump in the hopes he'd collapse the country #that way we can bring on the Mad Max Times which he said are step one for rebuilding a better world #and i think that might be when i fell in love with him #because here's this self-stated conservative hillbilly yet he's as much of a punk as i am #because - as much as i want change to happen without too much death - I've always said the mad max times will have to happen #and he used the exact term I've always used: Mad Max Times #and then we stood around and talked about the best ways to kill politicians and change the world #and he laughed at me for thinking humanity isn't too far gone to be nice #said even in the Star Trek universe there had to be violence before utopia #but i said expecting people to have any shred of decency left is the only way i can cope with the world #and he said that's kinda punk of me. and i maybe got kinda lightheaded thinking how perfect he was.#but he's also literally insane. incredibly unhinged man.#purposefully puts himself into conflict with others in the hopes of getting to kick the shit out of some arrogant dickhead #and i think that's just how anarchic people are. we're all a little fucked in the head. no shade.

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jankwritten · 1 year

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Actually, I don't think I'll be altering it, necessarily. I think that what I'm going to do is exactly what the show did - some Fuckshit that allows People to Come Back. Because Altea randomly reappears, and I think that Allura's energy should be allowed to come back too. The episode is titled The End Is the Beginning. I call bullshit that the lions just DISAPPEAR. I call bullshit that there is no more need for a defender of the universe. ALL realities were reestablished, and we had SOLID PROOF that all it took was one person, one event, for everything that happened to happen again. There would still be war. There would still be need for something like Voltron, even with the Atlas and the next generation of fighters. Even if it's not the current paladins - Voltron shouldn't just disappear. That ending is dumb, sorry.

That being said - holy shit. I genuinely loved that whole experience and I feel kind of bad for the people who let expectations and silly plot points blot out the whole show for them. Was it dumb at times? Yeah. Do I agree with the way that things went and how it ended? No! But that doesn't mean the show itself sucks or anything like that. This is the whole reason fandom spaces exist, or, part of the reason: so people can love the source material, and change what they don't, if need be. Like, that's the whole reason fanfiction exists IMO.

So, uh, anyway. If anybody has a pirated copy of VLD just lying around and uh....wants to just kick that my way in case it ever gets demolished off the internet.......i would love you forever and ever LMAO.

Wow. Just wow.

#vld #voltron legendary defender #was I crying the whole time I wrote this? yeah lmao #I just can't believe I made it through and that I *liked it*#after all these years!!!! 5 years of hearing to never watch past season 4 to just ditch the show and never watch it!!!!#and it was so fucking good!!!!!#i've literally NEVER been this inspired by something before. i've NEVER fallen this hard into a hyperfixation.#Not even percy jackson or OMGCP or Hockey itself grabbed me like this #I DON'T LIKE SCI FI!!!!!!!#and yet here I am #weeping like a kid over a show everybody told me i was going to hate lmao #it's so ironic to me that my favorite seasons were 5-8. it's SO ironic that my favorite parts were amongst the most hated #(i didn't even REALLY mind the Shiro/Curtis wedding at the end)#i don't know #i think i'm overwhelmed right now and tired and i haven't eaten in days lmao so maybe i'm just Being Weird About This #i feel like my life just got changed and it's silly and dumb but idk. things you love change you. shrug #woof. okay. currently stopping myself from restarting the entire show over which would definitely be a sign of madness #(i'm really considering it guys lmao)#it's even funnier because the fic that I want to read right now would be all about the politics and shit #like I want to read CONTINUATIONS of the show #GAH.#okay i've cried so much i feel sick so i'm gonna go Calm Down Now #thank you guys for sitting through all of my posts

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outlying-hyppocrate · 1 year

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imagine being like. human. i'm just a silly little creature. happy cryptid. occasionally a very sad cryptid who ponders its own existence and questions his sanity but. that's mostly during the winter months. we do not speak of the winter months. except for the fact that we are in them and. fuck never mind. i just need some tea and a bit of will wood to ensure my serotonin levels go back to normal and i can be. happy cryptid

#random thoughts #i also do this when i have deprived myself of food for a certain amount of time. don't worry. i am making spaghetti #there will be sauce. with an obscene amount of garlic. i apologize to potential vampire boyfriends #my stomach hurts though so. maybe i'll eat later #but FUCK. i don't want it to be cold #hng. microwaved pasta is just Not As Good. yknow what i mean. it tastes much better fresh #perhaps i will simply eat it cold. i will put parmesan on it. then it will not melt. melted parmesan makes me cry because #i'm a pathetic piss baby who can't stand the texture. or maybe it's the autism diagnosis i don't know #do not mind me. i am simply discussing whether or not i should eat my spaghetti #wait. why did i say making? i haven't even made it yet. lmao #yknow what? no spaghetti for today. i'll just suffer i guess #admitting to pain irl in any way is embarrassing as fuck for some reason? like i felt like i was going to die in french class #the lights were so bright and everyone was so so loud but i couldn't wear my sunglasses in class. hng. and then of course #it stressed me the fuck out. and then. stomachache. at that point i was ready to cry #then my friend saw me and asked if i was okay. i just said yes. she believed me. i think #still suffering. not fun. not fun at all #WHY THE FUCK AM I SO OFF TOPIC. credence you need to stop. please just post this already #actually wait. i will post this. and then just make the sauce. i will put it in the refrigerator and eat it the next day #it is similar to tomato soup. except. cold. and obviously thicker. i don't know why it tastes good. hng #on my way to make the sauce. goodbye everyone

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livingprophecy · 1 year

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gotta love that sportsball,,,,,,

#if you are easily triggered just don't pay attention to any NFL highlights tonight #please for your sake #because i'm currently crying and my hands haven't stopped shaking yet #it's a very bad injury #it's . jesus christ #injury tw /#hospitalization tw /#this is fucking insane #i can't imagine they're gonna keep playing #okay yeah temp suspension #i'm #not okay rn #&. 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 ) i begin to realize my only enemy is me.#football tag.#tbd /

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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NOOOO ffxv finished but. i still need to free 20 more gb to update n finish downloading completely T_T

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxv. ]#i was so happy thinking noct my beloved i can finally see you again #tbf i shld probably delete a lot of these videos n screenshots in ffxiv i take so so much of like msq or even just w any of my friends #i think i'll actually cry when i play xv again i'm not rlly sure but #it's.. really important to me. really really really special #😭 wnvr i see anything ffxv i still get emotional n rlly happy #we never even got the royal or wtvr edition so. apollo n i haven't played through the dlcs #YET. bcs we cld technically ask one of our friends since she has it n #god wait i'm still so drained i'm rlly sorry to my friends but #I LOVE FFXV'S OST SO MUCH UWAHH YOKO SHIMOMURA ILYSM #she rlly composed n all sm of vv dear osts to me esp in my childhood!!!! ffxv & kh3 v notable ones yesyes #I'M JUST SMILING LISTENING TO LIKE. BROS ON THE ROAD???!?!#THESE MEMORIES 🥹🫶🏼 oh my heart hdklfajklsfdjfklje #the last i properly played ffxv but be like. late 2020 or maybe i played sometime in 2021 but. in general it's really been a long time #yk i'm glad i finally stopped letting external factors like #being annoyed by fans or wtvr #in letting me enjoy smth like a game n <3 it feels so freeing #like fuck ff7 fanwars i'll forget abt them n love all my girls ://#those tifa fans annoy me a lot but i still love tifa fuck you! <3 #i'm not doing the best rn in a sense that. how do you talk to ppl i think the last i talked properly w any of my friends #was like 2 months back. november i was struggling a lot so isolation was at its peak n december's just been T_T #but now that i can rest i'm a bit better now but my mind is still hdfajdsflksdj but i'll be better i will #i love music #listening to hollow skies always makes me emotional i remember even in the game when i realized when playing through it again #that yeah. hollow. the. yk song. the same yk. YEAH. 😭😭 i still remember it really well #i really don't remember much during that time bcs of some.. old friends that. they. aghhh nah nah now's not the time to rmber that #but i don't remember much of that time at all so. remembering n returning to stuff like ff7r comforts me a lot #even w the pain from then at least i know for sure that i haven't lost this part of me yet #yk i remember posting on tumblr then when i defeated hell house & sephiroth hard mode n i got compliments from a moot n randos LMFAO

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altruistic-meme · 2 years

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ok ok ok so i’ve seen you on tumblr as a young royals blog BUT i didn’t realize till now that you’re the author of (why is there) joy in this poison which is actually one of my favorite aftg fics that i’ve read and i’ve read a great deal of aftg fics. kevin and neil’s dynamic in this story is EVERYTHING to me (much like it is in the series) and i absolutely adore how this story is going so far.

i could say more but i’ll leave it there for now hahaha

-miels 💜✨

replying to this 2 days later because i have literally been crying over it since i saw it hELLO THERE

thank you so much Miels!! ;;A;; i'm really really insanely glad you like (wit)jitp!!! it's been a lot of fun to write and there is so much more to go that im excited to get to eheh

top ways to make Abram cry every time: compliment character dynamics in their writing. no but really, i was actually sort of nervous when it came to Kevin and Nathaniel's relationship bc i wanted it to be natural and not too out of character of them while keeping in mind how different they are in this universe, and hearing that you like what it's become??? that is EVERYTHING to me!!!

you're incredibly sweet and i have been thinking about this ask for the last two days bc it's just. AAAA. im emotional. <3

#in case my lack of coherency didn't make my emotional state obvious enough sdkhfsdhfk #also in tears that i am apparently a recognizable yr blog????? w o w!#(wit)jitp is already the longest thing i've written and we haven't even gotten to the halfway point yet :')#out of the 3 page outline we are. almost through the first page sdkfhskdhf OH BOY #and on top of that my brain has decided it wants to write a scene from a different characters pov as a bonus story #so you also have that to look forward to!!#but anyway ive got this ask screenshotted so i can cry over it more and also so i don't just.#hoard it in my inbox and never respond #anywho i'll stop ranting now skdfsdfj #<3 #allthefakepeople #askers #(wit)jitp #shh ac

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astrxealis · 2 years

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hello i’m on tumblr again after school work for the week and the sims 4. ruining my sleep sched /hj

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#I HAVENT SLEPT AT 4 AM IN. SO LONG. and woke up at almost 3 pm HELLO i have not woken past 1 pm in the longest time #so hi i hope you all are doing well ^___^ so far i have checked on two mutuals but soon i will do so w more hehehe #the next week is just. 2/3 days of school and then BREAK so i will play nier automata later and i will cry even if nothing emotional is #going on bcs i LOVE nier >_____< <33 #but i'll do my (ez) math hw first!#i can ez but i don't really get the bonus questions that well (yet) mhm then again i haven't properly tried yet. so #anyways i'm proud that for math i finished all my homework asap even b4 teacher even discussed the lessons <3 #^^ all hw except for the 2 due on the day of the quiz hehe #OKAY i kinda ruined my sims 4 playthrough rn bcs my character somehow ACCIDENTALLY CHEATED TWICE? but yeah they're good now #i moved into a household w other guys but i underestimated how hard it wld be #and i thought i cld change how they look but apparently not aside from clothes hair colors etc yk ...#so now they're a blond family and there's a she/her transfem (i made her trans.) and there's kardashian and barbie and i forgot the other #OH RIGHT their name starts w D so lune made me name her Doja as a joke also bcs the last name is C. LMFAO #okay time to stop rambling but hi! small recap of my recent life for you stalkers ^^ /j

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blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk · 2 years

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... I wanna try a voice for Doll/Freckles, maybe gimme some lines you’d like to hear from them? <3

#mod post #I made a Venti audio today and made myself cry while recording #I need some fluff to stop the tears because I guarantee when I edit it I will cry AGAIN #my brain is like ''wanna record today'' but gives me no ideas aside from requests and I just idk hmmmm #wanna do something a bit shorter/characters that haven't yet been requested-

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anderson-residence · 2 years

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@wynterlanding

Lana’s eye still looked rough and mighty sore from Sarah’s latest act but the girl was healing well and had been home from the hospital for a few days now. She was getting used to living with Landon, to having a safe place to call home. Things were coming along. They were going to be okay.

Today Lana is grinning. She is dressed in a new blue shirt and her nails are paints red and blue. She’s is rocking it.

“Landon! Landon! Cole and Mayson are going to a fireworks show tonight and Mr. Hank invited me to come with them! Can I go? Pretty please?”

#ic #burnt toast & dad jokes: ic #lana muse #Little one you just need to be brave: Lana muse #wynterlanding #char. Landon #‣ { Lana & Landon } — ↳ Come stop your crying it will be alright just take my hand hold it tight #the little timeline I have going in my head but we haven't written ic really yet lana would be with landon rn yay #sarah is outta the way and lando is fostering lana so she can actually ask him these things and he is the one respoisble

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myname-isnia · 3 months

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It's that "spend hours sobbing my eyes out in bed for several reasons, including but not limited to the fact tomorrow is Monday, the fact my social battery has been completely drained and won't recover anytime soon, the fact my landlady is due to show up tomorrow evening and will likely piss me off again, the fact I've had the urge to write since Friday and ended up not writing even a single fucking word, the fact exam pressure keeps rising and I still don't know what to do with my life after I'm done with school, and the fact I'm both completely overwhelmed and so terribly lonely at the same time" kind of Sunday evenings

#I'm so fucking exhausted. both mentally and emotionally #I spent the night at my grandma's and then my friend came over and spent the night the following day #and I don't count it as a day off unless I don't go anywhere or see anyone #so you could say I didn't really have a weekend #idk how I'll go to school tomorrow. I think even one person talking to me would make me fucking explode #and yet. despite all that. I feel completely alone #because no one I know irl can provide me with the comfort I so desperately need #spending time with people is all a big distraction from my depressive thoughts #and the second everyone leaves.. I feel more alone than ever. so completely and utterly lonely #I try to fill the void with my imagination. lose myself in my oc verse. and it helps sometimes #but when I'm not feeling particularly inspired or can't some up with anything good... I just end up feeling worse than I did before #everything I do is to distract myself from my mind because the second I'm left alone with my thoughts..#they go to a very dark place very quickly #like now. when my wrists itch and I can't stop crying and know full well that I'll go to bed in a few hours wishing to never wake up #and I'm left with nothing but a gaping hole in my chest. aching for arms to fall into and a shoulder to cry on #despite knowing it's not something I'll ever have #so I grit my teeth and bear it and hold on. for whatever reason #I don't know why I haven't give up yet. it's all arbitrary reasons like 'my friends would be sad if I was gone'#even in matters like these all I end up worrying about is what other people would think. not my own feelings #well. nobody has anything to worry about concerning me anyway. I'm too much of a coward to do anything #if I wasn't I wouldn't have lived to see my 14th birthday #and yet 4 years later I'm still here. wishing for an instantaneous way out that didn't involve me raising a hand against myself #because I really don't know how long I'll be able to take all this for. I don't have much left in me #I'm holding on by a thread. one too close to snapping. I'm scared of how few reasons I can come up with to keep going #I don't see a future ahead of myself. no college or uni or job or relationship or anything that might be worth staying around for #any attempts to imagine what life would be like after graduation are just.. dark and bleak and empty #I haven't got a single clue what I'm going to end up doing. maybe that's why I see so little worth in trying to figure it out #nothing in this world will make me truly happy. I don't have a future #and if I don't have a future... I don't have any reasons to stick around any further #if only I wasn't so much of a coward

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joyalrelly · 4 months

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#decluttering #another decluttering entry? in this economy. so thing is ive been feeling extra tired and a little bit sad and unmotivated.#my mind is blank and idk . thats rhe thing iDK. i just realized ive been oike this for almost ten days #like wut. the other day i was thinking about death again and about the . wouldn't it be nice to rest. and its scary #its si scary to habe those thoughts again and more so after all the effort and work and medication. i dint want things to be like this #to go back and forth amd back and forth. i hate this being a cycle. is not as bad as it used to be. while i dont remember much id like to #think is not as bad. but i dont know. i guess since i haven't beem crying and physically anxious.then is not tje same #but it feels like it comes from thw same place and its scary. how do i deal with this. i am worried.#also i got diagnosed witj adhd not so long ago lol. thats so stupid. and yet #i want to cry. just a little bit. just out of frustration. i want to rest. i wamt to stop thinking.#i want to live. and i want to feel owner of my thoughts and brain and feelings and present.#some times i think about death again. akd its scary.

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strawberrypaw · 6 months

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ohhh i feel like i'm dying

#my saffron died the day before halloween #i know he was 18 and it was probably intestine cancer and i couldn't have done anything for him #but i am totally and wholly crushed and can't stop thinking about what else i could have done for him #the vet offered to do an x-ray to determine whether or not it was cancer or just intestinal inflammation #but we couldn't afford it after a full blood and urine work up that all came back normal and multiple vet visits #the anti inflammatory steroids would have been the treatment either way #bc no vet would ethically suggest chemo for an 18 year old cat. the x-rays were just uh..? proof that putting him down should be The Choice #he was doing so well on the steroids initially until he just... gave up. i tried force feeding him for a week #but it wasn't enough. and he got so weak he couldn't walk anymore...#i brought some of his ashes to my mom's grave so she can watch him #she picked him out as a kitten and named him after a barn cat she had as a child when i was 8 #i don't know if it made me feel any better or not #haven't talked to my dad in over a year and a half but uhm. he has apparently been looking for me and my brother #and he found us. slinking around our apartment complex parking lot #i thought that might happen moving back to my old complex but they are the cheapest place around without section 8 .........#he caught my brother leaving to get eggs from the store #my brother tried to run from him in his car but he caught up...#he doesn't know i'm dating a woman and i don't really want to tell him #he doesn't know about saffron yet either and he Will get weird about it #he hasn't seen or talked to me yet but he did cry in front of my brother when he caught him #i fucking hate it when he does that. the amount of times he shamed me at 11-13 years old for crying after my mother died #just to whine and cry and threaten suicide in front of ME #im sorry man but you don't get to hold endless contempt for my mother for killing herself to ''hurt you'' specifically #and then threaten your 13 year old child with suicide if they don't quit cutting themself..............#worst possible timing dad................. give me money and leave again pleease please please #mau

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atlas-affogato · 8 months

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This chapter is kicking my ass

#night shift by lucy dacus is making me cry right now #like #“am i a masochist resisting the urges to punch you in the teeth”#“what was the plan absolve your guilt and shake hands?”#“You don't deserve what you don't respectDon't deserve what you say you love and then neglect #“you got a nine to five so I'll take the night shift and I'll never see you again if i can help it”#like!!???#if you haven't listened to this song yet you need to #okay ill stop rambling #its just making me cry #rambles

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