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Ykw if JK R*wling wasn't a bITCH then Bill Weasley would be that Hot Aromantic™ who doesn't want to marry and doesn't want to have kids like bro would be living his best goddamn life in Egypt cracking open ancient tombs in the desert and cracking open ancient tomes in the library like LET THIS MAN BE THE HOT NERD ROCKSTAR HE WAS BORN TO BE
Like he thinks about the concept of Marriage-And-Kids all of one (1) time and immediately has to stop himself from hurling because EW he's had enough of being a parent fuck you very much (he's the eldest of seven, do we really need to spell this out?)
Fleur? Platonic Love Of His Life. She's his Hot Asexual™ best friend. Both of them are roommates and work partners they're both badass and gorgeous and they both know it and neither of them wants love/sex respectively. They're both out there travelling the world for their jobs and nerding out in the libraries over niche academic fields like don't tell me they're not history nerds.
Fleur, with her ethereal beauty, is sick of being stared at like a piece of meat. She's not just an object, she was smart and capable enough to be selected for the Triwizard Tournament and actually came out of it alive (jkr really nerfed her character to push Harry forward like wbk Harry is a BAMF no question about that obv but you didn't need to do fleur like that). She got hired by Gringotts, who famously only take on the best of the best. She's the Best Older Sister™ and loves Gabrielle to bits and can never say no to the baby of the family. She's soooo much more than just a pretty face.
She thinks of sex and wants to vomit (sex repulsed asexuals ftw!!!) like this girl absolutely fucking Does Not Want it. At all. Leave her the fuck alone.
AROMANTIC BILL WEASLEY AND ASEXUAL FLEUR DELACOUR FOR THE WIN
Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.
#harry potter headcanons#bill weasley#bill weasley headcanons#fleur delacour#fleur delacour headcanons#aromantic bill weasley#asexual fleur delacour#i am will to die AND kill on this hill do NOT start with me#this is canon now i refuse to accept the fact that Bill had children#that man is Traumatised™ by raising his siblings#he doesnt want to be a parent#free my man#and#free my girl#fleur has done nothing wrong EVER#shes gorgeous and smart and powerful and she deserves to live her fabulous sex free life like the QUEEN she is#she deserves to not have to move across borders just to become a housewife and mother#too many people have slept on this and y'all need to wake tf up#harry potter#sirius speaks#weasley siblings#the weasleys#weasley family
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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Siblings Behavior
It's shenanigans time guys
So have this DpxDc idea.
So, the Justice League and the Light (OR villains in general) have two newish members, they've both been around for about a year and they're from the same plane of existence (a place called the Infinite Realms according to those who dabble in the occult)
And the two seem to have some serious beef with each other.
Wisp and Wrath are basicly feral cats hissing and hekles raised when they spot the other and their fights normally ends in draws. They're evenly matched and sometimes the two even fight to the point they are out of steam and just fist fight.
Needless to say everyone believes they totally hate each other and might one day kill (or end?) One of them.
So everything gets turned upside down when suddenly both factions of heros and villains are suddenly summoned to the Infinite Realms.
In a throne room.
In front of the Infinite King (or most commonly known as the Ghost King)
A King who looks very, very much like Wisp and Wrath (like yeah the two do sometimes look alike, like when they grin with sharp teeth and their hair color, but one has blue skin and red eyes for crying out loud!)
He's staring at them, glowing green eyes that seemed to just... know.
"Welcome to the Infinite Realms. I am King Phantom." His voice echoing in the throne room and seemed to rattle them deeply, like a sudden chill in the early morning.
"I have summoned you all here for a single reason." He continued to say "Tell me..."
Here he paused, closed his eyes before leaning back on the chair then he smiled big and cheerfully asked.
"How are my kids doing in your world? Dan and Ellie aren't causing too much chaos in their wake are they? They tend to go a tiny bit overboard sometimes but what siblings don't when they rough house you know. Tell me everything."
#danny phantom#danny fenton#crossover#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#dani phantom#danielle fenton#dan fenton#dan phantom#Danny is Dan and Ellie's dad in this one#ghost king danny#prince Dan#princess dani#One is Wisp and the other is Wrath#one is with heroes while the other is with villains#and they fight each other when given the chance#everyone thinks they HATE each other#but theyre just being Realm Siblings#meaning they go rough in their playing#who is who is up to you and whose on what side#Danny's been King for a while btw#he also knows which side his kids are on#he doesnt care as long as they dont cause world ending stuff#to much paperwork for the Realms#Danny summoned the two factions for a parent teacher conference tbh#he wants to know how his kids are fairing in their world
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i'm a disgusting little centrist when it comes to the was shrue's family real or fake question because to me that matters much less than the way it illustrates the experience of paranoid stress psychosis. like i never want a definitive answer because it just doesn't really matter. do you understand me. like. either way, they experienced that loss and heartbreak. they were confronted with an unflattering portrait of themself as a destructive absence in other people's lives, sacrificing human connection for sociopolitical status. they were exploited and had their mind fucked with and were made vulnerable to manipulation. answering that question makes no difference to the fact that what they experienced was real and horrifying to them. they were vulnerable and someone noticed and took advantage. there is no absolution nor satisfaction to be found in certainty, only further pain and regret. the end outcome is the same.
#🐉#ambiguity forever is just so much more interesting to me! sorry!#like if shrue lived my ideal arc for them would be reckoning with the fact that either way they were both a victim#and dug their own grave. like if they did have a family they were an avoidant hypocrite unable to bear the cognitive dissonance#of destroying other peoples families and communities while trying (and failing) to nurture their own legacy.#and if they didnt then they know deep down that they would have been a terrible spouse and parent because they would have#been unable to fully open themself up to loving them because that would mean acknoweldging their bitter loneliness#and desparation for social stability and fear of never attaining it. which a family would only be a crutch for.#and an increasingly burdensome and insufficient one at that#either way they neglected their responsibility to the people they were supposed to protect#the family is a symbolic and more immediately devastating representation of that greater guilt#and before anyone says oh you just want to absolve val of any wrongdoing because shes your favourite#shes uh. very much not absolved of anything. whether or not she bears any personal responsibility in this instance#doesnt change the fact that shes complicit in the violence of the system that enables abuses like this to happen. as is shrue themself.#theres no circumventing that culpability. carson just took advantage of it for his own gain as he tends to do.#the silt verses#shrue
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i never know how to phrase it but something about the way beatles biographers and people in general view paul's reflexive placating persona and determination to smooth things over as manipulative or duplicitous and john's reflexive barbed persona and habit of lashing out as brave and subversive despite both being equally defensive mechanisms to shield themselves from the world that resulted in them saying things that weren't true says more about how we culturally view kindness or friendliness as inherently untrustworthy or flimsy and anger and carelessness as more believable as someone's true nature than it says about either of them in actuality
#the beatles#john lennon#paul mccartney#mclennon#idk if im explaining this well but it always gives me whiplash to read how 'beatles historians' elsewhere view them#bc it seems like for all that theyre able to make the simple connection between johns past and trauma to his behavior#as a protective mechanism to shield him from vulnerability#far fewer people make the equally reasonable connection between pauls past#with parents that never said i love you to each other or told their children about a serious illness#and an adult paul who doesnt examine his own feelings much less speak candidly about them#or stories like mike mccartney talking about being beaten by jim while paul yelled at him to just say that he 'didnt do it' so it would sto#and an adult paul who has clearly internalized the basic cause and effect of the things you say and the consequences that come from them#and how the truth is less relevant in those situations than the obvious path of least resistance that will spare you needless pain#idk i have a lot of thoughts and feelings on how people see paul mccartney#i want to shake some of these biographers and be like this mid-20s kid experiencing a level of scrutiny and pressure#the world had never seen before#was not puppeteering everything to meet his vision#he was trying to protect himself and his friends from the very real danger of public perception!!#my posts
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Thanks.
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#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop nature au#fop dev#fop dale#dev dimmadome#dale dimmadome#art#digital art#comic#The 'Thanks' after all of that makes me so insane Im not even sure I can fully articulate why#I mean. He got what he wanted. Honesty. Thats what you wanted right Dev?#what else do you say to that#He's spent his whole life being sure he knew the answer. That deep DEEP down dale did love him#Have you ever seen that post thats like“I was bawling my eyes out and somebody told me to shut up and I was so taken aback I stopped crying#I think he was so stunned that he just stopped crying.#or like when you get so upset that your feelings turn themselves off to protect you#is that a normal thing that happens to people Erm. anyway#Sorry lol as someone born to parents who.. should not have had me. Writing dale basically admitting as much is actually really cathartic#He shouldnt have had Dev. He doesnt love him. He cant. Dev cant do anything to change it. Its just a fact.#Hes not 1:1 with my parents they tried their best ig but like. their best was still pretty awful child neglect LOL
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Angel Dust Turns Human pt6
"Alastor & Angels background 3"





























Pg1 Pg2 Pg3 Pg4 Pg5
Originally this was part of pt5, but Tumblr doesn't allow more than 31 pics so☹️ Sorry it took awhile, I've been putting off positing this mainly cuz I've been busy w assignments and wanting to catch up w my hobbies💔 but I finally finished fall classes so YAYAYA🙂
Antoní is PLATONICALLY blushing bc he's flustered that someone would care enough to give him something in general🙂🫶!! He's thinking, 'Woah, a whole scarf! Omg, this is so sweet and kind!!' (NO ITS NOT IT'S THE BARE MINUMUM-). Also, sorry, Alastors shoulders kinda look less broad😓! Also, pg 15 (or 16?) Angel dust's cheeks look more pinchable than I remember lol🤭!
Anyways, we're finally kinda back to the present!😁 but uh-oh, Angel knows there'll be consequences eventually☹️ I feel like Alastor has only been saying Antoní, but I promise he'll have more dialogue in the next one😥!!! He just missed his little boy; he hasn't said that name in years!! Also, I should let it be known that Angel Dust's human form WILL be getting a haircut‼️ it may look aesthetically messy, but it's actually just clumped up hair!🤫
Again, sorry for the delay and hope you like pt6🙂🫶
Tag list: @diffidentphantom
#hazbin hotel#angel dust#alastor#fanart#hazbin art#no romance#charlie morningstar#comic art#fan comic#yandere parent#/platonic#yandere#found family#platonic yandere#fatherlylove#parental alastor#parental yandere#parental figure#possessive alastor#possesive love#protectiveness#I can finally draw moments where both alastor and angel dust interact in the present!!! HOORAH😁#Teehee its gonna look like Alastor wants to kill Angel dust soooo bad🤫😊♡!!#at least I hope it so🤨#Next parts will discuss the difference between human and demon(?) angel dust. Mainly about his KINDA meekness#Hc that angel dust (as a kid) loved window shopping but knew his ass would be beaten to death if he spoke of it aloud (he loves dresses)#a part of me wants to hc him as hispanic in this comic mainly bc I am too and who doesnt love self-projecting?🤫#but I also know some ppl tweek at these ethnicity changes🧎! He'd still be italian but his unknown bio dad would be latino cuz I am so🙂#I love feeling represented😒#I probably wont do it but just know he doesnt appear as a white man in my mind. Still blonde tho🤫
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micro comic with no real point or punchline i just have conversations i wanna draw out sometimes
#a doodley#1. throuple lives in a mobile home esque situation on the kaye farm... they can see#al's parents' house from there! they do laundry there weekly even#so of course it wld be much nicer to spend some time there#2. talon doesn't want to meet al's parents bc he doesnt wanna meet more people LMAO#but honestly truly i think he'd die if he had 2 more people caring about him. because al's parents are SO caring#he already has Issues with his ''boyfriends'' treating him in a way he perceives as Parent/Child#having actual parents tacked on would fry his brain in every direction#so he hides#they know about him they've seen him but they've never interacted with him one on one#its SO painful for them because they wanna get to know him soooo bad they want to spoil him#AND ALSO i dont think the racecar bed was actually given away#i added that bc i needed Something there at the end ykwim#i think the racecar bed is tucked to the side of al's childhood room. with a bunch of stuff on it#in furryverse i like to think nyalon naps there#al's old room is on the second floor but it has an entrace from the outside (outside stairs‚ like#a fire escape) so i think talon (furry or human) would go there sometimes#if he needed space away from al and smunker#its their compromise when talon REALLY freaks out#like please dont skip town. there's a huge chance he'll convince himself to never come back if he does#and being out in the woods is scary what if something Happens. use my old room instead youll be safe and alone
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i just know he’d be a really awkward but supportive dad (< delusional)
#they’re so <:( i need to see them interact#there’s not enough fic content w them 😔😔 i weep#monkey d dragon#op luffy#not necessarily an au but just a scenario where luffy lives w his dad for 5 years before going to dawn#absolutely nothing changes in canon but i just want them to spend some time together </3#also dragon wouldnt mind co parenting w shanks but shanks would def be a little jealous#because he’s just like that </3 goofy manchild#luffy doesnt even want dragon to marry he just wants to collect father figures#dragon: thumbs up in aroace#one piece#my art!!
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For some low-effort doodles, I'm dead curious about how the kids interact with their parents as they age. Just mundane stuff they do together. Does amayas or amara have a "favorite" dad? And like, if you wanna get wild with it, do either of them act Too Much Like Their Dad sometimes?
dropping some cute doodles before going into The Lore
#their relationship with their parents goes from. superficial to strong#older amyas is a bit self centered and while they want the best for their family a lot of times he doesnt do right by them#they follow their heart wherever it takes them and sometimes it brings jmart great Pain#martin is their preferred daddo but they do enjoy doing activities with the jon#hilariously enough they share more 'bad' traits with jon (self centered stubborn etc)#amara is. hm#how to say without spoiling much. she is so developed in my brain#amara is very close to jon because they share many struggles#while martin frets endlessly jon can comfort her in a way that resonates with her#she also. resents martin a bit. but understands he is doing his best. which frustrates her a lot#she shares lots of bad traits with martin but she sees them as advantages#they can have a perfectly fine conversation until one of them says the wrong thing and its go time#that being said martin taught her how to crochet and gave her a lifetime passion for fashion#the parents are flawed and the kids are uniquely flawed too#the blackwood simblings#jonmartin#amyas blackwood sims#amara blackwood sims#tma au#tessart
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Paying a Price.
I want more Dad!Tim stuff. (And once again a deaged Danny and Ellie idea)
So let's go do that.
So you know those DPxDC AUs where Tim makes a deal with either Clockwork or Danny to carry Ellie? Or Tim is a reborn Danny whose carrying Ellie instead (love these btw) in order to get Bruce out of the time stream.
Well what about instead of just Ellie, it's both her and Danny.
Danny and Ellie who were badly hurt by the GIW that they both had to revert into their cores. They are saved by their friends/family and are taken to Frostbite. There they are monitored and looked after only until they can finally the reform but they run into a problem. The two can't return to their home dimension due to the GIW activity and they cant stay to long in the Infinite Realms cause they are still halfas. Then one day CW appears to speak with Frostbite over something important about the two.
Meanwhile in the DCverse.
Tim might have figured a way to save Bruce from the timestream. A being known as Clockwork might be able to help him if he manages to summon the powerful 'Ancient'.
However he knows summoning and requesting it's help he will have to pay a price.
If it means getting Bruce back he'll do it...
#danny phantom#dp x dc#blue rambles#danny fenton#crossover#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#de aged danny#de aged ellie#Btw Tim doesnt have to 'carry' them with his body#leaving that up to whoever wants to write it#he could just be taking care of their cores until they reform into babies/toddlers#again leaving it open#I'm not picky#Tim keeps this whole thing a secret btw#Mostly cause he doesn't want Ra's to target them if he finds out during his 'I'm going to take everything Bruce holds dear as revenge'#Once he takes care of Ra's plan. Takes over as CEO for WE. And gets Bruce back...#Tim suddenly goes silent and disappears from everyone radar for a few months#Then he just shows up to a broad meeting with not one but two identical babies#one on the front and other in the back#and just carries onto the meeting like its no big deal#Tim refuses to answers any questions about them#Tim somehow is a GREAT dad#given his history with parental figures even he's surprised#Danny and Ellie are just there. No thoughts head empty but just comfy with their new dad.#The rest of the Batfam have to deal with their feelings and finding things out. Mainly how they treated Tim and stuff.#If they EVER wanna be in the same room as their niece and nephew
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The Marquez family dynamics is like crack to my brain i think about it way to much. Like you've got marc and Alex the most codependent siblings to ever live who shared a bedroom until they moved out of their family home in their 20s just to move in with eachother. From some stuff I've seen Julia and Roser divorced (I have no clue when) they are always following marc and Alex's careers and are very involved and Marc and Alex both speak really highly of them but sometimes I look at how marc and Alex are and some stuff in old articles and go there childhood was definitely not all sunshine and rainbows and happiness and Marc's talked in the past about how he was raised by his grandfather cause his parents always worked but them the economic crisis in Spain made a teenage marc the main money bringer in the family with is crazy. Like Marc and Alex are closer than a lot of twins even are and Marc is like a father figure/brother role and Alex is one of the only people in the world that probably knows Marc's inner thoughts. Like I'm constantly thinking about his post for marc when he left Honda and the stuff he must have seen marc go through in those injury years. And the stories about Marc's injury in 2011 where marc was apparently the most calm one and was the one calming his parents down is crazy to me like 18 years old possible career ending injury and he's the one with the most level head. This got so much longer than I expected.
no i agree its one of those things where even if your parents arent absent or abusive per seee, it also doesnt mean that they are like perfect parents who leave you baggage free. and i think marc and alex CERTAINLYYYY have parental baggage lol
#marc carrying the finances of the family at 15. alex being de prioritized as a result. idk a lot of it is impliedddd#versus vale who has said MY PARENTS SUCKED multiple times in print#but theres a lot of stuff there lol#motogp#callie speaks#idk i think marc's psychology has been more analyzed in a vaccum/something innate rather than as something shaped by his life#ie his injury response like that story of scraping himself up crashing and trying very hard not to cry#'bc thats not what motogp riders do.' (sidenote vale would wanna vomit hearing thattt)#when his situation growing up informed it incredibly lol. when your parents skip dinner to buy you racing boots losing is not an option.#but he isnt gonna drag that out in ALL IN bc hes still clearly very close w his parents and doesnt want them to feel bad (another. topic)#but i think it had an impact !!!!#idk everyone pins vale's actions on his parents well marc's ALSO fucked him up lol. same w luca and same w alex. lets get into it#asks
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aftg au where bee adopted andrew and later aaron when they were teens. she owns an apple orchard that the twins and occasionally a few of the foxes help run but it's almost harvest season and she needs help prepping everything for the town's fall festivals so she decided to put up a help wanted ad. neil, tired, alone, and running out of options, decides to apply. bee let's him use the renovated barn loft as residence when she learns he's homeless. andrew is wary, his family means everything to him and neil is a flightly little thing that could only bring bad news, but something about neil is familiar. maybe it's how he checks all his exits or how he flinches when people touch him or how he cradles the key bee gave him in his palm like it was a treasure instead of a piece of metal. he asks neil for truths and it's like bleeding a rock but he finds neil is more willing when truth is reciprocated. they spend their days walking down the lines of apple trees, harvesting and talking, and andrew is only a little mesmerized with the way neil's auburn curls blend with the red of the apples and his eyes match the sky like something deliberate, like he was meant to be here. andrew thinks that maybe he doesn't hate how neil looks at him like he's worth something. andrew thinks that maybe he doesn't want to lose this. he's still learning how to accept that not everything is transactional, he doesn't need to make deals to keep people close, hes still figuring out how to want things without the fear of them being snatched away. his mind screams at him to turn away and push any feeling aside but then neil is handing him an apple and smiling and telling him stories he says he's never told anyone else and andrew doesn't think he deserves this but he wants it
#no exy no mafia just the run of the mill serial killer dad and a mother with questionable parenting skills#wymack runs a youth sports center where matt teaches boxing and dan helps coach the kids soccer team#kevin manages an athletics store and helps his dad with running the center in his free time#neil likes visiting the center bc wymack lets him use the gyms treadmill whenever he wants#renee works at a flower shop and hosts biweekly community arts and crafts night#allison owns a vintage clothing market but sometimes fills in as a barista at abbys cafe next door#(she flirts with customers for better tips and has no problem giving people she doesnt like some awful concoction of a drink)#katelyn is the mayors daughter and is assisting with organizing the fall festival this year#this uh got away from me a bit#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#andreil#neil josten#andrew minyard
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The thing is, Steve has learned, that becoming untouchable isn't all he wants it to be.
People were too quick to try and reach out for him, ask for more than he was willing to give. He hadn't wanted to give up his first kiss to some random girl at some random boy's twelfth birthday party because of spin the bottle. He hadn't wanted to play Seven Minutes in Heaven with Jenny Jackson or Linda Simons at Tommy's birthday party the following year. He did want to take Mary Linscott to Snow Ball, but she just wanted to make out behind the bleachers instead of dance with him. He didn't want to do that but then Brian called him stupid for not wanting to, and asked if he was queer. So, Steve had turned right back around and dragged Mary back under the bleachers, kissing her until it was time to go to prove Brian wrong.
(Even though Steve knows Brian isn't wrong. That Steve had wanted to ask Brian to the dance as much as he'd wanted to ask Mary but knew better than to do that. He saw how they treated Eddie Munson last year for the suspicion of liking other boys and Steve wasn't going to let that happen to himself.)
Brian had congratulated him after and asked what base he got to. Steve didn't want to get to any bases, but he couldn't say that, so he just punched Brian in the arm and said 'more bases than you' which was true because Brian's date didn't kiss him even once.
Then Carol Perkins approached him at lunch, shortly after Snow Ball, and asked if Steve would be her first kiss. Not because she wanted to kiss Steve, but because she wanted to kiss Tommy H, but didn't want to be bad at kissing. Steve agreed because he liked Carol. Not in the way she liked Tommy, but mostly because she'd asked.
No one had done that yet.
She came over to his house on a Saturday because she didn't want Tommy to catch them and think she didn't like him. They made out in his room because, despite his parents being home, they didn't really care who was in his room with him or if the door was open or shut. Probably didn't even notice he had someone over. She leaves an hour later.
By Tuesday Tommy and Carol are an item and by Friday they were Steve's best friends.
However, for reasons Steve doesn't understand, more girls keep asking him to be their first kiss. And maybe it's because he's already got a reputation, or maybe Carol let slip he'd said yes when she asked, but Steve finds himself kissing a lot of girls he doesn't want to. He doesn't know how to say no. Can't find a reason too. Brian's words play in the back of his mind every time he thinks about saying no.
(Are you stupid? Are you queer? He doesn't want to be either of those things, and given his grade in biology and pre-algebra, he's really only got a hope of avoiding the queer label. His father would tolerate a stupid son. He doesn't think he'd survive if his father had a queer one.)
There are a few girls he's been crushing on that ask him and that was nice. One, Alice Baker, even becomes his girlfriend for a month. His first relationship.
Soon eighth grade gives way to being a freshman and Steve, who has always been handsome and cute, catches the eye of upperclassmen now.
And Steve's not sure how it happens, but he ends up moving past first base with another girl whose name he can't remember, or possibly never knew. He doesn't remember asking her for hers when she led him into one of the bedrooms at the house this party was at while he was way too tipsy.
And then it just grows. The reputation and what people expect from him, and he doesn't want it, but he's never said no before so can he start now? Doesn't he need a reason to say no? If he doesn't have a reason, does that make him queer? He should be wanting this. What boy doesn't want this?
And maybe he does want it. But not like this.
He doesn't want to be slightly drunk at yet another party, following the first girl that grabs his wrist and pulls him after her into whatever secluded area they can find. He doesn't want to keep saying yes when he wants to say no.
The summer between freshman and sophomore year he confides in Carol. It's a risk. Carol can be cruel, quick with her words to tear you down, to spread the rumor that will ruin your life. But she's also fiercely loyal.
He tells her he's tired of kissing people he doesn't want to.
Carol is quiet for a long time, and Steve almost thinks he's made a mistake. But then she speaks.
"Okay. Let's make a plan."
And they do. Then suddenly Steve is untouchable. Carol teaches him how to see the weakness in people and call it out. How to wield his facial expressions as a weapon and a shield. How to put on the air of being the most important person everywhere you go so well that everyone else begins to believe it. How to fall back on the fact his parents are rich, gone often, and, almost most importantly, well known in the community. It gives Steve's name a weight to throw around.
More importantly, all of that culminates in people no longer asking things of him. Instead, they look to him to take the lead, they wait to be asked. It makes Steve feel in charge of his life for once.
But now.
Now, years later, having survived a spring break from Hell and averted the apocalypse, Steve watches Eddie hang off Argyle with ease, fling an arm over Jonathan's shoulder while laughing at a joke, easily pull Dustin into a headlock or wrestling match.
Easy touches that Steve should be able to do, too. A jealousy wells inside him almost as much as the unease he feels in his stomach at the mere thought of letting them know they're allowed to reach out and touch him, too. That Eddie's allowed to reach out and touch.
But then he remembers what happened when he let people have that power over him and he can't bring himself to do it.
It settles in Steve, then, the realization. When you become untouchable, you're unable to touch.
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@nburkhardt @i-less-than-three-you adding my own lil bit of angst into the mix now (:
#pre steddie#my fic#cw dubious consent#internalized homophobia#steve kisses a lot of people he doesnt want to because of peer pressure and his own fear of not fitting in#it is also implied steve has sex with people when he didnt really want to#steve harrington has bad parents#touch-starved steve#also if you know the song that last line is from i am smooching the top of your head softly
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I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with
#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#hazel wells#fop hazel#fop dev#dev dimmadome#art#digital art#doodles#I wish Hazels parents were more flawed tbh...#Like I get why they wanted to have them be good rep so that young people could know what a good family is supposed to look like#but it felt like every time there was an opportunity to have them do something genuinely flawed-#they would perfectly sidestep it before it even became a problem#I really enjoyed the first episode because it showed a hint of a very unique emotional issue Hazel had related to having a therapist mother#The idea that she has to be mature all the time#constantly living around therapy speak makes her feel like she isnt allowed room to breathe#Feeling unable to express her emotions without someone there giving advice that she isnt ready for yet#just small things!#She feels so pressured to be emotionally mature all the time BECAUSE she gets praised for it#maybe im projecting everyone always tell me I was so mature for my age...#But like I really really wanted to see that from her!!#And then after that episode it doesnt even come up again#The only other episode that features the moms job as a conflict is the one where she wants to spend more time with her#which is a fine conflict I guess but it still ends with her saying all the perfect things#I wanted Markus to be more of a genuine threat too. even if he didnt actually do anything having him be more looming would have been nice#I feel like they mostly forget hes a para scientist most of the time idk.#I just felt like his interactions could have been more unique#Maybe he will be in future seasons idk
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some doodles that took me way too much effort; an updated design for Raal (aka demise when he was a mortal, he still uses that name when in disguise and modeled those forms after how he imagined he would look if he ever grew up as one) and a clunky doodle of both his blade spirits just after forging them
#ganondoodles#art#zelda#tloz#loz#demise#ghirahim#wip#the bowl raal is holding isnt designed yet#but he carved it himself and uses it as the one to carry an offering to the gods in hopes of stopping them talking to him#it gets burned just like him when he goes there though since they wanted to lure him there- the gods dont care about offerings#idk if anyone would notice but .......... yes he named his blade spirits after his parents#rahim is trans#and raal is also afab#bc the gods only choose mortal women to be made into a deity#they dont care that raal doesnt identify that way#........yes his backstory basically starts with his birth ...........#no its not in the comic#my brain just does things#anyway i thought it would be cute to make ghirahims true form look more like demise#sicne hes literally a piece of demise
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